Date: Fri, 3 Sep 1999 20:45:00 -0700
From: Brent Stewart <brent@cutey.com>
Subject: Outted in HS, Chapter VII

"Carnal Knowledge"

I can't fight this feeling any longer
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show
 
I tell myself that I can't hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we're together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear

And even as I wander
I'm keeping you in sight
You're a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter's night
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
It's time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore
I've forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore

I lay in my bed, listening to the radio, as R.E.O. Speedwagon's song played
in my mind and seemed to fit so well with my thoughts.  I had woken several
times, last night after watching Robert leave.  I couldn't concentrate, so
homework had to wait.  I felt too mentally and physically exhausted from
all that happened in just one day.

Robert loved me and I loved him.  I had wanted this for so long that my
mind just couldn't accept it as reality.  Then, I'd start thinking about
what everyone would say and do if they ever found out that he and I were
gay.  He was the team captain for the swim team and I was just starting on
the varsity football team.  I was still an unknown at Ellison, but
Robert...he was known by everyone.  "Are we ready for this?" I thought as I
turned to look at the clock radio.  6:13 AM shown in dull green digital
numbers.  The sun was just coming up and cast the sky outside my window in
shades of gray.

With a heavy sigh, I threw the covers back and crawled out of bed.  As
usual my morning hardon was staring up at me as I stood up to go and
relieve the pressure.  "Not this morning buddy.  I've got major plans for
you this afternoon, if all goes well today."  As if having waited for such
knowledge, my hardon seemed to soften a little and I smiled as I thought
how mental I was to be talking to my dick like it were a real person.
 
After relieving myself and showering, I checked my image in the mirror.
Being 14 years old, I hadn't yet started to shave.  As a matter of fact, I
had very little body hair and doubted that I'd have to shave my face for
several years to come.  Blonds seemed to be blessed with an extended
reprieve from this tedious task.  I left the bathroom.

Not taking much care in choosing what to wear to school, I threw on a shirt
and a pair of blue jeans.  I looked at the clock again and it was 6:45.
Robert should be here any minute.  I went back into the bathroom and
brushed my teeth, combed my hair and swiped deodorant under my arms to
complete my morning toilet.

As I made it downstairs and headed for the kitchen, the front doorbell rang
and then I heard the sound of the front door security keypad being used to
enter the entry code.  I smiled to myself and thought how funny it was that
Robert had such free access to my parents house and he wasn't even one of
their children.  "I wonder how long that will last after they find out
about us," I mumbled to myself as I continued to the kitchen to grab a
pop-tart or something to satisfy my hunger.

In the kitchen, I poured myself a glass of milk and opened the blue berry
pop-tart package.  I'd eaten about half of one, when Robert came through
the door of the kitchen and smiled at me.

"Not fair.  I thought you'd still be upstairs in your room and I was going
to surprise you.  I was kind of hoping you'd still be in the shower," he
scrunched his shoulders up and got an evil look on his face as he rubbed
his hands together.

"I bet you did," I laughed, "as you can see, I'm all ready for you, and
your evil plan has been foiled.

"Oh that's ok," he beamed, "just as long as my 'other' plans for this
afternoon aren't foiled." Having said that, he made a grab for his crotch
and winked at me.

"Your so damned cute when you do that.  Has that worked on the girls you've
dated in the past?" I teased.

"Of course it did.  I had all kinds of offers from them.  One offered to
buy me some jock itch medicine; then there was the suggestion for cotton
briefs to let the air penetrate better and not least among the offers, was
the experienced girl who said that she always itched too when the hair
started growing back after doing the BIG shave."  As Robert was saying
this, he was ticking off the offers with his hands.

"Alright already, your such a comedian.  Are you ready to start this day?"

"I will be in about 3 seconds", and he walked over to me.  When he was
within reach, he took a hold of me and gave me my first kiss of the
day. "Um...blueberry, and um...milk," he said.  "I always knew that kissing
you would taste great, but I never expected you'd taste this good."

I hugged him tightly and then licked his cheek.  "I'll wait to taste you a
little later.  For now, we need to get going."  My dick was getting hard
and I thought we needed to get going, before my 'buddy' called in his debt
early.

