Date: Sun, 24 Apr 2011 05:51:31 -0700 (PDT)
From: Doug Smith <das11111@yahoo.com>
Subject: High School: The Move, Chapter 32

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Chapter 32

"Dr. Johnson, Mr. Johnson.  Dan is out of surgery.  We got the broken knife
and were able to take care of his internal bleeding.  It went better than
anticipated.  I'm certain we got everything.  That's good because I don't
want to have to open him up again anytime soon.  He's lost a lot of blood
and is very weak.  None of his other wounds are severe.  We'll set the
bones.  They'll heal.  He may look bad but he'll look better in a couple of
days.  The one thing we have to worry about is infection.  That knife was
pretty nasty.  That coupled with the loss of blood and his surgery makes it
a real possibility."

"Barring an infection will he be okay Doctor?"

"I'm optimistic. The next twenty-four to forty-eight hours will give us a
better idea.  Right now he's sleeping.  We're going to keep him sedated for
the next twenty-four hours.  He's young and in good health but rest is the
best thing for him now.  We're giving him antibiotics to fight off any
potential infection.  He's stable right now but still in serious
condition."

"Can we see him?"

"Yes, but not everyone can go in at one time and then only for a few
minutes.  Are these boys family?"

"They're his brothers."

"Are you okay son?  You have blood all over you.  Were you involved in the
fight?"

"I'm fine.  I was with Dan when Phil knifed him."

"Is that the other boy they brought in?  He's in worse shape.  Did you do
that?"

"He was defending his brother, Doctor.  Josh didn't do anything wrong."

"My concern is your son.  Dr. Edwards is treating the other boy.  I want to
prepare you for what you'll see.  You may not recognize him.  His face is
pretty bandaged.  You won't see them because he's in bed but he has a lot
of bruises on his chest and abdomen.  You might not want to let the little
guy see him like that."

"I want to see him.  He's my brother."

"That's up to your parents.  You all need to remember, he's hurt very
badly.  You need to be prepared."

"Kevin? Why don't you take Scott in first?  Josh and I will wait here."

"Follow me," said Dr. Kelly.

- - -

"Thank you Mrs. J. You know I'm going to cry when I see him."

"It's okay Josh.  I know how you feel.  I'll make sure you have some alone
time with him too."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome dear.  We can talk when we get home.  You've had a busy
afternoon."

"I'll be okay.  I just want Dan to be okay."

- - -

"You can only stay a few minutes Mr. Johnson.  He probably won't know
you're here and it's important he get his rest."

"Son, I don't know if you can hear me.  Scott is here too.  We love you
Dan.  You're going to be okay."

"Danny, please get better.  I don't like you hooked up to all these
machines."

"We can't stay son.  The Doctor says you need your rest.  You're mother
will be right in."

- - -

I woke up looking into Aaron's eyes.  "How long have you been watching me?"

"Not long Dan.  Only a few minutes.  Go back to sleep."

- - -

"Oh God, Mrs. J, I can't look at him like that.  It hurts too much."

"Josh, he needs to know you're okay.  You can help him.  If he can hear
anyone then it'll be you.  Talk to him.  Let him know that you're here and
you're okay."

- - -

It hurt seeing Dan lying there like that.  His face was almost completely
bandaged.  I didn't even want to think about other parts of his body.  I
had to be strong though.  Mrs. J. was there with tears in her eyes, talking
to him.  She was telling him to rest, that he'd get better soon.  I guess
it was typical stuff someone would say in a situation like that, especially
a mother.

I couldn't do it because I didn't know if he is going to get better.  The
Doctor says he's in serious condition.  Maybe I'm a pessimist but that
sounds not only like he could die but that there was a good chance of it.
I don't know what I'd do without him.  He just has a way of making me feel
good.  I can't get enough of him.

Mrs. J. nodded at me and stepped back to talk to the Doctor.  I think it
was more to distract him.  I nodded and moved closer to Dan, taking his
hand in mine.  I really didn't care if the Doctor heard or not.

