Date: Wed, 12 Apr 2006 23:18:22 -0400
From: L W <doveglion@gmail.com>
Subject: Straight Lines and Perfect Circles
Chris's mind was blank as he stared at his sketch pad.
"Not straight."
"Huh?"
"Your lines...they're not straight" said the boy from his
art class who pointed at his paper. Chris was in love with this boy.
"Oh yea. I know that, thanks." He didn't know that.
The boy smirked as he watched Chris erase.
"Almost perfect."
"What?"
"Your circle. It's round...but Mr. Truss wants a perfect
circle." The boy flicked his hair out of his eyes and leaned over to
scratch his knee.
"Um...I like it the way it is" Chris replied, though when
the boy wasn't looking he tried to fix it.
"You really don't have to do that" he said as Chris redrew
the lines.
"Then why did you say it?"
"I dunno." The boy stared at the floor.
Chris scoffed before turning back to his paper, frustrated
because now he was thinking about the boy instead of his sketch. 'Stop
it' he told himself before bringing his pencil back to his paper,
'straight lines and perfect circles, asshole...not boy.' His strokes were
starting to look curiously like strands of hair. Strands of golden blond
hair that sometimes fall into boys' eyes. 'Fuck.'
"Hey!" Chris said as the boy reached across his lap, "What
are you doing?"
"I dropped my pencil."
"Uh...so why didn't you just ask me to get it for you?" God
he wanted to touch him.
"Oh. Sorry."
The bell rang and the boy leaned over to grab his bag. His
t-shirt rode up a little exposing his slender hips.
'Jesus Christ.' Chris tried to calm down. 'Road kill,
vomit, moldy bread, rotten eggs, yellow bile, yellow...hair, pouty...lips,
long...eyelashes, hard...' He stopped himself. 'Fuck.'
"WAIT!" The boy yelled as he caught up with Chris in the
hallway. He was panting.
Chris turned around and saw the boy's chest rising and
falling rhythmically in front of him. 'Somebody up there fuckin hates me'
he thought as he pictured, for the millionth time, devouring the boy
whole. His lips were like those cherry red lollipops that stain your
mouth. He wanted to taste them.
"You dropped this," The boy said, handing him a folded
piece of paper.
"Uh...thanks man." He didn't remember having anything to
drop.
"Yea...uh, anytime." The boy looked at him with ice blue
eyes.
'How is it possible for something to be so fucking
beautiful' Chris thought, feeling physical pain as he pictured the boy.
He indulged for a few moments longer than usual before finally telling
himself to shut the fuck up. He walked home with two things on his mind.
They were ice blue.
Later that night as he was changing for bed, the folded
piece of paper fell out of his pocket. He opened it.
"I want you"
Chris stared at it for a second before crumpling it up and
throwing it away. 'Weird,' he thought, and went to sleep.
The next day in art class Chris, as usual, felt his eyes
moving toward the boy. Because they weren't in the same row, he could get
away with spending entire periods staring at the back of his head.
'Look at me.' Chris thought, his eyes meeting with the
boy's golden hair. 'Look at me.' Chris thought again, staring so hard his
eyes started to hurt. 'Fucking look at...'
Suddenly, the beautiful boy that he loved so much turned
his head around and pierced Chris with his ice blue eyes. Chris felt
himself shiver as he snapped his head forward. 'Fuck.'
He pondered this for a moment before his mind started to
wander. 'Did he see me?' Chris shifted slightly in his chair. The legs
dragged across the floor and made a screeching noise. 'Of course he saw
you asshole...you were looking right at him.' He looked nervously at the
clock, wondering if the boy knew how much time he actually spent staring
at him...or if he even cared. 'Cut it out you fucking stalker.'
Chris was grateful for the bell and tried not to watch as
the boy bent over to pick up his bag. No such luck.
"WAIT!" He heard again from behind him as he saw the boy
jogging down the hall. His hair was kind of messy from running and Chris
just wanted to grab it and smell it and touch it and hold him forever.
"Uh...I think you dropped this." It was another folded piece
of paper. Chris looked at him incredulously.
"Um...ok. Thanks?"
"Anytime." The boy waited until Chris finally turned around
and walked away. There was nothing else to say.
As Chris walked to his locker he thought about opening the
note...which made him think about opening the boy's shirt, button by
button, and running his tongue up and down his chest. He thought about
what it might feel like to drag his hands through the boy's hair, or
touch those sweet lips with his own. Walking home, he thought of only two
things. They were cherry red.
Chris's house was cold when walked in so he picked up his
mail and turned the heat to 72. He smiled to himself as he saw the
familiar note on the thermostat: "Never turn above 72, never turn below
65." His mom was so neurotic.
He sorted through the mail inside his room, discarding
coupons and tearing envelopes. As he unfolded a flier, he remembered the
note inside his pocket. He took it out and opened it.
