Date: Sun, 16 Feb 2003 15:31:03 -0500
From: T B <pyro1677@hotmail.com>
Subject: Running

Disclaimer: If you are not 18 or the legal age in the state you live to be
reading this type of material or if reading about two gay boys is not what
you like then please leave now.

I would like to thank Sid for the editing and grammar check.  Thanks Sid.
Also check out his Story Arkansas Vacation. It can be found in the AY
section.

Chapter 1

Running through the woods it was all I thought about.  I had to get away.
I couldn't stand to see their faces in my mind.  The hurt and pain I put
them through I couldn't bare it.

I'm Brian McCalister and I'm 14 years old turning 15 in one month.  I am a
freshman at St. Leo's High School.  I'm only 5'6 and weigh about 147lbs.  I
have brownish-blonde hair and blue eyes.

I'm running because when I came home I saw my mom and dad sitting there
with some gay material from my room.  The hurt and the pain I saw I
couldn't stand, so I ran.  I heard my dad calling after me but I didn't
stop, I fell and cut open my leg, I felt branches, and thorns hitting and
cutting my face, arms and body but still I didn't stop.  I couldn't.  I was
too afraid.

They probably wanted to throw me out but I beat them to it, I left.
Whether I did the right thing or not I don't know, I just had to run and
run fast.

It's about 35 degrees right now and darkness isn't far off, but right then
and there I didn't care, all I cared about was not seeing the pain and hurt
I have caused my family.

You see two years ago I figured out I was gay.  All of my friends started
looking at the girls and talking about how hot they were, I pretended to
notice them to and talk about them as well, in reality I didn't care about
them at all.  I only thought about my friends and what they looked like
naked, and holding them close to me, or better yet having them hold me.

While on the computer one night I stumbled across the nifty archives and
started reading stories like Chris and Nigel, Simons Story, Julio, Starting
Over, For The Love Of Pete, and so many more.  I actually started printing
some of them out.  I thought I hid them so well, I guess I didn't.

I didn't care about the sex in the stories not that I didn't get off on
some of them, but I was looking more for the love and romance, like in the
story New Life.

My best friend Scott Davis noticed a few things different about me and even
went as far as asking but I always told him it was nothing just being bored
or something at the time, I think he bought it but I'm not sure.

Once Scott and I even jacked off together that was cool, but after that he
started talking about Jennifer and Sarah two of the hottest girls at the
school.  I agreed with him that they were hot.  Sure, I mean I can look and
tell if a girl is hot or pretty or whatever, they just don't do anything
for me.  While he was talking about them I was thinking about him.

I wasn't in love with him like some of the stories where best friends fell
in love, I just thought he looked hot and wished we could have messed
around, but even I knew that would not have been cool.

Now Chris Daniels is another story, him I fell in love with.  I have been
in love with him for like 2 years now but I don't think he even notices me.
Every now and then I'll stare at him but he doesn't even notice, so I know
I have nothing to worry about.

Chris is beautiful where Scott is about 5'9, 175lbs, with brown hair and
brown eyes, Chris is so different he is like 5'10 ½, maybe 170lbs, lean
swimmers body, with light blonde almost white hair and dark green emerald
eyes.

Scott and I have lived here our whole lives in this small ass town in
northern Georgia, but not Chris, he moved here our beginning year of 6th
grade and has been here since.

Scott and Chris play on the baseball team together and they seem to be
pretty good friends, but as for me whenever Chris comes over I either leave
or don't show up I'm too scared he will find out how I feel about him.

All of this was going through my head as I ran, I know I was bleeding and
hurt but still I didn't care, I was to scared to stop so I just kept on
running.

It must have been about 8 when I stopped, I couldn't hear anyone behind.
It was dark and must have been about 30 degrees now or lower so I stopped
for a moment and noticed a log.  I went and sat down and just cried.  Cried
for my mom and dad and the rest of my family like Wil my older brother and
Jessica my older sister, I was the baby.

Wil was 18 with brown hair and blue eyes like our dad, he's 6'2 and about
210lbs and all muscle. He's in his first year of college; he was going to
Mercer University and came home on the weekends.

Wil is a major jock, anything sports and he will get involved.  He used to
pick on me because I was more into reading and writing and the computer
then doing sports.  My parents made him stop it, but every now and then he
makes a comment about me being so small and such.  I don't think he
realized how bad he hurts me when he says those things or maybe he just
doesn't care.

