Date: Sun, 27 Dec 2009 15:00:23 -0800 (PST)
From: john son <c10wifi@yahoo.com>
Subject: my love adventure 5

I'm sorry guys, I haven't had time to write, but I did it. I completed
chapter 5, it's not edit though cuz I don't have one. My editor suppose to
be my boyfriend but he broke with me, so yeah. I hope you enjoy it. Please,
please tell me what you think at c10wifi@yahoo.com, love you all

 Chapter 5

Contain dirty scene, not sex, but kissing on places, but not sex. Those of
you who thought of sex, you're a dirty mind. Ok enjoy

From Shawn's POV

	Ok, so I left Bren after we talked. He looked and sounded so
confident. He's really different. If you don't know him, he's just a stoner
or a loner to you, but if you know him, he's sweet, loving, caring, and
delicate, and don't forget funny. I rushed to the pasta line and got my
lunch. I went back to the table and started digging in like nobody's
business. It was delish. I was full. Suddenly Chris and Wayne started
throwing food to other table. They laughed so hard, and I'm guessing
they're being stupid and embarrass another student again. Sigh... why can't
they be understanding and kind like me? Eh! Whatever. They laughed and
laughed and laughed, I was starting to crack up too.  I asked them what so
funny and they said that they're throwing food at the kid who won't do
anything back other than put on his hood and sit there and being food
paint. I was laughing. I felt bad for the kid. I wasn't trying to be mean
or jerky but it's funny I gotta laugh. I saw the kid got up and walked past
us. ". "Ha ha, you're enjoying your food Bowne? Ha ha just ask us next time
if you don't have money to buy some." Oh no, it just escape my mouth. The
sentence repeated itself more than 20 times in my head. His name was
everywhere I look, Bowne. No... I don't want this. I was laughing. Oh god,
no, why did I have to laugh? He turned back and looked at me with tears all
over his soft, beautiful cheeks. My heart ached and I was speechless in a
really bad way. He ran out of the cafeteria and everyone was laughing. I
got up and rush to our next class when the bell ring which I think was the
only thing that brought me back to reality, to see if he was there. He
wasn't there like I expected. He wasn't anywhere to be found. Then it hit
me, the school's backyard!! I rushed 30 miles an hour to the backyard. Ok,
it's not possible, but hey then again who knows. I swung the door open and
there he was, sitting with his knees up against his chin, his arms wrapped
around it, he was crying uncontrollably, and he was rocking himself back
and forth. It was killing me. I dropped to my knees and started crying
too. I began to crawl over to him, still with river of tears pouring out of
my eyes. He looked at me with hatred in his eyes. I saw those eyes before
on Angie when we first met. I crawled over directly in front of him. "B, b,
Bren?" "Go away" he answered looked blankly at nothing. "Please... Please
stop crying. It's tearing me apart. Please stop crying" I said through all
my tears. I felt like shit. "Bren please stop.... I love you and you know
that. It was just an accident." "Accident? Accident? It was not an
accident. You were sitting right there looking at me when you could've
stood up for me or at least told them to stop" at this point he was yelling
at me "I'm sorry... I am so, so, so a million times sorry. Please, I didn't
know it was you" "You didn't even bother turning around." "I was gonna, but
remember I was starving. You told me I can go and eat and I did. I didn't
mean to. Please Bren, I beg you." He was sitting in the same position
shaking his head. No, it's only been two days. I can't, I can't, he can't
"Please Bren, don't do this to me. Please I'll do anything, just please
forgive me" "Anything?" "Yes, anything my love. I'll do anything for
you. Just forgive me. I am so stupid. I was stupid and I wasn't
thinking. Just forgive me; I'll do anything to prove I love you." "Give me
a hundred pushups" no emotions, no nothing. Tears still there and so were
mine. "I'll do it even if it'll break my arms I'll do it for you. I'll do
it to show you that I love you with all my heart" "......" I guess no point
in talking, so I got up and walked to a flat area and start doing
pushups. I don't care what it takes. 100 pushups mean nothing to me if I
get to be with Bren. I did 50, my arms and biceps starts to hurt a bit. 75
hurt even more. 93 hurt so much I can't bear it anymore. 94, my arms felt
like they're gonna dropped apart. 95, my biceps felt like they're gonna
pop. 96, crash, I screamed out of pain, everything went dark. I fainted
still crying. I failed doing 100 pushups for my baby. I'm gonna loose him
forever. He hates me. Everything's gone dark completely.

