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* A Story Outline for Jake *
* (part 2) *
* (Correspondence between Luke and myself) *
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| Copyright 2005 by Vince Water March 18, 2006 |
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4/13/05 Vince wrote:
Thank you for providing me with the information I needed about
Jake. It seems that to get him legally into Winna's hands will
take a bit of story time: a SD court appearance and then that
flight to Montana. Not even wild horses could keep Winna from
going to SD herself to meet her sister's son and obtain
guardianship of him. Mike himself couldn't do this as you
would like. Also, I agree with your colleague that the school
would be wrong to 'dump' Jake after his John claims the boy
had stolen from him. That in itself doesn't make sense as the
man would himself be in much more trouble with the police for
being in a position where the boy could have stolen from him.
Jake would say that the man wanted/had sex with him in his
defense. We need to come up with some good reason why the
school would release Jake into his next-of-kin's hands -
Winna. Not from the boy getting into trouble with his John
which would become part of his discharge report. I'd want to
keep that part of his life hidden until Mike learns of this
from Gleaning, Jessie Peers into his cousin's head or Jake
himself admits that he's prostituted to them at a later time.
I like your suggestion that Jake's school would send a letter
to Mrs. Winnapah in care of the Blackfoot Nation. Elder
Quiet-before-the-dawn in his role as their legalist would
receive it, open the letter and read the contents which would
mention that Jake is Judy's son. The Elder realizes that Winna
is the person it was meant to go to. 'Winnapah' is a common
name used by women in the tribe. Judy was Winna's sister so
that clinches it in his mind. As to WHY the SD school would
want to find Mrs. Winnapah has yet to be determined by us.
Perhaps Judy was found dead (murdered? O.D. on drugs?) and
from I.D. found on her, it ties up with that old FBI missing
person's report filed by Winna or their parents when Judy had
ran away from home. The police investigation would find court
records that Judy had transferred guardianship of Jake to that
SD school so they inform them of his mother's death year(s)
earlier that was becoming a cold case. The school informs Jake
of his mother's death and in his records, they find Mrs.
Winnapah listed as next-of-kin when Judy had filled out her
son's entrance papers to the school when he was five. A
photograph had been taken of Judy during the legal process
when she transferred guardianship over to the school. This
will help prove that Judy IS Winna's sister. What do you think
about this as being the motive for the school getting in
contact with Winna?
4/16/05 Luke's response to the above paragraph:
I think that this is an excellent idea. Given Judy's
lifestyle it is certainly quite feasible that she overdosed
accidentally or maybe even died of AIDS. Since she was both
using drugs and prostituting herself, it is unlikely that she
would have lived very long. And, yes, they might have been
able to trace Jake back through the system and eventually
found out where Jake is living. Now that she's dead and given
what they found out or suspect about Jake's sexual activities
with older men for money, they decide it's time to send him
back to his family. Jake is a likeable kid at the school and
maybe they would have kept him under other circumstances but
given their fears of his sexual behavior becoming widely known
and the scandal it might cause particularly in view of the
sexual abuse crisis among priests in the Catholic Church, they
want him gone. I don't know if a photograph would have been
taken of Judy when she turned him over to the school but
that's a good idea. Anyway I think your idea about this really
works well.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
Jake, obviously, is in grief to learn that his mother is
indeed dead. He suspected it since she never came back to see
him as she promised. A way to get Jake quickly into NtTL would
be that the school is giving the boy leave to be with his aunt
over this tragic news. Winna would still have to go to SD to
assure the school that she IS Jake's aunt, a photo of her
sister that matches what they have would work. Mike would go
with to support her and be in a position to Glean things from
Dr. Karl and Charlie as you've outlined to me. Jes would come
too. They bring this disheartened youth home to Montana on
leave from school to deal with his grief with family.
Transferring guardianship and all that entails could come
later. I don't want to delay your character's entrance into
NtTL any longer! A leave of absence from school would work.
I'm thinking that if Winna, M&J have gone to all the trouble
of flying down to SD, why not extend their visit with the
grieving Jake to Saturday and just get that transfer of
guardianship over and done with on Friday in court there.
