Date: Fri, 17 Jun 2005 23:44:58 -0700 (PDT)
From: Lex Christianson <lexman90@yahoo.com>
Subject: Teen Boy: Life In Zach's Eyes (Chapter 2)

DISCLAIMER: This is a fictional story that involves relationships between
teenage boys.  If you find this offensive in any way I'd advise you not to
continue on.  Any comments that complain about the nature of the story will
be ignored.  For those who actually enjoy stories like this please enjoy
reading this. I know I enjoyed writing it for you.

Life In Zach's Eyes (Chapter 2)

"Made it," was all I managed to get out.  Ok, I may be lean and I might
work out but running still takes a lot out of me.  I'll admit it it's one
of the things that I'm not all that great at.  Meanwhile Cody was just
standing there, as if it was nothing, smiling down at me with his hearth
throb smile.  I had the greatest urge to kiss him right then and there, but
decided against it remembering where we were and not wanting to completely
freak him out.  "We have like 10 minutes to spare what do you wanna do?"

"How bout I get my schedule and you can show me where my classes are, if
its not too much trouble."

"No trouble at all, lets go."  Even if I had the thought to say no I could
never refuse him anything.  All it took was one smile and I'd do whatever
he asked.  Of course I didn't realize that I was staring intently at him
when he turned to me.

"What is it?  Do I have something on my face?"

Embarrassed and blushing I quickly turned away.  "No, it's perfect."  Oh
crap, did I just say that?  Lucky for me he didn't seem to notice it.  That
would have been a sticky situation, and not in the good way.

So we went to the attendance office and picked up Cody's schedule, it was
like fate he turned out to be in all the same classes as me.  Even better
he and I were in the same homeroom, which meant that I would have at least
one class with him for the next 3 and a half years since we have the same
homeroom all throughout high school.  Having the same classes as me also
impressed me since I was in almost all honors classes, this meant that he
was not only a total cutie but he was pretty smart too.

"So where to first Zach?"  Cody's voice seemed to snap me out of my daze.

"Ummmm.  Bio, room 221, with Mrs. Cisneros you'll like her.  She's really
nice, unless you get on her bad side then...well let's just say you'll have
a great chance to become closer with the dean."

"Ha ha.  Don't worry bout me, at school I'm a good boy.  It's after that
things get wild.  Ha ha ha."

Oooh a bad boy.  God this guy keeps getting better and better.  Could he
possibly be the most perfect guy in the entire universe?  Hell ya.  Or at
least to me he was.  Every time he looks at me with those beautiful eyes I
just feel weak in the knees.  Was I in love with him?  But I just met him
like 15 minutes ago.

Snap out of it Zach your getting ahead of yourself, and calm down.  A guy
like that is most certainly straight.  I just felt so right being near him
I couldn't let anything jeopardize that.  I'm just gonna have to suppress
my feelings for him out of the fear that if he does find out he would hate
me, or worse beat the shit out of me.  Oh well.

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Well we got through the first 3 classes without any trouble.  Of course I
have no idea what we learned that day.  I had so many thoughts going
through my head that I was hard to concentrate.  A lot of those thoughts
were about Cody.  God I wished that I could tell him how I felt.  I also
wished that he was gay and could possibly have some sort of feelings for me
too, but that was too much to hope for.

I was able to catch him looking at me a few times during class, but I
thought nothing of it since he was new and I was the only person he knew
there was no one else he could look to.

Jen, my best friend in the entire world, noticed that there was something
the matter with me and that I had been out of it during class that day.
God she knows me so well I swear she probably knew me better than I knew
myself.  I trusted her with my life, but there was one thing that I was
keeping from her.  Ya your probably guessed it, I still haven't told her
the fact that I am gay.  She could probably tell, since she does know
almost everything else about me, but she hasn't confronted me about it yet
so I just assume that she doesn't know.

She came up to me after math and demanded, (ya that's what she does) "Ok
you have been completely out of it for the last two classes and don't even
try to tell me that nothing is the matter because I know you better than
that.  Now I am your best friend and with that I think I have at least some
right to know what's wrong."

No argument there.  No seriously, if you know Jen you know that you have a
better chance of shaking hands with big-foot than getting her to back down.
"Ok, your right there is something the matter but I'll tell you later.  I
promise just not here and now.  How about you come over around 5 we can
talk and work on homework at the same time."

"Ok.  I'm just worried about you Zach.  You know I love you to pieces and
will always be there for you if you need me.  Just like you were there when
I needed you. (Jen had some problems with her past that I kinda helped her
deal with, it helped us bond a lot and become a whole lot closer.  Now
we're more like brother and sister than just regular friends.)  So I will
be at you're house at 5 and if you're not there we might have something
else to talk about."

Ya that's another thing, if you ditch Jen anywhere you WILL hear about it
later.  Even if you are deaf you will hear her. Lol.  But ya, I was
planning on finally telling her about me.  I figured that it would be a lot
easier on both of us the earlier I do it, because if I wait too long she'll
turn around with the whole "Why didn't you tell me sooner don't you trust
me?"  And believe me I'd do anything to avoid that conversation.  Because
honestly I have no answer to that question.  Ha ha ha.

In the meantime lunch came around and I introduced Cody to my kinda sorta
large group of friends.  Everyone seemed to like him a lot and he seemed to
hit it off with all of them pretty well.  Actually all but Lane.  He seemed
a little jealous of Cody.  I'll bet I know what's bothering him, the fact
that I am paying attention to Cody and not him.  See lane kinda has crush
on me but I don't really like him.  Currently my excuse is that I'm
straight.  HA ha ha.  Wow that was a funny joke.  But honestly I don't want
him hitting on me.  He is a great friend but truly he's kinda disgusting
for boyfriend material.  But lets not think of that.

I was so glad that Cody was having fun. He was smiling and laughing.  He
has this really cute laugh.  I must be falling for him.  No no bad thoughts
can't do that with him remember.  Finally I couldn't take it.  I excused
myself from the table and went to the bathroom.  I splashed water on my
face and looked at myself in the mirror.  "God what is wrong with me?"

"Nothing is wrong with you.  In fact everything is right about you if you
ask me."

I turned around. "Lane?  What..."

"Oh please hun, I'm not stupid I see you practically drooling over him in
there.  Straight my ass."

"Lane Ple..." I began before he cut me off.

"Don't worry babe I won't tell anyone...if you can keep my mouth shut."

"What do you mean?"  Of course I could probably take a stab at what he
wanted.

"You know how much I wanted you.  Suck my cock and let me fuck you and
maybe I wont tell anyone your secret."

"Or maybe I'll punch your lights out and your mouth will be wired shut so
you couldn't talk if you wanted."

And with that I saw Cody's fist make contact with Lane's jaw.  The next
thing I saw was Lane on the floor rubbing his jaw.

"Don't talk to Zach like that.  As a matter of fact don't talk to anyone
like that again."

"Hey I was only asking him for something that he would enjoy the little
cocksucker."

Cody turned to me with a bewildered and odd look in his eyes, "Zach.  Are
you gay?"

I didn't even bother to answer.  I don't think that I could have answered
if I wanted to.  My eyes started to water and my voice just wouldn't work.
So I just ran.  I don't know where I was heading but it was anywhere but
where I was.  I went just wherever my legs would take me.  There was only
one thought in my head as I kept seeing his face over and over again in my
head. His voice replaying what he said.  "God he really does hate me
doesn't he.


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