Date: Thu, 11 May 2006 13:30:05 -0400
From: Ron <ronyx@woh.rr.com>
Subject: You Promised Me a Tomorrow   Chapter 2

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You Promised Me a Tomorrow        Chapter 2



"Shut the fuck up, Butch."

"Screw you, Bitch!"

Not again. It's only 6:15 in the morning and my mother and brother are
already in the kitchen screaming at each other. As usual, Butch, my older
brother, has just staggered into the house after one of his all night
drinking binges.

You'd think a guy at 23 should be out of the house and on his own. Not
Butch. He's got it too good around here. If you can call it good. He has
never held a job in his life. He sleeps during the day and goes out and
drinks and screws whores at night.

"I'm going to kick your fat ass out of here." My mother screamed.

"Do it and I'll burn this fucking place down." Butch threatened.

I put the pillow over my head trying to drown out their voices. I hate it
here. My life sucks. We live in this run down duplex. My room consists of
a bed and an arm chair I found in an alley last year. Most of the
furnishings have been sold to support my brother's drug habit. He got
hooked on crack three years ago and sold anything in the house that
wasn't nailed down.

My mother's not much better. She's a waitress in a greasy spoon a few
blocks away. She's hardly ever home. She comes in occasionally to get a
few clothes. Then she's back out, probably heading to the home of the
latest jerk she waited on that morning. One good thing, she never brings
them here. She's probably embarrassed about this crappy place we call
home.

"Go wake your brother up. He goes back to school today." She yelled at
Butch. I don't know how she knew that I started school today. She
hasn't remembered my birthday since I was about seven.

"You probably already woke that fag up with your goddamned screaming."
He yelled back.

That's a word I've heard a million times over the past few years. I
don't think he remembers my real name anymore. It's always fag or
cocksucker. He found me sucking off one of my friends when I was twelve,
and now I've been a curse to both of them ever since.

My mother hates me. She says I'm just like my old man- a no-good son of
a bitch. Her words, not mine. He left home when I was three and no one's
heard from him since. Can't say I blame him. They never married, so it
was easy for him to just walk away.

Things have never been easy for me, though. We're always moving from one
place to another. She usually falls behind in the rent, then gets us
evicted. Then we live there rent free for three months until the sheriff
comes knocking on the door. You have no idea how embarrassing it is to
come home from school and find everything you own laying out on the
sidewalk.

I hear Butch stomping angrily down the hall, and then throw my door open.

"Mom says to get your ass up, fag." He reaches down and picks up one of
my shoes off the floor and tosses it at me. He's never hit me with his
fists though. Neither has my mom. Right after he caught me sucking that
kid's dick, he came home drunk one night and tried to get me to suck
his.

It was after 2:00 one night when he staggered into my room. I pretended
to be asleep, but I could hear him taking off his clothes beside my bed.
He climbed into my bed naked and tried to stick his hard dick in my
mouth. I hit him in the balls as hard as I could. He jumped off and threw
up all over the floor. I told him if he ever tried that again I would go
to school and tell a counselor and have him arrested. Since then, he's
been afraid to touch me. He knew I would do it. Although, it's never
stopped the verbal humiliation.

"Did you hear what I said?" He tossed the other shoe.

"Yeah, I heard you." I replied angrily. "Now get out."

"Make me, fag." He said before closing the door.

God, I hate him. He's a worthless human being. I've tried to find some
redeeming quality about him, but I swear I can't. He's fat, ignorant,
bigoted and repulsive. I can't imagine a girl sleeping with him. That's
why he's always with a whore. They'd have sex with anyone as long as
they get paid.

As far as my sex life, zilch. Who'd want me. One look at where I come
from and they'd head about as far away from me as they could. Growing up
has been rough. I've been branded white trash all my life. My clothes
are passed down to me from my brother when he outgrows them. By then
they're usually well worn and smelling. I have to wash them several
times just to get his foul body odor out.

