Date: Thu, 1 Dec 2011 11:56:22 -0800 (PST) From: K Davids <k.davids@ymail.com> Subject: Some sense of Security/Standing on the edge of forever ch. 8 Standing on the Edge of Forever-CH.8 This story is pure fiction and is not intended to imply anything About the true sexuality of the reader. This story contains sexual Contact between to underage males if this is illegal to read where You live then please hit the back button now!! Everything in this Story is made up, the names and people are fake: they are not real; I did not base them off people I know! Please do not copy or paste this anywhere else, but please feel free to email me k.davids@ymail.com -------------------------------------------------------------- Here is chapter eight I hope you all enjoy ----------------------------------------------------------------------- It's time to take action It's time to stay inspired It's time to prove that we aren't all talk And we're not afraid of the risks ~Stay Inspired~ We Came as Romans -------------------------------------------------- Characters Chasen: Age 18 - Main Character Braiden: Age 18 - Chasen's boyfriend Ian: Age 3 - Braiden's son Kevin: Chasen's Father Caroline: Chasen's Step Mother Ryan: Age 18 - Chasen's Brother Kyle: Age 16 - Chasen's Brother Lexie: Age 15 - Chasen's Sister Aaron: Age 16 - Step Brother Silas Watson- Age 16-Aaron's Boyfriend ------------------------------------------------------ (Braiden's POV) I flop down on the bed next to Chasen, "I am wiped out." "Well we still have so much to do!" He whines. "I didn't think you had so much shit!" I say picking. He shoots me a dark look, "What the hell does that mean? Since we've moved in together I've been juggling school and working at Jessie's parents store! I can't help it that it took two months to move all of your shit." "Chasen are you serious? It was a joke...Look I know that things have been stressful, but at least we are together! I know it's been tough..." I say looking at him. "You don't know how tough its been." He says as he walked over and started digging in a box. I throw my hands up in frustration, "What do you want me to do?" "I want you to at least care about your future! At least think of a college or a trade school!" He yells. "Are you joking? Is this still about the damn college application shit?" I ask. "Yes! It is. I got accepted to the local community college and you haven't even tried to get into a college at all!" He says frustrated. "Ryan got into University of Texas, I could have gotten in there as well but I want us to go together!" "I know that! Don't you think I do? Look I have the surf shops to look after, I have another location opening in LA this summer, I won't have time to go right into college, but I will. I am taking a year off like discussed a while ago. I don't know why you are still bringing this up." I say pacing the room "I am making sure you, Ian, and I have money so you can focus on school and not have to work at that shitty antique shop." "Well 'that shitty antique shop' helped us a lot so far! What happens when another store opens and you put off college another year? Then what happens? You are too smart not to go to school." He says. "I am sick of fucking arguing about this, it's my decision if I want to go to college. I will go, but I am ensuring a future for us and our family right now! You are not my mother, you are my partner and I know you are concerned about schooling, but I am doing what's best. I don't know what it is with you this last week, but I can't deal with this, I can't deal with you! I can't deal with this anymore, I am going to go get Ian." I say walking out the room. I get into my car, and peel out of the drive way, its been two months since we got married, and the last two weeks have been hell. I know he is worried about my future but I know what I am doing. I know he is under stress from working, school, and taking care of Kyle. Who is not taking the treatments well at all; he is very frail and skinny now. They say progress is being made but from how he looks it doesn't seem like it. He is starting to lose his hair now. I hate our fights I don't want to even have them, but lately they seem so unavoidable I don't know what to do. I love him so much, but this fighting is ripping us apart. It's so amazing to wake up with him everyday, having him there is a dream come true, but we have to stop fighting. Now I feel crazy for talking to myself. I try and hold back the tears, I just can't. I pull over onto the beach and shut the car off. I hit my hands against the steering wheel and just cry for a minute, I pull out my phone. But I put it back into my pocket, and sit and look out onto the ocean. I just don't know what to do right now. I