Date: Sun, 16 May 2004 15:58:23 -0600
From: One November Night <comments_4_me@hotmail.com>
Subject: One November Night

	One November Night is my first story for Nifty.  This story is
based on a TRUE relationship that I am currently in, and will always be in.
All events are TRUE as well, and were actually things we had to go through.
Any questi- ons, comments, or critisicisms please send to
comments_4_me@hotmail.com.  Thanx for reading!  Oh yeah I am currently
working on a longer story/novel so it may take a lil bit for me to get a
second story posted.



	Before I start there are a few things I should tell you about my
relationship with Josh.  It's not exactly normal.  What I mean by that is
that it's over the internet.  I don't think that has affected us much,
besides for limiting the "fun" we can have. hehehe.  Now that that's said
I'll start.  I can still remember that November night, almost 6 months ago
as I write this.  I was on Thanksgiving Break and just happy about not
being in school.  It was the 22nd, two months from my 14th birthday.  I was
excited as hell, for that, and also knowing that my basketball season would
soon be over and Christmas Break was just on the calendar's horizon.
Little did I know that that night would be one of the best, so far, of my
life.
	I logged onto a chatroom that I had been frequenting for the past
few months, and wasn't shocked to get the usual private messages.  They
consisted of, "Hey wanna cyber?"  and "Hey, asl?"  I was a teenage boy,
yes, but I wasn't obsessed with sex.  I mean there are deeper things to a
relationship than that.  You actually have to like the person to be able to
share something with them.
	I saw Josh online that night, and I had never talked to him before.
I wasn't even quite sure if I wanted to tonight.  I mean my name almost
(key word) portrayed me as a boy slut so how would I know if he would even
talk to me... if he had the same views on a relationship as me.  After
about half an hour of mindless chatting with some mindless guys I decided
to try my luck with this 14 year old boy, I didn't know his name yet.
Let's just say that right now, as I write this, I am so so so glad that I
did.  The first thing I ever said to the boy of my dreams was, "Hey, you're
cute."  That makes me feel so stupid now, but at least I did.  He replied,
"Hey, thanx."
	Our conversation continued for a while until I asked him if he had
MSN Messenger so we could talk on that.  Well he did, and I gave him mine,
and we both talked together for like an hour or two.  During that time,
though, we learned alot about eachother.  We liked alot of the same things,
and we both loved to write.  One of the only things, it seemed, that we had
different was the fact that he was a Freshman and I was in 8th Grade.  But
what does age matter, anyway?(I would soon later find out that we had alot
more differences... in a good way).  Soon it was near midnight my time, and
2 in the morning his, so we said our goodbyes, and made a date to chat
again tomorrow(we had asked eachother out).  So I had a new boyfriend... we
had both had one before, but one never quite like the one we had found that
night.
	I had only had around 3 major boyfriends.  One I really liked for a
while, until we split cuz he said I wasn't supposed to e-mail him every
day(and this was during the summer), he was a nutcase.  Another was just
crazy, and would end up doing some of the most desperate things I have ever
seen.  And the final one... well he just used me for sex.  All three of
them were within a 3 month span.  I had gotten hurt one after another, and
that would lead to some intrinsic issues of mine soon enough.  Josh had had
a few boyfriends, but he told me that he had done alot with what people
would call "one night stands".
	ANYWAYS enough with the past.  I think that night I feel in love
with Josh, but I didn't know it.  Josh says he feels the exact same way as
me.  That night I had an epiphany... I realized that I wanted to be with
Josh forever.  And after we both went to bed I felt oddly empty, and that
feeling would only increase through time when we were apart.  But that was
our first night together, and it wouldn't be our last.