"I want you"
Chris stared at the paper. He tried turning it over but it
was blank. 'What the fuck is this kid doing?' Chris wondered. 'If he
wants me to do something for him he should just fucking ask me.' Chris
crumpled the note and tossed it in the garbage.
The first thing Chris noticed when he walked into art class
the next day was golden hair, followed by ice blue eyes, followed by
cherry red lips, followed by slender hips...all of which were planted in
Chris's seat.
"Uh...hey" Chris said. He tried to smell the boy's shampoo
from where he was standing.
"Hey Chris." The boy started to bite his lower lip out of
habit. Chris continued to stare at him.
"Oh, sorry...is this your seat?"
"Uh...yea." 'Is he serious?'
The boy looked up at him hopefully, but saw no sign of
recognition. He finally got up and walked back to his desk, dragging his
feet against the floor as he went.
'Weird,' Chris thought as he took a seat. He moved around
in the chair and tried to sense any intangible remnants of the boy.
The bell rang and Chris was staring again. As the boy bent
over to grab his bag, he seemed to linger in that position a little
longer than usual. Noticing the slight, blond hairs on the boy's lower
back, Chris wanted to feel their downy softness as he pictured moving his
hands from his hips, to his chest, to his arms, to his stomach, and
finally to his face before kissing him all over.
Chris adjusted himself and left the classroom.
"WAIT!" Chris stopped walking because he already knew who
it was. A blond head atop a lithe body was hurrying its way down the hall
toward him. The middle button of the boy's shirt was hanging off and part
of his chest was exposed. Chris almost broke his neck trying to see a
nipple.
"You dropped something again...here." Another note.
The boy shook his hair out of his eyes and put the paper in
Chris's hand. Their fingers brushed. After the boy walked away, Chris
brought his hand to his mouth and kissed it. He still felt the boy's
touch as he finally told himself, 'You have to stop this.'
Walking home, Chris carried his books with his right hand
and the folded note with his left. He opened it with his teeth.
"I want you"
'Um.' Chris couldn't figure out what the boy could possibly
want that was taking him so long to say. Frustrated, he dragged his well
worn converses over the ground as he walked; the pavement scratched
against the rubber soles. Chris crumpled the note into a ball and began
kicking it down the street. He kept it in front of him until they both
arrived at his house. As he walked up the stairs to his front porch, only
one thing was on his mind. And it wanted something from him.
The next week in art class there was a new assignment. Pick
a partner. One will draw the other.
Chris scanned his eyes across the room.
"Hey Chris, can I draw you?" Chris's breath caught in his
throat.
"Huh?" Chris looked up and the boy was staring at him.
'Maybe if we're both naked,' Chris thought.
He knew it would probably be impossible for him to sit
still as the boy he loved tried to sketch him, but the prospect of
staring into his gorgeous face for an hour proved too tempting.
"Uh...sure. I'm...uh...not really much of a model though."
"Yeah right." The boy turned around, not wanting Chris to
see him blush.
'Weird,' Chris thought, before sitting down in front of
him.
The boy turned back around and Chris noticed the red in his
cheeks. 'Oh God. He's fucking blushing.' He quietly thought that if only
the boy only knew how beautiful he was when he blushed, he'd probably do
it more often. Chris wouldn't mind wearing longer shirts.
As the period wore on, Chris began noticing the strange way
the boy looked at him. It was seductive and mysterious, and as he slowly
made his strokes on the paper, he'd glance up at Chris with casual
smiles. Every so often he'd adjust Chris's position, touching him softly
on his shoulder or brushing his hands across his cheeks to turn his face.
The boy delicately dragged his fingers through Chris's hair, looking into
his eyes and saying how it would look better this way for the sketch. 'I
love you' Chris thought, his heart beating so hard he thought the entire
class would hear it. And with each line the boy traced across the paper,
Chris pictured tracing it across the boy. 'He's so perfect.'
The bell rang and Chris reluctantly gathered his things. He
still felt the boy's fingers in his hair.
"Bye Chris" he said as he bent over to grab his bag. Chris
wondered if he should confront him, but not wanting to screw anything up,
he decided against it. If he said nothing, he couldn't ruin it.
"Uh...bye.' Chris watched the slender hips walk out of the
classroom. Tearing his eyes away, he finally looked down and noticed the
sketch from last week sitting graded on his desk. "D." 'Shit.'
"Um, Mr. Truss?" The room was now empty except for them.
"Yes Chris?"
"Uh, why did you give me a 'D' on this thing?" He looked at
his teacher uncomfortably.
"Because that's the grade you deserved."
"But...you said draw lines and circles...and I drew lines
and circles."
"No, what I said was to draw straight lines and perfect
circles. You drew crooked lines and ovals."
"Oh. But...uh...I just thought that it looked better this
way. Cause like you also said to make art, and this is art." He didn't
know if it was art, but he wanted a better grade.
