Date: Sun, 30 Sep 2012 15:43:19 +0000
From: hearts collide  <whenheartscollide01@hotmail.com>
Subject: When hearts collide 4

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This story contains storylines with a sexual tendency between high school
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read on! This story has some elements of reality mixed with fiction made up
by me all the characters and the setting are all fiction even the names for
your enjoyment. Please do not copy it and post it anywhere else. Enjoy

4. Stormy

I looked up to see Ms William's seating on Tristan's bed. I hadn't noticed
she was awake and I just felt I need to go get some fresh air. "Nicolai, I
think you need to go get some food." She said as she looked at me. "I'm
fine" I said, "Honey its ok, nothing will happen to him, besides the
doctors are doing rounds and we might be asked to leave the room soon." She
said with a weak smile. I didn't feel like eating but I really need to
walk, I stood up and took the diary with me, then I walked towards the
nurse's station, there was an information board I saw the directions to the
church the cafeteria, and I started walking towards the cafeteria, as I
walked past the church, I saw a door that lead out to the roof or somewhere
because there was light, I followed the light till I got outside. It was a
rooftop garden and it was really quiet and peaceful place, except from the
chirping sounds of the birds, it was really nice. I decided to seat on a
bench and just watch the birds playing by the fountain. I then started
reading the diary where I had left of...



`So apparently the shrink said I didn't really tell about why I took the
drugs, psssh she said I only talked about what happened and I'm not facing
the problem. Seriously I wrote exactly as it happened. I took a breath as I
remember the close run in with Nic just outside of this office. At least
today we're not talking; she just wants me to make an entry on what
happened on THEE WEEEKEND.

Nicolai had just left and I had returned home. I saw my mum seating on the
couch watching Days of our lives. Seriously I think that's where I got my
couch potato streak gene. I thought as I literally laughed out loud. "Hi
mum." I said as I went to my room. I got into my room and slept on my
bed. This was the best weekend ever. I couldn't believe that Nicolai had
actually spent the whole evening with me and better yet, he had said he
loved me. I felt happy and I thought nothing could make me sad. I was on
top of the world. Just then I got a ping from Jarred on bbm, I then looked
at my phone, "Hi" I quickly texted him. "Hey, please help me."  He replied
instantly. "What do you need?" "Okay, my wing man totally bailed on me and
I need some to help with the catering at this gig I got and before you say
no we're getting paid." He replied. I had meet Jarred as we both worked
some afternoon shifts and weekend shifts at the local county club for extra
cash so we had become sort of friends, he had been going through a rough
time with drugs and I was there to kill his buzz and make him stop the drug
dealing so I introduced him to the county club restaurant for a paying
job. At school we didn't hang but only at work and sometimes at home. "Okay
but I still need to prepare, what's the function like." I asked. "Formal,
I'm on my way already I got the uniform and will tell you the details
asap." He said. I laughed and replied. "You're already here what if I had
said no." `Hahaha, Tristan seriously you have no life and btw you're just
too good a person to say no." I looked at his response and I just laughed
and went to the lounge.  I got another message from Jared. "So details
about the night. Need an update as soon as I get there." I quickly replied
"See you soon" I walked to my mum and said "Mum I'm going to help a friend
with this job so I'm leaving in the next hour." I said. She just looked up
and said "ok." My mum when watching her soapies marathons was a total
zombie. I then took a quick shower as I waited for Jarred.

"Tristan, if he doesn't love you he's a fool" Jared was trying to overcome
my sadness. I had told him about the weekend and what I thought about
Nicolai and Vanessa also being in the picture. Oh yea Jarred is the only
person I told I'm gay apart from Nicolai. With a deep indrawn breath, I
lifted my chin up, squared my shoulders and stood up. I turned to look at
Jarred. "You're right, I'm being silly. It's alright; he wouldn't have
stayed the night if he didn't love me." I reasoned. I saw a look of shock
on his face and I quickly said, "Nothing like that happened." I said as I
blushed deeply, "Oh so something did happen, he said as he flushed an evil
grin. We walked towards the full length mirror to look at ourselves before
we went to the help at Jarred's gig. Only when I got in the car, Jared
mentioned it was a luncheon at the Alexandra's. I nearly crapped my pants
but there was nothing I could do. I didn't know if Nick would be pleased to
see me at his place or not. But I was working.