regain control of my emotions, as I start the car back up, my phone rings, without looking at who it is, I answer it. "Hello?" I say. "Braiden we need to talk." I hear a female voice say. I shudder at the sound of the voice, "It's not a good time, and you are the last person I want to talk to right now Riley." I tell her. "It's about our son." She says almost pleadingly. I grip the steering wheel tighter causing my knuckles to become white, "He's my son, you have no part in his life at all. You gave him up, end of discussion. You didn't want him then and you can't say you had a change of heart because we both know you don't have one capable of loving." "I was young, scared and stupid. You can't hold that against me! I had my future to look out for! I just want him to know who I am. To know that he has a mother that loves him." She says rudely. I laugh, "Yeah you were young but I was younger, you still are scared and stupid. I had a future too, one that didn't involve giving up a child that I helped create. He doesn't know you and he doesn't need too. He is perfectly fine without you, Riley." "What about when he comes home and doesn't understand why he has a faggot for a father? What are you going to tell him when he asks where his mother is?" She says getting nasty. "I will tell him the truth about what a cold hearted bitch you are. I will tell him he is special because he has two fathers instead of one, both that really love him." I tell her. "Now I have to go pick up my son. Stop calling Riley, you are not going to see him." "We aren't done with this discussion!" She screams. "Yes, we are." I say hanging up the phone and throwing it onto the passenger seat. I breathe out slowly, I cannot let this get to me. I need to fix my issues at home first. I can't be letting Riley get me worked up like she does. I start the car and keep driving to my parent's house. The ride is quiet I don't have the radio on, I just need the silence to get my thoughts in line. I just want to kiss Chasen right now and get rid of all of his worries. I pull into my parents drive way, seeing Ian in the yard with my mom. I start to smile as my little boy turns around dropping his ball as he sees me. I get out of the car. "How's my little boy?" I ask squatting down for him to run to me. He runs towards me saying 'daddy!' I catch him and scoop him up into a hug, "How is my big boy?" "I was playing ball!" He says pointing to the ball on the ground. "I see and was Grandma playing with you as well?" I ask. He laughs, "Yes! Wanna play?" He asks wanting down. "Not right now lil man, go play for a few minutes I am going to talk to grandma." I tell him kissing him on the head. I walk up to my mom, who has been taking pictures of me and him, "Hey mom." I say hugging and kissing her cheek. "Hey baby, how are you?" She asks hugging me back. "I'm okay." I say and place my hands in my jean pockets. "Okay, the gig is up, lets go inside and I will make some coffee. There is something on your mind and I know it." She says firmly. "Mom, I'm fine." I try to reassure her. She scoffs at me, "Honey, I raised you, remember? The hands in the pockets and the dark rings around your eyes are your signs. Come on lets go in." She says. I tell Ian to come inside, he runs up and grabs my hand. I follow my mom into the house, she leads us into the kitchen while Ian goes and turns on the TV. "So care to share? What has you so stressed out?" She asks as she turns on the coffee pot. "Well, Chasen and I for one, we are arguing non-stop right now. He is worried about me going to college and I tell him not to. I will go to school, I just have a lot of things coming up with the surf shop including one opening in LA this summer. It's going to be so great for the business and generate more money for us. That and fucking Riley keeps calling me." I say letting out a sigh. "Language!" She scolds me. "Sorry, I am just frustrated!" I say. She hands me a cup of coffee already with the cream and sugar in it. "Well lets talk about you and Chasen first, babe it's your first two months living together. You both are in love with each other, but up until this point you both never had to live with one another. You both have to adjust, he needs to understand that you take on the role of provider because that is what you have been doing with Ian. I do agree with him in that you need to go back to school, but you know that already and I know when you are ready you will go. I think it's fantastic that the shop is opening another store. That will be the fourth one. Now you need to understand his point as well, I know he is an emotional wreck because his little brother is fighting for his life. You need to be there for him emotionally and