Date: Thu, 3 Apr 2008 16:12:59 -0700 (PDT)
From: poeticjustice_14@yahoo.com
Subject: My Boys: Chapter One.

Wow, falling in love was a very strange thing for me. I'm not sure if it
was because of how old I was or just whom it was with but I know it
happened.  First off, my name is Alex and I'm 17 years old. I have hazel
eyes, mousy brown hair that I normally keep slightly shaggy, I'm about 5'10
and about 165 pounds, with super white perfect teeth, a cute little baby
face that has gotten plenty of looks from girls and guys alike.
	Anyway, on pretty much every Sunday my family normally congregates
at my great grandfathers house for dinner, which normally consists of
football outside, maybe some kickball, a little hanging out and playing
video games in one of the spare bedrooms and definitely pigging out on
great food! After I had my 2nd helping of desert, I decided to go into a
bedroom all by myself so I could lie down. My tummy was so full I could
barely walk! Anyway, upon entering the bedroom, I pretty much threw myself
on the bed and closed my eyes. I felt so warm and comfortable; it felt as
the bed was swallowing me in its soft, warm, fluffiness.
	I closed my eyes and enjoyed my quiet surroundings. No screaming
kids, no one laughing, no forks and places making that horrible noise when
you scrape them together. I was in heaven! That is until the door slightly
creaked open.
	In the doorway stood my 15-year-old third cousin, Tanner, the boy
who had been my incest eye candy ever since we were a little younger. See,
I knew I was different when I was younger but I thought that it would
change. I like girls but I like guys too, okay, well I like guys a lot. I
had fooled around with some guys from school but nothing too serious and I
had of course fooled around with some girls. I quickly found out that guys
were better at everything that involved foreplay.
	Tanner is about my height but a little skinnier but way more
athletic. Every time he is around, my cock jumps in my jeans. His blue eyes
would just gleam at me and make me want to ravish him right there. His dark
brown hair that looked like it was perfectly razored and it just made him
look even cuter with his perfect baby face. I had never seen him without a
shirt on but I knew that his tummy pooched out and his nipples were quite
large. I think I'm too analytical but I think it pays off when I'm alone in
my room.  His ass, oh my god! His ass looked so perfect whenever I would
look at it. I always love it when he wears sweat pants or gym shorts
because it makes his ass look more desirable.
	He quietly walked over to the bed that I was so comfortable in and
gently shook me, "You asleep?" The sound of his voice just got me turned
on.
	"No, I was just lying here." I looked up at him and he was
smiling. He had just gotten his braces off and his teeth were perfect.
	"Oh, well we're about to go play some football." He showed me the
football he had in his left hand.
	"Noooo!" I grunted hiding my face into the bed.
	"Dude! Why not? You pussy!" He laughed and gently sat down on the
bed.
	"I just ate and I'm really not in the mood for a football game!
Last time we played you totally took me down!" I gave him an evil look at
that point.
	"God you're such a wuss! Get up and lets play!" He quickly jumped
off the bed and stood up.
	"Ngggh!" I gently rose up off the bed and stood facing him, "No!"
	"Shew! Well, we won't have enough players then." He looked a little
disappointed but when I say "NO!" I normally mean it.
	"Sorry dude, just not in a football playing mood today." I shoved
my hands in my pockets and then looked in the mirror directly behind
him. His ass looked very yummy today.
	"Well, I'll just like, not play or something. We'll hang out." He
smiled at me again.
	"Play if you want to man, just get someone to be all time
quarterback or something." I quickly shifted myself so that my semi wasn't
so visible.
	"Nah, you look kind of bored, so we'll be bored together." Just
then I noticed him look down at my crotch region. I looked at him for a
second not sure what he was doing.
	"Hey! I'm up here." I quickly adjusted myself so that my cock was
running down the side of my leg a little more.
	He quickly snapped out of the gaze, "Oh uh...sorry, I must have
zoned out or something." His face was getting very red.
	"Suuure..." I let one of my eyebrows rise to show that I didn't
totally believe him.
	"Well, uh, um...I'm going to give the football to Coty, I'll be
right back." He quickly turned around and walked out, which gave me enough
time to go relieve my bladder and maybe get rid of the serious semi that I
had going.