As we left the gate too my parents property, I asked Robert if we were
giving Steve a ride to school this morning and of course his answer didn't
surprise me, we were.  "He won't be sitting on your lap this morning or
ever again though.  Your all mine now," and he reached over and rubbed my
leg.

"That's so sweet Robert." I jibbed "Now take your hand off my leg if all
your going to do is rub my thigh."  When I said this, he moved his hand to
my crotch and started rubbing my dick through the jeans.  I blushed and
said, "Stop that! I slapped his hand away, "Steve will be in the car in a
few minutes and he'll see me with a fucking hardon!"

"So!  He'll have to find his OWN boyfriend." He said and smiled at me.

"What is that supposed to mean?  Your not telling me that Steve's gay?"
Now that would be a surprise.  Sure we jerked off yesterday in the boys'
room, but hey, even straight guys jerk off with each other.  Must relief
that pressure somehow, and why not in the company of friends.

"How the hell would I know that?  I was just joking Brent.  You know, I'm
not like the president of the Ellison High School Gay/Lesbian/Bi Club.
Shit, every guy I know could be gay and I'd be damned if I'd know it.  Look
at you," he said and we rounded the last corner and turned on to the street
that lead to Steve's house, "I hoped and prayed that you were, but when it
came down to knowing for sure?  I had no idea.  When I told you I loved you
yesterday, it was for broke.  If you weren't, then I would lose my best
friend and the guy I loved until my heart hurt," and he cast those eyes
towards me, just a glance, and my heart melted.  "So, don't ask me to spot
who is or who isn't.  All I care about is that YOU are.  I love you."

"I love you too Robert, " and I leaned over and gave him a kiss on the
cheek as he pulled into the drive of Steve's house.  Steve was waiting on
the porch again and came up to the car as Robert pulled to a stop.  I gave
Robert a hard look.  I wonder if Steve just saw me kiss Robert?  I opened
the door and got out, so he could slip into the back seat.

"Hey Rob, about time you got here.  Did the lady killer here take his time
again this morning?"  Steve poked me in the shoulder from the back seat as
he said this.  "At least it looks like he did a better job of it this
morning than yesterday." And he laughed his smart assed way.

That was all I was going to take from this asshole, so I turned around in
my seat and said, "Good morning Steve.  Is your ass sore this morning?  I
would think it would be since you were moving it around so much in my lap
yesterday.  You must have bruises all over it from my DICK!"

Robert looked back at Steve and burst out laughing.  I was laughing too
because the look on Steve's face was all I could hope for and more.  He was
blushing a bright red and his eyes were looking everywhere but at us in the
front seats.  "Well," I managed to choke out and Robert laughed louder if
it was possible.

"I...I don't know what the fuck you're talking about you little faggot."
Steve stammered out, still looking everywhere but at us.

After Robert and I calmed down, Robert pulled out and headed for the
school.  Steve sat silent in the back seat and I knew he was steaming.  Who
the fuck cared?  I got him and he was speechless.  Robert looked sideways
at me and gave me a wink and I beamed as I looked straight ahead.  We
pulled into the school parking lot and Robert parked the car.

"See you at lunch Rob," said Steve as he piled out of the backseat and
headed for the school entrance.  He was walking so fast that I doubt he
heard me when I yelled to him, "Nice ass by the way!"  Robert came around
the car and looked me in the eyes.

"Brent, that was too sweet.  Man you got him so bad, I don't think you'll
EVER have to worry again.  Did you see his FACE?" and he chuckled at the
memory.

"I'm rather proud of myself too.  Lets go.  I have to get to class a little
early.  I, um...didn't do my homework last night." I almost blushed and saw
a knowing look in Robert's eyes.

"I understand. I didn't sleep last night.  Come on."  Having said that,
Robert led the way into the school.  I told him bye and headed to my first
period class and he went to his.

