Date: Tue, 5 Oct 2010 10:54:31 -0700 (PDT) From: K Davids <k.davids@ymail.com> Subject: Some Sense of Security/ Some Sense of Security Ch. 7 This story is fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true sexuality of the reader. This story contains sexual contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where you live then please hit the back button now and do not read on! Everything in this story is PURE FICTION made up by me all the characters, and where it takes place is all fiction even the names please do not copy it and post it anywhere else Feel free to email me k.davids@ymail.com ------------------------------------------------------------------ So, I just want to thank all of y'all the readers for the awesome comments I have received. It's awesome to know I can write and entertain everyone and Thanks to Ty my editor he is just awesome, he gets to deal with me when I don't know what to write haha! ------------------------------------------------------------------ I watched the sun again, it's leaving now I've spent all night long, trying to figure out What I've lost and what I've found When my feet won't hit the ground Trying to make it, starting over And will we ever love again? ~Bless The Fall~ "Hey, baby here's the song you wanted ------------------------------------------------------------------ Characters Chasen- Main character Tanner- Chasen's boyfriend Margaret- Tanner's Mother David- Tanner's Father Troy- Tanner's little Brother Aaron- Family friend ------------------------------------------------------------------ --------------------------TANNER' POV----------------------------- Getting up, moving closer to the bathroom door that is cracked open, I hear Chase and Aaron talking. Chase is pissed and I hear Aaron try to be defensive. "Eating disorder what the hell are they talking about?" I ask myself as I hear them talk more about what's happening I keep listening to see if they are going to clue me in. I hear them mention my name and me being a grouch in the mornings, "sorry to disappoint, that's my brother!" I sigh out loud and go lie back on the bed and pretend to sleep, but end up passing out. "Hey baby, wake up." I hear Chasen telling me shaking me gently, "You need to get ready for school." I open my eyes, and look at him, "I'm up." "Ok I didn't know...." Chasen tells me. I get up stretching my stiff muscles, and head for the door, wanting to get out of the room. "No kiss?" Chasen yells behind me. I stop and sigh, "have to get ready for school, can't be late for that can we." With that I leave the room, entering mine I seem to get more pissed off. Why hasn't he told me about his talk with Aaron? Since when have we kept secrets from one another? I grab a pair of blue jeans and just a plain white shirt. I don't really feel like dressing nice today, I go brush my teeth, and throw on socks and shoes and I go towards the living room. Chasen comes into the living room wearing black skinny jeans and a white v-neck shirt that fit to his body with blue converse. He looks so good, but still doesn't change the fact he hasn't told me. "You ok babe?" he asks sitting next to me. "Just being grouchy this morning." I say not looking at him. He pulls me by the arm dragging me outside, "What the fuck Tan? We don't just have an amazing day like yesterday, and then you get to treat me like shit!?" I look at him, "Your right we don't get to have an amazing day, and then you hide shit from me the very next morning and expect me not to find out. I heard you and Aaron talking this morning. Why didn't you tell me?" He sighs, "Because what he tells me, he might not want you to know. Were you eavesdropping on us?" "No I needed to use the restroom." I lie, "Chasen you're my boyfriend, and my family takes care of Aaron, I think I have a right to know what's wrong with him." "FINE you want to know so badly? He is bulimic; he makes himself throw up! He has self-esteem issues; he doesn't know what to do. So he broke down and talked to me, and don't lie to me I know you eavesdropped and that's bullshit." He tells me stating to walk away. I grab him by the arm, "Don't be pissed because you didn't tell me what was going on." "Let go of my arm." He tells me and jerks his arm out of my grip. "Whatever be an ass today." I tell him following him back into the house, "You shouldn't hide stuff from me, Chase we are a couple!" "Then why don't you start acting like a boyfriend, and not some jealous asshole!" he tells me turning and getting close to me, "I go out with you! Not Aaron or anyone else, so stop treating me like shit!" I start to get pissed, "Just go get Troy, and Aaron. We are going to be late." I walk to the car pissed, I don't know who I'm more pissed at Chase, or myself for being such an asshole. I got in, I sat waiting on them to walk out of the house. I see all three of them leave the house