Date: Sun, 1 Jul 2012 08:31:47 -0700 (PDT) From: Boris Chen <borischen@rocketmail.com> Subject: How I Lost My Virginity, Part-13 This story is entirely fictional, none of the characters or events ever existed. The places are very real but none of it actually happened. Thank You. Comments to borischen at rocketmail dot com. Authors web page is borischen dot webs dot com. Thanks for supporting Nifty.org. Copyright June 2012. All Rights Reserved. How I Lost My Virginity - by Boris Chen. Chapter 13. Mid May 1994. By the middle of May I had lots more plans set. Like my testing appointment was set and I was mostly ready thanks to tutoring from Gram. She also helped motivate me as well. The more I get to know her the more she seems like a more laid back version of my mom, which makes the loss much more tolerable. I can honestly say I really love my grandmother much more than I did last Christmas for our road trip to their house. I look forward to coming home to spend time with her. This 75 year old lady is the bomb! She has even started trying to walk Crow from time to time. Crow is a kid magnet and Gram loves kids so she walks him near the elementary school a few blocks from our house which means she gets swarmed by kids all wanting to pet the `dog as big as a horse.' She does her Great Dane education and always keeps one hand on his neck, just in case because dogs behaviors don’t come with a guarantee. The other possible problem for Gram is if Crow suddenly decided to run at something. It happens so fast and strong that she is likely to get hurt. Luckily, Crow seems to understand that Gram is old and frail, he's always been very gentle with her. We got a short leash with a break away section so if he bolts, the leash would break before pulling her over. It's a risk I was willing to take. About one week ago they were at the school playground during the recess periods. She had introduced herself to the school staff, she is after all Dr. Leslie Davis PhD (retired). And is well known in certain circles around the state for her research and especially as being the mother of Lisa Davis, who is seems everyone knows or at least heard of. And she probably co-wrote most of the public school science books in Chemistry and Physics. While they were on the playground, Crow was doing his best behavior a raccoon came onto the field and starting approaching two kids who at first thought it was a friendly animal. Suddenly the animal started attacking one of the kids, they both started screaming. Teachers spun around and started to approach but didn't know what to do without anything like a broom or something to hit the raccoon. Crow saw what was going on and bolted from Gram breaking the leash, luckily for her anyway. He went straight for the animal. He circled around behind while the raccoon was biting the child's upper legs while the child stood frozen screaming and the other girl stood by also frozen in fear. The teachers on the play field were trying to scare off the raccoon while someone went for anything large they could use to beat the probably rabid animal. Crow stood behind the raccoon briefly staring at the child and the raccoon then lunged at the animal's neck slowly pulling it off the seven year old girl's leg into which it had repeatedly sunk its teeth. The raccoon loosened its grip and they said there was a short cracking sound and the raccoon instantly went limp drooping like a rag doll in Crow's mouth. Crow took a couple steps back with the limp raccoon still in his mouth then dropped the animal and laid down between the raccoon carcass and the girls while the school staff were finally able to approach. Both girls in the attack fainted. Crow never budged until a school custodian put the very dead raccoon into a trash bag. Gram with her bad knees finally got up to Crow and took his leash in her hands. They took his picture and made Crow the official school mascot. We were told that a petition was started by the mother of the second girl to re-name the school's junior varsity teams from the Orioles to the Danes. And once again my freaking dog was a hero. I tell you, it's always something with that dog. Never a dull moment. Not all but lots of Danes have big personalities to fit their extra large size. Most Danes would prefer to just stay home on the sofa and watch your TV. Gram slowly made it home but never told me the story until I got a call from the Amarillo Globe-News wanting to do a story about the hero dog. We declined the story but thanked them for their consideration. Gram was concerned about security when our names would be in the paper, especially after he killed the Mexican drug cartel dude across the street from our old house. Another week of not seeing Tom went by. We spent more time talking on the phone than we ever did before. Gram and I stayed focused on getting me passed finals which were next week all on one day like last semester but I was pumped confident and well prepared. That weekend Gram and I went to the local title office to close on the sale of our old house. On Monday I