I held his hand and leaned in close.  "Hi Dan, it's me.  I'm okay so you
can stop worrying.  I guess something you taught got through, Phil is in
the hospital.  Maybe you can be roomies when you get out of intensive care.
I'd prefer you have a private room though.  I plan to take real good care
of you."

"I love you Dan.  You better get better or I'm going to be really upset.  I
doubt I'd be as lucky moving 1500 miles and finding someone who looks like
you.  With my luck I'd find him and he'd be straight.  I don't want anyone
else anyway.  I want you.  The Doctor says you can't hear me but if you can
I want you to remember that I love you.  You're the best friend a guy could
have."

"I need to leave soon.  The Doctor says you need your rest.  It's going to
feel strange not having you hold me tonight.  I hope it's okay if I still
sleep in your bed.  I hope I still feel your presence."

"The Doctor is giving me a funny look Dan.  I don't think your mother can
distract him much longer. I'll come back as soon as they let me.  I
promise."

I looked back as Mrs. J. who was still talking to the Doctor.  'Fuck him,'
I thought and leaned in and gave Dan a gentle kiss on the lips.  "I love
you Dan.  Please get well."

As soon as I kissed him I heard one of his monitors start beeping faster.
It wasn't much but his heart rate spiked a little.  I smiled and looked at
Mrs. J.  She was still talking to the Doctor and they hadn't seemed to
notice.  Maybe it was my imagination.

I leaned in and kissed him again and whispered.  "Dan, if you can hear me
then move your finger.  It's in my hand."

It wasn't much but I felt his finger move against my hand.  Mrs. J. saw it
too.  The Doctor said not to read too much into it, that it was probably
just an involuntary movement but I knew otherwise.  "He's going to be
alright Mrs. J."

The doctor told us we had to leave.  Actually he told Mrs. J. that she and
Dan's 'brother' had to leave. He obviously wasn't fooled but he wasn't mad
either.  He smiled and put his hand on my back as we walked out.  "I'll
take good care of him."

"Thank you Doctor."

- - -

I woke up with a start.  Aaron was looking at me and smiling.  "Josh?"  I
looked at him.  "Did you just kiss me?"

"No, do you want me to?"

"Someone did.  I think it was Josh. He's alright.  He was talking to me and
holding my hand.  I felt him kiss me."

"You used to get this excited when I kissed you."

"That's different Aaron. You know that."

"I know.  I'm just giving you a hard time.  I'm glad you're with Josh.  I
want you to be happy and he's a good kid."

"Yeah, he is but how do you know that?"

"I've been watching you, remember?  Besides, I think he's kind of cute."

"Yeah, there is something about him," I smiled.  "How closely have you been
watching?" I asked with a smile.

"Don't worry, I can't perve on you.  It's more of a feeling.  I'm just glad
you two got together."

"You are?  I thought you'd think I was betraying you."

"Don't be stupid.  I'm dead Dan.  You can't live your life worrying about
how a dead guy feels.  Besides, I want you to be happy.  You should move
on.  I know you won't forget me."

Aaron just smiled when I told him how much Josh reminded me of him.

"Just remember he's not me."

"I know that.  It took me awhile.  He may look like you.  He even has some
of the same mannerisms but he isn't you.  I hope he really is okay.  I
heard someone talking to me but I don't know if I was dreaming,
hallucinating or dead."

"I told you, you're not dead."

"I'll take your word for it.  How about you?  Have you met anyone? There
must be a cute gay guy in heaven."

"What makes you think I went to heaven?  Didn't we always hear God hates
fags?"

"I never believed that.  He doesn't, does he?"

"I don't know.  I've never met him.  I just woke up here the day it
happened.  I saw you holding my body but it was like I was a bystander.  It
hurt that you were crying.  I stayed with you but I know you didn't know.
I don't know if I can explain how things are now.  Just know that I'm at
peace.  There are a lot of good people where I am."

"Anyone special?

"You won't be upset?"

