Date: Fri, 13 Oct 2006 22:50:44 -0700
From: Dean <adsherrill@msn.com>
Subject: When Nothing Goes Right, Chapter 8 Gay/Highschool Section

Disclaimer- this story involves the love of two males so if this offends u
then don't read. This story is totally fiction and not meant to reflect on
anyone. And all the usual stuff applies lol.

Author's Note- Hey you guys this is my first attempt at a gay themed story,
so bare with me and send feed back, tell me if I suck or if I'm any good,
this will be a short story with about 12 maybe more chapters, so I hope u
guys enjoy.

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      When Nothing Goes Right
      Chapter 8

"Well maybe you should just hear what he has to say." Angie told me the
next day at school after I told her what happened at Zander's house.

	"What? Why? I'm tired of him always telling me who I can't be
friends with especially when, he doesn't even want to be my friend." I said
getting frustrated over the whole thing.

	"Well it's not that he doesn't want to be your friend." Angie said
trying to stick up for her best friend.

	"Yeah, I know he has to think about it. Well I'm tired of
waiting. Kyle doesn't seem to need the time to decide if he wants to get to
know me." I told her.

	"You have to understand, Zander is just sort of complicated like
that, but..."

	"No buts! Zander has been nothing but a pain in the ass to me while
Kyle hasn't done anything wrong so far. I think I'll take my chances with
Kyle." I said ending the conversation.

	Angie gave me a disappointed look but didn't argue with me. Instead
we both looked surprised as Zander came up to us.

	"Hey, you guys. How's it going?" he said leaning against the
lockers with us.

	We both were still staring at him in shock. This was new; it was
the first time he was actually around me at school talking to me. Angie
snapped out of it very quickly though.

	"Hey Zander...this is a nice surprised. You done being stupid?"
Angie asked him while giving me an I-told-you-so look.

	"Actually Skyler, I was wondering if we could talk." He asked me
with a nervous smile.

	I stayed quiet not showing any emotion on my face. He decided to
continue.

	"I've been thinking and I really don't see why we can't we just be
friends after all so....."

	"Save it, I don't care anymore." I lied as I walked away from both
of them.

	I didn't know what was wrong with me. Here was Zander actually
wanting to talk to me, something I've been wanting for along time. But for
some reason all this drama of him choosing my friends, us telling each
other how we truly feel but still not wanting to be friends, his attitude
towards me, everything was just starting to get to me.  I mean there is
only so much a guy can take. I think the whole Kyle thing sort hit the last
nerve with me.

	The rest of the day Zander was with Angie, just like they used to
be, glued to the hip. That meant I was back to being alone. I just couldn't
be around Zander for some reason. It was making me think a lot about my
feelings for him. All through the day he would randomly appear more then
usual and I had a feeling that me running into him so many times at school
wasn't just coincidence. He would attempt to talk to me but I always had
the same reaction, I would just walk away.

      That night I got a call from Angie, one that I had been expecting.

	"I swear it's like the two of you suddenly switched places." Angie
said through the phone.

	"The only reason why he's being 'friendly' towards me now is
because of Kyle." I said, "It has nothing to do with just wanting to be my
friend. I don't want his friendship if it's gonna be based on that."

	"Well ok I admit, maybe Kyle did give him that push, but that
doesn't mean it's the only reason he wants to be your friend. You know how
he feels about you, he just has a lot of pride in the way. You can think of
it as him using it as an excuse to get closer to you." She said trying to
put it in a different perspective

	"Well that makes me feel better, he needs an excuse to be my
friend....he can't just be my friend he needs excuses?" I said
sarcastically.

	"Well...." She started.

	"It doesn't matter to me anymore." I said.

	"Why?" She asked confused.

	There was a slight pause as I though about what I'd been thinking
about all day.

	"I...um...I...don't think I can just be his friend. I've been
thinking about this and I realized that friendship is...well it's just not
enough. I want...no, I need more."

	"But Sky, you have to realize that this is Zander we're talking
about here.  You are expecting way too much from him too soon." Angie tried
to reason with me.

	"Well, I'm sorry. That's just how I feel. He pisses me off so much,
he makes me feel bad all the time, but for some stupid reason I can't stop
these feelings I have for him. I don't even know what love is....but I'm
guessing what I feel is close to that. How is that even possible....." my
ranting trailing off.

	"How is what possible?" Angie asked curiously.

	"To love the guy you hate." I said softly.

