Date: Wed, 02 Feb 2000 16:47:11 GMT
From: Lucky Redwood <wanna_get_lucky@hotmail.com>
Subject: Time Will Tell - Chapter 3

Ta dah! Chapter three, here you go. Let me know what you think
wanna_get_lucky@hotmail.com Don't read if you ain't 18 or you don't like us
gay guys!

Chapter 3 - Late Dawn, Early Dusk

"Danny," he said softly, I listened to the silence as he paused before
finishing his sentence. It was a cold deadly silence, one that you might
expect to face in a haunted house or something. There was nothing to be
heard, no breaths, no movement, no distant cars, absolute deathly silence.

He repeated; "Danny, we can't be friends anymore."  I felt faint, my world
was spinning around me. I couldn't breathe. I felt like my heart had been
ripped out of my chest and smashed with a sledge hammer in front of my
dying eyes. I wanted to scream, die and turn back time all at the same
instance.

"Danny, calm down."  "I'm so sorry, Conner. Please can you not just pretend
that this never happened. I'll change, I promise, I'm so sorry. Please give
me another chance." I was desperate. I couldn't let him walk out of my life
without trying to stop him. I was begging, something I never made a habit
of. This was different though; I could actually feel my heart rip into two
when he said that we could no longer be friends. I had to beg. I had to
keep him in my life. I had to keep him near me. I had to try and change for
him. All these thoughts were running around my head so fast. He had only
told me to calm down a second ago. I had somehow managed to get a better
grip on myself now and was more composed so that he could see that I would
try to stop feeling the way I did.  I was waiting in fear that he would
stand and walk out of my life. I knew that any second now this would
happen. I mustered up the courage to look up at his face. He was kneeling
down next to me. He looked me in the eye.

"Danny, we can't be friends" he said again. "Because now I know you feel
the same way about me, I want us to have so much more."  My body's reaction
stopped me from crying. The shock of what he had just said rocked my brain.

"What?.What did you say.Say it again." I said quietly and slowly looking at
him through confused eyes.

He looked at me, only this time my fears weren't blocking my view. I knew
what he had said. For the first time I could see in his eyes what I had
felt in myself for what seemed like my entire life. He said nothing,
instead he slowly leant forward. Not once did our eyes separate their new
found connection. I felt his warm breath flow gently over my chin. As I
cocked my head ever so slightly on it's side I felt his hand brush up
against my cheek. I swallowed loudly as he stroked my face and my lips
finally met his. He kissed me ever so gently, yet it felt so
invigorating. All the solitude I had felt in my life, all the times I had
ever believed that nobody would ever fall in love with me were suddenly
blasted away for what promised to be forever and all by such a gentle touch
from such soft lips. Any inhibitions were relinquished as a shiver made
it's way down my spine. And we both leant simultaneously into each
other. We kissed each other only this time so much more passionately. As
each of our tongues frantically and forcefully explored each other's alien
mouth a tear rolled down my face, only this time and for the first time in
a long while, it was a tear of joy.

	Our lips parted all too soon and we just looked into each other's
eyes. My true love showing finally to the most important person in my life,
my dream had come true. I felt like I was going to explode, my heart
pounded so hard. We were creating our own little world in which we would
care and love for each other merely by peering into each other's
eyes. There was more to see than that, I could see Conner's soul and I knew
he could see mine.

"Wow!" Something happened when I heard that word, I was pulled out of
joint.  Out of Conner, it seemed. My concentration had been broken, I
looked round and noticed both Kate and my brother Sean looking at us in
amazement. I saw Conner turn his head from the corner of my eye to look at
what I was so worried about.  "Wow!" my brother said again. He had a look
of shock on his face.  "Sean? Are you OK?" I asked nervously. I knew Kate
didn't care at all that I was gay, but I had just done something that could
be very stupid should my brother have a problem.