and Troy, and Chasen talking. They both nod in agreement with whatever they are talking about. Chasen goes around and gets into the back passenger seat and Troy takes the front seat and Aaron sits next to Chase... Gritting my teeth, I grab the steering wheel harder, putting the car into reverse and speeding out of the neighbourhood. The car ride is silent, you can slice the tension with a knife that's how thick it was. I pull into the school parking lot; Troy and Aaron head off in the opposite direction of Chase and I. "So are you going to be mad all day?" I ask walking next to him. He looks at me and frowns, "depends if you're going to be an ass all day." We walk towards the area that has benches in front of the school and we both take a seat and we don't say a thing to each other. "TANNER!" I hear being called from behind me, so I spin around, putting my back to Chasen. "Hey Kristy, how was your weekend?" I ask being friendly, knowing it will make Chasen mad. She leans in and gives me a huge hug, making sure her boobs press into me, and gives me a lil peck on the cheek, "It was great, but would have been better if you would have made it to the huge party I threw at my house!" "I'm sorry I had...other commitments." I say. We hear a cough from behind us I turn to see Chasen with the most pissed off face I have ever seen in my life. "Oh, hey Chasen..." Kristy tells him. "Hi...Whor..how are you." He asks smiling a little from his little slip. I see Kristy get a scowl on her face and narrows her eyes and I see she is going to pounce, "Look, you little faggot! Yes I know that you are one, let's just say I made sure everyone knew about you and your little gay pride bracelet you wear. I know what it means and I am not stupid! Plus you make it obvious how you lust after Tanner here! You act like you're going to jump his bones at any moment." --------------------------Chasen's POV---------------------------- I just look at this bitch, I want to reach over and strangle her, better yet I want to strangle Tanner, even if he looks like a dear caught in headlights. I look back at her and smile, seeing Tanner get worried, "I might be gay, but at least I know I haven't contracted any STIs unlike you, who sleeps with anything with a dick!" and with that I walk away smiling at the shock on her face. As I walk off I can hear Kristy telling Tanner that he needs to watch out that I might try to do something to him, I laugh out loud thinking to myself, "Yeah and he was the one giving me a blow job last night." I walk into the front of the school and the principal is out in the halls, "FUCK!" I think to myself. "AHH, Mr. Tarrant! The boy I was looking for. I need you to go to room 204 please." Mrs. Nanders tells me as he hands me a hall slip. I look at it and take off to room 204; I have no clue whose room this even is. I don't even know why I am being sent there. I reach the door and I open it spotting multiple guitars and drum sets all over the room and there at the desk is a teacher. "I'm supposed to come in here" I say looking at the teacher who is reading a note, and I walk over and hand him the hall pass. He looks up and smiles, he isn't what I was expecting, he's fairly young, "Mr. Tarrant, I have heard a lot about you from a peer or yours. Please sit." He tells me pointing to a chair. I sit down looking at him, "Why am I here?" His smile falters a little, "Well, we, as in the school faculty, have been notified about your mother and what has transpired in your home or should I say old one." Mr. Davis tell me. I look at him sensing dread comes over me, "How?, and I still don't understand why am I here." "We think you might need to see a psychiatrist due to the treatment you have endured, but I stepped in and offered to talk to you. I can understand you not wanting to talk to anyone about what has happened but, if you agree to at least meet with me a few times a week in the mornings." He says getting up and leaning on his desk. I start to get up and tell him to shove it, but he speaks before I can get up. "Please, just think about it, is it that hard to come here, twice a week in the morning, we don't even have to talk about your mother, we can talk about anything, I see your living with the Garrets? Hell I don't even mind teaching you guitar or drums." He says almost like he is pleading with me. I look at him, "Why are you being so nice to me? I mean why show such interest in me?? "Because I know how it feels, that and I think you will be happier talking with me than an old psychiatrist, plus what we talk about, is between us." Mr. Davis says. The bell rings and Mr. Davis looks at me and I nod, "Good, see you Wednesday morning. ok?" "Ok." I say leaving the room, and making my way to my first period class, and I of course have it with Tanner, but I am still so pissed off at him, not defending me against Kristy. I sit in the