Date: Tue, 7 Sep 2010 22:20:18 -0700 (PDT)
From: K Davids <k.davids@ymail.com>
Subject: Some Sense Of Security/ Some Sense Of Security ch.3
This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the
true sexuality of the This story contains sexual contact between to
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Ok so this is ch.3 it's honestly given me a little trouble to get it
going, but with the help of music and A GOOD FRIEND I have come to know
it was easy. So yes I am aware of little errors in my writing, but
every story I have read has it. I do appreciate it being pointed out
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"Northshore"
Don't bend, don't bleed, don't beg, don't scream, don't whine, don't fight,
don't tell me. Don't tell me, don't tell me.
-Tegan and Sara
My inspiration for this chapter!
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Tanners POV
"Well we are friends right? I mean you do text me just a little and
this is the second ride I have offered; besides I think you're an
interesting person and would make a good friend." I say to him and just
smile cause I know I have him.
Chasen looks at me and shakes his head, turning towards the car
window. There he goes again kicking me out of his thoughts. Wonder what
he could be thinking?
We spend the next ten minuets in silence, as I drive us towards
school. We arrive and I take a left into the parking lot and I pull into
my usual spot its right at the front all the way left, I park the car and
look over at Chasen.
I let my eyes wander before he notices what I'm doing; he looks so
good in those jeans and quarter sleeve shirt, it fits his body perfectly
clinging in all the right places. I break contact as he looks over.
"I think we are more acquaintances. That and I don't know you all
that well." He tells me and get out of my car and starts his way to the
school.
"DAMNIT" I yell even though he can't hear my in my car. I just
don't understand his problem, why wont he let me get close to him, "screw
this" I say out loud and I grab my backpack and jump out of the car and
chase after him.
"CHASEN!!!!!!"
"Tanner.."
I grab him on the shoulder and turn him around, I see panic all
over his face and he winces as if I'm going to hit him. He begs me to let
go of him so I do, and I follow him
"Dude, I'm trying real hard man I don't understand why you don't
want to be friends?" I say walking behind him.
"I don't know why you're trying; maybe you should just leave me
alone Tanner ok? I didn't ask you to pick me up and take me home, or school
the other day." He tells me without even turning around
"Well I thought......"
"Don't think when it comes to me. I can handle myself I have made
it this long without anyone trying to help me I can make it still." He
tells me as he walks off.
I stop dead in my tracks, I just got blown off by him and I don't
know what to think. For once I'm just shocked, I watch him go and I stand
there, at that moment Kristy comes up.
"Hey, sexy!" She tells me as she leans in to hug me.
"Uh...Hey, Kristy" I mumble out not really wanting to deal with her
at this moment.
"So, are you coming to the game tonight?" She asks as she twirls
her hair in front of me.
"Na probably not, Why?"
"You have to Tanner! I'm doing, I mean me and the dance squad are
doing are new routine at halftime! You half to be there for me baby." She
tells me as she gives me this pouty face.
"Kristy, I'm not coming to the football game ok I got plans with
Chasen." I say I know it's a lie but she doesn't know that.
I tell her I have to get to class and leave she looks super pissed,
but I just can't handle her right now.
Walking though the halls I try to catch Chasen, but to no avail I
don't. I give up and walk to homeroom to listen to Mrs. Agnail drone on
and on about the stupid homecoming dance that's in two weeks.
Everything passes by its all a blur I'm just zoned out like literally I
don't pay attention to anything I ignore my friends. Its like I'm there
physically but mentally I'm lost right now just going over the shock and
panic he had on his face when I turned him around. I'm spacing out so bad I
don't notice or pay attention to my classes.
Four classes fly bye and I still see no sign of him and its actually
pissing me off I failed to quizzes today, and I'm losing my cool how can he
just blow me off like I don't exist? It's beyond frustrating the more he
pulls away and shoves me the more I want to get to know him and what made
him this way.
