Date: Fri, 18 Feb 2011 20:03:26 -0800 (PST)
From: Matthew Stachkunas <matthews2464@yahoo.com>
Subject: Immortal Love Chapter 4 (High School)

This story is a complete work of fiction. Names, characters and incidents
are a product of the author's imagination. Any resemblance to real people
or events is completely coincidental. This story may contain descriptions
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Immortal Love


Chapter 4


Over the next couple of days, Chris became strong enough to go home. He had been
tested so much that he was glad to be leaving the hospital soon. All the test
results came back negative, showing no brain damage from his untimely injuries.
Yet, he still needed time to heal, but for the most part(,) he was find.


In spite of his speedy recovery, Chris had noticed some changes in Jay though.
Even if he never left his side, Chris felt this emptiness or void being
developed between them. At first it was little things, like, not holding his
hand as much until it became apparent. Jay stop holding them altogether. Then,
Jay wouldn't make eye contact with him.

The worst part was when Jay would stop talking to him, unless Chris spoke to him
first. This got even worse in the last couple of days. It was as if they were
complete total stranger and never spoken at all. Chris started to think he had
done something wrong or maybe he offended Jay in some way. He was certain that
Jay liked him. At least, that's what Chris thought. But maybe he was just being
nice because he was hurt.

Maybe he just didn't like him at all.

What was he thinking? Why would someone, like Jay, like a boring nothing guy
like him. Jay was obviously a way cooler guy than Chris. He probably had lots of
friends and stuff. After all, he was a bodyguard. Chris was just a kid with
problems. What would anyone see in him anyway?

On the day Chris was ready to leave the hospital, Jay left him with Ann. She
came to prepare Chris for his departure and to drive him home safely. So that
Jay had time to prepare for Chris' arrival and his protection at home.


Jay had set it up that he would be staying with the Johnson house while Ann and
the rest of the team stayed at the hotel. Also he had the team members scheduled
24/7 to make rounds surrounding the Johnson house and neighborhood, to make sure
that they would see anyone who tried to get close to Chris. The team and Jay
felt it was safer to have Ann bring Chris home so that no one would suspected
Chris was on his way home.


Meanwhile, Ann helped Chris get his things together, set him into the
wheelchair, and headed towards the back of the hospital exit. She then helped
him into her car, got in herself and pulled out of the hospital's back parking
lot. She finally broke the silent.

"You OK Chris?" She asked. "You have been really quiet today."

"Ya'..." Chris said unenthusiastically, "I guess so."

"Aren't you happy to be going home?" She pursued further.

"Ya," he said, "it'll be nice to be back in my own bed ... in my own room"

"So what's the matter?" She pried as she was trying fo figure out what was
bothering him.

"Oh nothing," He sighed but trying to hide his frustration, "I'm just trying to
figure out what I did to piss off Jay."

"What do you mean?"

"When I first met him he seemed," Chris paused and then out of frustration
blurted, "I don't know, different towards me."

"And now what ..." she felt her way with her words and then realized, "he's mean
to you?"

"No not really. He just, doesn't talk to me anymore and ..."

Ann interrupted him "... and he stopped holding your hand like he had been doing
from the beginning, right?" Ann softened her nature to a caring voice to invite
more openness in their conversation.

"Well ..." then Chris lowered his head and whispered. "Yes, he has" and tried to
hide his tears.

Ann could hear the hurt in his voice. She had thought that Jay would be the one
that needed looking after, but now she is wrong. She would have to look after
both of them. Ann knew Chris was right about Jay.  He has been acting strange on
this case. She knew it had to do with Chris. How he resembled so much like Ben,
Jay former lover, but it had to be more than just that, though. She had to say
something to comfort Chris.

"Listen Chris" she started, "Jay really does care about what happens to you. He
just seen something in you that he hasn't seen in a long time. Give him some
time and I know he will explain it all too you."

"What do you mean?" Chris asked.

"Just be patient with him. He is not like anyone you have ever met before. He
will risk his life to save you if needed, as we all will. Chris, you just have
to trust me on this." Ann reassured him in her caring tone. "It's not you. And
the time will come when he will explain everything to you."


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Jay was getting things ready at the Johnson's house. He was setting up the
cameras in the common rooms, but not in the bedrooms or bathrooms for possible
intruders. As Jay was going about his work, he was thinking about Ben. How much
they had loved each other. It has been so long that he felt like this. He was
good at locking off his emotions. Now things seemed to changed since meeting
Chris.

Jay's thoughts changed to Chris. At first, he had confused his emotions for
Chris for those of Ben, his first love. He was mistaken them to be of Chris to
his lost love. Then, as the time went by, he started to see the things that made
Chris different from Ben.