back today for class, really don't want to be bothered with the teacher asking me annoying questions, and I watch as Tanner sits to the right of me. "I tried to find you after what happened outside." He tells me. I just ignore him, focusing on the board in front of me, wishing he would stop trying to talk to me right now. He tries to gain my attention by tapping on my desk, "Chase, I'm sorry ok!" I just look at him and narrow my eyes, "No you're not, you're ok as long as you save face in front of the crowd, but it's ok I took the fall for you again and admitted I am gay!" He looked like he was going to cry, but I was way to mad right now to care, I raised my hand and the Teacher called on me, "Can I please be excused to go uhmm... I need to talk to uhh..." Before I could get Mr. Davis's name out, Mrs. Dante told me to go ahead there wasn't a problem. They must have told all my teachers, what the hell!. I left the class, I didn't head to Mr. Davis's room like I was supposed to, I just needed to get away from Tanner right now I couldn't be near him or I would cried. I go to the bathroom to wash my face, as I splash my face I hear a stall door open and someone step next to me and start washing their hands. "So is it true you admitted that you're gay to Kristy?" Matt asked as he was washing his hands. I thought my day couldn't get any worse, "Don't worry Matty; your little secret is safe with me." I tell him reaching for paper towels to dry my hands. "I don't know what the hell you're talking about fag!" He says stumbling over his words, because he knows they're a lie. I don't know what came over me I guess from all the stress, and bull shit from everyone I walked up to him and grabbed his crotch, "Yeah you do know, we used to date in junior high remember, and when my mother caught us you freaked out on me and told me not to speak to you again." With that I pecked him on the cheek, "So yeah your secret is safe with the fag!" and I walked out of the restroom. "You better watch your back Tar......" I heard him call but the door closed on him before he could finish what he was saying. This day couldn't get any worse for me. So I just headed to the gym, I figured it would be empty, because it doesn't get used till the last period of the day. Entering the darken gym I make my way over to the bleachers, and pull my phone and finally turn it on, it hasn't been on since the last round with my mom. As soon as it turns on it starts beeping, from unread messages to voicemails, I check the voicemails first. All of them where from Sarah, asking if I was ok, if I'm coming back to work or not? The last one said that I always have a job there if I need it, and it was from my boss. The texts where from Sarah asking the same thing, if I was ok, then my phone beeps again and it's Tanner. "Where are you? I'm really sorry ok!" I text him back I am just fine, and to just go to class. "No! Where are you?" he texts back. I finally give in, and tell him I am in the gym. No sooner had I sent it about four minutes later he comes strolling into the gym. "Chase, I'm so sorry about everything this morning, please forgive me?" He tells me sitting next to me. I just look at him, "It hurt more being treated like shit, and blown off by my boyfriend, than any beating I have ever taken from my mother, including the one where she broke my arm." He looks at me in shock, he moves in front of me so he is looking up at me, "Baby, please I am truly sorry, I'm still going through the initial shock of us actually together. I'm adjusting slower than you are, and I don't know how to come to terms with people knowing I'm well yeah...." "You're coming to terms that your still GAY! But yet we did all that stuff on the beach? Please explain this to me Tan, are you with me to just get your rocks off when you need it, or do you actually like me?" I say spewing venom into the words. He looks up at me, "I would never use you like that, and please Chasen I am trying not to be the bad guy here. I really like you more than anyone else in my life. I screw up a lot, I don't know how to handle the pressure so I look to you, you're the strongest person in my life that I know. I am learning how to handle the situations slowly! Please just don't give up on me yet. I'm so sorry I am really trying." By the end of his rant he was in tears looking up at me. I felt all my anger I had, just slip away, I moved down to where I am still in front of him and kiss him, "Babe we are going to be ok, just a lot of stuff has happened so fast." He kisses me back, "I thought for a second you were going to break up with me, and I'm going to start working on my coming to terms, I just cannot lose you!" ----------------------Aaron's POV-------------------------------- Sitting in math class is so freaking lame I hate it, but Mrs. Kearny is super cool to me, probably cause she is a lesbian, and