Date: Mon, 12 Jan 2015 21:30:03 +0000
From: kuragari 129 <kuragari129@hotmail.com>
Subject: My Life Started at the End of the World - Chapter 18

My Life Started at the End of the World.

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	Okay, here's a rather important chapter for Noah and Aidyn and, as
a result, it's all about them. Greyson and Sky have their moments too just
this chapter is saved for Noah and Aidyn.

	I'll stop talking now... Have a good read!


	MLSEW – Ch. 18 – Broken Bonds – No Surprise

	Aidyn's POV

	It was just a regular day at school; at least I thought it was. A
fresh new set of rumors just started circulating, and one was not so good
for me. Someone had seen Noah, and I hanging out at the mall and had
started the rumor we were a thing.

	Bryce and Chance were trying to calm me down in private. "Dude,
it's not that bad. All, you have to say to people, is your really good
friends. It'll be fine."

	I shook my head, "Bryce, Noah is going to use this as a good reason
to just come out! I can't, it's too risky right now."

	Chance raised an eyebrow, "And what about when you told me?"

	"I was scared half to death. This time it's like I'm scared to
death and back, and finally to death again." Yes, the idea of everyone
knowing I'm gay is that scary. Chance got up grabbing my arm and pulling me
along with him. "Where are we going?"

	"Your mom's office! She'll be able to help you out more." We passed
by a bunch of people along our way. It felt like everyone was staring at
me. I pulled my arm out of Chance's grip and continued to follow him.

	There was a kid in mom's office when we got there. "Okay Markus,
try not to play too rough next time okay?" Mom looked over at us, "Aidyn,
what brings you to my office?"

	Chance spoke for me, "We'd like to talk in private..." He eyeballed
the Markus kid.

	"I get it; I'll be going. Thanks, Mrs. Scott!" And he was on his
way.

	"Okay, I've heard the rumors that have been going around. How are
you holding up?"
	Chance rolled his eyes, "Terrible. It's scaring him to death twice
apparently."

	I bit my lip. "I just have this gut feeling everything will end up
wrong in the end. I don't want that to happen." I mean who does? Who wants
to destroy their lives by doing one event!

	Mom sat me down on the medical table. She found a seat on a
stool. "Listen okay?" I nodded. "I want you to follow just a few rules when
it comes to hard conversations like this one. First: Be Authentic. Be
yourself. If you want someone to be real with you, they need to know you
bleed too.

	"Second: Be Direct. Just rip the band-aid off. If you know you're
gay, say it. I didn't hear from you 'I might be gay' because you know you
are. That 'might' is an opening to the option of your not. Don't leave that
door open.

	"Thirdly: Be Unapologetic. That is what is most important. I don't
want to hear I'm sorry about anything that makes you, you. Other than the
lazy part." That made me smile a bit. "Some people might get hurt along the
way. Apologize for what you've done, or lack-there-off, but never for whom
you are. Do you understand me?"

	"I got it mom... Thanks."

	"There will be people disappointed, but that is on them. You have
done nothing wrong and should not feel bad because you have a heart of
gold. It might look like a huge leap, but you have many people there to
catch you. One of them is Noah, and you know it." Mom was right about all
of it. I still don't know what to do still.


	Noah's POV

	Aaron came up to me as I came out of the first class. "You've heard
it right?"

	I shook my head, "No? What should I have heard?"

	Aaron sighed, "Come with me." She marched off towards a set of
stairs that no one uses. "There are rumors about you and Aidyn. It's
circulating that you're together."

	"How did that start?" How is Aidyn taking this? He must be freaking
out. I hope he's okay. "Have you seen Aidyn?"

	"I don't know who started it and last time I saw Aidyn he was with
Bryce and Chance." Okay, he's with his friends it can't be too bad. "What
are we going to do about this?"

	I shook my head, "I don't know... Do you have any ideas?" She
shrugged her shoulders. "I got to go find Aidyn." I shot off down the halls
ignoring everyone I saw.

	I looked all around the school for him. The gym, library, and every
single hallway. Nothing. It was exhausting. "You look tired." Markus
seemingly came out of nowhere. "What are you doing?"

	Panting I smiled, "Looking for Aidyn, have you seen him?"

	"Ya nurses office, he wanted to talk to her privately with Chance."
I had to laugh. Markus must be one of the few people in school that doesn't
know Mrs. Scott is Aidyn and Sky's mom.

