Date: Thu, 11 Jun 2015 23:18:40 -0600
From: Jesse Hamill <jesse.hamill88@gmail.com>
Subject: The Love of Rainn - 11

Jesse Hamill

This is a love story between two consenting males and contains sexual
themes and graphic depictions of sexual acts. It is by no means a sex
story, and focuses on the relationship and romance first. This is also work
of fiction. All characters in this story are fictitious. Any resemblance to
actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely
coincidental.

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The Love of Rainn: Chapter 11


Rainn just held onto Jesse and cried for what seemed like years. He never
wanted to let go.

That sketchbook held everything that mattered to him. It held every joyous
moment, every happy doodle, everything he saw fit to draw and remember in
his life. It held every struggle, every downfall, every miserable, horrible
moment he had ever experienced, too. When Rainn drew, painted, or sketched,
he was creating something that needed to be said, or expressed, or
captured. It was a wonderful occurrence to feel the creation flow from
him. To hold a moment that he captured with his mind and then made with his
hands, was a powerful experience.

However, it also was a painful to feel so much, to be enraptured in the
beauty of it, to make everything so perfect. It wasn't so much that he
wanted to draw (which he did), but it felt like he needed to do it. That he
had to do it. To not create became more painful than creating, so he did as
much as he could. It was who he was as an artist.

Jesse just held him close and didn't say anything. What could he convey to
make Rainn feel better? What could he say to him? What could he do? Jesse
knew the damage was done and he just let Rainn feel. Rainn just needed to
cry. He needed to be hurt. He needed someone to hold him. Consolation would
come eventually, but not right now.

Through the windows outside the shop, Jesse saw a silver car pull in to the
store parking lot and park. Diana and Elise came through the door and were
in the process of saying hello when they noticed that something was
wrong. Jesse used one arm and gestured for them to wait while he led Rainn
to the bathroom upstairs. He went in with him and looked into his eyes for
a minute, seeing them so raw and empty.

"I'll... I'll be right back, okay?" Jesse said, consoling Rainn.

Rainn just nodded and let Jesse go. Jesse walked downstairs and Rainn sat
on the toilet with the lid down. He wiped his eyes, blew his nose, and
sighed several deep and shaky breaths. He didn't want to feel anymore and
just sat there waiting for Jesse to return.

Jesse in the meantime went downstairs and explained what happened. He
explained the confrontation between them and Mark. How Rainn's bag was
stolen. And also, about the ruined sketchbook on the counter. Rainn could
hear everything they were saying from where he sat.

When Jesse finished, Diana and Elise wanted to take action. As moms and
caretakers, they immediately wanted to get ahold of parents, and hold Mark
be accountable for his actions. Jesse knew firsthand from his past
experiences that it would only make things worse, so he tried to stop them.

"It won't do any good! It'll just make things worse," he tried to explain
to them.

"Jesse, we have to do something! That boy needs to be accountable for
this!" Diana said.

"Yes! We have to call his parents! Who is he, again? I'll call right now,"
Elise said.

"I'm telling you it's no use!" Jesse said back. When he saw he was getting
nowhere, he sighed and conceded a name. "Fine. If you have to do this... it
was Mark Davis."

The name registered with Elise immediately. She turned to Diana and just
shook her head.

"Diana, your son is right," she said to Jesse's mom. "It won't do us any
good..."

"What do you mean?" Diana asked her.

Elise explained that Mark's home life was less than perfect and he had only
his dad, a mean and abusive drunk. Telling Mark's dad to do something about
it would only get dismissed. What did he care about Rainn's sketchbook?
Nobody was physically hurt and that was that. Otherwise, if they did
involved the police, it would only result in Mark getting beaten or
abused. The situation was hopeless.

"Well, what do we do then?" Diana asked. "How do we stop this from
happening again? How do we stop our sons from getting bullied or targeted?"

Jesse spoke up and explained that he used mace on him to stop the
harassment and to protect themselves from being hurt.

"Why did you have mace?" Elise asked him.

