Date: Thu, 26 Feb 2015 16:54:01 -0600
From: jdhauthor67@gmail.com
Subject: Zinger (Part Nine)

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Part Nine

	Although Teddy and I exchanged contact information, I thought it
was a mere formality. We had said all there was to say. Our paths, once
entwined, had diverged dramatically, his toward what he expected of
himself, and mine toward what I wanted for myself.

	About a year after our 30th reunion, I heard that Teddy's wife had
died of breast cancer. It was hopeless by the time they caught it. I
thought of reaching out to Teddy, but I feared it would appear hollow. I
still regret letting my fear get the best of me. Fear is almost always
wrong.

	About nine months after Melissa's death, I received a surprising
email. "Have you ever been to Spain?"

	I was not sure if I should respond. I was not sure how to
respond. "No" seemed honest, but curt. "No, but I would like to," seemed
honest but needy. "Why do you ask?" seemed opaque and disingenuous. So, I
did not respond. I typed many responses, but I did not send any of them.

	About ten days later, I received another email, forwarding the
prior one. "This email is intended for Kevin Michaels. If this is not the
correct email address for Kevin, then please let me know. Thank you." I had
to respond.

	"This is the correct email address. I have tried to respond, but I
was not sure how to/what to say. I am sorry."

	Quickly, I received a reply. "It's a simple question. Have you ever
been to Spain?"

	Later that evening, I replied. "No, I have not ever been to
Spain. And, I am sorry about Melissa. I wanted to reach out, but I was not
sure how to/what to say. I am sorry."

	I did not realize my email had almost mirrored my earlier one, but
Teddy did not miss it. "When did you become so diffident? And, are you just
cutting and pasting? Stop apologizing. There is nothing to apologize
for. Melissa's death was very sad, but we had a good marriage, the best
part of which is our four boys. I miss her every day, but I need to let go
of the past and move forward, before I am too old and it is too late."

	I did not respond.

	The next day, I received a follow up. "You should come to Spain."

	"When?"

	"As soon as possible."

	"Why?"

	"Because I said so, dork. Quit being opaque."

	As a federal judge, my schedule booked up months in advance. The
following Monday, I asked my Assistant when I could next take a two week
break from the bench. She laughed.

	"Your next two week block is in 2020, two years hence."

	I emailed Teddy. "My schedule is a wreck. I do not have a two week
block for 18 months or so."

	I received a response almost immediately. He had cut and pasted it
from an earlier email. "I need to let go of the past and move forward,
before I am too old and it is too late."

	Teddy's email vexed me. I was the past. The distant past, in
fact. I decided to call him on it.

	"I am the past, so I am not sure what this is all about."

	I received a response almost immediately again. "You have never
been the past. Whether you knew it or not, you have always been with me."

	I took control of my own calendar. I had a two week civil trial set
in six weeks. It was almost certainly going to settle, as 98% of all civil
cases do. And, this was a dud civil case, of interest to no one other than
maybe the parties involved. It certainly no longer interested me. I
exercised my Article III powers by setting up a conference call with the
lawyers, ordering them to mediation, and vacating the trial date until they
reported the results of the mediation.

	With two weeks suddenly free, I booked a flight to Madrid and
emailed Teddy. "I cleared two weeks in August. I land in Madrid at 3
p.m. on the 11th. I leave at 1 p.m. on the 25th. I have no plans in
between."

	Teddy's reply did not come for almost a day. "You will miss the
boys, as they will be in the states the entire month of August with
Melissa's family."

	Teddy's email again vexed me. I had expected something a little
more effusive. Or excited. I decided to let it sit, unanswered.

	I heard nothing for a weeks. The silence made me wonder if I had
not jumped the gun in making reservations. Then, about a week before I was
supposed to board a plane that I thought may actually travel back in time,
I received the following:

	"Hey, dork. I am excited to see you. We have two weeks to
ourselves. I hope we can turn back the clock. If not, then I hope we have a
future of friendship and warm memories. Still lots of love, Teddy."

	My vexation was resolved. I was traveling toward a second chance,
32+ years after the first chance expectedly failed. I was both giddy and
scared.

	Teddy met my flight. He greeted me briefly and warmly.

	"Welcome to Spain, dork."

	"Glad to be here."

	"You need anything? We have a long drive ahead of us."

