Date: Wed, 19 Oct 2016 01:17:35 +0000
From: Harry Scott Hayden <harryscotthayden@outlook.com>
Subject: "It Has Always Been You" - Chapter 21 - Definitely

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It Has Always Been You 21 - Definitely

"You lied to me Drake... YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME!"

Drake felt numb in his body. He was not able to react or moved. He stayed
rooted to the ground with fear, showing on his face. Suddenly he felt
afraid, afraid of the outcome of the situation. The words that Mikael said
kept playing in his head and it's messing him up bad; the feelings of
shame, sadness and miserable turmoil inside his heart. He was shocked,
totally shocked at what Mikael was saying.

Drake was in a state of dejection and he was hurting. Mikael was hurting
too, but he could not hold back all the anger, frustration and disgust
anymore. Did he love Drake in the first place? He thought he did as they
did have a good loving time when they were together in that short period of
time for a few months.

"Why were you hurting me all this time Drake, why?" Mikael began to
sniffle, still in the arms of Nick. "Am I not good enough for you? Am I a
bad person?" Mikael sounded a bit frustrated.

"I'm... sorry." Drake could not face Mikael and see the way Nick
side-hugged Mikael with his naked upper body, had one way or another been
an eyesore to him. At that moment he was not sure what was he being sorry
for. But to see Mikael to be this furious, it must be something grave.

"Huh... Sorry?" Mikael tried to sound as sarcastic yet calmed and
firmed. "I have tried Drake. I have really tried to love you more, but it
is impossible to do it now. I trusted whatever you said and did, never once
I doubted you. But when I found about what you did behind me, I felt so
disappointed and betrayed by you, Drake and it cut me like a knife."

Flashback

Drake had told Mikael about the invitation he got to do a weekend gig back
in his home town, Montana. He had been doing this at least once a month. He
said it was good money and he did not want to miss out. Mikael, being a
good boyfriend, did not even question anything and agreed to let him go for
that one weekend.

The day Drake left for Montana, Mikael was feeling bored and lonely. Drake
had asked him if he wanted to tag along, but Mikael declined as he was not
fond of travelling at that time. But this one time, he decided to follow
Drake to surprise him.

Upon reaching Montana he had booked himself into a motel near the club
where Drake was supposed to do his gig. Yeah, Drake has informed him of the
club's name, so Mikael had to search on the internet for the exact location
and booked the motel near the venue online. He arrived there late in the
evening, so he had a quick dinner at the motel, restaurant and began to
prepare himself for the night out to surprise Drake. He was delightfully
excited about seeing and surprising his boyfriend. This was the very first
time he has ever been away from the comfort of his town and be somewhere
different.

The club was called "Howling" and it was already packed with patrons, It
was a big venue and what he noticed most, it was full of men... basically
men of all ages, shapes and sizes. He strained his neck over the crowd,
trying to look for Drake on stage, at the DJ console or at the bar. After a
few minutes of neck stretching, he finally found Drake standing at the bar
counter drinking with another guy by his side.

In the beginning he did not suspect anything, he took them as an
acquaintance and was just having a drink at the bar. He made his way
slowly, pushing through the maze of male bodies to get to the Drake. When
he was about to reach them, he suddenly stopped in his tracks. What he saw
was making him teary with disbelief. Drake and the guy were actually
snogging, tongue wrestling with their hands holding each other tight. In
one instance, he saw Drake's hands travelling down the guys back and slid
inside his pants and groped his backside while moaning, oblivious to the
other people around.

Mikael did not approach them as he was mentally unsecured. He tried to take
control of his emotions and stepped back to bland into the crowd. It was
not long when Drake's name was called up to the stage to start his gig and
he kissed the guy one last time, mouthing some words to each other before
they separated. The guy Drake was with did not follow him, but instead
walked to the middle of the crowd and by GOD grace, he stood beside Mikael.

Mikael took that opportunity to look at him thoroughly and at the same time
he stared daggers at him. He managed to scan his eyes on the guy without
being too noticeable. It was totally hidden by the glaring, blinding bright
lights. It somehow, obscured you to really see what others around you were
really doing.

The guy was not so bad looking, infect he was quite gorgeous. He was only a
few inches shorter that him and has a slim built body. He had an innocent
boyish looking and Mikael was intrigued by him. He still wanted to know how
Drake and him were related. He took a deep breath and spoke to him.

"Hey, you seemed excited when that DJ was spinning the music, yeah?" Mikael
asked him cheerfully to cover his real anger behind a fake smile. He hopes
it was not so noticeable.

"Well, of course I am excited. After all, that DJ name is Drake and he is
my boyfriend." he spoke nonchalantly too cheerful at Mikael with the widest
grin he had ever seen. Mikael hands clenched tight and he felt like
punching that guy to wipe out the smile off his face. The revelation of
their relationship was un-call for and Mikael was getting angrier with
every minute he was there.

He tried to think of the time when they were being together, He had seen
Drake went off a distance away to answer his call on his hand phone and
occasionally seen him furiously texting on it. When he was asked who was
the call from or whom was he texting, he will always say either it was his
family or friends from Montana. Mikael did not try to be a bitchy boyfriend
who always worried if ever the boyfriend had others in their life. He had
been good, really good to Drake.