	As soon as I came out of the bathroom, he was sitting on the side
of the bed playing with his cell phone. Tanner looked up at me and just
smiled as I walked in front of him.
	"So, what are we doing? Did you bring your X-box?" I put my hands
in my pockets and fiddled with my limp member.
	He put his cell phone away quickly and spoke, "Um, yeah but I think
someone else is playing it, do you just wanna watch TV or something, if you
want to that is. We haven't hung out in a while and I thought we could just
chill or something."
	Tanner and I had never really spent that much time
together. Granted we would hang out whenever we got the chance and we
always talked at school but I never knew that he actually would want to
"chill" with me.
	"Sure, if you want. Do you want me to close the door?" I quickly
walked over to the white door and began to shut it.
	"Yeah." He smiled and reached over to grab the remote. He flipped
on the TV and lay down on his tummy. At this point I started to lock the
door.
	"Uh, why are you locking the door?" He looked away from the TV for
a minute.
	"I don't know, I just thought that you might not want anyone
barging in here. I'll unlock it if you want..." I waited for a reply. God!
He looked so cute lying on the bed.
	"Nah, come on."
	"Okay..." I smiled at him and made my way to the other side of the
bed and plopped down. I looked down at my hands and began to fidget quite a
bit.
	"You seem nervous, you okay?" He put a hand on my back and gave me
one of those "I think you're weird" smiles.
	"Yeah...just feeling a little funny." I gave a retarded smirk and
just glared at the television.
	"I know this is kind of weird but do you think that you could give
me a massage? I'm kinda sore from baseball practice." My heart leaped at
this question. I have given him a couple of massages before but I had never
actually felt this way. I know I had boned up a few times but I never had
these weird butterflies.
	"Uh, um, sure...I guess I could do that for ya." I quickly
maneuvered my legs so that they were positioned Indian style. I gently
placed my fingers on his back and pressed into his sore muscles. His loud
moan told me that I was doing it right.
	I quickly went to the small of his back and then back up to his
neck. My fingers worked and worked as I looked at his bubbly ass. Yet
again, I felt my cock start to rise.
	I continued to the bottom of his back where it met his ass and
massaged there for a minute. He giggled a bit and just pushed his hips into
the bed.
	I felt all of the blood rush to my face as I massaged his athletic
backside. Wow, I had never felt this way before. I was getting cold chills
but I was hot as hell! The butterflies were getting worse and it felt like
I might throw up at any minute. I looked down at his face to see that his
eyes were staring up at me and a little smile had spread across his
face. He placed his hand on my back again and gently rubbed. Our position
was pretty awkward because I was sitting Indian style while he was lying
down and my knees were poking him in the ribs. Needless to say my legs were
getting very crampy.
	"Hey, is it okay if you sit up so I can massage you better? My legs
are killing me." I stopped for a second.
	"Yeah it's fine." With that, he gently repositioned himself.
	My aching legs were now stretched out beside his and he was sitting
between my legs. I noticed that this might not be the best position if
someone were to just happen to walk in. I wanted to change the position
again but I didn't want to ruin the moment. I could now smell the sweet
scent of his hair, his laundry detergent, pretty much everything! I was in
heaven but at the same time I felt bad.
	As soon as I started touching him, he shifted again but this time
he laid back completely and put his head on my shoulder. I was in shock! I
wanted to say something so bad but I could barely swallow, let alone speak!
I managed a low whimper but he just looked at me and smiled. He took my
hands and put them on his tummy and I almost passed out. I felt his tummy
for the first time and I just closed my eyes. I finally snapped out of it
and decided that I should make the next move.
	I gently wrapped my arms around him further and held him close. I
looked down at him and he was looking back up at me, smiling. His blue
eyes, ohhh his blue eyes were gleaming. I started gently rubbing his
sides. He smiled again and then shifted up a little more, his eyes still
looking into mine. For some reason, it looked as if his face were getting
closer to mine. I wasn't sure if it was just me or if it was actually
coming true! I tried to look away but I couldn't. Just then I felt his soft
lips gently touch mine and I closed my eyes. I felt his lips gently open
and I let mine do the same. His lips tasted so sweet and they were so warm
on mine. We ended it with a very low smack. His head went right back to my
shoulder.
