Date: Fri, 7 Dec 2012 22:38:05 -0600
From: Vic James <vicjames2@hotmail.com>
Subject: Owen

                            Owen
                        By Vic James
                 Copyright 2012 by Vic James
                    vicjames2@homail.com

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                             One
     My parents Ed and Diane Martin, were close friends with
another couple, Jack and Janice, in college. Jack and Janice
Rossi  had a son, Owen, and my parents are his god  parents.
Around  three  years later, my parents had a  son,  me.  I'm
Jamie,  Jack and Janice (Uncle Jack and Aunt Janice  to  me)
were my godparents.
     Even  though there's a three year age difference,  Owen
and  I  grew up together and were best friends. Until I  was
ten Owen and his parents lived next door to us. Our families
vacationed  together and celebrated holidays  and  birthdays
together.
     Owen taught me lots of things. I learned how to read by
following along with him while he did his homework. He never
got  annoyed  by  my  questions:  Why  does  this  'A'  look
different  than that 'a'? What's that word? What  does  that
mean?  I'm sure it took him a lot longer to do his  homework
than  it  would have if I hadn't been there, but  he  always
seemed glad I was `helping him'.
     We  raised  lots of pets together. There was  an  empty
field and a wooded area behind our houses. We found a garter
snake,  a corn snake, a box turtle, toads, salamanders,  and
assorted  other  wildlife. None of these  stayed  for  long,
except  for  the  box  turtle, Amigo.  We  still  have  him.
Actually  he found us. He was wandering around in  our  back
yard. We also had regular pets. Owen had a dog and we had  a
cat.
     When  Owen  and I found the garter snake in  the  field
behind  our houses, we took him to my house. We didn't  have
him  long though. I don't even think we had him a full  day.
He  disappeared  and my mom said that all his  little  snake
buddies  from the field were calling to him and telling  him
they  missed him. He escaped, she said and he went back  out
to them.
     I  told  Owen what had happened. We were familiar  with
some bird calls, but not snake calls. Owen was too young  to
join  the  Boy  Scouts  at the time  but  he  knew  who  the
scoutmaster was. He asked the scoutmaster what kind of calls
garter  snakes made. Owen said the man said "I suppose  it's
something like 'sssssssssss'." Owen and I were happy to know
this.  For  about  a  year I was under the  impression  that
snakes were all good friends with each other. When I finally
found  out the truth a few years later, reptiles don't  have
friends, I asked my mom if the snake died. She said that  as
soon  as  I left the house. She put on her oven mitts,  took
the tank in the back yard, and shook it upside down over the
fence. Then ran back in the house and locked the back  door.
She hates snakes.
     Owen  taught  me  to  ride a bicycle.  My  father  kept
promising to teach me, but he was working a lot at the time,
sometimes  on weekends. Finally Owen decided  to  do  it.  I
remember he wrapped some old towels around my knees  because
he  had  scraped  one of his knees when he was  learning  to
ride.  The  towels messed up pedaling and one got caught  in
the  chain so he had to take them off. He said "Don't worry.
It  will  be worth it." After a couple of hours  and  a  few
falls, I had the hang of it, although turns were still iffy.
When  I got off, he spun me around and said "Whoopee!  Let's
go!" And we did. Slowly and unsteadily, I'll admit. It was a
very  exciting day for me, and as usual, it was all  because
of Owen.
     Our parents, particularly Owen's dad were always trying
to  get us to do things with other kids. I remember he  said
"If  you  have  four  kids in it (he  was  talking  about  a
treehouse)  you'll have twice as much fun." I  suppose  that
made mathematical sense to his dad, but didn't make sense to
me. Owen said `If there are twice as many people, you and  I
will  have  half as much fun'. I was probably  in  first  or
second  grade, so the mathematics of fun was  beyond  me.  I
agreed with Owen, though.
     Owen eventually joined the Boy Scouts but stopped going
because  I  couldn't join. Instead we studied his Boy  Scout
Manual together. Our fathers would sometimes take us camping
and we would practice what we'd learned, often in the wooded
area behind our houses. We knew much more about it than they
did!
     To  be  honest,  most of the kids in  the  neighborhood
wanted to stay home and play video games, so it wasn't  like
we had to chase them off. Some of them told us we were weird
because we wanted to explore and play outside. That was fine
with us. We thought they were idiots. Neither of us has ever
been all that wild about video games.
     When  we  were  both in the same grade school,  it  was
great  having a much older protector. The bullies who  might
have  picked  on  me because of my size (I was  short)  knew
they'd  have  to  deal  with Owen. And  Owen  was  extremely
protective.
     We  spent many nights together with sleepovers at  each
other's houses.
     Most people assumed we were cousins probably because  I
referred to his mom and dad as my aunt and uncle. Neither of
us ever corrected anyone. He was family to me.
     We  sometimes got in trouble together too.  I  remember
once  when  we  were  playing catch, we broke  a  neighbor's
window. I was probably five or six at the time. Owen  and  I
decided  we might be able to tape the window back  together,
so  while Owen was looking for gloves, I found scotch  tape.
Owen  wouldn't let me do any of the taping, but as  you  can
probably guess, it didn't work well. Every time we tried  to
lift the glass the tape would pull off. We went through  two
rolls of tape before giving up. When the neighbor found out,
he allowed us to work off the cost of the window replacement
by  mowing  his lawn for a few weeks. We had a  lot  of  fun
doing  that  together.  He had an  electric  mower  that  we
thought  was  really cool. It had a start  button!  We  both
agreed  mowing  was  a lot easier than taping  windows  back
together.
     Of  course after Owen moved, I saw a lot less  of  him.
When  Owen  started high school, I hardly saw  him  at  all.
Their  new house was a couple of miles away. Not a long  way
away, but far enough. I really grieved for a while. I missed
him  a  lot. My parents encouraged me to do things  with  my
classmates, and I did; but it really wasn't the  same.  Owen
was  my idol and my best friend. Those other kids were  just
kids.
     We  went to some of Owen's football games and still got
together on holidays. But we didn't have long heart to heart
talks  like  we  used  to and we didn't do  things  together
anymore, just the two of us. I often called at first,  after
the  move, asking him if he wanted to do things but he would
say  he  couldn't. When our families would get together,  he
looked kind of sad, but he was always very nice to me, so  I
never thought he maybe didn't like me anymore. Eventually  I
stopped calling and asking.
     Even  though  I  missed him so much,  I  wasn't  really
surprised we weren't doing things together anymore. I  could
see  he  was  becoming a man. I was still basically  a  kid.
Occasionally  we went over to their house to swim  in  their
pool.  I  saw he was getting hair on his chest and  I  could
tell  he  probably had to shave every day; he  had  a  heavy
beard.  Both  of which I loved, by the way. All during  this
time, I assumed it was our age keeping us apart. My thinking
was  why would a man want to hang out with a kid? I couldn't
help hoping it would change though.
     While  he  was  doing  his high school  things,  I  was
getting  older too and I began seeing and thinking  of  Owen
differently.  I  began to think he was  very  good  looking.
Before  he was just Owen and he looked like himself.  Now  I
started to think he was the most handsome guy alive. When  I
started  beating off around the time I was twelve,  I  would
think  of Owen and how great he looked in his Speedo. I  had
photos  of him and would sometimes beat off looking at  him.
Most  of  these  photos  were of him younger  and  I  wanted
pictures of the new gorgeous Owen. I had my opportunity last
Christmas. He didn't seem to question why I wanted  so  many
photos  of  just  him.  He  just kept  smiling  and  posing,
sometimes in muscle-man poses with silly facial expressions.
Afterwards he hugged me for a long time. It felt so good,  I
had tears in my eyes.
     I  discovered sex sites on the Internet. From  those  I
learned I was gay. The things I read about I imagined  doing
with Owen.
     I  felt guilty about these new feelings for him. On the
other  hand,  it  felt  completely  natural.  My  life   had
basically  revolved around him. Who else  should  I  have  a
crush on? A stranger?
     One  day  when Mom, Dad, and I were eating  dinner  Dad
told  me  that  my  aunt and uncle were going  on  a  second
honeymoon  and  Owen would be staying with us  for  the  two
weeks they would be away. That would be Labor Day weekend. I
was  really  excited about Owen staying, but I  was  already
thinking  of  him as a man and wondered why he  wasn't  just
staying at his house. I asked Dad if Owen was upset  he  had
to  stay  with  us. Dad frowned and asked why  he  would  be
upset. I said "Well he's old enough to not need a babysitter
which means he's old enough to stay by himself."
     My  mom said that Owen and his parents had talked about
that.  My  Uncle Jack said that if it was just an  overnight
trip  it  would have been OK for Owen to be on his own,  but
not  for two weeks. Mom said Owen seemed fine with the  idea
of  staying with us, he even seemed very excited. I wondered
if that was true. Not that I was complaining!

                             Two
                          Saturday
     Saturday morning Owen showed up at our door. He  really
did seem happy to be there. He picked me up and spun us both
around with my legs flying out behind me saying, "Hey  there
Jamie!"
     I  laughed but was a little annoyed. I said "Well don't
I feel six years old again?"
     He  grinned and said "I thought you were six. You  used
to be didn't you?"
     I  held  up all the fingers in one hand and the  middle
finger in my other hand and said "I'm this many years old."
     "Oh you're bad, you are," he said laughing.
     I  felt really happy, it was starting to feel like  old
times.
     He  only  had a small bag with him which I  thought  at
first  was  kind of odd for two weeks, but then  I  realized
that  his house was only a couple of miles away and he could
always  drive over to get whatever he needed. He now  had  a
driver's license and my uncle's old car.
     I  told him he would be staying in my room in the other
twin bed that was in there. He'd slept on it many times when
we  were  younger  and had sleepovers. I  asked  him  if  he
minded.
     He  said  "Not at all, but do you mind having to  share
your  bedroom?" I just shook my head no, and smiled. I  told
him I was really glad he was there and that I missed him. He
told me he missed me a lot and he looked a little sad, so  I
hugged  him  again.  To be honest, I was  a  little  nervous
around  him.  A part of me was afraid I would say  something
wrong and he would disappear again.
     He  surprised me by saying "Damn! I am so  glad  to  be
here!  It's  like old times! Jamie, do you think much  about
all the stuff we did together?"
     "Every day, Owen. I miss you every single day."
     "I  was so happy when we lived next door. Every day was
an adventure, with you."
     "You're happy at your new house though, aren't you?"
     Owen  just said "Eeh." That was definitely not  a  yes.
That  depressed  me. Owen deserves to  be  happy.  He  is  a
wonderful person!
     I suppose I should describe Owen. Owen was 5 foot 11 at
the  time, with very dark brown hair and brown eyes. He wore
his hair short. He felt his nose was a little too large, but
I think it's perfectly suited to his face.
     "Jamie, you're becoming a man. When I think about  you,
I've been picturing the way you used to look. You're getting
cute!"
     "Uh, right. Thanks for lying. Or possibly for being the
only person other than my mom who thinks I'm cute. Of course
with her, it's self-defense."
     Owen laughed "What do you mean?"
     "What  mother wants to admit she dumped an ugly kid  on
an  unsuspecting world. 'I don't think he's  ugly;  I  think
he's cute.'
     "Oh! Wait a minute, Owen! You left yourself an out. You
didn't say I am cute, you said I was getting cute."
     Owen  laughed  and said "I worded it very carefully.  I
spent days working on what might appear to anyone else to be
a  compliment. But the amazing part was anticipating that  I
would need it." We laughed.
     Owen  asked  seriously "Jamie, you don't  really  think
you're ugly, do you? You aren't!"
     "No,  I  guess not. I just didn't know what to say."  I
knew I wasn't anywhere near as cute as Owen, but a couple of
girls  from  school kept making goo-goo eyes  at  me,  so  I
guessed I wasn't repulsive.
     We went into my bedroom. He put his bag next to his bed
and  then laid down on it with his arms behind his  head.  I
lay  down on my bed and looked at him. His legs were covered
with  black  hair (he was wearing shorts) and  so  were  his
arms. I said "Wow Owen, you've gotten so hairy!" He was  way
more hairy than Uncle Jack. Owen always had a lot of hair on
his  arms, enough that removing Band-Aids was a problem, but
it used to be thin and pale. Now it seemed thick and black.
     He  said  "Yeah, I guess I am. Does it look  bad?  It's
weird being the hairiest guy in the shower at school."
     I  wanted  to say I loved it. My dick was getting  hard
from  looking  at him so I rolled onto my stomach  and  said
"No, it looks good on you."
     "Are  you lifting weights? You look like you've  really
muscled up." I asked him.
     "Yeah. My dad bought me a set. He thought it would help
with football."
     "Do you like playing football?"
     "No."  I didn't know what to make of that. Why play  if
you didn't like it?
     "Well you look fantastic!"
     "Really?"  He looked uncertain. How could he  not  know
that?
     "Absolutely."
     "My  girlfriend wanted me to shave my chest," he  said.
"I didn't want to do it. Too much work!"
     That hurt. A girlfriend. I said "I didn't even know you
have a girlfriend. What's her name?"
     He  said  "I guess she's more of an ex-girlfriend.  Her
name is Chastity." Oh, ex-girlfriend! Much better.
     "Hey,  I  finally had sex!" That hurt a lot!  I  had  a
horrible sinking feeling.
     "With Chastity?"
     "No, with another girl." I was getting really depressed
at this point.
     He  looked  at  me  funny and said  "Let's  talk  about
something else. Do you feel like going fishing today?"
     I  thought  about it and told him I really didn't  feel
like  cleaning  any fish. My mom used to clean  the  ones  I
caught  but she came up with a `you kill em, you  clean  em'
policy and now I would have to do it. Cleaning out fish guts
and scaling fish did not make me want to eat fish.
     "We  could go to the mall. I can drive," he said.  That
sounded  good to me so I left a note for my parents  and  we
left in his car.
     I  admired his car on the way. It was pretty cool, even
if it was a Volvo.
     We  spent a couple of hours at the mall. We ran into  a
couple  of his friends from high school and I was afraid  he
was  going to dump me to hang out with them. But after  just
saying  `hi'  to  them we kept going. He  didn't  even  stop
walking, which surprised me. We talked a lot and it  started
to really feel like old times.
     I  ran into a guy from my class, Mike, who was shopping
with  his  mom.  I  said hi to him. He asked  me  if  I  had
finished my English assignment. I told him I had. Owen  took
my arm and said "I'm hungry. Let's get something to eat."  I
guessed  it  was  my  imagination, but I thought  he  looked
jealous. Let's face it, I thought. I'm not that lucky.
     We ate lunch in the food court and while we were eating
he  asked me if I thought about girls much. I really  didn't
know what to say. Should I tell the truth; that I thought  I
was gay? Would he dislike me or feel nervous around me if  I
did? Maybe I should lie. Was I ready to come out? Was I even
sure I was gay?
     After  thinking for a while I decided I didn't want  to
lie. I trusted him. I said "No, I don't think about them."
     He said "I didn't think so. You seem to be checking out
the guys."
     "I  was not," I said. "Was I?" Had I checked out  other
guys when I was with Owen? Maybe it had become habit.
     He  said  "Yeah, you were." I must have turned red  and
could have crawled under the table. He put his hand on  mine
and said softly "It's OK." And he smiled at me.
     I told him I hadn't told anyone yet. He said "You know,
no one who really cares about you will want you to be anyone
other than who you are."
     I smiled and him and said `Thanks."
     "Did you think I wouldn't like you if I knew?" he asked
me.
     I  said  "I hoped you wouldn't care, but I was a little
worried. Your friends might not want you hanging out with `a
little queer'."
     He looked pissed! "You are NOT a `little queer'! You're
my  best  friend and I wouldn't be friends with  anyone  who
felt that way." I didn't feel like his best friend any more.
I  really felt like his former best friend. I didn't know he
had  at  least two girlfriends and had sex at least once.  I
didn't even know he was dating.
     I  said  "I  just haven't seen that much of you  and  I
don't really know how you feel about things anymore. We used
to talk and talk and share everything. It's...been a while."
     "Between school and football practice and dad after  me
to  keep my grades high enough to get a college scholarship,
I  don't  have time to just talk and hang out. I don't  have
time  to  do anything fun. Believe me, I miss it!" he  said.
"Mostly, I miss you."
     "I  just  assumed  you were out with  your  friends  at
parties  every  night and...well, after what you  said  this
morning,  maybe  even orgies!" I told  him.  He  laughed.  I
thought  for a minute and asked "What's with the scholarship
thing? I know your parents have a college savings account to
cover  that. Your mom told me once that your dad set  it  up
before you were even born. They didn't know what name to put
on the account!"
     "You've got me Jamie. I really don't know. Sometimes  I
think  he  thinks if I don't get better grades than  he  did
that's  he's failing as a parent. I don't want to disappoint
him, but sometimes I feel like telling him I don't even want
to  go  to college. I could be perfectly happy not being  an
`executive'. He made some mention a couple of weeks  ago  of
what  was expected of a CEO! So now I'm thinking not even  a
full  scholarship is going to be enough for him. I'll  be  a
failure if I'm not president of some company by the time I'm
twenty five." Owen looked like he was ready to cry and  that
had me starting to cry.
     I  said "Owen, you told me that no one who cared  about
me would want me to be anyone besides myself. Maybe you need
to  take  that to heart and be yourself. What does your  mom
say? Have you mentioned how stressed you are about it?"
     "She says `Honey, just do your best. If you don't get a
scholarship, you don't get a scholarship.' But it's my  dad.
He  gives me this `I'm so disappointed in you' look  when  I
have even a B on my report card."
     I was so lucky I didn't have to deal with that...or did
I?  Was I going to have to go through the same thing when  I
went  to  high school? After all our parents discussed  this
stuff with each other.
     I smiled and decided to try to cheer him up. I told him
"I'm going to tell my parents I'm going to be a folk singer.
I'll  get  a guitar and learn how to play Kumbaya. Any  time
the pressure starts to get too much, I'll pull out my guitar
and  sing for them. They'll be so grateful if I even  go  to
college.
     "And   you   could  suddenly  develop  a  passion   for
Sanitation Engineering. You can tell your dad you can be  an
Engineer  without even finishing high school! You  can  tell
him  you spoke to several engineers and found that a Manager
of  Sanitation Engineering makes even more than a manager of
a Seven Eleven."
     Owen   starting  chuckling  and  it  turned  into  full
laughter  that went on for a while. "God, I've missed  you,"
he said wiping his eyes. I was very glad I made him smile. I
decided he needed to laugh more.
     "Is there anywhere you want to go here?" Owen asked.
     I took him to the music store and asked if they had the
sheet music to Kumbaya. They had it and the sales clerk told
me it was two dollars. She started going on about the origin
of the song. I interrupted her to ask if I bought two copies
could  I get one of them for $1.99. She said she would  have
to  ask the manager. I said to Owen "Someday, you'll be  the
one  they  ask." Owen laughed loudly. I bought two sets  one
for me and one for Owen.
     We  shopped some. Owen tried on a couple of  shirts.  I
really liked one of them on him and he bought it.
     On  our  way  home, I asked Owen to  stop  at  a  Seven
Eleven.  I asked the clerk who looked about twenty what  the
Manager's  name was. He was the manager. I asked him  if  he
liked  his  job and Owen burst out laughing again.  I  don't
think the manager saw the humor in it, so we left.
     "Where's the Sanitation Department? I assume that's our
next stop, Jamie."
     "Are  you  kidding? Engineers working on  a  Saturday?"
Owen laughed the whole way home.
     When  we got home Owen hugged me and said "Jamie,  this
is  the most fun I've had since we moved." I felt really sad
for  him.  But then I realized it was the most fun  I'd  had
too.
     We  decided to watch a movie. I sat next to him on  the
sofa. After a few minutes he put his arm over my shoulder. I
was  in  heaven! It didn't feel awkward or forced.  It  just
seemed  natural. I had seen the movie several  times  and  I
guess  I  fell asleep. I woke up and realized I  had  fallen
asleep  with  my head against him. I pulled  away  and  said
"Sorry about that. About falling asleep on you."
     "Jamie,  please don't apologize." I looked at  him.  He
had a sweet smile on his face. He pulled me back against him
and said "If you're sleepy, sleep." I leaned my head against
his upper arm. I didn't sleep again, but it felt really good
sitting there with him.
     Afterwards we drove over to his house so he could  pick
up  some more clothes. We hung out and talked some more.  He
showed  me his weight set. He impressed the hell out  of  me
with how much he could lift.
     My  mom called me on my cell phone and I told her where
we were. She said we were all going out for dinner and to be
back at the house by around 6 pm.
     We  went  to  a really great seafood place I  like  for
dinner.  I  think we all had a good time and  the  food  was
wonderful  as  usual. Owen asked if he could taste  some  of
mine and offered me some of his.
     On  the way home, Owen sat right next to me in the back
seat, with our legs touching. There was plenty of room,  but
I didn't complain!
     When  we  got home, Owen suggested we watch  TV  in  my
room, so we did that. I took my jeans off and put on a  pair
of shorts. His bed didn't have the best view of the TV so  I
asked  him if he want to watch from mine. He smiled and  lay
down  on it next to me. With him so close, I couldn't really
concentrate on what we were watching, but I didn't mind  any
more than I had in the car!
     Between shows, Owen said to me "Are you sure you  don't
mind  sharing your room with me? You're not really going  to
have much privacy."
     I  said  "Owen, this is really great...you being  here.
I've really missed you. I really don't have any really close
friends  at school. To be honest, the kids in my class  seem
really  immature to me. They all seem incredibly boring  and
immature  compared to you. I used to have you to  bounce  my
thoughts  and feelings off of. I don't have anyone  I  trust
enough to do that anymore."
     He  said  "You are very mature for your age. I remember
having  conversations with you when you were only five  that
made me think. It never really felt to me like you were that
much  younger than me, just shorter." he said and nudged  me
with his shoulder.
     We  kept watching TV. Well he was probably watching.  I
was  very, very conscious of the fact that he was in my  bed
next  to me. One new thing I was discovering was his  smell.
It wasn't that he smelled bad or dirty. It was just uniquely
Owen  and  I liked it. My dick was hard the entire  evening,
but  I  didn't  think it was very noticeable  in  the  loose
shorts I was wearing.
     After  the show we were watching was over, he  got  off
the  bed and said he was going to take a shower. I went into
my  bathroom and made sure clean towels were out for him.  I
had  a  couple of different shampoos and soaps and I  showed
him  where  they  were. He was watching me smiling.  I  said
"What?"
     He  said "I have been in your bathroom before. Have you
forgotten how many times I spent the night here?"
     Ingrate!  After he closed the bathroom door, I wondered
if  he  was  going to beat off in the shower.  Oh,  lord!  I
wished I could watch. `Stop it!' I thought to myself.
     Owen finished his shower and walked out of the bathroom
wearing just boxers. His chest was covered with black  curly
hair. It continued down over his belly to become thicker  at
the  top of his boxers. He looked absolutely stunning to me.
He  looked at me and said "Are you OK?" I realized my  mouth
was  open.  I  closed it. I almost ran into the bathroom.  I
closed the door and sat on the toilet and put my face in  my
hands.  I  was  terrified that I was  going  to  say  or  do
something that would destroy our friendship. I knew  he  was
straight.  I knew I couldn't be perving over him.  He  would
probably just end up thinking I was pathetic, or disgusting,
or worse. I was starting to feel like he was back in my life
and I was terrified I would ruin it.
     I took my shower, then I got out and dried myself. Then
I  realized  I hadn't brought any clothes into the  bathroom
with  me. Fortunately my dick had softened. I walked  to  my
dresser,  dropped the towel and put on a pair of  briefs.  I
didn't risk looking at Owen though. I put my shorts back  on
and turned to Owen.
     "Your mom and dad went to bed," he said.
     I said, "Yeah they're in bed by ten every night."
     "Do you want to watch anything?" he asked me.
     "No,  let's  just talk" I said. I got  in  my  bed  and
rolled  onto  my stomach and looked at him. He  was  in  the
other bed in his boxers and a t-shirt.
     I  was afraid of the answer, but I asked "You said  you
had sex. How many times?"
     "Just  once." I guess that was as good an answer  as  I
could hope for.
     The  more  I  thought  about it  though,  the  more  it
depressed me. I really didn't want to hear details. I knew I
couldn't  handle them. Oh lord, I realized I was so jealous.
I  hated both girls he had mentioned intensely and had never
even met them! I wondered if I would ever be able to just be
happy  for  Owen without feeling this way. I  wanted  to  be
happy  for him. I knew I should be happy for him. I  thought
to  myself `He's going to get married and I'll never see him
again  because I'll hate his wife just for being married  to
him'.
     I  thought that maybe when I had a boyfriend of my own,
I  would  feel differently. But where was I going to  get  a
boyfriend? I remember wondering whether I was in  love  with
Owen.  Was  it  love I felt? Was it a crush? Or  was  it  an
obsession?
     Owen  said  "Jamie, I want to ask you something  and  I
really want you to tell me the truth."
     "OK, Owen."
     "I've  noticed  how  you look at me. Do  you...hmm...do
you...want me? No, never mind! I shouldn't have asked."
     O  dear lord. He knew! I felt so ashamed. I just rolled
over  on  my  side  with my back to him  and  tears  started
rolling  down my face. I was trying not to make  any  noise,
but  I  guess  he knew. Owen got in my bed next  to  me  and
pulled me over and hugged me.
     "Please  talk to me," he said. "I need you to  talk  to
me.  I'm sorry! I didn't mean to make you cry. I don't think
I can forgive myself if I hurt you."
     "Oh,  Owen,  it's not anything you did or said.  You're
wonderful  as usual." I sniffed and continued "You're  smart
and  kind  and  now you're even gorgeous. It's me.  I'm...my
emotions    are    out   of   control.    I...I..it's    me.
I'm...defective! I realized my head was on his chest and  he
was  lightly  rubbing  my back. I looked  up  at  him.  "I'm
sorry...it's not you. I mean it's not you!"
     He  gave me a sad little smile. "Jamie, I've missed you
so  much.  My  parents thought it was time to have  friends,
plural, instead of just one friend. They wanted me to  "Grow
up  into my own person" whatever the hell that means. That's
why  we  moved. I cried for a month after we moved, I missed
you  so much. When I wanted to call you my parents would say
I  needed to give you time to meet other people. So I didn't
even talk to you on the phone.
     "Then,  I started to worry about what they'd  do  if  I
didn't do what they said. Moving was awful. What would  they
do  next?  Would  it be worse? So I acted as  though  I  had
friends.  I  did things with people even if  I  didn't  like
them.  I learned how to laugh at things I didn't find funny.
Dad told me I ought to try out for the football team. I did.
Later they decided it was time for me to start dating. So  I
dated. He even suggested Chastity. He knows her father."
     Owen  continued  "I hope they're happier,  because  I'm
not.  Are you happier now than before we moved?" I shook  my
head no. "I don't have any other real friends. I've met  new
people, but they're just people I know. I don't have  anyone
else  I  can confide in. It takes time to make true  friends
and  I haven't had the time. I still think about you all the
time. All the time!
     "So  tell me why you're crying and why you think you're
defective. And you better make it good or I might  beat  you
up for lying about my best friend," he said.
     I  thought  about it. Should I tell him when  it  might
make  him  hate me or be too uncomfortable to be around  me?
But from what he said, we really were still best friends.
     I  said  "Once  I started thinking about  sex,  all  my
thoughts  seemed to revolve around you. No  one  else  seems
even  remotely interesting to me. No, that's not quite true.
People  who  remind  me  of you are  interesting,  but  only
because  they remind me of you. When you said I was checking
them  out  at  the mall, I was probably rating them  on  the
'Owen'  scale. You know, how much they looked like  you.  So
the  answer  to  your question is yes, yes,  yes!  You  just
seem...perfect  to me. Like the most desirable  man  on  the
planet.  I've been worried that this...after first I thought
it was a crush, that maybe it's really an obsession. I guess
in  a  way, what your parents were saying is true. Not  only
can I not feel the need for other friends, I can't even seem
to feel like dating anyone but you.
     "The problem is, no matter how many times I tell myself
`He's  straight, get over it' or 'He's left  your  life  for
good', I can't seem to get over it. Part of the problem is I
know  you so well. You're not just some guy I think is cute.
The  reasons I care so much for you, the reasons I think  so
highly  of you are real. They're based on our lives together
and  from  knowing  you so well. I don't imagine  your  good
qualities; I know them by heart.
     "I  do  try to do things with other people.  And  I  do
them.  It's just...whenever I see something awesome  like  a
beautiful sunset or a huge flock of birds, I always think 'I
wish  Owen was here to see this'. I don't ever think 'I wish
Mike  from  my class was here'. I don't know if  this  makes
much  sense.  Sometimes I just sit here and reminisce  about
the  special things we've done, the good times  we  had."  I
didn't  tell Owen that deep down, everything I did with  him
was that special to me.
     I  could feel Owen shaking so I looked at him.  He  was
crying.  I was afraid he was disgusted or disappointed  with
me,  so I started to pull away. He pulled me tighter to him.
I put my head back on his chest and hugged him right back.
     Neither of us said anything for a while. Finally I said
"I'm sorry."
     He  sniffed  and  said  "You  tell  me  you  think  I'm
wonderful  and  perfect and then you apologize!  Jamie,  you
said  you  thought it was an obsession. I really don't  know
for  sure if what you feel is an obsession but it definitely
sounds like love to me. Maybe love is an obsession. I  don't
have  a  clue.  I'll just tell you I...I feel  honored...and
loved...and  it doesn't make me care for you  any  less.  If
anything it makes me care for you more.
     "And Jamie, you're not 'out of my life'. I promise  you
that.  I  swear! If I have to sneak away to be with  you,  I
will."
     We lay there for a couple of minutes.
     He  finally said "How did you know you are gay? Do  you
fantasize about men? Is that how?"
     I  said "Well basically women just don't excite  me  at
all.  Looking at naked women no matter how beautiful doesn't
excite  me  but  I  might  enjoy looking  at  a  naked  man,
depending on what he looked like."
     "You  mean his rating on the 'Owen scale'?" He said  it
with a smile.
     "Yeah. Exactly." That was still hard to say.
     "You really think about me when you beat off?"
     "Yes."
     "That is so cool!"
     I laughed. "It is?"
     "Yeah. To think someone thinks I'm that sexy!"
     "Do  you  fantasize about women when you beat  off?"  I
asked him.
     "Mostly  I think about how good it feels. And...I  like
looking  at my dick. I guess that's narcissistic.  It's  not
like I fantasize about Anna Nicole Smith or anything."
     "Well  I think that's probably a good thing, her  being
dead and all!" I said. "Besides, why shouldn't you like your
dick?  It  makes  you happy. And you're not narcissistic.  I
mean you don't stare into mirrors or anything."
     "She's dead? I didn't even know," he said.
     "Yeah. I don't know how she died though."
     After a few minutes Owen continued "I think you've been
dealing  with everything all by yourself. Trying  to  figure
out  how you should feel. And you don't know. You're  having
to  come  to  grips  with being different  from  most  other
people. But please don't feel guilty about liking the way  I
look  or  wanting me. It doesn't bother me in the least.  My
own  sexuality  is still a complete mystery.  I'm  flattered
that  you  like the way I look. And I've got to admit...it's
kind of exciting!
     "I'll be completely honest here, to both of us: I think
I  would have had a much better time on a date with you than
with  the  girl I was with. I don't know that I  would  have
been  thinking  in  sexual terms  with  you,  but  I  wasn't
thinking  of sex with her either. She started talking  about
her  hair.  I guess I should have told her it was  beautiful
but  I  was  afraid it would make the date last longer!  Her
hair  looked like hair to me. I almost said 'Yes, it's  very
hair-like'." I laughed.
     "Lying  here next to you, I can tell you this:  there's
no where else I'd rather be. I'm with the person I most want
to  be with. But...I've never had sexual thoughts about  you
before now." Hmm, I thought. What did that mean? Before now?
What  did any of this mean? Was he saying he wanted to  date
me but without sex? Or just continue to be best friends? One
thing  I  knew for sure: Owen was happy with me  the  way  I
really was, just like he'd always been. I was so relieved  I
didn't have to hide anything about myself from him.
     "I  told  you I haven't made any real friends  in  high
school.  I  don't really get along with most of  the  people
I've  met. Most of them want to do stupid things and  you're
not  cool if you don't go along. Like smoking. A lot of  the
guys  on the football team smoke. Why on earth would I  want
to  do that? Do something that will give you lung cancer, if
you  live long enough? They think they're so cool!  I  think
they're  idiots. I was at a party a couple of weeks ago  and
some  of  the  guys were trying to see how much  booze  they
could drink before upchucking. I stayed about 30 minutes and
then  I  went home and did homework. I enjoyed the  homework
more. Most of the guys I know from school make fun of people
who aren't the exact same as they are. Watching them gang up
on someone isn't pretty.
     "I  don't have time to try to meet people I might  like
more.  To  tell you the truth, I don't think I'll ever  meet
anyone I like half as much as you.
     "You know, when I said my sexuality was a mystery, what
I  meant  was...Here's how I had sex. There's this  girl  at
school  that  the jocks say will sleep with  anyone  on  the
football team. They all talk about how great she is in  bed.
She's good looking too. I was curious and I...well, I didn't
want  to be the only virgin on the football team. She and  I
got  together  and  did it. I finally had  sex...and  I  was
disappointed.  Was that all there was to it? To  be  honest,
I've  had much more fun beating off than I had with  her.  I
mean it would have been great if she hadn't been there."  We
both  laughed. "I was wondering if there was something wrong
with  me...or was I gay...or what? Jamie, I wasn't expecting
love.  I  was just expecting a good time. And it wasn't.  In
fact,  after  I  came, my dick got so soft so  quick  I  was
afraid  the condom would come off inside her. Lord! Wouldn't
that  have  been embarrassing! 'Excuse me, do you  have  any
tweezers or.barbecue tongs?'"
     "Oh,  Owen...too much information," I laughed. "I think
she  was  just  the  wrong girl for  you.  Maybe  being  the
umpteenth  classmate to have sex with her doesn't  turn  you
on. Let's face it...she's sort of a slut. And you're not, at
least  I don't think so. You don't have any goals of banging
all  the cheerleaders, do you?" He smiled and shook his head
no.  "Maybe you need a little more affection...or connection
with the other person to enjoy it."
     He  sighed and said "But we both know that there's only
person I have a connection with."
     I said "This isn't about Anna Nicole Smith again is it.
Because she'll never love you back. Not anymore."
     He  laughed  and punched me in the arm. He  said  "It's
funny, in a way. Because of my one sexual experience, I  had
wondered if I'm defective."
     He  said  "Anyway, I think we should keep our  feelings
secret. If our parents find out they might do something else
stupid, like sending one of us to boarding school."
     "Believe me, I wasn't planning to announce it!" I said.
     "You know what?" he said.
     "What?"
     "I feel really happy. Happier than I've felt in years,"
he said.
     "Me too," I said.
     I  looked over at the clock. It was 11:30. "I guess  we
better  go  to  sleep,"  I  said. I  was  happy  but  really
exhausted.
     "Jamie?"
     "Yeah?"
     "Do you think I'm a sexy love god?"
     I  burst  out  laughing. "Yes. But that's  god  with  a
little 'g' mind you."
     "I guess that's OK." We both laughed. "If you ever want
to  sing a song about me and my incredible sexiness, it's OK
with me."
     "Is  it  OK  if I sing it to the music to Kumbaya?  I'd
hate to have to learn more than one song. And I already have
the sheet music."
     "As long as you mention my incredible elbows."
     "Your incredible, inedible elbows. Got it. I should  be
able  to  write a couple of verses about them. I mean  there
are two of them."
     He got off my bed. Then he bent down and kissed me very
lightly  on the lips. There was no tongue, but it was  still
very nice.
     Owen said "How about tomorrow we go for a drive in  the
country? Maybe have a picnic?"
     "Just the two of us?" I asked.
     "Of course," he replied.
     "That sounds wonderful!" I told him, and it really did!
     He  got  in his bed. I reached over to the light switch
and  turned off the light. I got under the covers  and  said
"Night, Owen."
     "Good night Jamie," he said.
     I  closed my eyes and thought about the things we said.
I  loved  Owen more than ever, but now I didn't feel  guilty
about  it.  Despite Owen's questioning his own sexuality,  I
had  trouble believing he was gay. I would never have wanted
to have sex with a girl, easy, pretty or whatever. The whole
idea  seemed  gross. If my parents made me date  a  girl,  I
would fake an illness. `There's no feeling in my legs!'  But
even  if we never had a sexual relationship, the one we  had
was  plenty good enough for me. I could go on sexless dates.
I'd  rather go on a sexless date with Owen than a date  with
sex with anyone else.
     Hmm, I thought. That kiss was very nice. Hey! That  was
my first kiss! Maybe sexless dates with kissing!

                            Three
                           Sunday
     Sunday  morning  I got up about eight. Owen  was  still
asleep. I got dressed quietly and went into the kitchen.  My
mom  and  dad  were  sitting at the kitchen  table  drinking
coffee. Dad was reading his newspaper and mom was looking at
her laptop.
     "Good morning," I said.
     They  both  said good morning. I got a glass  and  went
over to the refrigerator. I pulled out the orange juice  and
poured myself a glass. I took it to the table and sat down.
     "Is Owen still asleep?" my dad asked.
     "Yeah, he is," I said.
     I said "Owen and I are going for a drive in the country
later if that's OK."
     My  dad said that was fine. Mom asked which way we were
headed. I said I didn't know yet.
     I  asked her what time she was going to Mass. "I  guess
ten  o'clock  unless you want to try to  make  eight  thirty
Mass."
     "Would you mind going to eight thirty?" I asked her.
     "No  that's fine. I'd actually prefer that. You  better
hurry up though. It's ten after eight now."
     I went back to my bathroom and brushed my teeth. When I
went back into my bedroom Owen was still in bed but awake.
     "My mom and I are going to Mass. You're welcome to come
with  us."  I  didn't think he would but  thought  I  should
invite him, at least.
     "Nah.  Do  you  mind if I use your PC while  you're  at
church? If not I can go get my laptop," Owen said.
     "Don't be silly. Of course you can use it," I said.
     He  wiggled his finger to get me to go over to his bed.
He  whispered "You don't have any nude paparazzi type photos
of me on it do you?"
     I looked at him and he had a big grin on his face, so I
knew he was joking.
     I  said  "That's  the  trouble with paparazzi.  They're
never around when you need 'em."
     "True...true"  he said. "They're all  at  Angelina  and
Brad's place."
     I laughed and got dressed.
     As  I was walking out of the room Owen said "Hey, don't
I at least get a hug goodbye?"
     I  ran  over  to his bed and hugged him. He  hugged  me
back. I thought about kissing him on the cheek, but didn't.
     "There's  coffee and cinnamon rolls in the  kitchen  if
you're hungry."
     Mom and I left for Mass.
     When  we  got back, Owen was sitting at my desk looking
at  my computer. He said "Come over here a minute." I walked
over. He had a web site of a park about 120 miles away  that
I  had  never heard of before. The web site listed  all  the
features of the park. Look here he said and pointed. It said
the  park  had  a waterfall and swimming. "You  want  to  go
there?" he asked me.