Set on a prime site on the Hillcrest hills and stretching over to the beach
was the Alexander's mansion, a triumphant expression of the Alexander's
valour and splendour. To say it was a mansion was to do it no justice, I
think it was a castle. Mature trees provided shade from the noonday heat
and the grounds were covered in manicured gardens sweeping all the way to
the water front of the hillcrest beach. Surely this was the epitome of
gracious living as the mosaic Victorian domicile mesmerized I think all its
first time visitors.

A magnificent reception awaited the guests here at Darling point as it was
affectively known by everyone in Hillcrest. The colossal front lawn was
perfect for the garden luncheon. Long green canopies hung overhead giving a
perfect shade, tables were packed and filled with fillet, lobster, ham and
corned beef platters, and there were some other exotic salads and snacks on
the other table. Three bars were in constant operation serving the best
chilled cocktails, wine and whiskey. The tenders and we waiters were on
hand to serve and make sure the guests were happy all the time. A five
piece string orchestra played some music. It was a gorgeous afternoon. Mr
and Mrs Alexander were welcoming their guests with Nicolai standing at the
foot of them. He looked up to see me at the waiters table and he quickly
looked down to avert my gaze, I felt a bit disappointed. He quickly went
into the house and moments later he reappeared behind at the table I was
standing...

Nicolai's POV

I closed the diary as I felt ashamed of what I did that day and I think
that's how all my problems started. I stood up and walked to the fountain
and I remembered that day. "The love of money is the root of all evil" I
thought. Or rather in my case coming from old money is a curse that
sucks. That's what I think anyway. Money makes everything go wrong. That's
certainly what's wrong in my life. Unfortunately, I was born into one of
the richest families in Hillcrest. It's hard for me, you might think its
all glitter and gold but it's bad. I promised myself that when I grew up, I
would never be like my dad or my family however I was quickly turning into
the replica of the man I hated the most. I had to accept the fact that
Tristan and me could never happen not if my father was alive and had a
say. My family consisted of my dad, Nicolai I the empire builder, my
grandma, the sophisticated socialite Julie but preferred to be called Julz
apparently it's more socially affluent. Don't ask that's my grandma for
you. My mum the principled wife and I the well behaved soon to be Hockey
junior champion. With Vanessa my girlfriend and yes Tristan my dirty little
secret. Well she isn't exactly family but she acted as if we were engaged
to be married. The only other family we have is my cousins that live in
Hillside and my cousin was a sponsored tennis player. I guess excellency
was drilled in the Alexander bloodline. Oh they're supposed to be arriving
tonight or the morning after. At some point and time Tristan and I were the
best of friends however my father decided that he was too frail and seemed
weak, two of the worst traits that a man could have. So with much
convincing and threats I had to quit being friends and that's when all the
aggression and hockey came into my life. So seeing him at that table made
my heart skip a beat, not after the weekend we had shared, unfortunately I
was being pressured to date Vanessa from her and my dad. I quickly went
into the house so I could come from the back and led him to somewhere where
my dad couldn't see him.

