Date: Thu, 4 Nov 1999 19:28:09 EST
From: Lollygagger28@aol.com
Subject: I Can't Hide These Feelings Ch. 4 (t/t)

I Can't Hide These Feelings
[chapter 4]
by Pete

...."Well mom, I'm gay. So is Pete here. And we're boyfriends."....

"What did you say?!?!?!" his mom screamed with rage.

"I said that me and Pete are gay & boyfriends," he replied with hesitation.

His mom sat there and we saw tears forming in her eyes. "Well if your going
to be gay, you're not going to be in THIS house. Gather your things, and
leave. NOW. I don't ever want to hear from you or your fairy friend ever
again. Do you understand?"

Tears collected in Chris' eyes also. "Yes mom." As I followed him to his room
to help him pack, he mumbled, "I love you Mom." When we stepped into his
room, we joined in one big hug and he cried on my shoulder. "I don't want it
to be this way Pete."

"I know baby, I know. Neither do I."

Following that embrace, a lightbulb went off inside my head. "I have an idea!
Come stay at my place. We have a guest bedroom. Or, I DO have a queen-size
bed, if you know what I mean..." He laughed through his tears. But then he
asked with a frown, "What about your parents? Will they accept us and this
relationship?"

"I'm sure. I've always been taught not to discriminate people just because
they are a different race or, of course, sexual identity. They will take us."

"Good. Let's pack."

When we arrived at my house, after a rather tedious two trips by bicycle with
his stuff, my folks asked what this stuff is.

"Mom? Dad? Can we sit and talk?" "Of course son. Let's talk."

"Well dad, this stuff is Chris'. His parents kicked him out, so I invited him
to stay here."

"Wow. I think your mother and I will have to talk this one out, I know I'm OK
with it." he said with astonishment, "But Chris, why did they kick you out?"

Chris started to speak up, but I cut him off, "That's why I asked you to sit
down. He just came out to his parents. He's gay. He and I are both gay,
actually. And um.....we love each other."

There was a VERY uneasy silence. Mom seemed to have a sudden satisfaction
with her shoes. I was worried at her reaction, because if they kicked us out,
then where would we go?  And the worst part is that Dad kind of stared in
disbelief. My mom was the first to speak up. "This is a total shock to us.
Chris is welcome to stay here with us. But I just am totally surprised that
you two are boyfriends."

My Dad agreed somewhat awkwardly, "I agree with your mother, Pete. We have no
problem that you're gay. None at all. I swear." That sounded really fake. It
made me think about all the times when we heard gay-bashing comments on TV,
mom always shunned them. Not dad. I thought for a second, and then brushed it
off as nothing.

"Thanks Mom and Dad, you guys are the greatest!" "But before Chris unpacks,
which room will he be staying in? I take it in your bedroom, Pete?", my mom
asked in that prophetical voice that only moms have.

A shy grin developed on my face, and my cheeks got hot, I knew I was beet
red. "Yeah."

"OK then! Up to your room!"

We lugged his things up to "our" bedroom, and when we were done he locked the
door and pushed me onto the bed. We started to make out and hold each other,
moaning softly. After a few minutes, my mom knocked at the door. "I guess I
don't need to ask what you two are doing in there, so I'll leave you two
alone." "Thanks mom," I said through a muffled voice, staring at Chris with
surprise. She chuckled to herself, and we heard her walk away.

    We didn't have sex that night, we just kissed for a *really* long time.
Later that evening, my dad confronted us. He said, "Look guys. I really don't
have a problem with you two being in love. But, I don't take it as well as
your mother did. I will be very awkward for the next few days, just give me
time. OK?" All I could get out was, "Sure Dad. No prob." "OK guys, have fun!"
We ALL knew what that meant.

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heh no cliffhanger this time! :-)
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-Pete