	Teddy's house was on the outskirts of Malaga, more than 5 hours
away by car. We grabbed waters and my bags and drove off. Teddy filled the
hours by telling me about his four boys, now motherless at 16 and 14 (he
had two sets of identical twins, the first set 4 years after marrying
Melissa and the second set 2 years later). And, about the death of Melissa,
which had obviously been devastating to their family. Melissa had been the
tie that bound, and the Azinger men were struggling to find their way in
her absence.

	As we drove, I noticed that Teddy was much leaner and much more
muscled than he had been at the 30th reunion. Grief had apparently
suppressed his appetite, and the gym had been an apparent outlet for the
same grief.

	"I am very sorry about Melissa."

	"Me, too. But, better to have loved and lost than never to have
loved, right? At least that is what a dorky kid told me a long time ago."

	     I looked at Teddy. He was smiling at me. Sooner than I
expected to be, I was lost.

	A train, two planes, and an automobile behind me, I was beat when
we got to his modest, beautiful house. In fact, I had slept the last hour
or so of the drive.

	I knew little Spanish, but I knew the sign out front meant the
house was for sale.

	"You moving?"

	"Yes, too many old memories in this house. And, not enough room for
new ones."

	Once we unloaded the car, Teddy showed me to my room, and left me
to shower and join him for what I thought was a late dinner but which, for
Spain, was not late at all. I never made it to dinner. After my shower, I
laid down on the bed to rest my eyes. I woke up 12 hours later, my clothes
removed (except my boxers), my bags unpacked, and the covers pulled to my
chin. I had slept through our first night together, including apparently
through being tucked in.

	When I wandered into the kitchen, Teddy was busy making
breakfast. He was wearing only gym shorts. He was still bald. His chest
hair was clippered, as were his pits, his arm hair, his leg hair, and his
path to paradise. His muscles were long and sinewy, and the manscaping only
enhanced the definition. He cut quite an image. When he looked at me with
his blue eyes and smiled, the image took my breath away.

	"Good morning, dork. I was afraid you would sleep the trip away."

	"Good morning. Thank you for taking care of me last night."

	"I want to take care of you every night."

	I paused. I was not sure where he was coming from, but this seemed
like too much too fast for me. So, I balked.

	"Teddy, what is this?"

	"Look, dork, I let you go once. I do not want to do it again. I
have thought of you and us every day since the reunion, always wondering
what might have been. I think we have a second chance to find out. We
missed the first chance. I do not want to miss this one."

	"Are you sure you're not just lonely or still dealing with the
grief of Melissa?"

	"I have been lonely my whole life. Melissa was a great wife, but I
have been lonely for you since there was no more you. I wondered for a long
time why I did not reconnect with you, and the reunion made me realize
why. I knew I would not be able to bear it, whether it was the thought of
what we missed, or the thought of you finding what we lost with someone
else. So, I stayed away. After the reunion, I was terribly sad. Palpably
so. Melissa knew something was wrong, and she would not let it go. She
goaded me into telling her why. So, I told her about you.  Everything. We
were trying to figure out our future, if we had one, when she got
diagnosed. Then, there was nothing to figure out, so we put everything on
hold. I have been on hold for two years. I do not want to be on hold any
more."

	I sat silent and still and tried to take it all in. Teddy walked
over to me, took my hand in his, and said "You can't be surprised. You
dropped everything and flew all the way to Spain to find out, didn't you?"

	With that, he leaned down and kissed me. As we kissed, I hurtled
back in time. As our tongues touched, it was the summer of 1986 again, we
did not have a care in the world, and our future was full of nothing but
promise. As I rose to meet the kiss, Teddy clamped his arms around me. I
clamped my arms around him. Our bodies were pressed hard against each
other. His hands went to my head, pressing me to him and trying to deepen
the kiss. My hands went to his back, and I pressed his chest into mine as
hard as I could. I do not know how long that kiss lasted, but 32 years
disappeared into it.

	When we finally broke the kiss, Teddy turned off the burners and
abandoned the breakfast. I followed him to his room. We kissed again, just
as long and as intently as before. These were forgiving kisses, forgetting
kisses, promising kisses.

	Teddy tugged my shirt over my head and then pressed his bare chest
to mine. My skin tingled with familiarity and newness. I hooked my arms
under his and buried my face in his chest. He pulled me as tight as he
could. I breathed him in.

	I could feel Teddy's hard dick against my stomach. I easily lowered
his gym shorts.

	"Take yours off, too."

	I did.

	"I have not had sex since I told Melissa about us. And, I have not
had sex with another man since you."