	We both sort of just stayed quiet not know what to say.

	"Listen just tell him that suddenly wanting to be my friend isn't
gonna make me not want to be friends with Kyle, if that was his plan
anyway." I told her.

	"God, I'm not your guys' messenger. You two have more in common
than you know." Angie joked trying to lighten the mood.

	"Angie I gotta go, I'll see ya tomorrow." I said feeling just a
little stressed over the whole situation.

	"Okay, see ya." She said and I hung up the phone.

	There was a knock on my door before it opened as my mom came in
with some of my folded laundry. She placed it on my dresser and turned to
look at me.

	"Hey honey, are you alright?" she asked probably seeing how
stressed I was.

	"Yeah ma, I'm fine." I said quickly putting on a smile to assure
her.

	"You're telling me the truth right, not keeping anything in?" she
asked, making sure.

	Ever since the whole Zander incident at school, my mom would always
check up on me, asking me if I was still keeping things to myself, asking
me if I wanted to talk about anything. At first it felt nice to have a
mother who cared so much but after awhile it just got annoying, and no
matter how many times I said I was fine she wouldn't believe me and
persisted in trying to get me to talk to her. I just wanted her to leave me
alone most of the time.

	"Yes ma, everything is cool" I said trying hard to keep the
irritation out of my voice.

	"How are things at school, are they getting any better?" she asked
with concern.

	"Yes, I'm making some friends." I told her then thought it would be
a good idea to ask about the party. "Hey mom do you think it would be okay
if I went to a party this Friday."

	"A party?" she said thinking about it, "with who and where?"

	"A new friend I made, Kyle. He invited me to go and at first I
didn't really wanna go but then I thought about it and realized it could be
a good chance for me to open up more and make new friends." I said trying
to play the sympathy card into making her say yes thinking that it would be
good for me to go."

	"Okay sweetie, just be safe. No sex, drugs, or alcohol." She said
smiling at me seriously.

	"Ma you know me. What's a party without getting totally wasted,
having a wild orgy, and getting high." I smiled back at her jokingly.

	"Okay just checking." She said kissing my forehead and leaving the
room.

	I picked up the phone and dialed in a number, waiting for the
person to answer as I smiled to myself. After listening to it ring a couple
of times I decided to hang up but before I did the line picked up.

	"You've reached the sexiest person alive, speak to me." The cocky
voice answered.

	"Um...hi.....is this Kyle?" I answered nervously, not really being
used to calling people on the phone.

	"Yeah who is this?" Kyle asked a little impatiently.

	"This is....um....Skyler." I said.

	"Oh hey sky." He said suddenly changing his whole demeanor.

	"Hey...so...um did I catch you at a bad time?" I asked a little
timidly.

	"No, never a bad time for you. Why are you being so phone shy?
We're still on for Friday night right?"

	"Um...actually that's what I'm calling about." I said slowly.

	"You're not bailing on me are you?" Kyle asked quickly.

	"Well no...I'd just feel a lot better if we met up before Friday,
and you know just sort of...hung out. Just so we got to know each other
better before the party." I suggested, not really sure if this was the best
idea.

	"Oh...ok cool I'm in. I'll pick you up in 10 minutes. Where you
live?"

	"What now....wait!" I said panicking a little.

	"Come on, I'm not doing anything and I know you're not doing
anything and I know you got nothing better to do...." He said
matter-of-factly, before I interrupted him.

	"Wait, why you always make these assumptions about me, like you
know me." I said taking offense to his cocky comments.

	"Sweetie, it's because I know your type." He said in confidence.

	Did he just call me sweetie, if I didn't know for sure before, I
sure knew now that Kyle must be gay, and as I thought about it, it would be
nice to have a friend to talk to about all this gay stuff I was going
through. You know someone who has been through it before.

	I decided to just give in and get over Kyle's cockiness because in
the end I knew that he might be able to help me sort out what I was
feeling.

	"Fine, whatever... I'll be ready in 10 minutes." I said to him.

	"Great, I'll be right there."

	I gave him directions to my house, and then I got ready to go. I
was feeling extremely nervous about what he was going to think of me when
he finally got to really hangout with me. Was I still going to seem
interesting to him? Am I going to bore him to death? Are there going to be
awkward silences? Those questions just kept running through my mind.

	 I told my mom I was going to hang with a friend. She was only too
happy to let me go. She was probably more excited than I was.