"You're.you're.gay?" he asked stunned.  "Yes, I am." He looked at the floor
looking a little flushed. He fell silent again in contemplation. "Sean,
what are you thinking?"  "About how I never realised." He answered sounding
a little angry. My heart began to sink from the high that it had made it to
only a minute or so ago.  "He's still your brother Sean. He hasn't changed
as a person, he just likes different things than you do that's all." Kate
told him, I already knew that score.  Sean was getting the speech, it
seemed. Only a less aggressive version, maybe.  "Why didn't you tell me?"
he asked seeming a little more angry now. "Why did you have to show me that
way? I didn't want to know!" His temper had begun to rise a little quicker
now. His quiet anger was becoming shouts.  "It wouldn't have gone away
Sean, you would have found out sooner or later.  Plus I never intended for
you to find out that way. We have no excuse for that and I am sorry. You
have to realise that I can't help it, I never chose to be gay just like you
never chose to be straight, OK?" I was trying my very best to calm him
down.  He shifted his eyes from their random search of the room which had
accompanied his confusion to settling them on Conner in a look of anger.
"YOU turned him like that didn't you?"  "HEY!!! Don't you dare blame Conner
for this, I have always been gay since I first started becoming attracted
to people, I never looked at girls, I couldn't.  It's not my nature." At
that Sean's emotion changed evidently to that of guilt.  "I'm sorry," he
said after a few seconds of silence, looking at Conner and then me, "I
guess it's a lot to deal with for me so quickly. I don't know what to feel,
you've got me really confused."  "That's because you've always assumed that
I was straight, I really am the same person though Sean. You shouldn't be
angry, I am still your brother." He sort of grinned at that comment, I
suddenly felt so much more at ease.  "Does mum and dad know?"  "No only the
people in this room. Are you OK with this?"  "I guess I don't have much
choice, after all it is your life. It's going to take some getting used to
though so don't let me catch you blowing each other off any time soon OK?"
I started laughing at his comment, he smiled and then couldn't help but
laugh himself. Soon everyone was laughing. I suddenly felt like a
millionaire again. I turned and grabbed Conner's hand and asked; "So does
this mean we're a couple then?"  "I hope so." He replied taking me in with
his smiling eyes once again, I resisted kissing him again with everything I
had in me so as to honour my brothers request.  "How about a toast for the
new love birds then?" Sean asked. More to stop the show of affection than
to celebrate his only sibling turning out to be gay. I smiled at him
lovingly though, showing my gratitude for the peace we had settled his
initial shock with.

*****

"What the fuck took you guy's so long?" Claire asked as we finally arrived
at her doorstep.  "You know Danny," Sean said. "When he's choosing his
clothes he'll be hiding in his closet and then all of a sudden he'll come
out, all ready." I flashed a panic stricken look at my brother. He looked
at me with a smile on his face. I laughed realising that he would never
'out' me like that. Claire smiled and opened the door to her house and
party fully, she obviously hadn't picked up on the pun, she seemed to be
already quite drunk.

"Happy Birthday!" I wished Claire kissing her on the cheek and handing her
a wrapped up Teddy Bear for her to add to her collection of presents.  The
others gave her their presents for her and we made our way to her huge
living room to join the hoards of people who were already helping Claire to
celebrate. I made my way to the corner of the room where there was an easy
chair that was free. I turned my head periodically to check that Conner was
still following me, I sat in the chair and Conner sat on the arm of it. I
had to stop myself from placing my arm around his slender waist when I was
already half way there. He smiled at me, obviously knowing the mistake that
I had nearly made.  "Later!" he whispered in my ear. I must have been
blushing quite badly because the disco lights that had been set up were
mostly making this area of the room look red and Conner was laughing at me.

	As the evening wore on I got gradually more and more drunk. I could
feel my walking becoming gradually less steady and my vision more
blurred. Trix approached me for what must have been the thirtieth time that
evening (he gets extremely sociable with as many people as possible when
he's drunk) and handed me a beer then beckoned me to follow him. I did so
and we arrived at the music system which had been pumping out chart music
since I arrived. He paused the song gaining everyone's attention.

"Everybody," he announced slowly, a little worse for wear; "If you have
never seen my best mate Danny here down a beer watch now!" I noticed that
Conner had the best viewpoint for my party trick, he was smiling, evidently
enjoying himself and swaying slightly too. The beer hadn't been opened yet,
I opened it and then looked to see what it was. Stella, not my favourite,
but drinkable. I looked at it and then looked and smiled at my large
audience; "Are you ready?" I asked my intent audience.  "Yeah!" They all
shouted together.