	I opened my eyes. I can't move my arms. I managed some fingers. He
wasn't there anymore. I was alone under the tree. I started to cry again. I
closed my eyes and started to dehydrate myself through crying. I felt weak,
helpless, and open. No one has the ability to do that to me. No one has
that ability to make me weak, helpless, and afraid. No one had made me cry,
no one at all. Bren, the boy, the only boy, the love of my life, the only
that can do that to me. I gave him my heart. I looked down at my middle
finger. The fake ring that Bren bought me. It wasn't real or expensive like
the emerald one, but I love it. He spent his money on me because he loved
me, and I broke his heart. I closed my eyes and tried to remember all the
good time I had with him. About a half an hour I felt a warm towel on my
forehead, and someone sitting beside me, watching me. I opened my eyes and
there he was, smiling through his tears. I tried to get up, but my arms
hurt so badly. I think I had a sleep paralysis. I can't move my body at
all, not only my arms. I winced in pain. "Stay down, you'll be able to move
in no time. Even if you won't I'm gonna be by your side and take care of
you until we die together." I started crying out of happiness "I'm sorry
Bren. I'm so, so sorry. I didn't mean to. I failed you. I broke the love we
had for each other. I'm so sorry. I can't even do a simple 100 stupid
pushups. I'm so sorry" "It's ok. You tried your best. That was 95, I
counted you know? I love you all the way. It's just hurt a little when I
saw you do nothing when they're trying to hurt me." "No I wasn't doing
nothing. I can't move. I was so hurt to see you cry. I've never wanted to
see you cry. It killed me on the inside. I couldn't speak. I was dying."
"I'm sorry I hurt you" "it's ok. You know why?" "Why?" "Cuz I love you so
much." "I love you too. I'm sorry for being over reacted" "You weren't. You
have every right to be mad at me. I was the one who was dump to let them
hurt you like that" "No, you weren't. Ok let's make this easy. It's both
our fault" "Deal" "good" "permission to kiss?" "Permission granted" I got a
kiss from him. I savored the taste forever in my head. It felt right to be
with him.

From Paul's POV

	Ok, so those morons, Wayne and Chris, started throwing food for no
reason. Then I turned my head to see Bren sit there taking the thrown food
like a zoo animal. I wanted to go there and stand in front to protect him,
but I can't move. His eyes filled with sadness and disappointment. Ok how I
know? I know cuz he's my love. Ok it's weird. I don't know how I do it. I
can just read people's eyes. Anyways, as I was saying, I wanted to cry so
badly. It's killing me to see him sad. I know it's not my place to do
anything, it's Shawn's place, but he seemed to be laughing. What a jerk. I
knew it; he's just another one who would like to see Bren hurt emotionally
and physically. I know what you're thinking, I used to hurt him too, but I
didn't mean to. I am really, really, truly sorry for what I did. If you're
wondering why I didn't out Shawn yet because I don't want to see Bren
hurt. Shawn seemed to make Bren really happy, so I just leave them be until
Bren realizes that I'm the one for him and not Shawn. I am such an
understanding guy. Sigh... I love me and Bren even more. Bren got up and
walked to exit the cafeteria. He had his hood on. He looked over to Shawn
who right then had a horrifying look on his face. Bren ran out of the
cafeteria and disappeared. Shawn just sat there doing nothing when he
should be running after Bren and beg him to take him
back. Sigh...whatever. The bell rang and Shawn snapped out of whatever he
was in and rush out of the cafeteria.