also maybe cause I'm her top student in class! Wait did I just say the L word?! Yup she is I can tell, its cool cause she the best teacher this school has, plus they don't care! So I am sitting chilling, because I finished my work and have nothing else to do! And it's only a ten minutes in to the class. Also Mrs. Kearny doesn't like to give out homework she tell us it's because, it would be too much homework for her to grade so we all love that, but she gives out longer worksheets on some days like today, because our school likes to have our core classes and hour and a half long...ridicules I think! "Aaron could you please come out in the hall for a second?" She asks and steps out into the hall. I look at her and look around, and I get up and slowly make my way out to the hall, I smile and try to put on my charm in case I'm in trouble, "Yes ma'am?" "Aaron! Drop the charming act, it doesn't work with me anymore, and you're not in trouble. You know, you are one of my brightest students in Algebra I need to ask you a question." "Well, depends on the question!" I joke. She looks at me seriously, "Ok, ok I'm sorry!" I tell her. "Well I was approached by a parent, and they asked me to help their son improve his grades in all his classes, he is close to failing. If he does that he will not be allowed to play football." She explains to me. "MRS. KEARNY! You want me to help by tutoring a brainless jock!" I complain to him. "That's not the case Aaron; you are a bright, intellectual upbeat student, and I think working with you will help him also come out of his shell, he just transferred in last week, and is struggling already. Since I am the sponsor of your class till y'all graduate it's my duty to make sure the students who need help receive it." She says to me in that way teachers get you to agree. "FIIIINNEEEE! But only for you! He better not be a brainless jock either!" I tell her laughing. "Good you can start now, go to the tutor room, in room 301 it should be open, I told them to open it for I had a student going to tutor for some classes, I will send him down in a minute." She says turning back into the class room. I find the room without any problem; I know pretty much every room in this school. Hey what can I say I'm nosey. I walk into the classroom and its empty so I decide to pick a desk, and I set them side by side and I sit in the one to the left. After about five minutes, I hear the door open and a boy with brown hair down to his ears and it's a little curly. He looks at me and offers a small smile and he has green/blue eyes and braces. He is skinny but not skinny like me, I can tell he plays sports. he is wearing blue jeans and a blue collared shirt. "Hey!" I greet him. "Hi. I'm Maxx." He says still standing in front of me. I laugh, "I'm Aaron, dude sit please, and let's see what we have to work on?" I tell him pointing to the seat beside me. He sits next to me and I catch a whiff of whatever he is wearing and it smells so good, I lean in a little closer just to see the paper, "Dude this is easy!" I tell him. He looks at me with confusion, "It is?" "Yeah," I lean over more and start to help him with the first problem he just looks so lost. "You don't understand it do you?" "Not really." He says putting his head down a little. I nudge him, "it's cool man a lot of people don't understand this stuff, and it just comes natural for me!" I go over the problem with him again, slower this time and he starts to understand it more, I watch him as he thinks he bites on his pencil when he is confused or doesn't understand what to do next. We complete the first side of the worksheet and it went well, he picked up on it better than I imagined he would, taking a little break I decided to get to know him. "So where are you from?" I ask. "A little town in Texas. Is it that noticeable?" He asks, and then it hits me the accent he has a little slower drawl to his talking that must be the Texan in him. "Cool! I can tell because of your accent. So what brought you to Florida?" "My mom just got promoted to president at her real estate office." He brushes his hair out of his eyes. "Cool, what about your dad?" I ask wondering what his family must be like. "No just me and my mom." He says fidgeting a little bit. "Your gay right?" I look at him a little shocked, "Yeah I am. How did you know, and is that ok with you?" "I can just tell, like you said about my accent. I think it's pretty cool, that you're open about it." He says giving me a reassuring smile. I smile back, "Ok Maxx lets finish the worksheet, so we can chill some more before class is over." We flip it over and its word problems, I love word problems they're so fun to me, because it's just not numbers they tell a little story and it's just a lot better than regular problems. "Ok man, go ahead and read the first one and try to set it up." I tell him. He shifts in