I saw Debbie in third period.  I hadn't noticed yesterday because I hadn't
met her yet; here she was in my Algebra II class.  She smiled at me as I
walked over to my seat, which was to the left of her and two seats up.  I
waved and sat down.  I felt her eyes on the back of my head the whole
period and thought that I'd better tell her that I wasn't looking for a
girlfriend.  I didn't want her to develop a major crush and going crazy on
me.

When the bell rang, I gathered my gear and stuffed it in my backpack.
Debbie met me at the door and said she'd walk with me to the cafeteria.
What am I going to tell her?  I better wait until I can think up something
that won't hurt her feeling, but be enough for her to get the message.
"Debbie, does Michelle not like me or something?" I asked.

"Why do you ask that?"

"Just the way she looked at me a few times yesterday.  I got the feeling
she wanted to cuss me out or something.  I don't know what I did, but
whatever it was, I didn't know I was doing it."

"Michelle's like that sometimes.  Her and Robert haven't been able to spend
a lot of time together and I think Michelle is a little jealous of all the
time Robert spends with you.  I know your best friends and have known each
other for a long time, it's just she wishes he'd take the time to work on
their relationship."  Debbie said a bit more than I'd expected.  Maybe she
thinks I'll tell Robert and he'll realize he's doing that.  If they only
knew, I thought.  I smiled at this and Debbie looked at me with a satisfied
grin.  Aha, so I was right.  She thinks she's done her duty.

We got to the cafeteria and saw Robert, Michelle, Steve, Tim and the rest
of the gang sitting where they were yesterday.  This must be "their" area I
thought as we arrived at the table.  Steve looked up and saw me and then
surprised me by saying, "Hey Brent.  We were wondering when you'd get here.
We saved you a seat."  Robert looked at Steve and his eyebrows knotted
together, and then he looked at me and shrugged.

"Thanks Steve.  I appreciate it dude."  Steve had a seat for me between Tim
and himself.  Debbie's was next to Michelle, and Robert sat on the other
side of her, directly across from me.  "So, did you tell everyone about the
party this weekend?" I asked Robert.

"Sure did." He smiled. "Everyone at the table's going to be there and a few
others that aren't here.  Looks like there's going to be about 12 of us.
Should be a blast!"

"Are we going to have tents and stuff?" Debbie asked.

"Sure thing.  My father's got two that I'm going to bring and I think
Brent's got a couple also.  We'll have to share, but I doubt any of us will
be sleeping much," Robert said and looked over at me.

What the hell was he saying and why was he looking at me after SAYING that!
Robert smiled, "I plan on doing some night fishing if I can find a BIG worm
out there."

Don't blush Brent, don't blush!  I felt my face getting hot, but fought to
control it.  He's just talking about fishing.  Nobody knows about us.  They
aren't thinking what I'M thinking.  "Um...I'm going to go grab a coke.
Anyone want anything?"

Everyone at the table had already gotten themselves drinks and Debbie had
brought her lunch, with a Capri Sun drink.  I got up and went to the soda
machine.  Calm down Brent.  You had better handle this better or you're
going to make people suspicious.  I popped the tab on the Dr. Pepper and
took a long drink.  The coldness helped to cool my face off and felt it
return to normal.

Lunch seemed to speed by and as we talked about the party and made plans on
what games, food and music to bring.  I kept looking at Robert as he spoke
to Michelle and Eric about water sports.  He's so damned good looking.  Ok
Brent, get a grip!

Debbie leaned over and whispered in Michelle's ear at one point, and then I
saw Michelle look at me and give me a slight smile and nod her head.  Women
are so devious I thought as I realize that Debbie must have filled her in
on our conversation earlier.  Other times, I'd look around the table while
listening to Robert, and Steve would be staring at me.  When he noticed,
he'd look away and appear to be listening as well.  What's his deal I
thought?  The first notice bell rang and we all got up to head for our
classes.  Robert told me he'd see me after school and to meet him in the
parking lot by his car, and then left with Michelle hanging on his arm.
Debbie asked me where my next class was and I told her I had to go by my
locker before the bell and then she left for her class as well.  Freshman
lockers were on the other side of the building, by the sports halls; too
far for her to have to walk and make it back to class on time.  Luckily, my
next class was not far from the lockers.