"Of course not.  I know we can't be together.  I wish we could but we
can't.  Actually I'm not even sure I wish that anymore.  Don't get me
wrong.  If you hadn't died I'm sure we'd be together.  You're all I ever
wanted but you died and I've met Josh.  He's great."

"Plus he looks like me.  That could get kinky."

"It's not like that.  I'm actually able to see him as him and not you.  I
wouldn't want to do anything with him and pretend it's you.  He'd probably
do it but I can't do that.  Do you know if he's okay?  Do you know what
happened?"

"I can't tell you Dan.  It'll affect how you do.  Either way it will affect
things and that's against the rules.  You'll have to wait until you wake
up. I'm sorry.  ...Are you hungry? I'm starved."

"Yeah, a little.  Don't tell me you have fast food here."

"No, we'll have to go somewhere else.  You can meet Matt."

"Who is Matt?"

"He's a friend," Aaron said with his impish smile.

"Ohhh, I get it," I smiled.  "Tell me about him."

"He's fun.  It's different than with you.  We just have a good time
together.  It's not the passionate love you and I had."

I grimaced when he said 'had'.

"You know what I mean Dan.  You know I still love you, more than anything.
Do you know how hard it was not to rip your clothes off while you were
sleeping.  I wanted to suck your cock so bad I could taste it."

I smiled.  "I've been lying here thinking the same thing.  Josh is
circumcised you know.  The thought of playing with your foreskin with my
tongue like I used to is really turning me on."

"You better watch it.  If you get hard here then you're hard there too.
Someone in the hospital might see."

"Oh yeah?  What if I cum all over your hot body?"

"We can't do that you know."

"I know.  No matter how much I want to we can't.  I can't cheat on Josh.
He'd probably understand and even forgive me but I'd still feel like shit.
It wouldn't be the same."

"Don't worry, one of us has will-power," Aaron smiled while kissing me on
the cheek.  You love Josh don't you?"

I smiled.  "I didn't think I could ever love anyone again but I do, he's
great.  I was so worried I'd be betraying you for so long."

"I tried to tell you Dan.  Didn't I tell you to be nice to him."

"Yeah, it was so hard at first."

"Let's go get something to eat.  Even dead teenagers get hungry you know."

- - -

Mr. J. and I went back to the school to pick up Josh's jeep.  Lieutenant
Henderson had been at the hospital and said we could get it anytime.  It
felt strange going back there.  There was a cop walking around.  He said he
had to take some more pictures and wanted to keep an eye on the jeep.
Everyone else had left.  Seeing the blood stains on the tar brought back
memories of what had happened.  I cringed when I saw the blood where Dan
had been.

"Dan is going to be okay Josh.  He'll come back to you."

"I hope so Mr. J."

"You saved him Josh.  I'll always owe you for that."

"Thanks Mr. J. I still can't believe I did that."

"Josh, you know I never wanted Dan to be gay but I know he is.  I'm just
happy he found someone like you.  You're part of our family.  Even when you
go to live with your aunt you will still be part of our family.  Diane,
Scott and I all love you very much."

"Thank you sir.  That means a lot to me."

"You know, 'sir' and 'Mr. J.' don't quite do it for me.  I know I'm not
your father and I'm not trying to replace him but I do think of you as a
son.  I plan to make sure you will have the same opportunities that I can
give Dan and Scott.  That includes college."

"What???  Really?? You don't have to do that."

He laughed.  "I want to.  Besides, I know Dan.  He'll want to be with you.
I want to make sure that is at the best school possible."

"Thank you sir.  I can't believe this.  I wish you were my father.  I envy
Dan and Scott."

"You're more then welcome to think of me that way if you want.  I'd be
proud to be your father."

I couldn't help it.  I started crying right there in the school parking
lot.  "Do you want me to call you 'Dad'"?

"I'd be honored but not necessarily.  Only do that if it's what you want.
I don't want to make you uncomfortable.  I just want you to know I think of
you as a son."

"I'd like that ...Dad."