I put the can to my lips and quickly tipped my head right back, I began
taking huge gulps from the can as I had done many a time before. As the
last drops slipped into my mouth I held the can out and upside down so that
my audience could see that only a few drops had been left in it.  "FIVE
SECONDS LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!" announced my commentator Trix. I smiled and
gave an over dramatised bow.

	The party began to die down later in the evening, leaving only our
usual group of friends sitting in the living room having already
collectively cleared up the majority of the mess.  "I think that's the last
of the cans." Scott said proudly.  "Thanks for clearing up guys. Especially
to whoever it was who cleared up the stain in the hallway."  "That was me,
it's alright." Conner told her, I beamed proudly at him. We had all pretty
much sobered up by now, except for Trix and Luke.  "That was a pretty fun
evening Claire, thanks a lot." Said Trace looking disappointedly at Trix
who was doing his best to stand up.  "Don't mention it!"  "We all had a
great time Claire." I added.  "I'm glad." She said.  "Look, your parents
are going to be back soon so I had better split. Come on you two, let's
go." I said to Conner and my brother who both got up at the same time.
"Danny, could I crash at yours tonight do you think?" DAMN! I thought to
myself, Scott enjoyed staying at mine and it had been a regular thing, but
I had had plans for my evening as I'm sure you would have guessed. How was
I going to say no?  "Oh, but Danny you promised I could stay in your room
tonight with Conner and you, there wouldn't be enough room if Scott came
too. Can't you stay tomorrow Scott?  Please?"  "Would that be OK Scott?" I
said feeling so proud of my quick thinking brother who had obviously
realised that I would have had plans. Scott looked pretty upset but like I
said, I had plans.  "Yeah, sure. If it's OK for tomorrow, aren't your
parents back?"  "They won't mind." I said knowing full well that they
would.  "OK" he responded seeming pretty depressed. I looked to Conner who
had a 'that was close' smile on his face and was glad to see that I wasn't
the only one who had plans!  I caught myself in one of those lost smiling
gazes into Conner's eyes, looking like a broke drugs junkie who had just
found a fiver on the floor or something. I snapped myself out of it and
strangely found myself looking straight at Claire. She had a none too
pleased look on her face which made me inadvertently put one of those
guilty faces on, as if I was a five year old and my mum had just caught me
with my hand in a chocolate box right before dinner.  "Can I have a word
with you quickly before you set off Danny?"  "I'm pretty tired actually
Claire can't it wait till morning?"  "It won't take a second" she said with
finality and walking to the kitchen.  I thought it best to follow, worried
as I was. I went into the kitchen as she turned on the lights.

She turned and looked at me as if to say 'I could kill you right now.'
"What was that about?"  "What do you mean?"  "That smirk you gave Conner
right after you told Scott he couldn't come back to yours. That's what!"
"I don't know what you mean, if I was smiling then it had nothing to do
with not having Scott round tonight. I'm not leaving him out on purpose, I
did promise Sean that he and Conner could stay in my room."  "Are you
fucking Conner Danny?" I didn't look guilty or worried, I looked angry.
Mostly because of the little tact that she had used.  "What the fuck is
that supposed to mean Claire?"  "What do you think it is meant to mean
Danny? Are you fucking him, it's a simple enough question."  "What makes
you think that I would want to?"  "The dopey smile that comes on your face
whenever Conner is around. The fact that you never shut up talking about
him. The fact that you have become inseparable since he started hanging
around with us all, those subtle hints among other things."  "So I can't
smile at people now and I can't talk about my friends either without you
thinking I'm gay?"  "No you can't smile the way you do or talk about people
the way you do without me seeing what I know is there. You can lie to me
and say that it isn't true, but I thought that we were better friends than
that. I know you're gay, because I can see the love in your eyes when you
look at Conner. I know what that look is Danny because I can see it in
Scott's eyes whenever he looks at you!" The words sunk their teeth slowly
into me. So many images and memories fell into place. How could I have not
seen this before? How could I have been so blind?  "Oh my God!"  "Well?"
"He loves me? Oh my God, what am I going to do? Should I tell him? Oh no!
Should I tell Conner, I don't want him to think that I'm trying to make him
feel guilty, but as soon as I walk out that door he's going to know that
there's something wrong. I can't lie to him."  "I knew it" "Claire you have
to understand that I couldn't lead Scott on, but I could never let go of
Conner."  "I know how you feel, I'm in love with Scott, really." She wasn't
angry with me now, she was being more sympathetic.  "This is all pretty
fucked up right here. Let me get this straight, Conner and I are in love
with each other, Scott is in love with me and you are in love with Scott."
"That about sums it up."  "Fuck. This has been one hell of a night for me
you realise. I've found out that two people are in love with me, one of
them is a really good friend and the other is the guy who I love back."  "I
think we should worry about this tomorrow Danny. We need our sleep, it's
late.  Before you go though, did you ever realise how Scott felt?"  "Not
until you told me."  "OK, don't worry your secrets safe with me but I want
you to tell Scott sometime soon OK?"  "Yeah, I know. In some ways I wish
you wouldn't have said anything you know?"  "I couldn't help it, I love
him. I had to tell you, I couldn't let you break his heart now could I?"
"I understand."