As the fifth period ended and I made it to sixth, I started getting
excited.  This was the last class of the day and soon Robert and I would be
going to my house to finish what had started yesterday.  Time dragged on
like it always seems to when you're anticipating it.  Finally the bell
rang, announcing the end of the day, and I gathered my stuff and almost ran
to the lockers.  I threw my books in and slammed the door.  As I power
walked down the side hall towards the main, I paused as I approached the
boys' room Steve and I had jerked off in.  Did he know it was me?  I
shrugged to myself and continued on and out of the building to the parking
lot.  I saw Steve get into Eric's car and they headed out of the parking
lot, in the direction of his house.  Robert wasn't at his car when I
arrived, so I took my backpack off and set it on the ground.

After waiting for about 10 minutes, I looked around the parking lot and saw
that several cars were still here and wondered where Robert was.  Then I
saw him coming from the same way I had towards the parking lot.  As he came
up to me he said, "Hey Cutey!  Damn you look good enough to eat!"  I
rewarded him with the blush he was hoping for and he smiled from ear to
ear.  "Uh huh, now your even CUTER!"

"Where were you?  I saw you come from the sports entrance.  Did you forget
I was going to meet you here and go by my locker to meet me?"

"Naw, I had to go tell coach that I couldn't make practice this afternoon.
I told him I had cramps in my stomach and didn't think I could swim today.
If he only knew they were more like butterflies and that they were there
because I was going be making love to the most handsome and sexy guy at
this school, he'd have kicked me off the team.  Lets get going!  Are you
ready?" he asked and cocked his head to the side.

"I didn't even think about you having practice today.  I'm sorry.  You sure
you won't get in trouble?" I asked with true concern.  Usually, if you
missed three practices, you weren't allowed to swim in the next meet.
Robert was the best the school had and it wouldn't be fair if he missed out
on it.

"This is my first miss, so it's no big deal.  Besides, I wouldn't miss
being with you if I got kicked OFF the team! Get in."  Robert unlocked my
door and then went around and opened his.  He started the car and pulled
out of the parking lot.  My stomach was getting tight and I could tell from
the look on Robert's face, that his body was reacting to the anticipation
of our love making as well.  I reached and took his right hand in mine and
felt him softly squeeze it.

"Robert." Gosh, I hope this doesn't come out sappy.  I swallowed the lump
that was starting to form in my throat and said, "I just want you to know
that this is my first time to have sex with anyone.  I don't know anything
about the right way or the wrong way to do any of this and I hope I don't
embarrass myself.  All I know is that I love you and want to show you how
much.  Do you know what I'm saying?"

"Yes I do, love." He paused then glanced at me, "You're scared.  Guess
what?  I'm scared too.  I'll promise you that I will take my time and be as
gentle and loving as possible with you.  Just promise me the same and we'll
make up our own way of doing it right."  He took his hand and gently ran
the back of it down my left cheek, sending electric jolts of pleasure down
my neck and all over my body.

"I promise." I whispered and tears began to flow unbidden down my cheek.

We pulled up to the gate and Robert entered the code.  The gate swung open
and he drove up and parked in the drive.  I told Robert that I had to see
to Sierra and I'd meet him inside when I was finished.  I headed for the
stables and Robert went to the house.

I feed and watered her and nervously walked back to the house.  "This is
it." I said to myself.  "Nothing will ever be like this again and I'll
remember this for the rest of my life."  I opened the door and heard soft
music coming from upstairs.  I smiled and knew that Robert must have
brought a special CD to play while we made love.  I walked up the stair
with a bit of trepidation and walked towards the open door to my room.

As I entered the room, my mind locked onto the lyrics of the song playing,

Love doesn't ask why It speaks from the heart And never explains

Don't you know that?  Love doesn't think twice It can come all at once Or
whisper from a distance
 
Now I can feel what you're afraid to say If you give your soul to me Will
you give too much away?