	"Oh shit! I just kissed my cousin!" I thought. I was panicky but I
was on top of the world at the same time. It was time to speak up.
	"T-tanner, um, what just happened?" My voice had gotten pretty
hoarse.
	He looked at me and smiled again, "This..." with that he leaned up
and kissed me again but this time it was longer. His eyes were still closed
when he pulled away but when he opened them, he looked kind of dreamy.
	Wow, I never realized how much I wanted to do that. I wanted to
taste him again so I decided to go for it. I gently put my hand on his face
and positioned his face back toward mine and I kissed him again.  I moved
my hands back up to his tummy and started to rub gently as we kissed. His
hands quickly embraced mine and grasped at them, our fingers finally
starting to entwine. I felt his warm tongue slowly enter my mouth, at first
I was shocked and I wanted him to take it out but I realized how much I
liked it being in there, as weird as it sounds.
	Our kiss finally ended with us just looking into each other's
eyes. I definitely couldn't say anything and I really didn't expect him to
be able to say anything. Our hands were still entwined and I still felt as
if my face were getting ready to explode. I bit my lip and looked away.
	"I, um, I think I had better go." Tanner looked like he was going
to cry. I had no clue what to do! I gently pulled my hands away from his
this time.
	"Okay..." I was hoarse and it was all I could muster. My heart sank
as I watched him gently get up from our comfortable position. He looked at
me and turned around.
	"Ta-Tanner, don't go." My voice was trembling and I felt so scared
of what had just happened. Guilt had nestled at the pit of my stomach where
the butterflies once were.
	Through the light from the television, I could see that his face
was flushed and I could see him nibbling away at his bottom lip, then it
quivered "GET UP!" My thoughts yelled at me, "GO GET HIM! DON'T LET HIM
LEAVE!" My stomach was rolling as I scooted off of the bed. The next thing
I knew I was standing in front of him.
	"Alex, I'm sorry." The poor guy let his head drop and I heard him
sniffle a bit. He turned and started to leave but I grabbed him and pulled
him into me.
	"Why?" I put my fingers under his chin and lifted his head up. He
tried to look away but I pulled his face back toward mine.
	"I just kissed you..."
	"Yeah and I kissed you back." I let my hand fall away from his chin
only to grab his hand again. With that, I gently kissed his soft, boy-like
cheeks.
	His arms extended and they embraced me. His soft body collapsed
against mine, so I let mine do the same. Those butterflies were back again,
thank god!
	"So what does this mean?" I asked him as I rubbed his back.
	"It, uh" He hesitated, "It means that I'm in love with my cousin."
I felt his body tremble.
	I felt my heart leap, how could it be love? I had never been in
love before! I had a few girls fall in love with me, which sounds really
cocky but it's true! Love was something that I had never really wanted to
experience. I had seen it ruin too many things in life, one being the death
of one of my good friends, and the destruction of my mother and father's
marriage.
	My throat was clogged again, "I-is that even possible?" I couldn't
believe I had said that. I wanted to say "I love you too" but I was now a
"kissing cousin" and that freaked me out.
	"I think it is..." This now comfortable position was now becoming a
death grip situation. Tanner's stronghold on me only got stronger and
tighter but I found it to be quite comforting.
	"Tanner, I'm not sure what love is and I don't really want to be in
love." I felt my heart sink as these words escaped my lips. I felt a
violent shudder surge throughout his body.
	"But you kissed me..." He looked up at me, tears flowing down his
cheeks. My stomach was definitely hurting now.
	"Tanner, we're cousins. We can't love each other." I let go of him
and walked over to the bed and sat down. I resorted to putting my head in
my hands.
	I heard him walk over to me and I felt a hand on my shoulder. A
warm feeling came over my body as Tanner wrapped his arms around me and
hugged me.
	"Alex, we can make it work. I really do love you." His warm breath
flowed into my ear and gave me cold chills as he whispered.
	His words penetrated me like knives. It hurt that I couldn't tell
him that I loved him. We had known each other all of our lives and I had
always wanted something like this to happen but I didn't know how to
react. Love is such a big word and not meaning it could mean dire
consequences.
	His soft hands gently moved my hands from my face and replaced them
with his fingers, entwining them. His soft gaze, so understanding yet so
full of passion, were wandering about my eyes, trying to get a small
glimpse of hope.