     I said "Yeah, that sounds great!"
     Owen  headed  for the bathroom saying he was  going  to
brush his teeth. He called from in there. "Jamie, come  here
a  sec."  I  went into the bathroom. He closed the  bathroom
door. "I...um..I took a couple of pictures and saved them to
your  pictures  folder. Just delete them if you  don't  want
them.  If you want to keep them, move them somewhere no  one
else  can  see  them." I didn't have any idea  what  he  was
talking about but nodded.
     I  left the bathroom and walked over to the computer. I
looked  in  the  pictures folder and found  three  that  had
today's  date. I opened one of them. I couldn't breathe!  It
was  a  photo of Owen in just his boxers with his hard  dick
sticking out of them. My pulse was pounding. In the photo he
had  this sexy smirk on his face. My dick was so hard it was
actually painful.
     Meanwhile, Owen left the bathroom and walked  over  and
closed my bedroom door and leaned back against it. I clicked
on  the  photo  to zoom. Owen said "Are you zooming  in?"  I
nodded my head. "Zooming in on my elbows?" he asked.
     I   laughed  nervously  and  said  "Yeah,  they're   so
beautiful.  I think I'll sing about them." I wasn't  zooming
in on his elbows.
     "You better look at all of them," he said. I opened the
next  one.  It  was a closeup of his dick. My mouth  dropped
open.  It was in perfect focus and it looked all shiny  like
it  was  wet.  I felt all flushed and then I came!  My  dick
starting  shooting off in my underwear without even touching
it. I leaned back in my chair and moaned.
     Owen  whispered "Holy shit! Did you just come?"  I  was
still  coming! After a few seconds I looked over at him  and
nodded. He walked over to the desk and whispered "Close  the
photo."  I reached over and did that. He squatted down  next
to me and whispered "I can't believe I made you come just by
looking at me. I know you didn't even touch yourself. Man! I
didn't even know that was possible! I am a sexy love god!"
     I  laughed and said "I told you you're the sexiest  guy
on  the  planet." I looked at him. He looked  surprised  and
excited. I looked down and saw his dick was hard. I couldn't
believe  he had done this for me! Not only did he  not  mind
that I wanted him, lusted after him really...he...wanted  me
to!  He  was  obviously pleased that I liked the photos  and
that I came looking at them.
     But they weren't safe.
     I whispered "Owen, I love the photos. Obviously. A lot!
But I don't know how to hide them. We can't risk anyone else
seeing them. Do you know how?"
     "Just delete them Jamie," Owen said.
     "Are you insane? I love them!" I said.
     "We  can try to find a way to hide them later.  We  can
always take more photos once we figure out how to hide them.
Besides..." he paused.
     "Yeah?" I said.
     "It  would be easier to get good shots if you took  the
photos," he said.
     I  moaned and leaned back in the chair. The thought  of
Owen posing for me naked and hard had made me hard again.  I
moaned again.
     "Holy  fuck! Are you going to come again?" he asked.  I
looked  over at him. He had this satisfied grin on his  face
and  he  looked kind of flushed. I reached over and  deleted
the photos.
     He got up from squatting and took my hand "Come on," he
said.  He took me into the bathroom and closed the door.  He
backed me up to the bathroom door and pressed up against me.
I  could  feel his erection against my belly.  He  was  very
hard! He thrust it up a couple of times against me. I looked
up at him. He was breathing hard and looking at me intently.
He  said  "Damn, Jamie! That was the hottest  fucking  thing
ever!  Can  you feel how hot you've got me?"  He  thrust  up
against me a few more times.
     I  closed my eyes. Oh god. Yes! I could feel it! I said
"Yes,  Owen." I was panting too. The way he was  acting  was
driving me crazy!
     He  put  his hand under my chin and tilted my face  up.
"Look at me Jamie," he said. I looked at him. He licked  his
lips. He leaned down and pressed his lips against mine  hard
for a second. He pulled back and said "Feel it." I looked up
at  him.  He was staring at me. I thought he meant feel  his
dick  against me. He said "Feel me," and he grabbed my  hand
and  pressed it against his dick. He thrust against my hand.
I  rubbed against it, feeling the shape with my fingers.  Oh
lord!  I  realized  there was only a  thin  piece  of  cloth
between  my hand and his dick. I could feel the exact  shape
of his cock. I could feel the head of it and the heat!
     He  pushed  me  back against the bathroom  door  but  I
continued rubbing it. I looked at his face. He gave me  this
little  mischievous look. Then he leaned down and  whispered
in  my  ear "Jamie, you are a very naughty boy. You've  gone
and made my cock hard. Now who do you think should take care
of  it?" I moaned; that was all I could do. If I hadn't just
come, I would have come then. "Who, Jamie?"
     "Me?" I said.
     "I  think that's only fair. Don't you Jamie?" he  said.
"You make it hard, you deal with it."
     Oh  my  lord!  It was just like my mom's fish  cleaning
rule, only better! Much, much better!
     "You won't mind doing that, will you Jamie? Taking care
of it?" he said.
     I  looked up at him and said "No Owen." I looked at him
and  said  "I'll be more than happy to take care  of  it  no
matter who causes it!"
     He looked at me again. "Don't you think we'll have more
fun if it's just the two of us?" He wiggled his eyebrows  at
me.  I giggled nervously. His face had softened and he  said
"I  really don't think there will be anyone else,  Jamie.  I
pretty  sure  you are all I want and need." He  pressed  his
hand  against my cheek. I was so happy I started  crying.  I
put my face in my hands.
     Owen said "Don't cry, Jamie. If you want me to have sex
with other people, I will..."
     My sob turned into a laugh. "Jerk!"
     He whispered "We can't take care of him right now."
     "Him?" I said.
     He looked down and I saw what he meant. Oh, him!
     Then  he asked out of the blue "Does your dick  have  a
name" I burst out laughing and said "Yes. My dick's name  is
Dick."
     "Not very original, is it?"
     "Well,  he  doesn't know that. He's never  met  another
one."
     "Mine is named Spock." Owen said.
     I laughed and said "Spock?"
     "Spock, the cock." I laughed out loud. "His head's kind
of tilted up like Spock's ears," Owen said.
     "Does he have a death grip?"
     "Even better. When someone stares at him, they come."
     "That is better!"
     He continued "You know, I thought I'd never find anyone
who loved him as much as I do. As much as he deserves..."  I
just grinned at him and shook my head.
     I  said  "I  admit he photographs well. But I've  never
seen  him up close in person. He may be ugly without makeup.
I can't promise I'll love him as much as you do... You're so
attached to him. And you told me you like to look at him."
     "I know for a fact that you like to look at him too." I
may have blushed. There was no denying it though.
     Owen  stood there smiling at me for a minute.  Then  he
said "Being here with you like this seems completely natural
to  me.  It doesn't feel odd or awkward. And you've  got  to
admit  it's different. I mean I just got through rubbing  my
dick  all  over a guy. And I loved it! But I don't  have  to
worry about what you'll think of me. That's part of it,  but
also Jamie, I never have been able to get enough of you.  No
matter  how  much time we spent together I was always  ready
for  more. I'm glad that I still feel that way. I'm glad  we
haven't  changed  too  much. And I'm also  really  glad  you
trusted  me  enough to tell me how you felt. Otherwise  this
definitely wouldn't have happened.
     "You know, I was not really looking forward to my life.
I  figured I would marry some girl that I would probably not
want to have sex with. But the thought of a future with  you
seems  fun  and exciting. And like I said, I'm  pretty  sure
that  the person for me is the person I've always wanted  to
be with."
     As  I  stood there in the bathroom with Owen,  my  best
friend  and  now...maybe lover?...I realized  this  was  the
happiest day of my life. Owen had always been with me on the
other happiest days, so it was perfectly appropriate that he
be  here now. This was how I'd imagined a perfect live would
be: Owen and me together, but now with sex.
     But  I  was also very confused. I had gone from missing
Owen,  but  recognizing he was mostly out  of  my  life,  to
this...declaration  of  love?  in  one  day.  Since  it  had
happened  so fast, I wondered if it was permanent. Would  it
be  over in a day? What if he just thought he would enjoy it
but  ended  up not liking it when we finally did  it?  Maybe
when we finally did it, he would think it was gross.
     I still found it hard to believe that Owen was gay, but
when  he was thrusting his cock against me while staring  at
me,  I  knew that I had made him hard. If he'd had his  eyes
closed, he might have been fantasizing about a women.
     Owen  said "Why don't we get ready. We can talk in  the
car without worrying about your parents."
     I smiled up at him. "OK, that sounds good."
     I told my mom where we were going, and then we gathered
up the things we wanted to take. Towels, a couple of bottles
of  water, bug repellent, and a blanket. We planned to  pick
up food on the way.
     I  went  to  my dresser and pulled out my  swimsuit.  I
asked  him if we were going to stop by his house to get  his
swimsuit.  Owen  walked up to me and  whispered  in  my  ear
"Maybe we can skinny dip..."
     I  looked  at him and swallowed, hard. "OK." I  put  my
swimsuit back.
     We  called out goodbye and put the things in  the  back
seat of Owen's Volvo. We got in the car and headed out.
     Owen said "After I had sex with a girl and didn't enjoy
it that much...like I told you...I wondered if I was gay.  I
thought I wasn't gay because I had never lusted after a man,
but I had never lusted after a woman either. I can only tell
you I've only experienced intense lust once."
     I  thought  about  the way he acted  in  the  bathroom,
rubbing  his  erection against me. I asked "Was  it  in  the
bathroom?"
     He said "Yeah, it was. With you."
     He  continued  "I wanted to pull off your  clothes  and
bury my cock in you."
     "Oh god, Owen. You're going to make me come again and I
didn't bring any spare underwear."
     "And  that's another thing, Jamie. The fact that you're
so hot for me! That drives me fucking nuts! The thing is, as
soon  as  you told me what a hot body you thought I  had,  I
wanted  to show you! All of it! Maybe I'm a...what  do  they
call it?...oh, yeah, an exhibitionist."
     "Do you want to show yourself to other people?" I asked
him.
     "No. Not at all. So I guess I'm not."
     "When you were at church and I thought about taking the
pictures, I thought of how hot they would get you.  It  gave
me the hardest erection I've ever had."
     He  continued "You know, when we were at the  mall  and
you  told  me you were gay, part of me was glad.  I  thought
'Maybe we're both gay. Wouldn't that be great!'"
     And then out of the blue he said, "Oh, that reminds me.
Your father knows you're gay."
     I  got  a terrible panicky feeling. "What! How  did  he
find  out?  Oh God, he didn't see the pictures, did  he?"  I
asked.
     "Oh  yuck,  no!  I...sort  of...umm...told...him."   My
mouth dropped open and I stared at him. I asked "Why?"
     He  told me that he and your mom thought you might  be,
and  they  didn't want you suffering about it. He said  your
mom  showed him an article a couple of weeks ago  about  the
high suicide rate of gay teens. They just don't want you  to
worry about them not loving you."
     "Wow!" I said.
     "Tell  me about it. When he asked me if I knew  if  you
were gay, I almost spit my coffee out at him. This was right
after  I'd taken the photos. You know, close-ups of my  dick
for you!"
     I burst out laughing.
     "So you're not mad?" he asked.
     "No...I  guess I'm glad it's out of the  way.  I  might
have  put  it  off for years, worrying about  it  the  whole
time."
     "You haven't really heard the weird part yet," he said.
     I  looked  at him. "Your dad kind of implied...  no,  I
think he came right out and admitted that he'd had sex  with
a guy before."
     "What!!! He told you?"
     "Yeah. And then it got even weirder." He paused.
     "What?"
     "Your father kind of implied it was with my father," he
said.
     I  didn't know how I felt. That was just so very,  very
weird.
     Owen  continued  "I almost fell over when  he  told  me
this...he made me swear not to tell anyone, but I  want  you
to  understand  why I told him. He was telling  me  this,  I
suppose,  to  convince me to tell him what I knew.  He  said
when  he  was  in  college before he and my father  met  our
mothers...that he...your father, that is...and `another man'
had  sex  several times. Just fooling around  he  said.  Not
lovers.  When these men met their wives to be, they  decided
to  tell them rather than waiting possibly years for them to
hear  it  from someone else. Anyway he said he expected  the
women to be upset or disgusted and possibly to break up with
them...but the women...liked it. He said it drove them  wild
hearing it. He admitted though that they never fooled around
again."
     I said "I will never understand women. When you told me
about that girl you had sex with, I didn't find it exciting.
I wanted to go find her and pull her hair out."
     Then  I  said "Have you noticed, it's been kind  of  an
unusual day?"
     "A bit" he said. "A bit unusual."
     He  continued  "Despite all this,  I  really  think  we
should  keep  'us' between ourselves. I'm not  sure  if  the
moral  of  his story was that even if you think you're  gay,
you'll still settle down and marry a woman."
     "Well," I said, "I don't know if that's true or not...I
have  trouble  thinking my dad considers  himself  gay...but
you're  right. Even if they accepted that we were gay,  they
might  still want us to date other people. And Owen, I don't
want anyone but you." He smiled at me.
     "I  think we should still go on dates," he said. I just
looked at him. I sure hoped he was joking. Or maybe he meant
as  cover  for what we were doing, which I could understand.
"Dates  like this one," he said. He reached for my hand  and
kept it in his. I was so very, very happy!
     A  while  later I said "Owen, you haven't said a  thing
about my hair!"
     "Jamie,  that's something I've always loved about  you.
Ever since you were three."
     "My lovely, hair-like hair?"
     "No. The fact that you're not bald. You were born bald.
The hair was an improvement."
     All  the way there, I was really tempted to grope Owen.
That tempting bulge in his crotch was very enticing. I think
he  was  at  least  half  hard. But I  figured  it  was  too
dangerous. I didn't want to have a car wreck! I kept looking
at it, though.
     Finally  Owen asked "Jamie, why do you keep staring  at
my car seat?" I laughed.
     "It's so big."
     "I'm  a  big guy, of course I have a big car  seat.  It
moves  up  and down, and back and forth. You should  see  it
move!"  I laughed again. "It's also heated. It can keep  you
warm on cold nights."
     "I was wondering how I'd keep warm."
     "Well, do you like it?"
     "Yeah,  but  I  can't  see it very  well  because  it's
covered."
     "I'll  show  it to when it isn't. If you're nice,  I'll
let you sit on it," he said. I laughed again.
     "But  we'd have to do it in the garage. I don't have  a
driver's license."
     "Someday you'll be old enough to sit on it wherever you
want; in the parking lot at the grocery store, on the way to
school, even in the street in front of your house.
     "As  a  matter of fact, while you are sitting on it,  I
could teach you how to drive."
     "Having  it  moving  up  and down  under  me  might  be
distracting."
     "Well, it's important that you not use your cell  phone
while  it's  in  motion. And especially, no  texting  anyone
telling them what you are doing."
     "Yes, that would make them jealous."
     "True.  And  other  people might  spend  so  much  time
sitting on it that you wouldn't have a chance."
     "Hmm. I think we should keep it between ourselves."
     "Didn't  your  mother  ever  teach  you  to  share?"  I
laughed.
     "She  tried,  but you kept contradicting her.  And  she
never  said a thing about car seats. Besides, if  there  are
twelve people sharing the car seat, you and I would have one
twelfth the fun. No, wait! Two twelfths."
     "Speak  for  yourself. It's my car  seat.  I  would  be
having all the fun." I laughed.
     "You've  changed  Owen. Your fun  calculations  are  so
different now."
     "That's  because I'm studying calculus  now!"  We  both
laughed for a while.
     Then  he took my hand and held it for a while.  So  far
this was a fabulous day!
     We  stopped  for  fried chicken on  the  way.  When  we
finally pulled up to the park entrance, there was a line  of
cars to get in.
     "Labor Day," we both said at the same time.
     Owen  slapped  the  steering wheel and  said  "Shit!  I
should  have remembered this place would be packed on  Labor
Day weekend."
     He  said  "I was really hoping we could find  somewhere
private and maybe a little romantic."
     I said "It's OK. We'll come back another time."
     "I know!" he said. "We could go to my house! Unless you
still want to get into the park..."
     "No,  I  don't feel like waiting in line to get into  a
crowded park. Your house sounds fine," I said.
     He said "We'll have the whole house to ourselves!"
     We  turned  around  and headed back to  town.  When  we
finally  pulled  in front of his house he said  "I  think  I
better put the car in the garage, just in case. Your parents
might drive by and stop to find out why we're here."
     "Good  idea,"  I  said. We pulled into the  garage  and
brought the chicken in the house with us.
     As  soon as he closed the door, he walked over  to  the
alarm system to deactivate it.
     Then  he backed me up against the wall and pressed into
me.  "Now where were we?" I reached down to his crotch.  His
dick  was  half hard and I rubbed it until it was completely
stiff.
     I  moaned and said "Owen...I want to...I want your cock
inside me, so bad."
     He leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. I felt his
tongue,  so  I opened my mouth. He pushed his tongue  in  my
mouth and went wild. His tongue went all over the inside  of
my  mouth. We were both groaning. He wrapped his arms around
me  and  I wrapped mine around him. Finally he pulled  back,
sucking on my bottom lip before letting go. He smiled at  me
and  then he ran his fingers through my hair. We just smiled
at  each  other for a while. Then he leaned down and nuzzled
my neck and behind my ear. I moaned.
     He looked at me and said "Jamie, you're the one I want.
I know that now."
     "I love you so much, Owen. I always have."
     "I love you too," he said.
     I leaned my head against him. I just started crying.
     Owen said "I hope those are happy tears."
     I  sniffed  and looked up at him and said  "No,  you're
standing on my foot. Of course, they are."
     I  said "I really thought I was going to have to  spend
the  next umpteen years trying to find someone half as  good
as  you." I wrapped my arms around him tighter. He kissed me
again, more gently this time.
     He  pulled back from my and lifted his short  over  his
head  and off. I looked at his hairy chest I loved so  much.
He  started unbuttoning my shirt. I started to help  and  he
stopped me. "Let me do it, Jamie," he said.
     I  wanted to reach out and touch him, but I still  felt
unsure. I started to reach my hand out towards his chest. He
said  to me "Go ahead, baby. I'm all yours. And you're mine.
If  you want to touch me, touch me. I want you to. If  we're
alone  and you want my cock, just go for it. You don't  need
to ask for permission."
     I  ran  my  fingers through the hair on his  chest  and
loved  the feeling. I rubbed one of his nipples and felt  it
harden under my fingers. He grabbed our shirts off the floor
and  said "Let's go to my bedroom." He smiled at me and took
my  hand.  We  walked  together to his bedroom.  He  started
taking off his pants, so I did too. As soon as we were  both
naked  he  told me to get in the bed and lie on my  back.  I
leaned  back  with my head on his pillow. I  stared  at  his
naked  body hungrily. His hard cock was sticking  out  of  a
dense patch of pubes. The head was wet. He got on the bed on
his  knees straddling me. He pressed his dick down so it was
pointed at me.
     He said "This is yours now, Jamie. Do you like it?"
     I  moaned and leaned up to it. I licked the head. As  I
pulled  my  tongue  back,  a string  of  his  precome  still
connected my tongue to his cock.
     Owen  said "Is that all you want Jamie? Just one little
lick?" He was making me wild! I lunged forward and took  him
in  my  mouth. He said "Whoa there!!! Watch the teeth, watch
the teeth!" Yikes! I was a little too eager.
     I  pulled  back and said "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!  Did  I
hurt you?" I was horrified that I'd hurt him.
     He lay down next to me and stroked my hair. He said "No
baby,  you didn't hurt me, but I could feel them. I think  I
just  rushed things a little. You've never given a blow  job
and neither have I for that matter." He smiled at me. "We're
both  newbies.  To  tell you the truth, I'm  glad  I'm  your
first.  So  don't  feel  bad. We'll  figure  all  this  out.
Together."
     I stroked his cheek. I said "I like it when you call me
baby. But don't let it slip out around our parents."
     He  looked  thoughtful. "Yeah, you're right.  I  really
hate it that we have to hide it from them."
     "I  do  too.  But  I'm  afraid. If your  parents  moved
because  we were too close to each other, it's hard  to  see
why  they would welcome us becoming even closer than we were
before they moved."
     Owen sighed and said "Well at least we still live close
to  each other. That will definitely make it easier  to  get
together."
     I  smiled  at him and said "In a way, we're  just  like
Romeo and Juliet only without the death and dying."
     Owen  said "And instead of feuding parents, our parents
are best friends and possibly had sex together. Go figure."
     We just laid there and talked, occasionally kissing.  I
finally  had the opportunity to discover Owen's body,  so  I
spent  a  while  doing that. I felt his balls,  stroked  his
cock,  sucked  on  his nipples, felt his  muscles;  all  the
things I'd longed to do.
     After a while though I started to wonder: this happened
so fast. Could it `unhappen'?
     Finally  I said "Owen, I've told you how I feel  about.
I've  felt this way for a long time. I know my feelings  are
not  going  to  change  soon,  or  really,  ever.  But  your
feelings...this is so sudden. Are you sure this is what  you
want?  Can  you  really be sure in such a  short  amount  of
time?"
     Owen  said  "Sudden?" Then he paused before  saying  "I
think   mentally  I  was  only  thinking  of  you  and   our
relationship as it had been when we were younger. Then as  I
realized  we  could have more, that you and  I  can  have  a
fantastic  sexual  relationship  as  well...well  it   seems
perfect to me. I've always loved you and I won't stop."
     Owen  leaned over and licked my dick from base  to  the
head. I moaned. It felt incredible. Then he took my balls in
his  mouth and sucked on them. "Oh god, Owen. That feels  so
fantastic."  He  went back to licking my cock  a  couple  of
times and then took my entire dick into his mouth. He bobbed
up  and down on it a few times while I moaned. I was getting
close  when he pulled back and asked me how it was.  I  told
him it was incredible. He looked kind of smug and proud.
     I said "Owen, I want to make you come."
     "Go for it babe," he said, smiling at me. He lay on his
back.  I  rested my cheek on his belly and stroked his  cock
slowly. A drop of precome formed on the head and I licked it
off.  I  liked the taste. A second later another drop formed
so  I  licked it off too. I decided to just suck on the head
while  I  stroked the rest of it. So I did that  running  my
tongue all over the head of his cock. I had Owen moaning and
calling  my  name. "Oh, Jamie. That's fantastic, but  you're
about  to get a mouthful of come." That was fine with me.  I
wanted  his  come.  I kept sucking and stroking  and  a  few
seconds later he called out my name and he began spurting in
my  mouth.  I gulped his come down. There was a lot  of  it.
After he'd finished coming, I milked the last drops of  come
out of his dick and licked them up. I liked the taste.
     I  laid my head back on the pillow and asked if  I  had
done  it  OK.  He  kissed  me gently  and  told  me  it  was
wonderful.
     Then  he  said  "Jamie, that time I had sex  with  that
girl.  After  I  came, I practically ran  out  of  there.  I
couldn't wait to get away. I don't know if she came  or  not
and  I  didn't stop to ask. Which is bad, I know.  But  with
you,  I want to hold you and kiss you and never let you go."
I felt so happy!
     "By  the  way," he asked. "How was my come? I've  never
tasted it."
     I  said "I really liked the taste. It was kind of salty
and  kind of sweet." I smiled at him and said "I'm going  to
want lots more of it. Will you mind, terribly?"
     He  laughed and said he might be willing to put up with
it.  "I meant what I said earlier. If you want it and  we're
alone, go for it."
     "Now,  it's  my turn or your turn...I'm not  sure."  He
moved  down between my legs. He wrapped one hand  around  my
balls  and  then started sucking my dick. It felt  wonderful
and  I  told him so. After only a few seconds though  I  was
ready to come.
     "Owen,  I'm  real  close." He kept  going.  I  screamed
"Owen!"  and came. He surprised me by swallowing.  I  really
thought  he  would pull back. I lay there  panting.  It  was
incredible.
     He  let  go  of  my  dick and said  "Not  bad...unusual
taste", he said smacking his lips "but not bad at all."
     He laid on his side and pulled me to him on my side, so
we  were  spooning. He left his arms wrapped around  me  and
nuzzled  my  neck. After a few minutes he sighed.  I  turned
around  and looked at him. He looked really happy. I stroked
the hair on the side of his head.
     Owen said "I'm sure now Jamie."
     I said "Sure of us?"
     "Sure of everything. I'm sure I'm gay and I'm sure  you
are the one I want." I smiled and kissed him gently.
     "I wish we could sleep together," he continued. "But it
will probably be years before we can do what we like."
     "That's  OK"  I  said. "You're only a couple  of  miles
away. We'll be able to get together all the time."
     He  said  "It really irritates me that we have to  hide
this. You'd think, considering our families' history that it
wouldn't  be  an  issue  at all.  But  I'll  be  honest.  It
terrifies me to think what they would do. Sure eventually we
will  be  able  to make our own choices and it won't  matter
what they think, but I don't want to lose you. I want you at
my side. Now, and always."
     "Oh, Owen. I love you so much," I told him.
     My  cell phone rang. I got out of bed and got it out of
my pants. It was my mom. I answered "Hi Mom."
     She  sobbed into the phone "Jamie, you two need to come
home."
     "What is it, Mom?" I asked her. I was terrified.
     She said "I'll tell you when you get here."
     I  said  "We  aren't  far. We'll  be  there  in  a  few
minutes." She hung up.
     I told Owen what she said. We threw on our clothes.
     "I wonder if it's Dad. Maybe he had a heart attack!"  I
said.
     "There's no way of knowing," Owen said. "I'm just  glad
we aren't 120 miles away."
     We  walked to the garage door. He set the alarm  and  I
grabbed  the  chicken. I had a feeling this  chicken  wasn't
ever  going to be eaten. We got in the car and drove  to  my
house.
     Owen  parked the car at the curb and we ran  inside.  I
called out "Mom...Dad?"
     My dad's voice said "We're in the kitchen."
     We  went in there. Mom was crying and hugging dad.  Dad
had been crying too. Owen said "What happened?" I was really
getting freaked out.
     Dad  said  "We  got  a call from the  Colorado  Highway
Patrol." My heart sunk. Owen's parents were in Colorado. Dad
continued "There was an accident on the highway. Owen...your
parents...Jack and Janice both died."
     Oh  god,  Owen's parents! My aunt and uncle! I went  to
hug him. We cried there in the kitchen for a while. I really
don't know how long.
     Finally Owen and I sat at the kitchen table with my mom
and  dad. After a while we just looked at each other.  There
really  wasn't anything to say. His parents weren't injured.
It wasn't ever going to get better. It was...all over.
     Finally I took Owen's hand and said "Owen, I am so glad
you  weren't with them. I don't think I could handle  it  if
you had died too."
     After  a  while Owen said he was going to lie down  and
went  into  my bedroom. I followed him in there. I  felt  so
helpless. I wanted to do something, say something to make it
better.  But I couldn't think of anything. I cried in  there
with him.
     After a while I was all cried out. I went back into the
kitchen  where my mom and dad were sitting at the  table.  I
got  a  glass of water and sat down with them. "What's going
to happen to Owen?" I asked them.
     Dad said "We'll file for custody of Owen. We're his god
parents,  but that doesn't mean anything legally.  I'm  also
the  executor of his parents' will. We're named as guardians
in it. I don't think it will be contested."
     I  drank my water and my mom asked if I wanted anything
to eat. The thought of food made me sick so I told her no.
     "I feel so helpless. I wish there was something I could
do," I said.
     My  mom said "We feel the same, but there's nothing any
of  us can do except help Owen. You and he are so close. You
need to stick by him." She continued "I'm worried about him.
Teenagers  commit  suicide over things much  less  traumatic
than  this."  Oh God. Please not Owen. I said a  prayer  for
help.
     She  said to my dad "He may need to see a counselor  or
psychologist to help him deal with it." Dad nodded his head.
     He  turned  to me and said "You know Owen  better  than
anyone else. What do you think?" I said that I didn't  think
he  would  commit  suicide, but I really had  no  idea  what
affect  this  would  have on him. I told  them  he'd  seemed
depressed  yesterday,  but not today.  Was  it  just  a  few
minutes ago that we were both so happy?
     My  dad said "What was he depressed about?" I told  him
about  the  pressure to get a scholarship and play  football
and  how  he didn't have time for friends. I even  mentioned
about  the  CEO talk. Dad just shook his head. He said  "You
know  kids  have  a way of taking everything literally.  I'm
sure  Jack didn't mean he expected Owen to be a CEO; he  was
probably just using it as an example or something. Jack  was
so  proud of Owen. We both knew it. I wish he had told Owen.
He'll never have the chance now."
     "And  on  that  note I will tell you: you  are  a  fine
person  and  I'm  proud as heck of you," Dad  said.  "You've
never given your mother or me any cause to be any less  than
completely proud of you."
     I walked over to Dad, hugged him and said thank you. He
said  "We  know you're gay, or you think you're gay  and  it
doesn't  matter.  We love you exactly the way  you  are  and
wouldn't  want to change a thing about you." I  hugged  them
both.
     I  went  back  into my bedroom. Owen was asleep  or  at
least his eyes were closed and he wasn't crying. I lay  down
on  my  side  next to him and put my arm over  him.  I  fell
asleep.  When I woke up I was still on my side and Owen  was
facing  me, our foreheads touching. He gave me a sad  little
smile. I asked him if he wanted anything to eat. He said no.
I  still wasn't hungry either so I wasn't surprised. I  told
him I was going to get him a glass of water.
     I  went into the kitchen and dad was at the table  with
his  laptop.  I got Owen's water and sat at the  table.  Dad
said  "Well  Owen  definitely won't have to  worry  about  a
scholarship.  His parents have left him very  well  provided
for.  Jack  had a two million dollar life insurance  policy.
Janice was insured for one million. I know they have  a  lot
saved and invested. Plus they don't have a mortgage on their
house,  so  Owen  owns  the house outright.  I  know  Janice
inherited a large amount when her mother died."
     I  sat there stunned. My mind was boggled! I just  said
"Wow!" and left to take Owen his water.
     I  gave Owen his water. He drank it and asked me  if  I
wanted to watch TV. I said sure. I turned it on and gave him
the  remote. He looked at me and I patted my bed. I  scooted
over  a  little. He joined me in my bed and  I  put  my  arm
around him. He leaned his head on my shoulder and sighed.  I
said "You know we all love you, don't you? Not just me.  You
won't do anything drastic like trying to take your own life,
will  you? You're the most important person in the world  to
me."
     "I wouldn't do that. I know exactly how awful you would
feel if I did," he said. "And now that I have you back in my
life Jamie, I'm not letting go. I feel so guilty..." he said
and  paused.  "A  few minutes ago I was thinking  `Now  they
can't take you away from me'. Isn't that terrible?"
     I  was  surprised he was thinking of me at a time  like
this, but I guess this was proof he really was in love  with
me.
     I said "I don't know if it's terrible. I think it would
be  if  you were glad they're dead. Maybe your mind is  just
trying  to  find something positive about it. We  all  would
like  to  do  that. Like when I said I was glad you  weren't
with  them. It's the only good thing I could think  of.  But
now  we  will  be together and I'm glad about that  too."  I
leaned over and kissed his cheek.
     "You're  going to live here, you know. That  is  unless
you don't want to... My parents are named your guardians  in
your parents' will," I told him.
     "I  just assumed that," Owen said. "My mom has a sister
in Alaska and there's no way I want to move there. I haven't
seen her in years."
     "Are you sure your parents want me here?" he asked me.
     "Oh  hell yes, Owen," I said. "They really consider you
family."
     He  laid  his  head  on my chest.  Neither  of  us  was
watching TV. I stroked his head softly. I didn't care if Mom
or  Dad  saw me. I guessed that our worries that they  would
try to separate us were over. He lived here now.
     I  said "I guess you'll need to decide whether you want
to keep your house while you're living here."
     He  turned  his head and looked at me. He said  "That's
right...I  guess  I  now own a house... This  all  seems  so
unreal.  How  am I supposed to pay to keep up the  house?  I
guess it will have to be sold."
     I said "It seems you are quite wealthy now."
     He  looked  at me like I was crazy and said  "Right...I
have  $247 in a bank account. Let's not spend it all in  one
place."
     I  said  "I  heard  three  million  dollars  from  life
insurance alone."
     "You're kidding me," he said.
     "No, I'm not," I said.
     "Now it seems even more unreal," he told me.
     I  leaned  forward  and  kissed him  quickly  and  said
"That's real. Absolutely genuine love."
     He  sighed again and put his head back on my  chest.  I
began stroking his hair again.
     My  mom looked in the door and saw what I was doing.  I
didn't stop stroking Owen's head. She gave me a little smile
and left.
     After I few minutes I could tell he fell asleep. I kept
stroking him though.
     I looked at him and wondered at how odd it was that the
happiest and the saddest day of my life should be the same.
     I  fell  asleep  again and when I woke up  Owen  wasn't
there. Then I heard the toilet flush. He walked back in  the
room  and  said "I've got to get out of the house.  I  think
I'll go for a run. Do you want to go?"
     "Sure,"  I said. I went and used the bathroom.  Then  I
changed to a t-shirt and put on my running shoes. My dad was
in  the  den  on the sofa with his laptop. I told  him  Owen
wanted to get out of the house and we were going running.
     "That sounds like a good idea," Dad said.
     We left the house and I asked where he wanted to go. He
said  "Do  you  want to run to the river?" Yikes!  That  was
about five miles. I told him I'd try to keep up with him. We
stretched a little and then took off.
     It was nice being out in the sunshine. It was really  a
beautiful day, weather-wise.
     Unfortunately  to  get to the river  we  had  to  cross
several  major roads as well as one highway. But I was  glad
to be with Owen and I seemed to be keeping up with him.
     When  we stopped at one of the red lights I looked over
at  him. He was sweaty and looked awesome. He smiled  at  me
and I grinned back at him. He said "It's a little harder  to
be  depressed  on such a beautiful day and with  you  by  my
side."  The light changed and we kept going. We finally  got
to  the  river and I was starting to struggle. The  road  we
were running along went over the river. Owen walked down the
grass  embankment heading toward the river. Right before  we
got to the water he turned and walked under the bridge. Then
he  stopped.  I walked up to him. He pulled me  to  him  and
kissed me. I opened my mouth and we french kissed.
     After  a minute I pulled back and smiled at him.  "This
is nice," I said. I looked around. "Have you ever been under
here?"  We were under the bridge and would hear a car  going
overhead occasionally.
     "Nope," he said. "I just wanted somewhere private where
I could kiss my baby."
     "Where is she?" I hoped Owen felt like joking...
     "I  left  her  here somewhere. She was dressed  like  a
chicken. I mean chick." YES!
     It  was  mostly  dirt  under the bridge  so  we  really
couldn't  sit  down.  There was also some  broken  glass.  I
looked  around some more and said "Hey! Look over there!"  I
pointed  to  where some bats were roosting under  the  road.
There  were  about twenty of them. It was hard to  see  much
detail because the road was about twenty five feet above  us
and  it  was dark where they were. We looked around a little
more but didn't see much. There was some fishing line and  a
few broken lures. Owen found a used condom, picked it up and
showed  it to me. I was trying to figure out what it was.  I
thought  it was a balloon. Owen laughed and said "So  sweet,
so  innocent..."  When he told me what  it  was,  I  was  so
embarrassed  I'm  sure I was blushing.  But  hey!  I  didn't
exactly have a lot of experience with the things!
     I  looked at Owen. He seemed like he was really  trying
not  to  laugh.  I  started to get  irritated,  but  then  I
remembered  what had happened and I was glad  he  felt  like
laughing.  So  I said "So is it possible to twist  a  condom
into a poodle too?"
     Owen laughed and said "Or an x rated giraffe."
     But then I could see the exact moment he remembered his
parents. His face just fell.
     "Are  you ready to head back?" I asked him. He was,  so
we  started back. I realized then that we had both forgotten
to bring our cell phones. Oh well, there's nothing we can do
about it now, I thought.
     We walked back part of the way and when Owen thought no
one  else  was around, he held my hand. It made me so  happy
that he didn't even want to wait until we got home.
     When we got home, I looked for my parents and Owen went
into  my  (our?) bedroom. Mom was in my parents' bedroom  on
the  phone. She was a mess. Her eyes were red and puffy  and
her  hair  was messed up. She put her hand over the received
and  said "Are you hungry?" I told her a little but I wanted
to  get  a shower. "See if Owen wants anything to eat,"  she
said.  "And  both  of  you need to drink  plenty  of  water.
Between the seating and the crying, I don't want you getting
dehydrated."
     I  went into the kitchen and got a couple of bottles of
water  out  of  the  refrigerator. I took  them  into  `our'
bedroom.
     Owen was in the bathroom. He had taken his shirt off. I
went into the bathroom and handed him a bottle of water.  He
opened  it,  took a big swig, and said "Thanks  Jamie.  Just
what  I was wanting." I smiled at him and drank some  of  my
water.
     He  walked  over and closed our bedroom door.  Then  he
closed  the bathroom door. He turned to me and surprised  me
by  saying  "Let's  take  a shower together."  That  sounded
great!  But I wondered if it was a good idea with my parents
in the house.
     I   feel  very  guilty  for  the  next  part.  It   was
inappropriate so soon after Owen's parents died. I know. All
I can say is Owen drove all other thoughts out of my mind.
     Owen  pulled off his shorts and I saw he was wearing  a
jock-strap.  God he looked so hot! I walked up  to  him  and
knelt  in  front of him. I wanted to smell him in his  jock-
strap. I pressed my face into the side of his pouch and took
a deep sniff. Oh, it was wonderful!
     I  thought briefly of the time I'd seen Coach  Robinson
in nothing but a jockstrap, the man with the bulging muscles
and   the  hairy  torso.  He  had  looked  incredible,   but
this...this  was  mine! Owen's cock  quickly  got  hard  and
pulled the jockstrap away from his groin. I pressed my  face
closer  and kicked at his sweaty balls and the base  of  his
cock.
     Owen was moaning my name "Jamie...Jamie...Jamie..."
     I  pulled  his  jockstrap down.  His  cock  slapped  up
against his belly. I pulled it down. I took it in my  mouth,
gently,  watching my teeth. I could taste his sweat,  but  I
liked  it. I looked up at him. His eyes were half-closed  as
he  looked  at  me. He took my head in his hands  and  began
thrusting into my mouth. He was only thrusting the head  in,
and  I wanted more so I began bobbing my head until the head
of  his  dick was rubbing the back of my throat. He got  the
idea, and went back to holding my head still and fucking  my
mouth.  His balls were bouncing lightly against my  chin.  I
remembered how good it had felt when he pulled on my  balls,
so  I  wrapped one of my hands around his balls  and  tugged
down on them.
     Owen said "Oh...fuck..." and his come began spurting in
my  mouth.  He held my head still and his body  was  jerking
with  little  spasms as he came. As his  cock  softened,  he
pulled  me  up  and kissed me passionately. Then  he  pulled
back.  I  opened my eyes and looked at him. He  was  smiling
tenderly at me.
     He   said  "Jamie,  I  wouldn't  have  thought  it  was
possible, but I think I love you even more now." I closed my
eyes and started crying. I hugged him as hard as I could.