signed up for dial-up internet access, the first available in Amarillo from Am-Net for 56k baud service with my automatic dialing modem. I got a copy of Netscape Navigator and used the internet to access Compuserve. But it opened up a whole new world of online stuff to me. I tried to convince Tom to convince his mom to do the same thing. They had enough problems of their own to work on. Finals day arrived. I drove myself to the school district main office and did the seven hour torture thing with number two pencils, a calculator, and a dozen pieces of scratch paper. When it was over I felt good. I even got done about one hour early because of all the work I did with Gram over the previous three weeks to prepare for the tests. I went to school the next day like normal. I never told anyone I was testing except Daniel. We had lunch that day. We had gym right after lunch but I was intercepted in the hallway outside the locker room door by campus security to tell me that the dean of students who wanted to see me right away in his office. My heart sank because this is never good news. Daniel tagged along even after I asked him not to because he could get a zero for the day in gym. We sat in the waiting area outside the dean's office. I half expected to see my crying grandmother walk out of his office. What happened next was totally unexpected. I was called into the deans office. Lots of wood paneling, book shelves, a TV (muted) on CNN, and a police scanner (muted). He seemed happy asked me to have a seat, I asked if my best friend Daniel could come-in too, he said that would be fine. I walked back to the door and motioned for Daniel. He had the look of fear in his eyes too. We both walked over to his desk and took chairs across from this very large man, an ex-college football player and all around athletic guy. I'm sure he wasn't too impressed with either of us. He had a piece of greenbar paper in his hand reading it ignoring us. Finally after about fifteen seconds he laid it down, leaned forward and said... Dean: "I heard about your loss earlier this year and I wanted to tell you how sorry we all were to hear of the loss of your mother. But despite all that turmoil your grades have in fact improved since then and I understand you arranged to take your final exams weeks ahead of all the rest of the senior class. Is this true young man?" R: "Y-yes s-sir it is. Sir." I said stammering with sweaty palms and a lump in my throat. Daniel nodded but remained silent. I figured he was mostly lip reading anyway. Dean: "Well this is a print out of your grades for all your finals, which you figured would be a good idea to take all on the same day, is this correct son?" R: "Yes, sir but I had a good reason for trying Sir. You see I am..." And after that word he interrupted me when he raised his voice telling me... Dean: "Well son I wanted you to be the first to see this print out." He handed me the print out showing all my classes and the final grades for each with my name and date of birth on the top but still showing my mom as the emergency contact. It was all A's. I about wet myself. I handed it to Daniel who looked it at first as if it was in a foreign language, then he quickly flipped it back to me, I pushed it into my pocket. The dean stood behind his desk smiling at me, leaned down picking up his phone and called his secretary. Dean: "Mrs. Miles can you bring the letter in here now please?" He hung up the phone and smiled at me. Moments later the door opened, in walked a lady in a skirt handed him an envelope. He handed it to me and then said, "Son, you can go home now. You are a high school graduate with honors. You have broken the record for highest final exam grades at Amarillo High School, first ever to graduate with 100% correct in every test, and three weeks early too!" The dean stuck out his hand to shake mine but Daniel grabbed my elbow and pulled me from his office, into the hallway, into the nearest bathroom, into the furthest stall, locked the door, where he smashed his face into my chest, I pressed my face into the top/side of his head and we both cried like children and hugged each other with an energy I have never experienced before in my life since first grade with Daniel. We held each other crying in that gross toilet stall for maybe ten minutes and started to regain our composure. He took a step back from me still holding my arms, slid his hands up my chest to my face pulling me down five inches to lip lock with him where we tongue kissed for a while. I have no idea how long but I knew the part of my life in which we wrote the Book of Daniel was now writing it's last chapter. We both knew I was leaving and he was staying and it hurt bad. As we kissed we both felt the tears on our faces and tried to kiss and sniffle at the same time. We pulled apart staring into each others eyes and each others souls. This was a time for 100% honesty. D: "You're leaving, aren't you?" R: "Yes Daniel, I am, soon." I said failing miserably trying not to cry more. D: "Will I ever see you again?" he sobbed. R: "That depends totally on you. Anytime you want to visit, just email and I'll make sure you get to Galveston and back home safely, I promise." D: "Oh yeah, how you gonna do that Davis?" R: "Daniel, let me repeat that." I slid my hands up to the sides of his face making sure he could only see me, and see right into my eyes and nothing else. "I said, whenever you want to come to Galveston to visit, just email me and I will make it happen. I promise." D: "Oh yeah?" R: "I promise." D: "Yeah like how?" R: "I promise." D: "Really?" R: "Dan, will you please listen to me. I said I PROMISE!" I said yelling into his hearing aid." D: "Fucker. I'm not deaf you know." R: "Yes asshole, you are deaf!" we both just smiled into each others watery eyes. Dan stood staring at me with tears in his eyes. He looked as sad as I've ever seen him before. R: "I promise." Silence, but he stared into my eyes looking for any signs of hesitation or doubt, but there wasn't any. I was dead serious and he felt that. R: "I promise." I said again staring deep into his blue eyes. Now I was starting to cry a little. My lower chin and lip were quivering and tears were starting to drip from my eyes. R: "I promise." I barely got out the words. Daniel remained still staring up into my eyes. I stood staring down into his eyes. Then he leaned into me again laying his forehead into my chest and placed his hands on my hips and remained there for about two minutes. With tears in his eyes he told me, "I'm gonna miss you Robbie." Again we held each other for a while. I pulled him in tight to me. That was the first time he ever called me Robbie. After a short time Daniel stepped back one step and placed his hands on my shoulders, then slid them down my chest rubbing his fingers over my nipples which usually stuck out a little in my t-shirts. Then he made his way down to my jeans. He undid my zipper and button. I stood by and let him do whatever he wanted. He reached into my pants and grabbed my dick and held it until I got hard. Then he leaned over taking my head into his mouth, for the first time. I let him do it. He sucked me for maybe three minutes then put me away and returned my pants to normal. He never said a thing. I had my hands on his shoulders the whole time. He stood back up straight. D: "I think I better go, gym period is half done and I don't want to get another zero." We walked to the sink to wash our faces. We smiled but never spoke. We parted ways at the bathroom door. I went to my locker to see if there was anything I needed. I took my winter coat and one note book and left the rest. I opened my wallet and fished out all of the remaining money, I had about $49. I put $45 of it into the vent slot on Daniel's locker which was about five down from mine. I took one dollar bill and in pen I wrote, `I PROMISE" on it and stuffed it to into the vent slot on his locker. Then walked towards the main school entrance. Security Guard: "Uh, you need to sign out to leave campus early!" R: "No, I don't think so." I shouted back. I walked to the bus stop and sat on the bench thinking about the conversation I just had with Daniel. He probably felt like he was losing me for good. I hoped I convinced him that a trip to Galveston was only one email away, he didn't know about my inheritance. I got on the bus and two blocks from the apartment complex we passed Gram walking Crow on the sidewalk with a crowd of people by Crow petting him and talking to Gram about the huge black dog. Nobody but us knew he was now a two time decorated hero. To Crow he was just a good member of the pack and a good dog. To me he was about my best friend ever. I was so proud of him, but I had no way of telling him that. I wondered to myself, how could you tell a dog you were proud of him? I got home before Gram and Crow. It took her about another twenty minutes to get home. Crow ran in ahead of her tail wagging. I saw him smiling when he ran across the living room to greet me with the traditional tongue lick and head butt. Luckily I don't wear glasses or they'd be needing repairs right about now. Gram seemed really happy too. We discussed dinner. She asked me about school tomorrow and what was on my schedule. I said I didn't have to go to school any more. She seemed puzzled. I fished the print out from the dean's office from my pocket and handed it still crumpled and a little damp. Gram carefully unfolded the paper with her enlarged knuckles in her slightly shaky hands and stood staring at it for a while, then looked up into my eyes. Correction, way up into my eyes because I really towered over her and Gramps by now. She grabbed my mid section and hugged me tight. Then she held up her hand and said, "High Five!" so I obliged and gently high fived her. She held out her palm horizontal and said, "gimme skin" which I also gently did. Then she made a fist holding her hand with the fist aiming right at my stomach and said, "Fist Bump" which I did but she yanked her hand away and hollered "Too Slow Boy!" we laughed and hugged again. Then she took the paper over to the leather