The only time I've ever had anything new was at Christmas time when I
was in the sixth grade. One of the teachers felt sorry for me and brought
me some new clothes wrapped up in pretty paper. I hugged her and then
took the clothes home. The first time my brother saw me wear them, he
looked at me suspiciously. The next day they were gone from my dresser.
He probably sold them for some drugs.

Today's one of the most horrible days of my life. The first day at
another new school. It is always the same. I'll be the new outcast. Kids
will look at me, size me up, and then realize I don't fit in their
world. The only thing that keeps me from being the school punching bag is
the fact that I was born with decent looks. I don't look like some nerd
screaming out, "Hit me, I'm a wimp."

I have a pretty good body. I spent most of the summer down at the beach
working out on the free exercise equipment they have available. I'm not
a Charles Atlas, but I do look alright. The thing most people notice
about me first is my blue eyes. Then they notice the rags I'm wearing
and quickly lose interest.

Some people look like they were born with a silver spoon in their mouth.
They get immediate respect. Others look like they were born with plastic
spoons. They get laughed at. That's me.

Suddenly the door flew open again. "Timothy, get your ass out of here.
Don't you have to go to school today?" My mother screamed. She was
stumbling, so I knew she had already had her liquid breakfast.

"Yeah, Mom. I'm going." I responded. If I had not been running late, I
would have taken a swig from one of her bottles. Since I was about
fourteen, I found that I could forget my miserable existence if I had a
few drinks. I guess it runs in the Somerset genes. All of us find solace
in a bottle. Alcohol around here is not difficult to find, either.
Between my mother and my brother, there's usually a forgotten bottle
laying around somewhere. My mother likes gin. My brother prefers whiskey.
Me? Whatever I find laying around.

I'm not a heavy drinker, but I'm a lonely drinker. We make the worst
kind. Most people get drunk with friends and have a good time. Many times
their drinking ends in forgotten sex with a nameless person and a well
deserved hangover.

Me. I drink alone. A couple drinks and I'm the epitome of the
self-pitying loser. I also cry a lot when I'm drinking. It's really not
a pretty sight. That's why I drink alone. Most of my crying is focused
on one thing- I need someone to love me. I'm sixteen years old and no
one's ever told me they love me. Of course, mix into the equation the
fact that I'm gay, and the odds of that ever happening become
astronomical.

I hear my mother leave the house on her way to the filthy place she calls
a job. I can hear my brother snoring loudly in the next room, passed out
as usual.

I head to the kitchen and try to find something to eat. Nothing. Not even
a piece of bread. The fridge is filled with cold beer, but nothing to
eat. I consider downing a couple of cold ones, but since this is the
first day of school, I decide against it. That's all I need is to start
feeling sorry for myself and then begin crying in one of my morning
classes.

I did mention that I hate my life, didn't I?

It's about a forty minute walk to school. I don't even consider asking
my mother for bus fare. She'd just laugh at me. So I walk. It's not a
bad day out so the walk is kind of comforting. I hate to think what
it'll be like this winter. If I had a winter coat, my brother would just
sell it.

I approach Dwight D. Eisenhower High School. It's a large school. I'll
just be one of the forgotten multitude. If I'm lucky. If not, I'll be
harassed by students who think they have a right to pick on anyone who
doesn't fit in their little social world.

I was here last week. My mother sobered up long enough to bring me in and
register me for classes. I was given a brief tour while my mother fell
asleep in the main office. I know I'll never find my way around. This
place is large and meanders around in different directions. You can be
following the logical numerical rooms, 110, 111, 112, then suddenly the
next room is 175. Whoever numbered these rooms must have been drinking
with my mother.

I head for the cafeteria, because I recall the counselor telling me that
is where we would get our schedules. I'm hungry, but since I haven't
received my free lunch card yet, I can't get anything to eat. I hope
they have a lot of kids here on the free lunch program. If not, I'll
really be an outcast. People will know my social status immediately. At
least with large numbers, I'll be less noticeable.