	I was unsure of the need to share that information, and I could not
say the same. I had had a lot of sex recently, and all my sex since him was
with other men.

	"Good to know," I guess.

	"I mean, I doubt I will last long." He was right, as he came almost
as soon as I grabbed his dick, before we even got into bed.

	"I'm sorry. So, so sorry."

	"Don't worry about it. We have a lot of time together."

	I pulled him down on top of me on the bed, and he kissed me
again. This was our third kiss of the morning, and I am certain that --
with the other two -- it was one of the top three kisses of all time. They
felt like traveling at the speed of light. They felt like not moving at
all.

	Teddy finally pulled his lips from mine and started kissing my
face. He kissed my neck and my chest. He kissed my arms and my armpits. He
kissed my stomach and my abdomen. He kissed my pelvis and where my legs
meet my groin. He kissed and licked my balls. He took me in his mouth. I
came just as fast as he had, filling his mouth before he could even start
blowing me. He pulled off and spit.

	"Sorry about that," I said, offering the second sex apology of the
morning.

	"I have not done this for a long time. I did not mean to spit. I
was just caught off guard."

	I pulled him back to me, and he flopped down on his left side next
to me. I turned to him, and he pressed his lips gently to mine. I put my
hand in the middle of his chest and felt his heart beat. He put his hand to
my cheek.

	"I have missed you so much, dork. I need you to know that I thought
about you all the time. You were always with me."

	"I never stopped loving you. You were always with me."

	We kissed again. As we did, I started to cry, and so did he. Teddy
licked my tears off my cheeks and then kissed them into my mouth. We stared
into each other's eyes for what seemed like forever. We said everything we
had to say without saying anything at all.

	The next two weeks sped by. We took languid walks and had furtive
sex. We sat quietly and fucked loudly. We were old and wise, and we were
young and stupid. We reclaimed our youth. And, we lost our ourselves.

	My last night in Spain, we made excruciating love. We were on the
living room floor. I was on my back, my legs and arms wrapped around
him. Teddy's arms were hooked under mine and wrapped around my
shoulders. Everything about us was needy. I was at his mercy. The
vulnerability was intoxicating and liberating and frightening all at once.

	Teddy slowly delivered himself to me, never letting his lips leave
my lips or his chest leave my chest. For the first time during the visit,
he was not fucking me. He was making love to me.

	I was wide open to him. He could not go too slow or too deep. I
rose to meet him, keeping my lips to his lips and my chest to his chest.

	"I love you so much, Kevin."

	"I love you, too, Teddy."

	The deliberate pace of our lovemaking did not mask the passion that
was driving it. I was disappearing into Teddy, and he was disappearing into
me.

	Teddy continued his deliberate pace. Every time he got close, he
backed off. Each time the delay was more difficult to bear. I was needy for
him to fill me.

	"I need you to fuck me."

	"I am fucking you."

	"No, I need to you fuck me."

	Teddy smiled at me and picked up his pace. As he did, I continued
to meet him, and we both started to sweat. Our kiss turned sloppy and
urgent. I sucked Teddy's tongue as he pounded into me. I could not get him
in deep enough, even using my hands and feet as leverage.

	"Arch your back."

	When he did, he penetrated me as deeply as he could. I arched my
neck and back as I came. Teddy's orgasm followed a short time later,
filling me. I was coming again, and I spilled another load between
us. Teddy kept fucking me. Just when I thought I could not take another
stroke, he unloaded again, crying out as he did.

	After he had filled me for the second time, Teddy collapsed onto
me, mixing our sweat with my cum. I grabbed his face, and he grabbed
mine. I looked deeply into his eyes, and I knew him as I had that summer 32
years before.

	"I don't want you to leave."

	"I have to. My job is in Chicago waiting for me."

	"Then I am coming with you."

	"Seriously?"

	"Why do you think I put the house on the market? And, why do you
think I already moved my boys to the states?"

	"That seems presumptuous. How did you know this would work?"

	"We're us. We always have been. And, I saw it in your eyes at the
reunion. And, I felt it in your touch when I held your hand."

	I flew home the next day full of love and hope. Past is
prologue. Our future was ours.

	Teddy followed six weeks later, picking up his boys on the way. In
the meantime, I sold my Gold Coast condominium (it was barely large enough
for me, much less me and five more men) and bought a four bedroom bungalow
in Evanston. I had been pretty much alone for 32 years. To my great
surprise and delight, I soon no longer would be. My solitary life was
yielding to the past, and my past was now, happily, my future.