his seat, and runs his hand through his hair, "Umm...Aaron can you help me read it? I am horribly dyslexic, like really bad, that's why my grades suck..." he says looking down at the desk. It finally registers with me, "Oh man, yeah I didn't know, it's no problem dude don't worry about it, it's all good." I read out the word problems and help him set them up and he catches on real quick with this set of problems as well, we laugh a little bit and joke around about the sentences, and situations that the problems tell us that the characters are in. I tell him we need to start heading back, and we gather the papers and he helps me put the desks back right. He looks at me fidgeting, "Aaron could you not tell anyone about you know me being dyslexic?" he asks with a pleading look. "Secret is safe with me man." I say throwing my arm around him as we walk out of the room, and back to the classroom. We get back to the class, right as the bell rings he smiles at me and we bump fists and go our separate ways. "OH my god, he is just so hot!" I think to myself and I go towards my next class and I see Troy, and Amber by his locker doing some hardcore kissing...I just shake my head and walk on by, usually we meet at his locker and walk to class, but I guess he has other plans now. The rest of the school day went by fast; I hung out with Maxx for lunch, since Troy was way too busy to even notice me. I got to know him a lot more and we are practically best friends now! We laughed at the differences about Florida and Texas. As the last bell rang he gave me his phone number to text him so we could hang out, so in return I gave him mine! With that we told each other goodbye and I walked out of the school and I see Chasen, and Tanner laughing and smiling. That is such a good sign that there laughing and smiling I guess they worked out whatever problems they were having I walked over to them. "Hey guys!" I tell them approaching them. "Hey dude!" Chasen replies smiling at me. "What's goin on little man?" Tanner asked. "Not much, I am so glad you both worked things out it was MISERABLE this morning!" I tell them laughing. They both assaulted me by tickling me everywhere and messing with my hair, "stop! Guys I'll pee on myself if you don't stop!" I barely get out from laughing so hard. "So you feeling good today?" Tanner asks seriously. "Yeah I am feeling much better than I have been." I say smiling. "Oh my god, where is Troy?" Tanner asks. I laugh and look up towards the school spotting him and Amber kissing, "right there sucking face with that girl!" "TROY! STOP SUCKING FACE LET'S GO!" Tanner yells up to him, causing him to get embarrassed. Troy finally makes it to the car, "Tanner! Not cool!" he whines out. "I don't care man we waited for over ten minutes for you, if that's not enough to say goodbye then you both have some serious issues already. Besides dad said he needed us home. --------------------------Chasen's POV---------------------------- As soon as we walk into the door of the house, I could sense something was wrong. Margaret looked like she had been crying, and David was home. "Chasen, son I need to see you in my study please." David said to me ushering me to his study. I walk in after him and he asks me to sit and he goes around to his desk and lets out a sigh, and slides a news paper over so I could read it. I looked down right there in the middle of the paper, "Local Woman, arrested on Child Abuse charges, and domestic violence. Ms. Tarrant will go to court next Wednesday for trial, on all charges and could be facing a lengthy jail time." I look at him, "Good she needs to be in jail!" I tell him getting worked up. He sighs, "son that's not all, you will need to go to court as well to testify against her, meaning showing scars and bruising, if you still have some, we had the Doctor take pictures of course, but they need you in court." "I have to face her in court?" I say half not believing what I am hearing. "Yes. I am going with you though." He tells me to reassure me. "Ok then what's the problem? Why is Margaret upset, why are you still upset?" I ask. "I got a phone call today regarding you. Your father called today..." he says. I look at him and I fall back into my chair, "My father? As in like my birth father?" "Yes, he wants to come visit you, here. He wants you to move with him to California, with him and his family." David looks at me with sad eyes. "Do I have to go?" I ask almost in tears. He comes around the desk and pulls me up into a hug, "No son you don't have to, I told you, you where a part of this family and that still stands, not because you and Tanner are together, but because you are a fine young man." "Thanks!" I say hugging him back, "I just kind of want to get out, get some fresh air, do you mind? and can you tell Tanner for me?" I ask. "Yes, absolutely I don't blame you, here take my car." He