*****

"Sean, I can't thank you enough for helping me out tonight. It meant a lot
to me."  "Just consider it to be my blessing, I saw you tonight and how
hard it was for the two of you to be with each other in public and I
figured you should have some private time too. But let it be known, if you
keep me awake tonight grunting and moaning, I'm gunna squeal on ya both,
OK?" Conner and I laughed.  "Whatever you say bro."  "I think we should get
to know each other better Sean, I might well be your brother- in-law one
day." Conner joked.  "Now there's a scary thought!"

I turned the lights on in my bedroom and sauntered in. I took a look
around, it looked the same, pale blue walls, a deeper blue carpet, two
windows on two sides of the house, my desk on the wall to my left and my
bed in front of me as I walked in and against the right wall. Posters,
music system and telly and photos of me and the gang.  Why did it feel so
different in here? It was because only a number of hours ago it had housed
my first kiss. That first kiss had been with the guy to whom I would walk
through hell twice for. I loved him so much it hurt. I turned to look at
him. He sat on my bed and was yawning. I knew what I should do.

"I'll be back in a minute. OK?" I went through to the bathroom at the top
of the staircase, Sean hadn't made it there yet. I went in and took my time
in getting washed and brushing my teeth. I went back out and saw that
Sean's bedroom door was open, I knocked on his door.  "Yeah?"  "Alright if
I come in for a second?"  "Uh huh." I walked in through his door and there
he was sat on his bed with a guitar in his hands.  "Since when have you had
a guitar?"  "James sold it to me, it's a bass."  "I can see that. Why
bass?"  "Well the way I figured it is that everyone who wants to be in a
band wants to be famous, so they learn the lead or rhythm guitar so that
they are seen more and made more publicly prominent. So there aren't gunna
be many bass guitarists around and so here I am, getting to be able to pick
which mega famous band I'm in!"  "You have it all worked out then?"
"Yeah." We both fell silent then. After about ten seconds I asked him;
"Sean, you're not too disappointed in me are you? Do you feel as though I
let you down at all?"  "No, I guess I don't really. Like I said earlier
though, it'll take some getting used to.  It's weird though because I can
see how much you love each other and that seems to make me feel better
about it. I thought at first that that might make it seem worse, but it
hasn't done." I leant over and gave him a kiss on the cheek. He looked at
me and smiled.  "Don't get all mushy on me now ya fairy!" I smiled at him
taking his joke to be just that. I could tell that he didn't think of me
any differently and that made me feel so much better and more at peace with
myself than I had done in years.  "Night Sean" "Night Danny" I closed his
door behind me. As I did so I heard him cry out; "Ride 'em cowboy!" I
laughed to myself as I walked back down the corridor to my bedroom. I went
in and saw that Conner had fallen to sleep as I thought he might have. It
was for the best, we were both really tired, had a fair amount of alcohol
in us and were emotionally exhausted from our busy day. We had waited this
long, why not a little longer? I climbed into bed next to my new boyfriend
and pulled the sheets over the two of us. As I placed my arm over his chest
and held him close to me I heard him calmly sigh and knew that I would be
in love with this boy forever.