"Because I was targeted at my old school," he explained. Diana just let him
speak. She wasn't going to betray his confidence. He would tell Elise only
if he wanted to.

Elise just looked at him, still lost. She couldn't imagine why such a
charming, goodnatured, and handsome young man would be a target for anyone.

Jesse sighed. He would just have to say it. "I was targeted
because... I'm... gay," he said, emotionally. "I... was
almost... killed. I... couldn't let that happen to me or anyone else
again."

Elise brought a hand to her mouth, and gasped at the thought of Jesse
almost being murdered.

"I... never... wanted to... be in a situation like that again. So, I bought
mace and took self-defense classes..." he said, choosing his words
carefully. "I was just trying to protect us earlier."

"No one's questioning that, Jesse," Diana said to him. "I'm sure that you
did what was necessary. I'm just still trying to process it all..."

"Where's Rainn?" Elise asked him.

"He's upstairs in the bathroom. I think he needed some time alone."

They all were silent for a while. Jesse excused himself to go check on
him. Rainn could hear Jesse climbing the stairs and waited for his
return. Rainn was still processing everything that was done and said. He
felt numb. Like he was looking through a stranger's eyes, and couldn't
process what had happened to him...

The door was still open, so Jesse knocked before sticking his head in. His
face was still full of care and concern and that brought Rainn back over
the edge. Tears began falling all over again as he ran to Jesse and held
him close again. Jesse waited a few moments before he walked him out to the
sofa. He knew Rainn was still hurting and feared he might collapse if he
didn't get him to sit down.

He sat Rainn down carefully and brought him a cozy crocheted blanket to
cover himself with. He was shaking and breathing hard. Jesse sat next to
him and held him close, soothing him as best he could. Rainn held his face
close to Jesse's heart. He never wanted to let go.

Diana and Elise had come upstairs by this time and reassured Rainn that
everything was okay. Rainn's Gran hugged him and held him close, but
afterwards he went back to Jesse.

Diana went to the kitchen and made everyone chamomile tea. Elise and Jesse
drank theirs, but Rainn left his untouched. Elise wanted him to come home,
but he didn't want to leave Jesse's side.

"Maybe it's better for him to have a friend close, at least for now," Diana
said. "I think he just needs some time, Elise. It's fine if he stays the
night... I'll keep an eye on him to make sure he's okay."

Elise hesitated for a moment before giving up. She could see that he was
hurting. Elsie wanted him to come home. Elise wanted to be the one to
comfort him, but she could see that Rainn wasn't going anywhere . It looked
like he needed Jesse right now, and she could tell that Jesse really cared
about him, too.

"There's a spare bedroom Elise, if you want to stay, too..." Diana added.

"Well... I think that might be best. Rainn needs to have friends and family
close right now..." she said.

Rainn was feeling closer to normal now that he knew he could stay close to
Jesse. That, and the fact that Gran would be right here if he needed her.

Diana and Elise went back to the kitchen and talked awhile. Jesse turned on
the TV and they watched the news and a few late night talk shows. After a
while, he felt Rainn snoozing gently in his arms. Diana and Elise checked
on them a few times. Soon, Jesse was sleeping, too. He was still protecting
Rainn in his embrace. Diana covered them both with another blanket before
she lead Elise down the hall. She showed Elise to the small spare room
where she would be sleeping.

"This was supposed to be my office, but we put in a bed, just in case
company shows up," Diana said.

"This is perfectly fine, Diana. Thank you, you're much too kind..." Elise
said.

"It's nothing...You're always welcome anytime," she said. "I'm going to
stay awake for a while and keep an eye on the boys." She added, "Please
make yourself at home and get some rest," noticing how tired Elise
appeared.

"Thank you, Diana. You and your boy have been so kind to Rainn and me,"
Elise said taking her shoes off. She settled in and thanked Diana again.

Diana smiled and went back to the kitchen table. She had turned the TV off
and made sure the boys were still sleeping soundly before grabbing a word
search book. At about three in the morning, Diana felt too drowsy to
continue. She had finished several puzzles and checked on them one last
time before heading to bed herself.