We were now seating at the back of the house on the edge of the garden,
behind a rose bush. "So you want to eat" he said after a moment of that
awkward silence. "Me eating, not a chance. Don't like half the stuff on the
buffet." I said quickly looking at my watch. "Or you could show me around,
I mean this place is amazing."  He said seating on the edge of the
seat. "Na hits more like a museum, boooring" I said. I was feeling very
nervous by now, Vanessa was around the house somewhere and I was afraid she
would see us seating here together or better worse, my dad would. "Maybe I
should just go. Are you scared I would act gay around you and e
... mbarrass you. Is that why we're here hiding in a corner?" he asked
fiddling with his tie. I looked down feeling ashamed. I wanted to tell him
I couldn't see him anymore, try to explain how complicated it was. He stood
up and was about to leave. Vanessa then walked up to us as I was grabbing
Tristan's hand to stop him from leaving me. I let his hand go and looked at
Vanessa. She then said, "Its Tristan right, please forgive my BOYFRIEND,
he's a bit rude. Don't know where he gets that from." "It is fine
Vanessa. Nicolai and I were just saying goodbye." He said as he left and
walked towards the buffet table. Vanessa had a smile on her face, "That's
what you get when you talk to the help at the party." She sat next to me "I
told your dad about us" she said I then started to panic "What did you tell
him." "What do you think, that we're a couple of course and his delighted."
Jared was standing at the edge of the buffet looking at me.  I saw my dad
walk towards us. "I'm glad you're Nicolai's girlfriend Vanessa" dad said,
"I'm very happy to be Nicco's girlfriend sir, he is a very good and
responsible boyfriend" she said as she leaned into me and kissed me on the
cheek. My heart sank as I knew Tristan was at the buffet table hearing all
this talk. "Well, let me leave you two, Nicolai tell your mother I'm in the
office if you see her." dad said and left I stood up as Vanessa said "About
time we became a couple seriously we are going to be the hottest thing at
Crest" she smiled "Yea babe." I said as I kissed her. I knew my dad was
still around and I had to pretend I liked Vanessa. "I gota go update my
social networks and tell everyone." Vanessa said as she also left and went
into the house. I was hoping he'd soon just leave so I could talk to
Tristan and explain everything to him.  I saw him standing at the far edge
of the garden, as I came around I saw his eyes were teary. "He quickly
wiped the tears away. He wouldn't look at me, so I tried taking his hands
in mine but he pulled them away. "Please just go" he said softly." "Tristan
let me explain." I said "I said go... please just leave me alone" he said I
looked around and stepped closer to him. He flinched and Jarred from
nowhere stepped in-between us. "He said leave" Jarred said with conviction
in his voice. "Who the fuck are you?" I said as I pushed him away. Next
thing I knew I got a really hard punch from Jarred, I wanted to hit the
crap out of the little fag but I saw people where starting to look, I just
walked away from them, I saw Tristan look at me before I left. I felt so
frustrated and I kicked the wall very hard as I walked away into the house.

I looked up to see something blocking the sun, it made me realize I had
been seating out here for a while. "There you are?" Miss Williams said as
she gave me a burger and some fries. Honey you need to eat something or
you're also going to be admitted." I looked at her and tried to laugh but
no sound came out of my mouth. I just started eating and I remembered the
day after the party. Tristan had been ignoring my calls and I had to take
Troy out to the club to show him around town, they had just arrived the
afternoon.