Again, the school must have a compelling reason to do so.
4/16/05 Luke's response to the above two paragraphs:
Yes, Jake wouldn't have been completely shocked to hear
about his mother's death. However to have it confirmed would
really shake him up. He would probably have to work hard to
cover over his grief and tears. Maybe he would have been
able to confide in Dr. Karl and allow himself to cry with him.
Maybe also with Charlie. I think that Winna, Mike, and Jessie
all going to South Dakota is nice from a number of points of
view. For one thing they would have this one chance to
experience Jake on his home turf. Also they would have the
chance to meet and talk with Dr. Karl, Charlie, and maybe
others. I'm just thinking that it would be expensive for the
three of them to fly there and for the four of them to fly
back. Who would pay for this? Mike? Beyond this, however, it
would certainly give Mike and Jessie the chance to "read" or
intuit what Dr. Karl and Charlie might not be saying. It is
certainly reasonable that they could meet both. Dr. Karl
might have been called by Jake once he learned of his mother's
death and of the school plan to contact Winna and send him
back to Montana. Dr. Karl would have been heart broken to
think of losing Jake and might have come up with some excuse
to come to the school to see Jake and comfort him. Maybe the
school's social worker would have suggested that some or all
of the three-some meet with Dr. Karl to get a copy of Jake's
medical records. Maybe Dr. Karl would have assured them that
he almost felt like a "father" to Jake and would miss him
terribly. Maybe he and Jake had been in e-mail contact or
something and that would give them a way of continuing contact
once Jake goes back to Montana. The Jesuits are very
"literate" religious order and would have done a good job at
educating their charges at the school. Jake probably would be
well read, well spoken (if he wanted to), and clearly able to
use a computer easily. Maybe Jessie would glean that what Dr.
Karl was not saying was that he had given Jake medical tests
for HIV and also for STDs-he was "clean" on all counts. Jessie
might glean why Dr. Karl did all this testing and of the fact
that Dr. Karl had sex with Jake many times and that the sex
was filled with love although Jake was not consciously aware
of it.
Also I think that it make much more sense from a time,
travel, and money point of view to get the transfer of
guardianship over and one with on Friday while they are there
in South Dakota. The school would have done this
"guardianship" stuff a lot given the number of kids coming and
going at the school. They probably have an attorney-maybe
somebody who volunteers time to the school-who handles this
for them. Maybe the court makes things easy and a judge or
magistrate arranges a hearing in his/her chambers and it's all
easy and almost automatic. So, yes, I do think it makes
sense for Winna to leave Rosebud School having full
guardianship of Jake.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
Why did Jake turn tricks? For the money, the excitement and/or
his innermost need to find a loving father figure? You mentioned
that he stopped having 'fun' with other boys in his dorm to get
it on with men. He likes having sex with those older than
himself. They're mature, have more developed bodies and Jake
likes the 'power' and attention he gets by being with them as
he'd felt in his childhood when having fondling sex with some
of his mother's tricks. What did Jake do with the money he
'earned'? Buy gifts for Charlie, a neat stereo system and
expensive gym shoes for himself or save that money? Did the
school notice that Jake had a lot of pocket money and from
rumors, learn that he was prostituting himself hence their
secret motive to transfer guardianship to Winna after Jake's
leave of absence? Winna would want to have her sister's son
with her and the school easily agrees to do so. Another
motive: They've been supporting Jake all these years and
Catholic schools are going broke as we know. Gotta pay off all
them lawsuits of priests molesting boys... They're happy to
get the boy back to his family and that's one less mouth to
feed, clothe and send through school. What do you think?
4/16/05 Luke's response to the above paragraph:
Yes, you are exactly correct in what you're saying about
Jake's motivation in turning tricks. I don't know exactly how
he started. He's a bright boy and had been having "fun" with
other boys at the school. It wasn't a tough transition to go
from "fun" with boys to making money doing it. Maybe some guy
surprised him while he was in town when he was 12 or so by
offering him money for letting the guy blow him or
vice-versa. Jake quickly realized that he could make money by
doing what he liked anyway. The Jesuits had taught him to be
the best at whatever he did-school work, sports, and so
forth. So he just applied this to his sex-for-money behavior
and became a very skilled prostitute.