	Josh and I, my name is Chad btw, talked Sunday during the day, I
believe.  I think that was because we both had school the next day.  Like I
said I don't remember.  Even if I didn't have school, Josh would because he
was Canadian, and they don't celebrate Thanksgiving the same day as
us(Canadians are just weird, that was a joke lol).  We talked a few times
that week, but our main time to chat would probably be the weekends.  Oh
yeah I remember that Josh had an audition for a play that week on Monday or
Tuesday.
	That Friday we did talk, and we did for like 3 hours.  Josh did get
his part in the play, and I was very happy for him.  I don't even remember
what we talked about, that's how pointless our jabber was, but we did chat.
The thing with Josh and me is we can have deep, thoughtful, conversations,
and then the next minute we can be total blonde bombshells... in fact
that's what we were.  And we weren't all into the "sex" crap...  but we did
do it(to the best of our abitity lol).  He was 5'7-5'8, 150 lbs(at the
time, he's now like 140), and he has a 6 pack, black hair, with hazel eyes,
and just oh so cute in every aspect.  I, on the other hand, was 5'7, 130
lbs(and still am), flat stomach(now with the first 2 packs showing), with
dark brown hair, and green eyes.  I know Josh is so much hotter than me(at
least to me he is) but I don't care.  We didn't really cyber much during
the first few months(we would later, though hehehe) but we just enjoyed
eachother's company.  The first month of our love was perfect, and like all
relationships later on there would be hurtles to jump over... Josh and I
more like leaped over them, they hardly affected us.
	Three days before Christmas, the 22nd, was our one month
anniversary.  We were unable to celebrate it that night due to the presence
of my dad downstairs where the cpu is, so we celebrated it on the 23rd.  I
still have the poem he gave me.  I'll write it at the end of this section
of the story.  I gave him the lyrics to "Real Love" a song by Cher that I
love, and she is still the # diva of em' all. lol.  Anyways I didn't get
into writing stuff for Josh a month after this, and I did just recently(at
the time I am writing this) write something for Josh titled "I'm Yours"
that is my best piece of work so far.
	Josh and I were in 7th heaven(and still are) during that Christmas
vacation.  Just enjoying learning more about the one whom we loved.  Know
by this time alot of people that are reading this may be thinking that Josh
and I have no chance in making it, due to the fact that it's over the net,
but right now in real time a week from today will be our 6 month ani.  The
longest relationship I have ever had, and same with Josh.
	Little did we know that 7th heaven would be shook up by personal
insecurities and the boy from hell, Alex.  First we should start with my
personal insecurities.  My last boyfriend had just been using me for sex,
and when I found out I had wanted to die... that's one of the main reasons
Josh and I were both leary on cybering.  Another is one of my other past
boyfriends, who turns out to be Alex, cheated on me.  When I found out I
wanted to wring the life from his neck, and I almost did.  So I always had
suspicions of another cheating on me.  I suppose it didn't quell my fears
when Josh and I lost touch for about 3 days during the break.  That all
happened because something went wrong with both our email adresses, we
weren't getting eachother's mail.  Well we did get reunited... through the
same chat room we met on.  And, sadly I have to do this, I thank god for
having Alex still in my life at this point.  He had got an email from Josh,
whom I had send an email to Alex telling him that he was real, Alex didn't
believe him) Anyways that's when we found out what was happening, Josh said
something bout it in the email, and we met up on the chat room.
	I was all freaked out, cuz I thought Josh had just simply left me(I
know better than that now).  And now comes the problems with Alex.  Note
that I said problems, that's plural as in more than one.  First after that
night, like a few after, he declared his love for me.  And I also remember
now that once Josh first emailed him Alex tried to get Josh to cheat on
me(know ya see why I was so worried).  Josh explained to Alex that what I
felf for him(Josh) and what he (Josh) felt for me(Chad) was genuine love.
We were madly on love, and there was no force on heaven or earth that could
split us up.  Alex gave as many tries as he could afford, though.  There
will be more on that for the next few entries.  Our first month, this was a
lil after the New Year so more than that, ended perfectly.  Oh yeah here's
the poem Josh gave me:

Light

When you look into the sky at night
Think of me.
When I smile at the news
I think of you
Your laugh would be a gift better than light
For that's what you are
My Light

Little do you know
How I feel
You say you love me more
But you don't know about that fault of speech
I love you more than you know

There's a brand new color
That's brighter than a star
Deeper than the Caribbean Sea
And more stunning in a sunset in a pale blue
That color is you

When the fox in the snow ran
I felt like I was running too
To find something better than what I had
To find someone
To find you

You're what I have
That makes me truly happy
I'm yours
And I know that makes you happy too
For there's something better than Light
And that something is you

	Every time I read that my heart melts, even today 5 months later.
I love Josh, and I know we'll be together forever.



	OK that's the end of the first ONE NOVEMBER NIGHT.  There should be
another one along not to shortly.  Actually I'll just post one or two more,
but I'll post more depending on what you, the readers, have to say.

Any questions, comments, or criticisms please send to
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