Date: Sun, 14 Sep 2003 04:12:21 -0700
From: Fusion Zero <xdigitalialityx@hotmail.com>
Subject: Live for Love/Chapter 2

Live For Love

By Brian

Chapter 2 :


            "Hello?" Sarina answered the phone on the first ring.

"Sarina? I just read Alex's note, and.. and.." I was interrupted by my rude
mother banging on my door.

"What, mom, I'm on the phone!" I tried to make myself sound normal.

"Oh, sorry, I just wanted to make sure you were here!" She walked away, I
think, and I managed to keep my voice down.

"Sarina?"

"Yeah hon'? Tell me, what's up?" She sounded concerned.

"Yeah well.. I was reading the note and.. and.. Alex told me not to
tell.. but um.. He's gay."

            Silence filled the air until i began to hear Sarina weeping
silently to herself. Okay, not that this was such a bad thing that Alex was
gay, but he also liked me, but I wasn't about to tell Sarina that, and I
knew this meant things would never be the same. I've known Alex a long ass
time. And having this come from him.. is just.. different that I'd expected
it to be. I was happy, yet, not happy, at the same time. I was excited
that. Maybe I would have a boyfriend. But I also worried about Jay. I
didn't know weather he was gay or whatever, but I knew that I liked him a
whole lot, and I also liked Alex too. I was crying because I was concerned
with what Alex would do.

"Sarina? You okay?" I asked, sounding concerned.

"Yeah.. I'm.. I'm o..okay.."

"You sure..? Don't get upset because he's gay. just.. tomorrow at
school.. be sure to act like everything's normal.. Okay?"

".uhh. Okay, I guess. I just.. I never even thought Alex was like that at
all, when me and you messed around about him being bi, I was just messing
with him." Her words trailed.

"Oh. Well, should I call him.? Or should I just wait till tomorrow to talk
about it.. Or maybe go over to his house. or.. or.."

"Just wait till tomm-" I interrupted her. "OH SHIT! Ahhh!"

            Oh no! The clock read 4 31 pm! I was supposed to meet Jay at
his house! Oh no, I hope he's still there, and I hope he doesn't get mad,
or. Wow this is bad.

"What?!?"

"I was supposed to meet jay a minute ago! I gotta go! Bye!" I slammed the
phone down on the receiver, made sure I looked okay in the mirror, slipped
my cell phone into my pocket, and hurried out.

            I began walking a little faster than usual, because I was
excited to meet this beautiful boy of my dreams, and took the same route to
school, for his house. All the way there, I was thinking to myself how to
greet him, either a "Hey sexy" or a "hello" or something that would give
away my sexuality, without having to actually TELL him. A few minutes
later, I arrived at his driveway. I didn't see him. I walked up to the
door, and knocked gently. No answer. I knocked a bit harder, and waited a
minute or two. I was startled by a light tap on the shoulder from behind.

"WOAH!" I let out.

"Hey dude, your late." He said, in a sexy voice.

"Hey! And- oh yeah, sorry about that, anyways, you scared me to death right
now! Don't sneak up on my like that again!" I acted unhappy.

"Woah, sorry man, my bad. Anyways, what did you want to do today?"

"Well, whatever you wanna do!" I told him, and, yes, I wanted to do
WHATEVER he wanted to do.

"Okay, want to come inside and see my room?" He asked casually.

"Sure!"

            He walked in front of me, opening the front door, and leading
me upstairs to his room. I also must say, the inside was beautifully
decorated. We arrived at his room, and the scent of 'boy' filled the
air. There was a full-size bed, black sheets, and a lighter-black blanket
to go along with it. The walls were white, and there was a small computer
desk in the corner, with a rather old looking computer on it, and a hanging
plasma TV on the wall. There was also a nice piece of furniture with 6
drawers and a large mirror above it. He went over to his computer and sat
at the desk, and I sat on his bed, next to an empty box.

"Nice room, dude" I said, sounding amazed.

"Nah, it's nothin' special, haha." He replied.

"Compared to mine!? This is amazing!"

"Whatever," He said sarcastically. "anything about you I should know?" He
asked me.

"Like what?" I asked in reply to his question.

"Like. any secrets? Hehe, I am the best at keeping secrets, and talking
about stuff." Everything he said was getting me more and more comfortable
talking to him, he was really amazing in my eyes.

"Well. I have lots of secrets. But I don't know if I should tell you, It's
kind of personal." I said, sounding sad.

"Dude, it's okay, I have my secrets too, and if you're willing to listen,
I'm willing to tell you, but, please tell me, I won't go psycho or
anything." He reassured me.

"Uhh.. Well," I was shaking so bad. "uhh.. I'm uhh.." I couldn't do
it. This beautiful guy. If I told him, it could ruin our friendship all
together! I didn't want this to happen, at all.

"I'm gay." I made the decision to be gay, at that moment. I knew I liked
this beautiful guy, and that was that. A chill ran through my body, back
and forth, as a dead silence filled the air.