Jessica looks more like my mom, she just turned 17 about 5'9, 135lbs, with
blonde hair and blue eyes.  I'm the only one who looks like both my
parents.
  She is a senior at the high school and is ok.

She has a tendency to act stuck up once in a while and sometimes even talks
down to me, like she is better then me.  She even says I'm a little sissy
because I don't like sports, but she only does that when mom and dad aren't
around.  She is a cheerleader and a damn good one.  So it seems I'm the odd
man out.

I don't know how long I sat there thinking about them but I soon noticed it
was getting colder and starting to snow, I put my arms inside my jacket,
shirt and sweater and wrapped them around me making sure that my shirt and
sweater were tucked in tight.

I was starting to get really cold with the snow and all, between the sweat
that was running down my body now and the cold air I started shivering, but
I didn't dare try and return home.  I was too scared I would be beat up or
something.  No my parents never have hit us other then the occasional
spanking when we were younger, but for this I'm sure I would have been hurt
worse.

I was getting tired but knew I should stay awake and moving.  I tried but I
couldn't do it, slowly my eyes closed and I drifted off to sleep and
strangely I noticed that I didn't feel anything.



When I got the call from Scott that Brian ran off upset into the woods I
didn't know what to think other then why, but Scott didn't know anything.
All he said was that Brian came home and saw his folks sitting there with
some personal things of his on the coffee table and took off running.

They tried to catch him but he ran into the woods, by the time his dad came
to the edge of the woods he couldn't be seen or heard, so they came home
and started calling his friends, as of now that was about 8 or 9 hours ago
we have been searching every since.

We had to call it off by midnight because it was snowing and getting way to
cold, all I could do was hope and pray that he would be all right.

I came home and my parents asked if we had any luck and I said no.  My mom
put a candle in the window.

"Just in case he comes this way he may think to come here and at least get
out of the cold." She said.  My mom and dad are cool like that.  I came out
last year at 14 and told them I was gay and if they couldn't handle that
then to let me know now and I'll find some place else to live...

At first my mom cried and my dad sat there looking shocked, so I went to my
room and started packing my things, I was crying some but I wouldn't let
them see me cry.  I was just zipping up my suitcase when they both came
into my room.  My dad unzipped my suitcase and started putting things back
up.

"We don't care, as long as you are happy and safe. We won't try and pretend
we understand about this, but you are our son and we love you.  If your
brother and sisters can't handle that then tough, they will just have to
get over it. We love you Chris and we just want you to be happy ok?" my dad
said coming over to me and giving me a hug.  My mom was already holding me
and telling me how much she loves me.

Chad my big brother came in about then.

"Hey what's going on?" he asked seeing us all in tears.  My dad looked at
me and I nodded putting my head on his shoulder.

"Son your brother just told us something that made him think that we would
not want him.  He packed up his stuff and was getting ready to leave when
your mother and I came in here and unpacked it all.  Chad your brother is
gay, I know you are 17 and this is your last year in high school, if you
have a problem with that then just think that this is the last year you
will have to deal with it.

You will not treat your brother any differently." About that time Michelle
my twin and Jamie the youngest came to the doorway.  "You two I just told
Chad that Brian just came out to us and if you have any problems with that
then as for you two get over it.  Chad if you want I can find other living
arrangements for you.  You're basically an adult now I can deal with you
leaving, but not Brian.  Michelle, Jamie you are both to young to leave so
you will just have to deal with it." He said. I was crying now with all of
what my dad had said to them for me.  I just hugged my dad and loved him
more.

"Also girls I will NOT have either one of you making snide or rude comments
about your brothers sexuality.  I will also not have you be rude to him or
his friends, I am pretty sure he is single and no one knows about this and
we will keep it that way until he decides other wise.  If I find out that
either one of you have said anything to anyone you WILL be grounded till
the end of the school year and then I will decide about the summer.
Understand me?" she asked.  I just smiled and hugged her too while I was
crying.

My brother and sisters stood speechless.

"Hey I don't have a problem with it.  Just don't stare to long dude,
besides I know a few people who are gay and don't want anyone to know.  I'm
old enough and smart enough to understand the problems you'll have.  No
problems coming from me.  Come here." Chad said giving me a hug.  Michelle
just kinda looked then walked away, while Jamie just stood staring at me.

"I really don't care if he likes girls or boys as long as he doesn't try
and steal one of my boyfriends." Jamie said giving me a hug.

"I won't I promise." I said returning her hug.  Michelle was the only one
who I was hoping on to stand beside me more then anyone else.  I told
everyone I wanted to talk to Michelle and they understood.  I went to her
room and knocked on her door.