     "Come  on, let's get showered," he said. He pulled  his
socks  off and I got undressed. He turned to face the shower
and  I saw his butt for the first time. It was muscular  and
hairy and...wonderful.
     I  moaned  and knelt back down behind him. Owen  looked
back  and  said  "What?" I pulled his ass cheeks  apart  and
buried  my  face  in  his  ass.  The  smell!  It  was   like
concentrated  Owen. I pushed my face in and ran  it  up  and
down, and side to side. Owen said "Fuck...fuck...fuck..."  I
didn't  lick it, although I thought about it. I just  rubbed
my face in it.
     Owen  pulled  me up and said "I take back what  I  said
about you being sweet and innocent."
     I said "I'm a virgin. How much more innocent can I be?"
I batted my eyes at him.
     He whispered "Not for much longer, baby!"
     Then  he  said "Come on". He took my hand and  we  went
into  the  shower.  He got the water the right  temperature.
Then  he  took a wash cloth, put some body wash  on  it  and
washed me all over. It felt so nice, I let him. Once  I  was
all soapy, he squirted some more body wash into his hand and
rubbed  it  onto both hands. Then with one hand  he  reached
down  to my butt. He very slowly pushed his finger into  me.
He  wrapped  his  other  hand around  my  dick  and  started
stroking it. I leaned back against him and moaned.
     "Do you like that, Jamie?" he said. I looked up at him.
He pushed his tongue in my mouth. While he was kissing me he
pushed  a  second finger into me. It hurt, but the  kissing,
finger  fucking and stroking sent me over the edge. I moaned
into  his mouth and shot my load. He pulled his fingers  out
and we finished our shower.
     We dried each other off and walked into our bedroom and
got  dressed. I went into the bathroom to put the towels and
our  dirty  clothes in the hamper. When I went back  in  the
bedroom, Owen was looking at the floor. I looked to see what
he  was  looking  at and then I realized why.  It  came  and
smacked  me  in the face again too. They were  dead  and  we
would never see them again.
     I  sat  next to Owen and put my arm around him. We  sat
there  for  a while. Finally I said "Can I get you something
to eat? You haven't eaten."
     "Yeah, I guess a little. I'm not real hungry." he said.
     I  got  up and went into the kitchen. Owen followed  me
and  sat at the table. I decided to see if Mom or Dad wanted
anything. My Dad was in the den using his laptop.  His  eyes
were all red, no doubt from crying. I asked him if he wanted
anything to eat and he said "I guess. What did you  have  in
mind?"
     I  said  "We  still have the fried chicken Owen  and  I
bought for lunch. I thought I'd make a salad and some mashed
potatoes."
     "That sounds fine," he said. Then he added "Your mother
is  sleeping. She's...not handling it well. She  and  Janice
have  been friends their whole lives, like you and  Owen.  I
suggested she take a sleeping pill, so she'll probably sleep
through the night."
     I  walked back into the kitchen. I turned the  oven  on
and  walked  to the refrigerator. I got the chicken  out.  I
also  got  some  cherry  tomatoes,  a  red  onion,  and  two
cucumbers out of the veggie bin and put them on the  counter
too.  We were out of lettuce. I looked over at Owen  and  he
was  watching  me.  I walked back to the fridge  and  got  a
bottle  of water out. I got a glass, put some ice in it  and
then poured the water into it. I handed the glass to Owen.
     I didn't feel up to making mashed potatoes from scratch
so I pulled out a pan for instant potatoes.
     Dad walked into the kitchen then and asked Owen to come
into  the den. They both left the kitchen. I wondered  about
it,  but  there  was a lot to discuss. I guessed  they  were
getting started.
     I  knew  we  weren't very hungry and  fast  food  fried
chicken  wasn't  all that appealing so I  decided  to  dress
everything up a little to tempt Owen to eat.
     I diced part of the onion, sliced the cucumbers and the
tomatoes  and then mixed them together. I made some dressing
out  of  white  vinegar, water, olive  oil  and  some  Greek
seasoning mix. I stirred it and tasted it. I stirred it  and
then  poured it immediately over the onions, cucumbers,  and
tomatoes before it had a chance to separate. I put the  bowl
with the salad in the fridge.
     I opened the chicken boxes and threw away the coleslaw.
It  had been sitting out for hours and I didn't want to risk
it.  I  took the two little bags of french fries  and  threw
them in the backyard for the birds. I put the chicken in the
oven  to  reheat. Once I'd finished the mashed  potatoes.  I
microwaved  some bacon and shredded some cheddar  cheese.  I
decided  to  dress  the chicken a little.  We  had  oregano,
basil,  thyme, and rosemary from my herb garden in our  back
yard.  I  mixed a little of each in a little  olive  oil.  I
brushed the herbs and olive oil over the chicken. Then I put
the chicken back in the oven.
     There wasn't much else to do once I'd put dishes on the
table, so I sat at the kitchen table and waited for Owen and
my  Dad.  The chicken started to smell good. It had been  in
there  a  while, so I checked on it. It looked fine,  but  I
turned the oven off.
     I'd  taken up cooking a year prior to this. Mom and Dad
were  both  working  long hours and we  were  mostly  eating
takeout.  It  was summer and I was bored since  Owen  wasn't
around, so I thought I'd give cooking a try. I found  out  I
liked it and my parents really seemed to enjoy eating what I
made.  I  shocked the heck out of them one day when  I  told
them  I'd  made a seafood quiche for dinner. I  got  all  my
recipes off the Internet. I didn't watch cooking shows on TV
because  they'd spend thirty minutes telling you how  to  do
something  that could be described in a single paragraph.  I
kept  wanting to scream 'Get on with it!' The past spring  I
decided  to plant an herb garden so I'd have fresh herbs  to
cook with.
     My parents were under the impression that everything  I
cooked was a success when, in fact, I destroyed all evidence
of  the failures. It went out in the field behind the house.
We  had very well fed wildlife, especially at first. That or
maybe they all had indigestion.
     I  was  starting to think I would have  to  reheat  the
potatoes,  which  wasn't going to help  the  instant  mashed
potatoes one bit when Owen and my father came back into  the
kitchen.  Owen  looked thoughtful. Then Owen said  "Wow,  is
that the fried chicken I smell? It smells awesome!"
     My  dad  said "Oh, that's right! You didn't know  Jamie
has become quite the chef."
     I  said  "Yes, and I'm going to make some man  a  dandy
husband."
     Owen said "Oh, really?" He was smiling.
     I spooned the mashed potatoes onto three plates. Then I
sprinkled the shredded cheddar on them and sprinkled  minced
bacon on top of that. I got the salad bowl out of the fridge
and  put a couple of serving spoons in it and put it on  the
table. I took the chicken out of the oven, put it on a plate
and put it on the table too.
     I  sat  down and then remembered drinks. I got back  up
and  asked them what they wanted. Dad said he wanted a beer.
Owen said he wanted a beer too, but a coke would be fine.  I
looked at Dad.
     He  said  "Normally I might consider  it,  but  alcohol
depresses some people and I don't think today is a good  day
for you to get more depressed."
     I  got a bottle of beer out of the fridge and asked Dad
if he wanted a glass. He said no, the bottle was fine.
     I got cokes for Owen and me and sat down next to Owen.
     There  were  six pieces of chicken. I only  wanted  one
piece.  Owen  took two pieces but my dad told  him  to  take
another. Dad took the last two pieces.
     It  all turned out well and they seemed to enjoy it.  I
really didn't value Mom and Dad's opinions on my cooking.  I
wondered if they liked it only because I made it or  because
it meant they didn't have to do it. I really cared what Owen
thought,  but  I  was afraid to ask. In any case  though,  I
thought it all turned out well.
     Dad  complimented me on it and then Owen did too.  They
were  gobbling it down; that was a good sign. Although  none
of us had eaten much all day, so maybe not...
     When  Owen  finished  he said "You  know  I  think  I'm
getting  jealous of this husband of yours.  I've  known  you
longest; I think you should cook for me."
     Dad  laughed.  Owen was making me nervous talking  like
that, but I guess Dad wasn't making anything of it.
     Dad  finished too and pushed away from the table.  "I'm
going to check on your mom," he said as he left.
     Owen  turned  to  me and said softly "That  was  really
good,  Jamie!  I had no idea you were so talented.  Too  bad
that  chicken place doesn't have your recipe. Their  chicken
isn't anywhere as good as this."
     I  said  "Thanks! And I will cook for you.  Just  don't
tell my husband!" He smiled.
     After  a bit I asked "What did Dad say to you?  If  you
feel like talking about it, that is..."
     Owen  sighed and said "He said my parents wanted to  be
cremated.  He  asked if I wanted to keep the ashes  or  have
them  stored  somewhere. He said cemeteries  and  a  lot  of
churches  have places for them." He was about to cry  and  I
wished I hadn't asked.
     "Have you decided yet?" I asked.
     He sighed again and said "I think I'll keep them. I can
always place them somewhere later if I change my mind. But I
think I'd like to have them."
     I  took  his  hand under the table. He  continued  "You
father  asked what kind of memorial service I would like.  I
have no idea! I don't know anything about memorial services!
I didn't even know there are different kinds. I asked him if
he  would mind deciding all that and he said that was  fine.
We  don't  know  yet when it will be. With  cremations,  you
don't have to rush it as much as when..." He started crying.
I hugged him.
     I  asked  if he wanted to lie down or watch TV while  I
did  the  dishes.  He nodded and left. It only  took  a  few
minutes  and  then I went looking for him.  He  was  in  the
bedroom on my bed. I went and lay down beside him. He  asked
if  I  had  a  DVD player attached to my TV. I  told  him  I
didn't.  We had one in the den and I usually watched  movies
in there. He said "There's one in my bedroom. I can bring it
tomorrow from my house, if you want."
     I  said  "Sure!  Now that you're here, it'll  be  great
watching them from the bed together."
     He  smiled  and then he whispered "I wish I could  just
kiss  you.  It's  going to be difficult  keeping  'us'  from
them."
     "I  know,"  I said. "I don't know what else we  can  do
though. I can't imagine Mom talking it well. I can just hear
her saying "He's in frigging GRADE SCHOOL!"
     Owen moaned and put his face in his hands. He said  "Oh
god.  She's  right! You are in grade school! I could  go  to
jail! God, how could I forget?"
     I  said urgently "Owen, stop it! I'm sure you know  I'm
not the first fourteen year old to have sex."
     Owen  said "I don't think that argument will carry much
weight with your parents or with a judge."
     I  continued "Look, I've always done things at your age
level. When we were younger I always thought of you as  just
being taller than me. The age difference didn't matter to us
or our parents."
     Owen  said  "I know that, but this...is very different.
What  if your parents decide they don't want me around after
they  find out? Where will I go? I may have money  on  paper
somewhere, but all I can get to is that $247."
     Then  Dad  said  "After we find  out  what?"  from  the
doorway. Shit, shit, shit, crap, shit!
     He  came  into the room, sat on the other bed and  said
"So tell me what this terrible secret is that you think will
cause  your  god parents to kick you out in the street.  And
make  it  good  because  short of  murder,  I  have  trouble
imagining what it could be."
     Owen didn't say anything, so I started. "Dad, when Owen
came to stay on Saturday, I told him I was gay." Dad nodded.
"I  also  felt very...embarrassed and ashamed around him..."
How do you say this stuff to your Dad?
     Dad waited. Finally I continued "You see I'd started to
have  feelings for him. I was pretty sure it was `love' love
and not brotherly love. And now I am sure."
     Dad said "I see. There has to be little more than that.
I  have to say I considered that inevitable once I began  to
think  you  are both gay. Even though you haven't seen  that
much  of  Owen lately, you still manage to mention his  name
two  or three times a day." Oh, I was embarrassed again. Dad
continued "Plus Owen is a very good looking young man."
     I  said  "When  I told Owen I was gay, he didn't  care.
When  I  finally told him I thought I loved  him  he  didn't
mind."  I looked at Owen to see if he agreed. He nodded  his
head yes. "I..." I didn't know how to go on from there.
     Owen  said "Uncle Ed, I had one experience with a  girl
about  four  months  ago. I was glad  that  I  had  lost  my
virginity,  but I didn't really enjoy the actual...act  that
much.  The girl was pretty and she was nice, so that  wasn't
it.  I  started  to wonder if I was gay, too.  Jamie  and  I
talked  about it and after finding out how he  knew  he  was
gay, I still wasn't sure. I started to notice how Jamie  had
changed  as  he  had gotten older. He had  become...cute.  I
never  really  paid  attention to how he looked  before.  He
looked  exactly the way he should. So this guy," he  pointed
at  me, "Who I love more than anyone else in the world  told
me  he thinks I'm the handsomest guy alive. I thought 'If  I
don't   have  a  sexual  preference,  then  I  pick   Jamie.
So...umm...we..." Owen stopped.
     Dad said '...Had a test drive." I burst out laughing.
     Owen  continued  "Everything I didn't  feel  with  that
girl,  I  felt  with Jamie. It was like in the movies  where
they  show  fireworks during a love scene! I felt  different
afterwards, like I had changed. I don't know -  like  I  was
turned  inside  out or something. I don't know  how  to  say
this...." He faltered.
     "Well  I think you described it pretty well." Dad said.
"I'll  tell  you two the truth. If Jamie were  seventeen  or
even  sixteen, I think both Diane and I would be pretty much
delighted.  I can't imagine Jamie could find a finer  person
to  be  with. One he and his mom and I would never  have  to
worry  about. BUT...he is only fourteen. He's  not  even  in
high  school  yet. And another thing, I'm not sure  you  can
really  come to the conclusions you have based on one  time,
not that I'm in any way suggesting you do it a second time."
At  this point I'm sure I turned red and probably Owen  too,
but  I  didn't look. "Dad continued "I see that you have  in
fact done it twice." Oh god, what could I say! I put my face
in my hands. "OK...," Dad sighed and continued. "You've been
at it like bunnies." I kind of choked out a laugh.
     Dad  sighed  again and said "Well, I guess  there's  no
point  in  closing the barn door now." Dad leaned  his  head
back and said "Oh, god. What a day, what a day... I'm really
ready for it to end!"
     Dad started to turn away. I stopped him by saying "Dad,
please tell Owen you're not kicking him out. Please!"
     Dad  walked  up to Owen and hugged him. He said  "Owen,
you're the one I would have picked for Jamie if it had  been
up to me. BUT your timing stinks!"
     Then  he said "Owen, come out here a minute." He walked
out of the room and Owen followed him. They came back only a
couple  of minutes later. Owen didn't seem worried or  upset
though.
     Dad  said  "One more thing. Jamie, I want you  to  stay
with  Owen  tomorrow,  Tuesday and  Wednesday  and  possibly
Thursday  as well. I don't want Owen alone for the next  few
days.  This is all going to come crashing down on him and  I
don't want him alone. I'm sure you won't mind." Dad shivered
then  and said "And I am going to do my level best...not  to
think about what you two will be up to."
     I  asked  Dad how Mom would take the news. He  shivered
again and said "What do you think?" I had no idea. I thought
he  would be furious and he didn't even seem that mad  about
it.  Dad continued "I'll mention the upsides: we won't  have
to  worry  about you contracting HIV, Hepatitis C, Hepatitis
B,  HPV, Chlamydia, CMV, Herpes, and more...that's all I can
think  of  now.  If  that still doesn't work,  I'll  mention
Juliet."  I  must have looked confused. He said "From  Romeo
and  Juliet.  She was thirteen and your mother doesn't  mind
that.  Mind you, I'm expecting fireworks, and not your kind,
Owen, but we'll see." Then he smiled at us and left the room
shaking his head.
     I turned to Owen and kissed him deeply. Afterwards Owen
said  with  tears  in his eyes "I can't  believe  it  Jamie!
You're  mine and we don't have to hide it! Well, maybe  from
your mother..."
     I  asked  him what Dad said to him when they  left  the
room. Owen said "He asked me about my sexual activity before
you.  I told him it was the one girl. He asked me if we  had
safe  sex  and  I  told  I used a condom.  He  asked  if  we
exchanged saliva. I said like kissing? He said yes.  I  told
him we had kissed but it wasn't open mouth." At that point I
got to thinking that the girl he had sex with had not had  a
good  time.  "I told him the whole thing only lasted  a  few
minutes.  I didn't tell him, but most of that was trying  to
put  on the condom. I'd never done it before...or since, for
that  matter. Anyway, he seemed pleased but he  told  me  he
wants me to get an HIV test tomorrow. If I'm positive,  then
you'll be tested."
     I  said "I thought that was the whole point of using  a
condom. You know, to keep from getting HIV."
     Owen  said "I guess there's still a little risk. I know
they  can break, but mine didn't. Or maybe he's just playing
it  safe. I think it's a very good idea. I wish I'd  thought
of it."
     "Owen, have I mentioned lately that I love you?"
     He kissed me and said "And I love you too."
     I asked "Did you really mean what you said to Dad about
how you felt when we did it? Or were you exaggerating?"
     "I  meant every word of it, Jamie," he said. "It's been
the same every time. Just kissing you is incredible."
     "I'm  glad it's not just me feeling that way," I  said.
"I keep thinking of you as straight though."
     Owen smiled and said "Nope! I'm gay! Yay! And I have  a
cute  sweet  lover who I've loved my entire life."  He  then
kissed me again. He pushed his tongue in my mouth and it was
wonderful. 'Umm...saliva exchange'! I thought.
     I  had  to stifle a yawn. I guess he could tell because
he said. "I think it's time for bed, young man."
     I  looked  at him and decided to be kind of  daring.  I
said "Yes, daddy. Are you going to fuck me tonight first?"
     Owen  laughed once and then stared at me.  He  said  "I
can't  believe  you said that! You are a  nasty  little  boy
aren't you? But seriously, I want to get tested first."
     "I  was  just kidding anyway. I'm really beat!" I  told
him.
     I said "I guess you're staying home the next few days."
     "Oh  yeah.  Your  dad told me that earlier.  There  are
going  to be lots of questions about arrangements, you know,
for my parents. Then there's the whole custody thing, and he
thought  I  may need to go with him to a lawyer. Anyway,  he
figured it didn't make any sense for me to be getting called
out  of  classes all day. And apparently nobody is going  to
expect  me to be there anyway. He's not sure how much  he'll
be able to do tomorrow, with the holiday and all."
     "Come  on," he said. "Let's brush our teeth and get  to
bed."
     We  went in the bathroom and both brushed our teeth  at
the  same  time at the sink. After we rinsed, he  kissed  me
again and said "Ummm, minty, nasty little boy..."
     We  both got undressed. I turned out the light. I  told
him I would be glad when we could sleep together. He said he
guessed it wouldn't be too long until we could.
     "Night, Owen" I said.
     "Good night, Jamie"
     Then we both said "I love you" at the same time and  we
both laughed.
     I don't think I ever fell asleep faster.





                            Four
                           Monday
     A  noise  woke me. It was Owen, sobbing. I looked  over
and  in the dark, it looked like he was curled up in a  ball
on  the  bed. I got in his bed and hugged him. After  a  few
minutes  he told he had a dream about his father and  mother
and  then  he  woke up and remembered he'd  never  see  them
again.  I  started crying too. I hugged him  tighter  and  I
guess  I  fell  asleep again. I woke up cold,  so  I  got  a
blanket out of the closet and put it over us. The next thing
I knew, Mom has shaking me gently. I was on my side and Owen
was  spooned behind me. His arms were wrapped around me  and
his  leg was over me. Mom motioned me to follow her and left
the  room. I tried to gently pull myself away, but Owen woke
up and said "Are you getting up?"
     I said "My mom wants to talk to me. Go back to sleep."
     I looked at the clock. It was just after seven.
     Mom  was  in  the  hall. She said "What  happened  last
night? How did you end up in Owen's bed?"
     I  told her about waking up to Owen crying. We both had
tears  in our eyes. "I didn't know what else to do!  I  just
hugged  him  and  fell asleep. I guess it worked  because  I
didn't wake up to any more crying."
     Mom  said  "You did the right thing, honey."  Then  she
added  "You know, you two looked so cute together. You  both
had  little smiles on your faces. But I guess you're too old
to want to hear you mother tell you you're cute."
     I looked at Mom and said "How are you holding up?"
     "About as well as can be expected. In other words,  not
that  well.  Janice  and I met in the second  grade..."  She
started  crying again. I wondered if I should have asked  or
not.
     She  pulled herself together and said "Thank God  today
is a holiday. There's no way I could work today.
     "Why  don't  you go back to sleep. There's nothing  you
need to do."
     I  went back in the bedroom and got back in Owen's bed.
He  wrapped  his  arms  around me and said  "Morning  Jamie.
Thanks...for  last night. I woke up and felt so  all  alone.
But then you reminded me I wasn't."
     I  flipped  over so I was facing him. I said  "Owen,  I
just  wish there was more I could do. I love you so much.  I
will always be there for you."
     "Jamie, just being here with you helps, believe me."
     I stroked his cheek. It was all stubbly. Then I stroked
the  side  of his head. Owen closed his eyes and sighed.  We
just  lay there for a while. Finally I said "Do you want  to
go back to sleep?"
     Owen said "No, I'm awake."
     Owen got up and walked into the bathroom. He called out
"Do you think we'll be going anywhere I need to shave for?"
     "I have no idea. You can always shave later if you need
to."
     "Come in here a sec."
     I  got up and walked into the bathroom. Owen closed the
door  and backed me into it. Again. I was starting  to  love
that door!
     He  said softly "And what is your preference? Would you
rather I was clean shaven?"
     "I like you all stubbly." I stroked his cheek.
     He  pressed his mouth to mine. He pushed his tongue  in
my mouth and kissed me slowly.
     After a while he pulled away and said "Maybe we can get
away somewhere today where we don't have to worry about your
parents."
     My  first  thought was we could go to his house  again,
but that seemed wrong somehow. "We could drive somewhere and
make out in your car. I need the practice. I have a hot date
next week."
     "Anyone I know?"
     "His name is George. He's a Labrador."
     "Are you going in his car?"
     "He  drives a truck. He likes to hunt. Well,  retrieve,
actually."
     "I suppose if you're already going to start cheating on
me, bestiality is best."
     "Yes.  That's  what  I  thought. After  all  bestiality
starts with B E S T."
     Owen  stroked my cheek and said "George is a very lucky
man, er, dog. Make him buy you dinner. And don't settle  for
dry food."
     "Even if it makes its own gravy?" I asked.
     "It's not really gravy. I looked at the ingredients  on
the bag. Gravy is not listed."
     We  both  laughed. I just remembered  his  dog  died  a
couple of years ago, so a change of subject was needed.
     "We could go walking in the woods. What's left of them,
anyway."
     "That sounds great!"
     We left the bathroom and got dressed.
     "Do you want coffee?"
     "Absolutely."
     We  walked  into the kitchen. There was already  coffee
made. I got a couple of mugs and poured coffee in them.  Not
much in mine. I use a lot of cream. Then I mine on the table
and  handed Owen the other. I got the half and half  out  of
the refrigerator and put the carton on the table.
     "We  still have cinnamon rolls I can heat or I can make
you breakfast."
     "I'm  not  really that hungry. Just zap me  a  cinnamon
roll in the microwave."
     I  heated  one for each of us. We sat at the table  and
ate  them,  smiling  at each other. We really  couldn't  say
anything intimate since my mom and dad were in the house.
     Owen  got a very sad look on his face. I knew  what  he
was thinking about.
     "They've built houses on about half of the land  behind
us," I said.
     "That's really sad," he said. "Do you know if there are
any deer left?"
     "I  haven't  seen one in a while. Last  week  I  saw  a
mother  raccoon  with  three little kits  following  her.  I
almost  jumped up to take a picture of them with  my  phone,
but decided it would freak them out."
     Owen  said "Yeah, you might have given them a  lifelong
fear of cell phones." We both laughed.
     I got up and said "I'm going to see how Mom is doing."
     I  checked the den and she wasn't there. I looked in my
parents' bedroom and Mom was there looking in a photo album.
I'm  sure she was looking at photos of Aunt Janice. Her eyes
were red but she wasn't crying.
     "Can I get you anything, Mom?"
     "No thanks. How's Owen?"
     "He's doing OK. Mom, I need to ask you something.  When
Owen  starts  to  get sad, should I try to distract  him  by
changing  the subject? Or should I just let him be  and  cry
with him?"
     She  thought  for a minute and said "I  have  no  idea,
really.  I guess though that he will have his whole life  to
grieve for his parents. So changing the subject can't do any
harm. There's nothing wrong with trying to cheer someone up.
And  there's not going to be any way to cheer him  up  other
than  by  changing the subject." I felt better about  it.  I
really had no idea what I should be doing for Owen.
     I  went  back in the kitchen. Owen and I ate our  rolls
and drank our coffee. At one point Owen winked at me and  my
dick got hard! That was a first! He mouthed "I love you."  I
mouthed  "I  love George." He looked at me questioningly.  I
said "George". He laughed.
     When we finished I asked him if he was ready. I put the
dishes  in the dishwasher and we went out the back door.  He
looked over at his old backyard.
     "Hey,  our tree is doing great!" We had dug up a  small
oak  tree  we  found  in the woods and  planted  it  in  his
backyard.  The tree was about twelve feet tall now  and  was
starting to spread horizontally.
     I said "For a while after you moved, I would sneak over
there  when no one was home and fertilize it. I was  worried
about getting caught though. 'Police officer! We found  this
thug fertilizing our tree!'" We both laughed.
     We  walked out the back gate and started our  hike.  We
didn't see much besides the trees. When we were out of sight
of  the houses, Owen pulled me to him and kissed me. He  sat
on a fallen log and I sat next to him.
     "Remember  when we couldn't come even this far?  If  we
couldn't see our houses, it was too far!
     "This  is  so  nice. Being out here with you  again.  I
think  it's  even  better,  in a way.  It  doesn't  seem  as
mysterious  as it did then, but now I'm here with  my  lover
and  my  best friend." I got tears in my eyes. He  continued
"As  a  matter  of  fact, if it wasn't for the  poison  ivy,
assorted  insects, broken branches, and broken beer  bottles
I'd push you to the ground and make love to you."
     I laughed and said "And I suppose I would be under you,
cushioning you from the mess."
     "Of  course. It was my idea. But we won't do it because
the  insects  and possibly the poison ivy could still  reach
me."
     We sat there on the log. He had his arm around me and I
rested  my  head  against  him. We  sat  there  for  several
minutes.
     "Jamie,  don't  move suddenly, but look  to  the  north
east."  I  looked in that direction. Then I saw:  it  was  a
deer,  eating. Sitting there with Owen; it was  a  wonderful
moment. I sighed and felt perfectly at peace. After a couple
of minutes the deer got spooked and took off.
     "You  hired her, didn't you? To eat the poison ivy?"  I
asked.
     "Yes.  I  figured with the poison ivy  gone,  with  bug
repellent I might still be able to have my way with you. But
she  didn't  eat  it  all. I should have  offered  her  more
money."
     He pulled me closer to him and kissed me. The kiss went
on  and  on. He took my hand and placed it on his crotch.  I
rubbed his hard cock while he rubbed mine.
     He  got up off the log and squatted between my legs. He
unzipped  my pants and carefully pulled my very  stiff  dick
out. He licked it a few times and then took it completely in
his  mouth. It felt fantastic! He began bobbing his head  on
it.  After  only about a minute I called out  his  name  and
came.  Owen  swallowed everything and then pulled  back  and
looked  at me with a big grin. I gasped "Oh, god Owen.  That
was perfect! Just perfect!"
     He  got  up  and sat back down. I squatted between  his
legs and said "Now I get to suck you!"
     Owen said "I was hoping you...or anyone, really...would
say that!"
     I  carefully  pulled out his cock and  balls.  "Anyone,
huh?" I licked.
     "Umh, anyone."
     I  sucked  on one of his balls briefly and then  pulled
back and said "Then I'll have to start seeing other people."
     "You  can  invite any of your little class mates  over,
but stay away from George."
     "You'd be amazed at what George can do with his tongue.
It's about seven inches long." I gave Owen a long lick. Owen
leaned back. Well, at least as far as he could on a log.
     I  took him back in my mouth and began bobbing on  him.
After  a  couple  of minutes he said "Oh, Jamie!  Oh,  baby!
Baby!...Aaah!!!" and he spurted in my mouth. The first  four
blasts  hit the back of my mouth with some force.  That  was
really  hot!  He  continued  unloading  in  my  mouth  as  I
swallowed.
     Finally  he pulled me up. His dick was still  hard.  He
kissed me deeply and said "Fuck! I can taste my come in your
mouth!"
     "It's good, isn't it?" I asked.
     "Not as good as yours babe."
     "Fuck!  I'm still hot for you!" He turned me around  to
face  away  from  him  and said "Get  your  pants  down!"  I
unbuttoned them and pushed them and my underwear down.  Owen
pulled  me  back to him and I felt his face at my  butt.  He
pulled  my  cheeks  apart and I felt his tongue  against  my
hole.  That's what it felt like! Wow! Owen was  going  crazy
and  it felt fantastic. He was moaning while he did it. Then
he  reached around and started stroking my dick while he did
it.
     "Owen!" I came again; shooting on the ground.
     I  turned  around. Owen was jerking his cock. I  leaned
down to take him in my mouth and lost my balance and fell on
him!  He  almost fell backwards off the log. We both started
laughing.  He  had  stopped stroking himself,  but  I  still
wanted it! I pulled my pants up and got down on my knees and
took  him back in my mouth. I pulled on his balls and sucked
until  he came again. I sucked him dry and then sat back  on
the log, panting.
     "Damn,  Jamie!  If someone told me a week  ago  that  I
would be having sex hotter than I could imagine and as  much
of  it as I wanted, I would have thought it was a sick joke!
Really!  I  mean, considering my one sexual experience.  But
Jamie,"  he looked at me tenderly. "I will thank  God  every
day of the rest of my life for having you in my life."
     I got tears in my eyes and reminded myself to thank God
for Owen! I was the lucky one!
     "I can't believe you rimmed me!" I said.
     "When  I  saw your little hole, I couldn't resist!  How
was it?"
     "Fantastic! Awesome!"
     We  got our clothes back in order. I asked "Do you want
to walk some more?"
     "Nah, let's head back to the house."
     When  we got back, Mom found us and said "Owen,  you're
uncle  and I are going over to your house to look  for  some
papers. Do you want to go with us?" I hoped he would say no.
I  wanted  Owen to myself and also I was afraid  being  over
there would depress him.
     "Do you want to go?" he asked me.
     I  was  going to go if he went, but I said "No. I would
be too depressed."
     Owen  said "I'll stay here with Jamie, unless you  need
me."
     "No, that should be fine. If we need you we can call."
     "Where is Dad? I haven't seen him."
     "He  was out running errands when you got up. He's back
now though."
     "I'll see you boys later." She left the room.
     Owen  said  "Come  on." We headed for the  bedroom.  He
closed  the door and pulled me to him. He whispered "I  love
you Jamie. I always will." We kissed.
     "I need to use your computer to do some research."
     "Sure, go ahead."
     Owen sat at the desk. I lay down on my bed and wondered
what Owen was researching.
     "What are you looking up?"
     Owen  said  softly "For the best way to loosen  a  hole
about  the size of yours so it will be able to take  a  cock
about the size of mine."
     Whoa! Wasn't the Internet wonderful?
     "About?  What  are  you  talking  about?  George  isn't
anywhere near as small as you!"
     "Jamie? You are a pervert. I better do some research on
those too, if I'm going to keep you around."
     I  thought about 'loosening me'. I wanted Owen to  fuck
me,  but  that was a good point. How much would it  hurt?  I
wasn't really worried about it though. If I had a choice  of
being fucked by Owen with some pain, or not being fucked  by
Owen, I would take him and the pain.
     I sat there a while watching him. After a few minutes I
said "You're not reading about broom handles are you?"
     "No.  The  first article I found was about  a  guy  who
loosened  up his partner to take both his fists at the  same
time."
     Uuh. "Was he a proctologist with an x-ray machine?"
     "Nah.  It  didn't say why. He probably was looking  for
his  car keys." We both laughed. "His boyfriend probably sat
on them."
     "You'd think he could get them with one hand."
     Owen said "He probably had a lot of keys."
     My mom knocked on the door.
     I called "Come in."
     Mom  said "Your father and I are leaving now.  I'm  not
sure  how  long we'll be gone. You boys take  care.  If  you
leave  the  house, be sure you take your phones in  case  we
need to reach you."
     "Bye," I said.
     "See you later, Aunt Diane."
     A couple of minutes later I heard them driving off.
     Owen  said  "I meant to thank your mother for  allowing
you to live here." I had to think about it for a second.
     "She was probably worried that the neighbors would talk
if she kept me in the back yard."
     I  picked  a  book off the book shelf. It was  a  field
guide  to birds. I flipped through it, mostly thinking about
what Owen was finding. Then I fell asleep.
     "Jamie." I woke up.
     Owen  was  still at the desk, but turned around  facing
me.
     "Did you find anything?" I asked.
     "Oh, yeah."
     "What did you find?"
     "Well I think the best way is to have you fucked  by  a
series of men with progressively larger cocks."
     "What?" I said laughing. "How many men are there  in  a
series?"
     "Thirty seven." I laughed a lot and so did he.
     "Well I like that better than your two fists, but  only
slightly."
     "Thirty?"
     "Owen,  I  really hoped it would just be you,  with  an
understudy, of course."
     Owen got up and got on my bed laying himself on top  of
me.  "I fired the understudy," he said and he kissed me.  It
felt great having him on top of me. We kissed for a while.
     "Damn, Jamie! I've already come a couple of times today
and  you've got me so fucking hot again!" He got up  on  his
knees  and pulled his shirt off. I looked up at him. At  his
beautiful muscular, hairy torso. I pressed my hands  against
his  crotch, feeling his cock. Squeezing it and rubbing  it.
He looked down at me. "You want that, don't you, baby?"
     "Oh, lord yes, Owen."
     "Damn, Jamie! The way you look at me! Fuck! You make me
feel like a god! It makes my blood boil!"
     "You are a sexy love god."
     "Hey, I forgot!"
     He  got up and finished getting undressed. He lay  down
on  his  bed on his back. He pushed his cock so that it  was
pointing straight up and held it there. "Do you want to take
any pictures?" he asked with a sexy smirk.
     Talk  about making your blood boil! He was doing it  to
me! "Pictures? Oh, yeah!"
     I  got up and got my phone. I took some pictures of his
whole  body. I got some of his chest. Then I got on the  bed
on my stomach and took some close-ups of his cock and balls.
     Then  Owen  said  "Why don't you get it  wet  and  take
some?"  while he waved his dick at me. I moaned. I  put  the
phone  down  on the bed and got him thoroughly wet  with  my
mouth. I picked the phone back up and took some more photos.
     "Take some with the flash." I did.
     "Let's  look at them." He pulled me up beside  him  and
held me close. He took the phone from me and flipped through
the photos. They all turned out well. One of the ones I took
with  the  flash was stunning! It was a little over  exposed
but  the  flash caused all sorts of reflections on  his  wet
cock.   It  was  in  perfect  focus.  "Oh  man,  that  one's
incredible!" he said. I nodded and moaned.
     "Get  undressed!" I pulled off my clothes and lay  down
next to him.
     He flipped around and said "Let's suck each other!"
     We  did. It was a little awkward because Owen was quite
a  bit  taller  than  I  was. I was already  having  trouble
concentrating on sucking him and then Owen pushed  a  finger
into  my  butt.  That really made it difficult.  He  started
moving his finger around and then he hit something. I pulled
off  his  dick and gasped. "What was that?" He kept  sucking
and  pushing on the spot and I came. Again. I went  back  to
seriously sucking him and a couple of minutes later  he  fed
me  another  load of his spunk. I decided 69ing  was  harder
than I thought it would be.
     "What were you pressing on in there?" I asked Owen.
     "Your spleen, I hope." Hmm. I decided he was joking.
     "No,   just  kidding.  It  was  your  prostate   gland.
Something I learned in my research."
     "Oooh. I love a scholar!"
     "You better believe it!"
     "I'm  the  gay  one.  I'm supposed to  be  showing  you
things!" I told him.
     "If  it  makes you feel better to pretend I'm straight,
go  for it. Just don't expect me to have sex with any women.
Been  there, done that. Besides, you're a fourteen year  old
virgin.  Why would I want to take your advice about sex?"  I
started  laughing really hard. "I'm your mature  experienced
lover.   I  will  make  all  the  decisions.  Sexually   and
politically."
     I was still laughing but I said "Politically?"
     "Yes.  When you are old enough to vote, I'll  tell  you
who to vote for."
     "I was worried about who to vote for. Thank you."
     "So did you learn a lot? I mean researching."
     "Well  most  of it didn't apply. I found  one  guy  who
recommended a series of butt plugs. But, believe it or  not,
I  don't own a single one. I also learned there are a lot of
kinky people. I guess I've led a sheltered life."
     "Tell  me about it. Do you know, if it weren't for  the
Internet, that I would have never seen a porno movie?"
     "No!"
     "Yes!  It's  true! And thanks to the Net I also  saw  a
woman have sex with a donkey!"
     "Was it a lesbian donkey?"
     "If it was, she had a large dick."
     "Hmm. Maybe not, then,"
     "Did the donkey enjoy it?"
     "I  don't  know.  It was a foreign donkey.  I  couldn't
understand what it was saying." We laughed.
     "Enough of that! Anyway," Owen said "It sounds like  it
will hurt the first time, but if we take it very slowly,  it
should help."
     I  said "That's good to know. I'm expecting it to  hurt
some."
     "I'm getting hungry," Owen said.
     "Me too."
     "How  about  if  I  take my gorgeous boyfriend  out  to
lunch?" Owen asked.
     "Can I go too?"
     "I  suppose. I'm too nice to say no and I don't want to
piss of your parents. You in the mood for a burger?"
     "Yeah, that will be good," I answered.
     We  got dressed, I made sure we had our phones, and  we
left.
     Owen  pulled in front of the restaurant and turned  off
the car. He stared straight ahead for a while.
     "Are you thinking about your parents?"
     "Yeah,  this  was  my dad's favorite burger  place."  I
didn't know what to say to that.
     "Do you want to go someplace else, or go home?"
     "Nah. Let's go in."
     We  went inside and got seated in a booth. I sat across
from Owen. A girl walked over to us and said "Hi Owen."
     "Hi Celia," Owen said.
     "Is it true? What they're saying?" she asked.
     Owen just looked down.
     Celia looked stricken. I pulled her aside and walked  a
little  way  away from our table. "Did you hear it  was  his
parents?" She nodded.
     "It's true. We just found out yesterday."
     Celia  said  "He's crying." She had tears in  her  eyes
too. "I shouldn't have said anything!" I felt bad for her.
     I  said  "Don't worry too much about it. It's  hard  to
pretend  nothing happened." She nodded at me. "I don't  know
what will happen when he goes back to school and that's  all
anyone  wants to talk about. I mean, ignoring  it  seems  so
rude and uncaring."
     She  squeezed my arm and said "Take care of him. Is  he
staying with you?"
     "Yeah, my parents are his guardians."
     She  said "Bye, Owen" softly and walked off. I got back
in the booth on Owen's side.
