Date: Sat, 15 Jul 2000 16:43:11 -0500
From: WebWorm <webworm@nex.net>
Subject: Why Me? Chapter 2

Author's note: This is my first attempt so please be gentle with me.  The
story is part fact and part fiction.  There's not a lot of gratuitous sex
in it because it's a love story.  I'll suggest the sex and let your
imagination do the rest.  I would love to get comments, both pro and con.
Replies can be sent to: webworm@nex.net

Dedication: To the loving memory of my Marcus Aaron, sweet little sixteen.
I still miss you sweetie even after 4 hard years.  There's a hole in my
heart that will never be replaced but the fond memories of our time in the
sun and the love we showered each other with warm me continually.  I love
you, MAC.  Peace and love to your Mom and Aunt Wilma.

This story is protected by copyright.  And if you don't know what that
means go see your Lawyer `cause if you break the laws my Lawyer will be
wanting to meet with yours.


Why Me?
Chapter 2


"Oh my God! Richard, what in the fuck are you doing here?" Chad asked.

I didn't answer rather I ran like a scared rabbit all the way home and went
straight to my room.  I cried till I could not shed any more tears.  Now
what would I do?  I'm gonna be labeled a queer, a fag, a homo.  No, this
can't be happening to me.  Not this perfect little boy from this perfect
home.  Yes, Richard, you are a queer, a flaming faggot.  Your life as
"Mr. Perfect" has ended.  The world will now know.  All this was too much
for Richard and he got up from his bed and went to the living room.  He
paced the floor wringing his hands.  Anguish all over his face blinding him
from reality made him want to run and hide.  The doorbell rang.  Through
the peephole he could see it was Chad.

"He's come here to kick my ass." Richard thought.

Don't open it and keep quiet.  He heard Chad try and open the door.

"Richard, I know you are in there.  Answer the door" Chad shouted.

Chad finally gave up and walked away.  Okay, now what to do.  Richard
thought of killing himself but felt he didn't have the guts to do that.
Hmmm, his Dad had always called liquor `liquid courage' hadn't he?  So what
else is there to do but get up the courage to do it.  He opened the cabinet
and remembering chemistry class discussions on alcohol, looked for the one
with the highest proof.  Richard took the top off the bottle and sucked the
whisky down.  He almost threw up after that first slug went down his throat
burning it's way to his gullet.

"Damn, how do people enjoy drinking this stuff?" he thought.

He had a job to accomplish though so he placed the bottle back to his lips.
"How will I do the deed?" he thought to himself.

"I know, I'll get good and drunk and run a tub full of water and get in.
Then I'll slit my wrists, just like in the movie, and drink till I pass
out.  Then I'll either drown or bleed to death.  Doesn't matter which as
long as I am gone and out of the way." He said outloud.

So he proceeded to drink from the bottle of 100 proof Jim Beam.  The more
he drank the mellower he got.  The booze had an anesthetizing effect on
him.

"Hmmm, this stuff ain't half bad.  Hell, I'm not that bad either.  Seems
the more I drink the better I feel about myself." he said to himself.  "No,
you don't get off that easy you lousy cocksucker.  Just think how your
parents will feel when they walk through the mall and folks whisper behind
their backs "Oh, don't you feel sorry for them.  Their son's a
homo-SEX-u-all.  I heard he was caught having sex in a public bathroom." he
answered himself.  And the kids at school - his life was destined to be a
living hell.

His words were starting to slur and his eyelids were drooping.  The more he
drank of the `liquid courage' the more it became `liquid absolution'.  He
felt the urgent need to relieve himself and as he rose the room started to
spin and he fell hard hitting his head on the coffee table.

About 9:30 P.M. Richard's Mom and Dad arrived home and walked in the side
door from the garage to the kitchen..

"The kitchen looks as good as when I left it.  Looks like Richard is
finally cleaning up after himself." his Mom said smiling.  "I'm gonna go
upstairs and check on him. Give him some positive reinforcement." she told
his Dad.

As she walked into the living room she saw a sight that ripped her heart
right from her chest.  There was Richard on the floor with his head lying
in a pool of blood.  She screamed "Oh God, Carl, call an ambulance!" and
ran to the floor where her beautiful child lay.

Carl ran into the living room and assessed the situation and said "No time
for an ambulance.  Get a towel and wrap it on his head and we'll drive him
there ourselves.".

Carl picked Richard's limp body from the floor not noticing the empty Beam
bottle laying where it had rolled partly under the sofa.  He placed him in
the back seat with instructions for his wife to hold the towel on the cut
to slow the bleeding.  Tires screamed as the car pulled out of the drive
and headed to the Emergency Room.