"Me too ...Son.  Now let's get your brother's jeep home.  I'll stop and
pick up some pizzas on the way.  We'll celebrate the new addition to our
family."

"Mrs. J. is okay with this?"

"We've already talked about it.  We just didn't know how to bring it up."

It wasn't a real celebration.  Everyone was subdued thinking about Dan.  We
all wanted to go back to the hospital but the doctor told us Dan couldn't
have any visitors.  They were keeping him sedated so he'd sleep and not
move around.

Mrs. J. came over and gave me a hug before we sat down.  "Josh, I want to
thank you.  You saved my son's life."

"To be honest I don't really remember doing it.  I remember Dan telling me
to run but I couldn't.  I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I had run
away.  I really don't remember doing that to Phil though. ...Mr. J.?  About
what the cop said.  Do you think the DA will charge me with anything?"

"What???" asked Mrs. J. "That's ridiculous. You saved Dan's life."

"Diane, it depends on whether the DA wants to push things.  Yes, Josh had
just cause to do what he did but the DA could say he should have stopped
once Phil was down.  That's a judgment call.  I don't think he'd have much
luck if he did try to charge him with something however. Phil Clayton had
just attacked his friend. Josh didn't know whether he would get up again or
not.  He didn't want Clayton getting up when he was distracted helping Dan.
Any good defense attorney could raise all kinds of reasonable
doubt. Besides, Josh would be a very sympathetic defendant.  I don't think
there is anything to worry about. I think Lieutenant Henderson saw it that
way too.  He just couldn't really say it."

"I hope so," I said. "I just wish we could do the last four hours over
again."

"Don't worry Josh.  Everything will be okay."

After supper I called Chris and Ryan to tell them what happened.  They
hadn't heard a thing since they had been at the hospital visiting Kyle and
then just drove around.  They couldn't believe Dan got hurt.  They said
they knew he and Phil would probably fight sooner or later but they just
assumed Dan would kick his ass. They didn't think Phil would stab him from
behind.

They were just as concerned about me and wanted to come over.  I'm sure it
would have been okay to invite them but I still felt weird doing it despite
what Mr. J. had said.  Besides, Scott was upset too and I wanted to spend
some time with him.  I thanked them but said I had to try to do homework
and them wanted to see how Dan's brother was doing.

I also IM'd Jason.  I hadn't met him, at least for real, but he seemed like
a good guy when Dan and I talked to him online.  At first he thought I was
Dan since I used his account.  Dan had given me his password.  He said he
wanted me to have it.  He also gave me the passwords to his encrypted
drives that had all his videos of him and Aaron.  I hadn't watched them.  I
didn't really want to.  I had only seen the one Dan showed me a couple
weeks ago.  Seeing Dan with someone else, even knowing it was Aaron, was
hard.  I don't think Dan has been watching them either.  He said there was
no point but he also said he couldn't bring himself to delete them.
Instead he gave me all his passwords.  He said he didn't want any secrets.
Of course I gave him mine too.

Jason was really upset.  After asking all the details he said he'd be on
the first flight he could get.  He was also glad Phil ended up in the
hospital too and if I hadn't put him there then he would when he got here.
It was obvious he really cared about Dan.  I told him it wouldn't be a
problem for him to stay with us if he was really coming.  He said there was
no way he wouldn't get here.

After talking with Jason I went to check on Scott.  He wasn't in his room
so I went downstairs to look for him.  He was lying on the love seat
watching TV with his parents or maybe I should say our parents.  He didn't
look like he was paying much attention to what was on TV.  He had obviously
been crying.  When he saw me he sat up so I could sit as well.  When I did
he took my arm and put it over his shoulder and leaned against me.  I gave
him a kiss on the top of the head and we sat like that for the next hour
trying to watch TV.

When it was time for him to go to bed he didn't want to go.  "I don't want
to be upstairs by myself."

"I'm going upstairs too.  I'll be in my room."

"Aren't you sleeping in Dan's room like you usually do?"

