Date: Mon, 15 Sep 2003 23:23:56 -0700
From: Fusion Zero <xdigitalialityx@hotmail.com>
Subject: Live for Love/Chapter 3

Live for Love

By Brian

Chapter 3 :

            As I layed there, in Jay's arms, I was. in heaven. I was
thinking the entire time, 'are we a couple?' and, 'does he really love me?'
While we snuggled together, about 45 minutes later, we both fell into a
deep sleep. At about 5 30 am I had been awoken from a door shutting. It was
Jay, coming back to his room. He came in, wearing boxers and a slightly
long shirt, and he sat at his computer and looked like he was thinking
really hard. I began to move myself upwards, and I think I scared him, he
jolted over.

"Jay.?" I sounded like I has just awoken from being dead for 28 years.

"Hey babe. Sorry I woke ya." He sounded so innocent.

". It's alright.. what are you up to?" I was sitting up now.

"Oh nothing. Just thinking about last night. And. I don't know, I was so
scared at first. Because I've never been with a guy before, and. I just.. I
don't know.." He was so upset, or at least he sounded like it.

"Me neither. But ever since I saw you yesterday in class, I was so blown
away by you. I love you Jay. I hope. that you love me too.. Uhh.. So.. are
me and you.. like.." I layed back down on the bed.

"Well, unless you don't wanna be, I mean-" I interrupted him. "Of course I
do!" He got up and walked over to me, leaned over and kissed me on the
cheek, and got back in bed. with me.

"Wait a minute, can I take off my pants? I have been in pants + PJ pants
this whole time."

"Alright sweetie." He said kindly.

            I got out of bed and slipped off my jeans. I hopped back in bed
with Jay, and we lay there will the sun came up. We were laying together,
until his mother came knocking on the door, and I got scared and fell off
the bed.

"Jay honey, breakfast is ready downstairs! Come out!" She hollered.

"Alright mom, alright! Wait a minute!" He rudely answered back.

"Hey babe." I said quietly, after she walked away.

"Hey sweetheart. I'm sorry I woke you up last night, and yeah.. Anyways,
honey, get ready for breakfast, okay?"

"Alright." He then leaned over and kissed me with his soft, moist lips.

I yawned a few times, took off my pj pants, and put on my pants. Jay did
the same. He had a greatly built body, and a cute ass. =). I then followed
him downstairs, to find a table set for two in the beautifully decorated
kitchen.

"You have a beautiful place, Miss." I said to his mother.

"Oh Mike, you can call me Laura, no more of that 'miss' stuff, alright
cutie pie?" His mother was so friendly; I wish my mom was like that. She
had made us eggs, pancakes, and a few pieces of bacon. It was delicious,
and I think I must've looked like a pig eating it, on the count of I never
ate dinner like my mother had asked me to.

"More Orange Juice?" She asked.

"No thank you, I'm good. Thanks a million for the food! It was great!"

"Oh it's nothing. Jay, why can't you be so thankful for everything like
your friend Mike?" She seemed kind of pissed.

"You'll get over it mom." He sounded extremely tired.

            We finally finished breakfast, and we had a nice conversation
about the city, and school, and stuff around here. Jay then headed me back
up to his room, and he left to go to the bathroom. I pulled my phone out of
my pocket to find I had three missed calls. Alex, My mother, and Sarina. I
was so confused with Alex, and what he was calling me for. I know he liked
me and all, but I don't know what to do. Now I don't even want to tell him
I'm with Jay, and, I don't know. Things with Alex will never be the
same. Never.

            After about 5 minutes, Jay came back to the room, looking
really sexy. He had his hair brushed down, sexy white t-shirt, and dark,
tight jeans. He was so hot, you can't imagine. On the other hand, I looked
like shit!

            He shut the door, and pulled me towards his lips, and kissed
me, passionately. I was again, floating in heaven. I broke the kiss, and
told I needed to get ready to go out. He didn't argue with me, and led me
to the bathroom. He had a lot of hair products in his bathroom, and they
were very girly. I looked around for a brush, and couldn't find one.

"Jay?" I called out.

"Yeah?" He responded.

"Where's your brush?" I asked in a cute way.

"It's in on the shelf, by the towels." He hollered back.

"Thanks ba-Jay!" Ah! I can't believe I almost let that out! I needed to be
more careful with this, and I don't know if I'll grasp the concept: We
can't be gay in public.

"Haha, no problem!" I don't think he cared if his mom heard me saying
things like 'sweety', and 'babe' to him.

            I quickly fixed my hair, and tried to make myself
presentable. I then went back to Jays room. I found him sitting there,
writing in some sort of journal. It was a blue spiral notebook, with
pictures all over the front and back.

"Hey sweety. What's that?" I asked, kinkily.

"Uh, nothing!" He closed it as if it contained a toxic gas, and it was
going to kill me. He then shoved it into a drawer in his desk.

"Uhm, okay, you ready to go?" I asked politely.

"Of course." He walked over and our arms hooked together, and he kissed my
hair.

"What if your mom sees?" I asked, worried.

"She already knows. I'm.. yanno.." He said.

"Oh, I didn't know that. My mom doesn't know, and I'm scared to tell her."
I said, as we walked out of the door.

"I can help you with that. Would you like me to?" He said.

"That's okay.. I can wait. hehe. I love you." I nudged my head into his
chest.

"I love you too sweety. But.. What are we doing?"

"Whatever you want to do."