recliner my mom used to call home, took her reading glasses off the table put them on her eyes and more carefully examined the print out. She looked at me and said, "Robbie, take a seat." She pointed to the sofa. She sat on the recliner, pulled the lever back raising her legs halfway and stared at the paper some more. Her head shook side to side as if nodding `no' and said, "I'll be!" She took off her glasses and looked at me. Then she grabbed the cordless phone and called Gramps. I could hear it ring but I couldn't make out his voice. Gm: "Hi. Yes, it's here and it's early. Yes, he said he got it in school today and just handed it to me just a moment ago. Yes. Oh no. It's worse than that. No, I told you we worked on this for three weeks but he did all the work really I just helped a little and convinced him he could do it. Yes. All of them. That's right dear, every class. Yes, totally. No I think the school is only about ten years old I doubt it has before. Yes. Yes I will. Okay then. Love you too, Bye." She pulled the phone from the side of her head, stared at the buttons and pressed the one to make it hang-up. She set the phone down and spoke to me still sitting on the sofa with the great dane by my side. Gm: : Robbie your grandfather wants me to fax this to him." R: "Oh?" Gm: "Yes son this is an unusually good report card, in fact I doubt this has ever been done at your high school before. Did the dean of students tell you anything about it?" R: “Yes he said it was a record breaker." My grandmother sat staring at me for a moment. "Well I'll be God Damned!" she said loudly again. Gm: "Robbie, if you're capable of grades like this than there is no reason why you should go to community college in the fall, you should be going to the university." R: "But Gram, I never took the SAT." Gm: "You let me worry about that young man. Anyone who can bury their mother and pull off a 4.0 GPA in the same semester doesn't need to take any damn SAT exams in my book or your grandfather's book either." She said staring with an almost angry expression on her face. She grabbed her small personal phone book and picked up the cordless and dialed another number, paused for a moment, then said, "High it's Leslie Davis. Extension 2213 please. Yes, Hello? Well we got our grades today, it was a surprise to me too. Yes. Are you sitting down? Four point zero!" She shouted into the phone. They talked for maybe thirty more seconds then hung up. R: "Who did you call?" Gm: "That's a secret but you'll eventually see." R: "The dean told me I was done with school and didn't need to come back." Gm: "Yes, I imagine he did! Did he also tell you you broke all the school records?" R: "He said something like that but I was too distracted to pay attention to what he was saying." Gm: "Well a 4.0 GPA at graduation is not totally rare but to go from a 3.2 to a 4.0 in the same semester as the death of your mom, and to do it all in one day, and to do it three weeks early on material you never had in and class and have as much time off from study as you did is extremely rare son." She said with a huge smile! I felt all the attention and fuss was a bit overblown but went along with the praise just to get past it. Gram seemed so happy I thought she was gonna pass out or something from sheer happiness. The more I get to know her the tougher and more lively she seems to actually be compared to the wrinkled grey haired person on the outside. We talked about eating out. While we discussed where to eat I fed Crow and did the dishes, started the dishwasher and clothes dryer. We agreed on the Mexican place downtown at 7pm. I had two pop tarts while we had about three more hours to wait. She called to reserve a table. I went to my room and emailed Tom about my grades then Daniel. All I put in my email to him were the words, `I PROMISE' While we were waiting until 6:45 to leave for dinner I went through my room and gathered up all my high school related stuff and threw it all in the trash. All I saved was my calculator and my favorite pens. We went to dinner that night. Just Gram and me. We were so happy. She smiled more than I have ever seen her smile in one day before. I think in some way I might have redeemed myself as the only non-university educated person in the family. I can honestly say that my grandparents were very impressed. Two weeks later I got a letter from the dean of students at UT Galveston inviting me to come talk to him about their journalism school and the undergrad program. He mentioned a masters in english and journalism and photography more than once. It was not a form letter but an actual letter. Gram and I were wrapping up things at the apartment. Packing into boxes and figuring out what we did or didn't need over the next three weeks. Crow was freaked out by the disappearance of most of our stuff as the movers arrived four times to haul away stuff for their home on the coast. Tom and I spent lots of time together. I hung out at Star’s three days a week and left big tips. I got to know his mom more. Two days they were