His teacher looked at him skeptically before getting up to
leave. "That's debatable."
Chris walked home with his head down, thinking about what
his teacher had said. 'What the fuck does he know about art?' His sketch
was a bit messy, but there was undeniable character in the rough lines
and the slightly less than perfect circles. 'What is perfect?' Chris
finally wondered as he reached his house.
When he walked up to his porch, he was pretty sure it was staring at him.
"Hey," the boy said.
"Uh, hey." Chris felt a cold breeze hit the side of his
face. He zippered his jacket and sat down next to him on the steps.
"Um...did you get my notes?" The boy absentmindedly traced
circles on his jeans. Chris wondered how many of them, if any, were
perfect.
"Uh...yea dude, you fuckin handed them to me."
"And...?" The boy looked at him expectantly.
"And what?"
"And...what do you think?"
"Uh...What do I think?" Chris repeated him, not really
understanding how to answer the question.
"Yea...about the notes...what do you think about the notes?"
Chris sensed the frustration in the boy's voice and decided to just be
honest.
"Uh...I think that if you want me to do something for you
dude, you should just fuckin ask me." The boy looked at him
disbelievingly.
"Um...I don't want you to do anything."
Chris shifted around uncomfortably. He wondered why he
wouldn't just ask for what he wanted already.
"Uh...ok...were there supposed to be more then?"
"Um no...that was all of them..."
"Ok so...you want me...to what?"
Chris started shaking his leg, waiting for the boy to say
something and wondering why this whole thing had to be so complicated.
"I thought I made it pretty obvious." He stared at Chris's
blank face and seeing no sign of recognition, finally said, "I don't want
you TO anything! I just WANT you. Period." Chris looked up as the boy
softly whispered, "I want you, Chris."
Chris's heart was racing as he looked down at his faded
sneakers. He was too scared to answer because he might say he loved him,
or that he was beautiful, or that he couldn't breathe when he was around
him, or something equally as lame. 'Kiss him," he thought, 'just fucking
kiss him so you don't have to say anything.' He looked over to the boy
who sat there silently.
"Oh. I...uh..." Chris wanted this moment to last forever
like a movie. It was perfect the way it was, he finally decided. It
wouldn't be fair to ruin it. "I...I should probably go inside." Chris felt
like an idiot for not being able to profess his true feelings to the boy
who had been so candid with his own. But, as he started to get up, he
felt something grab him and pull him back down. The boy forced his
shoulders into the ground as he climbed on top of him and pressed his
mouth roughly into his. His hair fell over their heads. Chris reached up
and grabbed him, pulling him tighter to his face and grinding their
bodies together. The boy pushed his tongue between Chris's lips, who
willingly opened his mouth to reciprocate. Devouring each other's faces,
they passionately made out on Chris' front porch, oblivious to the fact
that they were in public and caring only about feeling the other against
him. They continued to kiss...and kiss...and deeply kiss before the boy
finally pulled himself off. Chris wanted him back on his mouth.
"I was right," the boy panted.
"About what?" 'Put your mouth back on mine.'
"You're an amazing kisser," he whispered into his ear
before licking it.
"Um..." Chris finally relented as he looked into the boy's
beautiful eyes. He was going to take a risk and he didn't even care.
"I...uh...guess I was right too, then."
"Oh yea?" the boy whispered sexily, a hint of laughter in
his voice as he ran his tongue down Chris' neck, "what were you right
about?"
"Uh...about that I love you." 'Fuck.'
The boy picked his head up and stared at Chris with those
suddenly serious ice blue eyes. "Um," he said, the laughter completely
gone from his voice, "I love you so much it hurts."
'This can't be happening to me' Chris thought as they
pushed their lips together again. 'It's way too perfect.'
They broke apart.
"I can't believe this is really happening" The boy said
reading his thoughts.
"Me neither."
Chris suddenly felt guilty about not figuring it out
sooner. The boy had literally spelled it out for him. "Uh...I'm really
sorry, you know...that it took me so long to figure out."
"It's ok," the boy said knowingly, "Nobody's perfect."
As they pressed their lips back together, their merging
bodies created a line that wasn't straight, and wasn't perfect, but was
beautiful and brilliant because of it. Hand in hand, they walked into
Chris's house wanting each other, and loving each other, and not caring
about the repercussions. It was art, the two of them together...a fucking
masterpiece.
THE END.
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Author's Note: I originally sent this story from my friend's email
address, but have decided to repost it under mine. This is my third story
including "Simple Questions," which is also in the high school section,
and "Whole," which is in the relationships section. This is a bit
different from my other two, but as I said before, I'm still trying to
figure out this whole writing process. I can't thank you enough for the
emails I've received in regards to my other posts, though, and please
don't hesitate to email me at Doveglion@gmail.com with anything you have
to say; the comments and criticism have really been invaluable, and I'll
always be grateful for suggestions. Thanks for reading! -LW