	"Alex, look at me." He took one of his hands and made me look him
in the eyes, "If I can't have you then I don't want anyone." A small tear
escaped his eyes, which in return made me get hit by a pang of guilt. His
hands went back to the back of my neck and pulled me forward for a kiss.
	"Tanner..." was all I could say before he kissed me. Again and
again, our lips met. I was finally on top of him between his legs with my
arms beside of his head. His tongue gently probed mine with each sensual
kiss. His hands rubbed down my back and made their way up my shirt as our
lips smacked together.
	He broke our kiss for a second, "Alex, uh, will you make love to
me?" His eyes gazed into mine with complete love and complete trust.
	I felt my already hard cock get even harder, "Tanner, I think
that's taking it too far..." What was I saying? Of course I wanted to make
love to him! My conscious was fucking things up for me biiiig time!
	"There is no other person I want to do this with and I know you
want it to." Oh boy was he right! He had a great way with words, words that
hurt basically.
	I felt his left hand move off of my back only to move under us so
he could gently push it into my jeans. I gasped as I felt his warm hand
grab my cock, which had snaked its way down my leg. His eyes widened as he
felt my 7-inch cock. I'm also very thick which helped my cock fit perfectly
in his hand. I felt his lips against mine and then I felt his tongue
protrude into my mouth. I moaned as his hand squeezed my cock.
	I had to break away, "Tanner, we can't do it here." I tried to roll
off of him. He had other plans.
	He quickly rolled over top of me and straddled me, "You know you
want it Alex." His lips touched mine again. His aggressive actions were
kind of scaring me.
	I finally got a little more assertive and pushed him off of me onto
the bed, his eyes full of confusion. I quickly stood up, my cock making a
large tent in my jeans, "Dude seriously, I don't want to do this right
now." My face was red from all the "sexiness."
	The kid was pretty much begging me to fuck him but I couldn't. I
wasn't exactly a virgin when it came to guys or girls. I didn't even know
if I liked guys more or girls more. My normal brain was telling me to get
the hell out of there before I did something that I regretted but of course
the other brain told me to find a warm, wet, tight cave to put him in.
	"Alex, please?" His little red lips pouted out which made me want
to jump on him and make sweet, sweet love to his cute ass. My cock was
straining even harder in my jeans.
	"Tanner, it's not right. I can't do it..." I just stared at the
floor; I couldn't even look at him.
            His pause told me that he was pretty much pissed but what was I
to do? I didn't feel right in this situation. He's MY cousin! I'm not some
kind of pervert that has sex with his family...but this seemed different. I
couldn't really comprehend anything else so I just let him go.
            I finally stood up, my legs felt like jello and my head pounded
like I had got drunk the night before. I turned off the television and
walked out into the hallway, almost getting hit by one of the many baby
cousins that were running around. Everything was blurry and I could tell
that my face was very red, so I just decided to go home. Making my way down
the stairs to find my Mom could have been a lot less difficult, everyone
wanted to talk to me but I just smiled, walked away and nodded until I
found her.
            "Mom..." She ignored me as she talked to her sister that had
flown in from Florida.
           "MOM! I'm leaving..." The roar of my family just got a little
louder and it was kind of pissing me off, I saw Tanner eyeing me as he ate
another piece of pie...he looked very blank.
            Finally, I just decided to do something that would definitely
catch her attention. I cupped my hand, pulled it behind me and smacked her
straight on the ass. Her figure, which I might add is very nice for a
thirty-five year old, leaped forward.
            "What the he..." Before she could finish, I just spoke...being
as rude as I could.
            "I'm leaving, I don't feel good." Her face was red with
embarrassment as many of my aunts, uncles and even Tanner started to laugh
a little.
            See, my Mom and my Dad are pretty wealthy and I pretty much
always get what I want, when I want it. They married their sophomore year
of college and had me when they were juniors. My mom graduated with her
PH.D and became a pediatrician and my dad became a lawyer...so you can just
imagine how happy I am on my birthday and Christmas.
            Anyway, I just walked out of my great grandfather's house and
made my way to my car, my baby. A 2007, Red Dodge Neon, which I got for my
birthday this year. I had already broken in the backseat as well as the
hood and the front seat. I sound like a whore but it was with the same guy
and the same girl but not at the same time.