short staffed and asked me to work in the kitchen washing dishes and pots-pans. Which I did and refused pay. But they did pay me a little with food. Tom and his mom are personally and financially involved in their Star's franchise and their very faithful customer base. I hear they are more popular than the local Wendy's and BK and DQ stores. One day while I was sitting all by myself in the dining room at Stars I was listening to a bunch of cowboy looking dudes talking about dog fighting. I pinched my nose popping my ears and listened really close. I got a pen from my pocket and wrote stuff down from what I overheard them say. When it looked like they were getting ready to leave I also acted like I was leaving and walked to my car but glanced at their license plates and wrote them both down as they climbed into their extended cab Ford F250 trucks and rumbled off. Not knowing what else to do, I called Detective Zeller and read her my notes and asked if I could be there if they raided the dog fight, she said probably not but she'd let me know. Three days later a cop I never met before showed up at our apartment door. I opened it, he walked into a sea boxes. He said, "If you want to see it happen right now is the time." Gram had no idea what was going on so I said I'd be right back and I'll explain later. I grabbed Crow’s leash, hooked him up and climbed into the back of the police cruiser so we could take off quickly from the apartment complex parking lot. We drove across town, then to the interstate towards the east, out past the edge of town to near a large cattle operation. I never saw so many cop cars, except for my mom's funeral. There were lights everywhere, rifles and shotguns everywhere. Cops in body armor everywhere. Helicopters overhead, news and police and FBI. Crow and I watched as FBI and Texas Rangers lead about sixty guys in handcuffs into a prison bus. Then there were about ten dudes in shackles they put into two vans without windows, unmarked white vans. Crow stood by my side leaning into me with a line of hair standing up on his back staring his Great Dane Power Death Stare at the guys getting into the two vans. I could feel a very low pitched rumble of a growl come from his throat as we both watched them pile into the vans. Lucky for them I had a good grip on his leash. I honestly think if I had let him go Crow would have taken a life or two of those anti-social murdering bastards. I was mad as can be staring at them. An FBI guy walked up to me asking if I was Lisa's son, I said I was. He put his hand on my shoulder and walked me to his SUV. We climbed into the back seat, his partner climbed into the passenger side front seat. FB1: "Robert, my name is Agent Weaver, this is Agent Wilkinson.” R: "Hello Sirs.” FB1: "Robert, I know little has been explained to your or your grandparents about the on-going investigation into your mother's murder (I suddenly had pain in my stomach and chest). I want to get to the point right away. Look, it seems you are not as safe as we thought you would be here, and we know you just finished school this week and we need to re-locate you and your grandmother back to Galveston as soon as possible, tomorrow if possible. It's for your own safety." R: "Uh, okay?" FB2: "I know this is a lot to throw at you at this particular point in your life son, we're only thinking about your safety. There are some bad dudes in Texas right now and it's hard sometimes for us to keep a handle on who is in town and who isn't, so since you're moving soon anyway all we want to do is speed things up for you, is that okay son?" R: "Uh, I'm sure my grandma won't mind at all.” FB1: "Okay then some people will arrive at your place tomorrow to help you two finish packing and get you on the road tomorrow if that's okay?" R: "So I have no extra time to say goodbye to my friends?" FB1: "You can do that anytime by phone or email, but we're talking bad dudes and your safety so best thing right now is for you two to leave Amarillo as soon as possible, I don't want to scare you but it's not safe right now. You're coming here was probably not a good idea either but we're taking that up with the APD." R: "Okay, whatever then." FB2: "Fine." R: “How do I get home?" FB1: "We'll have someone take you there. And by the way, thanks for the tip to Sergeant Zeller, your information helped us close a two year investigation into animal abuse, drug dealing, illegal gambling, and dog fighting that covered a 100 mile range from Amarillo. Those bad guys we hauled off to the supermax have been wanted for years. Your tip closed files on twenty wanted fugitives.” I leaned back into my seat to ponder what they told me. Crow leaned his chin onto my leg. Agent Wilkinson got out of the car. We took off down the dusty dirt road for the interstate highway and headed back into town. I asked if we could stop at Tom's, the agent said that was fine. We stopped in Tom's driveway, both cars were there so I knew it was time. We both walked to the door, Maria freaked out thinking he was immigration or something. She's