Before I know it lunch is here and I just don't want to stay so I
go ahead and decide to just skip the rest of the day its all shot to hell
anyway I cant focus all because of some boy! What the hell is wrong with
me? I can't be falling in love with him can I? No! I can't I don't know
him but I can't stop thinking of him. I stop and I think on our earlier
conversation he said don't think when it comes to him, that's exactly what
I'm going to do.
I walk to the cafeteria and I see him in his usual spot head down
on his table. I walk over to him and plop down.
"Tanner leave me alone." He says with out looking up.
"Not till you agree to stay the night at my house." I tell him and
I actually shock myself.
He looks up and scrunches his nose up as he looks at me, it's the
cutest thing his blue eyes how they look in shock.
"What?"
"You heard me!" I tell him
"Dude, no I don't know you and just no."
"Yes, your coming over tonight I'm driving you to my house after
school, you can call your mom on the way over."
He just looks and laughs and says she wouldn't care, assuming she
wouldn't actually mind I smiles and said good. I offered him my hand to
shake he just looked at me.
"Shake my hand Chasen." I tell him
He slowly grabs my hand and shakes it he has the softest hand I
have ever felt I want to hold it longer than necessary, but I don't.
I look at him and tell, "I'm Tanner Alec Garret, I'm 17 and a
junior and I'm a positive person and love to talk to everyone."
He looks bewildered at me and he starts to laugh, and it seems like
it has been way to long for him to laugh that hard and he smiles and he
says ok he will come over.
We sit there and laugh for about five minuets, his smile is so
infectious I have never noticed before his teeth are so white and they
compliment all his looks. He keeps laughing, and I laugh with him the
sound is so pleasing to me it's as if he's still a kid laughing at a funny
cartoon.
"So it's a deal right? You're for sure coming over right?" I ask
him trying to keep the smile off my face.
"Yes! Now please let me eat!" he says acting all serious, but busts
out laughing.
By now people are staring as if we have lost our mind, but I keep
laughing at Chasen and he stops and looks around and gets red in the face
and he puts his head down.
"Dude what's going on you where just laughing and having a great
time why all of a sudden did you just get quiet?" I ask as he just shakes
his head.
I open my mouth to say something else but the bell rings and he
gets up giving me a little wave and leaves. I wait for a few seconds and
let the crowed thin out before I make my way back into the hall. As I exit
the cafeteria door there is Kristy leaning on the wall.
"Why where you sitting with that..that loser Chasen?" she shoots at
me.
"Since when does it matter who I hang out with? Besides it's not
like I'm dating you Kristy." I say walking past her.
"We practically do date! I'm still waiting on you to ask me to the
homecoming dance already, Matt already asked Jackie now where just waiting
for you to ask me so we can plan the rest of the night out!, besides you
don't need to be seen with Chasen, I have heard his a fag and a perv. Matt
told me that Chasen came onto him last year! That's so gross." She rants as
she follows me.
At this point I'm pretty pissed, I turn around and stop her dead in
her tracks, "We are not together Kristy get that through your head! Ok I
don't like you in-fact I am making myself stand her and talk to you! Good
for Matt and Jackie let them go to the lame ass homecoming dance together I
don't care all I know is I will not be going with you or them. Chasen is
not a perv, or anything else you say he is, Fuck what Matt says he claims
everyone checks him out, even though no one does.
Kristy's mouth just hangs open as I walk away. I see Chasen and he
has a look of shock on his face and heads into his classroom. Fuck I know
I'm not going to be able to focus in class, hell this whole day has been
bad for my class performance. I go ahead and skip my world history class
not like I will be missing anything I will just get the notes from a
friend.
I walk to Mr. Davis's room he's the band teacher, no I'm not a band
geek not that there actually geeks here because Mr. Davis has his shit
together and we have one of the best marching bands in our district. Plus
he is super cool to talk to, I also forgot to mention I go and vent to him
he is also a guidance counselor.
I knock on the door and I hear him yell come in. I walk in and
he's in his usual spot behind his drum set that he has and is drumming to a
beat that he's made up or learned.
"Ahhh, Mr. Garret how may I help you today?" he asks without
breaking stride in his drumming.