	There was a honk outside announcing Kyle's arrival, so I left the
house and was surprised to see him in a dark blue sports car that looked
very expensive and fast. It really was a nice car.

	I didn't realize that I was just standing there staring until I
heard the horn honking again and the window rolled down for Kyle to stick
his head out to talk to me in his now usual arrogance.

	"I know the beauty is just too much to take in, but I'm kind of
bored just sitting here watching you gawk at me." He smirked.

	"Oh....um...sorry." I said walking to the car to get in. "Nice car,
dude."

	"Oh this old thing, it's nothing, it's too old. I'm getting this
year's model soon." He said brushing off the compliment.

	"What? How old is this car exactly? I asked in disbelief.

	"I bought it new last year." He said like it was nothing as we
began driving off.

	"You're crazy! I'd do anything to get a car like this." I said in
amazement.

	"Anything huh?" he said to me suggestively.

	"Yeah my car is like 15 years old and is about ready to break
down." I said wondering if that was going make him think badly about me
since he was so obviously rich.

	"Hmm...pity. So I guess we have to get to know each other to make
you more 'comfortable' for the party." He said a little sarcastically.

	"Um...yeah, but I mean...we don't have to." I said getting pretty
unsure about this situation now.

	"It's ok, I'm here now anyways. Don't worry about it, I don't
mind.....much." he said

	"So, I guess we can go to the park and um, talk or hangout." I said
still nervous. I didn't really know how to hangout with people. I wasn't
used to it at school and definitely never done it outside of school.

	"The park!? The things I do for...." He trailed off looking at me
and giving me a smile.

	I stayed silent, wondering how long it would take Kyle before
getting bored with me. I kept going over things in my head of what I could
talk about to keep him interested in being my friend, but everything I
thought of seemed too lame and boring. What was I getting myself into? I'm
not good at this whole making friends thing.

	We arrived at the park, Kyle parked his car and we sat down at a
near by picnic table where Kyle could keep an eye on his expensive car.

	 I stared at him not sure of how to start a conversation because
suddenly my mind was blank. He just sat there looking a little disgusted by
his surroundings, not that the park was a disgusting place. I would come
here a lot by myself to think and just spend my time watching other people
have fun.

      Kyle turned to look at me and gave me a smile. God the way he was
smiling at me had me blushing.

      "So what school you go to?" I asked attempting to start a
conversation.

      "I don't!" he said simply while I gave him a confused look. "I
dropped out awhile ago, but I don't want to talk about school, I wanna know
more about you're love life....or lack of I should say." He said to me like
it was a factual thing to everyone.

      "Lack!?" I asked, starting to take offense to him again.

      "I'm just assuming, don't get your panties in a bunch." He said
smirking at me.

      I suddenly felt I had to defend myself with all his remarks and
comments he made about me so far. I mean after going through all of
Zander's judgments true or untrue, I didn't need to go through it again
with someone else, especially someone with a personality like Kyle's.  It
was too demeaning, so I was feeling a little braver to speak my mind to
him.

      "You don't know me okay, so don't just assume you know my life or who
I am. I don't do it to you so don't do it to me." I stated flatly with a
little attitude.

      He seemed as surprised as I was at the way I talked to him, with out
my awkward shyness coming in.

      "Hey, it was just a question. Calm down boy, we're here to get to
know each other, right?"

      I gave him a look before blushing a little, then looking down "Sorry,
for snapping."

      Kyle smiled at me "No problem, I sometimes rub people the wrong
way. So anyways, getting back to the subject"

      I blushed more not really knowing what to say.

      "Well I'm in love....with someone, I think....and this person feels
the same for me but it's....kind of complicated" I told him in
embarrassment.

      Kyle's facial expression suddenly dropped, like he was a little
disappointed.

      "So who is this guy?" he asked bluntly.

      "What...How...Who says it's a guy?" I asked becoming a deep red and
panicking.

      "Well for one, your reaction right now says it all, and two, I just
know these things, gaydar I guess." He said giving a little smile.

      I took a few minutes to calm myself down before I decided that if I
wanted to have a friend to talk to about these 'gay' feelings I was having
than it was better now with someone who could have went through the same
thing.

      "So you're um....gay too?" I asked cautiously.

      "Me? I'm not really into labels, but if that's what you want to call
me then sure. I love cock." He said.

      "Wow, you're not scared of saying anything, are you?" I asked, amused
with his blunt personality.