We can't let this moment pass us by Can't question this chance Or expect
any answers We can try But love doesn't ask you why

I saw Robert sitting on my bed.  He'd taken off his shirt, socks and shoes,
and pants.  He was wearing a pair of blue shorts.  "Come here Brent, " he
spoke softly.  I dropped my backpack and walked over to Robert.  While he
sat on the bed, he reached up and unbuckled my belt, then undid the buttons
on my 501's.  "Give me your left foot", and he looked up at me, "please"
and smiled.  I placed my left foot in his hands and he removed my shoe and
sock.  He took the other foot and repeated the process.  Reaching up, he
took hold of the waist of my 501's and pulled them down and I lifted my
feet so he could remove them completely.  Robert leaned forward and very
lightly nuzzled my brief encased buddy with his nose.  A moan escaped from
my mouth as my body responded to his closeness.  He stood up and took hold
of the bottom of my shirt and pulled it up and over my head.  He dropped
the shirt to the floor and enveloped me in a hug and our lips met.

The heat of his body was flowing into mine as we stood there in my room.
He broke the kiss, took my hand, and said, "Come with me." He led me into
the bathroom.  So entranced by Robert when I entered the room, I hadn't
noticed that the shower was on in the bathroom.  "Lets take a shower baby."

"Gosh Robert," I whispered.  It didn't seem right to speak too loud.  "You
did all this?  You sure you've never done this before?"

"Not until this very moment, but I've dreamed of doing this with you
forever."

Robert removed his shorts and stepped in the shower and held out his hand
for me to follow.  I removed my briefs and took his hand in mine.  He
pulled me in and I felt the warm water flowing over my back.  It seemed
that every nerve in my body was in tune with the moment and every sensation
I felt increased my desire for him.  Embracing me, Robert and I kissed as
the water cascaded down on our intertwined bodies.  I felt his hardness
against my own, as he moved his hands along the muscles of my back and
down.  I caressed his back as well, gently moving further down and applying
slight pressure to pull him in closer to me.
 
Robert reached for the liquid soap and poured some in his right hand.
"Hold out your hand Cutey."  I held out my right hand and he poured some in
it.  After replacing the bottle of soap in the shower rack, he turned the
showerhead towards the wall.  He massaged the cool liquid into my back and
worked the lather over my skin.  I did the same for him as we continued
embracing.  Robert then leaned forward and I felt his lips on my neck.  He
parted them and I felt his tongue as he slid it along the left side of my
neck, under my chin and then to the sensitive right side.  "I love you
Brent," he breathed into my ear, sending erotic pulses to my brain and the
farthest reaches of my soul.

I slide my lathered hand down his back and onto his firm butt.  Circling
each cheek, I slipped my hand between them and brought my hand from the
base of his crack, upwards.  When my hand moved over his sensitive shoot, I
felt him shudder and moan, as he pressed back on my hand begging for
further manipulation.  "I can't take much more of this Brent.  Let's rinse
off." I knew I couldn't hold out for long either and agreed.

Robert reached up and turned the showerhead towards us, rinsing the soap
off and stepped out of the shower.  I used a bath towel and dried the water
from Robert's body as he did the same for me.  My senses were still
heightened as I followed Robert into the bedroom.  We made it to the bed
and as I lay down, I pulled Robert down on top of me.  We were both still
hard and I felt his cock slide along the inside of my thigh and rub against
my ball sack, coming to rest along side my own.  Our lips found each
other's and we battled with our tongues, trying to drink in each other's
essence.

Robert began kissing my chin and slowly moved down my body, using his mouth
and tongue to reach the most sensitive areas on his voyage of discovering
my body.  He lingered on my sensitive, hardened nipples.  "Oh God Brent,
you taste so good.  I can feel your muscles tighten as I kiss your body."
He looked up at me, "your beautiful."

I never imagined that I could ever feel like Robert was making me feel.  He
seemed to know just what to do and say to cause the most erotic dreams I
ever had to pale in comparison.  "Don't stop Robert, I need you to take me,
please!"

"You just lay back and I'll take care of you...I love you Brent," and the
look in his eyes as he said this, told me better than any words could, that
he didn't lie.

