Date: Mon, 6 May 2002 02:13:09 EDT
From: CrackerJack674@aol.com
Subject: The Farm Hand...Chap 12

The Farm Hand...Chap 12
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    Ma's Thought's

      She chuckled to herself as she watched the two boys leave the drive
way.  To be that age and In love.  She remembered back in her days, she had
loved going out and having fun.  And to be able to spend time with that
special someone.  She could see the gleam in Jason's eye's.  They seemed to
glow every time he got near him.
    It worried her that his feeling's were so strong.  His Pa would come
apart if he knew.  He didn't seem to catch on.   And he didn't mention it
when they talked.  It always seemed if anything was on his mind he would
bring it up.   She had to protect Jason.  And she would do whatever was
needed to do just that.
     She had already thought about ways to help him along.  She didn't wanna
get in his way.  But just show her love and support.  And be there for him,
when he needed someone to talk to.  And be a part of his life.  He was her
only son.  She wouldn't have this chance ever again.
    She had to admit that she didn't know much about this lifestyle.   And
she really didn't understand it.  She just knew love when she saw it.  And
she could tell it was there between the two.   Something a couple of weeks
ago had happened between the two.  She had seen the way they were acting
towards eachother.  Jason had seemed uptight.  Avoiding Shawn when he was
around.   She couldn't understand what it had been.  And she wanted to tell
Jason she had know how he felt about Shawn.  But she just couldn't find the
way to bring it up. When Shawn had been in the hospitol she had seen the look
of worry on Jason's face.  And the day he found out, her chance came.
   She had set in the chair, thinking of a way to let him know.  And when he
awoke she got it across to him.  She saw the tears in his eye's.  And knew
the time had came.  It was a bond from a mother to her son.  Both
understanding how each had felt.   And a sharing of feeling like no other.
She was proud of her son, that he could love another so deep.  That he felt
this way towards Shawn.  And she wanted him t o know that it was right with
her.  That she would accept it.  And she had known how he felt.
    The day of their visit she could see they needed some time alone.  That
they needed to talk and get things right again.  She could see the sadness on
Shawns face.  And the tears wanting to escape his eye's.  He held them back,
affraid she wouldn't understand.  She had exscused herself and left the room.
 Walking down the hall her own tears began to flow.
    When she came back to the room they were all smile's.  They had worked
out what ever problems they might have had.  She exscused herself again and
gave them time to say their goodbye's.  On the way home Jason haden't said a
word.  Just kept to himself and stared out the window.  She knew he had been
thinking about things.  And she left him to himself.
    The weeks flew by and she had been keeping up with Shawn's mother.  Shawn
had been let out, and was planing on coming over the day of Jason's BirthDay.
 He had talked to her and asked if it was alright if he took him out.  A
night's stay over was in the plan.  It kind of made her worry a bit when she
thought about it.  But knew the boys would be ok.  So she had talked to his
Pa, when she brought it up he didn't question it much.  So she called to let
him know it would be ok.
    The day had arrived.  And Jason was still in his room.  He haden't came
down for breakfast yet.  She had fixed his favorite.   After a few more
minutes he came down.  His face beaming.  She kept her secret to herself and
let him eat.  When his Pa had spoke to him, she saw the look of fright on his
face.  It puzzled her.  In the last couple of weeks it had seem they had
grown apart in a way she couldn't place.  She knew why he had wanted to see
him in the barn.  And kept her face to a slight smile.  Not wanting to give
it away.
   It was a passage into manhood having your own car.  And Jason was growing
up fast it seemed.  His Pa giving him the car just might help clear thing's
up between them.  Or so she hoped it would.  When he had finished he had
walked over to the sink.  Putting his plate in the sink, and kissing her
onher cheek.  As he walked outside to the barn she hurried and finished up.
Not wanting to miss this.  She was waiting on the porch when the door opened
and Jason drove out.  His face was all smile's.  When he had asked her to go
along it melted her heart.  The ride was nice.  He had drove the car along
nice and smooth.  Missing the gear had caused a racket, but he found it ok.
When they were going back to the house she had seen the car pull in.  She
knew it was Shawn and didn't even need to look at Jason to know a smile was
already on his face.
   Shawn had told her he would be by.  And they both knew it would make Jason
happy.  When they hugged it hadn't bothered her.  She looked over at his Pa
and saw his face had changed.  She saw the look of wonder on his face.  And
knew he was thinking of something deep inside.  Was he figuring things out?
She would know when he spoke to her tonight.  They always talked late in the
eveing and she knew tonight would be no diffent.
   When Jason had opened the box his face lit up when he saw the new
clothe's.  She had talked to Shawn and told him the size's to get.  When they
took off towards the house she had looked again at her husband and saw the
look cross his face once again.
   She was inside cleaning in the kitchen when he came to her.  He asked her
if she didn't think things were strange between the two.  How they acted
towards eachother, and the hugs.  He had the same look on his face again.
She swallowed hard and looked at him in the eye's.  I haven't noticed
anything, she lied.  Just two firend's who seem to care about eachother.
    I could swear the week's before the wreck, that they didn't speak to
eachother much.  Sort of like they had been upset at eachother he said.  And
now it seem's like they are the best of friend's.  Maybe even closer in a
way.  I don't know where I am getting this from, but it's just a feeling I
have.  I see it in Jason's eye's when he looks at Shawn.  Sort of a dreamy
look in a way.
   Well Im sure it's just in your head.  They are close to eachother, that's
all Im sure it is.  And when Shawn's wreck happend, it just brought them
closer toghether.  They have been close all the years they have worked
together.  You have seen yourself how well they get along.  Working side by
side.  Her mind was racing.  She had to get it out of his head.  Slapping him
with her towel, she kissed him.  And sent him on his way.
  She heard them coming down the stair's, then heard yelling outside.  She
rushed out the door and Jason and his Pa was laying on the ground.  He had
ran out and slammed into him.  Shawn was close behind.  They were all
laughing except Pa.  He had a look of madness across his face.  After Jason
had been chewed out Shawn had helped him to his feet.  She noticed Shawn
started to brush him off.  Jason quickly moved his hand out of the way.  She
haden't noticed if Pa had seen.
   She watched as the two drove out.  She kept her eye on the car and had
noticed Jason moving closer in the seat towards Shawn.  Turning she walked
into the house.  This was going to be rough.  How was she going to keep this
a secret.  With the way the two were acting towards eachother.  She wiped her
hand's off, shaking her head started working.