physically, even if he is argumentative, just shut him up by kissing him. Take him by the face and tell him you love him and it will all work out. You both need to get your shit right, because you have a beautiful young boy in the next room who loves you both." I sit there and take this all in, I knew my mom was great to talk to, but I never knew she could understand everything and break it all down to make sense to me. "Mom, how do you always know what to say?" She smiles at me, "I'm a mother." I laugh and take a sip of my coffee, "Then there is Riley who won't just stop." "What does she want?" She asks as she takes a drink of her coffee. I look at my mom, "Ian." "Over my dead body, she wont touch my grandson. She should count her lucky stars that you even agreed to let her parents have a role in Ian's life!" She says getting upset. "I know mom, I don't understand why she just won't stop. She told me she is engaged and wants custody of Ian." I say. "Well that will never happen. She signed every right away to him. She has no hold on him, or you for that matter!" She says putting the coffee down. "Have you told Chasen she has been calling?" I shake my head, "Not really. It would only stress him out more, I don't want to do that. I know he is waiting for Kevin to drop Kyle off at the house. So I don't want to discuss it today." She nods, "That's understandable, but as soon as Kyle leaves, you and him need to sit down and talk, do not ever keep anything from your partner." I smile, "I wouldn't. Thanks mom." I tell her and hug her. (Aaron's POV) I roll over Silas, and giggle, "I really like you." I say rubbing his bare stomach. He laughs at me, "You are such a nerd." He says. I hit his stomach, "That's mean." I say. He pins my arms to the bed and straddles me, "Yeah well you are my nerd!" He says kissing me. I kiss him back; I love the feeling of our naked bodies touching. The warmth sends tingles down my spine. "I love you." His bright blue eyes studying me. I choke up; I don't know what to even say to that. I just look at him in shock, I open my mouth to say something to him but nothing comes out. He gets a concerned look on his face, "I do love you, we have been together for almost four months, you make me so happy, and no I am not saying I love you just for us to get to penetrating. I really do love you." "I need to get dressed." I say moving from underneath him, trying to get of the bed but he grabs me and hugs me. "Why are you scared that I love you?" He asks. "You shouldn't say things you don't mean." I say not looking at him. He wraps his legs around me, taking my chin and makes me look up to him, "I do mean it Aaron. I love you, what part of that do you not get? I think of you non stop, I tell my parents all about you, I'm sure they are sick of hearing about you. I go to bed thinking of you an wake up thinking of you. I love you!" I start to cry a little bit, "Really?" He wipes the tears away, "Yes!" "Good because I think I love you too." I whisper. He looks at me, "You think?" He laughs. "I do love you!" I say. "You better!" He says stealing a kiss. I push him back causing him to lie back on the bed. I climb on top of him kissing his neck, "Now I got you right where I want you!" I say He laughs, "Really?" He flips me over, getting on top of me and kissing my neck. He thrusts his groin into mine, our dicks springing back to life while rubbing against each other. I moan out loud, "I love you." I whisper in his ear. He stops and looks at me, "Good, cause I love you as well." I kiss his soft lips, pulling him down so he is laying on top of me. "Let's just lay like this for a little while." We lay like that for a while, I kiss his neck in different spots, "I'm glad you moved here." "So am I." He says looking at me. "We really need to get dressed don't we?" I ask. "Yeah, we do. I am surprised my parents haven't knocked on the door yet." He says. I laugh and look towards the door, "Oh my god you have a board?" I ask. He looks in the direction I am looking at, "the skateboard?" "Yes, I love to skate! I haven't done it in forever but I love to!" I say getting up looking for my boxers. He laughs at me, "Are you seriously leaving me and my warm bed to skate?" I look at him like he has lost his mind, "Uh...Yeah! Come out and watch me!" "Okay, okay!" He says getting out of the bed and tossing me my boxers. "I was looking for those." I say. "I couldn't tell at all." He says smiling. I kiss him and reach for my jeans, "Well hurry up!" "Demanding much?" He says laughing, and reaches for a pair of shorts. "You are so cute, I am glad you are mine. I just stick my tongue out at him, grab my shirt then grab his package. He moans, "That isn't fair you tease!" (Chasen's POV) I wait