"God Robert, I think I've loved you all my life and will for the rest of my
life."  Just as I finished saying this, I felt Robert's hot breath flow the
length of my swollen cock.  A very loud moan escaped my throat and then I
felt his tongue lick the sensitive head of my circumcised member.  It
jumped and a glistening drop of pre-cum came out of the slit and Robert
kissed it away.  I arched my back to try and maneuver my cock between those
wonderful lips and gasped as I felt the warmth of the inside of his mouth
envelope me.  His tongue slide up and down the underside of my cock as he
moved it in and out.

"Wait Robert," I gasped.  "I want to do this together."  If I didn't stop
him, I'd cum to soon and I wanted to feel him and taste him too. I moved
down and kissed him on the way as I turned my upper body towards the foot
of the bed.  I was now in a position where the scent of his young, strong
body permeated my senses.  I again moaned as I felt my cock enter Robert's
mouth and I looked at his waiting to share the pleasures that I was
receiving.  I moved forward and slid my tongue along the vein-covered
length of his shaft.  His moans vibrated my cock as he swallowed it until I
could feel his throat contract around its head.  I couldn't wait to feel
him in my mouth and took hold and lowered my lips to the tip of his cock.
It was slick with the pre-cum created by his excitement and I tasted the
salty sweet essence of his manhood.  I encircled the base of his cock with
my hand and applied pressure as I jacked up the length.  I was rewarded
with a large amount of pre-cum and I lapped it up like I was thirsting for
life.

Robert moaned and asked me to please suck him.  Needing no further
prompting, I inserted his cock into my mouth as far as I could.  I was only
able to get about five inches in, before I moved my head back half an inch.
God his taste and smell was driving me crazy as well as his warm and
slippery mouth bobbing up and down my own cock.  I felt a strong sensation
moving from my feet, and up my legs and I knew it wouldn't be long before I
spilled my seed into Robert's hungry mouth.  I increased my own worship of
Robert's blood engorged shaft and felt it expanding as I bobbed up and
down.

"Robert," I moaned as I took his cock out of my mouth, "I'm going to cum,"
and felt his tongue circle the head of my cock.

"Ok Cutey." He breathed.  "I'm ready for it.  I want to take it in my
mouth.  If you keep up with me, we can cum together, but you don't have to
take it in yours if you don't want to." He said.

"I want to.  I've never wanted anything more than to have a part of you
inside of me. " And I took his cock in my mouth once again and savored the
feel of its hardness as I worked to extract his love.

It didn't take long until the most amazing and strongest orgasm I had ever
felt moved up my legs and throughout my body.  I felt Robert's cock expand
in my mouth as his speed and mine matched as we sucked and massaged each
other to finality. We both came at the same time. I clamped my mouth around
his cock as my own was held tight in Robert's.  The first shot of cum hit
the back of my throat and slid into me and become a part of me.  I pulled
back on Robert's cock as he continued to pump his load in my mouth and I
savored the flavor of it.  My own dick erupted as his second shot coated my
tongue.  It felt as if my soul was bleeding from me as I emptied the
heaviest load I had ever spent into his eager mouth.  I swallowed every bit
of him except the last flow, which I held in my mouth.

Feeling more drained than ever before, I withdrew my softening cock from
Robert's mouth and turned back towards the head of the bed.  As I came up
to Robert lying on his side, I moved in and kissed him.  I used my tongue
to enter his mouth and was pleasantly surprised to find that he had also
saved some of my seed and we shared each with the other, as out tongues
explored.

"God Brent, that was amazing.  I've never cummed so hard and so much in my
life.  I thought I was going to drown you with it and you taste so good.
I've tasted my own before, but yours taste like...like, you!  I love it."
And he kissed me again.

"Robert?"

"Umm?

I blushed as he held me tight, "Can we do this again?" I asked.

Chuckling at my request, Robert answered, "Cutey, we can do this forever!"
and then kissed me and I felt so secure and loved in my lover's arms.  Me,
a macho football player and the captain of the school swimming team.
Lovers.
 
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That completes chapter VII.  I hope it wasn't too much of a strain to read
:).  I know it was long, but good sex should take time.  Let me know how
you liked it.  brent@cutey.com