"Oh really... that's good to hear. By the way I'm Robbie." he lied about
his name and extended his hand.

"I'm Malcolm... nice to know you Robbie." Malcolm accepted Mikael's hand to
shake it. "You came here alone?"

"Yes I did. I am from out of town, just passing by." He lied again.

They began to converse more even after Drake performance. Malcolm wanted to
introduce drake to Mikael, but Mikael declined and had tried his best not
to be noticed by Drake. During the course of conversation, he manages to
know more about Drake and Malcolm relationship. It was not platonic, it was
a full blown and loving. He felt so guilty to be the third wheel.

If he was not able to control his emotions, he wanted to ever tell Malcolm
everything that Drake had done behind him and who Drake was really. But to
see Malcolm sweet innocent faces, he does not have a heart to do
anything. He swallowed his guilt and pained and slipped away from the club
hurting. Back in the motel room, he cried the hardest and left Montana
first thing in the morning on the first bus available.

Present

"Who do you take me for Drake? Am I just someone for you to release your
sexual desire?" Mikael was bawling really had this time with Nick, who was
side-hugging Mikael, had pulled him tighter into consoling hugs. Their
bodies were glued even tighter now as Mikael sobs on his naked
shoulder. His tears were drenching Nick skin.

"Am I just someone for you to call and be with and to keep you company
whenever you are lonely?" Mikael was talking to Drake over Nick
shoulder. His eyes were in pain for crying so much.

As the scenario was unfolding in front of him, pieces by pieces, Drake
began to feel annoyed and angry. He took a deep breath and sighed,
"So... you are taking on me now as you know you will be able to jump back
to your fancy boyfriend. Is that right, Mikael?" Drake knew he was fighting
a losing battle. Now he knew that no matter what he said or do would not
make Mikael to forgive him.

Mikael was appalled with what Drake was saying. How can he say this even
after he knew he was in the wrong. Nick was not part of the equation, he
was part of the solution and he had been good at it for that moment.

"Don't you dare try to pull Nick into this Drake!" Mikael was fuming with
anger. He parted from Nick slightly and went to face Drake upfront. "All
this is happening because of you and is your doing." even though Mikael had
let go of Nick, but he did not want to and he was clinging to Mikael back
like a leech.

"What I think you should do now, is to just go away, out of my life, as I
do not ever want to see you or associate with you again." The ultimatum was
spoken by Mikael. It hurt so bad, but he needed to do this. As selfishly he
wanted it to be about him, he was doing it for Malcolm. As Malcolm knew
Drake first before him. He wanted Malcolm to be happy, even it meant to be
with Drake, because he deserved that happiness.

"Mikael, please forgive me. I am sorry." Drake pleads with Mikael as a last
resort. He tried to look at Mikael face, but we was not able to. the gut
feeling was growing in his heart and to see Mikael being hugged comfortably
by Nick was hurting him badly.

"Do not apologies to me Drake. Go and do it to Malcolm." Mikael was not
looking directly at Drake.

Drake was surprised that Mikael knew the Malcolm's name. He wondered to how
did Mikael ever know that? Were they friends as they were at the same
age. Or maybe related, like a distance cousin. So many questions were on
his mind. He felt dejected and didn't know what else he could do. He was
looking at the ground feeling ashamed, when suddenly he felt a hand on his
shoulder.

Drake lifted up his head and saw Mikael's face right in front of him. With
Mikael's hands still on Drake's shoulders, Mikael slowly yet gently pulled
Drake in for a hug. Drake was confused yet delighted to feel Mikael's warm
body against his. He felt so comfortable.

While Mikael was still holding onto Drake, shoulder, he said, "Listen here
Drake. Firstly, I apologize for saying what I said to you earlier. I'm not
regretting it though. You did really hurt me bad and mostly you are going
to hurt Malcolm more if he knows about us." Mikael took a breather while he
looked at Drake's sadden face. "What would happen if he found out you have
cheated on him. He is a nice guy and he deserves all the credit, your
attention and love, more than I do." Mikael paused again.

Drake started to sniffle and his eyes began to water. He had now realized
what he did to Malcolm and Mikael. He tried to speak but was stopped by
Mikael.

"No Drake just let me finish okay?" Drake just nodded his head. "I do
really love you, but not under these circumstances. I hope you understand
what I am saying Drake." Mikael's facial expression soften as he talked,
"We can still be friends and I will always be around if you need to
talk. Do not worry about me."

Drake was solemnly looking apologetically to Mikael. He knew his time with
Mikael was practically over. His next action shocked Mikael. Drake just
pulled Mikael away from Nick and closer to him to hug and kissed Mikael for
the last time. It felt longer but it was only a moment long. Parting from
Mikael, with tears running down his face, Drake mouthed the word sorry and
left the house.

Mikael was overwhelmed with mix emotions. He was balling his eyes
out. Streaks of tears cascading furiously down his cheeks. Nick saw this
and pulled Mikael into his body and hugged him like he never wanting to let
go. Mikael hugged Nick tight and cried on his shoulder. The warmth of Nick
naked upper body had somehow able to calm him down. The rest of the day was
spent with Nick consoling Mikael with sweet words, eating lunch together
while watching movies on Netflix. At night after dinner, they just went to
bed, spooning each other in a tight embrace.

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