Date: Thu, 7 May 2009 20:52:45 -0400
From: spiderwick1 secret <spiderwick1@hotmail.com>
Subject: Life After Mike

This story is 100% fiction, this story contains sexual contact between
teenage boys. This story may not be legal where you live or it may be
offensive to you, if that is the case please leave now.


Life After Mike


Jerry, Paul and Mrs O'leary were all sitting at Mrs. O'Leary's house,
they now had the the distintion of having to accomplishing two things,
first was to be able to cope with the incredible loss of someone that was
so close to and so Loved by all three of them, and secondly, trying
to move on with their lives, and try to make some sense of what had
happened, the silly thing is the statements that people make. Things
like " OH MY GOD, HE WAS SO YOUNG "  or " HE IS MUCH BETTER OFF NOW "
or  " AT LEAST HE IS NOT SUFFERING ANY MORE. These are
all good, honest, and noble sentiments, they really are said to make
someone who is a friend or aquantance feel good, the loved ones and
family are selfish when it comes to loved ones all the sentiments in the
world will not bring their loved one back or make it any easier to
accept the fact that the loved one is gone and that the hole in the heart
that was left by his or her passing, will take forever to fill, there
are no overnight fixes, no easy way of making things better, the cold
hard facts are your loved one is gone, there is nothing you can do
but accept that fact. That was the challenge that the three of them now
had to face, the good thing is that they have each other.

Jerry looked at Paul and said, you must have been very special to Mike,
he took the time to make sure that he brought us together, he must
have thought about us being together for a long time, he planned this
out, I will give it every chance to make it work.

Paul looked at Jerry, he spoke very quietly, and said Mike was the only
person that knew I was gay, he kept my secret, as he said he would
until the day he died, he knew that I loved you, he also knew that I
would not act on those feelings because he loved you so much, my only
regret, is that I did not break my promise to him, I should have told you
how much he cared, we had a bond that was strong and I would
never break that bond. When I found out he was sick I pleaded with him to
tell you, he was afraid it would ruin the friendship that the two
of you shared, your friendship made him much stronger, your love make him
whole.

Mrs. O'Leary looked at both of the boys and said, my son was so fortunate
to be loved by the two people that meant the most to him, we
had many conversations about the both of you, Paul was the confidant that
everyone needs, the person that you can tell you deep dark secrets to
knowing they would be safely tucked away and guarded with the utmost
respect, Jerry, Mike told me he was gay when he started
the seventh grade, that was when he also told me that he thought that he
loved you, it was not soon after that  he told me that he wished
he could spend the rest of his life making you happy, shortly after that
he was not feeling to well one day and we went to the doctor's, that
was when we found out he had cancer, that was when he decided that he
would never tell you as he did not want to lose you as a friend,
I pleaded with him to tell you , that your friendship was strong and
would see you through, Mike thought it would destroy your friendship
and put his love for you on hold,

Paul spoke up and said mom, do you remember the night when Mike and I
were in his room playing games and he suddenly got real sick, we
spent nearly the entire night at the hospital, I was crying my eyes out
and you kept telling me that it would be ok, I fell asleep on your lap,
and then you woke me and said we can see him now, The last thing you said
to me was no matter how bad he looked that we had to be
strong and show no signs of panic or fear, you help me through that that
night aand I decided that he would never see me cry or faulter in
front of him.

Mrs.O'Leary looked at Paul and said, your devotion and the love that he
recieved from you, Paul was something that was very dear to him,
I think that if he had not been so much in love with Jerry, you would
have been the object of his affection, he may not have said it much
but he loved you and thought the world of you Paul, you could not have
been a better friend to him. Jerry I could say so many things about
you, Mike loved you, he thought the sun rose and set in you, he would
pray every night that one day you would walk up to him and say
those four magic words, " MIKE I LOVE YOU. " his world revolved around
you, he would spend hours each day telling me and Paul how he
cared for you, but he held us to secrerecy and made us promise not to
breathe a word of it to you. What we need to do now is help each
other get through this very trying time, together we can make each other
stronger, and help each other mourn. You are both welcome to stay here
any time you like and for as long as you like.

Jerry looked at Paul and asked are you staying here tonight?

Paul said that he was planning on staying for a while.

Jerry asked would you mind some company in that large bed tonight?

Paul smiled and said there is alwaays room in my bed for you Jerry.

Jerry said I am not ready to do anything with anybody!

Paul smiled and said, well then you won't be disappointed when nothing
happens

Mrs. O'Leary asked to talk to Paul by himself, Jerry said I understand
and he went down the hall to Mike's old room. Paul how is the problem
between you and your father coming along.

Paul said mom I have tried everything, he just does not me there and
could care less about me, he walked over and hugged her and started to
cry, what am I going to do, he wants me out of there.

Mrs. O'Leary asked did you ever talk to Mike about this, and what did he
say.

Paul said yes Mike and I talked about it a lot, he said that if my dad
through me out that I could come and stay here with him, I don't know
what to do now that Mike is gone, I am just lost.

Mrs. O'leary smiled and said,  Paul you are not the only person left
holding a note, she opened her purse and took out a piece of paper and
handed it to Paul.

Paul had a puzzled look on his face.

Mrs. O'Leary said open it and read it.

Paul opened the piece of paper, he started to read the note, it went.


My Dear Friend Paul,

	If you are reading this note, then you are very much aware of my
death.  I have talked to mom in great length about what is written in this
note, Please accept my offer even though i am no longer here, I would be
very honored if you would consider becoming my brother legally so you could
take care of mom, I won't take no for an answer, that way you can look
after mom and Jerry.

	Mom has already agreed to adopt you if you are willing please say
yes,

Love you always,
Your Older Brother
Mike


Paul had tears running down his cheeks, I just can't imagine not having
Mike around, he is taking care of me now even after he is gone, God I Miss
Him So Much. Paul looked at mom and said I would be thrilled to have you as
my mom, and just knowing that Mike is my brother, will be like he will
always be with me.

Jerry came back and asked if he could come in and sit down?

Paul told Jerry about the note and what it said, Jerry smiled and said
you know I would not be surprised if the papers are not all ready to go,
then he
turned and looked at Mrs. O'Leary and said, am I right

Mrs. O'Leary smiled and looked at both of them and pulled out the papers
out of her purse, she handed them to Paul and said have your dad sign
them and
it is all legal.

Paul walked over and kissed her and said thanks, now when I call you mom
it will be for real.

Jerry walked over and hugged Paul and said I am so happy for you, now
if no one minds I will go into the kitchen and make dinner.

Paul said if you don't mind I would like to help.

Jerry said I think that we should get used to being around each other
after all we are going to be a couple , you and I need to get to know
each other better and become closer.

the boys finished making dinner, they all ate, and the boys cleaned  up
the kitchen, they all went into the living room and watched TV, and at
about 10:00
the boys said good night and headed to their bedroom. they got undressed
and climbed into bed.

Jerry said good night.

Paul said good night and asked do you mind if I just hold on to you?

Jerry said I can go one better than that, he said come here and Paul
scooted up next to Jerry and Jerry put his arm around Paul and pulled him
close,

Paul put his head on Jerry 's chest and was asleep in a matter of
minutes.

Jerry rested his head on the top of Paul's head and drifted off to sleep....