I smile walking into the room I lean on a desk and pick up a guitar
that is close by; actually I think it's the one he taught me how to play
on. I strum a few chords, and I sigh out loud.
"One of those days eh?" He asks as he grabs a towel to wipe the
little beads of sweat off his forehead. "So, tell me what's on your mind
Tanner or you wouldn't be skipping History class, which I will most likely
have to write a note to your teacher."
I just smile, "you know me all to well huh?" I ask.
"Well you have been coming to me with all your problems for the
last three years Tann; you're practically a son to me. So what's going
on?" He asks as he gets up and sits into his rolling chair.
Mr. Davis isn't that old at all he's about twenty five with brown
hair and dark brown eyes but he's not very tan, he isn't what you would
expect as a teacher he is real cool. He has had a lot of hardships He's
widowed, his wife and there four year old son died in a car wreck it took a
huge toll on him. They were high school sweethearts. Had a kid young got
married went to college and was living the life until the accident.
"Today has just been crap, I mean I met someone and I like them a
lot, like a lot a lot. But this person just I don't know has so many walls
up that it's so hard to get to know them. Plus they have no friends and
the person seems okay with it." I let out as I strum a random tune on the
guitar.
"That and Kristy is driving me INSANE, she actually believes we are
going out! I cant believe she thinks that it makes me mad, I have never
went out with anyone and she claims me as her own its so frustrating." I
blurt out before he can even comment on the first mess of words I threw
out.
He leans back and eyes me for a minuet, "So you figured it out
huh?"
"Figured what out?" I ask bewildered.
"That you're not exactly normal like most boys. No Tann before you
get upset with me I have known since I met you, but I have let you discover
it for yourself." He says looking at me.
"Wait, what I'm confused what are we talking about?"
"Tann I know the person you are completely head over heels for
there is only one person in this entire school who is how you described,
that would be Chasen Tarrant." He announces.
"You knew all along I wasn't straight?"
"Well that's part of my job is to get to know my students and well
someone who comes in here a lot." He says getting up and tuning the guitar
in my hands.
I'm speechless I want to cry and scream at the same time, here is a
man that I have known for three years and he knew I was gay, and I didn't
even know it.
"It's ok Tanner, I don't care I have known since your freshman year
you stumbled into my office, that and you have never once took the
opportunity with Kristy even when she was practically throwing her self on
you."
"I know......just I didn't expect you to know everything, and not
about Chasen so soon." I tell him as he walks back to his chair.
He sits down and gets comfortable and leans back. "Well Chasen is
different all the Teachers have asked me to try to offer him help, but he
is too proud to take any. We don't know his home life or anything we know
he doesn't keep friends, or have anyone he is close to. So tell me more
about why you like him?"
I start strumming slow down by the academy is, and I let it all
out, "I like him so much, his blonde hair those fierce blue eyes and the
intensity he has when he looks at you its like he can see into your soul,
and heart. He is so mysterious that it keeps me on edge when I'm around
him I don't have to be happy or watchful of what I say. Like I do at
school and I don't have to think around him just being near him makes me
happy."
Mr. Davis looks at me and shifts his foot around to where it's
sitting on his knee, "Seems you really like him. Before you completely
fall over for him, get to know him and see if he reciprocates the same
feelings to you. He is a unknown person who I can't even tell you what he
feels. You're a good person Tanner and I am very proud of you, plus you're
smart I know you will be careful."
I strum a little faster on the guitar and I look at him I feel like
the whole world has been lifted off my back, "Thanks Mr. Davis" I say and
smile
"No problem kid, now get its Friday and I have a lot of paper work
to get done grades need to be in! By the way you've come along way on the
guitar." He says as he shoes me out of his room.
Like clock work the bell rings I look at the time and I spent the
last two periods with him! I didn't even notice! SCHOOL is out I need to
find Chasen!
The halls where full with the student body rushing out the door as
if someone famous, but that's just school on a Friday. I look jump trying
to see the mop of blonde hair but to no avail I can't I think I will wait
by the door I'm sure I will catch him on the way out.