"Lets goto the park, the one you wanted to go to yesterday." I was
surprised he had asked this.

"Really?"

"Yep."

"Okay!" I had the biggest smile on the face, as me and him walked to the
park, holding hands, swiping spit, little kisses, here and there. It was so
much fun to be with him. On our way there, we talked about everything;
Video games, Movies, Being Gay, Friends, Where he used to live,
just-EVERYTHING! I was so happy. Happier than I've ever been before.

            We finally reached the park, and it was desolate. I took him
over by a bench, under a beautiful tree, and we sat down, and talked a bit,
and I sit there while he lay on my lap, and, it was so beautiful out, small
breeze, birds chirping. It was. Just perfect. We sat here for hours, just
being with each other, and it was just-better than ever. Nothing could ruin
this moment. Nothing at all. He kept repeatedly telling me he loved me,
and, oh my it felt so fantastic to be loved like this.

            It was around 2 30 now. There was a nice breeze in the air, and
for hours, not a single person to walk through. But now, a person was
coming through.

"Who's that?" Jay quietly asked.

"I don't know, I can't make out the face.. It looks like. Oh my god. No."
Chills ran up and down my spine, and I was shivering.

"Babe? Who? What's wrong? You look like you just saw a ghost!" He lifted
his head off of my lap, and was still confused.

"It. It's my best friend from school. Alex. But the other day, he gave me a
note saying he liked me. oh no. I. Ugh." I was so worried about what Alex
was going to do, when he saw me and Jay together.

"Hey Mike!" Alex had a huge smile on his face, and seemed to act normal.

"Hey Alex. I want you to meet somebody, this is my. my. my uh. my new
boyfriend. Jay." I was worried about him. Alex never was such a stable
person, he's very sensitive.

"Hey Alex, nice to meet you." Jay stuck out his hand to shake Alex's, and
luckily, Alex stuck out his hand too.

"Alright well I'll be on my merry little way back home, okay?" Alex seemed
happy, yet. I could see he was holding in tears. I didn't know what to do,
and I. I still wanted to be friends with Alex, but. I will now always have
a feeling that Alex will always be jealous of me and my boyfriend(s).

"See-ya!" Jay and I said in unison, and we waited till he was out of sight
to start talking again, and he layed his head upon my lap once again.

"He seems nice" Jay said

"Yeah. He's a nice guy, but. I don't know, now that he likes me. I'll feel
weird."

"Why? He's still the same person."

"I know, yet. I don't know." I frowned in a way that I was still happy with
Jay, but unhappy about Alex.

            The rest of the day we spent at the park, it wasn't too hot,
considering it was 68º, In Florida. The sun was going down, and there
was a beautiful breeze. Today has been, again, one of those fantastic
days. It was about 8 pm, and we got up, and began walking again, and
holding hands, and kissing each other. We finally reached my house, at
about 8 15 - 8 30, considering we were walking slow, making the moment
last. We had to split, and I couldn't stand to see my baby go. I just
couldn't take him leaving my sight. I loved him so much, and now I always
wanted him here with me.

"Mom, I'm home!" I walked into the door, and quickly went upstairs before
she demanded an explanation of where I was. I locked myself in my room, and
got undressed and-Oh no! I left my favorite PJ pants at Jays house!

"Mom, I'm going over Jay's house a minute, I forgot something there, be
back in a few!" I quickly walked over to Jay's house, and he let me in to
get my PJ's. He gave me a kiss goodbye, and told me he loved me, and to
call him as soon as I got home. I loved the feeling of someone caring about
me.

            I was on my way home, when I ran into my friends, Chris, Megan,
Jeneane, and Mandy.

"Hey, what are you guys doing out here?" I asked casually.

"Looking for you, dumbass! We wanted to hang out tonight, but we couldn't
find you!" Megan hit me with her water bottle she was carrying.

"Hey, hey, who's the boyyyyfriend? We saw Alex before and he told us
allllllll about him!" Chris was really annoying me.

"Alex told you?" I was surprised.

"Well yeah, who else would? You obviously didn't tell us!" Chris was pissed
in his gay little ways.

"Uhh. I gotta go.. I'll see you guys at lunch tomorrow."

"Bye, See ya tomorrow!" They all said in unison.

            I walked home, again with fear. Was Alex telling all of my
friends I went out with a guy I met a few days ago, rather than him? I
don't know where I went wrong but I hope Alex isn't mad at me, and nobody
else is either. I arrived at my house, to find my cell phone begin to
ring. It was Jay! What a sign of relief! I answered it, and I walked up to
my room, slipped on my PJ pants, and layed in bed, and talked on the phone
till about 2 30 am. I also discovered his eyes were HAZEL not blue. First
impressions always fail.  I fell asleep right after we got off the phone.

            I woke up the next morning, feeling better than ever. I went to
get some clothes to wear, and put on black dickies, brushed my hair down,
and brushed my teeth really good. I also found a pack of gum, so my breath
would smell 'extra fresh'. I then put my cell phone in my pocket, grabbed a
few bucks for lunch, grabbed my backpack, and left silently without
breakfast. I began to walk to school, and it was 7 45 am, a little early
today. I arrived at school at about 8 am, and I waited a few minutes for
Sarina, my baby Jay, and. Maybe Alex. After about 10 minutes, it was 8 10,
and I saw Sarina coming towards me. And then, in the other direction, I saw
Jay! He was coming my way, and. and. He was walking with. with. Alex?


-To Be Continued-


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