Date: Tue, 12 Jun 2007 17:20:53 -0400 From: Josh Messer <joshm123106@gmail.com> Subject: Ten Years Wasted: Prologue Writer notes: This story is not based on true facts. Even though some characters are based on real life people. Some things in this story series may speak of sexual actions that are not legal in your country. So if that is the case then please stop reading at this point. For more legal information please read the nifty legal section. Thank you, Josh M. -=Ten Years Wasted=- Chapter: Prologue -Date: December 7th 1987 --Location: Stonelick Park, Goshen OH I loved the feeling of the waves sliding under my feet, and the feeling of the soft sand in between my toes. The warm sun on my face, and the cool air on my body. I feel good about myself today, I look good. My bronze tan on my little boy body. I'm only 8 years old. My birthday is soon, I'll be 9 i can't wait for it. My mom says it's gonna be the year I become a big boy. "Hello" I hear a voice next to me, i can tell there standing above me. I open my eyes and look up. Oh my god, was the first thought threw my head. I know I'm a very young boy but i already know i don't like girls, and it's not in the eww-they-have-cutties kind of way. This boy way beautiful for his age. Brown hair, dark skin, bright green eyes the take your breath away. "He-ello" I painfully push out of my dried up throat. "What's your name? Mine's James." he says flashing one of the cutest smiles i have ever seen. "It's Austin" I start to stand up, getting to eye level with this cute boy. "Well it's nice to meet you Austin, do you want to go swimming?" I smile "Sounds like fun." -Date: February 12th (Jame's birthday) 1997 --Location: Jame's Parents house Milford, OH That was the start of a long lasting friend ship. It's been 10 years and i still haven't told him about my sexuality. It's scares me to be without him, when i see him it just warms my heart i feel protected and secure. If i ever lost that i wouldn't know what to do. I have never made a move on him, but i think today will be the day i tell him house i feel, and who i am. [Happy birthday song] "Happy birthday honey!" "Thanks mom." James gives Sandy a hug and a kiss, my body is filled with envy for a moment. "Happy birthday man." I hand him his present. "Thanks" "What all did you get this year son?" James ripes open my present first "The Chemical Brothers. Thanks man", I smile "No problem." He moves on to the other presents. I can't remember what they were i was just watching him. The way he moves his smile his hair, i loved everything about him. Thinking about what i have to tell him later got me nerves, my legs started shaking. I sate down and just relaxed until the festivity's ended. "So did you have fun?" "Ya i had a blast" me and James chit chat on are way up to his room. "So what was your favorite gift?" "Yours, duh" he flashes me that amazing smile. I let out a giggle. Watching him as he reads the songs on the chemical brothers tape. All i can think about is how I'm gonna tell him. He slides the tape into his radio, the fast forwards the tape to "Block Rock'n Beats" "Hey James i have to tell you something" I say, my whole body starts shaking. "You can tell me anything what is it?" He sits down next to me and looks me in the eye. "Okay" I stutter "I-I'm um..I'm Gay" I pause waiting for a reaction, but his face is blank. "And um...I-I kind of have a crush on you." He's still blank. "Are you okay?" i ask turning my head to look into his eyes. "I'm fine, no. I'm great!" He says with the biggest smile ever. Then the next thing i know is he's on top of me giving me the biggest hug i have ever gotten in my life. "I'm gay too, and i love you so much. I have loved you since i first met you on that beach." "Really?" I say pulling him up so i can see his face. "Yes" he says holding back tears. "I love you" I pull him in a give him another hug "I love you too" I whisper. We fell asleep right there with him laying on top of me, and my arms wrapped around him. That was the best nap i have ever taken. The next morning i wake up. James is gone so i walk downstairs to see him making eggs and bacon. "Good morning" I say. James looks over at me. "Aw man, why did you have to wake up? I wanted to give you breakfast in bed." "I'm sorry do you want me to go back to bed?" "no" he giggles "just go sit down and i'll bring it to you" "okay" i say smiling i look around to see if his parent's are in the room, then i give him a quick peck on his cheek. I sit down on his living room couch. Turn on the T.V. and watch "The Price is Right". I sit there for a few minutes. "Breakfast is served" James says with a smile. "Thanks" I smile back and take the tray from him. "Anything for my beautiful boyfriend" Right then i drop my fork and my body stops moving. I'm his boyfriend, Oh my god i can't believe this we're in love and i'm going to be with him for the rest of my life. "hun, are you okay?" James asks with a worried look on his face. "Oh no i'm fine" I reassure him with a smile. "Okay great" He sits down next to me and puts his hand on my leg and rests his head on my shoulder. This was want i have been wanting for years. Right when i'm done eating the phone rings. James gets up and gets it. "Hello?" he says into the phone "Oh hey Brian" James has a excited tone to his voice "Thank you very much, ya the big number 18" he laughes "Oh that would be great, Okay see you soon" he hangs the phone up. "Guess what?" "huh?" I reply enjoying my food. "Brian's back in town and he's here to stay!" I smile real big "Awesome!" Brian is James B.F.F. but he's been gone to Alaska for a few years. He's 24 he use to be James' brothers best friend but when he died of internal bleeding, the last thing he said to Brian was 'Take care of my little brother' and he always has. I like Brian too he's a great guy, if you ever need someone to talk to he's the person to go to. I love him (in a brotherly way). "So what do you want to do while we wait for him?" "Well i have something in mind, but it's kind of naughty" I say with a smirk on my face. "hmm, i'm in the mood for naughty". -Thank you for reading my story. The next chapter will be coming soon (about a week). If you wish to email me please make the subject. ten years wasted so i know it's related to the story other wise i might think you're e-mail is just more spam. -Josh M.