             One my way home, I couldn't help but think of what Tanner was
wanting out of me. It seemed so odd and out of the ordinary of him. I
actually always thought he was straight because he had girls flocking all
over him and he has always been a player. Maybe he was just curious but all
I wanted to do was go home and go to bed. I live about seven or so miles
from my great grandpas ranch house, so it's not too unbearable. The scenery
is pretty nice...it's just that I wasn't in the mood to admire it.
             Finally, I reached my nice subdivision and pulled into the
driveway. I watched carefully as I pulled into my garage, cut off the
engine, and made my way into my basement, up the first flight of stairs,
then the second and the third. I pretty much had the whole third floor to
myself. I had wanted the basement but my dad needed one part of it to be
his office and my mom wanted part of it to be her workout room...but
whatever.
            Collapsing on my bed, I could only think about the way Tanner
had reacted to me not wanting to have sex with him. Maybe it was the fact
that he wanted me to tell him that I loved him...but I couldn't. Gah! It
was so damn weird just the way he had wanted it so badly. Fuck it, I
thought. I'll just sleep and I'll deal with it some other time. With that,
I closed my eyes and studied my eyelids until the morning.

              I slowly made my way into the school, pretty much grunting
with every step. For some reason, I was very tired and felt really drained.
	"The day will be over soon..." I mumbled as I checked my reflection
in the glass door. Just for detail purposes, I was wearing a red polo that
fit kind of tight and jeans that were straight leg and kind of dark. My
hair was looking kind of messy but it still looked pretty good.
	Anyway, I crept down the hallway saying hi to many of the people
that walked passed me. Keeping my head down as I walked, I didn't notice
that I was coming up to Tanner and his group of friends. The first thing I
noticed was that he had his arms wrapped around this really pretty blonde,
Kenzie, I think is her name. She was chatting away with all of her friends
as Tanner just looked at me and smiled. The next thing I saw was Tanner's
best friend, Grant, just looking at the ground pitifully. The boy is
GOREGEOUS; short wavy brown hair, a body much like Tanners but with darker
skin, green eyes, and a cute little bubble butt.
	His smile got a little wider as I approached his little group of
friends so I just decided to talk to them.
	"Hey Tanner..." I watched as his cheeks turned a little crimson and
he quickly released his girlfriend.
	"Why'd you leave so quick yesterday?" Grant quickly looked up and
saw us talking and then his cheeks flushed a little, what the fuck was
going on I thought.
	"I got sick..." I couldn't help but notice that MY cheeks were
getting red and I never got embarrassed!
	"Oh, well that sucks. You should have stayed." He let his eyes
wonder to my crotch area and gulped. It didn't help that his girlfriend's
ass was right on his crotch. I noticed her look startled for a moment but
then she looked back and smiled at him. I couldn't help but giggle a little
bit.
	"Yeah, but I'm gonna go and..." I paused for a second as I noticed
Grant doing the same thing, "Do some things for my English class...uhum." I
grabbed the shoulder straps of my backpack, turned and walked away
slowly. Noticing the butterflies as I walked away, I got a little scared. I
DID have feelings for my cousin and I felt so disgusting.
	As I entered my Advanced English class, I couldn't help but think
of Tanner being wrapped up in my arms. The thoughts of us holding hands,
gently kissing, nuzzling our noses and I even pictured us having sex. I
gently gave my cock a gentle squeeze because it had snaked its way down my
leg. Oh boyyy, I thought.

	Finally, the day was over and I was tired as hell. Completing two
tests, a research paper and a lab report can be pretty stressful on a teen
but oh well. I quickly said goodbye to all the friends that I could and
started to make my way out of the building. Rounding a corner, I was
face-to-face with Tanner. The impact wasn't too bad but we both fell on our
asses.
	"Ahh, shit!" I exclaimed as my ass-bone hit the floor. I expected
Tanner to be in the same position but he was standing perfectly.
	"You okay?" He offered me his hand, which I quickly obliged to
take.
	"...Yeah...thanks for that." My response was pretty meek.
	"Sorry, I'm glad I ran into you though." I was now back on my feet
and staring him dead in the eye. Those eyes would make anyone's heart melt.
	"My ass isn't happy about you running into me..." Without knowing,
I had found myself rubbing my ass, which was throbbing in pain.