I'm not sure what Jake did with his money. Obviously he
couldn't turn it in to the school! Maybe he could somehow
hide it but given the fact of this being a boarding school,
that would be risky. In one of my earlier letters to you I
suggested that maybe he gave it to Dr. Karl to hold onto for
him. This would certainly keep the money safe until Jake
needed it. Since Dr. Karl was one of Jake's "johns", he
certainly knows of Jake's sex-for-money activities. Also it
might mean that he would want to get the money back from Dr.
Karl before he leaves South Dakota. Or maybe Dr. Karl
assures him that he will send him whatever money he needs
through a money order or something like that. Jake certainly
trusts him and knows intuitively that Dr. Karl would never
cheat him.
It's likely that he did buy some gifts for Charlie and
some things for himself. However, he would have to be careful
not to attract attention at the school or they would quickly
realize that he had this alternate source of money. Maybe
this is, in fact, what happened and how they discovered that
he was turning tricks. Maybe he had a locker or something in
town where he would keep clothes he would change into when he
would turn tricks. Maybe he was building up a nest egg of
money for whenever he decided to make his break with the
school.
Yes, you're right. They have been supporting Jake all
these years. The funding for the school probably comes from
some combination of donations to the Jesuit missions from
generous folks elsewhere in the US, maybe some funds from the
Indian Nation itself (do they have casinos?), and maybe some
from the Bureau of Indian Affairs in Washington, DC. But costs
would have been going up. There would have been fewer and
fewer Jesuits to staff the school for essentially no pay so
they would have to operate more and more with paid lay people
and some volunteers. So all this would motivate the school
to unload Jake given the opportunity. Maybe they have been
paying off lawsuits for sexual molestation and that sucked up
much of the available money. Anyway, all this would be true.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
If you agree with what I've outlined or can come up with
something else that would grant Jake a sudden leave of
absence from his nearing end to Spring classes, this is how
events would fit in NtTL time:
Elder Quiet-before-the-dawn delivers the school's letter to
Winna on Monday evening. From work on Tuesday, she calls the
SD school to speak with the school master and also speaks with
Jake. They agree to give the boy a sudden leave of absence but
she must come to them with proof that Judy was her sister.
Jake cannot simply fly to Montana on his own as I'd originally
planned. Winna would want to fly out to see Jake as quickly as
she can. This obviously would be a 3-4 day trip there and back:
Wednesday morning to Friday or Saturday evening. To get Mike
to travel with Winna means that the judge at Monday's court
session hearing motions from both the prosecutor and defense
will take them under consideration with Mike's next court
appearance being on Monday, May 12th where his legal woes come
to an end. It make sense that the judge would take a week to
schedule Mike's next court appearance instead of only three
days later (I'd originally planned it to be Thursday, May 8th).
4/16/05 Luke's response to the above two paragraphs:
This all sounds fine with me. Yes, Mike would be taking a
chance. However, I sure hope he can travel and get back
without anybody "official" finding out. It would be important
that he be there with Winna and Jessie. Also he would
probably be a great help to Winna in dealing with all these
folks at the school and also in the court system.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
Not to confuse matters, I should mention that Mike will be
breaking the terms of his bail by traveling out of the circuit
court's district without permission. Only Mike's attorney will
realize this after his client's return.
Jake's entrance into NtTL would come Wednesday evening, May 7th.
Thursday is spent packing some clothes, saying bye to friends
(Charlie) and teachers though they think he'll be returning
after leave. If transfer of guardianship happens on Friday,
Jake will be making his big goodbye to everyone and cleaning
out his room.