Standing anxious at the wall outside by the door I look at every
student who has blonde hair, I turn and look towards the parking lot and
there he is leaning on my car looking sexy as ever, I smile and make my way
towards him.
"I thought you where going to bail on me." I say smiling as I walk
up to him unlocking my Honda civic that is green, don't know if I ever
mentioned what I drove.
"I knew if I would have you would have hunted me down. Am I right?"
he asks with a little smile playing on his lips.
"Damn straight I would." I laugh as I throw my backpack into the
back and get in.
We leave the parking lot and I start heading towards his house and
he asks where are we going?
"Don't you need to get some clothes?" I ask.
"Nah I carry extra with me you know just in case." He says quickly,
"lets just go to your house I already called my mom."
"Cool, cool my house it is then!" we drive along the road not
really saying much but I can tell the mood is way different from this
mornings.
"Where do you live?" Chasen asks looking out the window.
"On Bucklin St. so what kind of music do you like?"
"So the rich part huh? And probably music you never heard of." He
says with out emotion.
With that I don't know how to respond, I turn on the radio and pop
in a burned cd, one with different mixes. Paramore starts to play, and I
nod my head and I catch Chasen smiling at me.
"What? Can I not enjoy music?"
"No it's actually surprising you listen to them and not rap."
We pull up into my drive way and the look on Chasen's face
is hard to read a mixture of pain, and confusion.
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CHASENS POV.
We pull into this huge house, and it reminds me of when everything
in my life was as perfect as his is now. I bet they even have a huge pool
in the back yard. I just don't know what to expect next this whole day has
been fucked for me.
Ever since this morning when Tanner grabbed me I wanted to freak I
was scared shitless that he was going to hit me, and I kept getting death
glares from Kristy that bimbo, I just hope Tanner is ok with me when he
finds out about my past, and my baggage I carry around.
He gets out of the car and I follow leaving my bag in the backseat
with his, I walk a few paces behind him I feel really out of place. He
opens the door and yells "MOM! I'm home, and I brought a friend over to
stay the weekend."
Wait did he just say the whole weekend? I think to myself this is
going to be very, very hard to handle. I smile a little as he leads me in.
The house is huge bigger than my old house the carpet is a plush white very
clean, and stairs are right in front, leading to the rooms I guess. To the
right is the living room and after that a door which a middle aged lady
walks out smiling.
"Well hello! I'm Mrs. Garret, but you can call me Margaret." She
says and holds out her petite hand.
I shake her hand visibly shaking myself Tanner looks just like her
he is thin like her and has her green eyes I smile and introduce myself.
Tanner nudges me to follow him and we go up the stairs.
We walk by four rooms which two our guest rooms I'm assuming and
another room that is his little brothers I didn't even know he had a little
brother. The last door in the hall is his he opens it and leads me in its
huge!
He has a huge king size bed off to the right, a computer desk with
a desktop and a laptop, then across the room is a flat screen TV with a ps3
hooked up to it. I just gape looking at all his stuff he even has his own
bathroom attached to his room.
"My mom and dads room is downstairs. The other room is my little
brothers, so what do you think welcome to my domain!" he says sitting into
a chair and offering one to me.
"Your house is big! Hey Tanner I'm sorry how I acted this morning,
it's just usually when someone is being nice to me it's for an ulterior
motive."
"I just want to be friends man; I mean you don't have a lot do
you?"
"No, I don't I just don't really worry about it, to tell you the
truth." I laugh cause it kills me I have no one to talk to I think.
We talk for a little bit mostly about school and classes we hate,
we kill time by watching a little TV. To be honest I couldn't even tell
you the last time I watched TV, it has been so long ago.
Before I know it his Mom is calling us to go wash up, because
dinner is nearly ready I look at the clock and its only 5:30pm.
Tanner laughs and tell me they eat early that his dad will be home
in like ten minuets and we will eat, he leads me to his bathroom which is
well huge about the size of my room to be exact.