     "What do you recommend here?" I asked him.
     "I always get the chili cheeseburger." Owen said.
     "That sounds good to me."
     Owen  took  my  hand under the table and  squeezed  it.
"Thanks, Jamie."
     "Celia seems nice," I said.
     "She   is.   Her  father  works  in  the  same   office
as...my..."
     Oh, lord! I stuck my foot in it this time, I thought.
     "Is she the one?" I asked him.
     "The one what?"
     I  whispered  "The  girl  who almost  had  your  condom
implanted in her." Owen laughed.
     "No. Celia is sweet. Plus she may be a lesbian."
     "Really?"
     "Well  she  is best friends with a girl who  is  pretty
much 'out'. They could just be friends, of course."
     "Wow! That's kind of neat! We could go on double dates!
Wouldn't people be confused when you stuck your tongue  down
my throat?"
     "Nah. People expect that kind of thing from me."
     "Oh, do they?"
     "Yup.  They'd say 'Whose throat is that this time?'"  I
laughed.
     The waitress came by and took our drink orders.
     We chatted about things that had nothing to do with his
parents. I asked him if there were any boys who had come out
at his school.
     "If  there were they would have already been killed  by
the  guys on the football team. What a bunch of creeps! They
all  think they're so special because they can catch a ball.
I pity the fools who marry them."
     "Are they all like that?" I asked.
     "No. There's one who is clearly exceptional."
     "Gee. I wonder who that is? Is it Celia's friend?"
     "No, Tina's too big. They wouldn't let her play."
     There  was  a  pause and then he whispered  in  my  ear
"Thanks, Jamie."
     I smiled at him.
     We finished our burgers and Owen paid the check. I told
him  he  didn't  have to, but he whispered "Always  let  the
millionaire pay, especially on dates."
     That  was true, weird but true. I was on a date with  a
millionaire!
     "I wonder how your parents are getting on?" Owen said.
     "I guess OK. I don't even know what they're doing."
     When we parked his car at the front of the house, I saw
there was something on the front porch.
     We  walked up. It was an aluminum tray of beef brisket,
with  a card on top of it, a couple of bags, and a Styrofoam
cooler.  One  of  the bags had bread in it.  The  other  had
plates  and  plastic ware. The cooler had potato  salad  and
coleslaw.
     We  carried the food in and I opened the card. It  said
"At  times like this, you don't feel like cooking,  but  you
still  have  to eat. We're thinking of you Owen. -  Signoret
and the gang."
     "Do you know who they are?" I asked him.
     "I think they work with my dad. The name is familiar."
     "Well it was very nice of them," I said.
     I decided to call Mom and let her know.
     "Hi  Mom, someone named Signoret left barbeque and  the
fixings on the front porch when Owen and I went to lunch."
     "Oh, that was really nice of her!" Mom said.
     "Owen thought he or she worked with his father."
     "Actually  she  is friends with Janice and  me.  Janice
helped her get a job working with Jack."
     "Well, there's plenty of food.
     "Is everything going OK?"
     "Yes,  we  found what we were looking for.  There's  an
unbelievable amount of paperwork involved in all  this.  One
of  the things we were checking was whether Janice and  Jack
had a later will in their safe than our copy. You know, that
it hadn't been revised since we got our copy. It hadn't, not
that we expected it to.
     "See you soon. Bye." Mom hung up.
     "Signoret  is a friend of our moms who works with  your
father," I told him.
     There  was barbeque sauce under the bread, so  we  were
all set for dinner. We put the food in the fridge.
     Owen  said "I remember her now. I think Signoret  is  a
nickname. If it's who I think it is, her real name  is  Mary
Beth."
     We  sat  at  the kitchen table. "Is there anything  you
want to do?" I asked him.
     "Can't  think of anything. Being with you would  be  at
the top of the list, anyway."
     "You wanna go..." and I wiggled my eyebrows at him.
     "Go...do your eyebrows?" he asked.
     "Yes.  I'm tired of brown. If I'm going to be a  queen,
they should make a statement."
     "I think you mean a proclamation." We laughed.
     "Let's go watch a movie. We can cuddle, at least  until
your parents get home."
     He   looked  at  our  movies.  "Is  there  anything  in
particular you want to see?" he asked me.
     "Anything  with  a  gold robot who talks  funny  and  a
little robot who beeps."
     "The Exorcist?" Owen asked.
     "I've  never seen The Exorcist. No point in  ruining  a
perfect  record," I said. "How about a movie  with  a  giant
slug that lives in the desert?"
     "Nope. Not ringing any bells." Owen said.
     "Well, why don't you pick something," I said.
     "I want to watch Star Wars, but I have no idea what you
want to watch."
     "I suppose I'll let you pick that."
     We  started  it and he pulled me against  him.  It  was
great!
     About  fifteen  minutes into it, we heard  my  parents'
car.
     "I  wish  we  could watch in your bedroom," Owen  said.
"We'd have an excuse to both watch it from your bed." It was
true.
     Mom  and  Dad  came into the den. To  check  on  us,  I
suppose. Or maybe just to check up on Owen.
     "Hey Owen," my dad said.
     "Hi Uncle Ed."
     Dad looked like he was going to say something, but then
didn't. I knew the feeling. It was probably something  about
Owen's parents. He and Mom left.
     Owen said "You don't have to sit two feet away from me.
That  probably looks more suspicious than my arm around you.
After  all,  I've  been  putting  my  arm  around  you   for
practically your whole life." That was true. I moved  closer
to him.
     A  few  minutes later Owen said "Why don't you stop  it
for now. I want to get a shower."
     I stopped the movie and I got up with Owen.
     He  walked  into  the bedroom and I  followed  him.  He
closed  the  bedroom door and started getting  undressed.  I
admired  the  view and he said 'Why don't you get  undressed
too. That way your clothes won't get so wet." I laughed  and
got undressed.
     We  both went into the bathroom. I turned the water  on
and  got  the temperature right. We stepped into the shower.
We  both got under the water to get wet. Then Owen pulled me
against him. We kissed.
     "Owen,  being  with you like this is  better  than  any
fantasy I ever had."
     He rubbed his hardon against my belly and said "Really?
Not this good?"
     I laughed and said "I can see I didn't have a very good
imagination. You're way hotter than I imagined."
     "Yeah?  Just  wait until I bury my cock  in  your  cute
little rear!" I moaned and he kissed me again. Then he began
washing me. He even shampooed my hair.
     After  I  rinsed off he said "I want to try to  stretch
you a little, OK?"
     "Sure!"
     He  poured  some body wash in one hand. He covered  one
finger  with body wash and then slowly pushed it in  me.  He
started  wiggling it around. I moaned. He pulled me  against
him  and  said "Lean on me." I did and he slowly pulled  his
finger  out. He put some body wash on two fingers  and  then
pushed  them  in. It burned, but I didn't tell him  that.  I
didn't  want  him to stop. He worked the two fingers  for  a
while.
     "How  is  that feeling? You feel a little  looser,"  he
said. His fingers did seem to be moving easier.
     "It's OK. Actually, it's great!"
     "Well, are ready for three fingers?"
     "Let's give it a try."
     He  coated three fingers with body wash and pushed them
slowly in. It hurt like hell.
     "Hold  them  there a minute," I gasped. He  paused.  It
stopped  hurting so much. "You can move them  again."  Every
time  he  moved them, it hurt. I tried not to tense up.  The
pain lessened, finally.
     "I  think my dick is about as big around as these three
fingers  together. So, if I'm right, it shouldn't  hurt  too
much more than this."
     "That's   great!  The  fingers  hurt  but   it   wasn't
unbearable."
     "Hmm. Jamie, I don't want it to hurt at all."
     "It's  going  to  hurt the first time  from  what  I've
read," I told him.
     He slowly pulled his fingers out of me and washed them.
Then he turned me and washed my butt again.
     Now  it  was my turn. I thoroughly washed him, enjoying
the  feel  of his skin under my hands. I shampooed his  hair
and  made sure he was thoroughly rinsed. We got out  of  the
shower and dried each other.
     "I'm  so  excited!"  I said to him.  He  smiled  at  my
enthusiasm. We got dressed. He pulled me to him  and  kissed
me again. "I'm excited too, Jamie!"
     "Do you want to watch more of the movie or TV?" I asked
him.
     "No, I think I want to do some more 'research'."
     "Are you going to be a sex scientist, Owen?"
     "Yes, and you are my lab." We both laughed.
     "OK. I'll just read."
     He sat back down at the computer.
     I  decided  to  read a book on my phone.  It  was  Time
Traders   by   Andre   Norton,   which   I'd   gotten   from
Gutenberg.org.
     A while later there was a knock on the door.
     "Come in," I said.
     My  mom  opened  the door. "I'm going  to  the  grocery
store. Is there anything you want me to pick up?"
     I  said  "Some Texas Toast. That's all I can think  of.
Wait! And we're out of lettuce."
     "Owen, do you want anything?" she asked him.
     "Not that I can think of," he said.
     "I  thought  we  might  have strawberry  shortcake  for
dessert tonight, if that sounds good."
     "That sounds fantastic!" I said.
     Owen said "That sounds great! I love strawberries."
     "See you later," she said. She closed the door.
     Owen  said "Come over here a minute." I walked over  to
him.  "Look  at  this.  I  want to get  you  this  for  your
birthday."
     I  looked  at  a  picture. It looked like  a  piece  of
plastic with a strange shape. "What is it?"
     "It's an extra, extra large butt plug."
     I laughed and said "Too bad. I already have one. You'll
have to buy me a car or something."
     "I'm a poor orphan. I can't buy you a car. Besides  the
butt plug is on sale! And you don't have a driver's license.
But you do have a butt!"
     "I hate to sound ignorant, but what is the purpose of a
butt  plug? Why does anyone need their butt plugged?  I  can
understand  wanting your beautiful dick in  it,  but  why  a
plug? Why not use a dildo?"
     "That's what I can get you! They're on sale too."
     "Will the dildo be in me instead of your dick?" I asked
him.
     "Hmm. Good point. I'll have to keep shopping. This site
has a lot of unusual items."
     "I'll bet."
     I still didn't understand butt plugs.
     I went back to reading my book.
     "How would you like an autographed picture of me?"
     "Is  it  the picture I took this morning? Oh,  shit.  I
forgot to delete them!" I did. I realized I needed to  be  a
lot more careful.
     "No,  I thought I would take one of your photos  of  me
and sign it."
     "I would have to print one of them."
     "Well print away if you want a birthday present!"
     "There's  no  hurry. My birthday is  in  June.  As  you
know."
     "I'll  bet  by  June  that butt plug  will  be  looking
awfully nice!" Not unless I figured out what they were for.
     I went back to reading for a while.
     I  heard  a noise. I looked up. There was a picture  of
Owen  and his family on the computer monitor. I got off  the
bed and walked over to him.
     "Are you OK Owen?"
     "No, I'm not OK. I'm definitely not!"
     I  squatted next to him. I could see tears running down
his cheeks. I stroked his arm. I looked at the photo. It was
one  of  my favorites of Owen and his parents. I started  to
cry  too. I knew I'd never see them again. Well at least not
before I died.
     I  said "Owen, why don't you lie down?" I pulled on his
arm  and  he got up. He followed me to my bed. We  both  lay
down.
     I stroked the side of his head and said "Owen, I wish I
could take the pain away, but I can't. I just want to remind
you  that you aren't alone. We love you! I love you! So much
that  my  heart  might explode! I know we  can't  take  your
parents'  place, but we're here for you. I'll be  there  for
you  for the rest of your life. And we will see them  again.
We'll be old and wrinkled and they'll make fun of us!"  Owen
laughed.
     He  looked at me and said "If it weren't for you Jamie,
I  don't think I would be able to cope at all." He kissed me
lightly on the lips.
     I wrapped my arms around him and held him close. We lay
there a while.
     Then Owen said "Do you have enough pictures of me?"
     "What do you mean?"
     "I  counted  one  hundred and  forty  seven."  Oh,  how
embarrassing! It was probably true. I had never counted them
but that could be right.
     "You miscounted."
     "Are you sure?" he asked.
     "Did you count the pictures on my phone?"
     "No, I forgot about those."
     "See!"
     I said "I don't suppose you have any pictures of me." I
wondered if it was true.
     "I  have a few." That made me feel weird. A little like
an Owen stalker.
     "Are you all right?" he asked me.
     "Yeah,  I'm  fine." I guess I sort of was a stalker.  I
mean, I myself thought it was an obsession.
     "Let  me  show you something." He reached over  to  the
bedside table and took his phone.
     The wallpaper for his phone was a picture of the two of
us  as kids. I had my head on his shoulder and we were  both
smiling.  I  got tears in my eyes. Owen kissed me  and  said
"That's my favorite photo." I smiled at him.
     "I  think  I'll take a nap," Owen said. "Why don't  you
flip  over and face the other way?" I turned over. He pulled
me close, my back against his chest. "Comfy?" he asked.
     "Mmm," I said. I fell asleep.
     "Jamie?" I woke up. I flipped back over facing him.
     "Hi,"  I  said.  "Boy, I sure sleep  well  when  you're
holding me," I whispered.
     "Me too. I hope we can do it every night soon.
     "Your mom asked if we were ready to eat dinner."
     "I could eat. How about you?"
     "Yeah, I'm ready."
     "Did she seem upset that we were sleeping together?"
     "She didn't seem to be."
     "That's a relief."
     We  got up. Mom was in the kitchen. She looked like she
had been crying again. She saw us and hugged both of us.
     "I'm glad I still have my three fellas," she said.
     I started to get tears in my eyes and I looked at Owen.
He seemed fine!
     "Will you help me put the food on the table?" Mom asked
me.
     "Owen,  will  you tell your uncle we're ready  to  eat?
He's probably in the den."
     I  can honestly say that that was the worst meal I ever
had. Before we even started eating, my mom began crying  and
got  up and left. Then Owen started crying, followed by  me.
Dad had tears in his eyes too.
     Dad  tried  to  make small talk, but  I  wasn't  paying
attention.  Then he said "I'll just go check on  your  mom."
And he left.
     I  decided to try to get Owen to eat. "Owen, try to eat
something." I started eating, but Owen didn't. I stopped.
     Once  again I didn't know what to do. Hold him? Try  to
get  him  to  eat? Try to change the subject?  Let  him  cry
because he might need to? He certainly had a good reason  to
cry. We all did.
     He  stopped  crying on his own and said "Jamie,  you're
the one who needs to eat. What do you weigh? 90 pounds?"  At
least he had stopped crying.
     I   said  softly  "Ha!  Some  boyfriend  you  are,  not
realizing I am 102 pounds of muscle!" Owen looked skeptical.
"Well 96 pounds of muscle."
     "Eat!" he said.
     And we both did. Not a lot, but some.
     Finally my mom and dad came back and began eating  too.
Mom seemed better, a little more upbeat.
     She  said  to  Owen "Owen, when is your  next  football
game."  I looked at him and he looked at me. "What  is  it?"
Mom asked.
     Owen  didn't say anything, so I said "Owen doesn't like
playing football."
     Mom  frowned and said, "Well, you shouldn't play then."
I  looked  at Owen and he seemed happy. He nodded. Then  she
said  "Why  didn't you tell..." I could see Dad shaking  his
head from side to side at her. I don't think Owen saw it. He
was  looking at her. She picked up on what Dad meant  "...us
before now?"
     "There's been a lot going on," I said.
     "Yes, there has," my dad said.
     Mom  said "Owen, I never liked it much either. I  enjoy
baseball and basketball a lot more."
     We  ate  some  more and Mom said "Who wants  strawberry
shortcake?"  I  raised my hand. Owen raised  his.  Then  Dad
raised his.
     Mom  got up. I asked Owen "Are you through?" He nodded.
"Dad?"
     "Me, too."
     I  took  their plates into the kitchen and put them  in
the  sink. Then I went back and began bringing the food back
to  the kitchen. At the rate we ate that night, we had about
a  10  year supply of barbecue brisket. I rinsed the  dishes
and  put them in the dishwasher. Owen came in and sat at the
kitchen table while I did that.
     Mom asked us if we wanted to eat ours in the kitchen. I
said "Sure."
     She  handed each of us a plate of strawberry  shortcake
and took hers and Dad's into the dining room.
     "Why are you sitting way over there?" Owen asked.
     "You mean all this long, long way across the table?"
     "Yeah.  You're practically in another state!" I giggled
and pulled my chair to his side of the table.
     I  said "This is better! I wonder why I didn't think of
it."
     "Because you're young and you're too thin," Owen said.
     "I'll have you know I am at my ideal weight for my  age
and size."
     "Don't you mean lack of age and lack of size?"
     "I suppose you'd prefer me fat. I can do that!"
     He whispered "You're perfect. Don't change a thing."  I
smiled at him.
     We  finished our dessert and I took the plates and took
them  to  the  sink. Mom came back in the kitchen  and  said
"Jamie, I'll take care of the dishes. You and Owen can go do
something else."
     We  went  to our bedroom. I asked Owen "Do you want  to
drop off the football team?"
     "I'd like to, but it would make a lot of people mad."
     "You mean people at school?"
     "Yeah."
     I  thought for a minute. It was kind of snarky,  but  I
said  "You  could always say your father loved football  and
now  you  can't  bear  to  play it anymore."  I  hoped  that
suggestion didn't upset him.
     "Blame it on him, in other words."
     "Yeah...He was the reason you were playing, wasn't he?"
I asked.
     "Jamie,  it's  a good thing one of us can  think  evil,
deceitful thoughts," I didn't think it was that evil.
     "I'm just kidding, Jamie. I like it!"
     Owen  said  "This has been a long day, even  though  we
haven't  done much. I think I'm going to call  it  an  early
night."
     "You want to go to bed now?" I asked him,
     "I want to look a few more things up on the Net first."
He sat back down at the computer.
     I  went  into the bathroom and brushed my teeth.  After
that I went back to my bed and read some more.
     Mom and Dad came to the bedroom door and said they were
going  to  bed  early. I told them we were  going  to  sleep
pretty soon too.
     Dad  reminded  us  "I want you two to  stay  home  from
school  tomorrow. If you leave the house, be  sure  to  take
your  phones  with you in case I need you. I'll  be  meeting
with the lawyer and he may have questions I can't answer."
     "OK, Dad. Good night."
     "Night Uncle Ed."
     I  read a few more minutes. Owen shut down the computer
and  went  into  the bathroom. He came out  and  closed  the
bedroom  door. Then he pulled the computer chair and  tilted
it under the door knob.
     I  said  "I  think that would work better if the  chair
didn't have wheels."
     "True.  It's  the  thought that counts,"  he  said  and
wiggled   his   eyebrows.  I  laughed.  He  got   completely
undressed. I couldn't help but admire the view!
     "See anything you like, little boy?"
     "I like your left nipple. The rest, not so much."
     "No more sex for you then."
     "I  didn't  mean  it!  It was just  an  evil  deceitful
thought. Really!"
     "You're  just  lucky I prefer nasty  little  boys  like
you!"
     I  got  undressed.  Completely. Owen  pulled  down  the
covers on his bed and got in. He patted the bed and I got in
too. He covered us with blankets and then he took me in  his
arms.
     "Have I told you I love you recently?" he asked me.
     I  ran my hands over him and said "I don't mind if  you
repeat yourself. You're good looking enough to get away with
anything."  He  kissed me. It was so wonderful  being  there
with him. It really was a dream come true.
     I  reached down to his cock. It was hard, like mine. "I
want  to suck you, Owen." I crawled under the covers to  his
dick  and  took it in my mouth. I held his heavy  balls  and
rolled them around a little.
     "That's so good, Jamie. So good," he said softly.
     I  stopped and sucked on one of his balls for a  while.
Then  I sucked on the other one. I loved the way Owen tasted
and I told him so.
     "I'm close, Jamie! Make me come!"
     I  sped up and Owen moaned "Jamie!" and his come  began
spurting in my mouth. I swallowed every drop.
     Owen pulled me back up to the top of the bed and kissed
me  again.  His tongue moved slowly around in my  mouth.  He
pulled  away and looked at me tenderly. I began rubbing  his
chest feeling the hairs between my fingers.
     "Now I get to do you!"
     Owen got out of bed and went into the bathroom. He came
back  with a bottle of hand lotion. He lay back down on  the
bed and put some lotion on one of his fingers. He kissed  me
as  I  felt  his hand reach between my legs to my  hole.  He
rubbed  his finger slowly around the outside for a  bit  and
then  he slowly pushed it in. He continued kissing me  while
he moved it inside me. I loved knowing Owen was inside me. I
couldn't  wait until it was his cock. He pulled  his  finger
out  and  squirted some more lotion on. Then he  worked  two
fingers  into me. He worked them around for a  while  as  he
kissed  me. He said "How's that baby? Is it hurting  you  at
all?" It was starting to feel really good.
     "No Owen. It feels great!"
     After a few more minutes he pulled his fingers out  and
said "Do you want me to use three fingers? Like before?"
     "Yes! I want to get stretched enough to take your  cock
in me."
     "OK, baby."
     He worked the three fingers in me for a few minutes. It
didn't hurt as much as it had before.
     "I  wanna  make you come now, baby." He bent  over  and
took my cock in his mouth.
     It felt fantastic. He kept moving his fingers in me.  I
ran my fingers through his hair. "Owen, that's wonderful!" I
was  getting close. "I'm close, Owen!" He pushed his fingers
in a little deeper and that made me come. "Oh, fuck Owen!" I
think I shouted. I hoped my parents hadn't heard it.
     Owen sucked for a while. Then he very slowly pulled his
fingers  out.  He got out of bed and got a  towel  from  the
bathroom.  He wiped his fingers off and then he  rubbed  the
towel along my crack. I was smiling at him. Sex was fun!
     He  lay back down and kissed me. Then he asked "How was
it? Was it painful?"
     "No Owen, it was great, really. I couldn't help wishing
it was your cock instead of your fingers though."
     "I think you're ready for it, Jamie!"
     "I can't wait, Owen!"
     "Me  either, baby." He kissed me again and  stroked  my
cheek.
     "Jamie,  you're fantastic and I love you!" he said  and
gave me a quick kiss.
     "You  are in fact the best 14 year old sex stud that  I
know!"
     "Really? Of all of them I'm the best?"
     "I said 'That I know'. I may not know all of them."
     I  giggled. "So I'm a sex stud and you're a  sexy  love
god."
     "Yes. That is absolutely correct."
     "Well I have a feeling you're the only sexy love god in
existence, so I'm getting the better deal."
     "No,  Jamie. I'm the lucky one." I hugged him and  held
him close.
     "You ready for bed?" he asked me.
     "Yeah, I am."
     I  got off his bed and put my briefs and a t-shirt  on.
He  put his boxers on. I wanted to sleep with him, but I was
afraid it might make Mom mad.
     "Owen,  if you get sad during the night, will you  wake
me, please?"
     "OK Jamie, I will." I got in my bed.
     Owen  moved the chair by the door back to the  computer
desk. Then he turned off the light.
     "Good night Owen."
     "Nite Jamie. I love you."
     "I love you too."
     I  closed my eyes. It had been a good and a bad day.  I
guessed there would be more of them in the next few days.  I
thought of Owen and fell asleep.

                            Five
                           Tuesday
     A  noise woke me. It was Owen, getting in my bed.  "Did
you have a bad dream?" I asked him.
     "No, it was a great. It was waking up that sucked."  He
sniffed. I guessed he had a dream about his parents.
     "Do you want me to hold you?"
     "No, I wanna hold you." That was just fine with me!
     He  wrapped  his  arms around me and nuzzled  my  neck.
"Night, Baby."
     "Night Owen."
     To this day, being in Owen's arms makes me feel so safe
and happy that I almost always fall asleep quickly.
     The  next thing I knew, Mom was waking me. She motioned
me  out  of  the  room.  I got up and  out  of  Owen's  arms
carefully and followed her to the hall.
     "Did Owen have a bad night again?" she asked.
     "He  woke me up and I asked him if he had a bad  dream.
He  said  'No  it  was a good dream. It was waking  up  that
stunk'."
     "I  know the feeling. You dream of someone and  in  the
dream  you're  both happy and then you wake up  and  realize
they're dead and you'll never see them again." She shook her
head.
     She  continued "Honey, I'm running late. I need to call
Owen's school and let them know what happened and tell  them
he  won't be there for a few days, but I don't have time  to
look  up the number. Will you look it up and text it to  me?
I've  got  to run! I've got a report I have to get out  this
morning.  Hopefully once that's done, I can take  some  time
off from work. There's going to be a lot to do: letting Jack
and  Janice's employers know, the memorial service, lawyers,
wills,  guardianship, life insurance,  and  who  knows  what
else!"
     "I've  got to go! Keep close to Owen. I have a  feeling
anytime he's alone, it will hit him like it did the last two
nights. Bye!"
     Mom  left  quickly out the door. I went to the computer
in  the den and looked up the number for Owen's high school.
I  wrote  it down. I thought about texting it to  Mom  right
away,  but then I decided to wait until she was at work.  No
more car wrecks! Please!
     I  went back in the bedroom and got back in Owen's bed.
He  wrapped  his arms around me and said "Morning  Jamie.  I
stroked  his  cheek. It was all stubbly. Then I stroked  the
side  of his head. Owen closed his eyes and sighed. We  just
lay  there  for a while. Finally I said "Do you want  to  go
back to sleep?"
     Owen said "Nope."
     I asked if he wanted french toast for breakfast. I knew
Owen  loved  french toast. When our families would  eat  out
together, if it was on the menu, Owen ordered it.
     He said "Really? You can make it?" His eyes were wide.
     I had to laugh and said "Yes, of course."
     He  said  his mom didn't make it. She said it  was  too
much  work. It's not that hard. Well, it's not hard  at  all
actually. Then I remembered that Aunt Janice hated to cook.
     Then I said "Do you want coffee?"
     He said "Always!"
     "Is your Dad here?"
     "I  don't know. I'll look." I walked around the  house.
He wasn't there.
     "No. He's gone. I'm not sure where."
     I got out of bed and walked to the kitchen. I was still
in a t-shirt and briefs, but I didn't figure I needed to get
dressed  yet.  I rinsed out the coffee maker and  put  in  a
paper filter. I measured out the coffee. I figured six  cups
would  be enough, but decided to make eight just to be sure.
I added the water and turned the coffee maker on.
     I  looked in the pantry and we had the Texas Toast  Mom
had  gotten  yesterday. I was glad because  it  made  better
french  toast.  I  got milk, eggs, and  butter  out  of  the
fridge.  I  got cinnamon, nutmeg, and vanilla off the  spice
shelf.
     Just  then Owen walked into the kitchen. He was wearing
only  his  jockstrap. I think my eyes dilated or  something.
Everything else evacuated my brain. I walked over and  knelt
in  front  of him and pressed my face against his  pouch.  I
sniffed  deeply and moaned. Owen took my head in  his  hands
and pressed his crotch harder against my face. After a while
of  him grinding his crotch against my face and me absorbing
his  scent, he pulled me up to my feet. He pushed his tongue
in my mouth and moved it all around my mouth. Then he licked
a long line down my cheek. He started sucking on my earlobe.
That  tickled  and I pulled away. I looked at  him.  He  was
looking at me with so much lust, it made my heart pound even
faster  than  it  already was. Whoa! Someone  sure  woke  up
horny, I thought.
     Owen  said "I wanted to see if you still wanted me."  I
laughed.
     "I hope you realize that's a 'Hell Yes'. As a matter of
fact, I want your weinie for my breakfast."
     "No! You might chew your breakfast."
     "And I also can't wait to get him..." I wrapped my hand
around his cock. "into...the cave." After all," I continued,
"my dad already thinks we've done it."
     "Is  that what we're calling your butt now? Is  that  a
code?  I've got to warn you. If any bats fly out  of  it,  I
will seriously lose my erection."
     "Don't  worry.  They only leave at dusk and  return  at
dawn."
     "I was with you at dawn. I didn't see any bats."
     "Was my butt covered?"
     "Yes, I believe my dick was resting in your crack."
     "Those poor, poor bats! They had to find another place.
Probably  close by. Have you heard any sonar coming  out  of
your butt?"
     "No, but I did hear The Star Spangled Banner."
     I  laughed. "Well, it's not bats, then. They can't play
musical  instruments. That must have been Amigo.  He's  very
patriotic."
     He  leaned  over and kissed me. Then he said  "I  can't
wait to fuck you either. But later. AFTER I get tested."  Oh
yeah, I thought.
     I  looked at the clock. Mom was definitely at  work  by
now.  I  texted her the number for the high school. I walked
back  into  the bedroom. Owen was in the bathroom  with  the
door  closed. I called out "Owen, what do you take  in  your
coffee?"
     "Sweet and white. Like you!'' he said.
     I  laughed and said "That's terrible," I said. "I  hope
you don't love me for my skin color!"
     I heard the toilet flush. Then Owen opened the bathroom
door.  Naked! I still couldn't believe I was finally getting
what (who) I wanted.
     Owen  kissed  me  and said "I love you  because..."  he
paused  and  then continued "It's not because  you're  cute,
though you are. I loved you before I noticed that. And  it's
not because you're a generous, exciting, enthusiastic lover,
because I loved you way, way, way before I found out  that."
He  wrapped  his arms around me and continued,  "I  guess  I
don't know why...but I do and I always have."
     He said "You know, you might think it would feel weird,
us  becoming  lovers  after  being  like  brothers...but  it
doesn't.  Not  to me anyway. It just feels like  we  learned
something new together. I'll tell you one thing!  If  I  had
known how much fun it was kissing you, we would have started
that much sooner!"
     He  continued "Anyway, that's how I feel. And  I  think
you  feel the same way. After all, we've always been in sync
with each other."
     I  nodded  my  head and rested it on his  shoulder.  He
kissed my forehead.
     Finally I pulled back and said "How white and how sweet
do  you  want  the  coffee. 'Sweet and white'  is  a  little
vague..."
     "Two  spoons of sugar and some cream. It doesn't really
matter how much. NOT half coffee and half cream though,"  he
said. That's how I liked mine.
     Owen  put on a pair of boxers and followed me into  the
kitchen. I poured his coffee, added the sugar and some  milk
and  handed him the coffee mug. He took a sip, smiled at  me
and said "Perfect".
     I got started on the french toast. Owen walked over and
stood by me. In the way, really; but I didn't mind. I had to
laugh thinking of Aunt Janice telling Owen that french toast
was  too  hard  to make! You mixed milk, eggs,  some  sugar,
whatever breakfasty spices you want together, dip the  bread
in  and  fry  it in butter. Owen was watching  me.  He  said
"That's ALL?"
     "Yes.  Takes  a couple of minutes," I said.  While  the
bread  was frying, I got some pecan halves out of the pantry
and mashed them with the bottom of a heavy glass tumbler.  I
pulled  the two pieces of french toast out of the  pan,  put
them on a plate, sprinkled some of the pecans on the top and
handed  it to Owen. I dipped some more bread and put  it  in
the  pan.  I walked over and got some syrup and gave  it  to
him. I had to laugh. He looked like it was Christmas Day!
     I  walked back over to the coffee poured a little in  a
mug  for  me  and  added a LOT of milk and three  spoons  of
sugar.  I  looked over to Owen and said "Go  ahead  and  get
started. Mine will be ready in a minute."
     I  sat  down at the table and watched him enjoy  it.  I
knew I was going to really enjoy cooking for Owen. Even more
than my parents. Owen seemed clueless in the kitchen and  it
was something I could contribute to the relationship.
     Mine was ready. I put it on a plate. Then I dipped some
more bread, added some more butter and put it in the pan.  I
sat  down to eat and told him there was more on the  way.  I
laughed  at  his expression. Like he won the  lottery!  Poor
Owen, he needed me!
     Owen  had  eaten  six pieces of french toast  before  I
remembered I was going to fix bacon too. I asked him  if  he
wanted   any,  but  he  was  full.  And  happy.   And   very
appreciative. After he pushed his chair away from the table.
He  told me to sit on his lap facing him. Our faces were the
same  height like that. He kissed me slowly and for  several
minutes.
     Then  he said "I'd tell you I love you, Jamie. But I've
already done that once and I don't want to spoil you."
     I  burst  out laughing. "Well, I was planning  to  make
french  toast tomorrow, but I made it today...and  you  know
how it is..."
     Owen said "I love you I love you I love you I love  you
I love you." I hugged him.
     "Speaking  of which, I need to go to the grocery  store
later to get some things. Will you take me?" I asked him.
     "Of  course," he said. "I guess I'll go get dressed.  I
need to get to the free clinic to get tested."
     I  asked "Do you know how long it will take to get  the
results?"
     Owen said with a grin "Impatient, are we? Always a good
sign in a virgin about to be deflowered..."
     I  said  "How  did you know we're out of  flour?"  Owen
rolled his eyes.
     I got off his lap and he went to get dressed.
     I got to wondering whether my mom had called my school,
so  I decided I better, just to be sure. I looked the school
office number up and dialed it.
     "St Catherine's. This is Mrs. Robinson," she answered.
     'Mrs. Robinson' is my old friend Elly who used to baby-
sit  me  before she got married. We always had a  blast!  We
would dance, have spit wad fights, and generally try to make
each  other laugh. She used to live three houses  down  from
us.  But she got married about a year earlier and moved. She
married a hunk, an absolute card-carrying hunk. He was Coach
Robinson  from  our school. The man with  the  fully  packed
jockstrap.  The  man  with six pack abs covered  with  black
hair. With a cleft in his chin, and green eyes as well.  The
man is so good looking, he approaches Owen territory. Enough
about him, I have my own now.
     I said "It's Jamie, Mrs. Robinson."
     Elly  said "Ooooh, Jamie. Your mom called a few minutes
ago. How's Owen?"
     I  said "He's OK when he isn't thinking about it. Every
once in a while it hits him though."
     "I know the feeling," she said. "When my father died, I
would  be  fine and then I would remember and I would  burst
into tears."
     I  told her about waking the night before last to  Owen
crying.
     She  said  "Stick by him Jamie. And remember we're  all
praying for him. And your family too."
     I  couldn't resist. I couldn't! I said "Heaven holds  a
place for those who pray, Mrs. Robinson."
     She  barked out a laugh and said "Don't make me go over
there and beat the crap out of you!"
     "What's that you say, Mrs. Robinson?" I said.
     She  said  "I  said I'm going to beat the crap  out  of
you!"
     I said "Put it in the pantry with your cupcakes!"
     Elly sighed and said "How much would I have to pay  you
to  never recite any lyrics to Mrs. Robinson to me  EVER?  I
got  you to promise to stop saying Coo Coo Ca-choo. I see  I
need to be a little less specific."
     I  said "We'd like to help you learn to help yourself."
Click. I thought that went very well!
     I  washed the dishes and went into our bedroom  to  get
dressed.  Owen was dressed. He said the clinic  wasn't  open
yet. He told me he was going over to his house to get a  DVD
player  and  his laptop. He said that after he brought  them
over,  he  would take me to the grocery store  and  then  he
would go to the clinic. I kissed him goodbye and he left.
     After he left, I realized I should have gone with  him.
Thirty  minutes went by. Then forty five. I called his  cell
and  I  heard it ring from my bedroom. Shit! Shit!  Shit!  I
called  his house and still no answer. I got on my bike  and
rode the two miles to his house. I jumped off and ran up  to
the  house.  Then I remembered I didn't have a  key  to  his
house.  Fortunately the front door was unlocked. I ran  into
the house and called his name. I heard sobbing! Oh, Owen!  I
started  crying. I found him in Uncle Jack's  study  on  the
floor. He didn't have the DVD player or the laptop with him,
so I guessed he'd been crying for almost an hour by himself.
     I  got  down on the floor with him and hugged  him.  He
hugged me back. He kept crying and I cried too. I decided  I
was not going to let him be by himself at all! If he went to
the bathroom, I was going to wait by the door, listening.
     I  looked around the room. There were so many things in
it  that reminded me of Uncle Jack. I was sure it was  much,
much  worse  for  Owen. I decided to ask my dad  whether  we
ought to try to keep Owen out of his house for a while.  But
maybe  he  had to do this. I thought 'Maybe he has  to  cry.
Maybe a certain amount of tears have to be shed whether they
are spread out or all together'. But then I thought that was
silly.  Anyway,  I really knew nothing about  it.  This  was
completely new to me.
     I  started  to  feel really guilty about sparring  with
Elly.  While I was doing that, Owen was crying on the floor.
All alone.
     I  just  kept  holding Owen's head  and  stroking  him.
Finally he stopped crying and looked at me. He said "How did
you get here?"
     "I rode my bike," I told him.
     He said "I'm sorry..."
     I  said  "Oh, Owen. It's my fault. I should  have  come
with you."
     Owen  looked at me and said "You're right! This is  all
your fault!"
     I  stared at him, shocked. He laughed then and took  my
hand  and  said  "Jamie, you're the only  thing  keeping  me
going! If you weren't around I don't think I would ever stop
crying."
     I  stroked  his  cheek. Owen said "I  know,  I  haven't
shaved." I think I blushed.
     He said "What?"
     I  said "I don't think I should say. Not right now." It
seemed inappropriate.
     "What? Tell me," he said, "Please?"
     I  put my face in my hands and said "I was thinking how
sexy  the  stubble  made you look. I know it's  wrong,  it's
inappropriate; but that's how I feel..."
     Owen  shook his head but he was smiling. Then he kissed
me,  hard and deep. "Let's get the stuff," he said. "We  can
put your bike in the trunk."
     I  said  "Owen,  maybe we should get everything  you'll
need  for a few days. Maybe that would be easier on you than
to have to keep coming over."
     He shrugged and said "Sure, if you think so."
     We  gathered  up his laptop, speakers, mp3 player,  all
his  toiletries, and a heck of a lot of clothes.  We  loaded
the car and went back in the house. We went through his room
again  and  I asked him if he wanted his digital camera.  He
said  "Why  not. I don't use it much though.  On  the  other
hand,  now that I have you, I'll be taking lots of  pictures
of you."
     "Really?", I asked.
     "Oh,  yeah,"  he  said. "When I tell people  at  school
about  my  lover, I'll be able to show them  nasty,  obscene
pictures of you."
     "What??" I asked him.
     He  said  "Oh, yeah. All the guys do it.  I  thought  I
would film it when you lose your virginity. Then I can  show
it  to  the guys after football practice. They'll enjoy  it.
Really."
     I  frowned.  Did people discuss sex so openly  in  high
school?  I  wondered. It sounded like they were  all  having
sex,  so  maybe he was serious. Then I remembered he  didn't
particularly like them. So...he was joking.
     I  said "OK, but we probably shouldn't show them to  my
mom." Owen shook his head no.
     I continued "Also, how will people know it's you in the
movie if you're holding the camera? They'll just see me  and
someone's tiny dick going in me. It could be anyone  with  a
tiny dick. We better buy a tripod."
     Owen  said "I'll show you tiny. When I fuck you I won't
use  lube. You'll feel every centimeter of my fourteen  inch
cock, little boy."
     I  really don't want you to think Owen had a tiny dick.
Oh my, no. It's lovely. Perfect!
