Date: Fri, 02 Jun 2000 12:39:20 -0700
From: DJ Paul <dj-paul@mailcity.com>
Subject: Chapter one of Love is a Hard Thing to Find in Some People

LOVE IS A HARD THING TO FIND IN SOME PEOPLE

CHAPTER ONE  INTRODUCTION OF CHARACTERS.


CAST OF CHARACTERS:


Jeremy: 15yrs old GAY

Justin:   17yrs old DON'T KNOW AT THIS TIME

Brian:    16yrs old STRAIGHT

Jimmy   13yrs old STRAIGHT

Future characters will be named later on in the story.


The town that this story will mostly be portrait in will be Toms River, NJ.

Hi my name is Jeremy and I live in the outskirts of town. I am a student in
the 10th grade at Thomas Jefferson High School. My parents have lived here
all their lives. They are pretty cool as parents go.  I have a few friends
that I hang out with but my best friend that I have in the world is Justin.
He and I have been in the same classes since we were in 6th grade. We have
become the best of friends. And I have been dreaming of the day that I
could come clean with Justin and just tell him how much I truly do love
him.  You see I am gay and have been fantasizing about Justin most of the
time that I have known him. I have never had the guts to tell him though.
He has the cutest ass and a great 6 pack and not a bad package from what I
can see through his sweats that he loves to wear. We used to have a nice
quiet town until one of our Little League teams won the Little League World
Series. Now there are tourists here every weekend now for the last three
weeks.  Trying to find out where the kids are signing autographs. I used to
play ball when I was younger but I didn't do very well so I gave it up when
I came to high school. Now I am more interested in Computer games and
Music. The thing I like the most about the computer is that I can go online
and talk in the chat rooms. I never use my own name I use a different name
so no one will know who I am. I love to go into the gay chat rooms.  I
pretend to be a 22yr. Old. And nobody really knows that I am only 15. I
have been propositioned by a lot of guys that want to have cyber sex. I
really never thought about it but after doing cyber sex a few times with
some guys online I kind of like it. It beats masturbating by myself.
Although it doesn't take much for me to get off all I have to do is think
about Justin and I can pull a chubby with no problem.

There are other friends of mine that I hang out with on a regular basis.
The other two guys who I hang out with are Jimmy and Brian. We have several
classes together but we just hang out at lunch. Justin lives about 3 blocks
from my house and Jimmy and Brian live across town. So I mainly hang out
with the love of my life Justin. Sometimes the other guys come over and
spend a weekend once in awhile. But as good a friends that Justin and I are
he never wants to stay overnight. I know that he has an idea that I am gay
but he never comes out and says anything. That's one of the reasons that he
doesn't want to stay over I guess. Maybe he is afraid that I will jump him
or something. But I sure do love him its just hard to say anything or do
anything because he does not respond well to affection. One time we were
playing basketball down at the courts and we played these other two guys
and when we won I kind of hit him on his ass. You know like Congratulations
on a good game. And he turned around and gave me a dirty look. So I never
did it again. He also doesn't like to hug. You know when you say goodbye to
somebody that you care about you give them a hug goodbye. He doesn't
believe in that either. So here I am with a hard on with nothing to do but
go into the bathroom and whack off.

It's tough when you love someone and they don't love you back. I am just a
softhearted person and love affection. As a matter of fact I thrive for
affection. I love it so much that I feel like I am drowning over here
waiting to find somebody to share my affection with.

Well getting away from all that affection stuff. I have made up my mind
over the weekend that I was going to try and talk to Justin about possibly
having a relationship.  I figured that during the ride on the bus I would
give him a note with my feelings about him and if there would be a chance
that we could talk about it at lunchtime. There is only a few things he can
say. He can either say yes I would like to talk to you. Or he can say no I
am not interested. Which would break my heart or he could be like the rest
of the homophobia's and tell me to go screw. Either way I wanted to find
out.

Sunday night was really tough for me I didn't get much sleep. Just thinking
about Justin and if he said yes just how far he would want to go. And then
if he didn't want to get involved how my dreams of having an affair with
him would be shot down. I decided to try and roll over and go to sleep. I
guess sooner or later I dozed off because I remember hearing the alarm go
off at 7:30am.