From Bren's POV

I was so hurt right then you have no idea. My heart felt like it explode in
a nucleus reaction. I hate that feeling. I put my knees up and wrapped my
arms around it, and try to make myself feel protective. A moment past and
the door swung open and there he was the guy who broke my heart, the guy
that I hated so much at that point. He dropped to his knees and started
crying heavily. He started crawling over to me in tears. I started to feel
really bad about myself. I know he didn't mean to, but he was laughing at
me. I don't know what to do. He begged me to forgive him, but I can't
forgive right away. I know that I can forgive him really easily, but I
don't want to yet. I want to test his loyalty and love he felt for me. He
said he'd do anything for me to forgive him, so I made him do a hundred
pushups. He started doing it right away. I love that guy so much. I can't
stay mad at him for too long. I counted every single pushup he did for
me. I counted to 96 and he dropped and screamed out of pain. He was really
quiet for a long while. He didn't move. He didn't say anything. I was
really worried. I stood up and walked over to him. I sat down and shook
him. He's silent. Nothing, I put my index finger up to his nose and
whew... he's still breathing. God, I was so scared. I shook him and called
his name a few times, still no response. He passed out for pushing himself
too far. I tried to help him up to the shade under the tree. He was so
friggin heavy. I managed to get him on my back. I thought I'll break my
back by the time I reach the tree which is like 5 seconds away. I felt like
I have a building on my back. I started taking step by step. I put him down
as gently as I could but he slipped out and fell on the ground with a kinda
loud thud. Oopsie... my bad, sorry honey, it was my fault. He still didn't
move. What the hell is he? Sorry for the foul language. I mean he fell and
still didn't say anything. I tried to make him as comfortable as
possible. I went back into the school and went to the nurse's office. "Can
I help you with anything Bren?" ok I know it's weird, but almost everybody
in the school except the students know who I am. "Umm... do you think I can
get a wet towel for my friend?" "Yeah go ahead. Help yourself, you know
where it is" "Thank you. Aren't you gonna ask me why I am not in class
right now?" "No, you know you might wanna ease up with the boy. He just
trying to apologize doesn't need to make him do pushups until he's passed
out. Poor guy, he seems to care a whole lot about you to be willing to do
that to himself." I was speechless there. I don't know how the hell she
does that. I looked at her with wide eyes. "Oh, I was nearby. I didn't mean
to eavesdrop. I am truly sorry." "It's ok. His name is Shawn. He's my
boyfriend."I blushed cuz I've never told anyone before on purpose except
for Angie. "Aww... I am so happy for you, Bren. I'm glad you finally found
someone for yourself. It's about damn time. You are cute as a button. I
wander why that boy fall for you. Oh well, go on he needs that wet towel."
"It's ok I guess. I'm gonna take the towel now." "Ok bye honey" "bye nurse
Jamerson" "call me Karen" "Ok, bye Karen" I ran out to the backyard and he
still sleeping. I walked over to him and put the wet towel on his
forehead. He looked so peaceful at ease. I admit it; I was over the angry
phase. He started to come around and mumble something I don't
understand. Then he mumbled "Bren? Babe? Please forgive me, please; I'm
sorry that I can't do the pushups. I'm weak, I'm so, so, terribly sorry." I
smiled to myself. Aww, he's dreaming about me. I think I'm stupid cuz he
wasn't asleep. He was awake but not fully. That's why he was mumbling. He
kept on begging me. I forgave him. He's being a total gentleman and asked
for permission to kiss me. Oh god, I love him so much. I kissed him and he
smiled that killer smile at me. I blushed uncontrollably. I loved every
second under the tree. I finally eased up and sat with my back against the
tree. He moved and put his head on my laps, and took my hand and kissed it
lightly. I smiled at him again. "You know I love you right?" "And I think
that's the millionth time today" "I don't care. I can say all day baby. I
can say it just for you." "You're so sweet." "I love you" "I heart you too"
"this is really nice" "I know it is, right?" "So how do you know about this
place?" "You mean you've never know about it?" "Well, I do, but nobody
comes here" "Well unless nobody means everyone but me, I guess you're
right" "I am right. You're not just anybody. You're somebody really
special. You don't count as a somebody." "You're special too because you
acknowledge me. That means a lot to me. Dating me is even a greater lot. I
love you so much" "Do you think we're too young to say we love each other?"
"We are young. And if you don't want to love me then fine" "Don't get mad
so easily." "I'm not mad" "You're right you're not mad, you're upset" "No,
I'm not" "Yes you are. Believe it or not I know you better than you thought
I did" "I know. You can read me like a book." "Guess I'm a fan of the book
called Bren then" "And I'm the, the fan, for the book called Shawn" "You
don't know me that much honey" "Yes I do" "Prove it" "Fine, ask away Mr. I
know it all" "Fine I will. Umm... ok what colors do I like?" "Really?" "Yes
really" "You like yellow, blue, and white. Your favorite of all is
white. Your favorite food is vegetable eggrolls, but not just from
anywhere. It must be from China Pearl in China Town. Your favorite brand of
clothes is A&F. You like your hair down. You like to cuddle. You like to
hold me. Your favorite drink is strawberry shake from Mickey D. Your
favorite shoes brand is Nike. Your favorite cologne is D&G. Your favorite
sport is soccer even though you don't play because you don't have time, but
you enjoy watching it. Your favorite song is Already Gone by Kelly
Clarkson. Your favorite state is California. Your favorite singer is Kelly
Clarkson obviously. Your favorite America's best dance crew groups are
Jabba, Kaba Modern, Beat Freaks, AfroBodike, and Rhythm City. Your favorite
shows are Heroes and Supernatural." "Danm, we've been dating for like 2
days and you know that much about me. Sigh... I guess I am your favorite
book." "Yes you are hotty" "Is that a compliment?" "Do you think it is?"
"Yes I do" "Ok then" I gave him a smile that he seemed to enjoy.