patiently for my dad to get here with Kyle; I have made up the guest room a million times already. Making sure he would have whatever he needs. I look around our house and smile. I am just glad we have finally unpacked everything, plus I like to keep the house clean. I flop down on the couch, I feel like hell for fighting with Bray so much but I wished he would see my point. I want him to go to school with me, I want him to be successful as well, but I know I can't push him no matter how hard I want to...I am the luckiest guy in the world to have him as my partner. Don't get me wrong I love us living together, just I wished I was at my dad's, that way I could feel like I am helping more with Kyle. I guess I just feel bad I got married and moved out of their house while all this mess is going on. Even though my dad has told me not to be upset, that it's what I needed to do. Even Kyle told me not to put my life on hold for him. So why do I feel so bad? It's probably because I have been a dick to Bray lately. I just want him to come home already. I want us to just kiss and make up, no matter how cheesy that sounds right now. I just miss him I feel like I am going crazy. This is what happens when Braiden and I argue. A knock at the door breaks me from my rapid over thinking. I get off the couch and head down the hallway to answer the door. When I open the door Ryan is standing there, "Hey little brother." He says smiling. I smile, "What's up?" "Nothing much, just dropping Kyle off to you." He says. I look confused, "Where is dad?" "In court, one of his cases is being settled today. So how's married life?" He asks. I shrug, "It's great, takes adjusting to. That and Braiden and I have been arguing over stupid things! It's honestly annoying, but I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. How is Nikki?" He laughs, "Awww, married life isn't peaches and cream? Well I am happy for you man. Nikki is fine, I love that girl a lot." He's interrupted by Kyle who moves in between us and goes into the house. I look at Ryan, "What's his deal?" "Very grumpy after treatments today. You have been warned." I just laugh, "Good to know, so you love her huh?" "I am going to ask her to marry me. She got accepted into UT as well. I know she feels the same way about me. I think I know what you were talking about when you said you wanted to spend your life with Braiden. I feel that with Nikki and it all makes sense, I love everything about her, even when she is pms-ing. I love who I am around her, she has made me a better person." He says. "Well look who is the 'Romeo' now." I say. "Yeah well, I am a charmer. I need your opinion though, what do you think of this as the ring?" He asks and pulls out a small velvet box. I open it and look at the ring, it's pretty. It has a diamond but it's not in the ring, the ring meets on each side of it holding the diamond in place. "That's a really nice ring." I tell him giving it back. "You think she will like it?" He asks. "No doubt about it, she doesn't seem like the girl who is unappreciative." I tell him. "You're right she appreciates everything, its just one of the things I love about her." He says. "You got it bad. Have you told dad?" I ask. He shakes his head, "Not yet, I plan on doing it tonight." I smile, "That's awesome bro." "Okay well I will let you get in to Kyle. He is in a mood today." He warns me again. I laugh, "Thanks for the heads up. Let me know what the parents think." "I will. See you around bro." I walk into the living room, Kyle isn't there. "Kyle? Where are you bud?" I hear glass hit the floor and shatter. "Shit! In here." He yells. I run into the kitchen, and he is on his knees trying to pick up the glass, "Hey don't worry about it man I can get it. Here let me help you up." "No I need to clean this up, I'm sorry I just got weak." He says still trying to pick up the glass. He pulls his hand back, "Fuck." He says and I see blood instantly. "Shit Kyle, are you okay?" I ask moving closer to him with a napkin. I hand him the napkin and move to help him up, I put my hand on his arms. He yells at me, "Don't touch me!" He is in tears now, I let go and squat down to see what's going on, I pick up the glass and move it carefully into a little pile. "Kyle what's wrong?" "Don't touch me! It hurts when anyone even touches me! All I wanted to do was get a glass of water and I can't even do that!" He says crying more. I speak softly to him, "Hey buddy, it's ok I wont touch you, just lets get into the living room and sit you down. I will get you a glass of water." He nods his head, he slowly gets off the floor and walks into the living room. I sweep up the glass and put it in the trashcan, I look for a band aid in the cabinets. I