     I  was  glad to leave the house. We put my bike in  his
trunk  and tied the trunk down. When we got there I  put  my
bike back in the garage and helped Owen carry his things  in
the  house. My closet didn't have room for all his  clothes,
so I decided to take my winter clothes out and put them in a
closet  in  the  hall, right next to my room.  I  decided  I
needed  to  get rid of all the clothes that didn't  fit  any
more too.
     We still needed to figure out where he was going to put
his  laptop. There wasn't room to add another desk.  I  said
"If we ever get a queen sized bed in here instead of the two
twin beds, we'd have room for your desk.
     "Don't hold your breath," Owen said.
     "My  parents  know I'm a queen. The bed would  only  be
appropriate," I said.
     Owen said "Yeah. And I'll tell them every time we start
to  have  really rough sex you fall, or get knocked off  the
twin bed. We'll appeal to your mother's maternal instincts."
     "That should do it, all right!" I grinned at him.
     We  left  to  go to the free clinic. Owen  went  inside
first. I waited in the car while I looked up something on my
phone. Then I went into the clinic. Owen was already seated.
A  receptionist asked me if she could help me. I  said  "I'm
with my father," and pointed to Owen. Owen was trying not to
laugh. He was filling out some forms. Maybe I shouldn't have
said  it,  but  I couldn't tell her the truth,  either.  The
woman was giving us both looks, but I started reading.
     Owen got called and left the reception. He came back  a
few  minutes later and said "You want to stop at the grocery
store now? The results will be back in 30 minutes."
     I said "Sure," and we left.
     There  was a grocery store a couple of blocks away.  We
went  in together. Owen asked what we needed to get. I  said
"An  awful  amount of eggs, milk, and bread so  I  can  make
enough  french toast to keep my brutal lover satisfied.  You
wouldn't  believe him. He keeps knocking me out of  my  bed.
And that's just when we're kissing."
     Owen said "Son, you're rotten through and through.  You
probably deserve it."
     We  picked the stuff up as we went and checked out.  We
still had a while. We were waiting in Owen's car in front of
the clinic.
     Owen said "Do you want to do anything else?"
     I smiled and said "Well, I want to give you a blow job,
but the receptionist might see us and she would think it was
incest."
     Owen  said  "See what trouble your big mouth  gets  you
into?  If you hadn't opened it in there, you could've opened
it in here."
     "That's  terrible!"  I smiled at him.  I  was  glad  he
wasn't depressed right then.
     Thirty  minutes had gone by, so Owen went back  inside.
He  came out waving a paper at me. He was smiling. I started
to  wonder  what  the  receptionist was thinking;  a  father
waving  his  HIV  test  result in  front  of  his  kid.  But
hopefully,  she knew I was BS'ing her. Owen could  pass  for
nineteen or twenty, but I couldn't pass for young enough  to
be his.
     He got in the car and said "It's negative, Jamie!"
     I  smiled  and  said  "That's  great!  Not  a  surprise
though..."
     Owen wanted to stop at a drug store and there was one a
couple of doors down. He said he was going to walk to it.  I
started  to  say  I  would  wait in  the  car,  and  then  I
remembered I needed to stick close to him. I got out of  the
car and said I would go too.
     Owen said "Actually, it's a surprise and I'd rather get
it by myself."
     I  figured  he would probably be fine and  he  said  he
wanted to go alone. So I got back in the car.
     "See you in a minute," Owen said.
     He was gone about five minutes. When he got back, I was
curious about what he'd bought. He told me he'd show me when
we  got  home. He put the bag in the back seat and  we  went
home.
     We  carried  the food inside and Owen took his  package
in.  We put the food away and then I said "Now will you tell
me what you bought?"
     Owen  pulled  out four fleet enema kits.  I  burst  out
laughing and then I turned red. Then he pulled out a  bottle
of  lube.  Then another bottle of lube, followed by  another
bottle of lube. I said "What's with all the lube?"
     Owen  said "This one's plain. And those other  two  are
flavored."
     I  walked  up to Owen, hugged him and said "Thank  you,
honey.  I have no idea why lube would be flavored, but  then
I'm only fourteen."
     He  chuckled and said "Won't it be fun figuring it  out
together?" I definitely agreed.
     Then I said "Owen, I want you to do something for me."
     "Anything, Jamie."
     I  whispered in his ear "I want you to fuck  me,  right
now."
     He  said "Then why don't we take this to your bedroom."
He  put the enema kits and lube back into the back and  went
to our bedroom.
     We  closed my bedroom door and I propped the chair from
my desk under the door knob.
     Owen  started to unbutton his shirt. I said "I want  to
undress you, but I need to use the enema kit first."
     "OK,  Jamie."  Owen  lay down on his  bed,  facing  the
bathroom.
     I  went in the bathroom and closed the door. I had a BM
and then used the kit. I had a feeling we were going to need
a lot of kits. I finished and went back into the bedroom.
     Owen  stood up and I unbuttoned his shirt. I pulled  it
off,  and sucked on first one nipple, and then the other.  I
ran  my fingers through the hair on his chest. I said "Owen,
I love how hairy you are! It drives me wild!"
     I ran one hand down along his stomach, feeling the hair
and  the  muscles. I kept sliding my hand  down,  under  his
pants.  They were tight though, so I unbuckled his belt  and
unzipped them. Then I pulled them down. Owen was wearing his
jockstrap.
     "Surprise!" he said.
     I  wanted to take my time nuzzling him and enjoying it,
but  I was worried that my mom might be home soon. I put  my
hand  on  his full pouch and looked up at him. His cock  was
stiff. I gave it a squeeze and said "I love this thing."
     Owen said "I noticed!"
     I  pulled  the  pants off. Then I pulled his  jockstrap
off.  I told him I wished we could take it more slowly,  but
my  mom  was coming home. He lay down naked on his  bed  and
smiled at me. I undressed quickly and joined him.
     He  kissed  my  passionately, holding my  face  in  his
hands.  Then he picked up the bottle of plain lube  off  the
bedside table. He squirted some on his fingers. He said "Why
don't you turn over on your stomach?"
     I  flipped  over. Owen went to the bathroom and  got  a
towel.  "Good thinking!" I said to him. I lifted  myself  up
and  he  put  it  on the bed. Then I laid back  down  on  my
stomach.  He squirted some lube in my crack. Then he  slowly
pushed a finger in. It went in very easily. Then he pushed a
second finger into me. It hurt a little, but I was expecting
this  to hurt, so it didn't matter. He moved the two fingers
around  for a while. Then he squirted some more lube  on  my
hole  and  added a third finger. It hurt but  I  didn't  say
anything. He moved them around for a bit.
     Owen said "Are you OK, Jamie?"
     "Yeah, I'm ready."
     "Here we go then," Owen said.
     He  pulled  his fingers out and I felt his cock  at  my
hole. He pushed slowly. It hurt like hell.
     "Hold it a minute there," I said.
     "You tell me when to move," he said.
     After  a minute the pain got less. I said "OK, you  can
keep going."
     Owen  pushed some more. It hurt. A lot. Finally he said
"I'm all the way in, Jamie."
     He kept still for a minute and I said "You can go ahead
now."
     "Did you say 'go away now'?" Owen said.
     I  laughed  and  said he wasn't dismissed  before  he'd
finished his homework.
     Owen  laughed and began thrusting slowly. "Oh,  Jamie,"
he said. "It feels absolutely incredible. So hot and tight."
     Then  he said "Let's flip you over now." He pulled  out
of me and said "Roll over on your back."
     I did and he pushed my legs up and pushed his cock back
inside me slowly. It hurt going back in. He had his hands on
either  side of my shoulders and looked at me.  He  said  "I
love  you, Jamie..." He began thrusting, steadily. He leaned
down to kiss me and I leaned up to receive it.
     He changed his angle and I said "Whoa!!"
     He  kept  thrusting at that angle. "Oh, my lord.  Owen.
That feels unbelievable!"
     His  balls  were slapping against my butt.  Owen  began
sweating.
     I  was  getting close to coming. I asked him if he  was
close.
     He said "I'm ready when you are. Come for me."
     I stroked my cock a few times and shot my load all over
my stomach, neck, and face.
     Owen  groaned, said "Jamie!" Then held perfectly  still
while  his body twitched. He made tiny thrusting motions.  I
knew he was coming deep inside me.
     He fell on top of me, panting.
     I  asked kind of nervously how it was. I didn't  really
do  much, but I didn't know what else I could have done.  To
tell  you the truth, I was really afraid he would decide  he
preferred fucking women. Between the pain and worrying about
whether  I should be doing something, I didn't really  allow
myself to enjoy it.
     Owen  got up and said "It was OK." Then he walked  into
the  bathroom. That didn't sound good at all,  but  maybe  I
could get better at it.
     I  said  "I  didn't know what I was doing.  I  can  get
better at it."
     Owen  came back with a wet towel. He smiled at  me  and
said "Jamie, it was wonderful! How could making love to  the
love of my life be anything less?"
     Then  he  said "Lift your legs up. I want to make  sure
you're not bleeding."
     I could feel it was wet back there.
     Owen  stared at my hole a minute. Then he looked up  at
me with lust in his eyes and said " Oh, Jamie...Your hole is
swollen and my come is leaking out of you. It makes me  want
to bury my cock in you again and shoot some more in you."
     He  continued "But we don't have the time. Let's get  a
shower."
     And  then Owen shocked me by picking me up off the  bed
and  carrying me into the bathroom. He put me down and  went
to  close the bathroom door. Then he opened it again and got
the  towel off the bed. When he came back into the bathroom,
he kissed me, slowly.
     We  got  in the shower and washed each other.  Then  we
dried each other.
     We  got  dressed  and I asked him what  he  wanted  for
lunch.  He  carried the chair back to the  desk.  Before  he
opened the bedroom, he kissed me deeply and told me he loved
me.
     "I love you too, Owen," I said.
     "Just think! In only nine months you'll have my baby!"
     "I can see you failed sex education."
     "I got you pregnant, didn't I?"
     We  went  into the kitchen and I looked in the  fridge.
There  was  the  brisket  and some  turkey.  I  suggested  a
sandwich.
     Owen  said  "I don't want you working all  day  in  the
kitchen. Let me take you out to lunch again."
     I thought about it for a minute. I really didn't want a
sandwich,  but I didn't know if we should go  out.  Mom  was
possibly on her way home now...
     I said "Why don't we order pizza?"
     Owen  said "That's perfect! That way, if your mom still
isn't home, I can kiss you between slices!"
     I  called Mom and asked her if she would want any.  She
said  "Yes, and why don't you order some lasagna for tonight
too." Then she told me she would be home in about an hour.
     I  told Owen. He looked a little worried. "What is it?"
I asked him. I need to go to the bank to get some cash.
     I  said  "Why don't we order the pizza and lasagna  and
then go to the bank. The bank's close by isn't it?"
     He said the ATM was only about six blocks away.
     So  I  ordered  the  pizza.  Owen  and  I  both  prefer
pepperoni,  so  we ordered a large pepperoni  and  a  veggie
pizza and the lasagna.
     Then  we  went to the ATM. On the way there  Owen  said
"It's weird, but even though your dad says I've got a lot of
money,  I'm really going to be broke soon. My parents aren't
around to give me any more and I don't have a job."
     I  said "I'm willing to pay for sex! But seriously, Mom
and Dad are your guardians, or they're going to be. You just
need  to  talk to Dad. Besides, I can loan you some  if  you
need it right away!"
     Owen smiled at me and I smiled at him.
     Then he asked "How's your butt? Is it sore?"
     I  wiggled it a little on the seat and said "Not really
sore. I can tell it's there though. It feels kind of wet.  I
hope I'm not leaking come on your leather seats."
     Owen  groaned  and said "Please don't say  things  like
that when I'm driving. I'm not that great a driver."
     We  stopped  at a red light. The ATM was on  the  other
side  of the intersection. I said "Since we're stopped, that
reminds me. If you fuck me every morning, how will I explain
the wet spots to my teachers? It could be embarrassing."
     Owen  looked smug and said "I suppose on school days  I
could pull out and come all over your face."
     Damn,  that  sounded  hot! "Got  your  interest  there,
didn't I," he said. Boy, did he! I wanted to grope him,  but
the light changed color.
     He got his money out of the ATM and we headed home.
     I  checked my watch and we'd only been gone about  five
minutes. As soon as we closed the front door he pushed me up
against  it and then kissed me for about a minute.  He  said
"Damn,  Jamie I wish we had time! Talking in the car has  my
dick so hard it hurts."
     I  took  his hand and dragged him into our bathroom.  I
closed  the bathroom door and then knelt in front of him.  I
unzipped his pants and realized he was wearing the jockstrap
again.  I said "You know, you're going to get jock  itch  if
you don't get that washed."
     He  said  "But you're so cute when you see it!  And  it
makes you crazy for me!"
     I said "I'll admit I like it."
     "Like?" he said. "Like?"
     "Well,  OK. Maybe I absolutely love you in it.  But  it
can be clean. I mean it smells awesome, but I don't want you
to get a skin infection from it."
     "Fair enough, babe," he said.
     I  reached  in  his pants and pulled his  cock  out.  I
licked it a few times and he moaned.
     Then  the  doorbell  rang. I said  "Wouldn't  you  know
they'd make the fastest delivery ever?"
     Owen  tucked  himself back in and we went  to  get  the
food.  I  put one of the pizzas in the oven with it  set  to
low. Then Owen and I took the other one into the den to eat.
We  could  sit side by side on the sofa while we  ate.  Owen
kept  one  of his arms around me while he ate. Once  between
bites,  he leaned over and whispered "I love you, Jamie"  in
my ear.
     I  mumbled  "I  love you, too" through  a  mouthful  of
pizza.
     I  heard Mom's car, so I went to the garage door.  When
she came in the house, I kissed her and told her Owen and  I
were eating in the den and that her pizza was in the oven.
     "How is Owen today?" she asked.
     I  told  her what happened at his house. I told  her  I
hadn't  left  his  side since then. I was on  the  verge  of
crying.
     Mom  said "You're fourteen. I don't expect you to  know
what to do in every situation. Just stay close."
     "Did  he take a nap today? I know he didn't sleep  part
of  the  night. Be sure and suggest it to him.  He  probably
isn't sure what to do about anything," she said.
     "No,  neither one of us has had a nap. After we  finish
eating, I'll suggest it to him," I said.
     "Oh,  yeah. One other thing. Owen is worried about  not
having any money. I told him you and Dad would take care it,
but  I think he might feel weird asking you for money. He'll
be  broke soon and as he said, he has no parents to give him
any more," I added.
     Mom  said "OK. We'll figure something out. He does know
he's part of this family now, right?"
     I  said "He knows how I feel. I don't know if he  knows
how you and Dad feel."
     "Let's go talk to him," she said.
     We walked into the den. Owen stood up and my mom hugged
him. "How are you holding up, Owen?" she asked him.
     "OK, I guess. I'm fine when Jamie's around," he said. I
smiled at him.
     Mom  said "I know this is all awkward for you, as  well
as incredibly painful. I know you're used to having your own
room..."  My  lord!  Where did that come  from?  I  thought.
They're still trying to separate us!
     Owen said "No, that's not a problem at all! That's been
great!  And I know Jamie agrees. We've had a lot of time  to
talk. As a matter of fact, we're closer now than we've  ever
been."
     My  mom laughed and said "I wouldn't have thought  that
was possible!"
     Mom  continued "Owen, Ed and I really hope you will  be
happy living here with us. I hope you won't wait until we're
your  legal guardians to feel you're part of the  family.  I
mean  we  love you at least as much as Jamie; what with  him
being so funny looking!"
     "And smelling bad," Owen contributed.
     I  said  "For  that,  there will  be  no  french  toast
tomorrow!" I said.
     Owen  made  a  pitiful  face and started  making  puppy
noises.
     "Well, maybe one piece," I said.
     "Anyway,   where  was  I...  Oh,  yes...if   you   need
something,  or  something is bothering you;  please  let  us
know.  If you aren't comfortable telling Ed or me, at  least
tell Jamie."
     She continued "You know, I held you when you were born.
Before  your  father, even. I think he  was  puking  in  the
bathroom. I thought you were the most beautiful baby  I  had
ever  seen...  I  was terribly jealous of Janice.  And  I've
loved  you ever since." She hugged him. They both had  tears
in their eyes.
     "Anyway, you boys finish eating. And then take  a  nap,
if  you  feel  like  it. I'll be working  on  your  parents'
obituary. After that I'm meeting Ed at the lawyer's  office.
Things are going to be crazy for the next few days. If  were
not back by supper time, we may eat out. You two may have to
fend for yourselves, but we've got the lasagna and plenty of
barbecue," she said.
     She left the den. Owen sat back down. I sat next to him
and hugged him. He didn't eat anymore.
     "Do you want to take a nap? I'll take one with you,"  I
said.
     "You  need to eat more first. You haven't finished even
one piece," Owen said to me.
     He seemed very subdued. Maybe it was the mention of the
obituary.
     I  finished the piece of pizza. "Owen, are you going to
eat anymore?" I asked him.
     "No, I'm not hungry," Owen said.
     I whispered to him "Owen, I'm worried."
     "About what?" he asked.
     "I'm  afraid if you don't eat more you won't be  strong
enough to have sex," I whispered.
     "Good point. I'm really eating for two now, aren't  I?"
he replied. I nodded with a grin.
     "Well,  I'll eat another slice if you will," he  smiled
at me, so I guessed he cheered up a little.
     We  each  took another slice. Owen wolfed his down  and
leered at me. "You mentioned sex, I believe."
     "I  think we better wait until Mom leaves," I  said.  I
finished my piece quickly, too.
     I  carried  the  pizza box into the  kitchen  and  Owen
followed me. I put it in the refrigerator.
     "You want something to drink?" I asked him.
     "Do you have any ice tea?" he asked.
     "No, I'll make some," I said.
     I  filled  a  large mug with water and put  it  in  the
microwave. Then I got the tea bags out of the pantry.
     Owen asked me "Are you going to make it from scratch?"
     Poor  Owen,  I  thought. I guess Aunt Janice  gave  him
instant. Owen needed me and I was glad!
     I  said "I think 'scratch' is when you pluck the leaves
yourself.  Would you rather have instant? We  have  it."  He
shook his head no.
     I  filled two glasses with ice and sat with him at  the
table.
     I  told him "My mother said I looked like a monkey when
I was born. But you were 'beauuuutiful'..."
     "Surely you didn't have a tail," Owen said.
     "I'm  not sure she knows the difference between monkeys
and apes. I bet she tried to trade me for you," I said.
     "My  mom was no idiot. There was no way she would trade
the  most  beauuuutiful baby in the world for a monkey  boy.
Besides I was already three and housebroken," he said.
     Then  he  asked me "Did your mom really say you  looked
like a monkey or did you make it up?"
     "Oh, yeah. I asked my dad if it was true and he said at
the  hospital my mom dropped me and I rolled under the  bed.
They  couldn't  get  to  me right  away  because  they  were
watching  the Home Shopping Network on the hospital  TV.  He
said  he  couldn't remember what I looked  like  before  she
dropped  me, but afterwards the dust bunnies I'd  picked  up
under  the bed looked like fur on me. He said they  were  so
excited  when  they left the hospital with me because  their
new  set of kitchen knives would be arriving in a few  days.
Then he said 'But we love you anyway, honey'."
     Owen was laughing so hard I thought he was going to  be
sick.
     The  microwave beeped. I put three tea bags in the  mug
and let them seep.
     Owen was red faced but he'd stopped laughing.
     He  whispered "I think you're the most beautiful person
in  the  world."  I looked at him, but he wasn't  joking.  I
started to take his hand, but then thought I better  not.  I
smiled at him, feeling absolutely great!
     I  poured  half of the brewed tea into each  glass  and
added a little water. I asked Owen if he wanted sugar.
     "Two spoons," he said.
     I  put  sugar in both glasses, stirred them, and handed
him one. We drank them in happy silence.
     Mom walked in the kitchen and asked about the pizza.  I
took  her veggie pizza out of the oven and got a plate  from
the  cabinet. I asked her how many pieces she wanted and she
said two. I put them on the plate and handed it to her.
     "Do you want something to drink? I asked her.
     "Just a bottle of water will be fine," she said. I  got
it out of the fridge and handed it to her.
     Then she read us the obituary and Owen looked like he'd
been hit by a truck.
     "I think we should go lie down," I told her.
     "Owen,  I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. But I didn't  want
to  have the obit in the paper without your OK. Is it OK? Is
there anything you want to add or change?" she asked him.
     Owen shook his head no.
     I  took  his hand and lead him to our bedroom.  He  was
crying  again. I knew why my mom did it, but it still pissed
me  off.  I could have told her what it would do to  him  if
she'd asked me. But...maybe it was the only way.
     When we got to our room, Owen walked to the window  and
stared  out it. I said "All you can see is the side  of  the
house you used to live in."
     Owen said "I loved that house. I was so happy. You were
right next door and I knew you were ready for our next great
adventure, whatever it was."
     He turned and looked at the bookshelf. He picked up The
Field  Guide to North American Reptiles. All the other field
guides  we'd studied were there on the shelf. He asked  "How
did you end up with all the field guides?"
     It  was  a  sad  story and I didn't want  to  make  him
sadder,  but he asked. I said "Don't you remember? When  you
moved you said I should keep them because your new house had
a  shopping center behind it and you could identify rats and
pigeons without...any...help."
     He  was crying again. "I was so, so happy here! Was  it
just me? Were you happy? Were you anywhere near as happy  as
I was?"
     I  said  "Owen, you were always the sun in my sky.  You
were  the  first thing I thought of when I woke up  and  the
last thing before I fell asleep. I loved my parents, but you
were my idol. And my best friend and my partner in crime."
     "So  they decided we were a little too happy!" he said.
"And they thought how much better things would be if we were
separated."
     I  sighed and said "I don't think they ever understood.
Did you hear my mom earlier saying you must hate being in my
room  when  you're used to having your own?  When  she  said
that,  I  thought  'They're still trying  to  separate  us'.
But...I guess most teenagers want their own room. We've just
never  been like most people. I'm thrilled I don't  have  my
own room anymore. Thrilled to be with you again."
     I  continued "We're approaching the age when we will be
making our choices for ourselves. And whether they think  we
should  date other people or have separate bedrooms or  have
as many friends as they think we should have won't matter."
     He leaned over, kissed me quickly and said "And I'll be
able to kiss you without worrying about being thrown out  of
the house."
     "Exactly!" I said. "And if they don't like us together,
I plan to ignore their opinions on the subject completely."
     I  walked  over  and closed the bedroom  door.  Then  I
walked  back  over  to Owen. I decided a change  of  subject
would  be good. I put my arms around him and asked  "Do  you
know why I love you?"
     "Because   I'm   charming,  witty,   and   irresistibly
handsome,  I  assume. That's what most people say  in  their
love notes."
     "You get a lot of love notes?"
     "Two  or three a day. That reminds me, I need to go  by
my love letter post office box. I'll let you carry them!"
     "Do you have your love 'notes' going to a love 'letter'
post office box?"
     "Of course not. They wouldn't all fit in one box!"
     "I forgot what I was going to say!"
     "You  were trying to work up the courage to ask  me  if
you could give me a blow job."
     "I was?"
     "That's  what most people ask me in their  love  notes.
The  love letters are a little more flowery. The letters say
things  like 'Your eyes are like limpid pools. Can I  please
give you a blow job?'"
     "Those  people could save a lot of money if  they  sent
emails."
     "Don't  be  tacky! I would never reply to  a  blow  job
request by email!"
     "Oh, I remember! I was going to tell you I love you for
your  money, and if you give me some, I'll give you  a  blow
job."
     "How much?"
     "I love you a lot because you've got a lot of money!"
     "No. How much for a blow job?"
     "One dollar and eight cents."
     "People usually pay me much more than that."
     "No! You pay me!"
     "Do  you  really  think millionaires carry  pennies  in
their pockets?"
     "I  don't know. You've never let me put my hand in your
pocket."
     Owen smiled at me and said "Go right ahead."
     I  put  my  hand in his pocket and squeezed  his  dick.
"Ooh, that's not a penny," I said. I began rubbing it.
     "See? No pennies..."
     Owen  wrapped his arms around me, bent down and  kissed
me, slowly.
     "Damn  you have me hot! But with your mom in the house,
we better postpone it. Let's take a nap," he said.
     I  lay down on my bed and he got on his. We were facing
each other. Owen said "You're in the wrong bed."
     I smiled at him and mouthed Mom.
     He  still  patted his bed. I walked over and  whispered
"Is this wise?"
     "I'll sleep better," Owen said.
     We'll leave the door open, I thought. Besides, Mom  saw
us sleeping together this morning and didn't seem to mind.
     I  got  on  his bed on my side. Owen wrapped  his  arms
around  me.  I could really get used to this, I  thought.  I
closed my eyes and soon fell asleep.
     A  soft noise woke me. It was my parents whispering.  I
kept  my eyes closed and tried to listen to see if they were
upset we were in the same bed.
     "Look at them! Don't they look sweet together?" my  mom
whispered.  "Look at Owen's face. He looks so  peaceful  and
contented."
     My mom continued "Oh, Ed. I do hope Jamie finds someone
he  loves as much as Owen. And who is as devoted to  him  as
Owen has always been."
     She  continued whispering "You know, in a way...it's  a
real shame Owen isn't gay too."
     Oh lord! I thought. Is she saying she wants Owen and me
to  be together! Maybe she just means so we'd have being gay
in common too...
     Dad said "Owen told me Sunday that he's gay too."
     My  mom made a squeaky noise. Was she glad? I heard the
bedroom door close.
     I thought about waking Owen, but decided it could wait.
I  wondered if Dad was telling her we'd already had sex.  If
so, that door might be flying open soon....
     I woke again at the sound of the doorbell. Then it rang
again. I got out of bed, pulling myself out of Owen's arms.
     Owen mumbled "Is that the door?"
     "Yeah," I said.
     I opened the bedroom door and called "Mom? Dad?"
     There  was  no answer. "I'm going to see who's  at  the
door" I told Owen. He got up too.
     I walked to the door and looked through the keyhole. It
was Elly and her husband, Coach Robinson.
     I  opened  the  door. Elly was holding a deli  tray  of
sandwiches.
     Elly  said  "Food  at times of grief.  It's  what  nice
people do. So we thought 'What the hell, we'll do it too'."
     That was Elly all right. I stood there.
     Elly said "It's traditional for the stupid teenagers to
invite the serial killers into the house, Jamie."
     I  laughed and held the door open for them. They walked
in.
     Owen  was right behind me. Elly handed the tray to  her
husband  and said to Owen "I'm so sorry, Owen. Your  parents
were  always  nice to me. They never once, to  my  knowledge
called  the police on me. Although that may only be  because
they  spent  so much time looking for you and Jamie  in  the
woods."
     Owen smiled and said "Thanks."
     Elly  pushed, pushed the tray at me and said "Put  them
in your pantry with your cupcakes" managing to spray me with
spit on the Ps, which I expected and the Cs, which I didn't.
Deliberately? Absolutely.
     Poor innocent Coach Robinson said "Hon, there's mayo on
some of those."
     "Oh,  Jamie knows exactly where I want him to  put  the
sandwiches,"  she  said. She got me  with  the  P  again.  I
wouldn't need a shower tonight.
     I  said  "I'll just put these in the fridge," and  took
them  in the kitchen. I had to clear space for them  in  the
refrigerator.
     I  walked  back into the hall. They had moved into  the
living room. Elly was telling Owen a story about how she had
accidentally  given  his dad flat tires on  two  consecutive
days. It involved a pin the tail on the donkey poster and  a
new  set  of  darts that she had liberated from her  uncle's
house. I didn't really believe it, but Owen was smiling.  So
that was good.
     Elly  is  a very generous person and I'm sure  she  was
doing this to bring a smile to Owen's face.
     I said "Would you like something to drink?"
     Elly  said  "I'll  have a Mai Tai.  Better  make  it  a
double. And put it in a to go cup because I'm driving." Then
she  said "And I don't like those little umbrellas they  put
in them so I'll have a little yellow slicker in mine, if you
have one."
     We  all  laughed  at that a while. Then Coach  Robinson
said "What was that about the cupcakes?"
     Elly said "This morning monkey boy here..." I stuck  my
bottom lip out to Owen. "Called the school office to say  he
wouldn't  be in. I was pretending to be nice. Again.  And  I
said  we were all praying for Owen and Jamie's family.  Then
the little rat..."
     "Hey, 'monkey'!" I said.
     "Right,  the smelly monkey says 'Heaven holds  a  place
for those who pray, Mrs. Robinson'."
     Owen and Coach looked mystified.
     I said "How could you smell me over the phone?"
     Elly looked at them and said "From the song?"
     "What song?" Owen and Coach said together.
     Elly said "Mrs. Robinson, of course. So then I said  he
was  a rotten little fucker and I was going to come over and
beat the crap out of him. And he says 'Put it in your pantry
with your cupcakes'. They both laughed.
     "So I decided to try and pretend to be nice again, so I
said  'Please,  Jamie. What do I have to do to  get  you  to
never  recite another line of Mrs. Robinson to  me?  And  he
said..." And here Elly pointed to me.
     I sang "We'd like to help you learn to help yourself!"
     Owen and Coach laughed and Owen high fived me.
     Elly  said "Where are your parents, Jamie? You  haven't
finally run them off, have you?"
     "I guess they're at the lawyer's office," I told her.
     I  said  "You know, my dad still refers to you  as  the
'Spit Ball Queen'."
     "Of course! I am undefeated monkey boy," Elly said.
     Elly turned to Frank. She said "When I used to baby-sit
for Jamie, we would sit around and do this for hours. It was
the  most  fun...wait...it was  the  only  fun  I  ever  had
babysitting."
     She  continued "One evening, Jamie enacted this version
of  The Grinch Who Stole Christmas using a Darth Vader  doll
to play the Grinch. The story was a really weird mix of Star
Wars and Seuss. In Jamie's version, instead of stealing  the
toys, the Vader/Grinch sent them to Alderan and then blew up
the  planet. Max was a little robot who said `beep'. He even
had the heavy breathing down pat. Before he even finished, I
was laughing so hard my bubble gum went down my windpipe. If
I  wasn't so evil, I might have died. Jamie said he knew the
Heimlich  Maneuver and stomped on my foot..." Ok, that  part
was not true, but the rest was.
     Elly  continued  "When  Jamie's  parents  got  home,  I
offered to pay his father for staying with him."
     I don't know if that was true, but we did always have a
blast.
     We   were   all  laughing  and  Owen  and  Coach   were
hysterically laughing.
     "Well  we've  got to run," Elly said. "We're  going  to
visit Frank's mother in prison."
     I looked at Coach. He said "She's not in prison. It's a
retirement village."
     Elly  said "Then why do the doors only unlock from  the
outside?"
     Coach said "You should be nice to my mom! She's the one
who convinced me to marry you."
     Coach told us "On our first date, five minutes into it,
Elly  said  something... I won't say what, because  I  blush
easily..."  we laughed. He continued "I started laughing  so
hard  that,  unlike  Elly's gum,  I  spit  out  part  of  my
margarita right onto Elly's dress."
     "Now,  most women would be shocked, or angry  about  me
messing up their dress, much less spitting on them. But Elly
sat there with this little satisfied smirk." I was giggling.
It was so Elly.
     Coach  continued "The next time I talked to my  mom,  I
told  her  about  the date. She said 'Son,  some  women  are
beautiful  and  some are great cooks, but a  woman  you  can
vomit  on  who  still smiles at you, that's  the  woman  for
you'."
     We laughed and no one said anything for a while.
     Elly stood up and took Coach's hand. "We've really  got
to  go," Elly said. Then she said "Owen, we are all thinking
of  you. I'm so glad you have somewhere you can go at a time
like  this where you can have a laugh." Then she added  "And
if  you buy one of those hepa hospital masks, you won't even
have to smell him."
     They walked to the door and walked out. I waved as they
got in the car and then closed the door.
     I said to Owen, "Oh...I forgot to get her her Mai Tai!"
     Owen hugged me and then kissed me.
     Then  he  said "I'm hiding if she ever comes  back."  I
laughed.   Owen  continued  "Being  married  to  her   would
be...strange!"
     I  said  "She  was  laying it  on  heavy  to  keep  you
laughing. She isn't always 'on' like that."
     "Elly  loves to make people laugh. The last  thing  she
would  want  to do is make someone cry," I said.  "I'm  sure
that's why she didn't reminisce more about your parents."
     I  said  "Let's go to my bedroom. There's  something  I
need to tell you."
     I told him about what I heard my mom and dad say during
our nap.
     Owen said "We'll that sounds great! But it doesn't mean
she's willing to allow us to have sex." He smiled at me  and
said "It definitely sounds like they will both be glad about
us, at least eventually."
     Owen closed the bedroom door and got in bed with me. We
kissed for a while. He rubbed one of his hands along with my
side and my thigh.
     When  we  were taking a breather, I smiled at  him  and
said "Do you want go in the bathroom?"
     He  grinned at me. Then he got up and took my hand.  We
walked into the bathroom and he locked the bathroom door.  I
knelt  on  the bathroom mat. He walked up to me  and  slowly
unzipped his zipper. He stared at me and said "Is this  what
you want, Jamie?" I stared at him and nodded. "Will you jerk
off for me? I want to watch you do it."
     He  reached in his pants and pulled his cock and  balls
out.  "Do  you like this, baby?" he asked, pointing  to  his
cock.
     I said "Owen...I absolutely love it!"
     He  was  hard. He pulled my face to him and rubbed  his
stiff prick around on my face. Then he started stroking  it.
He said "Do you like watching me do this, Jamie?"
     I  nodded, but kept watching his dick. He was  stroking
it  faster. After about a minute he said "You want my  come,
baby?"
     "Oh, yeah!"
     "It  won't  be  long Jamie until I give  you  what  you
want."
     I groaned. It was so hot. I reached in my pants quickly
and  pulled out my cock. I started to stroke it, but thought
I would come too soon. So I stopped.
     The head of Owen's beautiful cock was wet. I reached my
tongue out and licked it. He kept stroking. He kept stroking
a couple of minutes.
     "I'm close, Jamie," he said. Then he groaned again  and
placed  the head of his cock on my tongue. He said "Here  it
is, baby!" He moaned loudly and his come began spurting into
my  mouth. There were five spurts which hit the back  of  my
mouth.
     When  it  started  to trickle on my tongue,  Owen  said
"Damn fucking damn. That was too fucking hot!"
     Then  he said "Jamie! Keep your mouth open. I want  you
to  see  what  I'm seeing. Owen walked over to the  bathroom
door and unlocked it. Then he went into the bedroom. He came
back in the bathroom with his cell phone. His dick was still
stiff  and  swinging as he walked. He walked up  to  me  and
placed  the  head of his cock on my tongue  again.  Then  he
started taking pictures. He was moaning and then he said "So
hot. So absolutely fucking hot."
     He  backed up and then he started taking pictures of my
open mouth.
     Finally he said "You can swallow it now, Jamie."
     I  swallowed it. I could really taste his load.  And  I
liked  it. Owen was grinning at me. I grinned back. I  stood
up.
     He said "Did you enjoy that as much as I did?"
     I said "Oh, yeah. It was great!"
     He  started  looking  at the photos  on  his  cell.  He
pointed out the second one. It was incredible. His dick  was
all  glossy  and was resting on my tongue, over  his  pooled
semen.  He  said  "Is that a great shot or what.  I  flipped
through  the other pictures. Owen knelt in front of  me  and
said "Why don't you enjoy those photos while I take care  of
you."
     He  leaned in and began sucking my cock. Looking at the
photos,  well,  all  I  can  say  was  three  of  them  were
incredible hot. It didn't take more than a minute or so  for
me  to  be close to shooting. I looked at one of the photos.
It  was my open mouth filled with Owen's OWEN'S come! And  I
came, boy did I!
     Owen  sucked me until I was soft. Then we both put  our
dicks away.
     Owen  leaned down to me and pressed his mouth to  mine.
He kissed me slowly. He moved his tongue slowly around in my
mouth.
     Finally he pulled back and I said "I love you, Owen."
     "And I love you, Jamie."
     Owen said "Now let's delete these."
     He started deleting the photos.
     I said "Are you crazy? Those were incredible!"
     He  said "No, the incredible part is that we can do  it
again whenever we want!"
     "Wow! That's true!" I said. We could! We really could!
     We  walked back in the bedroom. I said "Do you want  to
figure out how to arrange our stuff? I don't know if we need
two  computers in here. Do you want to share one? Or if  you
use  your laptop in bed, we don't need desk space for it.  I
don't know how you use it. What do you think?"
     Owen  said "It really doesn't matter to me.  I  say  we
leave the desktop PC on the desk. Then either one of us  can
use the laptop in bed, if they need to."
     "I  don't  plan  to keep secrets from  you,  Jamie.  So
sharing computers is fine with me," Owen told me.
     "You  know,  I'd  really like to find a  place  for  my
weights.  I don't plan to stay on the football team,  but  I
have to stay in shape for my man," Owen said, winking at me.
     "You are really dropping off the team?" I asked him.
     "Yeah. Why stay on it? I'd rather be with you. I  don't
have to worry about my father not liking it. It was his idea
I  try  out  for the team in the first place. I never  would
have done it on my own," he told me.
     "Well,  I can't say I'm sorry. More time with me sounds
great to me!"
     I  said  "I don't think there's any way we can  squeeze
the weights in here. Even if we had only one bed."
     Owen   said   "No,  they  take  up  a  lot  of   space.
Although...if I worked out in here, I could work out in just
a jockstrap."
     Hmm.  Owen  hot  and  sweaty.  Muscles  bulging.  In  a
jockstrap. My dick got so hard.
     I  said "Maybe we could sleep in the hall," and we both
laughed.
     Owen  said "Speaking of sweaty clothes, I need  to  get
some washed."
     He gathered them up and I took him to the laundry room.
"We  can put these all in one load," I said as we loaded the
washer.
     One  of the things he was washing was his jockstrap.  I
took  it  and  said "Once we get this out of the  dryer,  we
should  really  have you try it on. Just  to  make  sure  it
hasn't shrunk." I grinned at him.
     "Yeah.  That's  really  so  nice  of  you  to   be   so
concerned."
     "I'm just a nice guy. What can I say?"
     Before I added it to the washer, I took a deep sniff of
it and closed my eyes. Holy fuck! It smelled good!
     Owen got behind me. He nuzzled my ear and said "Do  you
like that Jamie? Do you like the way your lover smells?"
     My lover. My lover. It sounded great and it was true!
     "Owen, I love everything about you. So much that it's a
little scary to me."
     "There's nothing to be scared of, love. I love  you  so
much."
     He  continued "Even if your parents tried  to  keep  us
apart,  we  would still be lovers. And we will be  together!
Hopefully, we won't have to hide it."
     I  sighed. I was really so happy. And then I  felt  bad
about  that. Should I be happier than I've ever been  in  my
life  the  day  after my aunt and uncle - Owen's  parents  -
died?  I didn't say anything to Owen about it. I thought  he
didn't need me to remind him his parents were dead. I didn't
want to upset him, to hurt him.
     Looking  back at that time, I cringe a little  thinking
of  how  often we had sex. Shouldn't we have been  grieving?
Sad?  Was  I keeping him from grieving for his parents?  Was
that bad?