"What?" was all she said.

"Ummm it's me can I come in?" I asked not really knowing what I was going
to say.

"I guess."  I opened the door and walked in shutting it behind me.
Michelle was on the bed with a pillow in her lap looking down at it.

"Hey" I said.

"Hey" she responded.  Great I thought.

"What's wrong Michelle?" I asked sitting on the end of her bed facing her.
"Come on talk to me we tell each other everything."  She looked at me.

"I thought we did too, but you didn't tell me about this.  I don't care
that your gay I'm just more angry that you didn't tell me already."  She
said getting upset.  "Like you said we tell each other everything but you
didn't even tell me this."

"I'm sorry I was too worried and scared that you would've hated me.  Come
on Michelle, this isn't exactly an easy thing to go and tell someone." I
said pleading with her.  She just stared at me.

"I know and I'm sorry but it still hurts ok." She said tearing up again.  I
hugged her.

"Well I can tell you something that I haven't told anyone else yet and I
may not either." I said.  She looked at me waiting.  "I can tell you who I
have a crush on." I said smiling at her.  She beamed at me.

"Who"

"Well you know that short boy the one our age with the brownish-blonde
hair.
  His name is Brian McCalister." I said smiling at her.  She looked
surprised and happy at the same time.

"Him? Oh My God I can't believe it.  Wow, he is so cute." She said giggling
and smiling.

"Yeah I know." With that we sat and talked for ages about him.

...Over the last year I noticed him staring at me, he just didn't think I
did but I really did.  Hell I even looked at him when he didn't know it.

Well now we are here, how I came out and what happened, now all we have to
do is find Brian and make sure he is ok.

I was still worried about him and that night I dreamed about him, finding
him dead in the woods; I woke up in a cold sweat and noticed Michelle
asleep in the chair in my room.  I got up and went over to her and shook
her arm.

"Hey wake up.  What are you doing here?" I asked her.

She yawned and looked up at me.  "Thought maybe you could use a friend,
with Brian out there and all.  Are you ok?" she responded getting up and
putting her arm around me.  At that point I started crying.

"I don't know I'm so worried about him.  I don't know what to do or where
to go.  I think I'm going to go deep into the woods and look for him.  It's
about 6 now." I said.  I got up off my bed we were sitting on and grabbed
some jeans and put them on over my long johns.  I grabbed a heavy sweater
and my jacket and hiking boots from my closet and finished getting dressed.
"Do me a favor and tell mom and dad I went out to look again for him ok?" I
said looking at her.

"Ok good luck, love you bro." She said, hugging me and giving me a kiss on
the cheek.  "Be careful" with that I left.

I started walking towards the part of the woods that I was told that Brian
entered.  When I got there I noticed there were already some people there.
Mr. McCalister, Scott, Wil and even my brother Chad.  They turned around
when they heard me.  Chad came up and gave me a hug.

"Hey why didn't anyone call me to let me know ya'll were going back in this
morning?" I asked excepting a cup of hot coco from Mrs. McCalister.  I
didn't even see her at first.

"You helped out till nearly midnight when we all stopped at 10.  We thought
you would want to rest." Mr. McCalister said.  I just smiled at him.

"That's ok I feel I need to help him." I said and looked away.  Scott
stared at me kinda funny but didn't say anything Chad looked and smiled.

"Well lets get going, everyone go ten paces from the person next to you and
lets go in." Mr. McCalister said.

I don't know how long we walked I know it must have been over 3 hours
because the light from the sun coming from the clouds above was getting
kinda bright.

As I walked I remembered that there was a log about another 5 minutes from
here and decided to rest when I got there.

As I approached I noticed something lying in front of the log, at first I
thought it was an animal and stopped, but when nothing happened from the
sounds I was making I walked a little more closer, soon I noticed it was a
person and from the look of the jacket it was Brian.

I ran up to him and noticed him lying there with his arms inside his
cloths.  His lips were blue and he was so cold he was almost too cold to
touch.

"I found him, I found him." I started hollering.  I held him close to me to
try and get some warmth going but nothing seemed to be helping. I heard
footsteps and soon everyone was there.

"He has hypothermia we have to get him to the hospital right now." Said Mr.
McCalister.  I was till crying and just held on to his head as Mr.
McCalister, Chad and Wil picked him up and started walking back the same
way we came with Scott following behind us.

I found him and I was glad for that, I just pray we were in time.

TBC

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