"I don't know Scott.  Maybe I should sleep in my room."

"Why?? You always sleep in Dan's room."

"Josh, you don't have to do that.  You know Dan won't mind.  We kind of
think of it as your room too," Mrs. J. said trying not to smile too much.

"Can I sleep with you?" asked Scott.  "I don't want to sleep alone."

There was no way I could say no the way he was looking at me. I kind of
liked the idea, not in a sexual way of course but because I loved Scott and
didn't really want to sleep alone either.  I just didn't know how they'd
feel about their young son sleeping with their gay son's boyfriend.

"If it's okay with Mom and Dad then it's okay with me."

They just smiled.  "Josh, you worry too much.  We told you, we love you
like a son.  Scott slept with Dan a few times right after Aaron died.  I
think it helped both of them so there is nothing wrong with him sleeping
with his new brother now."

I smiled as Scott ran upstairs to get ready.  It was almost like he forgot
about Dan he was so excited.  I know he hadn't but at least it gave him a
couple of minutes to think about something else.

"Thanks," I said.

"Oh Josh," Mr. J. said as I stood up.  "You might want to wear more clothes
than you probably do when you sleep with Dan."

I obviously had planned to but he caught me by surprise and I didn't know
whether he was trying to tell me something or not.  Then he laughed.
"Gotcha," he said.

I couldn't help it.  I laughed too.  It felt good that he could joke with
me like that.

"Yeah, I was planning to.  I just hope I remember which brother I'm with in
the middle of the night."

I smiled when I saw the look on his face.  I don't think he expected me to
give it back to him.

"Gotcha" I smiled.

"And we thought you were a good kid.  Dan is rubbing off on you, especially
his sense of humor."

"If that's true then it's a good thing, at least I think so."

"We think you're good for each other Josh.  He'll be okay.  You'll see.
He'll wake up tomorrow and will be home before you know it."

"I hope so."

"I'm going to call the hospital," Mrs. J. said.  "I want to see if there is
any change."

I went upstairs to get ready for bed.  I took a quick shower.  It felt
strange without Dan.  Then I went into Dan's room to get dressed.  I took a
pair of gym pants from his bureau along with a t-shirt.  Normally I just
slept in my boxer-briefs, or less since I've been sleeping with Dan, but
didn't think that was appropriate.

Scott and I went downstairs to say good-night.  Mrs. J. was just hanging up
when we walked in.

"No change," she said.  "He's still sleeping.  She says he's resting
'comfortably'.  He has a slight fever and they're worried about an
infection but they've been giving him antibiotics to preempt it.  We should
know more in the morning.  Depending on how his night goes they'll ween him
off some meds.  For now they want to keep him sedated."

"Is it okay if I don't go to school tomorrow?"

"That's probably a good idea.  Why don't you both sleep in.  It's been a
long day.  We'll go out for breakfast and then go to the hospital.  Doctors
do their rounds early so we should know more then."

I had expected Scott to sleep on one side of the bed and me to sleep on the
other.  Evidently that is not what he wanted.  As soon as we got in bed he
scooted across and laid against me.  His head was on my shoulder and I
could feel the dampness from his tears.

I put my arm around him and held him close.  It felt good.  There was
nothing sexual about it, just a big brother comforting a little brother.  I
didn't have a little brother so this was a new experience for me.  It was a
nice experience too.

"Don't worry Scott.  Dan will be okay."

As soon as the words came out of my mouth I regretted them.  I didn't know
if Dan was going to be okay or not.  Even if he lived would he be the same?
Would he recover from all his injuries?  I certainly hoped so but I didn't
know.  Telling Scott he'd be okay were just words that came out by
instinct.  When he looked at me I knew he didn't believe me.

