Date: Tue, 10 Aug 2010 19:42:11 -0400 (EDT)
From: daredevillain862@aim.com
Subject: Nick & Taylor-13

I stared wide-eyed at the boy standing two feet in front of me at the front
door.

"Ted, what...what are you DOING here?" I stumbled over words.

"I was in the area & I thought I'd see you. I see you're in the middle of
something..." he trailed off, eying Taylor & me shirtless.

With my jaw still wide open, I glanced nervously at Taylor, who just stared
back at me. Thanks hon, that's helpful.

"Uh, well, um...why don't you come on in then..." I said. Nick, nooooo!!

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah."

I walked back in & quickly threw my shirt on. Taylor did the same.

"You're Taylor Klipps right?" Ted asked.

"Uhh, yeah. I remember you Ted."

"Yeah."

I went over to the fridge & got a drink.

"You guys want something?" I asked.

"No, I'm good."

"Same."

I went back & sat down in a chair while Taylor took the couch & Ted took
another chair.

Nobody said anything for a few moments. It was beyond awkward.

"So...what are you doing here?" I asked after awhile.

"Well, as it turns out...I'm moving back here," he said.

I looked down at his feet.

"I think we have some things to talk about Nick..."

I shook my head, but averted his green eyes.

"I think I'll head home," Taylor piped up.

"No, no, you don't have to go," I said, desperate to not be alone with Ted.

"It's cool, don't worry about it. I'll see ya later," he said, standing
up. He headed towards the door & let himself out, leaving me there with
Ted.

Neither of us said anything for quite some time. I sat there looking down
at the floor while Ted played with his fingers. I wanted him to say
something first, because I sure as hell couldn't. To be honest...I didn't
even know how I was FEELING. Was I angry that he just barged into my life
unannounced? Was I scared he might ruin things between Taylor & me? Was I
happy he was here...?

"So...how have you been?" he asked cautiously.

"Fine."

He nodded.

"So are you & that guy...together?" he asked.

"Taylor, yeah, he's...my boyfriend," I said, unsure of why I hesitated. God
this was awkward.

"Cool."

"So what about you? Do you have a boyfriend?"

"No. I've been single ever since I left here."

"So no one since me?"

He shook his head no.

"Look, Nick...I've got a million things to say to you, & I just don't know
where to even start."

"How about a simple apology?" I said coldly.

"I'm sorry. There's not a way in the world I can show you how sorry I am."

"Why did you just...abandon me?" I asked him.

"I freaked. I mean, EVERYBODY found out I was a 'fag' & I just wanted to
get away from here as fast as possible. I was forced to tell my parents &
they took it terribly & they moved us away, just like that. I figured if I
didn't have anything to do with you anymore, I would move on much more
easily, & that I could basically start over at my new school."

"So why did you guys come back?"

"My dad was offered a job much closer to here & he couldn't pass it up."

"So they took it badly?" I said.

"What?"

"When they found out you were gay. They didn't take it well?"

His eyes darted to the ground & he shook his head.

"No. They despise it, especially my dad."

"What did they do?"

"I...I don't really wanna talk about it," Ted replied.

"They yelled?"

Ted inhaled a deep, shaky breath & ignored my question. I didn't pry.

"So...are you gonna come back to school?"

"Yeah. I'm comin' back in the fall. I have to help move everything into our
house."

"Where do you live now?"

"On the same street as I did before, only on the other end."

"Ok."

Ted looked back up at me.

"Nick...I can't possibly show you how sorry I am. Every day after I moved &
still up until now I thought about you, about US. I missed our good times
together, our make out sessions, our secret dates, our laughs, our
stories. It killed me that I left, & to be honest, it's the biggest regret
of my life. I loved you so much Nick, & you know how much I cared about
you. What I did was...selfish & stupid, & I'll never forgive myself for
leaving you behind, especially without even telling you. You deserved to
know, more than anyone else. At first, for a long time, I blamed you for
everything, because you kissed me in front of everybody at your friend's
party. But after a while, I realized...it was never your fault. I shouldn't
have pushed you away when you not only wanted me most, but NEEDED me
most. God I'm so sorry Nick," Ted's eyes started to get shiny, like forest
green marbles.

"I know you are," I replied.

"Please forgive me."

Forgive him? Could I? Even if I wanted to? DID I want to?

"I...I don't know Ted."

"Ok," he said quietly.

We sat in silence for a bit until he started talking again.

"So how long have you & Taylor been together?"

"A few months now."

"Wow. I never thought he would turn out gay. I bet it shocked the hell out
of people."

"Well, actually, the thing is...he's still in the closet. I'm pretty much
the only person who knows."

"Are you serious?"

"Yeah."

"Well when did you find out?"

"When we started hanging out as friends, I got a funny vibe, but I was
never sure. He was peaking through some of my magazines last year."

"You still keep those old things?" Ted grinned.

"Yeah. But I don't use them anymore since Taylor & I...ya know."

Ted's face suddenly clouded over, as if he were upset to hear that. But it
only lasted a split second.

"So, I was thinking...maybe we could start hanging out again? I know you're
with Taylor & everything, but I hope that doesn't mean we can't become
friends again. You don't have to forgive me or anything, but I'd really
like us to be cool with each other."

"I'll think about it."

"Sure," he said a little sadly.

I put my hands on my knees & slowly stood up, letting him know we were done
here.

"So I guess I'll see you around school soon?" I said.

"Yeah."

"Ok. Well I'll see ya later then," I said, walking with him to the door. He
opened the door to leave & turned to me.

"It was really nice seeing you again Nick," he told me.

I nodded.

He hesitated as if he were waiting for something but then left after a
second & shut the door behind him.

I went to my room, got on the computer & went online looking for my friend
Mark. I saw he was on & I said hello.

"hey."

"hi nick "

"i need ur help."

"w/ wat?"

"k, so u remember ted?"

"yeah, ur ex bf right?"

"yea."

"wat about him?"

"hes back."

"wat do u mean hes back?"

"hes moving back 2 my town, and he knows about taylor & me."

"wat did he tell u?"

"hes desperate 4 my forgiveness & he wants us 2 be friends again. help me!
idk wat 2 do..."

"do u want 2 forgive him?"

"idk, i guess. but im worried thatll mess things up w/ taylor."

"y."

"bcuz idk if taylor were 2 get jealous of me being friends w/ my ex."

"y r u assuming?"

"i wanna know how hed react."

"then instead of pulling guesses out of ur ass, talk 2 him."

"u assume its that easy."

"u assume its that hard."

I thought about it. I guess he was right? I sighed to myself, admitting
that Mark had a good point. I had to find out from Taylor himself & see
where this whole shit fest would lead.

"fine, ill talk 2 him. but like, wat if he doesnt want me 2 be friends w/
him?"

"i can only help u 2 an extent nick. after that, its up 2 u. im just givin
u my advice, which is simply just to TALK TO HIM lol."

"bitch please, ull help me til the day i drop."

"call me bitch again & that that day might come much quicker," he joked.

"lmao."

"i g2g, something came up. ttyl man," he typed.

"c ya."

I got off the computer & called Taylor's cell phone. No answer. I called
his home phone. No answer. I sighed, knowing that I had to talk to him as
soon as possible. And at the moment, that meant only one thing.

I had to go over to his house.



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