I stand in line in the Sophomores Q-T and a kind woman, probably a
teacher, gives me my handwritten schedule. Since I registered just last
week, they had not been able to put it into their computer system yet. I
look it over and it doesn't mean anything to me. Since I'm new, the
names are just writing on the paper.

I overhear two cute guys standing next to me talking. One is complaining
about a teacher named Watson. He calls her a bitch. I quickly look down
at my schedule. Drats. I have her third period.

The other is moaning about a Toupee Tommy, whoever that is. I look down
and examine my schedule and then start laughing to myself. Of course, a
teacher is really named that. He suddenly takes off leaving his friend
standing alone.

I realize I don't have a clue in which direction to head. I look around
and still see the guy standing with his back to me. I decide I'll ask
him.

"Excuse me, can you help me?" I ask him. At first I think he's
ignoring me, but then I decide that he probably didn't hear me. I tap
him on his shoulder. He turned and suddenly just stared at me. He didn't
say anything, he just stared. We were standing face to face and looking
into one another's eyes.

"He's got the prettiest green eyes." I think to myself. This guy was
definitely good looking. He had blonde spiked hair and was dressed in a
green shirt that made his eyes appear even greener. He didn't seem to be
arrogant, like you would expect someone who looked like him to be.
Instead, he seemed nervous.

We finally broke the stare when he asked me what I wanted. I asked him
where Room 212 was, and again he stared at me. Now it was my turn to get
nervous. I knew he was sizing me up. Poor white trash. Yep. Didn't have
a chance of making a new friend here.

He surprised me when he grabbed my schedule and looked it over. He handed
it back to me smiling. "Yeah, Timothy. Actually,  we have first period
together. You can walk with me." I couldn't believe it. He wanted me to
join him.

However, he called me Timothy. I hate that name. I'd adopted the name TJ
after my mother told me my father's name was Timothy. I sure didn't
want to carry around his name all my life. Since my name was Timothy
James, I began to insist that everyone call me TJ. Everyone did, except
my stubborn mother. She hated my father, but still calls me by his name.

"TJ." I informed him.

"What?" He looked at me questioningly.

"My name's TJ. Only my mother calls me Timothy." I felt embarrassed
correcting him, because Timothy coming from his mouth sounded sweet. I
think I was going to like him, if he didn't cast me aside first- like
everyone else.

We started to walk away when suddenly a very pretty girl walked up and
stood beside us. She took one look at me and grabbed his arm and wrapped
it around hers. "Girlfriend," I thought disappointedly.

"Hey Randy." She said ever so sweetly. Now this guy finally had a name.
He still had never introduced himself to me. We had just started talking
and I forgot to ask him. She maneuvered her body around him so that she
stood between us, like a protective mother hen.

"Hiya, Deanna." He said somewhat uninterested. Then he looked at me and
rolled his eyes. Maybe she wasn't a girlfriend after all.

"Who's this?" She asked, wrinkling her nose. I was beginning not to
like this girl. She seemed to have already grown a dislike for me, and we
had not even been introduced.

"This is TJ." Randy informed her. "He's new here. We have first
period together. I'm going to take him to class." She looked at me
again and gave me a fake smile.

"Hello, TJ. I'm Deanna, Randy's good friend." She said good friend,
not girlfriend. That was encouraging. But I'm sure with this guy's good
looks, there was a girlfriend somewhere.

"Where are you from?" She asked politely, but seemed uninterested.

I felt very uncomfortable with the way she was looking me over. Poor
white trash. I could see it in her eyes. That's what she was thinking.
She was very pretty and appeared to be one of the popular ones. It
wouldn't surprise me if she was a cheerleader.

"We moved into town this summer. I haven't really had a chance to get
to see the city yet." I was trying to be vague. I didn't want her to
know anything about my background.

"We just moved here because we got evicted from our last house. This
make the sixth place we've lived in the past three years." I wonder how
she would have reacted if I told her the truth. I would have, but I was
beginning to like Randy and didn't want to lose him as a friend, if I
could even call him that.