Rainn slept in a dreamless sleep. Jesse was still holding him in his arms.

By chance, Rainn shifted and woke them both. Rainn could feel Jesse
stirring, so he sat up.

"You... okay?" Jesse asked, groggily.

Rainn just nodded. They sat on the couch for a few moments before Jesse got
up. Rainn grabbed his hand and pulled him back to the couch.

"...Don't leave..." he whispered.

"Okay..." Jesse said, sitting back down. He held Rainn in his arms again,
but his bladder persisted. "Can I... use the bathroom?"

Rainn smiled and nodded. Jesse got up and went down the hall. Rainn could
hear him and waited for him to come back. The sink, where Jesse was washing
his hands, was audible in the quiet apartment. Rainn could also hear the
gentle snoring his Gran made. He was feeling better, but still wanted Jesse
close.

Jesse returned a few minutes later and Rainn held him close again. Rainn
could hear Jesse's heartbeat as he rested his head on Jesse's chest.

"I'm... better," Rainn whispered. "You have been so kind to me... Since the
first time I met you..."

"I just didn't want you to get hurt...either time..." Jesse whispered back.

They laid there listening to the sounds of the apartment and one another's
breathing.

"I promise you..." Jesse whispered, "that I'll... always have your
back. I'll never let anything happen to you... ever again..."

"...I wasn't sure... how you felt... about me," Rainn said. "If we were
just friends... or..."

"...Me either... but, I..." Jesse hesitated. "I've... really... liked
you. Since the first time we met."

Rainn looked up into Jesse's eyes and held him closer. "Me, too..." Rainn
finally managed.

They said nothing after that. Jesse pulled Rainn in closer and rubbed his
back. Rainn smiled. He felt at peace and drifted back to sleep. Jesse just
let him rest and listened to his easy breathing before falling to sleep
again, too. They both slept soundly the rest of that night.

Jesse was always an early riser, and woke as daybreak came through the
windows. Rainn was still laying close to him, so he carefully got up. He
didn't want to disturb Rainn's sleep.

Jesse carefully went into his room grabbed a change of clothes. His once
clean white t-shirt was covered in dirt and grime from where he attempted
to rescue the sketchbook. Jesse showered and changed before going back to
his room. Jesse sat and mediated a bit like he did every morning, burning
cedar incense, and silently repeating mantras for each bead on his mala.

He finished and thought about cooking everyone a hearty breakfast. Jesse
went to the kitchen started frying bacon and mixing pancake batter. He
diced some apples and cooked them in a skillet with butter and brown
sugar. He put some coffee to brew and got out some juice.

Before long, everyone was waking to the sounds and smells of a delicious
breakfast. They all came to the kitchen and sat at the table while Jesse
poured them coffee. He set out some cream and sugar and got down some
glasses for the juice. Jesse served them three pancakes each with a healthy
portion of apples on top. He drained the bacon before setting it on a plate
and putting it on the table. He put out butter and maple syrup before
sitting down to join them.

They all helped themselves and complimented Jesse on his cooking. Rainn was
happy and feeling better. They shared a wonderful morning with
conversation, good food, and good company.

Elise and Rainn stayed the whole morning. They were enjoying their stay and
the new friends that they had in Diana and Jesse. Together they felt like
family, and they decided to spend the day together in the park. It would be
a nice change of scenery and the fresh air would do everyone some good,
especially Rainn.

Before noon hit, Rainn and Elise decided to head home to freshen up and
change clothes. He was reluctant to leave Jesse's side, but went with Gran
anyway. He felt grimy in yesterday's clothes and wanted to shower and
change. As he headed downstairs, he gathered his few remaining pieces of
art and his ruined bag and sketchbook. Rainn decided he needed to put it
all past him, so he just tossed all of it.