"I'm sorry Scott.  I don't know if he'll be okay or not.  We can only hope.
He's getting good care at the hospital.  Mom and Dad are making sure of
that.  What I do know is that he wouldn't want us to be sad. He'll need our
support if he's going to get better.  Tomorrow we'll go to the hospital to
see him.  He'll still be all bandaged and hooked up to those monitors but a
good night sleep should help him.  You heard Mom.  She said the Doctors are
keeping him asleep.  They're letting him heal.  When he does wake up he is
going to want to see your face with a smile, not with tears.  Can you do
that?"

"I'll try but he can't see me now.  I don't want him to die Josh. What if
he wants to go be with Aaron?"  Tears were flowing down his cheeks.

I didn't know what to say.  The thought of Dan not wanting to get better
hadn't occurred to me.  I told him I needed him to come back to me at the
hospital but I don't know if he heard me.  Would that be enough?  If he
could make that choice then what would he choose?  Shit, I couldn't allow
myself to think about that.

"Scott, we can't think like that.  We have to believe he's not going to
die.  We also have to believe he wants to come back to us.  I don't know
how all this life and death stuff works.  We'll just have to wait and see.
I do know this.  He's an idiot if he doesn't want to come back to you."

"He's a double idiot if he doesn't want to come back to you too.  I'm going
to tell him that."

"I love you little guy.  You're the best new little brother a guy could
have."

"I love you too Josh.  I'm glad I have you as a big brother too."

We didn't say anything else.  I gave Scott a kiss on the top of his head
and laid back closing my eyes.  He snuggled closer and within a few minutes
I could feel his breathing change and knew he was asleep.  I kept laying
there as still as possible since I didn't want to wake him up.  The warmth
of his body was like a little furnace.

"Please come back to me Dan."

- - -

Aaron took me to a small cabin and told me to sit down.  "I have hamburger
and hot dogs," he said.  "I stopped eating that healthy stuff.  I figure
I'm dead already.  What difference does it make?"

I had to laugh.  "You're dead and you eat hamburgers.  Wait until I tell my
mother that.  She'll never let me stop going to counseling."

"You haven't lived until you've tasted my Tex-Mex burger grilled over an
open flame."

I couldn't help it.  "Neither have you," I laughed.

He looked at me and smiled.  "Good point," he said.  "They taste pretty
good anyway."

He was right.  They were good.  Maybe it was just because I was hungry.  It
was fun being with him and talking like old times.  He asked about our old
friends.

"You don't watch them too?"

"Can't," he said.  "You and I had something special so I'm able to keep an
eye on you."

I flinched when he said that thinking of some of the things Josh and I had
done.  You sure you can't watch too close?" I asked.

"Don't worry," he laughed.  "I can't keep that close an eye.  It's more
like a feeling.  We're connected Dan.  We always have been and we always
will be.  That's not going to change.  I know you feel my presence too.
Not like now obviously but I know you do.  Right?"

I smiled.  "Yeah, I do.  You sure you can't see me?"

He laughed.  "No Dan.  You can relax.  I can't see you.  What you and Josh
do together is between the two of you. I'm not watching."

"Good," I smiled.

"You horndog," he laughed.  "I bet you'd enjoy having me watch."

"Nope, but it might be fun if you wanted to join in."

"Stop talking like that.  You're going to make me forget we can't do
anything."

"It looks like that bulge in your shorts has already forgotten.  I'm glad
dead guys can still get it up.  Come here," I said reaching out and pulling
him against me.  My cock was hard as a rock.  I remembered what he had said
about getting hard here and getting hard there at the same time but I
didn't care.

"I've missed you so much Aaron," I said as I wrapped my arms around him and
pressed my lips against his.

"Me too," he moaned returning my kiss.  "Nobody else can make me feel like
you."

I smiled.  "Just how many others have you tried to get that to happen
with."

He playfully pushed me away.  "Just Matt.  It's not the same though.  I
thought he was going to be here. He must have gone off somewhere.  We're
not exclusive or anything.  Is it the same with you and Josh as it was with
us?"

"The same?  No. ...Just as good? I think so.  At least we're getting there.
Is that okay?"