4/16/05 Luke's response to the above two paragraphs:
Yes, this is what I think, too. The good-byes from the
life he has known for these 11 years in addition to feeling
the grief of knowing that his mother is dead and how she died
would make Jake a very upset kid. It all is happening so
fast. And he's leaving for Montana for a life and family he
doesn't know yet. He's leaving Dr. Karl and Charlie. He's
leaving all his friends and all the experiences he's had. He
probably feels like screaming. He may feel like sobbing, He
may feel like running away. Maybe Dr. Karl has told him to
go with Winna and his mother's family-that this would be the
best thing for him. They will keep in touch by e-mail. Maybe
Dr. Karl promises him that he will come to see him in Montana
in a few months after he has gotten settled there.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
We're not going to play him as a cool hard-heart character
(from his prostitution experiences) but more soft now that
he's found family (Judy's sister) and grieving over his mom's
death (if you agree to this story plot incident). Obviously,
Jake will keep his secret life away from school from being
known. That's behind him now. Does this hick town of Havre
even have a 'sex strip' where Johns cruise along for pretty
boys? How easily will it be for Jake to give up prostitution?
Why did he do it in the first place?
4/16/05 Luke's response:
This would fit in with Jake character. On the outside he
might act like the tough guy but given all he's gone through
in the past week-learning of his mother's death, learning that
his aunt has been contacted and is coming for him, learning
that he is leaving the school, learning that he is leaving Dr.
Karl and Charlie, learning that guardianship of him is being
officially transferred to Winna so that he will never be
returning to the school-all these things would easily almost
overwhelm anybody but certainly a 16 year old boy like Jake.
Yes, he would keep his secret life away from school from
being known. Your idea is good that when he sees Havre he
realizes that it's a much smaller place than he thought. Any
thoughts about turning tricks there would be unrealistic.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
Oh. I need to know how devote a Catholic Jake is. Will he feel
compelled or want to attend church on Sundays? Gotta confess
them sins of beating off to the Father while in Jake's case,
has he confessed sucking on a guy, getting sucked and asshole
play with tongue and fingering? He'd be muttering Hail Mary's
night and day in penance! I've heard that when boys get older,
they stop confessing beating off and in this day and age, the
boy's parents would have warned him not to say anything during
confessional that would give the priest a 'thrill'. I'm sorry
for making that pot shot. Back to my main point. How does Jake
feel about his religion? Mike is Lutheran Christian which
shares many of his beliefs and religious practices when
compared to Blackfoot teachings. Winna would NOT thrust them
onto Jake if he upholds his Catholic upbringing. Mike has come
to learn that his God is the same as the Blackfoot's. I think
that grandfather had told Mike that his People consider Jesus
a great teacher sent to the People by his Father.
4/16/05 Luke's response:
I haven't really thought about how devout a Catholic Jake
is before you asked. Given that this is a Catholic institution
and run by the Jesuits, I'm guessing that all of the kids
there would have had to go to Mass and would have been
educated as Catholics. The Jesuits are very good at that.
However, I doubt that Jake is a "devout Catholic" despite his
being required to be at Mass. Yes, he probably would have
gone to confession but probably would have discovered some
years ago that he didn't really want to "confess" the sexual
things he was doing. Maybe he didn't feel he was doing
anything wrong. My own thought is that Jake is probably
educated pretty well in theology from the Jesuits. He's a
bright boy. He will probably get into some kind of
"discussion" with Grandfather or somebody else in Montana if
the subject of religion comes up. However if/when Winna asks
him if he wants to go to Mass on a Sunday when they get back
to Havre, Jake would probably say "no". And I would imagine
that he would be very interested in whatever Native religion
he encounters back in Montana. But I do not think he would be
particularly devout. I do not think he would think of himself
as being "sinful" in terms of having sex with other guys even
for money. I know this is not what the Catholic religion
teaches but Jake has begun to leave that behind him long ago.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
What is the name of Jake's school?
I've just caught your desire to use 'rosebud' as that's a very
nice part of a man, eh? Who are the Jesuits in reference to
the Catholic Church? I know that Jesuit missionaries went into
South American to Christianize the savages in the jungle. And
they were responsible for taking Native children away from
their families to 'modernize' them in white ways, cutting off
their long hair, wearing clothes and forbidding their People's
religion even to punishing those who spoke in the Native
language. Now, they're helping these poor kids with religion
and education that wouldn't otherwise obtain.
4/16/05 Luke's response:
I don't know the exact name of the school. Probably it
would be "Rosebud School" or maybe "Rosebud Indian Mission
School". And it would be run by the Jesuits. The Jesuits are
like the "Catholic Marine Corps". They were founded by St.