	Tanner let out a small giggle, "I was wondering...um, can you take
me home? I forgot that we don't have baseball practice today." I felt my
stomach pang with excitement.
	"Yeah!" I noticed how excited I had sounded. His eyes lit up though
and it was really cute.
	"Thanks a bunch, I forgot my cell too so I can't call Mom." He was
smiling from ear to ear.
	He looked so adorable. His tummy was pooching out a little in the
grey shirt he was wearing and the jeans fit perfect, showing off his cute
thighs. He looked kind of tired but of course that made me want to just
wrap him up in my arms even more.
	"Well, should we go now?" I felt slightly awkward because I noticed
that I had been staring at him. His face started turning crimson again and
he started to fidget quite a bit. He quickly grabbed his backpack and
started out the door. I couldn't help but watch his bubble butt wobble as
we made our way out to my car.
	"I'm sorry about yesterday..." The words suddenly filled my
ears. He had no reason to be sorry, I was the one that should've been
apologizing but I like playing hard to get I guess.
	I swallowed hard before I began to speak, "I-it's okay, it was just
sort of weird." My hands trembled as I stuck my key in the ignition (no pun
intended).
	"I meant almost everything I said though, except for the part about
if I can't have you then I don't want anyone. I think I exaggerated a
little bit" A small smirked molded his lips.
	I felt a lot calmer about everything than I had the previous night
but I was still afraid of loving a family member like that, "Well, I meant
everything too. I don't think I can love you like that." Again, my stomach
sank as the words fell from my lips.
	"But you admit that you're gay though, right?" Again, he felt the
need to smile.
	"No, not completely. I like girls too, Tanner. I'm just like you."
My focus on the road was hindered.
	"If you were like me then you would be gay. I'm just dating Kenzie
so everyone will think I'm straight."
	"Well, that's cool I guess." Wow, is there a gay gene or something?
	Tanner had propped up his elbow on the panel of the door and was
staring out the window. He looked really cute and it was hard not to stare
at him. He was perfect to me and I didn't exactly understand why. Just the
way his eyes glistened in the sunlight made my tummy tingle.
	"Why can't you accept the fact that we need to be together?"
Tanner's voice suddenly broke my concentration.
	"Wh-what are you talking about? I don't want to be with you." I
felt myself getting angry for no reason what so ever, "Can't you accept the
fact that I don't want anything to do with you like that?" My voice was
getting louder and my face was growing red. I felt tears start to invade my
eyes. I didn't notice that Tanner was staring at me in confusion with his
mouth dropped open.
	"I-I..." He couldn't even get a word in.
	"SHUT UP! Listen to me! I don't want anything like that with you!
Stop trying to seduce me and shit because that's how you are. I've heard
about all the shit you pulled with Kenzie." Actually I had never heard
anything about him and Kenzie but it felt right to say at the time.
	"Josh, I'm sorry! I didn't think you would react like that..." His
voice was cracking and I had realized how bad I had reacted.
	"Shut the fuck up..." GOD! Why couldn't I just shut the fuck up? I
had no idea why I was yelling at him but I just kind of exploded.
	He sat back in the seat and I heard him sniffle a couple of times
before I pulled into his driveway. I wanted to apologize but all I could
muster was a cough before he got out of the car slowly and stared at the
ground as he walked up the pathway to his house.
	Words can't describe how bad I felt. If only you could have seen
his face and the way he was biting his lip as he fought back his urge to
cry. As soon as I started to drive away, I felt as if my stomach were going
to explode. I zoned out and suddenly it seemed as if someone else took over
the car because I couldn't remember anything when I pulled into my
driveway.
	Walking into my house I didn't want to face anyone, but of course
that wouldn't be a problem seeing as my parents were both at work and
wouldn't be home until later that night. It was a good thing that no one
could see me because my face was blood red, my temper was high and I felt
like punching through a wall. I had never been so upset before in my
life. I felt something inside of me turn and then I felt the tears stream
down my face.
	"You fucking dumbass!" I screamed out at myself, "You know you
fucking love him! Accept it!" I couldn't help but cry and sob as I screamed
at myself. Hearing it from my mouth just made it worse. I couldn't believe
that I was admitting to loving my cousin. I collapsed on my bed and sobbed
into my pillow. I am so glad no one was home because I was crying VERY
loud.