Chris was outgoing and funny. He wasn't as reserved as Ben had been. Jay found
Chris so easy to be with, especially how he liked the feeling he had when being
around the boy. He still had to keep his distance, though, because the last time
he followed his feelings. He fell in love with Ben. They were so happy together.
He had loved Ben so much and when he lost him ... it was like nothing he had ever
felt in his life. Lost. Emptied. Lonely.


Jay couldn't go through that again. He had to make sure that the feelings he had
developed for Chris were blocked. He couldn't let his emotions get in the way of
his job. He knew what he had to do. He was going to continue to keep Chris at a
distance. He knew Chris was starting to have feeling for him too. He had to keep
that from happening. He didn't want to hurt the boy, so it was better to keep
him at arm-length that way he could do his job, and keep from causing the other
boy from feeling the pain he felt.

Yup, that's what he was doing. He was protecting Chris. That was his job. Even
if he had to protect the boy from his own feelings, he had to keep doing what he
was doing, separating himself, to keep the boy safe. That was his job.

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As Ann pulled in the driveway, Chris' parents met them outside. She was glad to
see that Chris was happy to be home. Even though, he seems a bit confused about
Jay, but this was his home where he was safe and back with his parents.

They all went inside the house after a brief greeting. Mrs. Johnson had them all
come into the kitchen for some lunch. As they were all walking in, Ann grabbed
Jay's arm and pull him aside away from the others.

"Can I talk to you for a minute Jay?" She asked.

"Sure. Mrs. Johnson, we will be walking around the house a bit. We will be
back." Jay said.

"Are you sure? You all must be hungry." Mrs. Johnson said.

"Thank you, but we will be fine for the moment." Jay said and walked outside
with Ann.

While the two began to walk the house the perimeter of the property, looking for
gaps in the security. Ann finally broke the silent and spoke to Jay "What are
you doing?"

"Sorry?" Jay confused by Ann's statement.

"What are you doing with Chris?" Ann added a little more sternness this time as
to what she trying to imply.

"I'm doing my job Ann. Why what do you think I am doing?" He was clearly
frustrated by her attitude.

"You know what I mean Jay. You are pushing the boy away."

"I am protecting him, Ann. That's what I'm supposed to be doing."

"Oh really," Ann looked him straight into his eyes. "Are you sure about that? It
seems to me you are protecting yourself."

"What are you talking about?" Jay finally was getting frustrated as to what
Ann's point of their conversation was leading to. Ann stopped walking, grabbed
his shoulders to look him straight in the eye.


"You are keeping him away. You have feelings for him Jay. I can see it in your
eyes. And not just because he looks like Ben. I can see how you like the guy."

"Ann" as Jay lowered his eyes to the ground, and he soften his voice "Ann, I do
have feelings for him. But I can't let them out. You know what happened to Ben.
I can't go through that again."

"So, instead you are going to spend the rest of your life alone. You are not
going to let yourself love another man. Or let them love you?" Ann said started
to raise her voice a bit.

"Keep your voice down" Jay scolded her.

"Don't you do that, don't try and change the subject. That boy really cares
about you. And he thought you cared about him. Then all of a sudden, you turn
your back on him. He is really confused. He thinks he did something wrong to
make you angry at him." Ann wasn't holding anything back this time. "So now he
have to suffer while you protect YOURSELF not him, right?"

"Ann you know why I can't. You know what it's like to be me. I have seen so many
people I care about grow old and die. I can't go through that again," he said.

"You mean you won't go through it again." She snapped back. "Jay, you are not
supposed to be alone. Everyone loses someone especially, those who we love the
most. No matter what we tend to go on without them, one way or another. We have
to have new people to come into our lives. So that we can care about them, and
yes, even love."

"But it hurts too much when you lose them" he said.

"Yes, it does." She got glassy eyes while looking at Jay. "It's supposed to
hurt. That shows how much we love them. Now Jay, you need to go in there and
tell that boy everything about Ben." She pointed her finger to the house without
any argument. "He deserves to know why you aren't talking to him. He deserves to
know how you feel about him."

At that, she turned away from Jay and walked into the house. He just stood there
for a few minutes thinking about what she had said. Yes, she was right and he
was wrong. Wrong not tell Chris about his past and about how he really felt.
Perhaps, he could have many good years of love with someone like Chris. But he
have to be willing to let it happen.


Jay turned and headed towards the house. He have to tell Chris everything, that
if he could get it all out. First, he have to tell Chris how he feels about him
and then tell him about his past love.