*****

	I lay in bed and suddenly realised that I was awake, a strange
feeling. The sun was poking in through from behind the curtains. I placed
my hand on top of my boyfriends as he gently stroked my arm. He jumped a
little and turned his eyes to me with a start. He looked at me with his
beautiful smile, I smiled back and lifted my head to give him a kiss. It
was so satisfying to know that every time I needed one from now on, all I
had to do was lean my head towards his. I couldn't believe how amazing each
kiss we had shared up to this point had been. Every one had seemed to draw
me deeper in love with him. I just couldn't stop falling for him, my love
was more powerful after every time he smiled at me, his body touched mine
and I looked into his blue eyes.  "Morning gorgeous." He greeted me.
"Morning babes!" I responded. It felt so good to let him know that I
considered him to be my baby, to let him know how I felt about him finally.
"I could get used to this!" Conner said happily.  "What's that?" I asked.
"Waking up next to you, knowing that you are all mine and that you feel the
same way about me."  "OK, well don't get too used to it just yet, my
parents get back this afternoon and they've never been keen on Sean and I
having friends stay over when they're at home.  They say they want their
quiet time. When they're not away on business that is."  "We can stay at
mine then. My parents won't care, they've been dying to meet you actually."
"Oh?" I prompted him.  "My mum was saying at dinner on Thursday that they
can't wait to meet the guy that I have my head in clouds over. They don't
know that I have you yet." I looked at Conner in amazement.  "Your parents
know?"  "Yeah, I told them about a year ago. My older brother already has
kids so they don't have the family name to worry about. They're cool with
it, my dad was a little upset at first I could tell, but he doesn't care
anymore."  "Wow, I never even thought about telling my parents. It was
something I was hoping to avoid for a good while yet."  "I was pretty
scared, my dad always used to tell gay jokes and everything. I thought he'd
be really pissed off but luckily he wasn't too bad about it."  "My parents
never really talk about stuff like that with me. They never really tell
jokes either come to think of it! Oh well!"  "Will it be alright if I grab
a shower?"  "Go for it, would you like a bacon sandwich?"  "Wow, you're
cooking for me and we've only been going out since last night?"  Conner
said jokingly.  "Yeah! You sure hit the jack-pot there huh?" I joked back,
he gave me a smile which let me know that he truly thought he had. I know I
had.

*****

"Hi, is Conner there please?"  "No, I'm afraid he's still not back yet. Is
it Star again?"  "Yeah, sorry I'm calling so much. Do you know where I
might be able to reach him?"  "No, but I can see that I might just have to
get him that mobile he asked wants for Christmas! He is staying at a
friends that's all I know. I'll tell him to call you the second he gets in
Star OK?"  "OK, sorry to disturb you again. Bye."  "Bye" "The phone doesn't
stop for that boy." Conner's dad complained to his wife.  "He's certainly
popular with the girls in this new town isn't he?"  "Shame there not
popular with him." Mr Shears joked.  "Hunny, you know I don't like you
joking about that, if he hears you one day he might take you
seriously. Don't risk upsetting your son like that please."