	"Fuck..." was all I could muster as I made my way into my bathroom
after about an hour of crying. I knew what I had to do...

	As I pulled into Tanner's driveway, the butterflies in my stomach
had gotten much worse. I had refixed my hair, put on some really good
smelling cologne and had decided that I needed to tell him
everything. Nervously, I stumbled to the front door, rang the doorbell and
waited for an answer. Tanner's mom, Jennifer, was beautiful. Short blonde
hair, tall, in good shape. I know where Tanner got his good looks. It was
really cool because my mom and his mom work together at the hospital.
	"Hey Josh, I guess Tanner was expecting you?" She was all smiles.
	I tried my best to act normal, "Actually no, I just decided to stop
by for a minute." I had hoped I wasn't being too rude.
	"Well okay, he's in his room. I'm leaving so you two behave!" They
had recently moved and the house smelled so good. Like with all things are
new, it just had a distinctive smell.
	I made my way up the stairs, slowly I might add. I heard some
commotion coming from inside the room but I figured that the television was
on a little too loud. I turned the doorknob, pushed and slowly stepped in
the room just in case he had decided to throw something at me. I felt my
heart sink as I watched someone else on top of Tanner slowly kissing
him. The brown wavy haired guy was on top of him and slowly kissing him,
passionately, the way I should be kissing him. I didn't mean to make any
noise and I thought I could leave without disturbing anything but I backed
into the door, causing it to shut violently. When I saw who it was, I was
in complete shock. It was Grant! I had no idea that he was gay at all! He
had girls hanging all over him too.
	"HOLY SHIT!" I heard him yell as he fell off of the bed.
	"J-Josh what're you doing here?" Tanner scrambled to put his jeans
and his shirt back on.
	"I...I..." No words would come out, only stuttering. My heart was
broken and it had to be broken by Tanner's best friend. I could barely
comprehend what was going on. I didn't WANT to comprehend. I felt the tears
start to flow and I just opened the door and walked out. My chest felt like
it was caving in. I guess I deserve it though, I was the biggest asshole to
him ever and maybe Grant could give him more of what he needed and what he
wanted.
	I made my way down the steps as fast as I could and I kept hearing
my name but I wasn't sure if I wanted him to chase after me or if he
actually was. I finally made it out to my car when I felt a hand pull me
back and spin me around.
	"What the fuck Josh?" I couldn't look at him...
	"I-I, gotta go..." I tried to turn around but his grip was too hard
on my shoulder.
	"No you don't, talk to me." His voice was soft and he even sounded
forgiving. I still didn't want to face him though.
	"I came to tell you that I love you..." I blurted out and then
started toward my car again. He was too fast and he grabbed my shoulder and
spun me around again.
	"After what all you said in the car, you tell me that you love me
now?"  His voice was getting shaky again.
	"Yeah, when I got home I realized that I was afraid and scared and
I wanted to be with you even if you are my cousin." My face was growing
hot.
	He licked his lips and smiled, a tear ran down his cheek, "All the
things you said hurt pretty bad, especially when you told me to shut the
fuck up."
	"I didn't mea-." Was all I could get out before he started to talk.
	"I've already forgiven you." He got as close as possible before he
slowly leaned in and kissed me. My hands immediately found his face as my
lips slowly parted to meet his. Suddenly, I saw a huge flash of light and a
huge pain in my tummy, something I had never felt before. I heard him groan
once and then I followed. We slowly backed away from one another. That kiss
wasn't like the one we shared while we were at my great grandpas
house. This one was way more affectionate and it felt a lot different.
	"Wow..." was all he could say.
	"Uh...Grant...uh...here." Man, I had never felt so stupid.
	Tanner smiled at my incompetent statement, "Let's go inside and
I'll explain, okay?" He reached for my hand and grabbed it, slowly pulling
me back inside and upstairs to his room. Grant was sitting on the bed with
his arms crossed watching television.
	"Hey Josh, sorry about freaking out like that."
	"It's okay," I quickly turned to Tanner, "What's going on?"
	Tanner sighed, "Sit down and we'll both explain."



This is my second story so I hope you all enjoy it. Comments are welcome.
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