"Honey I'm desperate cover the back table for me please." A lady said as
she handed Tristan some napkins and an order book. "bu... ah" he said as
she walked away leaving him starring at the table with me and the others. I
felt nervous as we hadn't spoken to each other ever since the last night
when he knew I was dating Vanessa. "Why do I get the feeling I won't be
able to get a zone meal here?" Vanessa said as she scanned the menu."  I
was seating with Troy, Vanessa and Kyle, Britney and Gabriella. "I already
ate" Britney said. "Brit laxatives don't qualify as a food group" Kyle said
as the whole group laughed out loud. "I'm surprised you didn't know that."
He added and I said "Whoa" as the others laughed once more. "Well if it
isn't dinner boy" Vanessa said as Kyle and the girls laughed. Troy just
looked up as Tristan said. "What can I get you guys?" opens his book and
ignoring Vanessa's name calling. "What can I get here that has no sugar no
carbs and is fat free?" Vanessa said looking at Tristan. "Um water" he said
and Troy sniffled a laugh while Kyle asked "Water, what". "Was that
supposed to be a joke" Gabriella said. "Well it was funny." Troy said and
laughed. I looked at Vanessa as she looked at Tristan with a death glare.
"Well I'll have a vas" she said with composure. "Excuse me," Tristan said
looking confused. I felt sorry for him "Erm, its water, from Norway"
Britney said "She's the worst" Gabriella said. "Um sorry, we only have
water from the valley." He said with a slight smile. "Aaah well I'll have
an ice tea." He wrote it down and looked to the rest of us. "Make that two
and make me a burrito" Kyle said. I'm cool Troy said and Gabriella and
Britney said they're fine.  "He's so not getting a tip" Gabriella
said. Tristan walked away and the group just decides to leave. As we go out
he comes back with the ice teas. "Too late dinner boy." Kyle says as he
bumps into Tristan. I just quickly look past him and walked away, I was
ashamed at looking at him. Troy was the last one behind and he tried to pay
for the ice teas, but he politely declines and says "Don't worry about it."
And as we walked out I hear Jarred say. "That's why I fight in school,
cause of those dirt bags."  I walked out the back to just try and talk to
Tristan and let him know that I couldn't be gay. I had to wait till his
break was over. I saw him seating alone having his break.

I looked at the diary and read his post of what happened for him to clearly
take the drugs, I knew it had something to do with this weekend and I knew
I was the major reason for Tristan's problems, how would I face his kind
mother if she knew that all along I was the main reason for her son's heart
ache.

"Are you there? Earth to Tristan,' there was no humour in his voice. He
watched reality creep back into my eyes and I started again. After the run
in with the A crowd in the dinner, I felt really out of place. "How the
hell was a supposed to know about `vos' or vas I have never even left
Hillside to talk of Norway. I knew that the weekend with Nicolai was just a
fantasy that would never come true. We stood in silence for a minute or so
while he figured out what he wanted to say. I on the other hand prepared
myself for the blade. I knew he was in a relationship with Vanessa and the
fact that he hadn't bothered trying calling back was a clear sign that I
was just a weekend fling. "Um, look you're so sweet and I like -" he said
as I felt a stab to my heart. "-you so much. We had a great weekend b".  I
looked up to face him, sweat was forming on his brow and his breathing was
irregular. I tried to brace myself for what I knew was coming. Every word
was like a sledgehammer slamming into my face and body in crushing blows as
he raged at me. I winced and pressed myself into the wall. I felt the hot
tears gathering in my eyes. "But we ain't playing this game no more. I'm
straight!" stab "I am straight I just messed with you and it was enough!  I
was drunk when I came over o ... o ... kay".  "but I love you" I whispered,
"Don't you play that in love with me shit do you hear me Tristan don't you
dare be in love with me" he said as he shook me. "I don't love you", he
said. Looking deep into my eyes with his very icy blue eyes, I felt a
tingle inside of me, and hot flashed. I know how messed up I am, here the
dude was telling me he didn't love me and there I was having a sexual
response to his body contact. "I can't love you and" he lowered his voice
"we can't see each other" he finally said as he walked away from me. I felt
weak so I just sat back down and watched him as he walked away from
me. That sadness began enveloping me again who did I think I was fooling? I
wasn't strong for shit. I tried in vain to clear my vision as I watched the
only beautiful thing that happen to me shimmer and disappear like a mirage,
into a blur of sunshine and green lawns. If only it where stormy and rain I
would have thought the heavens to be fair. But of course it had to be sunny
and beautiful like in your face the world doesn't give a shit even if
you're miserable.

I pulled my legs up, crossed my arms and laid my forehead into my elbow and
cried silently for a sec but the floodgates opened. I flung my arms tightly
around my legs and wailed as I rocked myself letting it out `oh god it
hurts so bad I didn't think it could hurt this bad. I sobbed to no one and
whispered it hurts real bad how can it hurt so bad. I looked up to see
Jarred staring at me from the door of the county club kitchen. I quickly
stood up and ran all the way home, hysterically trying to wipe away the
tears.



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