*****

"Hope there's enough bacon left for me Danny!" said my brother entering the
kitchen still only in his boxers and T-shirt.  "It's cooked already, just
stick it in the microwave for a few seconds and it should be fine."  "Wow,
you cooked for me too?"  "I always cook for you!"  "Just pulling your leg
Danny boy. Are you going out or something?"  "Yeah, I need to speak to
Scott about something and Conner has some stuff he needs to do. I'll be
back for mum and dad though, don't worry."  "I'll hold you to that, you
know they'll just bitch at me if you're out. Its not as if I could stop you
from going out anyway is it? They should complain to you, not me!"  "I will
be here, chill."  "Both on secret missions huh?"  "What?" Conner asked
confused.  "Danny's talking with Scott about something and you have some
stuff to do.  Very secretive this morning aren't we both?" Conner looked
worried.  "I need to apologise to Scott for spilling beer on his shirt
again, I can't remember if I did or not last night." I lied. I still wasn't
sure what to say to Scott about Conner yet, but I was meeting him in half
an hour so I had to think of something quick."  "How about you then Conner,
care to elaborate on your stuff?"  "Urm.well.I need a new .calculator for
school, my old one broke and I need other stuff from town too." Conner
looked as if he was hiding something. I wanted to ask, but thought it best
not to.  "OK." My brother seemed happy enough with his response so I
thought that I might be reading too much into something that wasn't there.
"Right, I should be off." I announced getting up from the kitchen table as
Sean sat down with his bacon sandwich. I approached Conner who was sitting
quietly at the table looking worried still.  "Are you OK?" I asked him
quietly bending over him and placing my arms around his neck.  "Yeah fine."
He answered half-heartedly. He'd been acting weird since he had rang
home. He had seemed hesitant to ask to use the phone again, but I told him
it wasn't a problem. After that second call, he seemed to be acting quite
upset, but still I thought it best to leave it, I'd ask him privately later
what was wrong.

	I leaned around him and we both positioned our heads to kiss each
other again, Conner was smiling which pleased me. Just before I reached his
lips, I stopped my head and took a look at Sean. He looked back at me,
rolled his eyes and waved with one hand his consent to our more public show
of affection. I smiled at him and then at Conner as our lips met again.

*****

I was pacing backwards and forwards by the bench in the park where the gang
usually meets up before school. Scott was going to arrive any second now,
he was late already in fact. What should I tell him? I turned to retrace my
footsteps for the thousandth time and I practically sent Scott flying when
I bumped into him.

"Owww! Shit Danny, watch it! You could have broken a good few ribs then if
you were going any quicker." I looked at him and felt scared, I didn't want
to hurt him. He had been such a good friend to me for so long now.  "What's
the matter Danny, you look like you've seen a ghost or something.  What's
happened?"  "We need to talk Scott."  "Danny you're scaring me, what's
wrong?" I searched for words to answer his question, I was just going to
have to spit something out.  "I know how you feel about me." With the way
that Scott's face went as pale as it did, I wasn't sure whether or not I
had seen a ghost now.  "H.h.how?"  "Claire told me last night, the only
reason that she did was because she had found out that I'm in love with
Conner." I'd said it all now, I looked at my feet. I was afraid to look at
his face.  "Oh.well.hey come on. Don't feel bad about it. It's not your
fault, I know how it feels to be in love, I understand totally. Is
he.err.does.he feel the same about you?" Scott was close to tears I could
tell. He was trying to play it down, but if he was truly in love with me
and it wasn't some teen crush then I did know how he felt, thinking he
wasn't loved back.  "Yeah. He does. We've been going out since last
night. We found each other and we are both in love." I felt so awful. I
didn't want to crush him or anything.  I felt like a truly evil person.
"I'm glad, you deserve it. Look I should really be going, I have to meet my
pseudo- girlfriend in ten minutes at the flicks. I still have an image to
keep up you know?"  "Scott, I'm so sorry, I had no idea all the time how
you felt, I feel so bad."  "Don't be stupid, I'm more than happy for you,
both of you in fact." He said trying his best to get away from me as
quickly as he could.  "I'll ring you later Scott, OK?" I saw him nodding
his head from the back as he ran through the park.

I knew he was crying and I started to myself. I had really had a confusing
couple of days. This was one pretty upsetting episode in my recent past, I
just hoped that Scott would still feel that he could talk to me.

*****

	I walked through town, worrying about what Scott was doing right
now, I doubt that he had really gone to the flicks, I think that was just
an excuse. I felt so awful. I had really upset him. I think it broke his
heart to know that I was gay and therefore theoretically within his reach,
but that since I had fallen in love with someone other than him, I was
still unattainable. I had wanted to go out with him on just one date to
make him feel better or something, but that wouldn't have been fair on him,
let alone Conner or myself.

