Date: Sun, 18 Nov 2001 16:57:05 EST
From: EnglishPoet16@aol.com
Subject: Love's Last Kiss - Chapter 7

Author's Note: Hello again! Sorry it's been so long! You wouldn't believe how
busy one can get. Well, it's extremely short but a lot happens so I figured
it would hold you until next time. Just remember, don't kill me yet!! All
comments are gladly accepted.

Love's Last Kiss

Chapter 7

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    My sister came through the door first. She had a bag under each arm and a
blank look on her face. I wonder if she knew. She looked at me funny for a
moment.
    " What did you do? Mom has been acting so weird ever since she  came back
from getting the checkbook. She won't tell me why."     Heather asked.
I heard mom getting out of the car. I decided not to tell Heather for now. In
all honesty, I didn't know what to say in a matter of 2 minutes that would
deem appropriate.  She got tired of waiting on me to answer and left the room
with a pouty look. Mom came through the door and sat down. She looked as if
she had aged ten years in two hours. We sat there quietly for a few minutes,
neither of us particularly wanting to bring up the past event but both knowing
we had to.
    " Brad, I-" My mom began.
    " Mom, I'm sorry really I am." I felt tears well up in my eyes. "   I
can't help it I'm gay. I don't want to be but I am. I love Lucas    and he
loves me. He makes me happy. Please don't stop loving me    mom. Please
don't." The floodgates opened and tears spilled down    my cheeks.
I felt my world crashing down around me. My happy little world now ceased to
exist and I was faced with reality. I knew one thing right away. I didn't
like reality.
I pressed my face into my hands. I felt my mother's arms circle me in a tight
embrace. She sniffled and I sensed she was crying too. We cried until we
could cry no more. I began to feel whole again.
    " I still love you Brad. How could you not know that? I just think  it
would be to your best benefit if you stopped seeing     Lucas. I    don't
want you to hang around him anymore. He must be a   bad     influence on
you."  My mom said.
I couldn't believe my ears. Stop seeing Lucas? I couldn't. I loved Lucas. He
was everything to me. No, I couldn't do it. I wouldn't do it. I jumped out of
her grasp.
    " No!! I won't do it! I will not stay away from him! You don't
    understand! It's not his fault I'm gay! It's mine! You think if I   stay
away from him I'm suddenly gonna like girls again! You're   ashamed of me
aren't you!? Admit it!!" I screamed.
My mom recoiled as if she'd been bitten and she turned pale.
    " You watch your mouth young man!" She whispered.
I ran from the room until I got upstairs. I ran smack into Heather who had
apparently been eavesdropping. It didn't matter to me now anyway. She looked
concerned and tried to reach for me but I dodged her hand and locked myself
into my room. I heard her still at the door and she called my name but I
didn't respond. A fit of rage overcame me and I started sweeping things off
of my shelves. It seemed to be satisfying to hear them crash to the floor.
Finally, too exhausted to continue, I sat down in the middle of it all and
cried once more.
    I don't know how long I sat there but my mom and my sister left after my
sister tried to get me to come to the door. I don't know where they went but
I heard them get in the car. It was dark by the time I finally began to move
again.  The phone rang into the silence; a shrill penetrating ring. Numbly, I
reached for it.
    " Hello?" I said.
    " Brad?" Lucas' voice rang out like music to my ears.
    " Lucas." I whispered.
    " Are you okay? What happened?" Lucas asked.
So I explained everything to him in detail. He listened intently,
interrupting every so often to tell me it was okay; that we would find a way
to get through this - together.
    " I'm coming over." He said.
    " No. I don't know when my mom is coming back and you can't be      over
here." I sniffed.
    " Dammit Brad! I love you! I don't give a fuck what your mom    thinks.
You're feeling really down and I want to be with you."
    " I'll be okay. I'll just see you tomorrow. I love you." I hung up  the
phone.
It was harder than I had thought to tell Lucas not to come over. I felt like
an outcast in this world.  I felt everything around me blur and I screamed
out in rage.
    " Fuck this world!! I don't need it!" I yelled.
I stormed into the bathroom. Wrenching open the medicine cabinet I grabbed
two bottles and spilled some of the capsules into my palm. I glanced in the
mirror with downcast eyes and raised a trembling hand to my mouth where I
dropped the pills and swallowed. I walked back to my room and lay in the
floor once again. It wasn't like all the books made it out to be. I laid
there for fifteen minutes and my stomach started clenching and I felt like
gagging. Then all I could see was red and then...nothing. The last thing I
saw was the face of
Lucas in my mind and how I loved him more than anything and would miss him.
    " We've got an emergency! I need all units on staff! He's going     into
shock, we may lose him. He doesn't look good..." I heard    momentarily.
I wandered away from the voices and the darkness consumed me once more.Even
without hearing it, I knew I had died. What had I done?

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Okay there it is. Chapter 7. Don't kill me! hehe. Nah, it will get better and
maybe I'll actually write a long chapter next time without a cliffhanger!
lol! Bye everyone! Enjoy! :)