     But I wasn't using sex to distract him. When he held me
like he was doing, I couldn't think of anything but him. And
in  those  days  right  after  the  tragedy,  the  sex  just
happened, and happened, and happened!
     But  actually, not right then. After we got the  washer
going  Owen said "How's Amigo? Do you still have him?" Amigo
is the box turtle.
     I said "We still have him. He's half yours, you know."
     "Is  he still living in the flower bed next to our  old
house?"
     "Yeah.  You want to go see him?" I asked. I  looked  at
the clock. It was 5:30. He might be up and about, I thought.
     We  walked  outside and went over to the  side  of  the
house. Owen stared at his old house.
     "Do the Jenkins still live there?" he asked.
     "No,"  I said. "They sold it a couple of years ago.  An
older couple, the Baileys bought it."
     "What are they like?" he asked me.
     I looked to see if their car was there. It wasn't.
     "They're  OK.  I  don't see much of  them.  I  do  know
insanity runs in the family."
     Owen laughed and asked "Why do you say that?"
     "One  day  Mrs.  Bailey saw I was out here  working  in
Amigo's  flower  bed.  She said she could  help  me  get  it
looking beautiful. I didn't want to tell her it was designed
to  house Amigo, but wouldn't you know it, he came wandering
out  from  under his bush. Curious about the crazy  lady,  I
guess.  She almost shrieked. It was a sort a gasp/shriek.  I
said he was my pet and he lived in this flower bed. When her
hysteria had passed she asked 'Is that a box turtle?' I said
yes. She decided to share her wisdom to me and said 'They're
very destructive, you know!'"
     Owen burst out laughing.
     I  said "I know, can you imagine how hard he would have
to  work to destroy something? Anyway I told her I'd had him
for  years and he hadn't destroyed anything yet. She  looked
skeptical.  Then  she  said 'You know, those  are  dandelion
weeds  in that bed!' I said 'I know, I planted them for  the
turtle'.  Her  eyes bugged out and she said 'You  know  they
spread!' She turned around and went back in her house."
     "Another time she asked me if I had any other  pets.  I
said  'No, not right now'. For a while she started  bringing
me photos of kitties from animal shelters..."
     Owen  said "She doesn't know about Snowbell! Like  your
parents would ever let you have another cat!" Snowball was a
kitty from hell. "Does she still do it?"
     "No.   We're   really  not  speaking.  In  an   amazing
coincidence,  their lawn got a dandelion  infestation  that,
purely by chance mind you, was worse right over here closest
to  Amigo's flower bed. She complained to my mom who made me
dig up Amigo's dandelions. Amigo still refers to that day as
'The Day They Took My Dandelions Away'. He was depressed but
I  guess  he's  coming out of it if he's  humming  The  Star
Spangled Banner again."
     Owen was laughing and I laughed too. Then he said "It's
really  been  hard on you, hasn't it; being a single  parent
and  having to raise a destructive thug all by yourself. But
now I'm here to help."
     I smiled at him. We turned to the flower bed and I said
"Come on out Amigo. I've got a nice juicy worm for you."
     Owen said "Please! Don't lie to our child!"
     Amigo didn't show himself. I went and got the hose  and
turned  the water on. I sprinkled the flower bed for  a  bit
and  then went and turned the water off. By the time  I  got
back, Amigo was walking around.
     "He  looks exactly the same." Owen said. "I was  afraid
your poor parenting might show."
     "Hey.  I'm not a poor parent. All the plants  in  there
are  edible and I give him prepared food with vitamins twice
a  week.  And  mealworms every once in a  while.  There  are
plenty of bugs and slugs in there too."
     "I bet the Baileys love that too."
     "I wish you still lived next door," I said with a sigh.
     Owen said "I live in your house. Are you already trying
to get me out of it?"
     I  laughed  and  said  "I meant I wish  you  had  never
moved."
     "You and me both."
     I  asked  him "Did your parents ever tell you  why  you
were  moving?  Did  they say they didn't want  you  to  hang
around me?"
     "No,  Jamie. I told you; they loved you. Mom would tell
us things about you, about school; that your mom told her."
     "My  dad was really trying to sell me on the fact  that
the  house had a pool. He kept saying how much fun we'd  all
have. All I could see was that it was too far from you."
     "I'll  tell you, the very first time I went to see  the
house,  my mom asked me how I liked it. I told her  I  hated
it.  She asked why. I told her it was too far away from you.
She  said  it  was closer to the high school. Like  I  cared
about  that  at all! I mean come on! Does any  kid  judge  a
house by how close it is to school? `Please mom, let's  move
here.  It's a block closer to school!' Well we moved anyway,
which showed me how much my opinion was worth to them."
     "We  moved and I was seriously depressed and alone.  My
dad  told me I was turning into a loner! Me! They turned  me
into  a  loner as far as I was concerned. I was never  alone
before.  Remember  how, even when one of us  was  sick,  our
parents couldn't keep us away from each other.
     "My  dad  told me to get out and make friends with  the
kids  in  the  new  neighborhood. Well,  guess  what?  There
weren't any, or any my age at least. A lot of the homes were
owned by older people like the Baileys and we both know  how
much  fun they are! There were two high school age kids next
door, but they thought I was a creep and told me so whenever
they saw me.
     "Eventually,  I  just  started  wandering  around   the
neighborhood; wondering what you were doing.
     "I guess my parents assumed that one friend was just as
good as another. If I didn't have you around, the first  kid
I ran into would be just dandy as a replacement.
     "Of  course, I learned over the years that that  wasn't
true.  I  never  believed it anyway. You  know,  I  actually
pretended I had friends to my parents. I was afraid of  what
they'd do if they found out I didn't. I guess it got to be a
habit.  I  know I acted like I had friends even in front  of
you.  I guess part of me was ashamed to admit I didn't  have
any friends any more, even to you."
     God!  This  was painful for me to hear. My heart  ached
for  him.  I didn't have it so bad. I knew I didn't  have  a
best  friend  anymore, but I was still having a  good  time,
sometimes. I had people like Elly in my life, and there were
still  kids  I  knew  in  the neighborhood.  We  did  things
together  occasionally. None of them were people I  confided
in though. We just did things together.
     Just  then  a car pulled up in front of our  house.  It
parked  along the street. I walked up to it and a  lady  got
out of the car. I'd never seen her before.
     "Are you Jamie?" she asked me.
     "Yes."
     "My  name  is  Susan. I work with your mother.  Is  she
home?"
     "No.  I  think she's still at the lawyer's  office."  I
told her.
     She walked up to me and hugged me.
     Then she said to Owen "Are you Owen?" Owen nodded.
     She said "I'm so sorry for your loss.
     "I  know at times like this you don't have time or feel
like  cooking, so I brought a casserole and an  apple  pie."
She  got  them  out  of  the car. She handed  me  the  heavy
casserole  and  Owen  the  apple pie.  And  him  bigger  and
everything!
     Then  she said "Tell your mom I sent my love. I've  got
to dash though. I'm picking up my son."
     I  said  I'd tell her and said thanks. She got back  in
her  car.  I  waved,  which  was  difficult  to  do  with  a
casserole, and she drove off.
     "Let's get these inside." I said to Owen.
     We walked back in the house and went to the kitchen.  I
opened the casserole. It smelled pretty good, but there  was
clearly `mystery meat' in it.
     We put the pie and the casserole in the fridge.
     I  said "As long as we woke up our child, I suppose  we
should feed it."
     I  got  a leaf of romaine lettuce out of the fridge.  I
sprinkled some powdered vitamins on it that I kept under the
kitchen sink. Then I took it out to Amigo.
     He  tore  into it and I thought, damn! I wish Owen  had
taken  him  when he moved. He would have had  at  least  one
`Amigo' with him at the new house.
     I went back in the house. As soon as I closed the door,
Owen took me in his arms.
     I  said "Hi! My name is Bob. I think you're very  cute.
Would you like to go count my tattoos?"
     Owen  laughed and said "You're a terrible liar  Bob.  I
happen to know you don't have any tattoos."
     "Ha!  A  lot you know. There's a bar code on the bottom
of  my right foot. My parents put it there. They were having
a  garage sale and they put bar codes on everything. I think
they were disappointed they didn't sell everything."
     Owen  laughed some more. I was determined to make  sure
Owen  had  a  better  time now that he lived  with  us,  and
laughter and blow jobs were bound to help!
     My cell phone rang. It was Mom.
     "Hi, Mom."
     "Hi,  honey.  We're on the way home. Will you  put  the
lasagna in the oven for dinner, and make a salad to go  with
it, if you don't mind," she said.
     "No  problem, Mom. Elly dropped dropped by and  brought
some sandwiches and then a lady named Susan from your office
brought a casserole. We've got plenty of food!" I said.
     "Is Susan still there?"
     "No, she said she had to pick up her son. Who is she?"
     "She's  my boss. You've heard me mention her a  hundred
times!"
     I  guess I wasn't paying attention... I knew my mom had
a boss, but I didn't remember her name.
     "Honey,  I've  got  my mind set on lasagna.  I've  been
thinking about it all afternoon. I never did eat any  pizza.
We can have the casserole tomorrow.
     "How's Owen, honey?"
     "He's OK, Mom," I said.
     "Love you! See you soon!" She hung up.
     I told Owen I was going to make a salad. He was sitting
at the kitchen table.
     I got started on the salad and said "Hey, Owen?"
     "Yeah, Jamie."
     "I love you," I told him.
     He walked behind me and put his arms around me. He said
"I love you too, Jamie. With all my heart."
     Salad making paused while he gave me a long, slow kiss.
     He  sat  back down. I went to the oven and  pulled  the
pizza  out. It didn't look very good, having been  in  there
all  afternoon. My mom had turned the oven off though. I put
the pizza in the refrigerator. Then I turned the oven on.
     I went back to finishing the salad.
     "Owen, I sure wish I knew what Mom and Dad are going to
say about 'us'."
     "I really have no idea, Jamie. It didn't seem to bother
your father much, but I don't know how your mother feels. It
sounds like she doesn't have a problem with the idea  of  us
as  a couple. Whether that means she's willing to allow  her
fourteen  year old son to have an active sex life,  I  don't
know."
     "What will we do if she forbids us from having sex?"  I
wondered.
     Owen  said  "I guess we'll do our best to do what  they
tell  us, if that's what you want to do. If they tell us  we
can't  fuck,  that's one thing. I think we could  live  with
that  until you're older. If they tell us we can't have  sex
at all... I don't know if I could do that. Could you?"
     "No, I agree with you," I said. "Dad didn't tell us  to
stop though, so maybe it won't come to that."
     "I'll tell you one thing, Jamie. I'm not letting anyone
keep  us apart. In a year I'll be eighteen and I guess  I'll
have some money. I don't know how that will work. Whether it
will  be  a trust fund or what. Anyway, I should be able  to
get a place of my own. What we did there, they wouldn't have
to know."
     My  eyes teared up at the thought of Owen moving out of
the house.
     "Owen,  that would be like losing you again! How  often
would I be able to see you? Would I have to sneak out to see
you?"
     Owen  walked up to me and held me. "Jamie, I don't want
to  move away. I just meant we wouldn't always have to  live
by  their rules. "Don't worry baby. I plan to stick by  your
side."
     Then Owen said "Jamie, do you have any candles?"
     Candles?  I  thought.  I  knew I'd  seen  some  scented
candles  somewhere, but I couldn't remember where. I thought
about  it  for  a second. "Look in the bottom shelf  of  the
china cabinet in the dining room."
     Owen left the room. I wondered why he wanted candles.
     He  came back in the kitchen a couple of minutes later.
"Did you find them?" I asked.
     "Yeah, I did. Thanks."
     "Why do you want candles?"
     "Jamie, come over here a minute." I walked over to him.
     He  pushed  his chair back and said "Here,  sit  on  my
lap." That sounded like fun and it was!
     Owen  said "I thought that tonight, after your  parents
go  to  bed, we might lay a couple of blankets down  in  the
bathroom.  Light  a  candle  or  two,  and  then  make  slow
passionate  love in there. No bed will be squeaking  and  we
can lock the door."
     I leaned over and pressed my mouth to his. "That sounds
absolutely  wonderful!" I told him. "As long as  my  parents
don't rain on our parade."
     "Yeah,  well...maybe  they  won't  bring  it  up.  It's
possible your father hasn't told your mother everything. And
if  they  do forbid us from having sex, we can still  go  in
their  and kiss. I wouldn't mind spending an hour thoroughly
kissing you!"
     I  said  "That's true! It would still be very romantic.
Although if you kiss me for an hour, I will probably come in
my underwear!"
     "That's easily prevented, Jamie. I'll just make sure  I
remove your underwear first." He nibbled on my ear.
     Boy,  did  I  want Owen's cock at that  point,  but  my
parents  were  on their way home. I got up and finished  the
salad.
     "Owen, this morning...when you fucked me...I loved  it!
But I've been wondering... Do you want me to fuck you?"
     "If you want to, Jamie."
     "No.  What I mean is do you want me to fuck you? Is  it
something you want?"
     Owen  paused before saying "I would have to say I would
only enjoy it if I thought it was making you happy. It's not
something I've been hoping would happen..."
     I said "I don't think I could even do it. I don't think
I  could keep my dick hard. The thought of your dick  inside
me makes me crazy with lust. The thought of mine in you...it
just seems...weird."
     Owen said "Baby, that's because we're perfect together!
Absolutely perfect! I want to bury my cock in you as  deeply
as  possible. As often as possible. I want my come  in  you.
And you want that too, don't you?"
     "Oh,  yeah!  That is so awesome! That  we  are  so...in
sync."
     I  put  the  tray of lasagna in the oven. It came  with
garlic bread and I put it in the oven too. Then I made  some
tea for dinner.
     We could hear a car pulling into the garage.
     My  dad came into the house. "Hi guys! How are you  two
doing?"
     We both said "Fine."
     "Man, am I bushed! We've got lots of news, but I'm  off
to get a shower first. Jamie, grab me a beer will you?"
     I  took  one out of the fridge and removed the  cap.  I
handed it to him.
     "See  you  boys in a bit. Your mom should be  here  any
second." He left the room.
     "He's  in a good mood," I said. "Maybe that means  good
news for us."
     We  heard Mom's car and a minute later she was  in  the
house. She walked into the kitchen. "Hello guys!" She leaned
down and kissed my cheek. Then she kissed Owen's cheek. Owen
looked  a little surprised. I thought `Well, she's not  mad.
But maybe it's because she didn't know everything yet'.
     She asked Owen "Are you holding up OK, Owen?"
     "Yeah, I'm doing OK. Better, when Jamie's around."
     "Yes...well we'll talk about that later."
     Then she said "The memorial service for your parents is
Thursday at 10 am."
     Owen looked stricken. No surprise there. I was glad the
service was sooner rather than later. There was no doubt  in
my mind that it would be a rough day for all of us.
     "Do you have a suit you can wear?" Mom asked him.
     "Not one that still fits," Owen said.
     Mom sighed. "Jamie's doesn't fit anymore either. That's
the problem with guys your age. A suit lasts about a year. I
guess actually it's a problem with the suits, not you!"
     "Do  you  want  to  buy a suit for the  service?"  Owen
looked at me and I shrugged.
     "No,  I  guess  not. I probably wouldn't ever  wear  it
again."
     "Do  you  have  dress pants and a nice  shirt  you  can
wear?" Mom asked him.
     "Yes. I brought them over yesterday."
     "That will work. If you have black pants, wear them."
     "Jamie,  wear your black dress pants and a white  long-
sleeved shirt."
     Owen asked "Is the service at St Catherine's?"
     "Yes, it is."
     "I smell the lasagna. I haven't eaten anything all day.
I'm starved!" she said.
     "How did it go with the lawyer?" I asked her.
     "It  went well. Everything is in order and the will  is
very specific. No one is expected to contest any part of it.
Owen is named as the beneficiary of everything."
     She  continued "Owen, your mom had a one million dollar
life  insurance policy. Your father had a two million dollar
policy.   In  addition,  Jack  had  a  one  million   dollar
accidental death policy. As you know your dad worked  for  a
life  insurance company, which is probably why they  had  so
much coverage."
     Wow!  Holy shit! And Wow!! I looked at Owen. He  looked
like  he  didn't  know what to make of it. It  was  kind  of
inconceivable, at least to me. From the look on Owen's face,
to him too.
     Mom   continued  "Your  parents  also  had  significant
amounts  of  savings and investments. Right  now  the  grand
total is around nine million dollars."
     Owen asked "How will that work? Will it go into a trust
fund?  Will  I  get it in cash? I don't know anything  about
investments."
     Amen  to that! I thought. It's not something they teach
in school.
     Mom  said "Well, you're definitely not going to  get  a
check  for  nine million dollars. The money that's  invested
can  remain  where  it  is. That's what  your  uncle  and  I
recommend for now. A financial adviser can work with us when
you feel the need to change, or even want to investigate the
alternatives. I'm sure your parents picked their investments
carefully,  so  leaving the money where it  is  for  now  is
probably  best. We have money invested in some of  the  same
things. The savings and life insurance are yours to do  with
as  you wish for now. It will probably be a couple of  weeks
before it all starts rolling in.
     "Obviously you'll want to put the money somewhere.  You
aren't  going  to want four million dollars  in  a  checking
account.  A financial advisor can make recommendations,  and
we'll meet with one.
     "Now,  if  you  should decide to do something  immature
like buy Jamie a 24 carat gold plated Cadillac that he can't
even  drive;  as  your guardians, we would feel  obliged  to
object and try to block it."
     "Owen,  she  didn't say anything about  a  Porsche!"  I
added. We all laughed.
     Mom  continued "You understand that part,  right?  Once
you are older and on your own, it will all be up to you."
     "Oh,  yeah. I understand completely. To be honest, I've
never  dealt with money. It's kind of terrifying.  I  really
want your help!"
     Mom looked pleased. "We'll do that."
     "Now,  I'd  like  to  talk to Jamie  alone  for  a  few
minutes.  Owen will you wait in your bedroom?"  Owen  walked
out of the room.
     Mom  turned to me and stared at me. "You are so  young.
But  in  some  ways, you are mature beyond your years.  I've
never known you to do anything foolish.
     "Your   father   and  I  have  been   discussing   your
relationship  with  Owen. As a matter of fact,  we've  spent
hours today talking about it. Part of me is very happy about
it.  On the other hand, because of your age, I feel I should
insist   the  two  of  you  put  a  hold  on  any   physical
relationship  until you are older. But  then  there  is  the
matter of Jack and Janice's deaths. Owen just lost them.  He
needs  you, he really does. Your father and I are afraid  of
seeming  to  take  you away from him too. You  are  probably
filling a void in his life right now and that is a very good
thing.  I  really wish you were at least two or three  years
older before starting a physical relationship.
     "I  don't want you to think I don't approve of you  and
Owen  being in love. Ever since your father and I  began  to
suspect you were gay, a little voice in my head kept  saying
`Wouldn't  it be great if Jamie and Owen...'. You've  always
been  devoted  to Owen and he has been to you. Sometimes  to
the point that it irritated his parents.
     "I  don't  know  how many times I saw the  two  of  you
konked  out on the sofa, leaning against each other.  And  I
remember once going looking for you for dinner. You and Owen
were  sitting  on the bench in the back yard.  His  arm  was
wrapped around you and the two of you were watching a sunset
together.  I got goose bumps. Looking back on memories  like
that,  it seems inevitable. And I'm happy about it. I really
am. I...just...wish...you...were...older!
     "You  know (or maybe you don't), most parents  spend  a
lot  of  time worrying about who their children will  marry.
Will they love them? Will they be faithful? Will it last?
     "Then  there is the whole sexually transmitted  disease
issue. When I was in high school a friend of mine went on  a
date  with  another  student. They  kissed.  She  contracted
herpes. No sex, just a kiss. She was devastated. She  was  a
responsible person and felt obligated to tell boys who asked
her  out that she had herpes. Every one of them as far as  I
know changed their minds.
     "And  that's  just herpes. As you know there  are  much
worse  things out there. Who knows what you could  catch  on
your  first date! With Owen I don't have to worry about  any
of that.
     "When all this is considered, I still think you are too
young.  But  I'm  not going to make Owen any more  miserable
than he already is.
     "Now I need to talk to Owen alone. Will you get him for
me? And make yourself scarce."
     Well,  she  wasn't  furious,  which  surprised  me.   I
understood  what she was talking about, all the  points  she
had  raised. When she said she wasn't going to make Owen any
more miserable, it sounded like she would let us continue. I
was really excited, but I was afraid to get my hopes up yet.
     I  went and got Owen. I smiled at him and told him  Mom
wanted to see him. Owen went to see her. I closed my bedroom
door, but hid in the hall to listen.
     Mom  said  "Owen. I know the last few  days  have  been
awful..."
     Owen said "No, they haven't, not completely. Parts have
been terrible...awful, but thanks to Jamie, I'm happier than
I've ever been." Whoa! I thought.
     "Owen,  your parents were under the distinct impression
you were straight. Are you saying now that you aren't?"
     "No.  My parents were wrong. I tried to be straight.  I
thought that would make them happy. I thought it was what  I
was  supposed  to be. I had sex once with a girl.  I  didn't
enjoy it and really had no desire to do it again."
     "This   is  a  very  traumatic  time  for  you.  You're
emotionally vulnerable. Are you absolutely sure you  are  in
romantic  love  with  Jamie? Are you sure  you  just  aren't
latching  on to him to keep from feeling alone, or  to  keep
you from being overwhelmed by your parents' deaths?"
     Owen said "Absolutely."
     "Did  you  come to feel this way before or  after  your
parents died?"
     "I  realized  it  late Saturday, so it  was  before.  I
realized  then that Jamie was everything I was missing.  But
I've  always loved Jamie. You know that. It's not  a  sudden
realization.  I just finally allowed myself to  be...myself.
And  suddenly  I  was happy. I do feel really  guilty  about
being  so  happy when my parents have just died,  but  I  am
happy.  Every  time  I look at Jamie, I  want  to  sing!"  I
couldn't  see  Mom's face, but that brought a big  smile  to
mine.
     "Jamie,  I can see your shadow. You've never been  very
good at hiding. Come on in here."
     I walked into the room.
     "I  love  both of you. And I won't lie. I wish so  much
that you were older, Jamie. But pulling you apart was almost
impossible  when you were little. It would probably  take  a
bomb now." I giggled.
     "I  don't want to see anything. At all. Ever. I will be
extremely uncomfortable. I will be very unhappy and  I  will
make you pay! That means no making out anywhere in the house
besides  your  bedroom.  With  the  door  closed!  This   is
seriously  creeping  me  out just talking  about  it.  If  I
actually saw it, I would probably lose it and grab  an  axe!
I'm not joking! Also, no french kissing outside the bedroom.
Light  kisses with closed mouths are OK. Oh! And  no  noises
either. Absolutely none!
     "Jamie,  you are fourteen. You are in grade  school.  I
don't  have to tell you that you can't talk about  your  gay
lover at school, do I?" I laughed.
     "No, Mom. Although we won't get any wedding gifts if no
one knows."
     "Ha, ha, ha" she said.
     "Owen, you're older. I can trust you not to mention  it
can't I?"
     "Yes,  Aunt  Diane.  It's not the  kind  of  thing  you
mention  in high school unless you want to get beat  up,  or
worse."
     "Hmm. That's probably true, sadly."
     "Well,  that's  about it then. Owen, do you  think  you
feel up to returning to school on Friday?"
     "Yes. I'm ready to go back."
     "Thursday is going to be horrible. Believe me. We  will
all  be quivering piles of misery by the end of the day,  so
it may be you'll change your mind. It's up to you though.  I
don't want you to go back until you're sure you're ready. No
one  will  think anything at all of you being  out  a  week,
considering the circumstances."
     Mom  said  "Oh, one more thing. Owen, do you think  you
will want to keep your house? It's yours now."
     Owen said "Absolutely not. I always hated it."
     Mom  said "Maybe this weekend we can go through it,  if
you're feeling up to it; and find out what you want to keep.
We  can put things in storage until you get a place of  your
own. I mean, when you're older."
     Owen shocked me and said "Actually, I'd like to buy the
house  next door for us to live in. The one we used to  live
in. I don't mean right now, of course."
     My  mom got tears in her eyes. So did I. She said "That
would be great Owen. For all of us."
     Owen  hugged  Mom and said "Thanks, Aunt Diane.  Thanks
for  bringing me into your home and especially for  allowing
me  to  be with Jamie. I love him with all my heart. I  love
you and Uncle Ed very much too."
     She  said  "We love you too Owen. I've loved you  since
you  were  about 10 minutes old. And you haven't  changed  a
bit."  She  and I laughed. Owen may have been  wondering  if
that was an insult.
     Owen took my hand. He said "Is hand holding OK?"
     "Sure, you can put your arm around him too, after  all,
you've been doing it since you were six!"
     "I think I better check on dinner" I said.
     Owen  followed me. I said to him "Do you think I should
plant  more  dandelions  for  Amigo?  Maybe  scatter  a  few
thousand seeds directly in the Baileys' yard?"
     He said "We better wait until I have the money."
     "Good point," I said.
     "No, wait! That would mean I would have to pull them!"
     I  said  "You wouldn't pull them. You would gather  the
leaves for our child."
     Owen  said  "I  don't think our child will  settle  for
weeds  to  eat  once he hears his parents are millionaires."
Millionaires. That's so weird, I thought.
     "No,  you're  right. He'll expect truffles and  shitake
mushrooms," I said.
     "Maybe we can keep it hidden from him," Owen said.
     "Are you kidding? He's right outside our bedroom window
listening to every word we say," I told him.
     Owen  said "We'll have to speak in code. The code  word
for money will be 'box turtle'."
     "That's two words. If we have two words to replace  one
word,  I will become very confused...and our sentences  will
be longer.
     "Besides,  can you imagine what Amigo will think  if  I
ask you for some 'box turtles' for lunch?"
     "Being a parent is harder than I thought!" Owen said.
     When dinner was ready we went looking for Mom. Dad  was
just  dressing. I told him dinner was ready.  "Your  mom  is
just getting in the shower."
     I  walked up to him and hugged him. I said "Thanks dad,
for  whatever you said to Mom about us." I pointed to  Owen.
"I  don't know how you did it. We thought she wouldn't  take
the sex part well."
     Dad  said "Believe it or not, your mom has said on more
than  one  occasion  that she hoped you could  find  someone
exactly  like  Owen.  And you did that  well,  by  the  way.
There's an uncanny resemblance. Anyway, when she started  to
freak  about the sex I just told her it was the one downside
to  an  otherwise  perfect situation. She seemed  to  accept
that. It is true, after all."
     I said "I guess I'll get a shower before dinner."
     Dad  said  "Better wait. Dousing your mother with  cold
water is not a good idea. Believe me, I know!"
     I giggled. "OK."
     "Come  on, Owen." I took his hand and we walked to  our
bedroom. I closed the bedroom door and took him in my  arms.
"Have I told you I love you?" I asked with a smile.
     "I  suspected  it  when  I saw you  smelling  my  dirty
jockstrap," Owen replied.
     "I  suppose all your jockstraps are half mine now. This
is a community property state, you know."
     "Yes. You own the back half and I own the front,"  Owen
said.
     "Two little straps? You think I'm settling for that?  I
want the 'party' part!" I said.
     Owen smiled and said "Everything I own is yours. You'll
be  rich!  You can buy dirty jockstraps! Hundreds  of  them.
Thousands!
     "By  the  way, I wonder if my clothes are  clean  yet."
Owen said.
     "Oh, shit. I forgot all about them!" I said. We went to
the laundry room and put them in the dryer.
     "Now, where were we?" I asked.
     Owen said "I was about to take you in my arms, kiss you
thoroughly, and then rape you!"
     "Owen,  you  could never have raped me. Even  when  you
were  twelve.  Any  time you suggested  doing  something,  I
always went ahead and did it. And I always loved it. Because
you were there.
     "But we can't do any of that stuff in the laundry room,
you know."
     Owen  closed the laundry room door, leaned  against  it
and  did  exactly  what he said. Except  for  the  rape,  of
course. It was sensational.
     He  pulled  back. "I don't think your mother  means  we
have  to  hide in our bedroom every time we kiss.  She  just
doesn't  want us doing it around her...or anyone  else,  I'd
imagine."
     We  decided  to finish watching Star Wars. I  was  very
surprised at the finish. Ha ha. After it was over we went to
our bedroom and closed the door.
     "Which bed do you want to sleep in?" I asked.
     "Whichever one you're in."
     "I guess mine. We can watch TV from it."
     "That's fine."
     I  got undressed and got in bed. Owen brushed his teeth
and then got in bed with me.
     I  said "I'm still in shock that we don't have to  hide
our relationship from my parents. Or is that our parents.  I
know if you were younger they would want to adopt you."
     "Doesn't  make much sense to do it when I'm  seventeen.
If  they  really wanted to do it though, I would  go  along.
Oops! Never mind. I think that would make it incest since we
would be brothers."
     "Good point," I said.
     "Jamie, you forgot something in the bathroom."
     "I did?"
     "Yeah."
     I  got  up  and  opened the bathroom door.  There  were
blankets on the floor and candles burning. Owen walked  into
the bathroom and closed the door. I walked up to him and put
my arms around him.
     "This is great Owen. I had forgotten all about it. It's
so romantic."
     Owen  pulled  me down to the blankets. I lay  down  and
smiled  at  him. He picked up a bottle of lube and  squirted
some  on  his  finger. I rolled over on my  stomach  and  he
slowly  pushed his finger in me. He pulled it out  and  said
"Still clean." Oh, lord. I'd forgotten about that. He slowly
pushed two fingers in me and worked them around a bit.  Then
three  fingers.  I was so excited that the small  amount  of
pain  was  unimportant. Finally he said "Roll over  on  your
back and pull your legs up." I did it. He squirted some lube
on  his  cock  and  slowly pushed  it  in  me.  Between  the
stretching he'd done and the fact that we'd already done  it
once  that day, there was very little pain. A burn and  then
just  a  sensation of fullness. When he was fully in  me  he
paused and said "That's it Jamie. Are you hurting any?"
     "No,  Owen. Not a bit. It's every bit as good as I ever
dreamed."  He  began  thrusting slowly.  The  blankets  kept
sliding  around on the tiled bathroom floor. He repositioned
us a couple of times. I started laughing.
     "Can I borrow your football helmet? That way if my head
hits the toilet or the wall, I'll be protected."
     "Let's do it in bed," I said.
     He  laughed "I think we need to. I don't want to go get
my helmet. It's at school."
     He  pulled out of me and took my hand. We walked to his
bed.  "This  is the Fucking Bed." He pointed to my  bed  and
said "That is the Sleeping Bed."
     I  laughed and said "We should put signs up so I  won't
get  confused. You know, getting in the Fucking Bed  when  I
only want a nap. You'd probably think I was fair game once I
was on it."
     "You  bet I would. I would pounce on you like  a  horny
kitty!"
     "It's  a good thing I have a wise older lover. I  would
never have come up with this system. You're so organized."
     "It just takes careful planning. And wisdom."
     "I  want you to know that I am deliberately getting  on
the  'FB'." And I did. I got on my back and pulled  my  legs
towards me.
     "Eager, are we?"
     "I've been wanting this for a long time."
     Owen  was still hard. He got on the bed. He squirted  a
little more lube on his dick and slid it back into me. There
was no pain, Yay!
     "I love you, baby."
     "Love you too, Owen."
     He   began  thrusting.  The  bed  was  definitely  more
comfortable than the bathroom floor!
     Owen  was watching me intently as he thrust. He  titled
his  angle and Whoa I felt it. He started thrusting at  that
angle.
     "Owen, it's so good."
     "Yeah! You like that?"
     It  was the most intense thing I ever experienced.  The
first  time  we'd  fucked I was in pain and uncertain.  This
time made up for it. Owen leaned forward and I leaned up  to
him. We kissed. He was sweating and drops of it landed on my
face.  Being  there, under the love of  my  life.  His  cock
rubbing against my prostate sent shocks through my system.
     I ran my hands over Owen's arms and chest. I reached up
and pulled on Owen's nipples.
     "You're  going  to  make me come doing  that.  Are  you
ready?"
     "Yeah."
     I  started  stroking myself while I pulled  on  one  of
Owens's nipples. I was close!
     "Owen, I'm gonna come!"
     "Me, too!"
     I began shooting onto my stomach and chest. Owen moaned
and stopped moving. I could feel warmness inside me from his
come. He made a couple more little thrusts.
     "Oh,  man!  That was fantastic! I could tell  you  were
enjoying  it  more and that made it better for me  too."  He
pulled  out  of  me and then dropped down  onto  me  and  we
kissed.
     "Come on. Let's get a quick shower and then go to  bed.
The 'SB'."
     "First let me check your hole and make sure it's OK."
     I  got  out  of bed and bent over. He pulled my  cheeks
apart. "Looks fine. Like it's been properly fucked."
     "It feels like it's been properly fucked!"
     We  showered  and got in the correct bed for  sleeping.
Owen kissed me and said "Love you, Jamie."
     "I love you."
     We  settled on our sides and he pulled me to him. I was
very, very happy.



















                             Six
                          Wednesday
     Wednesday morning I woke up naked in Owen's arms. It
was a wonderful feeling. His cock was pressed up against my
butt crack. I looked at the clock. It was ten after eight. I
carefully got out of bed.
     "You getting up, Jamie?"
     "Just  to  use the restroom. I'll be right back."  Owen
rolled  on  his  back  and went back to  sleep.  Perfect!  I
thought.
     I got up and went in the bathroom I did my business and
then  used  one  of the enema kits. After I  was  thoroughly
clean,  I stretched myself with some lube and my fingers.  I
didn't  try to rush it and it was kind of awkward. I  wanted
to  be  stretched enough to take Owen easily.  After  I  was
stretched,  I squirted some more lube into my butt.  Then  I
wiped  off my hands and went back into the bedroom  and  got
back in bed. Owen rolled over and took me back in his arms.
     "Good morning, baby," Owen mumbled.
     "Morning, Owen."
     "You gonna sleep some more?" Owen asked me.
     "Yeah."
     "Good." He nuzzled and then kissed my neck.
     When  his  breathing changed, I figured he  had  fallen
asleep  again. I carefully reached behind me and pushed  his
cock  down  and  moved my butt into position. His  breathing
hadn't changed, so I thought he was probably still asleep. I
positioned his cock at my hole and pushed back on to it.  It
slowly  slipped inside me. It didn't hurt. I  couldn't  tell
how  much  of  it was in me, but while it was still  sliding
into me I heard "Holy fuck! That must hurt like hell!"
     "No,  it  feels great! To me, anyway. How's it feel  to
you?"
     "Fantastic, baby!"
     Owen pushed the rest of the way into me.
     "I wanted to surprise you," I said.
     "Well, you did that! Man, what a feeling! Waking up  as
my cock slides into you!"
     He  thrust  a couple of times and said "It  feels  like
you've got lots of lube in there, baby."
     "I'm all cleaned, stretched, and lubed."
     "Hmmm. Tight and hot and wet." He kept thrusting.
     I  pulled  off his cock. "Roll over on your back,  will
you?" I asked him.
     Owen  rolled  over. I climbed on top  of  him  and  sat
slowly onto his pole.
     "Fuck!  That  feels incredible! You're so  hot  inside,
baby!"
     I  began  bouncing on his cock. I looked at  his  hairy
chest. I reached out my hands and clasped his in mine.
     "Do it, Jamie! Fuck yourself! Make me come!"
     After  a  couple of minutes I said "Feels  good,  Owen.
Real good." I was sweating!
     I slowed down and leaned forward to kiss him. After the
kiss he said "Are your legs getting tired?"
     "Yeah, a little. I just need more practice!" I said.
     "I'll take over. Raise your body a little."
     I  did  and he lifted his groin off the bed.  He  began
thrusting into me. He changed his angle a little and I  said
"Ooh"  when  his  cock stroked my prostate. He  grinned  and
started aiming for it.
     "I'm close Owen!"
     "Me too! Come when you're ready!"
     I began stroking my cock. I decided to do a little face
painting  of  my  own. When I was about to  shoot  I  yelled
"Owen!"  and  I pointed my cock at his face. My first  spurt
hit  his mouth. "Bull's Eye!" I said. Owen laughed and  then
groaned. He licked his lips. My second shot hit his chin.
     "Fuuuuuck!" Owen moaned. I could feel the warmth of his
come  in  me as he came. I fell onto him and kissed him.  He
wrapped  his  arms around me tightly as we kissed.  We  were
both  sweating. It felt glorious! I licked my come  off  his
face and kissed him.
     I rolled over onto my side and played with the hairs on
his chest. Then I pinched one of his nipples. He laughed and
pulled me back on top of him.
     "Hmm. Good morning, baby!"
     "Good morning! I love you!"
     Owen said "Love you too. You're incredible!"
     "Oh, really?"
     "Absolutely! But I'm afraid of what you'll be like when
you're eighteen."
     "Oh,  I'm sure we'll be doing the same things,  but  by
that time you'll be yawning during them."
     "You wanna bet?"
     "No. I will love you and want you just as much when I'm
eighteen as I do now. Hopefully you'll feel the same."
     "Oh, yeah!" Owen said.
     After  a  pause, he asked me "What do you  want  to  do
today?"
     "Anything, as long as it's with you. How about you?  Is
there something you want to do?"
     "I  want  to  call  the school and let  them  know  I'm
dropping from the football team. I thought I might  also  go
to  my house and work out with the weights. And maybe go for
a run. All with you, of course."
     "I like that last part best."
     "Me, too. Do you need to go anywhere?"
     "I can't think of anywhere. I'll let you know if I do."
     "You hungry?" I asked him.
     "Yeah. Let's take a shower first. And I really think  I
should shave."
     I  stroked  his cheek. He leaned forward and we  kissed
again for a while. I reached down and wrapped my hand around
his cock. It was hard.
     "Damn,  Jamie! Do you know that a week ago I  had  just
about  decided I had no interest in sex?" Owen ran his  hand
slowly  over  my  body. Then he reached over  and  pushed  a
finger  into  my  hole. It slipped in easily.  He  moved  it
around  a  bit  and I moaned. He pulled his finger  out  and
showed it to me. There was a little of his come on it. "It's
so  fucking hot knowing my seed is inside you." It was to me
too. He wiped his finger off on his leg.
     "Come on. Let's get up."
     We  walked into the bathroom. I looked at myself in the
mirror.  Owen  came up behind me and smiled  at  me  in  the
mirror.  Then  he lowered himself a little by spreading  his
legs. He then pushed his cock inside me slowly.
     "Owen..." I moaned, leaning my head back against him.
     He  wrapped his arms around me. "I've got you baby." He
bent  over  and  nuzzled my ear as he slowly began  to  move
inside me. "You feel fantastic inside, Jamie."
     I  looked  at  him in the mirror. He was  sweating  and
watching  me. I could see the lust in his eyes. He  sped  up
his  thrusting  even more. He began pulling on  my  nipples.
Then  he  ran his hand over my chest and stomach. He wrapped
his hand around my cock and began stroking it.
     Then he pulled out of me and said "Let's save this  for
later."