Gran and Rainn headed home. In their own bathrooms, Elise took a bubble
bath and Rainn showered. Rainn had a hard time picking what to wear, but
settled for his red hoodie, a grey shirt, and light-blue jeans.  Elise
changed into a floral print dress, a blouse, and a white shawl. They drove
to the park to meet Jesse and Diana after a light lunch. Rainn and Jesse
smiled as they saw each other and went walking together on the trail. Diana
and Elise sat on a bench and watched their sons as they talked.

"They're going to be best friends forever, now," Elise said.

"You know... I think they're more than friends... I'm not sure, but it sure
looks that way," Diana said.

"They do look so happy..." Rainn's Gran said. "If they are going to be
together, it'd be a bit fast, but... I'm glad Rainn has someone looking out
for him. He's had such a lonely time recently..."

"Jesse too. We had a rough time leaving our last home," Diana said. "I
didn't think he'd ever be happy again... He never was comfortable making
friends of any kind. Too scared to get hurt, I suppose..."

They talked to each other and accepted the situation for what it was. Rainn
and Jesse were in love and nothing would come between them. They had each
other now, and that was fine. They were also good kids, both of
them. Together they could look out for one another and keep each other
safe.

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On the other side of the park, Jesse and Rainn were having a similar
conversation.

"How... did you... know?" Rainn asked Jesse.

"Honestly... I didn't. I just... hoped," he said. "I'm just happy I was
right," Jesse replied.

"What does your mom think? Did she know?"

"She found out when we moved here. She's fine with it as long as I'm
happy," Jesse said. "What about your Gran?"

"I'm... not sure. I think Gran knew, but I know she loves me and accepts
whatever makes me happy. Honestly, I thought that Emily was the only one
that knew..." Rainn said.

"Wait a minute... the waitress!?" Jesse asked.

"Yeah..." Rainn said, laughing.

"Hmm... I think that explains a lot from the other night." Jesse said.

"You don't know half the story..." Rainn hinted.

"Oh, no? I think you better start talking!" Jesse said, looking into
Rainn's gorgeous eyes.

"I don't think I can! Emily will never forgive me!" Rainn said, laughing.

"Spill the beans mister! I swear, I'll tickle you!" Jesse said, holding
Rainn and working his hands under Rainn's arms. He tickled him and laughed
as Rainn tried to tickled him back. It wasn't much use, though, as Jesse
was much better at it than Rainn was.

"Okay! Okay! I give up!" Rainn said, laughing himself pink.

"Yes! I win!" Jesse said, "Now spill!"

Rainn started his story, telling Jesse everything. He recounted how Emily
figured out he was gay, that he had a crush on Jesse, and about all the
ridiculous things she put Rainn through to see if Jesse liked him back.

"She took a picture of me!? Looking at you??" Jesse was blushing furiously.

"Well, of you looking at a PART of me!" Rainn said, giggling. "You're so
red right now! Too cute!"

"...I'm so embarrassed..." Jesse said covering his face. Rainn loved the
fact that Jesse blushed with affection. It made him more approachable, more
human, more totally cute!

Rainn moved closer and moved Jesse's hands away from his face. Jesse's eyes
were wide in surprise. Jesse's hands were strong and warm. Rainn held them
gently, his own hands nervous and a little shaky.

*Am I.... holding his hands?* Rainn thought, excitedly. His heart was
beating fast. Did he... dare?

Rainn leaned in, but lost his balance and slipped in Jesse's arms and
chest. Jesse caught him and held him close.

"Are you okay?" Jesse asked.

"....yeah..." Rainn replied. He was in fact okay. Better than okay, in
Jesse's arms. He held Jesse and hugged him close. Jesse smiled and held him
closer. They stayed like that for a while and watched the afternoon fade
away.

As evening approached, they walked back to where Diana and Elise were
sitting. The day had been perfect, but unfortunately, there was school in
the morning.

It was time to go. Rainn and Jesse went their separate ways, missing each
other as soon as they headed to their own homes. At least they would see
each other at school tomorrow.


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Author's note: There we are. Eleven chapters, but it was well worth
it. Hope you liked it. More to follow...

:0)

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