They carried their little boy in and he was placed on a gurney and wheeled
in a cubicle.  The Nurse came in commented that he had a nice gash on his
forehead but that it would not be life threatening.  Then the scent of the
alcohol caught his attention and he leaned over and smelled his breath.

"How much has he had to drink?" he inquired.

"He doesn't drink." Carl seemingly offended replied.

Jerry, the Nurse walked over to the cabinet and took the blood drawing
equipment from the shelf, tied a tourniquet around Richard's arm and drew
an ampoule of blood.  "Sir, I am not sure I agree that he doesn't drink but
if you will come over here and smell his exhaled breath, I think you will
see why I suspect that he has." Jerry stated matter of factly.

Carl went over and smelled his son's breath and turned white as a sheet.
He looked at his wife, both of them stunned and ashamed.  The Doctor came
in and the Nurse brought him up to speed on the situation.  The young
Doctor instructed the Nurse to draw a blood sample, to which Jerry smiled
and produced same from his pocket, and to put the patient on a monitor
until he regains consciousness.  "As soon as you have that sample to the
Lab, come back here and try and rouse him.  If you can get him awake
enough, get some Syrup of Ipecac down him otherwise we will have to pump
his stomach." the Doctor ordered the Nurse.

The Nurse returned from the Lab and broke a small Ammonia Inhalant and
placed it under Richard's nose.  Oh, did he respond to that.  He came up
off the table in a flash.  The Nurse quieted him down and got him to drink
the Syrup.  "It's not going to taste the greatest in the world but it will
keep us from having to pump your stomach." he told Richard.

"Nurse, I'm feeling a little nauseous." Richard said.

"That didn't take long.  It's to be expected and call me Jerry, not
`Nurse', please." Jerry said.

Jerry got an emesis basin and held it under Richard's head and turning from
Richard to his parents said "Mr. And Mrs. Dean, if you would like, you can
wait down the hall in the lounge.  This will not be a pleasant experience
for any of us.  And your son might feel a little less embarrassed if you
waited elsewhere.  I will come get you if you are needed for anything."

They left the room and the Nurse tending their son.  As they walked down
the hall Carl stated "Something is terribly wrong with this picture.
Richard would never do anything this stupid unless there is an underlying
cause.".  Richard's mother just remained silent blaming herself for not
being there when her son needed her the most.

They had been in the waiting lounge for thirty or so minutes when the
Doctor came in.

"The Lab test are back and your son had an unbelievably high blood alcohol
content.  With your permission, I think we should keep him here overnight
for observation.  Any problems with that?"  the young Doctor asked.

"None whatsoever." Carl replied and Carl left to go register Richard in the
Hospital.

Jerry moved a transport gurney into the room where Richard was and helped
his young patient onto the gurney.  "Shit!!! This mattress is fucking
cold!" Richard moaned.  His dignity had already been shaken when Jerry
removed his clothes and put him in a chintzy hospital gown but this just
added insult to injury.

"Why am I going to have to stay overnight Jerry?" Richard asked.

"Richie, uh may I call you Richie? Jerry asked.

"Sure. No prob man." Richard replied.

"Okay, Richie.  Your blood alcohol content was very high. The Doc wants to
keep you here overnight for observation - just in case that booze screwed
up something in your metabolism. That is a dangerous situation and had your
folks not gotten you to the hospital, you might likely have died." Jerry
said.

"Didja ever think that that might not have been the general idea Jerry?"
Richard responded and his eyes started to tear up.

"Richie, I don't ever want to hear you talk like that.  You are young and
full of life.  You..." Jerry stuttered feeling rage at the thought of this
kid ending his life.

"You, you, YOU don't know.  You just don't know so don't be so damned
judgmental.  If you were facing what I am ....." spewed from Richards lips.

Jerry cut him off stating very sternly "Richie, what, just WHAT is so
terrible that you would want to kill yourself?".

"Never mind.  Can you just get me to my room, please, Jerry?  I'm very
tired and want to go to sleep." Richard said.

"Sure Tiger." Jerry responded and they flew down the hall up to Richard's
hospital room.

Jerry was smart enough to know that any further argument would be
nonproductive with Richard still sobering up.  Jerry went by the Nurse's
Station and told the Charge Nurse that the staff would be well advised to
keep a close watch on Richie.

The events of the evening was the beginning of a pattern.  The liquor was
removed from the house and Richard was basically grounded except to go to
school or church and their related functions.  But, that did not deter
Richard.  It just made it a little more difficult to acquire the `nectar of
the Gods' that helped relieve some of the stress.  He would wait until his
parents were asleep or gone and then slip down to the park.  There was
always some Wino who would pick him up a pint of cheap whisky in exchange
for a pint for himself.  The only way Richard could drift of even to a
troubled sleep was after having an intimate love affair with Jimbo Beam.

