Date: Mon, 15 Jan 2001 02:23:37 -0800 (PST)
From: coldheart95@yahoo.com
Subject: warmth and coldness-3

Disclaimer: The usual, if you are not over 18, you are not
allowed to read this or whatever age limit your country has.
This story contains male-to-male love acts and if it offends
you, you have to leave this right now.

For those of you who are not leaving, enjoy the story. This
is my first shot in making a story and any comments or criticisms
are welcome at coldheart95@yahoo.com. If you would like to pass
this on, please keep the credits and do not change anything. Thank you
for the kind words people have given me.


Warmth and coldness-3

That night, I was thinking why did I have to fall in love with him?
I don't want to get hurt again. I can't love him. What if he doesn't
like me? Why did I have to fall in love with him? Obviously he won't
like me cause he's straight and I'm... I'm not. I mustn't fall in love.
I don't want to risk getting hurt. I suddenly remembered Jamie and tears
escaped my eyes. I began to sob quietly. Finding no one to talk to, I fell
asleep with tears.



"Are you alright Justin? Justin? Justin!"
Back to reality
"Huh... oh yeah"
"Honey, you have been having daydreams like this frequently.
Is something bothering you?"
"Nothing much"
It was morning and I'm having breakfast and to tell you the
truth, someone was bothering me. Sean was bothering me; he's
been on my mind lately. I've been thinking what would he do if
he knew I was gay?
"Justin, time for school. Justin, Justin, JUSTIN! There you go
again. What is happening to you? If anyone is bothering you at
school, tell me and I'll break their necks."
"Mom, I told you, I'm OK. It's just teen stress."
"Hmmm... very well, off you go, you're gonna be late."
As I got on the school bus, I looked for an unoccupied seat.
"Hey Justin."
I looked around and saw Sean calling at me, waving his hand. I
sat next to him.
"So, what are you doing on this bus?"
"What do you mean, what am I doing on this bus?" I'm new here
and it was just my luck that I caught this bus when I was very
late in getting up?"
"Oh... good point"
We both started laughing again and then I had an idea.
"Sean, why don't you come over to my house, after school,
tomorrow, my parents won't be there so we'll have the house to
ourselves?"
"Ok, sounds fine to me"
What he didn't know was that I was going to tell him that I was
gay and if he can't accept it then it's back to loneliness. But
if he does, then I'll be happy that someone can finally accept me
for who I am.
I thought about my parents. I mean if Sean will know that I'm gay
then they have the right to know first. I decided about telling
my parents tonight.
At about 7:00, both my parents came home and went into the kitchen
and prepared dinner. I joined them.
"Hi Justin"
"Hi sweetie"
"Um... mom, dad, can we talk?"
"Sure honey"
"What's this about?"
"I'll tell you in a second"
We all sat down at the kitchen and looked at each other. OK, it was
now or never.
"This is going to sound kind of crazy but its true"
"OK, son out with it"
"Mom, dad I... I'm gay"
They both sat there, stunned and speechless.
"Mom, dad, say something, mom say what you think"
It took several minutes before she started to speak.
"Well honey, I don't hate you. You're my only son and child and I
can't disown you. I would have never forgiven myself for doing that."
And she started crying. Yes, one down and one to go.
"Dad?"
Again, it took several minutes, before he started to speak.
"Justin, I never thought you would end up this way but if this is
who you are then I'm OK with that. I'm your father and I want you to
be happy. Just give me some time and I'll get used to it. Just give me time
but I swear I can accept it."
I was so happy, I felt like I could shout at the top of my lungs that I
was very happy. I promised myself, I was going to thank God for giving me
two very special people as my parents.
"Thanks mom and dad. I think this could count as the happiest moment of our lives."
I stood up and headed to my room.


Sorry again for the lack of sex but it will come in part 5. So for those of
you who are very impatient and want to read about sex then wait for part5
then download when it becomes posted. As always, any comments and
criticisms are welcome at coldheart95@yahoo.com. Enjoy my story.