     "Damn!" I said. He laughed.
     I turned around and wrapped my arms around him. He bent
down and pressed his mouth to mine. I opened my mouth and he
pushed his tongue into it. We kissed for a while; I have  no
idea how long. The kiss took me somewhere else.
     Finally  he pulled back. He stroked my hair and  smiled
at me. I smiled back and hugged him tighter. Then I laughed.
     "What is it?" he asked.
     "I'm just happy! This is my idea of heaven, being naked
and  alone with you." I sighed happily and said "I've always
wanted you all to myself."
     "And  I  wanted  you  all  to  myself.  I'll  tell  you
something,  Jamie. When we were kids, I didn't  want  anyone
else  playing  with us because I was afraid you  would  like
them  better  than me. That you'd go off and have  fun  with
them, leaving me all alone."
     "Really?"
     "Yes. As we got older, I stopped worrying about it. You
started  telling people to go away. I remember one time  you
told  me 'We have a perfect time together. Anyone else would
just  mess  it up'. Then you hugged me. I got  tears  in  my
eyes, but I didn't want you to see them.
     "I've always needed you, Jamie,"
     "And  I've  always needed you. I was so short  and  you
were  so tall and strong. I always felt completely safe when
you  were  with me. And when you would put your  arm  around
me...it was absolutely perfect. I was completely happy,  and
safe, and contented.
     I giggled and Owen said "What?"
     "Your dick pressed against me reminded me of something.
One  time we were in the woods and we both needed to pee  at
the  same time. You pulled out your dick and I thought 'Wow!
It's  huge!'  I  thought it was the neatest  thing  ever!  I
remember trying several times to get you to pee again  so  I
could  see it! But I tried to be careful. I didn't want  you
to  think I was weird. You might not like me anymore  and  I
couldn't think of anything worse than that!"
     "Really? I don't remember that. So you've always wanted
my cock, even when you were a little kid!"
     "Hmm.  When  you  say  it like that  it  sounds  really
perverted!"
     "Well,  you're  my  little pervert, Jamie!  I  wouldn't
trade you for any other pervert in the whole world!"
     "Remind me not to reminisce around you."
     "I  would have let you suck on it. You should have told
me!  I'm  not  sure if I would have been able to  fuck  you,
though. How old was I?"
     "Definitely. No more reminiscing."
     "You do know that no matter how long you sucked on  it,
you wouldn't have gotten any come out of me, right?"
     "Now, that's just not true! If I had sucked on it until
you hit puberty, I would have gotten some."
     "That's  very true. You're so wise about these  things.
Or  should  I  say  'You're so wise  about  my  thing'."  We
laughed.
     He  kissed  me again and said "You know, in a  way  I'm
glad. It means we haven't really changed. Back then we  just
didn't understand what we wanted. I always wanted you to  be
with me and you felt the same. We wanted each other in every
way that seemed possible to us at the time."
     "Yup.  I  always wanted and needed you and  you  always
wanted me with you."
     "I needed you Jamie, like air."
     We  kissed again and I wrapped my hand around his dick.
It was still hard.
     He  laughed  and said "Let's get clean. You've  got  my
sweat all over you."
     I  moaned  when  he said that and said "And  you  think
that's a bad thing?" He laughed and took my hand and we  got
into the shower.
     I've always loved washing Owen. Rubbing soapy hands all
over  his  hunky body. Feeling every muscle and  just  about
every  inch of skin. After I finished him he started washing
me. When we were rinsing the soap off I said "I wonder if  I
should try rinsing the come out of my butt."
     "No," Owen said. "I want you to leave it inside you."
     "OK."  It was fine with me, I just would need  to  make
sure  it  didn't soak through my pants if we  went  anywhere
public. Oops. My parents might see it. But then I thought  I
could  put  a  paper  towel in my underwear  if  it  started
leaking out of me.
     We got out of the shower and dried each other.
     "You hungry?" I asked him.
     "Yeah, I'm starving!"
     "French toast OK?" I asked.
     "You  bet.  Can you scramble some eggs too? I  think  I
need protein to keep up with all the fucking." I giggled.
     I asked him "How about some link sausages with them?"
     "Sounds fantastic!"
     We  walked  into  the bedroom. I had a thought.  "Owen,
don't get dressed yet."
     "But I'm hungry! Food now, sex later!"
     "Just  wait  a minute. I put on a robe and  opened  the
bedroom  door. "Mom? Dad?" I called. There was no answer.  I
walked to their bedroom. No one was in it. I walked into the
kitchen. There was a note on the table from Mom.
     It  said  'Gone  to the office, then  going  with  your
father  to  the  bank. We may not see you til this  evening.
Love Mom'.
     I  went back in the bedroom and took off my robe.  Owen
was  sitting on the Fucking bed, grinning at me. "My parents
aren't home and won't be back for a while. Come on." I  took
his hand and we walked naked into the kitchen. He sat at the
table,  smiling at me. I smiled back and said "This improves
the scenery in here a lot."
     "Yeah! There's a great view from where I'm sitting!"
     I started on breakfast. I looked at Owen and he had his
chair  facing  me  and he was slowly stroking  his  cock.  I
moaned  when  I  saw him and he laughed. I kept  working  on
breakfast  and he got up and stood behind me.  To  watch,  I
thought.  But then I felt him rub his pole up  and  down  my
crack.  I moaned again. He placed his dick at my hole.  Then
he  took my hips in his hands and pushed back inside me.  It
felt wonderful and I groaned.
     He  said "See how handy my come is inside you? You  can
keep fixing breakfast. I'll just stand here and watch."
     I  started laughing as he started thrusting. It felt so
good, but I said "Owen, we'll have to postpone this. I can't
cook when an incredibly sexy stud is having his way with me.
I can't think of anything else when we're having sex."
     He  pulled  out of me. Then he took a couple  of  paper
towels  and  wet them. He wiped his cock off  and  sat  back
down.
     I looked over and said "I love you."
     "I love you too, Jamie. More and more each day."
     I  looked over and smiled at him periodically.  He  was
watching me, leaning against the table. His cock stayed hard
the whole time.
     Finally  it was all finished and I took our  plates  to
the table. I pulled my chair right up to his and sat down.
     "Thanks, Jamie. It looks and smells fantastic!"
     He wrapped one arm around me. Then he took a forkful of
eggs  and held it up to me. I smiled at him and reached  out
and took it in my mouth. Then he took a mouthful. He fed  us
both from his plate, alternating between the two of us. When
his plate was empty, he fed us from mine. He was looking  at
me  with  so  much love that tears started rolling  down  my
cheeks. They were tears of happiness, of course. He put  the
fork down and wiped one of them off my cheek. He leaned over
and  kissed  me. I could taste our breakfast on his  tongue.
Then he went back to feeding us the rest.
     After  we  finished, Owen began drinking his coffee.  I
took  the  dishes to the sink. Owen got up and stood  behind
me.  Then  he  took me in his arms. He said "Jamie,  do  you
realize we can do this as often as we like, for the rest  of
our  lives?  That's  more fantastic  than  anything  I  ever
dreamed before." It was true, and it was fantastic.
     He hugged me and sat back down. While I was washing the
dishes,  he said "I never knew watching someone wash  dishes
could  be  hot, but maybe it's the washer." I turned  around
and  looked at him. His legs were stretched out straight and
his balls were resting on the chair. He was leaning back and
stroking his cock, watching me. It was the hottest  thing  I
had ever seen.
     "I've got to have it, Owen!" I walked over and fell  to
my knees. I bent to take it in my mouth.
     "No, Jamie." I whimpered. I wanted it!
     "Please?"
     "Let  me clean it off better. It was just in your ass!"
I had forgotten that. He left the room and I stayed there on
my  knees.  He came back a couple of minutes later.  He  was
still stroking it.
     "Sit  back down like you were," I said. He sat.  "Stick
your legs out straight like they were." He smiled at me  and
did  it. With him like that, it was if he was presenting his
full package for my enjoyment. I leaned forward and took him
in my mouth.
     "Yeah, Jamie! Suck that cock! Suck my cock!" He took my
head  in  his  hands and started thrusting. I had  one  hand
wrapped  around his balls and I could feel my saliva running
down on them making them wet and slippery. We kept it up for
a few minutes.
     "Jamie! Jamie! Aaaah!" he said as his come shot into my
mouth.  I  swallowed it and wished there was more. His  cock
softened quickly after that. I pulled off it and laughed.  I
was just happy!
     He put his hands under my arms and lifted me up onto my
feet.  He pulled me forward, so I straddled him in the chair
and  he  began  sucking me. I put my hands on his  shoulders
while  he blew me. After a couple of minutes, he pushed  one
finger into my crack. He ran it along the outside of my hole
a bit and then he pushed it in me. I groaned as he sucked me
and rubbed my prostate with his finger. He pulled his finger
out  and pushed two into me. He began fucking me with  them,
rubbing my prostate on the way in and out. I put my hands on
his  head, running my fingers through his hair. And  then  I
was there!
     "Owen!"  I shouted and I shot in his mouth. Afterwards,
I fell down onto his lap. He wrapped his arms tightly around
me. I leaned in to kiss him.
     "Umm.  Jamie...that  was wonderful,"  he  said  between
kisses.
     "Owen?"
     "Yeah?"
     "I'm going to want more later."
     "Oh, will you? I better go take some vitamins." We both
laughed.
     "I  think I'll call the school now." I got off him  and
he walked out of the room.
     I  finished the dishes. Owen came back in the  kitchen.
"Well that's done."
     "You told them you're dropping off the team?"
     "Yeah."
     "What did they say?"
     "I  talked to the school secretary and left the message
with her."
     "Oh.  I  guess they'll call and want to talk about  it.
You were one of the best players, if not the best."
     "I don't think they'll call."
     "Why not?"
     "I didn't leave them the number!" We both laughed. That
was  right;  if they wanted to call, they would call  Owen's
house, not here.
     "I  hope  they don't bother you about it after  you  go
back to school."
     "Don't worry about it. My mind's made up."
     "More time with me! Yipee!" I said.
     "Yup.  With my favorite person in the whole world.  I'm
giving  up  a  game  I don't particularly like  played  with
people I don't particularly like. It's a very good trade."
     I  got to thinking about school and what I was missing.
I  decided  to  call the school and find out if  anyone  was
keeping track of my assignments, if there were any. "I think
I'm  going  to  call  school too." I dialed  the  office.  I
decided I might as well enjoy it.
     "St Catherines. Elly Robinson." Damn, she was on to me.
     "Hi, Elly."
     "Hi, Jamie. What's up?"
     "I  was just wondering how it went with your mother  in
law."
     "It was OK. She's nice."
     "OK, then. Bye."
     "You didn't really call about that."
     "You're so smart. You're wasted as a secretary."
     "I'm not a secretary. I'm a slave."
     "What?"
     "Didn't you know?"
     "Nope!"
     "Se¤or bought me for fifty eight cents."
     "Who's se¤or?"
     "You know, the head creep."
     "Oh, Mr Lopez."
     "Right."
     "Why were you so cheap Elly? Were you on sale? Were you
about to expire?"
     "It was an auction."
     "Oh! I wish I'd been there."
     "Why do you need a slave? You've got parents and if you
work  it  right, it's the same thing. And you don't have  to
pay  anything at all. Or were you hoping to be  sold?  If  I
sold  for  fifty  eight cents, you'd be a couple  of  cents.
That's  the  kind  of humiliation it takes  decades  to  get
over."
     "Why didn't your husband bid on you?"
     "Who do you think was selling me?"
     "Wow! And he seems so democratic!"
     "No. He's a Republican."
     "That's scary."
     "Tell me about it."
     "You should see what he does in his sleep."
     "What does he do in his sleep?"
     "You're  much  too young for me to tell  you,  but  you
should see it."
     "Maybe when I'm older."
     "Hell,  no! Why would I want you in my bedroom  in  the
middle of the night?"
     "I  don't know. Boredom maybe. It must be awfully  dull
waiting for him to do whatever it is he does."
     "I polish my nails."
     "What?"
     "That's what I do while I'm waiting."
     "Your  nails must be very lovely if you do  them  every
night."
     "Every  night! Are you kidding? I told  you  he  was  a
Republican."
     "I learn so much when I talk to you."
     "I like to share my wisdom with idiots."
     "Politics confuses me though. It's a good thing Owen is
taking care of it."
     "Taking care of what?
     "He  told  me he would make all my political  decisions
for me."
     "You're   fourteen.  You  don't  have   any   political
decisions."
     "Maybe that's why he was willing to take the job."
     "Scram brat. Se¤or is back."
     "Wait! I called to see if anyone has kept track of what
I need to do for school since I've been away."
     "You are an idiot!"
     "What do you mean?"
     "Milk  it  for  all  it's worth!  If  someone  mentions
something you need to do, you cry and mention your dead aunt
and uncle and the poor, poor orphan. You can't hear anything
if you're crying loud enough."
     "That's really tacky! Does it work?"
     "It's how I got Frank to propose!"
     "Do you have a dead aunt and uncle?"
     "Of course not!"
     "I  thought he proposed because he vomited a  margarita
on you."
     "No,  his mother wanted him to propose to me, but being
a  man, he was too stupid to know what was good for him.  By
the  time  he  finished comforting me about my loss,  I  was
pregnant  and he had to marry me. I don't think he  realized
we  hadn't had sex. It may be he didn't fully understand how
it's done."
     "Were you pregnant?"
     "I was as pregnant as my dead aunt."
     "Didn't he notice you weren't pregnant?"
     "I told you men are stupid."
     "He must be an excellent comforter."
     "He has talent there and it got him married."
     "What if he finds out about all this?"
     "We're Catholic. He's trapped, fair and square."
     "I want to get all my relationship advice from you. You
should write an advice column."
     "None of my advice about relationships could be printed
in a family newspaper."
     "I  read  once  that  relationships can't  survive  the
truth.  Lies  are  the  grease that keeps  the  relationship
moving and untruths are what make it grow."
     "You didn't read it. I told you that."
     "Are you sure I didn't read it in your advice column?"
     "Scram."   Click.   I  guessed  I   didn't   have   any
assignments.
     I  finished  up the dishes and sat next to  him.  "What
next?  You mentioned weights and a run. You ready for either
yet?
     "Wait. I have an idea. Let's go to the woods. I want to
show you something." I said.
     "Is  it something I've already sucked on this morning?"
He asked. I laughed.
     "No. I won't want more sex for at least an hour."
     "Phew!"
     "Let's put on shoes and I'll show you."
     "We should put on clothes too, Jamie."
     "Damn!" We both laughed.
     We  got  dressed and left the house. We walked  through
the  woods  to the place I wanted to show him. It was  about
three  quarters of a mile from our house. It was a beautiful
day  for  a walk. Owen held my hand when we weren't climbing
over things. Finally we got to it. It was a dirt track where
vehicles  had been. Unlike the rest of the woods, it  was  a
clean even trail.
     "We could run along here, if you want," I said.
     "How long is the trail?"
     "I think about two miles. It runs from Jefferson Street
to the new houses I was telling you about."
     "Yeah!  This is great! Much better than running on  the
sidewalk alongside traffic."
     "There  are some areas a little rougher than this,  but
not many."
     "Man,  this is really exciting! We'll be able  to  run,
have privacy, and enjoy nature all at the same time!"
     Owen  pulled  me  into his arms and  said  "Right  now,
privacy  is  a  really good thing." Then he  kissed  me.  He
rubbed  his hands on my back while we kissed. I put my  hand
on  his crotch, then I thought Go for it! I reached my  hand
down  inside his pants under his underwear feeling his hairy
belly  and  his  pubes  until my hand reached  his  cock.  I
wrapped  my hand around it and squeezed his cock. It started
to stiffen and Owen moaned into the kiss.
     Owen  pulled back and we looked at each other. His dick
was still in my hand. "You want it again, don't you Jamie."
     "I always want it, Owen. I never stop."
     Owen  laughed  and said "I know the feeling.  The  last
couple  of days I've had trouble thinking of anything  else.
Your  hot  body,  those sexy lips which were  made  to  wrap
around  my  dick, and that smoking ass of yours." He  pushed
his  hand down inside my pants and then pushed a finger into
my hole.
     I moaned "Owen..."
     While he finger fucked me he said "Feels like you're  a
little dry down there." I moaned again and rested my head on
his  shoulder. "Don't worry Jamie. I'll be filling  it  with
some more creamy Rossi spunk a little later."
     Then he leaned away and pulled his finger out of me and
said "Do you still think I'm straight?"
     I  started  laughing. I said "Yes.  You're  just  going
through an experimental phase. Boys sometimes do that."
     "I'll  give  you experimental! For that, I'm  going  to
make you repeat that verbatim each of the next five times  I
fuck you."
     "Oh, lord! I'll be saying all day long!"
     "You better believe it! Apologize!"
     "Owen.   I'm  very  sorry  I  accused  you   of   being
heterosexual. It was mean and cruel."
     "...And," he said.
     "And I'll never do it again. Ever."
     "You're forgiven."
     "Phew! That was close!"
     "The  next time you accuse me of being that way, I will
withhold sex from you completely."
     "You wouldn't!"
     "Yes. I would."
     "You can be cruel. I can see that now."
     "Jamie, sometimes you have to be strict with kids.  I'm
only strict because I love you."
     "I see."
     "Yes. It's for your own good."
     "Hmm."
     "Let's head back." Owen said.
     We  headed  back to the house. When we got  there  Owen
said  "I think I want to work out now. Do you want to go  to
my house?"
     "OK."
     He  gathered some clothes from our bedroom  and  got  a
towel from the bathroom and put them in his gym bag. Then he
drove  us  over there. I was worried about how he  would  be
there. Would the grief be too much?
     We  walked into the house and deactivated the alarm. We
walked  into  his weight room and Owen stripped  completely.
This  was the point when I realized weight lifting was  much
more exciting than I thought. Owen reached into his gym  bad
and  pulled  out a jock strap. He waved it in  front  of  me
before putting it on.
     "Owen, I had no idea weight lifting was like this!  I'm
so excited!"
     "I  think bulging muscles and full pouches do something
for you."
     "Yes, I believe you are correct."
     "Maybe you could take me to weight lifting exhibitions.
I would even be willing to hand the men their jock straps."
     "Would you sniff them?"
     "Discreetly, of course."
     "I don't want you oggling other men."
     "I've never oggled. Is that like googling?"
     "No."
     Owen  started  doing something. I asked "What  are  you
doing?"
     "I'm doing curls."
     "Your biceps are bulging."
     "They're supposed to."
     "Am I supposed to be horny?"
     "You always are, so I suppose so."
     "Do you need me to lick anything in here?"
     "You're  right next to the door. Do you  want  to  lick
it?"
     "Hmm. I'll let you know."
     He  finished and said "You try it." He held the  weight
out  to  me with one hand and I stupidly reached for it.  It
promptly  hit the ground, missing both of us fortunately.  I
reached down and picked it up with both hands.
     "You use just one arm."
     "I can't lift it. Do you have any lighter ones?"
     "Here's a ten pound one."
     This time I picked it up carefully and it was easier. I
still couldn't do it with one arm though.
     "Do you have anything lighter?" I asked.
     Owen said "Just a sec," and left the room.
     I  might  as  well mention here that with Owen  lifting
weights  in  nothing but a jock strap, I wasn't particularly
paying  attention to anything else. So when he came back  in
the  room and was carrying something that he wasn't  holding
anywhere near his crotch, I merely took it from him and said
"Much better."
     Owen  started  laughing.  I looked  at  it.  It  was  a
paperback book. I was humiliated. Owen took me in  his  arms
and said "I'm sorry Jamie."
     I  couldn't  stay mad with a mostly naked  Owen  in  my
arms,  so  I smiled at him and said "Some day! I swear  that
some day I will be able to lift ten pounds."
     And  Owen  said "Yeah, maybe we can go to England  some
time." Well, I was glad he wasn't depressed.
     Then  he said "Jamie, I don't mind that you're  a  sexy
sissy. I love sexy sissies."
     "I'll have you know, I'm no sissy. I never even owned a
GI Joe!"
     "Your  parents were probably afraid you'd be trying  to
blow him all the time."
     "No,  it's because I've always been partial to Marines.
Especially sexy ones like Coach Robinson."
     "And your parents knew that?"
     "You know, that may be why they suspected I was gay."
     "That might do it!"
     "Maybe  it  was  the photos of him. I should  have  hid
them. Somewhere other than on the mantle. I kept meaning  to
get some photos of him with clothes on."
     "Now  that  you're involved, I want you to destroy  any
pornographic pictures you have that aren't of me. I'll  give
you plenty!"
     "That seems fair."
     "And if you see Coach Robinson I want you to close your
eyes."
     "He teaches History!"
     "It's your own fault."
     "I  suppose I could wear sunglasses during history.  He
wouldn't know my eyes were closed."
     "Or you could wear two eye patches."
     Owen  was  on his back lifting weights that I knew  I'd
never be able to lift. I couldn't resist anymore.
     "Owen, what is spotting? I've heard the term and I know
it   has   something  to  do  with  weights.  I've   spotted
something."
     He  let his weights down and looked at me. "What you've
spotted isn't spotting."
     "Weight lifting is very confusing."
     "Spotting  is  when  you help someone  who  is  lifting
weights."
     "I want to help you. You'll feel better, I promise."
     Owen started laughing. He got up and hugged me and told
me he loved me. Then he asked me to go away.
     "Why don't you look around the house and see if there's
anything you want to take back with us.
     "Believe  me, when I have hundreds of pounds  above  my
head, it's no time to make me laugh."
     "Sorry! I didn't think of that."
     Owen  then pulled on a t-shirt and shorts and went back
to his weights.
     I  looked around the house. I noticed the light  on  an
answering machine was blinking like crazy. I walked back  to
Owen.  When  he  lowered his weights I told  him  about  the
messages.
     "Why don't you listen to them and let me know if I need
to get back with anybody."
     I  listened. It was horrible. The first message was for
Uncle Jack reminding him of someone's birthday party in  two
weeks.  I  started to write it down and then realized  there
was  no  point.  The  second message was from  the  Colorado
Highway  Patrol. I didn't hear much of it.  I  just  started
crying. I could barely hear the other messages, but  I  knew
it  didn't matter what they were. There was no one left  who
cared  what  they said. Owen had much bigger  problems  than
anything that might be on one of the messages.
     Finally  I  felt  Owen take me in his  arms.  "It's  OK
Jamie. I've got you and you've got me. Let's go outside." We
went out and sat on the front porch.
     "What did you hear?" I didn't want to tell him, but  he
had a right to know.
     "It was a message from the Highway Patrol." I looked at
him. He was starting to cry too.
     I  really needed to know the answer to this question so
I  asked  him  "Owen, I need to know something.  Every  time
you've seemed about to break down over...this, I've tried to
cheer you up by making you think of something else. Is  that
wrong? Am I keeping you from mourning for your parents?"
     Owen  looked  at me and I could tell he  was  thinking.
Finally he said "Jamie, the death of my parents is like this
giant  shadow  that's trying to consume me. If  you  weren't
around,  weren't  back in my life, I  can  guarantee  you  I
wouldn't want to live. I was already depressed before  this.
You,"  he  paused  again before continuing  "you  have  been
like...the  sun, chasing the shadows away. Chasing  all  the
darkness away. I haven't forgotten my parents and I know you
haven't.
     "I  am  so grateful to you for helping me and for  your
love. I've said it before, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't
be able to cope at all. Please don't feel guilty. You really
are  my  reason for living." Then he hugged me  for  a  long
time.
     "Owen, let's go, OK?"
     "Sure. Let me lock up."
     We headed home. I held Owen's hand and felt better.
     When  we got back in our room Owen closed the door  and
flopped down on the Fucking Bed. He reached for me so I laid
down next to me. He kissed me then he said "You now I didn't
mean it when I called you a sissy, right?"
     I  laughed and said "No. But I figured if you wanted  a
sissy for a boyfriend, I'd give it a try." We both laughed.
     "You're  no sissy. You're a manly man. After all,  I've
seen you rangle a corn snake."
     "That's true. I've rangled."
     We  made  out  on  the  bed for a  while,  kissing  and
touching each other.
     "I love you, Jamie."
     "I love you too, Owen."
     I stroked his cheek. "You were going to shave."
     "That's right!"
     He  got  out of bed and went into the bathroom. I  went
too.  I'd  never seen him shave. He pulled his t-shirt  off.
Then he wet his face and spread shaving cream. Then he began
dragging the blade over his face.
     When  he was about half way through I asked him  if  it
would help any if I sucked his dick while he shaved.
     He  laughed  and said "It might help me cut my  throat.
Besides,  it's  traditional to  receive  a  blow  job  after
shaving as a reward for hard work."
     "That  sounds like a wonderful tradition! I hope  there
are a lot of traditions like that!" He laughed.
     When  he  finished he wiped his face with a damp  towel
and asked "How do I look?"
     "Gorgeous and sexy as hell."
     "Come give a sexy guy a kiss!" I did!
     He  pulled  down  his shorts and pulled  off  his  jock
strap.  I  quickly got undressed and got on the  `FB'.  Owen
joined me and we kissed again. He ran his hands over me  and
said  "Jamie, you're so beautiful." We kissed again  and  he
reached  around  to my butt and pushed a finger  in  me.  He
pulled it out and said "Still clean!"
     "Someone  made a promise that more Rossi come would  be
planted in there."
     "I believe that was me!"
     Owen  got up and got lube out of the bathroom. When  he
walked back, his stiff pole was swinging from side to  side.
He  squirted some lube on his cock. I pulled my legs up  and
he squirted some on my hole.
     He  gently  pushed into me. It hurt a  little.  Then  I
realized he hadn't stretched me. The pain was soon gone.  He
began thrusting.
     "Oh, Owen. It feels real good."
     "That it does, Jamie."
     After  a  bit Owen said "Do you want to try  riding  me
again?"
     "Sure!"
     He  pulled out of me and laid on his back. He held  his
dick  for  me  and  I lowered myself on  to  it.  I  started
bouncing on it.
     "Here. Put your hands on my chest. You can use them  to
give yourself some leverage."
     I did and it was easier. I smiled at him and he grinned
at me.
     "Damn, Jamie! It's so hot watching you fuck yourself on
my cock."
     Everything about Owen turns me on, so I got revved up.
     "I'm  close, baby," he told me after a few  minutes.  I
was really sweating but I didn't want to stop. I was finally
doing some of the work! I liked being in control!
     "Jamie! Fuck! I'm coming!" I kept up and he grabbed  me
to  stop  me. I couldn't feel his come in me this time,  but
then I realized, there probably wasn't a lot.
     We  were both panting when Owen wrapped his hand around
my  dick and started stroking it. Then he said "Put it in my
mouth. I want your come!"
     I  pulled off his cock and put the head of mine in  his
mouth.  Then Owen started stroking my shaft while he  sucked
on the head.
     "I'm close, Owen."
     "Yeah?  Come for me!" He pushed two fingers in  me  and
that set me off.
     "Shit  Owen!  I'm coming!" I shot in his mouth  and  he
swallowed all of it.
     I  fell down on my side next to him. He rolled over  on
his  side facing me. He stroked the side of my head and then
kissed me tenderly. I was still panting.
     "That  was  fantastic, as usual! It was great  watching
you ride me."
     "I finally felt like I was doing some of the work!"
     "Don't  feel  that  way, Jamie.  I  love  fucking  you,
thrusting into you. Seeing the lust on your face as you look
at  me.  This is just something different we can do  if  you
want.  Believe me, if you didn't want to, I would  be  very,
very happy to 'do all the work'! OK?"
     "Sure, Owen!"
     "Whew!  How  about a quick shower and  some  lunch.  My
treat!"
     "We have all that food in the fridge..."
     "I  want to take my lover out to lunch. You want me  to
find another one?"
     I laughed "No! I'm never giving up my position!"
     We  both laughed and went into the bathroom and took  a
quick shower. Afterwards we were running out of towels.
     "Let me put some towels in the washer before we leave,"
I told him.
     We got dressed and I picked up the towels and took them
to  the  laundry room. Owen followed me and  I  started  the
washer.
     Owen  pulled me into his arms and kissed me. "Love you,
Jamie."
     "Love you too, Owen."
     "What are you in the mood for?" He asked me.
     "How about mexican?"
     "Sounds good!"
     He  headed  off to a mexican restaurant. When  we  were
seated, I noticed Celia was there. I walked over to say hi.
     "Hi  Celia! We must have the same taste in restaurants!
How are you doing?"
     "You're Jamie, right?"
     "Yeah.  I'm here with Owen. There was another  girl  at
the table and I introduced myself.
     "Good to meet you! I'm Tina."
     "Oh! I've heard of you!"
     She looked at me funny and I thought she misunderstood.
Maybe she was thinking gay bashing.
     "I mean Owen told me you two were friends." They looked
at each other and I felt uncomfortable. I said "I'm sorry to
interrupt you," and started to turn around.
     Tina  said "It's OK Jamie. It's just that we get a  lot
of grief from some of the other students and we thought that
was what you were talking about."
     "No.  Not at all. As a matter of fact, you two are  the
only   people  he's  mentioned  that  he  didn't  say   were
assholes." They both laughed.
     I  said  in  a low voice "Anyway, I'm gay and  I'm  not
looking forward to my high school years, I can tell you."
     Celia  said  softly "Really? Does Owen know?"   I  felt
myself blushing. I wanted a quick escape!
     Owen walked up and said "Hi Celia, Hi Tina. How are you
two doing?"
     Tina  said  "We're  doing great, but we've  embarrassed
Jamie."
     Celia said "Wow! Owen calm down!"
     I looked at him and he looked extremely angry.
     "It's OK, Owen." I whispered "I told them I was gay and
they  asked  if  you  knew and I just got embarrassed.  They
didn't say anything."
     "Sorry Celia, Tina."
     "Why don't you two join us, if you want." Celia said. I
didn't know what Owen wanted to do, but he whispered "Do you
want to?" to me.
     I whispered back "Sure! Why not?"
     We both sat down and said "Thanks."
     "When are you coming back to school, Owen? Do you  know
yet?" Tina asked.
     "Yeah.   Probably  Friday.  The  memorial  service   is
tomorrow."
     "It's at ten, right?" Celia asked.
     "Yeah. At St Catherines."
     "I  wish  we  could go," Celia said "But we've  already
skipped too many classes."
     "That's OK."
     "Owen  is  living  with us now. My parents  are  Owen's
guardians."
     "Wow! That's great! Living together and..." Tina said.
     I  said "The 'and' is the best part." We all laughed. I
hoped  Owen wasn't mad at me. I looked and he looked  happy.
Phew!
     Celia  asked "How long have you two known each  other?"
Owen and I both laughed.
     "Show them the picture on your phone, Owen."
     Owen  showed  them the picture and said  "Until  I  was
thirteen, we lived next door to Jamie and his folks. I  knew
him  since he was a toddler. By the time he was four we were
spending  a lot of time together. As we both got  older,  we
spent  more  and  more time together. We  basically  ignored
everyone  else.  Our  parents didn't like  that.  They  kept
trying to get us to do things with other kids."
     I took over "We kept ignoring them. I wanted to be with
Owen  and  he wanted to be with me. Finally when  he  turned
thirteen his parents moved him across town. They told him he
needed  to make new friends. My parents said the same  thing
to  me.  We still saw each other occasionally, but  not  all
that often.
     "I  thought  Owen had outgrown me and I was really  sad
about it."
     Owen  took over again "I was afraid of what my  parents
would  do  if  we started spending time together  again."  I
looked  at Celia and she had tears in her eyes. He continued
"My  parents decided to go on a second honeymoon to a resort
in Colorado. They arranged for me to stay with Jamie's folks
while they were gone." I wondered how far Owen was going  to
go with the story.
     "It  was so wonderful seeing Jamie again. I had  missed
him  every  minute we'd been apart. He told me how  he  felt
about  me  and I finally came to understand my feelings  for
Jamie. Now no one is going to keep us apart."
     By  this  point Celia and Tina both had tears in  their
eyes.  Tina  said "Wow! That's so romantic!  That  you  have
cared so much for each other for so long."
     I  said "I'm just so glad we're finally back together!"
Owen nodded at me.
     Celia  asked "Did your parents really try to  keep  you
apart?"
     Owen said "They kept telling me not to call Jamie or go
see  him. They said he needed to meet other people. I didn't
really make friends. You two know what most of those kids in
school are like. I didn't like many of them, but I pretended
to  my parents that I did. My dad even arranged for me to go
on a date with the daughter of a coworker of his."
     "That's  awful! I can't believe your parents  would  do
that!" Celia said.
     Owen said "I was just trying to do what they wanted."
     Tina said "So if it wasn't for this, you two might  not
have gotten back together."
     I said "Well, I had plans once I had a driver's license
to  start hanging out at his house if I had to. I might have
become a stalker! I had never stopped thinking about him.  I
think  we would have eventually found each other again.  But
this was the catalyst."
     "Wow!"  Tina  said. Then she added "Owen,  ninety  nine
percent of the kids at that school are assholes, but not all
of  them.  I  can tell you who the one percent are,  if  you
want."
     I  didn't say anything, but I figured Owen didn't  care
much who they were. What difference would it make, since  he
would be spending all his free time with me?
     Their food came and we ordered ours. They finished  and
had  to  get  back to school. They hugged  each  of  us  and
congratulated us on finding each other again.
     After  they left I said "Hey, Owen. I think we actually
may  have more friends now! That's kind of ironic.  We  made
friends because we only want each other!"
     Owen said "Yes, but never forget you're still mine  and
mine alone."
     "That's absolutely true," I said and smiled at him.
     Owen paid the bill and we left. As we were heading home
Owen said "I guess I own a new BMW now."
     "I  never thought of that! You own three cars! Owen, do
all millionaires have three cars?"
     "No! So don't go looking for any others!"
     "That  reminds me. I wonder if my parents are going  to
want me to have more than one lover. They never wanted me to
have  only one friend. They might say something like 'Honey,
we  know you and Owen are close, but we thinks it's best  if
you  have sex with lots of different people. What about that
nice  Mr.  Robinson  whose picture is on  the  mantle?'  And
doesn't  that  man own any clothes? We know  teachers  don't
make  a lot of money, but he could at least afford one  pair
of  underwear. Ed, maybe you could donate a pair of  briefs.
Make sure they're clean though!"
     "First  thing I'm doing when we get home is  check  out
the pictures on the mantle!" Owen said.
     "Don't be silly! We don't have a mantle!"
     "I'm  a  millionaire  and  I can  afford  to  have  one
installed!  Then  I'll  put pictures  of  me  naked  on  the
mantle!"
     "That  will  never work. My parents will just  buy  you
underwear."
     "You just better remember to close your eyes every time
you almost see Coach Robinson!"
     "If  I'm on the soccer team, that will make me an  even
worse player than I am now! I can barely kick the ball  now!
With  my  eyes  closed, I'll just be standing there  all  by
myself, kicking at nothing!"
     "If I can give up football, a game I play well, you can
give up a game you can't play at all.
     "That  seems fair. I guess it's just as well. Why  play
soccer with only one ball when you have two?"
     "You better not kick mine!"
     "Are you going to give me one of your cars?"
     "No,  but  I was thinking of spray painting your  bike.
That way you could pretend it's new!"
     Oh, wow. I'm excited."
     "You don't sound excited."
     I  pointed  at his crotch. He looked like he  was  half
hard. "That excites me. Bikes, not so much."
     "That  makes perfect sense to me. Sex is more fun  that
riding a bike."
     "It's  kind of odd. You taught me to ride a  bike,  but
I'm still riding one and you aren't."
     "Seems unfair," Owen said.
     "Yes, it does."
     "I suppose I should teach you how to drive."
     "Really?"
     "Did you think I was going to let someone else do it?"
     "To  be honest, I hadn't give it much thought. It's too
soon to worry about. I'm glad you'll be teaching me, Owen."
     "Baby, you're more important to me than ever."
     "I just remembered something."
     "Was it about my dick in the woods when you were five?"
     "No! And I wasn't' five!"
     "Then what did you remember?"
     "I remember you said you weren't that great a driver."
     "That's  true,  but I've got two years to  improve  and
lots of cars to practice with!" We both laughed.
     I  reached over and put my hand on his crotch. "Do  you
mind if I rest my hand here?"
     "Yes.  You can rest it there. But you can't reach over,
unzip my pants, pull out my dick and suck on it."
     "Resting my hand seems very boring now. Thank you."
     "Look on the bright side."
     "What?"
     "We're home!"
     We got out of the car and ran into the house. There was
no  food  on  the front porch, fortunately. The  fridge  was
full.
     "You  want  something to drink? I thought I would  make
some ice tea."
     "Sure, that sounds great."
     I  made  us each a tea and we sat in the kitchen.  "You
know  Owen,  I think you look better in that chair  with  no
clothes on and your dick hard."
     "My  dick  is hard." He pulled his pants tight  at  the
crotch so I could see it.
     "You must really like tea!"
     "No, I have a thing for the tea maker!"
     I leaned over and kissed him. He said "You keep me this
way, Jamie."
     He  finished  his  drink  and said  "Let's  go  to  the
bedroom, get naked, and make out."
     "Yipee!" I said. I finished mine and followed Owen.
     We  got  undressed and got in the 'FB'. Owen pulled  me
into  his arms and said "Let's not rush this. I want to have
a nice long cuddle session with my adorable lover."
     "Umm. Sounds wonderful!"
     We spent a while just kissing and caressing each other.
I could see the love in Owen's eyes and I hoped he could see
the love in mine.
     "Owen,  I love you so much. I'm so happy that you  love
me.  Some  times  it seems like a dream.  Like  one  of  the
fantasies I used to have about you."
     "My beautiful, beautiful Jamie. I've loved you my whole
life and I'll never stop."
     After  a while, Owen ran his finger along my crack  and
ran his fingertip around on my hole. I moaned. Owen said "Do
you want me there, Jamie?"
     "Oh yes, Owen. But I need to clean myself out."
     "We'll wait. I just want to hold you."
     Owen  was holding me and he started to stroke my  cheek
and  the  side of my head. "Close your eyes, Jamie. You  can
sleep  if  you  want." I closed my eyes and  Owen  continued
stroking  me. Occasionally he would kiss me lightly  on  the
lips. I did fall asleep.
     A noise woke me. Owen was still holding me and smiling.
"I think one of your neighbors just pulled up."
     "Did you sleep?"
     "No, I just wanted to hold you and watch you sleep."
     I felt a little embarrassed. "You must be really bored,
if watching me sleep was all you did."
     "No,  Jamie. It was wonderful watching you fall  asleep
and  holding you. Seeing you sleeping so peacefully. I  knew
you  felt safe and comfortable in my arms if you could  fall
asleep.  That  means a lot to me." I smiled at him."Besides,
you were only asleep about fifteen minutes."
     "Do you want to watch a movie?" Owen asked.
     "We  still haven't gotten a DVD player for in here.  Do
you want to watch in the den?"
     "No. Let's go get it. I want to be able to watch it  in
here.  That way if my finger accidentally slips inside  your
butt during the movie, your parents won't freak out."