His home life had become shitty.  No, his parents weren't riding his back.
They were concerned, truly concerned.  They tried to get him to set up an
appointment with the Pastor.  They tried to have him set up and appointment
with the school counselor.  They tried everything that they knew to do and
had gone to counseling themselves.  Richard was belligerent, rude and
disrespectful at home.  Exactly the opposite of the good little Richard
that they had known for almost 16 years.  But everything that they
suggested was rejected by Richard.

School was not much better.  As he walked down the hallways he did not
imagine that Chad was ignoring him, no, it could not be a coincidence that
never, by chance, did they bump into each other.  Hell, they had started
Kindergarten together, had become fast and steady friends, constant
companions.  Richard would start a sentence and Chad would finish it.  And
now because of a STUPID HORMONAL IMPULSE all that was down the drain.
Richard still wasn't totally convinced as to whether he was straight, bi or
gay.  He know that he had a strong emotional bond with Chad, more than with
any girl he had ever been friends with.

Now Chad did not know how to deal with the situation.  Yeah, he was
purposefully avoiding Richard.  He had never been as embarrassed in his
life as when he pulled open that door and there stood Richard putting his
woodie back in his pants.  Richard had been just as curious as Chad, hadn't
he?  What was wrong with getting a quick blow job by some stranger who
would remain anonymous.  After putting on such a macho show after Richard
told him about the `glory hole' though, it showed of pure and simple
hypocrisy.  He felt emasculated by it.  But he couldn't face him though.
He knew that his life was a total zip without his friend.

That leads us to the night that Officer McLaughlin picked Richard up.
Richard had waited until he heard his parents close their bedroom door.  He
then listened for the TV to turn off.  He knew that when his folks went to
bed they always turned the TV on and set the timer for 30 minutes.  Was it
to cover the sounds of `sex' or just a noise pacifier?  Didn't matter -
what it did signal was the start for Richard's late night binge drinking.
On this particular night, he didn't hole up in his room and drink till he
passed out.  He went to the park and found `Willie Wino' and gave him
enough cash to get them both a fifth of the cheapest rot gut whiskey in the
store.

Richard needed lots of courage for what he was going to do tonight.  He was
going to go see what that `glory hole' was all about.  Maybe this would
prove to him whether he was straight or gay.  He hid in the bushes close to
the river watching the john.  As he observed a steady stream of men going
and coming out of the john he drank steadily from the bottle of cheap
whiskey.

"Gawd Almighty, there's Mr. Kirkpatrick, the Sunday School Superintendent!"
Richard chuckled to himself.  Damn, he couldn't go in there now.  He would
just have to wait him out.  So Richard continued to drink.  He then saw him
leave and Richard decided it was now or never.  He staggered over to the
john, opened the door and sauntered over to the urinal.  Trying to remember
the proper Tea Room protocol that Eric had told him, he unzipped his pants
and started stroking his meat.  It started to firm up and Richard saw a
finger being poked through the hole.  "That's my signal." he thought and he
turned and stuck his dick through the hole.

 "Damn, that steel is cold on my balls." Richard laughed.  He felt the
warmth of a pair of lips encasing his cock on the other side of the stall.

"Oh, shit, that feels so good.  Suck on that big cock, faggot!" Richard
cried out at the top of his lungs.

"Shut up you crazy fucker!  You trying to attract the cops over here or
what!" the anonymous voice whispered from behind the stall.

"Fuck, man.  What's your problem?  Put my dick back in your mouth and suck
on it, PLEEEEEZE."  Richard pleaded gradually getting louder and louder.

"Screw this scene, man.  I ain't sticking around for company to show up."
the anonymous voice said and Richard heard the stall door slam shut.  He
glanced over his shoulder only to see the back of a Lewisville High Varsity
Football jacket disappear through the door in a flash.

"Well, fuck.  I'll just leave it in the fucking hole till the nexsh
cockshucker combs zalong then. "  Richard slurred.  Richard heard footsteps
approaching.  "Welll, that dizn't take long, now diid it?"  Richard
giggled.

Richard looked over to the door to see who was going to enjoy popping his
cherry in the `glory hole.  The door opened and ...."Oh, my God....."

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That's all for now folks.  I promise you that there will be no more door
opening cliff hangers like this one.  You can rest assured it will not be
Chad this time.  You can probably guess who it is.  Or can you?  Let me
know who you think it is.  Is it one of the named characters or will it be
a mystery character that changes the entire course of events for the
evening leading up tot he jail incident?  I appreciate all the comments I
received.  I changed the format to make it more readable.  Let me know if
that is better than the straight paragraph style.  Like I said in the
beginning your comments would be greatly appreciated.  E-mail me at
webworm@nex.net