"Um. That's cool with me dude, I won't tell anybody" Again, he reassured
me.

"Thank you so much, you have no idea how much it means to have someone I
can trust with this stuff," I was so relieved!!! "And. I also have another
confession." HOLY SHIT! I was letting out all the wrong stuff, and I just
kept on talking like there was no tomorrow! Ahhhh!

"I'm very attracted to you. And I know this might sound a little weird
but. ahh I'm sorry abo-" I was interrupted as he placed his finger over my
lips.

"Shhh." He whispered, with the cutest smile on his face. He then pushed me
onto his bed, and started kissing me. This was the most magical moment of
my entire life. I was. Making out with the most fantastic guy I have ever
met! This must be a dream! It must be!

            After about 2 minutes of making out, he broke the kiss, and got
out a piece of paper, and started writing something. I was still silent,
because I was in shock from this most fantastic experience. He handed me
the paper, and said, "Call me." The paper read his phone number, and I got
up, and he put his arms around me, and hugged me tightly. He showed me to
the front door, and we said our goodbyes. I walked home, startled from what
had happened today. I was just- in shock. After about 10 minutes or so, I
arrived at my house, and I ran up the stairs, but my mother was in the way
of my door.

"AND where have you been, young man!?" She was pissed.

"Uhh, I was just at a friends house, jeeze mom, sorry." I pushed her out of
the way, and locked myself in my room. I hate her. I hate her a lot. I was
sitting at my desk for a while, thinking.. Then I took a nap for about 2 or
3 hours, and woke up to my brother and his friend listening to loud music
in the next room. I came out of my room and banged on the door, told them
to shut the hell up, and went back to my room. I sat there a minute before
I realized that there was no school tomorrow, and maybe I could spend the
night at Jay's house! I tiredly sat on my bed, and pulled out the paper
with Jays number on it, and started to input the number into my cell phones
phone book, and then called him. It rang about 5 or six times, till he
picked up.

"Hello?" He answered.

"Hey. It's me. Mike." I tried to stay quiet, and unnoticed.

"Hey. About earlier, I forgot to tell you one of my secrets. I'm gay
too. Like you.. And about that kiss, sorry, I just couldn't hold back the
urge to kiss your soft beautiful face." At this point, I was floating;
heaven-like. I was so happy at this point.

"Oh, it was nothing, hehe. Anyways. Since there isn't any school tomorrow,
do you mind if maybe I crashed at your place for the night? I can't stand
it here anymore." I asked innocently.

"Well, let me go ask my mom, I'll be right back, okay?"

"Okay." I waited patiently, as I asked my mother too. She said I can go,
under the conditions I had my room cleaned, and ate dinner.

"Hey, you there?" He asked, out of breath.

"Sure am!" I said happily.

"My mom said you can stay over, if your mom says it's okay."

"Yeah, she did, I asked her. What time should I come over?"

"Come at about. 9, that good?"

"Yep! I'll be there at 9, sharp, okay?"

"Okay, seeya sexy!" He hung up before I got to say goodbye, and I was full
of excitement, and took off my pants, so I could wear my P.J Pants
underneath my jeans. This was going to be so much fun. It was only 8 30,
and I couldn't wait to go! I went over to my computer, and turned on
Blubster, and set my play list for Sarina Paris to play. I began dancing
around the room, making sexual movements, and hoping I had a boyfriend! I
wonder what kind of music he was into? Well, whatever, I was getting myself
all 'spiffy' to go to Jays house. The clock read 8 40 after a bit, and I
couldn't wait any longer. I walked out of my room, said goodbye to my mom,
and told her to call me if she needs me.

            I was walking very fast, anxious to arrive at Jay's house. My
phone started to ring, and I pulled it out to find, Alex was calling me. I
think my face turned white, as I remembered that note Alex gave me. I
started to slow down, and I ignored the call, hoping I'd completely forget
about him, while I was going to see my boy. Well, hopefully my boy. I
finally arrived at his house, and I checked my cell phone for the time,
which was 8 55. I knocked on the door softly, this time, his mother
answered.

"Hello!" She excitingly answered the door. "You must be Mike, right?" She
asked.

"Yep, that's me!" I replied happily.

"Well, come in, come in, Jay is upstairs, help yourself to his room, you
know where it is, right?"

"Yep, thanks!" I said politely.

            I knocked on his door, and for a minute, I thought I was at the
wrong door, because there was no answer. I waited a few seconds, and he
opened the door, and pulled me towards him, shut the door, and pulled me to
the bed, and he held me tightly, and kissed me. He kissed me in a way I was
never kissed before. I knew he was about to love me, not get into my
pants. I was so glad I had met this boy. I have never been happier in my
life, and it was just getting better. He pulled me under his blanket, and
he held me tightly, and we snuggled together, and he turned on the TV and
Save The Last Dance was on. I wasn't watching, I was busy holding him, and
thinking. He came close to my ear, and whispered something.

"I love you"

"I love you too." I whispered back.

- To be continued -

Hey guys! Thanks for reading! This is only the second chapter, number three
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