	We just remain like that for the rest of the day. Well, not the
rest, but till I heard the bell ring. I started to hear footsteps out in
the school ground. "Shawn, babe, Shawn? Wake up babe; it's time to go
home." "Hmmm?" "It's time to go home" "I don't wanna go" he whined like a
baby. "You have to. You can stay here if you want, but I wanna go home."
"Please stay here. It feels really good here." "Come on, get up. Shawn, you
can get up, I know you can." "No, I can't I have sleep paralysis" "I'll let
you stay till 9 if you get up right now." "No, you won't you're just
saying." "No, I'm not" "Promise" "Promise" "Ok I'll try" he tried to move
but he can't get up. "Give me a kiss to encourage" "No, everybody's
outside" "I can't get up then" "Fine" I gave him a kiss on the cheek "Here
goes nothing" He still couldn't get up "Ok, again but on the lips" "No,
Shawn stop fooling around" "I'm not, I'm serious" I gave him one kiss on
the lips. I prepared to pull back, but he put his hand behind my head and
pushes me back. I tried to get off, but he held my head still.

From Shawn's POV

	Ok, I tricked him to kiss me, but hey I wanted my chocolate kiss
then. I needed it. I got up like nothing is wrong. Bren's mouth dropped
open. "You tricked me" "Fool ya" "Damn you" "Aww, don't pout honey. I love
you" "I'm not pouting" He clearly pouting right there. "Ok, I'll drop you
off. Wait for me at Duncun Donuts" "Ok, I'll see ya later" "Bye love" "Shut
up, you tricked me" I left and made my way to my car. I got in and sped off
to DD. I got there and Bren was standing outside looking pretty. I lowered
the window and told him to get in. we arrived at his house and nobody was
home. Angie probably out with Chris and the other two probably at school
playing basketball. We went to Bren's room. I closed and locked the door. I
went to sit on the same chair like last time, but I have a purpose this
time. He walked toward the closet. He opened it and took out a Nike shorts
and a white T shirt. He started to take off his baby green shirt that he
wore today. Oh I forgot to tell you what my baby wore today. He had on a
baby green with a lot of rhinos on it. He had on a pair of swagger jeans
which suit him very well. Myself I'm not a fan of loose jeans, but I like
them on Bren. He stood there with his lean body, not shirtless, but I wish
he was. He had on his grey tang top. He stopped mid track and turned to
catch me staring. I gave him my winner smile. He blushed furiously. He
cleared his throat and I snapped out of whatever I was in. "Do you think
you can go outside, so I can change." "No" "Please, I'll kiss you when you
come back in" "No, I wanna see your body." "Aww... please, pretty please, I
don't feel comfortable. I'm not build like you. I don't have big muscles
like you do." "I don't care. You're sexy without any shirt on" "I'm gonna
put it back on" "No, stop now!" I yelled, he looked at me not moving and
really scare "A, a, are you gonna hurt me?" he asked ready to cry if I say
yes. I got up and walked over to him. He backed off until he's against the
closet door. I put my hands on both sides of his head. "What gave you the
reason to think that I will hurt you? I love you. Like I said, I don't
wanna hurt you no matter what. You understand?" "But you yelled at me. It
scared me. I don't like it when people yelled at me. I didn't do anything
wrong." "Of course you didn't. I just wanna stay in here. I want you to
feel comfortable with me around like you want me to feel comfortable with
you being clean." "Ok, I'll try but can you close your eyes though. It'll
take time." "Of course baby, anything for you." I leant in to kiss his soft
cheeks. He giggled like a middle school girl. "You're so cute" "Thanks" I
walked back and sat on the chair. I pretended to close my eyes and said
go. He took his tang top off and damn. I saw abs forming. What did he do? I
love every moment of it. "Do you play sport?" he literally jumped "Wha?"
"Do you play sport?" "Don't scare me like that. I don't play sports"
"Sorry. You should. Go swimming or something." "Well, I swam before, but
not now, not anymore. I gotta go to work and I don't have a lot of free
times" "Oh, ok carry on whatever you're doing." He started again "Wait,
where are you on?" "I'm ready to take off my pants why?" "Nothing" "Ok?"
"What color underwear you're wearing?" "Shawn!" "I just wanna know. Come on
tell me or I'll open my eyes." "I don't wear underwear." "You use boxers"
"yes, I do" "What color?" "Shawn!" "Pleaseth" "Fine, it's purple." I
laughed softly. I know he's lying. I could see everything. He doesn't wear
his jeans all the way up his waist, but a bit down there, to show his V
line in the front. I couldn't see the V line though because of his
boxers. It's blue with white stripes. I like it. It's lovely. Lemme tell
ya, this boy got a sense of style. I'll love him even more if it's
possible. He took his jeans off. He turned around and opened his closet
door again and took out a hanger. He has a bubble butt. It's so cute. I
wanna touch it, but that wouldn't be right. I got up silently and walked
slowly toward him.