	I started wondering if I might bump into Conner in town, he said
that he was going in today. I hoped I would so that we could grab some
lunch together or something. I walked into a newsagents and walked to the
fridge. After inspecting it's contents I settled on taking a Dr. Pepper and
went to the counter to pay. As I stood behind the last customer in line
before me, I looked at the shelves behind the counter.  When I put the
drink down on the counter I said something that I hadn't said in over a
year; "That and twenty Marlboro please."  "Anything else me love?" queried
the Lancashire lass in her annoying dialect.  "Yeah a lighter too please"

	I left the shop and slowly and carefully peeled back the plastic
wrapper surrounding the packet of cigarettes. I took out the centre one
from the first row and put it to my lips. Like second nature I raised the
lighter to the right level for the flame to greet the end of the cigarette
and lit up. I inhaled deeply catching the back of my throat slightly. I had
given up after two years of smoking over a year ago and had had no real
urge to start again. I don't even know why I did now, it sort of just
happened subconsciously.

	I walked through the town keeping a constant eye out for people
that I wouldn't want to see me smoking. I decided that I should go to the
back of the bus station where all the young secret smokers hung out. I made
it round the back where there were loads of kids not much older than 12
smoking. They made me feel so old, I was legally old enough to smoke but it
seems now-a-days that only 12 year old attention seekers and ageing women
who sit in bars smoked. I sat down on a flower pot at the far end of the
hidden alley. I looked up as the majority of the kids left the area. I
finished the cigarette and went out having decided on catching a bus
home. I approached my bus stop which was almost opposite the alley. I
looked to see the time of the next bus. After about a minute I heard a kid
shouting from the alley entrance, I looked over;

"OWEN.Oy!.OWEN.DANIEL OWEN!!!" He had obviously been calling me for a while
but I hadn't noticed, my mind was on Conner again!  "Yeah?" I shouted back
a little quieter than he had been shouting. I recognised him as a kid from
my school, probably how he knew my name.  "I think that might be your
wallet up there!" he said pointing to the flower pot where I had been sat a
short while ago. I felt my back pocket on my trousers and sure enough it
was empty. I stood up and jogged to the edge of the pavement. Having
checked that none of the Formula 1 bus drivers were bombing it down the
road I crossed and ran to grab my wallet. I picked it up and turned around
looking inside it to see that nothing had been taken. I looked at the kid
who had told me about my wallet being on the floor; "Cheers!" I said
smiling at him.  "Do you want the money back in it?"  "What money? There's
none missing" "There should be! Don't us sweet little kids get rewards for
helping people out anymore?" he asked cockily.  "Here you go, probably more
what you had in mind." I said giving him a couple of cigarettes from my
packet. I didn't feel guilty, I started at about his age.  Besides even if
I didn't give him one, he'd probably end up trying to nick some old persons
packet or something.  "Cheers!" he said excitedly.

	I turned round fully to smile at him as I was leaving the alley way
for the second time. Just before I tuned around to leave, something caught
my eye. I looked over to the opposite corner from where I had sat and saw
somebody who looked like Conner, he was in the shadow so I couldn't see his
face properly. The guy was with a girl, I could see her well enough, she
was the tramp in the year below me, Star Smart.  She stood there obviously
waiting to pounce on a new prey, she pulled the guy from the shadow to her
in the blink of an eye and fastened her lips to him like a viper. They
stood motionless, her holding this poor kid to her for about ten seconds.
Then she let go.

	My heart sank. I stopped breathing. My eyes welled up instantly. I
thought I was going to collapse. The tears that had formed so quickly began
to freely pour from my eyes, I slowly backed out of the alley way shaking
my head and my body in disbelief. It was Conner that was with Star, I could
see him clearly now that he wasn't in the shadow. I felt my heart tear
right down the middle. I just kept backing out of the alley way. Conner
suddenly looked over to me. As a look of shock spread over his face he
began to run towards me. As soon as he began to run, I turned and quickly
began to run away from him. With my tears blinding me I couldn't see where
I was running. I could tell that I had made it out of the alley way. As I
continued to run, I heard a woman scream loudly, the screeching of
brakes. I felt a sudden impact on the right hand side of my body, then
nothing.


So there you have it guy's, it's the longest so far. Something about me
that loves cliff- hangers and suspense. Sorry it's in my nature to annoy
people! So go on, complain to me on wanna_get_lucky@hotmail.com stay tuned
dudes!