"No Dan.  I want you to be miserable for the rest of your life.  I want you
to sit in your bedroom and think about me and only me. Of course it's okay
idiot.  That's what I love about you."

"What's that, that I'm such a stud?"

"Well, there is that but that's not it.  You always put my feelings ahead
of your own.  As far back as I remember.  Remember that toy we both wanted
for Christmas when we were about five years old?  The one that you got and
I didn't because they were all sold out.  You loved that toy but I still
remember the look on your face when you tried to give me yours.  That's how
you've always been Dan.  If I asked you to sit in your room and only think
about me I'm sure you'd do it but that's not what I want.  I want you to be
happy."

I smiled.  "You were always the same way you know."

"I know.  That's what made things so good between us."

"You're okay with Matt screwing around with other people?"  I'm not sure I
liked that.  I was glad he wasn't there.  I probably would have said
something.

"Relax Dan.  I can see it in your eyes.  It's fine.  It doesn't bother me.
It's not like he can give me anything that would kill me.  We're just
friends.  We have sex.  It's good sex but it's just sex.  We don't love
each other.  Certainly not like you and me."

"Are you happy?"

"I'm not unhappy.  Someday I'll meet someone here, just like you did."

I hugged him tight and gave him another kiss.  It felt good but it wasn't
the same as I remembered.  My cock seemed to enjoy it though.  It was
pressing against him.

He smiled.  "Let's throw a Frisbee around before we do something we'd both
regret."

I smiled.  "So close yet so far."

We spent the rest of the afternoon together.  I knew I would have enjoyed
doing other things besides Frisbee but knew we couldn't or at least
shouldn't.  It was tempting however.

- - -

I woke up to the sound of a knock on the door and "Mom" standing in the
doorway.  I had made a point of leaving the door open.  She saw Scott
sleeping with his head on my shoulder and smiled.  I don't think he moved
all night.

"He loves you.  You know that, right?"

I smiled.  "I know.  That's what Dan said.  At first he tried to act like
he was jealous but said that Scott has plenty of love to go around.  I
think he liked being the only big brother."

She smiled.  "They became really close after Aaron died.  Scott has that
effect on people."

"What effect?" he asked rubbing his eyes.

"The Scott effect" she laughed.

When Scott went to the bathroom Mrs. J. asked how he's doing.  "He's doing
okay.  I hope I didn't raise his expectations about what we'll learn today
too much.  I told him we had to be positive.  Dan is going to need our
support."

"We all need to be positive."

"Have you talked to the hospital yet?"

"He's still sleeping.  His temperature is up a little but his blood
pressure is better.  They said the Doctor was doing his rounds so I
couldn't talk with him.  We'll have to wait until we get there.  They did
say he could have visitors but want to limit it to family."

My heart sank.  "Does that mean they won't let me in?"

"The nurse said it's marked on his chart that his parents and brothers,
plural, are allowed to visit.  You mind being Josh Johnson for a while?"

I smiled.  "Just that it's only for a while."

"Josh, we told you that you're part of this family.  It doesn't matter what
your last name is."

"Thanks, Mrs. ..., ah, Mom."

"You're welcome ...son."

Scott gave me a hug.  "Now I've got two big brothers for real. ...Can we
eat now?  I'm hungry."

"Alright guys, you get ready.  Your father is on the phone with
Mr. Kinkaid.  We'll go to Cracker Barrel and then go to the hospital as
soon as he's done."

- - -

"Aaron, I'm tired and I hurt.  I think I'll lie down."

"That's good Dan.  That means you're getting more in touch with life on
your side of the 'in-between'.  You're still there you know.  You're going
to be in a lot of pain when you wake up."

"Then I'll be able to find out what happened to Josh."

"I thought you said he talked to you.  Didn't he say he's okay?"

"I don't know.  I thought he did but when I woke up you were there.  Maybe
I was dreaming.  Can you dream when you're sleeping inside a dream?"

"Lie down Dan.  You look tired."

"Will you stay with me?"

"As long as I can buddy. You know I'm here for you."

To Be Continued...