From Bren's POV

	I went to my closet and took out a pair of black, polyester Nike
shorts, and a white T. I took off my shirt and threw it in the hamper. I
totally forgot that Shawn was still there, so I asked him to leave, but he
yelled at me. I was scared. I thought he was gonna hurt me. I'm so stupid I
should've known that he won't hurt me. He came over and said sorry and all
that stuff. He said he loves me and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I giggled
like a school girl. He went back to the chair and sat down with his eyes
closed. I felt a little bit more comfortable. I started to take off the
rest of my clothes leaving my boxers on. He's gonna be so mad if he knew
that I lied to him about the color of my boxers. Oh well, he wouldn't know
if I wouldn't tell him. I opened my closet door again and took out a
hanger. I started to hang my jeans up and put it back. I closed the closet
door and I felt a pair of huge arms wrapped around me with a really big
body behind me. Sigh... I know it's Shawn.  He leant down and kissed my
cheek from behind. This is really awkward. I can't move even though I want
to. It's like impossible. I think I melted in his arms. He moved down
further to the back of my neck. I closed my eyes as I felt his lips made
contact with my skin that sent the chill down my spine. I let out a silent
sigh. I felt his lips all over the back of my neck and the sides of my
neck. His hands were all over my upper front. I threw my head back and
rested it against his upper left deltoid. He kept on kissing my neck. I put
my hands on his arms in the attempt to stop but failed miserably. It felt
good ok. Don't blame me, it felt really good. My knees were going weak and
I was slipping through his arms. He stopped me from slipping with his arms
and kept me standing. His right hands move southward. Uh oh... I was not
ready for that yet, but it felt so good. "Shaw," I whimpered. Oh god, so
embarrassing. "Yeah baby" he answered then went back to devoured my
neck. "Stop, please, Shawn stop. I'm not ready." "PLEASE. It'll be over
soon. Just relax" "Shawn, I'm not ready. Let me go, please" I begged
between the heavy breathing. He kept on kissing my neck, but getting more
daring. He started biting it with his lips. He moved up to my right ear. He
sucked on my earlobe. "Shawn stop, please" I tried to push him off, but he
wouldn't budge. "Shawn, babe stop. I can't do this" "Why not? You love it
though." He said then he went back to biting my ear and nibbling my
neck. "NO!!" "Come on, let me have you" "No, Shawn let me go" ok, really, I
can't move. I tried but I failed. It felt so comfortable and relaxing. I
loved every second of it, but I don't want it to go further. He kept on
teasing, and sucking, and licking, and biting my neck and earlobe. I know
sound disgusting, but trust me it's not. A small moan left my mouth before
I know it. "See, you love it. Enjoy it baby. Enjoy it" "Please stop, I
can't, I can't do it. It's not right" he stopped. Thank god it's over. He
picked me up and walked to the bed. He stopped, put me down, and continued
his fine work of neck messaging. He turned me around as he sat down on the
bed. Since he's like 6 inches taller than me and my bed pretty high. It's
just my luck. He kissed and nibbled on the front of my neck. His arms
around my waist. He moved down to my chest, then down to my nipples. "No,
don't do it please" "You know I'm gonna do it anyways" "b..." "No but," he
went back to the nipples part which I'm not going to describe. After the
nipples thank god, I thought I killed me already. Whoo hoo, he kissed down
my stomach. He kissed it tenderly unlike when he did to my neck. He got up
from the bed and pushed me back gently and took off his shirt revealing his
lean, built, swimmer body covered by the white tang top that hugged tight
against his body. It felt like falling in love all over again. I can't move
at all at that point. I didn't think I can refuse anymore. I didn't even
feel his arms wrapped around me again as he lifted me up from the mattress