get a glass of water and head towards the living room. "Here put the band aid on." I tell him handing the band aid over. I sit next to him on the couch and put the glass of water on the table, I reach to touch his shoulder and stop. "Sorry." I say. He looks at me with tears still in his eyes, "I hurt so much, I can't bare to let anyone touch me lately...I cant even piss without getting tired and having to sit down. Chasen I am losing my fucking hair!" He says running his hands through his hair and a good amount is on his hand. "I know this is tough, but you have to keep fighting to get better." I tell him. "So what you are losing your hair, it will grow back as long as you are getting better. This is all just temporary pain." I tell him. "You don't get it! You can have someone hug you, touch you, kiss you! Ricki can't even kiss me! My lips are dry and cracked so much, she cries cause I'm in so much pain and she can't do one thing to fix it. I have to ask Ryan to help me into the shower and I have a chair in it now, because I can't stand up that long! He has to stay in the bathroom with me, because I could slip and fall! I hate this so much, I don't want to do this anymore, Chasen I can't! I am crying at this point, "Kyle you have to fight this, if I could take your place I would. You have so much to fight for. We love you so much. It hurts us to see you in so much pain, and it does suck because I want to help you." He leans in and hugs me, I lightly hug him back, I know it hurts him I can hear the intake of breath, but I can't even imagine how cut off from people he must feel. I tell him it's going to be ok, that he just needs to relax, and that we will make it through this together. We sit there for a few more minutes and he sits back up, "I'm sorry." He says rubbing his eyes. I can see that they are blood shot. "I really need to just lay down. I am so tired." "It's ok, go ahead, you know where the room is." I tell him. I watch him get up, he looks so frail now, and skinny. I feel horrible for him. I make sure he makes it into the room okay. I walk back into the living room, sitting on the couch, I pull my knees to my chest and I start to cry. I hate that he is in so much pain, and there is nothing that anyone can do for him. I am in the same position, crying, when Braiden comes in the door with Ian. He walks into the living room and sees me and puts Ian down, I can see a pained expression on his face. Ian runs up to me and looks at me, "Why daddy so sad?" I reach for him and hug him, "Cause Uncle Kyle is in a lot of pain." I tell him. "He hugs me back, "I take pain away!" He says. I couldn't help but laugh and smile, "I know and I am happy that you do." I say kissing his head. "Come on little man lets take a nap!" Braiden tells him. I watch him take Ian into his room, and I walk into mine and Braiden's room. I sit on the bed and wait for Braiden to come in. He walks in looking at me sadly, "How is Kyle?" I shake my head, "He's losing what little fight he had left in him, he is in so much pain." I say and choke up and start to cry again. He wraps his arms around me, "I'm sorry babe. I wished I could do something to stop his pain." I just hug him and cry into his shoulder, "I am sorry about fighting and arguing so much lately." He takes his hands and holds my face, "Everything is going to be ok, and if not, we will face it together and cross that bridge together." He leans in and kisses me. I kiss him back; he lies back on the bed pulling me with him. I lay my head on his chest and listen to him breathe. I hear the door creak open. "I want to lay with my daddies!" Ian says carrying his blanket. I look up and smile at Braiden, "Well get over in the bed!" He tells Ian. Ian jumps into the bed and snuggles in between us and I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. "See babe we are going to be just fine." Braiden says stroking my hair. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hey everyone I hope you enjoyed chapter 8! It was an emotional chapter and I had to stop multiple times tonight to not get emotional as I wrote this chapter. Comments are welcomed, what do you think about Ryan? And whats the motive for Riley calling Braiden so much! There are two chapters left of ssos! I have announced something on the facebook like page! And I want to thank everyone who has liked the page its so awesome to hear from yall! Thank you for the support http://www.facebook.com/pages/KD-Writings/287283501292852 KD Sorry for taking so long guys. I edited half of it the other night, but for some stupid reason it didn't save, so I had to go back and do it all again..... Please like the SSOS facebook page.... 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