     I laughed. "OK. We'll go for it again. We'll hold hands
so we don't get separated and we won't look at anything else
unless  we  have too. Oh, that reminds me. I know  we  don't
have  a  place  set up for your weights yet, but  you  could
bring your dumbells over if you want."
     "That's a thought! We'll do it!"
     We  got dressed and headed back over there. We got  the
dumbells  first. Owen said "Do you want yours?"  holding  up
the paperback.
     "Ha  Ha. I have much thicker books at home." We  loaded
his weights into the car. We went back in for the DVD player
and we also took a few of his movies.
     "We  could  move  this TV into our  bedroom,"  he  said
pointing at an enormous set in their family room.
     "How big is it?"
     "About seven inches." He grinned at me.
     "Something that small would fit anywhere," I said.
     "Ha! For that I will no longer use lube."
     "No, please! I need it! I'm only fourteen?"
     "What does that have to do with anything?"
     "I'm going for pity. You will have pity, won't you?"
     "Maybe I'll wet you first using a damp cloth."
     "No!!! Lube!!!"
     "Exactly. No lube."
     "You  don't want me to hide every time you want to have
sex,  do you? Think of all the time you'd waste looking  for
me. That's time your beautiful giant penis could be spending
in my lubed up rear end!"
     "That  is  true. I hadn't thought of that.  Very  well.
You've convinced me."
     "Anyway, I don't think the TV would fit in our  bedroom
unless  we removed an awful lot of stuff. Maybe if we pushed
both beds together and moved the computer desk."
     "Nah. I just seems a waste leaving it here, Jamie."
     We left and went home.
     When  we  finally got it all hooked  up  to  my  TV  we
started  the  movie Galaxy Quest and laid down  on  my  bed.
Oops, I mean the Sleeping Bed.
     "This is nice," I said smiling at him.
     "Yeah, it is."
     "When   will  your  finger  start  accidentally   doing
things?"
     "You  never  know when accidents will occur around  the
home. I heard that on TV," he said.
     "I  don't remember that line in the movie. Is this  the
extended director's cut?"
     "Yes. It had always bugged him that that line got  cut.
Finally we could see the movie he originally planned!"
     "Making  movies  must be wonderful. We  should  make  a
movie."
     "Now that I'm off the football team, there's no one  to
show it to."
     "Good point."
     I  rested  my  head on Owen's chest and we watched  the
movie. After a few minutes, Owen's finger found its way into
my pants."
     "Owen,  pause the movie, will you? I need  to  use  the
bathroom."  Owen  paused  it and I  went  in  the  bathroom,
undressed,  and  cleaned myself out. Then I lubed  my  hole.
When  I went back in the bedroom, Owen was naked and on  the
Fucking Bed. I got on the bed and Owen kissed me.
     "Get  the  lube, will you Jamie?" I got it out  of  the
bathroom and handed it to him.
     I  laid  back down and Owen pushed a lubed finger  into
me.  I  smiled at him and he smiled back. Then he  pushed  a
second  finger  in. It burned a little.  He  moved  his  two
fingers  around in me for a bit. I could tell  my  hole  was
loosening. "Are you ready for three fingers?"
     "Yeah." He worked the three fingers for a while.
     Finally  he got up on his knees over me and said  "Lube
me up, Jamie." I reached over for the lube and squirted some
on my fingers. Then I began rubbing it all over Owen's stiff
cock.  His  slippery cock felt so good in  my  hand  that  I
started  stroking  him. He grabbed my  hand  and  said  "I'm
close, Jamie. I want to fuck you."
     I pulled my legs up and Owen positioned himself. He ran
the head of his dick over my hole a few times, but he didn't
put it in me.
     "You're a tease, Owen." He pushed into me.
     "Yes, Owen!"
     "Oh,  Jamie. It feels so good. You're so tight and  hot
inside."
     Owen put his hands on my legs holding them up and began
to move. He tilted his angle until he found my spot.
     "Fuck, Owen!"
     "Jamie, what did I say about cursing?"
     I laughed. "Sorry, daddy!"
     I  looked into his eyes. I thought I could see laughter
and love and lust. I ran my hands over his chest, shoulders,
and arms.
     He  sped  up  his  thrusting. His balls  were  slapping
against  me.  His  cock was rubbing my  prostate  with  each
stroke. And then I was there!
     "Owen!"
     "Fuck,  Jamie!  Aah!" he said as he  came.  He  stopped
thrusting  as he came inside me. I could feel his warm  come
in me.
     He  started  laughing as he pulled out of me.  He  fell
over on his back onto the bed, panting.
     "Damn, that was fantastic! Unbelievable! Your hole  was
spasming around my dick. "
     I put my arm over him.
     "You came without touching yourself. Again!" He said to
me.
     "Well,  you  know for sure, I'm not pretending  that  I
want you."
     "Yeah! I do know that for sure!"
     I  reached down to his cock and wrapped my hand  around
it. It started stiffening.
     Owen laughed again. "Jamie, you could probably make  me
come  again,  but let's wait. I want to have a  little  come
left for tonight!"
     "Umm!" I leaned over and kissed him.
     "Come  on. Let's get showered and dressed. Then we  can
watch more of the movie before your parents get home.'
     We  rinsed ourselves off in the shower and got dressed.
Then we both got in bed and finished the movie.
     After  the movie was over we wandered into the kitchen.
I told Owen "I need to water my herb garden in the back."
     "Let's go."
     I  showed  him the garden. Owen asked "So you  use  all
these cooking?"
     "Except for the mint. I just like the way it smells. If
you like it in tea, we could use it for that."
     "I've never had it in tea. But I'm game to try it."
     While  I  watered everything, Owen wandered around  the
backyard.
     "I guess that rose bush that you had over here died."
     "Yeah.  It was starting to look more and more  pitiful,
so  we  finally yanked it. It never was happy. It had aphids
and  black spot and powdery mildew.  Eventually my  mom  got
tired of spraying it."
     "Well, your herb garden looks really healthy."
     "Yeah,  and anyway aphids just add extra protein  to  a
dish."  Owen  looked at me with his eyes squinted  and  then
laughed.
     We saw my mom's car pull up. I turned off the water and
we went back inside.
     When Mom came into the house she said "Hi guys! How was
your day?"
     There was very little of our day that I could repeat to
my mom. I was glad she didn't ask what we'd done!
     Owen said "It was fine."
     Mom said "I've got something for you Owen." She reached
in  her  purse and pulled out some money. She handed  it  to
Owen.  I  couldn't see how much there was, but  Owen  leafed
through  the bills and his eyes bugged out. "You should  put
some or most of that in your bank account. You don't want to
keep that much cash in the house."
     Owen  said "Thanks, but you didn't need to give me this
much."
     Mom  laughed and said "We aren't giving it to you. It's
yours.  You don't have access to your parents' bank accounts
yet, but that should hold you over until then."
     "Come on, Jamie. Let's go to the bank." I followed Owen
into our room.
     "How much is it?" I asked.
     "A thousand."
     "Whoa! I got me a rich sugar daddy!" We both laughed.
     "I want to buy you something, Jamie."
     "What  would  you buy? I just want to be  with  you.  I
don't need anything."
     "I  found  a place on the Internet that will  create  a
dildo  that's an exact replica of a real one. I  could  give
you  a dildo that looks exactly like my cock. You could take
it to school with you! It only costs six hundred dollars." I
laughed.
     "I'm  afraid the other kids would make fun  of  me  and
call me `Dildo Boy'.
     "I  didn't  think of that. Kids can be  so  cruel  when
they're jealous."
     "Yeah.  And you don't have enough money to buy  all  of
them dildos."
     "Someday I will. And besides, only the first one is six
hundred. Additional copies cost only two hundred each!"
     "I  don't  want  to  share your  rubber  dick  with  my
classmates! What did they ever do for me?"
     "Didn't your mom ever teach you to share?"
     "She  tried,  but  you told her to shut  up.  You  only
wanted me to share with you."
     "I have always been polite to your mom."
     "You may have said `Please shut up'."
     I walked over and closed the bedroom door. "You know, I
think  I've forgotten what it looks like." I knelt in  front
of  him and unzipped his pants. I carefully pulled his  cock
out.  I looked up at him and said "I want your cock and your
cum."
     "They're both yours, Jamie. Only yours."
     I took him in my mouth. Owen got hard fast.
     "Oh, Jamie..."
     I sucked for a while, but he didn't cum. Finally my jaw
was getting sore.
     "Sorry,  Jamie.  I don't know if I can  come  again  so
soon."
     I looked up at him disappointed.
     "Let me try," he said. He started stroking his cock  in
front  of  me.  I played with his balls with  one  hand  and
played with his nipples with the other. He stroked it  while
we  watched each other. Finally he said "I'm getting close!"
I  opened my mouth and stuck my tongue out. Owen placed  the
head  of  his dick on my tongue while he continued  stroking
it.
     "Aw,  Fuck!"  He said as he came. His warm come  flowed
into  my  mouth.  I  swallowed it. When  he  was  completely
finished I tucked him back into his pants and zipped him up.
     "Now  we can go to the bank," I said. Owen laughed.  He
pulled me to my feet and kissed me.
     "You are too much, Jamie!"
     "Too much for you?"
     "No. Never mind. You are absolutely perfect!"
     We  left the bedroom and I called out "Mom. We're going
to the bank."
     "OK. See you soon."
     We left to go to the bank. When we got out to his car I
asked  him  if  the BMW was at his house. I didn't  remember
seeing it.
     "No.  They  took it to the airport. I guess it's  still
parked out there."
     "We  need to get it before they tow it away,"  I  said.
"I'll ask Dad about it tonight."
     When  we  got to the bank, Owen deposited seven hundred
dollars into his bank account. When we got back to the  car,
he handed me a hundred dollar bill.
     "What's this for?"
     "Just  to have, in case you need it." I just looked  at
him. "I feel funny taking it."
     "That's  OK.  I feel funny about the whole thousand.  I
didn't  do anything for it. I feel like I stole it  from  my
parents."
     "You don't have to give me money, Owen."
     "I  know  that. But I want to. Who else am I  going  to
share my money with? Chastity?"
     "Hmm.  When you put it like that, I have to take it.  I
hate her guts."
     "She's said nice things about you."
     "Oh, really?"
     "Yeah.  On our date I was telling her about you.  About
how much fun we used to have and how much I liked you. How I
would have rather been with you than her. She looked pissed,
but she said `That's nice'. See? She said nice."
     "I  wish  I  had gone on your date with you. While  you
were  complimenting her on her makeup or whatever,  I  could
have been blowing you under the table."
     "That  would  have definitely made me  enjoy  the  date
more.  But  I  liked to talk about you. I  would  have  told
Chastity  what  a good job you were doing. `He's  smart  and
cute and he gives the best blow jobs ever.'"
     "She would be bound to be impressed."
     "Definitely.  And I would have held her  hand  while  I
came."
     "That's  it! No more dates for you whether I'm  blowing
you or not!"
     "Poor Chastity!"
     "Hmm."
     "But  seriously, Owen. What am I going  to  do  with  a
hundred dollar bill? Do you want me to give the lady in  the
school  cafeteria a heart attack by trying  to  pay  for  my
lunch with a hundred dollar bill?"
     "I'm  sorry, Jamie. You can't have everything.  If  you
want  to  share  my  life, you have to share  my  money."  I
laughed.
     Oh,  well. Maybe I can buy some clothes with it. Do you
want to go shopping Saturday?"
     "Sure!"
     We headed home. Dad was home.
     We  had  leftovers  for dinner. Mom  and  Dad  had  the
casserole that Susan left. Owen had beef brisket and  I  had
brisket of a couple of the sandwiches Elly had left.
     During  dinner I said "Dad, do you know if Uncle Jack's
car is still at the airport?"
     "I  guess it is Jamie. We should get the keys tomorrow.
We can go get the car Saturday.
     "Owen,  do you want to keep driving the Volvo or  would
you rather drive the BMW?" Dad asked him.
     "I don't think I'm ready for it. I'd be terrified I was
going to have a car wreck."
     Hmm. That statement didn't help dinner one little bit.
     To lighten things up I said "Owen wants me to drive the
BMW.  He  doesn't  want  me  driving  his  Volvo  without  a
license." We all laughed.
     When  Mom and I were clearing the plates away, Dad  and
Owen  went  into the den to talk. I figured it was  probably
about the memorial service.
     Mom  said "Well, tomorrow is the memorial service. It's
going  to be traumatic. Your father and I will be delivering
the eulogies."
     "Please  don't read them to Owen tonight. The  obituary
was bad enough," I said.
     "I  won't. Eulogies are about how we feel. Owen doesn't
need  to  provide any input. But your father is asking  Owen
right now if he wants to say anything during the service."
     "I'm worried about Owen. I'm afraid he won't be able to
cope with everything tomorrow."
     "We're worried too, but we can't do anything about  it.
We  could have delayed the memorial service, but that  might
stretch out the grieving. You just keep telling him you love
him. That will help."
     It  was  strange having my mother tell me  to  tell  my
boyfriend I loved him. But Owen wasn't just my boyfriend, he
was  so many other things. He was my parents' god son, their
'nephew',  and  my best, dearest friend. And  I  suppose  he
wasn't  really  my boyfriend. I think all of us  would  have
been  surprised  if either of us ever went out  with  anyone
else. We were together. Period. That sort of made Owen their
son-in-law as well.
     "You  two should make it an early night. Tomorrow  will
be exhausting," Mom told me.
     "OK.
     "It  still  doesn't seem real to me. When  we  were  at
Owen's  house today, I kept expecting to see Uncle  Jack  or
Aunt Janice walk into the room."
     "Yes, I know what you mean.
     "Do  you know if Owen is serious about buying the house
next door?" Mom asked.
     "As  far  as  I know. He loves the house. He  said  the
happiest time of his life was there. I'm sure he hopes to be
happy there again. And he will be. You and Dad will be right
next door. Once I move out, I'll be with him. He hasn't said
it, but I think he will be glad to have you and Dad close."
     "Well,  we'll  both be very glad to  have  you  two  so
near."
     By then we had finished cleaning up.
     "I  guess  you and Owen will be disappearing into  your
room," Mom said. I didn't know what to say to that. I  guess
she was feeling sort of abandoned.
     "You told us to go to bed early!" She laughed.
     "It's  OK.  It's  not like the two of you  disappearing
together is anything new!" I laughed.
     "That reminds me. When Elly came by yesterday, she said
that  Owen's parents spent all their time looking for us  in
the woods. Did they?"
     "No.  You  two were always good about coming home  when
you  said  you would. I never worried because you were  with
Owen and I pitied the poor fool who crossed you when he  was
around.  Jack and Janice never mentioned it to me, and  they
would  have. We would have told you to stop going!  But  you
know Elly, the more dramatic, the better.
     "With Elly you wouldn't have something red. You'd  have
something  the  color  of blood oozing  from  a  decapitated
corpse!" We laughed.
     "But boy, did she catch one hunk of a husband," my  mom
said.
     "I've  heard  two  stories about  that.  Coach,  that's
Frank,  said he coughed up a margarita on her on their  frst
date  when  she said something unrepeatable to  him  and  he
decided  he loved her. Elly says she convinced him  she  was
pregnant  by  him  even  though they  hadn't  actually  done
anything." Mom was laughing hard.
     "What do you want to bet it was really very boring. Boy
loves  girl,  girl  loves boy. Elly's dramatic  sense  would
never allow her to admit that," Mom said,
     "That's probably true," I said.
     Owen  came looking for me. He motioned me out of  there
with his eyes. I followed him.
     We  went  into  the bedroom.  He closed  the  door  and
pulled me into his arms. "I missed you! Can you believe  it?
While  Uncle Ed was talking I was wondering where  you  were
and what you were doing. I hate to admit it, but I think I'm
in love."
     "You've admitted it before. Let me just say I think you
are  fabulous  and wonderful and the love of  my  life."  We
kissed there for a few minutes. Then Owen pulled me over  to
the Sleeping bed. You want to watch TV and cuddle?"
     "Absolutely."
     We  got in bed. I think we both forgot about the TV. We
lay  on  our sides facing each other. I stroked the side  of
Owen's head and looked into his eyes.
     "Your  eyes are the most beautiful shade of  brown."  I
said.
     "I'm  glad you like them. I happen to like yours better
though. Mine sort of bug out like"
     We laid there for a while, occasionally kissing.
     "After  supper, my mom said 'I suppose you two will  be
disappearing into your room'."
     "Really? Was she upset?"
     "No.   She  said  she  was  used  to  it.  We've   been
disappearing together our whole lives, it seems."
     Owen laughed. "I guess she's right about that."
     "Oops.  I just remembered the towels in the washer."  I
got  up  and went to the laundry room. They were already  in
the  dryer  and the cycle was over. I folded them  and  took
them back to our bathroom.
     "Wow, that was quick! You must have some dryer!"
     "Are you kidding? It took almost three minutes! We need
a new one!
     "Actually  I guess Mom or Dad had already put  them  in
the dryer."
     "Now  that we have towels, we can take a shower  and  I
can see you naked again, Owen."
     Owen  got  undressed  quickly and  then  backed  me  up
against the wall.
     "Now  that you've got me naked, what are you  going  to
do?"
     I  looked at him head to toe and said "First I want  to
suck on your nipples." I leaned forward and brushed some  of
the  hair away and started sucking on one. I bit it, but not
too  hard.  I'd  read that a lot of guys  liked  that.  Owen
moaned, so I guess he was one of them.
     "Fuck,  Jamie. That feels so good." I went to  work  on
his other nipple. "I never realized my nipples could make my
dick  even  harder."  After lightly chewing  on  them,  Owen
backed  up  and started to undress me. Once I was naked,  he
took my hand and we walked into the bathroom.
     He  stood me in front of the mirror with him behind me.
He  squirted some lube on his dick, then I felt him push his
lubed finger into me.
     "I'm going to fuck you, Jamie."
     "I want it, Owen."
     He  pushed  a  second finger in me, and then  a  third.
Finally he pushed his cock into me. We watched each other in
the mirror.
     "Do you like having me inside you?"
     "Oh, yes! I love it!"
     Owen  grabbed  my hips and began thrusting.  "Owen,"  I
moaned. He changed his angle and I gasped. He grinned at  me
in the mirror and began jabbing his dick at my spot.
     I  leaned  back  against him and he  wrapped  his  arms
around  me while he fucked me. I could tell he was sweating.
"I'm getting close, baby. You're so tight and hot!"
     I  started  stroking my cock and Owen brushed  my  hand
away.  He  wrapped  his  hand around  my  cock  and  started
stroking it. With his dick stroking my prostate and his hand
jerking me off, it didn't take long before I shouted "Owen!"
and came.
     Owen  thrust  hard a few more times and groaned  as  he
came inside me. I turned my head back and he kissed me as he
came, moaning into my mouth.
     "Damn, Owen! That was incredible!"
     Owen  laughed.  "It was pretty wonderful.  But  it  was
wonderful because it was you.
     "Let's get a shower, Jamie."
     We  washed each other and after drying we flopped  down
in  the Sleeping bed, naked and with Owen's arms around  me.
Perfect!
     We  watched TV for a while and then decided  to  go  to
sleep.  Owen turned off the light and got in bed. I  got  in
and he wrapped his arms around me. I quickly fell asleep.
                            Seven
                          Thursday
     I  woke before Owen on Thursday. I could feel his stiff
cock  pressing against me and decided I was hungry. I worked
my way down and took him in my mouth and after a few seconds
Owen  said "Fuck baby. What a way to wake up! But I want  to
fuck you in the shower."
     "I'll need to use the enema kit first."
     "Nah. If I get dirty, it will rinse off."
     We got in the shower. Owen said "Let me stretch you out
first," and squirted some body wash on his fingers.
     "Why don't you try it without the fingers."
     "Are you sure Jamie?"
     "Sure! If I can't handle it, I'll let you know."
     Owen squirted some body wash on his dick.
     "Bend over a little." I did. He squirted some body wash
on  my butt. Then he slowly tried to push his cock in me. It
wouldn't  go in. Finally I pushed back at the same  time  he
pushed  forward and it popped into me. I screamed  in  pain!
Damn,  it hurt! He pulled back out. So much for my mom's  no
noises rule. I started laughing and Owen joined in.
     Owen said "How about if I stretch you first."
     "You know, that sounds like an excellent idea."
     After  he  stretched me, he eased into me  again.  Much
better.  When  he  got close he reached around  and  started
stroking my cock and we ended up coming at the same time.
     "That was great Owen, but I really wanted a mouthful of
your come. You know, for breakfast."
     "You  should tell me that before I shoot it all up your
butt."
     "I  guess  I  just  need more than one  lover.  There's
always George."
     "You do not want to suck George. You'll get dog hair in
your mouth. And that's the good part."
     He rinsed off and I got down on my knees. I took him in
my  mouth. He got hard again quickly. "Damn Jamie! I've  got
me a hungry little boy!"
     He  held my head and fucked my mouth for a bit. Then he
pulled  out. I put some body wash on my finger and I  slowly
pushed it inside his hole. I moved my finger around, looking
for  his prostate. When he said "Aaarghh", I knew I'd  found
it.  I  took  back in my mouth and sucked while rubbing  the
spot. A minute later his come was spurting in my mouth.
     "Damn, your come is good!" I told him.
     "Don't curse! You're too young!"
     I laughed. "Excuse me! Oh, my! Your come is good!"
     "That's better. And I'm glad you enjoy it. I'll try  to
make sure you get most of it."
     "Most? Most?"
     "I  have  to  keep some in reserve in case Anna  Nicole
Smith decides to haunt us."
     "Screw her! I want it."
     "Make  up  your mind! Do you want me to  screw  her  or
not?"
     Owen  pulled  me into his arms and said  "I  love  you,
Jamie. Have I told you that this morning?"
     "No, and it's nice to hear! So do I get all of it?"
     "All  of  what?" I got down on my knees and  opened  my
mouth.
     "Fuck Jamie! I've only been awake about ten minutes and
I've already come twice!"
     I got up laughing. "I was just kidding."
     Owen said "Now that I know what you want for breakfast,
I promise I'll give you breakfast in bed every morning."
     "Mmmm. It is the most important meal of the day."
     "I know! And I don't ever want you to skip breakfast!"
     After  that I made french toast and scrambled eggs  for
all  of  us. As we ate together in the kitchen it felt  very
comfortable. Apparently my parents had not heard  my  scream
in  the shower. I think they would have mentioned it. I  had
been  a  little  afraid that Mom or Dad  would  have  second
thoughts  about  Owen  and me, but at  one  point  Owen  was
holding my hand and it didn't seem to bother Mom at all.
     After breakfast when we were back in our bedroom,  Owen
shut the door and backed me up to the 'Fucking Bed'. Oooh. I
fell  back on it. Owen climbed between my legs and undid  my
pants. Then he pulled them off me.
     Then  he  said "According to my patented Come  Counter,
you have only come once this morning."
     "That's amazing! Was it difficult to get it patented?"
     "It took many demonstrations to prove its accuracy."
     "That must have been exhausting."
     "It was. I'm a slave to science.
     "Anyway,  as  I was saying, you have had  one  too  few
orgasms this morning."
     "I  was  just  thinking that while I was eating  french
toast."
     Owen  pushed  my legs back and pushed his  face  in  my
crack. "Umm, smells like french toast."
     "Gross!"
     He took my balls in his mouth and sucked on them. Fuck!
It  felt  good.  Then he licked my hole. He  sucked  on  his
finger for a second and started to push it into me.
     "Let  me know if this hurts at all, and I'll use lube,"
he said. It didn't hurt.
     Once his finger was in me he went back to sucking on my
balls.  It  felt so good, I moaned. He began finger  fucking
me.  My  dick was leaking on my stomach. After a few minutes
of this he took my cock in his mouth and sucked it slowly.
     "Owen, that feels wonderful!"
     He  pulled  back and began sucking on my  balls  again.
Then he started pulling on my nipples.
     "Fuck Owen! I need to come!"
     He  took my dick back in his mouth and sucked while  he
rubbed his finger over my prostate.
     "Owen!"  I  cried as I began shooting into  his  mouth.
Owen swallowed every drop.
     When he pulled back, he had this huge grin on his face.
He said "I think I enjoyed that as much as you did."
     "Boy,  Owen. You sure are getting good at that. It  was
fantastic!"
     There  was a knock at the bedroom door. I put my  pants
back  on  in a hurry and opened the door. It was my dad.  He
came in the room and sat on one of the beds.
     "Your  mother and I would like to ask a favor of  you,"
he said.
     "Sure Dad! What is it?"
     "I  want you to turn your stereo or your TV on when the
two   of   you   are.um.well,  you  know."  Oh   lord!   How
embarrassing. I'm sure I blushed. I looked at  Owen  and  he
was red faced.
     "I'm  sorry Dad! We will. We'll be careful." I couldn't
even look at him while I said it.
     "That's fine. Thank you." He got up and left.
     "Oh lord, Owen! If there was a rock, I would hide under
it!"
     Owen  laughed  nervously  "I know!  That  is  the  most
embarrassing thing that ever happened to me."
     I  said  softly "I wonder what they heard.  I  hope  it
wasn't 'Fuck Owen. I need to come!' Owen shook his head.
     He  said,  "But  I guess it was bound  to  happen.  I'm
really glad that's all they want us to do about it. It could
have been much, much worse." That was true!
     We started to get dressed for the memorial service.
     I  asked Owen "Do you think we should ever ask  my  mom
and dad for a bigger bed?"
     "NO!  Let's  leave it alone. I don't want to  push  our
luck.  Besides, I want to hold you in my arms while we sleep
and  we don't take up much space pressed together. Why?  Are
you having trouble sleeping?"
     "No. I'm sleeping better than I ever have."
     "Me too."
     "OK. It was just a thought."
     "Plus,  how would your parents explain if anyone  found
out we are both sleeping in one bed. One bed would be really
difficult to explain. Two beds makes it appear everything is
normal."
     While  we  were getting dressed I asked "Owen,  do  you
know why this is a 'memorial service' and not a funeral?"
     "Yeah, Uncle Ed told me. With a body in a casket,  it's
a funeral. Otherwise it's a memorial service."
     "I've  never  been to a memorial service. I  wonder  if
it's different from a funeral," I said.
     "I don't know. I haven't been to one either."
     As  we  got  ready  to  go to the  memorial  service  I
wondered whether many people would be there. I hoped so, but
I  really didn't know much about my aunt and uncle's friends
(besides  my  parents, of course). I  thought  it  would  be
really sad if it was just us and a big empty church. By  the
end of the day, I was wishing it had only been us.
     When  we  got to the church there were a lot  of  cars.
When  we  went inside it was almost full. We walked all  the
way  to  the  front and sat down, with me next to  Owen.  He
looked  OK. He wasn't crying and I thought that was probably
good.  I really wanted to hold his hand but didn't think  it
was right to do it in church.
     By  the  time of the eulogies, which were given  by  my
parents, Owen was a wreck. He was sobbing openly. I  was  so
worried  about him that I really don't remember what  anyone
said.  I kept wanting to tell them to shut up! I put my  arm
around him.
     And  then  it  got worse. After the service,  we  stood
outside the church while hundreds people told Owen how sorry
they were and what wonderful people his parents were and how
tragic it was that they died so young. And how they met them
and what they said. What they'd done with them and what they
wished they'd done. Now why they thought Owen needed to know
all this, I don't know.
     Owen  was in a daze. He wasn't crying though. At  first
he  talked to them. Then he just nodded to them. Finally  he
had  stopped  responding  to what  people  were  saying  and
asking.
     Finally I told Mom I didn't think Owen could handle any
more.  She  told us to go to the car. She said she  and  dad
would stay for a while longer.
     I  walked with Owen to the car. We both got in the back
seat.  I  made small talk, but Owen didn't respond. After  a
little  while  of  not being able to reach  him,  I  started
crying. I didn't know what was going on in his mind,  but  I
knew it wasn't pleasant.
     "Owen, please talk to me! Please!"
     I wrapped my arms around him and cried on his shoulder.
After a few minutes he hugged me back.
     I pulled away and said "That was not fun!"
     He said "No it wasn't."
     "I  never thought people saying `I'm sorry' could  hurt
so much. Every time someone would say it I felt worse."
     "It was pretty awful."
     "There  sure  were  a  lot of people  there!  Were  you
expecting that many?"
     "Heck no! I have no idea who any of them were!"
     I  said  "Did you hear that woman talk about  your  mom
when  she  was  four? And some of those stories!  'Did  your
father  ever  tell you about the time we got in  trouble  in
high  school?'  They were so generic, they could  have  been
talking about anybody!
     "Hey!  Maybe  they're funeral groupies!" I  said.  Owen
laughed. "They can skip out on work! Like faking an  illness
in  school. Only they're faking being friends. `We  were  so
close  to Ron and Marie... I mean Jack and Janice'. It would
be too hard to keep thinking up new stories, so they recycle
them." He kept laughing.
     "Owen,  school  tomorrow is going to be a  little  like
this.  Lots of people are going to want to talk to you about
your parents."
     "There's one difference. At school I can tell  them  to
fuck off. That doesn't work as well in church." I laughed.
     I  said  "Yeah,  you have to whisper it  and  it  loses
impact."
     Owen  said "In high school, no one will think  anything
of  it. Half the school is saying it to the other half,  all
day long!"
     Owen  was  back from whatever dark place he'd been.  He
hugged me and told me he loved me.
     My parents came to the car. We left the church and made
a  stop. Afterwards we had my aunt and uncle in the car with
us  in a cardboard box. I started to ask if we should use  a
seat belt on them, but decided that would be in poor taste.
     We  went  and  bought urns and that was strange.  `This
one's  nice. Do you think she'd like this one? No, she hated
purple.'  My mom and dad kept asking Owen if he  liked  this
one  or  that  one. I thought they should  be  in  one  urn.
Otherwise  it  was like sleeping in separate  beds.  No  one
agreed  with  me. Fortunately, none of this upset  Owen  too
much.  He  rolled  his eyes at me about  the  time  we  were
looking at the fiftieth urn.
     After  that  we  went to lunch. It was  the  restaurant
where Uncle Jack proposed to Aunt Janice. We sat around  and
talked for almost three hours, just the four of us. Some  of
the  stories were funny and some were sad. We each mentioned
one  thing we would miss most about each of them. Owen cried
along  with  the  rest of us, but this time I  didn't  worry
about him. We were all there for him. For each other. I felt
we  were  doing right by my aunt and uncle, by  my  parents'
best  friends, and by Owen's parents. I felt I  was  finally
doing  right by them. I realized just how very much  I  owed
them.
     When we got home, Owen put his parents on my, oops, our
bookshelf.  It was actually nice having them there.  I  felt
that in a very real sense, they were still with us.
     That  evening while we were getting ready for bed  (and
while  the TV was on with the volume up), Owen began kissing
me.   I  felt  distracted.  I  kept  glancing  over  at  the
bookshelves.
     Owen  said  "So  that's it, huh? Five days  and  you're
tired  of  me  already! I was really hoping our relationship
would last at least a week."
     "What are you talking about?"
     "I'm  kissing you and you are trying to watch  TV!  And
it's a commercial!"
     I laughed. "I'm not watching TV."
     "What is it then? You are not kissing me back!"
     I was embarrassed to admit it. Owen stood there looking
at me. Finally I said "Ummm.It's your parents." I pointed at
them. "I don't think we should be kissing in front of them."
     Owen  looked surprised and said "They never  said  they
didn't want us to kiss in front of them."
     "I  can't  help it! I can't pretend they aren't  there!
I'm staring right at them! I'll never be able to have sex in
front of them!"
     Owen looked like he was trying not to laugh. He failed.
He started laughing and it kept going. Then I started.
     Finally  he  said "There are no holes in the  urns  for
them  to  see  out  of. I specifically  chose  urns  without
windows." I laughed.
     "Wait!  I've  got an idea," he said. He walked  to  the
bathroom  and  brought out a towel. He  threw  it  over  the
bookshelf. "How's that?" he asked me.
     I  thought  about it for a minute. It  seemed  fine!  I
walked  up  to  him, put my arms around him and  said  "It's
perfect. Thank you Owen." And I kissed him. Passionately.
     We  didn't have sex that night. We were both exhausted.
He  pulled me against him in bed with his arms around me and
I had to admit the day ended well.
     Before I fell asleep, I said a prayer of thanks for  my
aunt  and uncle. For all they'd given me: for my very  first
bike  and  Owen  to teach me to ride it, for  many  fabulous
Christmas  and birthday gifts and Owen to share  them  with,
for their love, and most of all for Owen.

                          Epilogue
                      Four Years Later
     Six  months  after my aunt and uncle died, the  Baileys
put  their  house  on the market. I think they  were  a  bit
surprised  when  Owen offered them their  asking  price  the
first  day  it was listed. He even offered to  pay  them  in
cash, if they wanted it.
     For  a while we didn't really know what to do with  the
house.  Owen  and I talked about it a lot. He was  about  to
turn  eighteen  and could live there, but I was  still  only
fourteen and my parents didn't want me moving yet. Even next
door.  We  had  sex in sometimes, but it was  kind  of  eery
having  sex  in an empty house. My dad suggested renting  it
out  until we were ready to move in, but neither Owen nor  I
wanted  anyone else living in it. So it sat there.  As  time
went  on, Owen thought of improvements he wanted to make  to
it,  so  those  were made. It was repainted,  refloored  and
retiled. It had new granite countertops and top of the  line
appliances. 'See the refrigerator has a web browser too'. It
was the nicest house that nobody lived in.
     It  was  also  nice  being able to fertilize  the  tree
without worrying about being caught.
     I just turned eighteen and it was moving day. Actually,
there  was  very little being moved. We bought the furniture
months  ago  and  it's been sitting in there  getting  dusty
since.  So the big move meant taking our clothes, computers,
books, and music next door. It took about an hour.
     Owen's  parents were already there, in  their  his  and
hers urns.
     When  we went into the bedroom I asked Owen if he would
mind  having only one bed "We'll have to sleep and  fuck  in
the same bed."
     "This bed was specially made to allow that," Owen said.
     "That's  amazing! But I may get lost in  it.  It's  too
big! In our twin beds, I could always find you."
     "If you get lost, make an owl call. Do you remember how
to make an owl call?"
     "Give him a cell phone?"
     "Exactly.  So  have your owl call me and I'll  let  him
know where I am. Whether he tells you or not, is up to him."
     "I  really  feel  we should be doing more  work.  We're
moving!  Maybe  there's something else  we  can  bring  over
here."
     "This isn't about the twin beds again, is it?"
     "Oh, Shit!"
     "What?"
     "We forgot to bring our child!"
     So we went next door and got Amigo. He was hiding under
his bush. We moved him into his new home, far, far (about 30
feet) away. His new flower bed is much larger, so he has  no
reason  to  complain.  We  are  discussing  getting  him   a
girlfriend.  However  if  he  is  gay,  he  probably   won't
appreciate it.
     We  looked around the backyard. My dad told us that the
real reason Owen and his parents moved to the new house  was
because Uncle Jack had always wanted a swimming pool and the
tree  Owen and I planted was smack dab in the middle of  the
backyard. Uncle Jack thought neither of us would forgive him
if  he  cut  it  down to make way for a pool. That  and  the
house's foundation needed to be repaired.
     It  was very strange trying to come to terms with that.
Both Owen and I thought they moved to keep us apart. My  dad
said,  "Why  would we want to keep you apart?"  He  admitted
that  they did want us to have more friends, but that didn't
mean  they wanted to keep us apart. He said, "After all,  if
you  had a child, wouldn't you want him or her to have  more
than one friend?" How do you argue with that?
     We  walked  back  into  the house.  My  parents  yelled
"Surprise". I looked at Owen. He didn't seem surprised.  Mom
and  Dad  were there with a very pregnant Elly and Coach,  I
mean  Frank  Robinson, and our friends Celia and  her  lover
Tina.
     Owen said "Shit! It's the in-laws!" We all laughed.
     I  felt incredibly awkward when I found out Frank  knew
about Owen and me. When Elly asked me about it I told her it
was  because  he taught at my grade school. She pointed  out
that  she worked there too. Frank then told me he had a  gay
brother  who lived in Germany. After that, it didn't  bother
me. As a matter of fact, Elly and Frank asked me to be their
baby's  godfather! That shocked the heck out of me. I  think
they  did  it to piss off Elly's parents though.  Apparently
they  felt Elly had married beneath herself. I suppose  they
wanted her to marry a doctor or a lawyer. Obviously they had
never seen Frank wearing just a jock strap! I'm sure what he
has is a lot more fun than a law degree! He's also funny and
I know Elly appreciates that.
     Celia and Tina want to have a baby. They want a baby so
badly that they asked us if Owen would be a sperm donor  for
them.  In  a  way  it would be nice to have  a  little  Owen
around;  I  know  exactly how wonderful  they  are.  But  it
wouldn't be ours. Owen would like to have kids but  he  said
he  would understand if I didn't want him to do it.  I  told
them I would think about it. Then they sort of sweetened the
deal.  If we agree, there will be a second pregnancy and  we
can  keep that baby. I mentioned it to my mom and I  thought
her head would explode.
     She  said "I really don't want to pressure you,  but  I
would really like a grandbaby. And you better give me one or
else."  Well maybe not those exact words, but that was  what
it amounted to.
     I  decided not to get upset that everyone seems to want
to  have  Owen's baby and no one seems to want  mine.  'Who?
Jamie  as  father? Yeah.or maybe we can find a homeless  man
who will do it for five dollars!'
     I'm pretty sure I'm going to tell Celia and Tina yes. I
just want to be completely sure first.
     The  party  was  nice. We had cake and  ice  cream.  We
showed  them our home's many improvements. Also  our  washer
which  apparently used no water at all, our  dryer  which  I
think  dried  clothes  by making them radioactive,  and  our
refrigerator  which had an always-on 3G Internet  connection
and a printer. `You know, so you can print grocery lists.' I
pointed out that we should wait for 4G refrigerators, but we
didn't.
     The  oven, by the way, is wonderful! Owen let me choose
it all by myself. He just made me promise french toast could
be made on it.
     Finally everyone left.
     "Here. I got you a house-warming gift," he said. He got
a  wrapped package out of the closet. Shit! I hadn't  gotten
him anything. I opened the package.
     "It's an extra, extra large butt plug, Owen!"
     "I know. I bought it."
     "Why do I need an extra, extra large butt plug, Owen?"
     "I  realized that this house does not have a safe  like
our  old.um.new house. This way we'll have a place to  store
the family jewels. Even a bowling ball, if I buy one."
     "Then shouldn't the butt plug have a lock?"
     "That's on your new underwear. They were backordered."
     "Thank  you, honey," I said, dropping the butt plug  on
the floor. It bounced, twice!
     Owen took me in his arms and said "Aah! Just the two of
us!  Just the way we've always liked it." And he wiggled his
eyebrows at me.
     "There  are  those who say with four  people  you  have
twice the fun."
     "Yes, but I studied calculus and philosophy, so I  know
what to say to them!"
     "What do you say to them?"
     "I  say  'phooey' to them! I've got my Jamie. Let  them
find their own!"
     "My  gorgeous  genius. I couldn't have said  it  better
myself."
     "Don't forget rich."
     "I don't even like Rich. I'll forget him if I want to!
     "Now where did we put the FB, my sexy love god?"