Date: Sat, 13 Sep 2003 01:31:07 -0700
From: Brian <xdigitalialityx@hotmail.com>
Subject: Live for Love/Chapter 1

Live for Love

Written by: Brian

Chapter 1 :

            "Mike, get up honey!" My mother called from the other side of
the door. "I'm up." I squealed back. My clock read 7 30 am and I had to get
out of bed. I managed to get up and take off my cute ducky P.J pants, and
slipped on a pair of jeans. I silently opened my door, and moped down the
stairs to the laundry room, to find my black Nautica T-shirt hanging on the
door handle. I took it and trudged up the stairs, and changed into it. I
walked over to my bathroom to brush my hair, to find the brush wasn't
there. "Mom, where's my brush?" I asked in a loud yet low tone. "I don't
know, your brother was using it last I saw it" She replied. "GOD DAMN IT!
HE NEEDS TO GET HIS OWN DAMN BRUSH, HE'S GOT MONEY" I screamed to her, and
speed-walked over to his room. At a distance I heard her "HEY. Watch your
language young man!" I ignored her. I arrived to my brothers room, and I
smacked him on the back and asked him where my brush was "..Uhh.. Dude I
don't know.. uhh.. dude." He managed to let out. I saw the brush sitting on
the floor under his computer desk. I decided I'd just let him sleep, since
he didn't have to wake up until about 8 30 am. I took it, and decided to
keep the brush in my room. I finally got back to the bathroom to brush my
hair. I have black, silky hair that is just about eye-length. I then
brushed my teeth, and I was finally almost ready for school.

            I am about 5'8", hazel eyes, and I'm bi-sexual. I'm 15 years
old, and I sort of hate my life. I live in Palm Beach, Florida, pretty
lame. Most of my friends knew I was bi, but they kept it a secret from
people they, and/or I didn't know. I didn't care who knew, but I don't want
to be 'that gay kid at school'. "Shit!" The clock read 8 05 am. "I'm gonna
be late!" I quickly shoved a few dollars in my pocket, my cell phone, and
ran out of my room with my, rather heavy, backpack. "Bye mom!" I called out
running down the stairs. "Bye sweetie, don't forget to ---" I cut her off
by slamming the door behind myself, worrying about being late.

            I started running, but realized I was tired as fuck. I
continued my way to school walking. School was about 15 minutes away
walking there. And school started at 8 20 am. I usually walk to school
alone, unless a friend stays over. No children live around my area, or at
least no older children my age. Honestly, I'd much rather be with a guy,
than a girl. I just can't really get emotionally attached to women. But I
can't really say I'm gay, because I still think girls are hot, and stuff
like that. I hadn't really liked many guys at school, but even if I did,
they were probably straight anyways.

            Ten minutes passed by quickly and I was arriving at school.
Just as I appeared at the entrance, I was greeted by my two best friends,
Alex and Sarina. Alex was built well, an inch taller than me, with brown
eyes, and black short-ish spiky hair. - Lets put it this way, he was HOT,
and he was my friend. Hehe! I personally think he is bi, and so do Sarina
and I, but he won't admit to it. Sarina was a cute girl, big beautiful
brown eyes, dirty blonde long hair, perfect smile, about my height.
Sarina's a really beautiful girl, but hell, she's my best friend, and I
know that even if we did try to work something out, it would change
everything.

"Hey Mikey!" Alex called out to me as I approached the area, and gave me
that cute look he always gives me.

"You!" I pointed at him and picked up the pace.

"Hey Mike, where the hell were you? We've been waiting for you since like 8
o' clock!" Sarina sounded disappointed.

"Sorry, I woke up a little late this morning, and my stupid fuckin' brother
lost my shit," I tried to make it like I was pissed, which I wasn't really
"I didn't have breakfast, and I probably did a shitty job with my hair
too."

"Oh no, the hairs fineeeee." He dragged his words.

"Ah shit." The bell rang, and just as I started to walk to my first period
class, Alex passed me a note, and told me not to read it till I got home.

            A note? From Alex? I was thinking to myself as I walked to
Mrs.Cohens chemistry class. I was re-thinking over and over what the note
could possibly read that I couldn't read it till I got home. I walked into
the class, and everyone was eyeballing me. Why were they all looking at me
so weird? Anyways, I took my seat, and I got there just in the nick of
time, because the bell rang as I sat down. "Alright class, today we will be
watching a video on-" She was interrupted by the door opening and closing,
and-oh my god, The HOTTEST guy I had ever seen had walked, into MY
chemistry class. "New student?" Mrs.Cohen asked politely. He nodded. "Okay
then, just, go take a seat next to Alex. Alex, please raise your hand for
me, so this fine young man can take a seat." I raised my hand as I was
asked to, and this, hot ass guy was walking over to sit at my lab-type
table.