totally legal born in the USA citizen just like me but there's this community fear of the feds. Tom and I walked into his room and shut the door while Agent Weaver and Maria talked. Turns out he spoke fluent Spanish and they talked food the whole time and really hit it off. R: "Tom, I got news.” T: " I figured out something bad was up when you showed up with an FBI agent as your personal driver." R: "Tomas (I only called him by his name in their native Spanish when I had something really important to say), I have to leave tomorrow, stuff has happened I will explain later but for my safety and my grandmothers we need to leave for the coast tomorrow. I'm so sorry.” T: "Can I see you again?” R: "Fuck yes, anytime you want. So like our plan. As soon as you graduate, in two and a half weeks, then as soon as you are packed, just call or send me an email and we'll send for you and your stuff. It's totally up to you. Esta fine?" T: "No. No esta fine. My heart is breaking asshole." R: "Tomas, I'm only moving across the state and everything is ready for your arrival. Just call or email me when you're ready and I'll handle everything. Just get packed and call. Okay?" T: "What about my car then?" R: "Either leave it or drive it but your stuff I can have shipped no problem, just say the word. Either way I gotta go tomorrow. I'll explain everything soon, I promise." T: "I'm gonna miss you, Roberto." R: "I'm gonna miss usted y su madre too Tomas, yo te quiero." Silence. We stood holding each other in his bedroom in silence for a few moments. R: "Look I gotta run." T: "Fuck." R: “As soon as you're ready, call me and I'll send for your stuff, okay?" T: “Okay." R: "I gotta go. And start applying for UT Galveston tomorrow at school!" Tom stared into my eyes, his last reading of my soul and my real intent. I stared back unblinking. Then he leaned into me kissing me on the lips. T: "Asshole." R: “I'll explain everything when you get to the coast, you'll understand then but we're not safe here anymore. That's why Wilkinson is here too." T: "Wow, I guess it's really serious. I think mom is hitting on the FBI dude!" I hugged him and headed for the bedroom door. I walked to the living room and told the agent I was ready to go. He stood up shaking Maria's hand. We left with the two of them standing in their driveway waving bye. I wanted to cry but was glad at least Crow was right there with me. We never spoke but he dropped me off in the parking lot outside my apartment. I went inside to the sea of boxes. Gram was sitting on the sofa watching the news on TV about the huge FBI raid. She told me I should come watch, I told her I needed to walk the dog and pretended to be disinterested. I walked Crow and spent the rest of the night with Gram packing stuff and making lists of things in which box. We both went to bed early. I had a hard time sleeping but Crow didn't. I woke him up around midnight and asked him to come sleep with his head on the pillow next to mine, he moved without any fuss, I think he knew I was stressed and needed him. We hugged. I laid on my right side facing Crow. He laid on his left side facing me. His nose was maybe six inches from mine. I put my arm over his side and apologized for his loss of mom and the moving and all the weird stuff and changes. I thanked him for being an extra good dog and told him about six times that I loved him. He picked up his head and laid a small lick on my cheek and laid his head back down. I said ‘thanks.' I held his right paw as we stared into each others eyes for a few minutes, then I told him repeatedly that I loved him and he was a good dog. I started to tear-up. We laid still facing each other, he put on his smile face once we were done talking. I put my hand on the side of his head and rubbed him slowly and lovingly. I leaned in placed a kiss on his face where his first gray hairs appeared just to the side of his huge nose just above his right lip. He looked back at me and blinked a few times. I cleared my mind of thought and got a brain-wave message from him that he loved me too and missed mom. We fell asleep facing each other like two dogs in a pack. In my dreams Crow never appears as a dog, he always appears as an old man, like an elderly member of some ancient indian tribe wearing face paint but nothing on his head. Tonight I had a dream of Soaring Crow the Indian leader as a person like an elder wise man. He took me by the arm and lead me to a nearby river where we sat and talked about life, friends, honor, honesty, faith, and dedication to the tribe. Then Soaring Crow the indian told me something he never said before in any of my dreams, he said he really loved me and appreciated all I did for him in his dog life and felt truly blessed and looked forward to when we could meet as equals so he could shake my hand and hug me like a man. I lowered my head and cried my head in shame. Then in my dream Daniel and Tom approached wearing only buffalo skin shorts and sat next to me offering me a drink of water. 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