slightly. I felt like a doll, that he could do whatever he wanted to. He
turned us around and laid me gently back to my bed. He stood there looking
at me up and down with a lopsided smile. "Please Shawn, don't do this to
me" "you make it sound like it's a bad thing" "It is. I've never done it
before. Please don't make me, I'm not ready yet" "Well, I made you feel
good, didn't I?" before I could say anything, he was on top of me kissing
me with love.  I gave in. the kiss became more daring. His tongue started
invading my mouth. He moved us slowly to the middle of the bed. He let me
go, sat up and took off his tang top, then he sat on top of me. he is
really heavy. He put both hands on my and pinned me down. "Shawn get off of
me" "Come on babe. I'm not that heavy" he went back to kissing my neck. I
can't move at all. I finally admitted to myself that there were no points
in trying to refuse. He licked, bit, kissed my neck, chest, and stomach. I
was in heaven. He was right when he said I love it, but I want it to be
special when I'm ready. He savored every moment of it. He took at least 10
minutes on each spot. No I was wrong, I think it was 30, but I'm not
sure. "You smell so good, baby" I just whimpered like a helpless
puppy. "You make me hot for ya" "No, Shawn you're raping me" he suddenly
stopped and looked down on me with a hurt expression on his face. "I'm
sorry. I should go now" "NO I'm sorry. I didn't mean it that way. Please
I'm sorry, come back" "Then what did you mean?" "I'm just scare" "Of me?
you're scared of me aren't you?" "I wanna say no, but yes. Yes I am. I'm
not ready" "I was so... you know what? Let's just forget it" "No you're
what?" "I was so addicting" "To what?" "It may sound crazy but I'm
addicting to your neck. It's just different somehow. It tasted
different. It's like a free for all buffet, but you don't have to worry
you'll be full cuz you won't." "Oh" "I'm sorry if I scared you." "It's fine
really" "It's just I love every part of your body" "What so special about
it" "Have you ever look at yourself in the mirror. I saw 6 packs forming"
"NO!" "Yes, keep working out and you'll get it in no time" "Working out? I
don't work out" "Ok whatever, but I do love it" "Thanks, but I'm not ready"
"but," "No, but" "Pleeeease" "No" "Please, I'll be good this week" "I don't
know, you seemed to enjoy it so much I'm afraid you won't stop. I'm not
saying it's bad ok? It felt good" "Then it's a yes?" "Ummm...." "COME ON"
he said it over and over while jumping on my stomach. "Ok, ok, ow stop
you're killing me." "Yay!" he went down and took care of his
business. "Five minutes ok?" "Umm.... Hmmm. Mmm, so good." Shawn kept on
nibbling all over my neck while I ran my hands through his soft brown
hair. His hands ran over the sides of my face and hair. He moaned on my
neck which made me moan because of the vibration. Then crunch, I scream out
of pain. He bit my neck. "Ow, Shawn, get off. You bit me" "No, I didn't" he
did it again. He bit the nape of my neck. It hurt like hell. I scream as I
clutch my fists in his hair. "Shawn, stop it, it hurt" he just kept on
doing whatever he was doing. "Shawn, get off of me" "NO! STAY DOWN" he
literally yelled at me. He bit it two more times when I started to cry
uncontrollably. It hurt but I can't move. He was on top of me. He's like a
truck and I was like a bike. "Shawn, please stop, it hurt. Pleeeaase, it
hurt. Stop Shawn" "SHUT UP!!" "Sha" "I said shut up" he clutched my hair
and pulled my head backward into the pillow. "Ow, Shawn, please
stop. You're hurting me. Shawn" I said through all the tears that falling
out of my eyes. He stopped and I took the opportunity to kick him in the
stomach. He screamed and clutched his stomach and called me a bitch which
really hurt me emotionally. I literally jumped out of bed and rushed to the
corner of my room. I pulled my knees up, wrapped my arms around it, and
rock myself back and forth still in my boxers. I was terrified by Shawn. He
got off the bed and walked over to me and just dropped down on his knees