	"Mrs. Scott is Aidyn's mom, Markus."

	The realization hit his face like a brick. "That would make perfect
sense now wouldn't it..."

	I couldn't help but giggle, "Thanks, Markus!" I booked it towards
the nurse's office. As soon as I got there I opened to door, and there they
were; Aidyn, Chance and Mrs. Scott around the room. "Am I interrupting
something?"
	Mrs. Scott shook her head, "Nope, we were just finishing up. I
should hand in the reports for this morning's first aid. Can you two keep
an eye on the place?"

	Chance got the hint Mrs. Scott was making. "I got to go study, big
test next block. I'll see you guys later."

	And just like that Aidyn and I were alone. Neither one of us really
knew how to start the conversation we needed to have. Aidyn was sitting on
the first aid bed thing; I took a seat in his mom's stool.

	"I guess you've heard that there are rumors about us..." Aidyn
started the conversation. I nodded as a reply. "I don't know what to do
about it."

	"You could always come out..." I tried to say that in a way that
didn't sound like I wanted him to.

	"Noah, I don't know. It scares the shit out of me. I don't think I
can right now." Aidyn's eyes looked like they were watery.

	I've been with Aidyn for a few months now, and I can tell what's
going through his head. He really wanted to come out, so badly and just for
me. Aidyn was also scared for his life for what the result would be, and I
can't blame him for that.

	"Aidyn, it's already circulating. Now would be the perfect time to
say it and have it go completely under the radar." Aidyn shook his head. He
was trying to reason with himself in there.

	He groaned, "I just... I don't know!" Aidyn began rubbing his
temples.

	What could I say to convince him? "What if the world does come to
an end? What can you say you've done?" I could see the gears turn in his
head. He was deep in thought.
	"Noah I just... I don't know. If it does end I, don't want to go
out like this stressing out because of this."

	"So let's go out into the hallway and be happy together."

	That set the gears back a few steps. "No, no, no, no, no. I'm not
coming out today Noah."

	"Why not?"

	He shook his head furiously, "I can hardly think straight right now
Noah. If I were to go out there and come out... I don't know man."

	I stood up, "When then? When would you come out?" He shook his head
and shrugged. "That's it? You don't know do you?"

	"No, I really don't."

	I kind of went off the deep end. "Exactly! You don't know when
you're going to come out. How can we go out on proper dates or hang out in
public like we are together? We can't Aidyn, not with your fear!"

	Aidyn stood up too. "I can't help it Noah. I can't just step out
there into those halls and yell 'One of your grade ten star athletes is
gay' and expect everything to be the same. I'm going to lose things Noah!"

	"I lost stuff too Aidyn! I lost my brother, my mother, my father.
I know what it feels like to lose things that are important to you. I also
know that through loss you gain things you don't see before that.

	"You gain all sorts of strengths you never knew you had. You gain
friends that truly care. Yes you always feel the pain of those losses every
day but YOU make it all worth it!" I had tears flowing down my cheeks as I
finished.

	I felt Aidyn's arms wrap around me and pull me close to him. He
rubbed my back as I cried into him. I felt him kiss my forehead. "Noah, I'm
sorry."

	I settled down and looked up at Aidyn. "Just answer one question
okay?" He nodded, "When are you going to come out?"

	He was speechless. Aidyn couldn't mutter a single word. You could
see he wanted to, but he couldn't get anything out. "Noah, listen..."

	I shook my head, "Aidyn no! Answer me."

	I felt his arms drop from around me. "I can't..."

	"Then..." The hardest thing, I have ever done in my life, was open
my brother's diary... this is a close second. "...we're done." I turned and
walked out of the room. I did my best to hold back the tears, but they just
flowed. I ended up in a bathroom stall crying through the entire next block
of class.

	Aidyn and I are done... we're not together... I did this. I need to
stand by it. I need to stand by it. I need to stand by it.

	Chapter end.

	So... how about that ending? Did you expect it? Prepare for a storm
in the next two chapters. Next chapter will have a lead into the first
event of the story but won't have it. That's chapter 20, and it'll go into
chapter 21.

	I hope you enjoyed the chapter! I'll let you know MLSEW is going to
be 30 chapters long.

	I can also tell you I have another story called "Those Nights of My
life" that is going to be on my facebook page only until the next chapter
is released. If you want to read it the link, is at the top of the page!!

	Thanks for reading!