Date: Sun, 25 Jan 2009 16:09:23 -0800 (PST)
From: Tsctv Tsctv <tsctv1@yahoo.com>
Subject: Nathan the Bully part 8: The Carnival

(Matt )

The cool October air filled the entrance of the school the lockers were
being polished and the floors swept it felt as if I was the last person at
school but I wasn't "hay matt wait up " I turned and Nathan was walking
towards me "can I help you with something" "actually you can I need help
bringing my science project down the stairs, to my car " he said "science
project okay" I followed him to the second floor to room 211 we both went
in the room the lights were out but the sunlight from the windows made the
room bright he closed the door and bum rushed me grabbing me then embracing
me with a kiss I was shocked but enjoying it at the same time we were
really making out in the science room he held me , he never actually did
that while making out I felt a different presence with him I pushed him
"Are you nuts " I said " "I needed that " he said " needed what to get off"
I said upset I was headed towards the door "stop being a little girl about
everything " I turned in anger "are you gay Nate" I had a smug look on my
face I can tell "what?" he said "that's what I thought don't ever do that
again unless you want the whole school to know about your after school
affairs " I was standing my ground but he thought I was bluffing "you
wouldn't because you care" "about you ,no I stopped caring a long time ago"
with that I left out .


The next day I was thinking about yesterday afternoon and what Nathan
pulled , Are you okay " amber said to me as we were walking down the hall
to our next class "im fine just a little distracted" no I wasn't but I
didn't want to talk about Nathan he was an ass , he knows im with nick but
that doesn't stop him , and when I try to be with him something or someone
is more important to him then me , now all he does is stare at me it gets
uncomfortable at times and at times flattering because i know he wants me
but guys like Nathan is dangerous they tell you one thing and does the
other " I got a text from Sean " she said with a smile on her face "thee
Sean from manhattan " I looked at her then continued "so are you going to
text him back " "for what i haven't seen him since the summer time " she
shrugged off the whole idea" Todd had saw us coming and closed his locker
and walked right in front of us "did you guys here about Karina " "no what
" "the reason she didn't come back to school this year is because she
dropped out she is a call girl making about 1500 a night " he said with a
grin on his face "what? your lying " amber said ready to laugh "no im not i
went to get pizza around midnight" "why the hell were you going to eat
pizza at midnight" i said "everything taste good around midnight" he said
we laughed "anyway I saw her going up to a mans car she lifted her freaken
shirt and then got in with the man " Todd went down the hall telling
everyone "he is truly an idiot " amber said "tell me about it ".


(Matt)Two days later

the carnival comes around every October when the east coast is in full fall
effect I had everything I wanted , well at least I thought , I didn't have
a family but i survived alright the night sky was out and the carnival
lights were bright and you could see it from miles away , , "hay big bro "
I heard I turned around and it was Karen "your hear alone "I asked her "no
with a date " she grabbed the guy standing next to her hand it was Jeff
Thompson a sophomore who was a pretty good guy so I didn't lay into him as
I would if she was dating someone like Nathan "sup " he said I nodded my
head " I'm going to get us some cotton candy " he said walking away from us
"that poser " "stop being a prude I like him " "okay that's all that
matters " he came back with the cotton candy and wrapped his arms around
her "hurt her and I will gut you like a fish" I said he looked nervous
Karen hit me on my arm "Stop it " I laughed she shook her head and they
went on a ride "hay sexy " I heard nick say he came up behind me and kissed
me on my cheek " I'm glad I found you lets get on the ferris wheel " "sure
thing " we made our way to the ferris wheel amber was standing in line "hay
they are only letting people on in two's " I saw Nathan standing near the
gate looking out into the highway of traffic lights "go on with nick , I'm
going to get me another cotton candy" "Okay" amber said " the two of them
got on and I walked over to Nathan "so let me guess , you were hoping I see
you alone looking sad so I can come over and comfort you " he turned around
"Barrett I am not that desperate and if that was my plan I see it would
have worked" I smiled shaking my had "Are you okay " he started at me "who
knew you cared " "I don't " " I'm tired of playing games Matt, I've done it
for so long , it's time for the truth" he grabbed my hand " I.." he began
"what are you doing " I heard nicks voice we turned and nick and amber were
standing there amber had a smirk on her face I pulled my hand away from his
"nothing ,,um we were just talking" "I didn't know talking required holding
hands " nick said now staring at Nate as if he wanted to kill him "it was
nothing " I said I walked over to him and grabbed his hand "lets just go "
and we walked off


(Amber)

What games are you playing now Nathan" I said grabbing his arm he pulled
away "amber what are you babbling about now" he gave me a harsh look "leave
him alone , everything you touch turns to trash" "yeah I can see that but I
cant picture him not in my life " I was taken aback by what Nathan was
saying "oh my god you love him don't you" I wanted to know the answer to
what he was taking about he put his head down " yeah I do" he never said
those words to me because he never loved me but what he was feeling for
Matt had to be genuine or else he wouldn't have admitted it to me . "then
you need to tell him that " I said Nathan looked at me then smiled "you
think " "yeah I do" .