I got up and was very nervous. I went into the bathroom and jumped into the
shower. All the time I was in there all I could think about was Justin.
Hoping and praying that he would agree to the relationship.  I got out of
the shower and put on some clothes and then packed by backpack with my
books and my very precious note for Justin. I took my backpack downstairs
and my mom had made breakfast for me. So I gobbled that down took a sip of
my OJ and ran out the door to catch the bus. Even though we live close to
the school they insist that we ride the bus. Some, type of security
bullshit. So I got on the bus and Justin's stop was the second one after I
got on. I was looking out the window just to see if he was at the bus stop.
Sure enough there was my honey waiting for the bus. The bus stopped and a
couple of other kids got on the bus before Justin. Then it was his turn to
get on. I always save him a seat next to me. So here comes my honey down
the aisle.  I was so nervous that I was just about shaking. "Hey Justin
what's up dude?"

"Nothing much I had a shitty night at home my parents were fighting most of
the night again."

"Sorry to hear that Justin. Listen I have a note that I want to give you
it's something that I would rather write to you about rather than talk
about in public. I am hoping that you will wait until we get off the bus to
open it and read it."

"Yeah okay but what is it that you can't talk to me about?"

"I would tell you Justin but I would rather that you read the note and
then we can discuss it. Is that Okay?"

"Yeah, sure whatever."

"Listen how about if we meet at lunchtime and discuss the note is that all
right with you?"

"Yeah Jeremy that's ok with me."

Well we continued on our short bus ride to school and all I could do was
smile and hope that he would agree to everything that I want to do. We chit
chatted about the classes that we had today and before you know it we were
there.

We went our own ways and met in most in of our classes. I was hoping to get
some type of response from him in some of morning classes but I couldn't
tell if he even read the note. He never frowned or smiled or nothing. I
thought sure that I was in trouble but I will have to wait till lunch
period to find out.  The first few classes went ok. Then we had gym and
Justin didn't say a word to me the whole class. We only had one more class
together before it was time for lunch and that was science. We sat right
next to me and didn't even look at me. Man I figured that he read the note
and was pissed. Oh well I knew that after this class I would find out if my
true love that I had been dreaming about would have anything to do with me
besides just our normal friendship. Well, the bell rang to end Science
Class and we headed for the lunchroom. Even though the lunchroom was
crowded we were able to find a table where we were the only ones and we
could talk.  Well here goes, I know I am holding my breath. We got in the
lunch line and picked up a sandwich and milk and a piece of fruit and
headed for the table.

I sat down first and then Justin sat across the table from me. I was
holding my breath. I guess I was going to have to break the ice.

"Well Justin did you read my note?"

"Yes, I did Jeremy and I had two different kind of emotions. My first
emotion is that I couldn't believe that you waited so long to say something
to me. After all I knew you were gay, but you never acted liked you were
interested in me at all. And my second emotion was that I was so happy that
finally I could come out and tell someone that I loved them. Yes Justin I
am gay and I am so glad that I finally don't have to hide from you anymore.
The other question that you had asked was, would I be interested in having
a relationship with you?  Well my answer is YES I WOULD BE VERY HAPPY TO
HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU."

"Oh my goodness Justin, you have been the person that I have been dreaming
about for a long time and I can't believe that it is true. That you, would
have a relationship with me. All I want to do right now is jump over this
table and give you a big hug and kiss, but I know we have to be discreet.

"Is there any place that you know of Justin that we could meet outside of
school."

"Jeremy there is the movie theater in town. We could try and catch an
early show and sit way in the back row so nobody would see us."

"That sounds great Justin when do you want to go?"

"Listen Jeremy I have chores to do at home tonight but how about tomorrow
we catch the first matinee?"

"Justin is it ok to call your house tonight because I sure would like to
get to know you better and maybe we could discuss a few things."

"Jeremy my parents are going out tonight about ten, you could call me then
or is that too late?"

"No ten sounds good to me. I will call you on my phone in my room so we can
talk without my parents picking up the extension."

"Well that sounds good then I will see you on the bus this afternoon."

"Sure thing lover see you on the bus. Don't forget to save my seat."

"No problem Justin there will be a seat for you right next to me. Nobody is
taking that seat but you."

"Okay then seeya after school."

"All right sounds good. Seeya then."

****** Writers note: Well folks that's the end of chapter one. I am looking
forward to hearing from you on how you like or dislike this story. I know
there was no sex in this chapter but believe me these two boys are going to
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