making a huge thud that echoed in the quiet room. He looked me in the
eyes. His eyes started filling up with tears. "I'm sorry" "You hurt me. You
called me a bitch" I said through my tears. I was crying out of control, I
was lamenting. "I didn't mean to. Something came over me. I'm sorry" "You
scared me. You hurt me. You called me name. Where's my boyfriend?" "I'm
here. I really am. It's me." "NO! You're not him. He would never hurt me
like that" "Bren, baby" "Don't call me that you animal. You bit me. I
screamed and you didn't even stop to look at me" "I didn't have any control
over my action. Please baby, I love you. I would never hurt you on
purpose." We were both crying like crazy. "I, I, please, I don't know what
to do. I have problems. I admit it. I have problem. I have problem with
sex. I tend to get out of control when having sex. I'm sorry. I'm weak. I
can't control myself." "You weren't like that." "Because of you. Because
you made me strong that I have the confidant to not do anything." "Shawn,"
"Please forgive me. I admitted that I have problems." "Shawn, I forgive
you.  Just don't do that ever again. You treated me like a blow up doll"
"You're nothing like that, I swear. You're the best thing in the world. I'm
happy you forgave me. I swear I would never do that again without your
permission. I'll go kill myself if I do it" "don't say that. I can never
live my life without you." "I'm so sorry." "It's ok" "Can I hold you?" "I
don't know" "Please, can I just hold you" I threw my arms around his neck
and hugged him tightly. "You're you again" "I know. I told you; it's
because of you that I can control myself." "Thank you. Let's work on
getting you better together." "I tried, but I can't" "You didn't try it
with me" "I hope I can do it" "Don't hope, just do it" "Ok, I feel so weak"
"You're not weak. My man's no pussy." "Thank you. You sure know how to make
a man happy with his action" "Not just any man, my man only." "Permission
to kiss?" "Permission granted" I kissed him on the lips. He picked me up
and walked up to the bed without breaking the kiss. We lay down with him
beside me. "I love you so much" "You don't have to say it cuz I already
know it." "I'm glad you do" "I'm glad I do too. You want any dinner?" I
asked him. "No, I think I already got enough" "Is it good?" "It's the
best." "I hope you like it" "I did. Do you like it?" "Yeah I love it, but
not the biting though" "not for you, that was for me. your neck feel chewy
in my mouth." "Well, it's not fun for me" "I'm sorry" "Stop saying
sorry. You told to me that I shouldn't apologize too much." "I know. I just
feel bad." "Well, I'm ok now" "Can I get some more dinner" "you said you
had enough" "Not gonna happen" "Well, you're full" "No, I'm not. Please, I
won't hurt you this time or any other time. It'll be a joy for us both."
"That's true, but I wanna put something on first." I got off the bed and
put on my T and shorts. I walked back to the bed when Shawn said "You look
sexy in those." "Thanks" I blushed. "You lied to me" "about what?" "You
don't have a purple boxer on." "Oh, about that." I said as I was backing
slowly. Shawn raised his eyebrows at me. "Get back here. You lied, you
treat me to dinner." "No, no, no, no, no. Stay away now or I'll be very mad
at you" "No worry you won't" with that he jumped out of bed. Before I could
get to the door, Shawn was already there. He shut the door and looked at me
with a mischievous smile on his face. "Shawn, stay away or I'll scream" "Go
ahead" "Shawn?" I was getting scare. Why would I be scare? I don't know. He
seemed so evil and stuff. He smiled at me. "Come on baby" "Shawn, no please
don't" "ok" "Thank you" "Come sleep with me" "What?!" "No, not that
way. You know like lay down with me" "sure" I gave in. He picked me up and
went to the bed. He dropped me down on the mattress lightly. He got in and
threw the cover over us. "Can I stay tonight?" "Sure" "You're the best
love" "I know" "I love you" I smiled and buried my face in his chest and
drifted off to sleep.