(Todd)

Come on I need that stuffed dog " I said as I threw the ball at the glass
milk bottles I knocked everyone of them down "yeah that's what im talking
about " the people patted me on my back saying nice job "here you go son
give this to the lucky lady in your life " I took the stuffed dog and I was
about to go to the house of mirrors until I ran into Robby "hi " he said
"hey " I said back he stood there and we both lingered in silence "you want
to walk or talk or both " I said breaking the silence " "sure " we walked
to the stables it was quite no one was there but me him and the horses
"About the other night it was a mistake obviously " I walked quietly to a
horse as he spoke " I mean it was okay but shouldn't have happened " "okay
" I laughed he was now looking at me strangely "Are you on crack or
something " I grabbed him and pushed him up against the wall then I kissed
him my tongue and his tongue engaged with one another , my hand searching
his body then I pulled away " it was just okay right " I said then I turned
to walk away "Wait , okay it was more then okay it was fucking awesome is
that what you wanted to here "I smiled "that's exactly what I want you to
say " "so what are now both queers " we both sat on a stack of hay "I don't
know how about we are what we are no labels " I said he shook his head in
agreement "I like that idea" "wanna make out some more " "of course I
kissed him we both laid down on the hay just enjoying each others mouth .


(Amber )

"step right up make the basket three times and win a prize " I walked up to
the booth and grabbed for the ball and another hand grabbed for it as well
his hand was on top of mines you just show up in the strangest of places "
I followed the hand that was on top of mine up his arm to his neck then his
face "Sean, what are you doing here " I was stunned to see him "came to
visit my family it was long overdue " "you have family in this town" "yeah
I haven't been here in a while so it makes since you don't know who I
belong to" "so it's been like four months since I've seen you what have you
been up too " " I'm opening up my own business in the city " "really that's
great I'm actually moving to Manhattan after graduation I know its too
early but I'm really hoping F.I.T picks me " "they will , and maybe we can
kind of pick up where we left off" this guy was so hot and he was so into
me how could i resist."So are you seeing someone " he said "no not at the
moment why" "like I said I want to pick up where we left off " he moved in
to kiss me I turned my head " oh so your playing hard to get now" "yeah
guess I am . I smiled then walked away "can I get your number he shouted" "
facebook me later " I said .

(Paula)

MY life is a mess , I lost me husband, my son wants to be gallivanting
around town participating in gay activities , all I have is booze and
vicodin, both seem like my family these days I hate that my son isn't
talking to me much but I am doing this for his own good to stop him from
humiliating himself and the Bellini family name what would his father think
of all of this, what would the people of the main country club think , we
already have one black sheep of the family I cant let Nathan follow in
those same foot steps , I am his Mother and what kind of mother would i be
if i didn't take action and guide him on the right path . the fact of the
matter is he would self destruct .

(Matt)

I think I'm going to go" I said to nick all I kept thinking about was
Nathan "what? why" he responded " I'm not feeling well" I said I knew it
was a lie and from the look of nicks face he knew it too "you stay have fun
with your friends" I said " he kissed me and then I left , walking out of
the amusement park down I had to walk into town because that was the only
place where I could park the carnival parking lot was too full I finally
got to the shopping district there were a lot of people shopping and
hanging out who had no interest in the carnival "Matt stop! " I looked
across the street and Nathan was standing there he was leaning on his car
"what do you want stalker" I teased him he smiled "I want you " he said it
seemed like time stopped and we got stares from people some shocked some
with smiles on there face but Nathan didn't care "Nathan I don't know what
to say" we stood there on opposite sides of the street looking at each
other " I love you Matthew Barrett God I love you " tears were forming in
his eyes "don't say that unless you mean it" I spoke " I do mean it will
you cross the street so I can kiss you " I smiled " I love you too" I
walked toward him ".

(Nathan)

I drove to the shopping district and I pushed the radio on a love song was
playing as I listen the song the lyrics were popping up into my head " I
found a way to let you in But I never really had a doubt Standing in the
light of your halo I got my angel now" that's the way I felt about Matt and
I had to see him the melody of the song was entrancing my body I parked my
car and then I saw him walking is this fate or what? I thought to
myself.. I got out and call him then it all just kind of happened I told my
baby that I loved him and was crying as well I guess I'm a little wimp but
it doesn't matter I finally had him and nothing and no one was going to
stop me he started to walking towards me smiling then out of nowhere high
beams appear almost blinding us and a speeding car headed towards him I
scream out to him "Matt look out" he tried to run but the car hit him and
kept going , I ran to him my heart thumping, he was laying there helpless I
fall to the ground people were looking at the scene which had unfolded I
lifted his body up and rested him in my arms he struggled to talk "don't
Matt, just stay calm".

 I screamed to the people "someone call 911" a man and women both pulled
out there cell phones and called , everything seem to be spinning around
I'm crying my eyes out "Nate" I hear him say " I'm....I'm sorry for
everything " I stroke his hair " you don't have to be sorry about anything
" I ruined your life, I confused you " he said , non of this is making an
since "you didn't point a gun to my head I feel in love with you " I kissed
him "it hurts so bad " his eyes are blood shot red and its starting to get
teary "I know baby," I started to scream again "where the fuck is the
ambulance " people covered there mouth and watch in there own horror "just
hold on Matt" I tried to convince him, the song popped back into my head as
I was rocking him "It's like I've been awakened Every rule I had you
breakin' It's the risk that I'm takin' I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now I'm surrounded by your embrace Baby I can see
your halo You know you're my saving grace You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face Baby I can feel your halo Pray it won't
fade away" Matt saved me from what I use to be because of him I became more
of a human being "I'm tired ,I'm,,, tired " he says I could feel warm
liquid on my hand , blood was leaking from his head , I knew he was in
trouble " Nathan I love you" he managed to utter out "I love you too , your
not going anywhere okay " he closed his eyes and everything seemed to fade
to black.

(The song is Halo by Beyoncé Knowles )
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