"Hey," He said In a cute voice, "My name is Jay, what's yours?" I was
trembling with fear that if I were to answer him, I was going to stutter,
or mess up my name, or something terrible would happen!

"Uhh.. My names m..Mike.."  I managed to let out just that. I did it!! Go
me!

"Cool, so, what are we doing?"

"um. I think we are just watching a video today, pretty easy." And just as
I said that, Mrs.Cohen had asked Jay to stand up, and tell the class about
himself. "Oh man, do I have to?" He pleaded to the teacher. "Yes, yes, yes,
don't worry about it, we want to get to know you!" And boy was she right, I
wanted to get to know him!

"Well. If you insist. My name is Jay, I came from New Jersey down to
Florida last week, and today is my first day here. I'm 16, and...  yep...
that's it I guess." He sat himself down quickly.

"Wow, that was hell!" He whispered to me.

"Why? You seemed fine to me!"

"Yeah but I don't know any of these people, damn I hope they don't all
think I'm a weirdo." He seemed worried about his population here, which
seemed to be at 0%.

"That's okay, I don't think you're a weirdo, at least not yet!" I tried to
joke with him, hoping he'd joke around with me too.

"Haha, You'll find out sooner or later!"

            Hehe, this guy really seemed like a nice guy. But. Was he
attracted to me at all? I finished off the day as usual. He was only in my
chemistry class, none others. But through the whole day. I was thinking
about Jay. He was so beautiful, and his beautiful blue eyes, dirty blonde
hair, fallen to the sides, he was-perfect! I came out of the school to find
Sarina waiting for me at the bottom of the small stairway of the main
entrance.

"Hey!" She said, sounding like she had something important to tell me.

"Hey. What's up babe?"

"Nothing, do you know where Alex is?"

"No idea. He gave me a note earlier, right when you left when the bell
rang, he told me not to read it until I got home." I don't know if I was
supposed to tell her this or not, but I had already let it out, oh well!

"Really?!?! Let me read it!" She was pleading for it, but I ignored it and
kept telling her no.

"Oh come on, he'll never find out!"

"That's O.K. Sarina, call me later, if it's anything, serious," I used
quotation fingers as Dr.Evil on Austin Powers, "I'll be sure to tell you,
okay hon'? Don't worry! Hehehe."

"Ahhhhh, fine. But call me the minute you get home! Okay?!"

"Okay! Okay! Catch you later hon'!" I hugged her goodbye, and started my
journey home.

"Hey!" I heard a voice call out to me. I turned around to find Jay
following me. I waved back, and stopped and waited for him to catch up with
me.

"Where ya goin'?" I asked, in the cutest way I could possible.

"Home, where else?"

"You live around here?"

"Yeah, right over there." He pointed to a nice sized 2 story house, with a
nice-looking silver car in the driveway.

"Wow, you're really close to this hell-hole." I said in a pissy way.

"Yeah, if that's what you call it, where do you live?"

"Oh, I'm allllll the way down there, on the opposite side of your house."

"That's cool. I thought my first year of school I'd walk home alone every
single day, haha."

"Heh, so. What are you doing after you get home?" I asked politely, as if I
was asking him out on a date or something.

"Oh nothing, I figured I was gonna walk around, get to know this place, The
people, maybe."

"Oh, well the people around here suck, so that covers that. You wanna hang
out or something later?" I asked casually, trying not to sound like I
wanted him.

"Sure! That'd be awesome dude!"

"Alright, meet me by the park at around 4 30, okay?"

"Okay, I would, but. where's the park?" I realized he didn't know where
anything is.

"Oh yeah, haha, I forgot, you just moved here. Okay well fine, meet me
outside of your house at around 4 30, okay?"

"Alright, that works, c-ya bro!"

I walked home with a huge smile on my face. The most beautiful guy in my
eyes, was right now, my friend! I was his only friend! I think. I finally
arrived home, and threw my backpack into the corner by the front door, and
walked up the stairs to my room. Nobody was home, well, nobody is ever home
after school. I sat down at my computer, and checked my e-mail. All shit in
my inbox. Disappointed from having no e-mail for ME at all, I turned off
the computer. Oh yeah! That note Alex gave me! I rushed down-stairs and
pulled it out of my backpack. I ran back up-stairs and opened It fast as I
could. I started to read silently to myself.

            I was reading towards the end of the note now.

I started to cry, and quickly dialed Sarina's number, now crying into the
phone.


- To be continued -


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