"I see." She sounded condescending. Her eyes looked over my body, then
she met my eyes. She looked up at Randy, then back at me. It was as if
she was telling me to back off. This unnerved me because I hadn't even
considered Randy as anything more than just a friendly person who had
volunteered to help me out.

I instantly found the whole situation pathetic. If anyone knew anything
about pity, it was me. I recognized her hopeless situation immediately.
She loved Randy, but he didn't feel the same way. She realized this, but
refused to accept it. I suddenly felt sorry for her. I wondered how long
she would play out this charade, pretending that Randy was her boyfriend.

I also felt sorry for Randy. He seemed to be a great guy, and didn't
want to hurt her feelings. I sensed that they had been playing this game
for a while now. Randy spoke, tearing me away from my thoughts.

"Come on, TJ. Let's get to class." He grabbed me by my elbow and
started leading me away.

"Wait, Randy. Let me see your schedule." Deanna snatched it from his
hand. "Do we have any classes together?"

Her smile faded when she noticed that none of their classes were the
same. Then she reached out and grabbed mine. At first I considered taking
it back, but I didn't want to make a scene the first day. I figured that
she was probably just a snotty girl used to having her way. She quickly
scanned our schedules then handed them back.

"You guys have three classes together?" She seemed disappointed. I
thought, "Yeah, eat your heart out." She gave me another of her
signature dirty looks. This time I stared back challengingly. I wasn't
about to let her intimidate me. She broke the stare, sighed dejectedly
and then walked away. I heard Randy let out a short breath of air, as if
he had been holding it in for sometime.

"Girlfriend?" I asked. I already knew the answer, but I thought I'd
let him try and explain the situation.

"No." He replied quickly. "Sister of my best friend, Actually, she's
his twin."

"She seems to really like you." I was trying to explore.

"That's her problem, not mine." He sounded angry. "I'd tell her to
get lost, but I don't want to hurt her brother." I found this to be
interesting. Here was a gorgeous guy rejecting probably one of the
prettiest girls in the school. She did have a bad attitude, but she was
also very attractive. I can imagine a lot of guys in this school were
chasing after her. Why would she waste her time on someone who obviously
didn't share her feelings.

"We gotta jet." He put his hand on my back and gently began leading me
towards the door. I thought he would drop his hand, but we continued
walking with his hand still guiding me. At one point he gently rubbed my
back as we walked. I began to get nervous because I was not used to
anyone touching me. I took a step ahead of him, causing him to drop his
hand.

"Which way?" I asked as we headed out of the cafeteria.

"Turn left." He again put his hand on my back guiding me down the hall.
To a stranger, it might look like he was holding me like a boy would hold
his girlfriend. Again, I stepped away. I didn't want to be branded a fag
the first day of school. I had no idea who Randy was. He seemed perfectly
straight, but I knew that could be deceiving. For all I knew, he could be
the school's resident fag. That's all I need, to be seen walking down
the hall in his arms. Although, I did find it rather comforting. It felt
nice.

We continued walking through the crowded halls. Randy seemed to be a
really popular guy. He couldn't take a step without someone stopping to
talk to him, asking how his summer was. He never failed to introduce me
to whomever he talked to. It made me feel welcomed. I'd never been
treated this warmly before. I was beginning to think that maybe I would
like it here.

He finally stopped and led me into a crowded room filled with noisy
students. The teacher hadn't arrived yet, so there was a lot of rowdy
activity going on. Randy found two seats in the back of the room and put
his hand on my back again and led me over to them.

"We'll sit here. We can work together. This is American Literature.
Mrs. Jones teaches this class. She likes to pair students up to do their
assignments, so we'll be partners." He looked over at me and smiled.
For a brief moment, I thought my heart was going to burst. I didn`t know
how to react. I was so used to it be broken. I was glad I hadn't had
that drink this morning, because right about now I'd probably be crying
my eyes out.

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