says giving me his keys. I walk out into the living room, "Aaron, do you want to go skate, I am getting out of the house and just thought I could watch you like I said I would?" He perks up and runs to the room he stays in and grabs his skateboard. "Tan, I'm just going to get some fresh air ok babe?" "Yeah babe, go ahead its fine." He says coming and kissing me. David comes out and asks, Tanner and Troy to join him and his wife in the kitchen, while me and Aaron make our way to David's car. "So what's going on?" Aaron asks as we drive to the local park that has a half pipe and some rails. I explain on the way over to the park, he just sits there taking it in and as soon as we park, he gets out making sure I follow him, and he starts to skate. I watch him skate, he is really good, as I watch him I start to think what next week has in store for me, that and I didn't even bother to ask when my father was coming in. Just so much stuff is going on and it's all too fast for me. Aaron walks up to me and plops down in the grass, all sweaty his hair sticks to his forehead and cheeks, "So what are you going to do?" I look at him, "about what court, or my dad coming in?" He looks at me squinting because the sun is in his eyes, "Well both I guess." I lie back on the grass and sigh, "nothing I can do about court but go, and hope it's enough to put that mad woman away." He lies besides me, "It should be more than enough, and she is crazy! So what are you going to do about your dad?" "I don't know I guess just meet him and talk to him, I don't really know...and I don't really know him, I was so little when he left." I tell him looking at him. "I met a boy today. He knows I am gay." Aaron tells me looking up at the sky. I laugh so hard, "You're so completely random." It tell him leaning on my arm looking at him. "It got you to laugh right? Let's go home! I'm sweaty and I stink!" He tells me getting up. Taking off his sweaty shirt and throwing it on me and laughing "Gross I am so going to kick your little ass boy!" I yell laughing, while getting up chasing him. "Your too slow!" he yells back to me. We both get into the car and start heading home, we laugh at each other because we both have grass in our hair. Then Aaron looks over at me and smiles, "It's going to be ok, it gets better!" ---------------------------------------------------------------- Well that is chapter 7, I hope you liked it! It was super hard for me to write, a lot has been going on, and Thank you Ty for keeping me focused and talking to me when I just couldn't think of anything to write. Josh Thanks for being there for me too! On a different note! There will be a new story coming very soon from Ty and myself! In light of recent events of the 6 suicides in the past 3 weeks, I know there are Teens out there who read this, or maybe another story on here but even as young adults, it's ok to be who you are if you are being a victim of bullying, or any kind of harassment, talk to someone, anyone you trust, If you're having problems about who you are its ok. To be LGBT its all ok, Suicide isn't the answer and it breaks my heart to see 6 teens committing suicide because they thought that was the answer, it isn't! please reach out and talk, talk to a friend, aunt, uncle, parent, brother/sister, teacher, guidance councillor even myself or Ty. You can email him or I any time we answer ASAP. Suicide isn't the answer I know it's hard being you right now but IT GETS BETTER. Everything changes after High school. If you take only one thing from this, REMEMBER YOU ARE NOT ALONE! Here are a few sites I'm including the It gets better project on you tube and the Trevor Project. http://www.youtube.com/itgetsbetterproject http://www.thetrevorproject.org/ IT GETS BETTER! tY: To add onto KD's comments, it doesn't matter if your gay, lesbian, transgendered, Bi or a parrot lover, as long as your true to yourself than that's all that matters. I know firsthand how hard it is being yourself, I am another person on the path we all walk. Sometimes it can seem lonely but there are always someone there, just reach out. The first step is always Trust, it may not always be easy or always rewarding to be yourself but it is worth it in the end. As for chapter seven, wow KD what a chapter. I almost thought they were going to break up too. We are introduced to Maxx this chapter, I have learned through KD that its somewhat common for students to go through school dyslexic and teachers don't notice. It's totally different from where I live. We are pretty hardcore about Learning Disabilities. I wonder if Aaron will be able to keep Maxx's secret. Also am I the only one that thinks Aaron and Maxx will hook up later on? I really don't know :( and KD won't tell me. Apparently I have read his mind from like some 6622 km away and no I'm not walking it to try and beat it out of him lol. Call me lazy.