      "No, not really. I mean why should I? You should try it. So who's
this boy?"

      "His name is um, well his name is Zander..."

      "Oh my god, I don't believe it. Daniels? Zander Daniels?" he said
laughing like it was the funniest thing in the world.

      "Yeah, I know you guys have some bad history together." I said to
him.

      "Now that's an understatement." He said with a chuckle.

      "Well, um what happened if you don't mind me asking?" I asked
curiously.

      "You mean the little brat didn't tell you." He said amused.

      "We don't talk that much." I said sadly.

      "Oh and why is that?" he asked me.

      "Long story." I said looking down now.
      Kyle seemed to get really cheerful all of the sudden.

      "Well we got time, that's what we're here for right." He asked with a
smile.  He really did have a nice smile.

      "Yeah I guess so?" I said blushing, did I mention that he was really
attractive.

      I told him the whole story, from the beginning when Zander kissed me
in that crowded hallway all the way to when he warned me to stay away from
Kyle. He listened with patience and it felt good to talk to someone like me
about this stuff. It wasn't the same as talking to Angie or Mrs. Daniels
because they never really went through all this stuff of being confused
about your sexual orientation.

      I talked to him about all my confused feelings about being gay. It
was so strange how comfortable I was talking to someone I barely knew. I
talked so much that I felt my voice getting tired cause of all the use. He
talked to me too about a lot of the stuff he went through after he came out
and it felt like I wasn't alone.

      After awhile it got dark and he dropped me off at my house with a
promise from me to go to that party. For once I didn't feel as depressed
about things as I went into my room. I was actually smiling.

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      Zander just couldn't understand what was going on with Skyler. He was
finally willing to be his friend but Skyler didn't even want to be around
him. Zander was finally giving in to his feelings, sort of. He figured that
he could at least give himself the satisfaction of being around the guy. He
was growing more and more attracted to Skyler, but was still soo scared. He
didn't want to get into another relationship that was destined to fail,
especially when Skyler was confused himself.  He didn't know whether if he
was straight or gay. That sort of bothered Zander, because he wanted to be
with someone who knew what they were. He already had his coming out
experiences and he didn't need to go through another one.

      At least that's what he told himself because the truth was, no matter
which way he looked at it, he had feelings for Skyler and they were proving
with time to be stronger than lust. Zander was falling for him hard. That's
why he couldn't let Kyle do to Skyler, what Kyle did to him.

      It was all his fault. If only he hadn't been so stupid before, he
would be friends with Sky right now, but he had been so stubborn and now
Skyler is being put in a position to get hurt. This all could have been
avoided. If he was Sky's friend then Sky would have really listened to his
warning about Kyle. Now what was he going to do?

      It was Friday at school and Zander had spent the whole week trying to
figure out a way to approach Skyler again about the Kyle situation. Zander
was a little apprehensive of coming up to Skyler as he watched him going
though his locker.

      "Hey Sky," Zander said being unusually nervous.

	Skyler didn't even look in his direction, he just continued going
through his locker getting books while ignoring Zander's presence.

	"Um soo...can we talk?" Zander asked.

      Skyler still was ignoring him, which was really frustrating him but
he decided not to let it affect him as he suppressed the usual attitude he
would have given to anybody else who was acting this way to him.

      "Skyler would you please stop acting this way. It took a lot for to
bite down my pride and..." he started. Skyler immediately stopped what he
was doing.

      "You know what? I'm tired ok. I tried so hard to be your friend,
which is totally out of character for me. Do you even realize how much you
hurt me day after day with your constant rudeness. You made me suffer."
Skyler said to him bitterly.

      "I know what I did was wrong, but I was scared okay." Zander told him
looking away from his face.

      Skyler just looked at him while giving him a sarcastic look. Zander
looked back at him and took a deep breath.

      "Okay, you asked me for a chance and I messed it up, I admit it. But
now I'm asking you for a chance at friendship." Zander said hopefully
almost begging.

      "Well.... I guess it's my turn to mess up." Skyler said and without
another word or even a glance he shut his locker and walked off.

      Zander was a little hurt with how this conversation played out, but
in a way he understood how Skyler was feeling. After standing there in the
same spot for a few minutes where Skyler left him, he walked over to
Angie's locker to wait for her.

      "Hey Sweetie." Angie said opening her locker.

      "Hey." Zander's voice cracked a little. So he cleared his throat
while Angie gave him a weird look.