I hear chatter as we go down the stairs and walk into the dinning
room, at the head of the table is I'm assuming his dad because he looks a
lot like him the dark hair, and There is Margaret to his right and to the
left is a boy about 15 that looks just like Tanner. We make introductions
and I learn Tanners dad's name is David, and his little brothers name is
Troy.
There was light conversation at the dinner table; we had Pork chops
with Mashed Potatoes, and Green beans. It was the best home cooked meal I
had in the last few years.
"So Tanner what do you mom and father do as a living?" asks David
while he reaches for more food.
I look like a dear caught in headlights I hesitate, "Well my mom
works as a night cashier in the town over, and well my dad he left a while
ago." I say as look down.
"I'm sorry didn't mean to bring up a subject that made you
uncomfortable, so what grade are you in, and how are your grades?"
"I'm a sophomore, and I makes A's and a few B's." I reply.
"Outstanding!" he beams at me with a real smile.
I fuck up next I accidentally knocked over my water on the table, I
scramble to get my napkin while I apologize I start to shake and expect
yelling and I look up and David is still smiling not even worrying about
it, I look at Margaret and she has a look of sympathy on her face, while
Troy and Tanner laugh.
"Hun, its ok its only water! I wished that was the only thing I had
to worry about spilling. When you have these to well three boys living with
you there is a whole lot more things being spilled." She says and gets a
rag and smiles at me, while wiping up the water.
"Margaret I'm not a boy." David chimes in.
"Oh, dear but you like to act like one." She muses back at him
while everyone laughs.
We sit at the table and idly chat about how everyone's day went.
For the first time I feel comfortable then Tanner announces that we are
going to his room.
We walk back to his room saying he wants to show me a song that
will blow my mind and I laugh at him because he is ranting that this band
who I know but absolutely hate!
I tease him as he puts in the cd and it is so bad! I tell him and
he laughs at me and threatens to tickle me and I joke saying he could never
take me.
I stretch out on his bed letting my shirt ride up a little showing a little
skin, just enough to maybe make him interested and I keep egging him on
about how horrible the song is
"Oh you asked for it!" he yells while running and straddling me and
starts to poke and jab me tickling me I start to laugh and tell him to get
off.
We wrestle around him still tickling me hard and that's when he
hits a bruise on my ribs I yelp with pain and take a sharp intake.
"Oh man I'm sorry Chase are you ok? Let me see?" he asks reaching
for my shirt.
Before I can stop him he lifts up my shirt a little bit and sees a
purple yellow bruise, and he gasps trying to pull up my shirt more and I
stop his hand.
"Tanner please just don't." I beg
"Chasen, I need to see how bad they are ok." He says pushing my
shirt up and he lifts it over my head.
I feel bare with my shirt off and my horribly bruised stomach and
chest exposed to him. He looks in horror as I look down, he touches the
bruises tracing them from the dark purple to light blue to the yellow hue
color.
"Who did this to you?" he asks in horror.
"No one just leave it alone give me back my shirt." I tell him
"Chase, tell me who did this, you need to be checked out. Let me
get my mom. He starts towards the door and I grab his hand.
"Please, Tanner just leave it alone ok. Just don't get your mom
involved." I plead with him as tears form in my eyes.
"It's ok Chasen, it will be ok I just need to know how this
happened and who did it?"
"I'm clumsy and fell down the stairs at my house." I lie.
"Don't lie to me I know you don't have stairs at your house, how
did this happen?" he asks
I look at him and I break down crying I finally let all the pent up
hurt just release. I crumble to the bed and he sits next to me comforting
me and I lean on him, and I just cry.
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There is ch.3! its done! I know left at an intense part will Tanner and
Chasen get together next chapter????? Or will the just be friends??? Gotta
find out but I wont disappoint! It took me a little bit to write this one
ch.4 will be soon I'm aiming for early next week my b-day is Friday so I'm
going to be out partying for celebration, please keep the comments and
suggestions about the story coming anything you would like to see added to
help. I want to thank Josh for being my number one ranting friend he has
listened to me as I ranted and raved about things! Thanks BUDDY!