      "Are you feeling okay? What's wrong now?" She asked.

      "Nothing." He said and then he felt it, the warm wetness running down
his cheek. He quickly wiped it away only for it to be replaced by another
one.

      "That doesn't look like nothing to me." She said with concern.

      "Well it is." He said stubbornly as he felt more and more tears
running down his face.

      He couldn't believe how his body was reacting. He couldn't control
himself as he just started to cry.

      "Talk to me Zander. Tell me what happened." She said giving him a hug
and then taking him over to a little bench to sit down.

      "I...I...don't know what's wrong with me. I'm such a baby." He said
through tears.

      "Just tell me what happened." She said again putting her arm around
him as he leaned on her shoulder.

      "Skyler happened. I don't know what to do. I messed up with him and I
don't know how to fix it. I mean, I gave him what he asked for, I offered
my friendship to him but now he doesn't want it anymore. Kyle's going to
hurt him and I don't know how to stop that from happening" He cried out.

      "Zander, you're my best friend. So it's my job to give you the right
advice."  Angie said. Zander lifted his head and turned to face her.

      "I really could use your help with this." Zander laughed a little
wiping his eyes.

      "Look you might not like what I have to say but you need to think
really hard about this, okay?" Angie stated while Zander nodded at her.

      "You have feelings for him right?" Angie asked him.

      Zander look at her awhile before slowly nodding again. "Yeah, but..."

      "No buts, you like him. You need to act on your feeling, stop
fighting them.  Stop trying to protect yourself...." She said before she
was interrupted.

      "I can't...." Zander started

      "It's not that you can't, it's that you won't." Angie said getting
frustrated.  "He's not gonna hurt you, you're only hurting yourself by not
giving yourself that satisfaction. You're missing out on a really good
guy."

      "But I'm sca...." He tried again.

      "You're scared, I get that, but what about him Zander. Skyler has
never even been in a relationship before, ever. He's more scared than you
are, trust me on that.  The only difference is that he's not gonna let that
ruin his life anymore. He doesn't want to hide behind his scared
feelings. He's in love with you Zander and he's willing to take that chance
after years of hiding behind fear. He doesn't want your friendship, he
wants you. You have to give him that chance. I know you love him too,
that's why you're fighting so hard. You're scared of love, it only makes
sense.  That's the reason why I'm pushing you so much though, is because
you need to stop being scared." Angie finished.

      Zander just looked at her in shock. What she said, everything that
came out of her mouth was completely true. He was amazed at how she always
knew exactly what he was feeling and knew exactly what to say.

      "How do you do that?" Zander smiled at her.

      "Zander, it's me we're talking about here." She said smile back at
him sarcastically.

      Zander continued to smile at her and then looked down to ground as he
bit his bottom lip.

      "You're right, I have to stop being scared. I guess that's why I'm
being such a baby. I really want him too. I just couldn't admit it to
myself out loud. Angie, I want him. I wanna be with him, but......."
Angie's smile faded.

      "Oh Zander enough with the buts...." She said.

      "No wait, I'm not making an excuse. I don't think Skyler wants me
anymore.  He's tired of my shit already and I don't blame him." Zander said
sadly.

       "Skyler's in love with you, you just need to prove to him that you
want the same the same thing."

      "Well what does he want? I thought friendship was all he wanted from
me."

      "He wants you Zander, just as bad as you want him.

      "How do I get him to listen to me when he's all stuck on Kyle?"
Zander said bitterly.

      "Kyle means nothing but friendship to him. That's all he's looking
for there."  Angie said knowingly.

      "Well if I know Kyle, friendship isn't at all what he's looking
for. He usually gets what he wants too." Zander said turning red from
either embarrassment or anger.

      "Zander what exactly did Kyle do to you." She asked curiously.

      Zander told her the whole story about Kyle. When he finished, Angie
was stunned.

      "You never told me this before." She said a little hurt.

      "Well it happened around that time when you and I weren't speaking to
each other, and even when we made up, the whole Kyle thing isn't something
I like to relive." He said.

      "Oh God, Zander, the party is tonight!" She exclaimed.

      "I know." He said looking stressed.

      "We can't just let him go all alone with that creep." She said
worried.

      "I know...I guess...." Zander said thinking, "I guess I have a party
to crash.  I won't let Kyle hurt him." Zander said seriously.

      "What are you going to do?" Angie said.

      "I'm not sure yet," he said worried.

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