Ignatius Loyola who was a soldier. He founded his religious
order, called officially "The Society of Jesus", along
military lines. They go through a very long period of
training and education-maybe 13 to 15 years-before every being
ordained a priest. They run colleges and high schools in
addition to being missionaries. They founded and run
Georgetown University in Washington, for example. Robert
Drinan is a Jesuit priest who was the elected Representative
to Congress from Massachusetts until our dearly departed Pope
ordered all priests, nuns, and brothers out of politics.
I think what you're referring to is the movie "The
Mission" starring Jeremy Irons, Robert DeNiro, and Liam
Niesson. In that movie the Jesuits were operating a mission
in Brazil and were educating the Indians including teaching
them music. The Portuguese authorities did not like this at
all because that meant that they couldn't take away the
Indians for slaves. The Jesuits were strongly protective of
the Indians and effectively stopped the slave trade much to
the fury of the slave traders. A Cardinal came from Rome to
tell the Jesuits to close down the mission and get out of the
country. They decided to stick with the Indians and were all
murdered by the soldiers. One of the most famous Jesuit
missionaries was St. Francis Xavier who was the guy after
whom the order of Brothers that I belonged to was named. We
were not Jesuits, though, before you ask!
Also the Jesuits do have Indian missions here in this
country. I actually think that they have one among the
Rosebud Sioux Indians although I am not sure. That's where
that name came from and NOT from the other reference you
suggest although that is a very interested connection!
The Jesuits provide quality education so it is very likely
that Jake has gotten an excellent education at the Rosebud
Indian Mission School. While Jake has taken care to try to
perfect his body, the Jesuits would have been sure that his
mind was "perfected". So although Jake might be able to talk
like a typical teenager, he is probably also able to speak in
a very sophisticated way. This is probably how he talks to
Dr. Karl after their initial sexual encounters when he would
have been using his "tough guy" persona. I imagine that
whenever he does this with Winna, Mike, and Jessie it will
blow them away. Jake is a very bright, well educated young
man so far. I also imagine that he will find high school in
Havre to be boring compared to the intellectual stimulation of
his Jesuit school. Maybe somebody at his new high school will
become interested in Jake and get him involved in some kind of
"honors program" or "advanced placement courses". We'll talk
more about this later. The Jesuits have several very well
known high schools in the Washington area, for instance -
Gonzaga High School very near the Nation's Capitol and
Georgetown Prep School which is in suburban Maryland. It costs
a lot of money to go to either of these schools - money that
many parents, both Catholic and non-Catholic alike, are happy
to pay given the quality education that their sons receive.
There are big waiting lists to get into both schools. Jake and
his fellow students in South Dakota would be getting this same
quality education "for free".
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
During their short stay in SD, how does M&J meet Dr. Karl or
at the very least, how does that man learn that Jake is
leaving for Montana? Perhaps Jake goes alone to say his
goodbye to this man and upon his return to the school, Jessie
picks up on his cousin's sadness and learns why. We have to
give Jes a chance to employ his abilities instead of using
Mike all the time!
4/16/05 Luke's response:
As I said earlier, I think that M&J might meet Dr. Karl in
the context of obtaining a copy of Jake's medical record to
take with them back to Montana and to give to whatever doctor
would be treating Jake in the future-like maybe that Indian
doctor who came to treat Jessie when he had the "flu". Maybe
Dr. Karl had told the headmaster at the school that he would
like to meet them when they come to get Jake. Maybe Dr. Karl
wanted to check them out to be sure that they are good people
and weren't people who would abuse Jake or something. Dr. Karl
might have learned that Jake is leaving for Montana through a
call or an e-mail from Jake. Probably the school has lots of
computers which were donated by corporate donors when they
junked large numbers of computers and equipment for newer
ones. Or maybe the headmaster's office called Dr. Karl to
tell him that Jake would be leaving and to make a copy of his
medical records so that the people coming from Montana could
pick them up. In any case, I think that Dr. Karl probably
also wants to impress on W, M & J that Jake is a good kid and
they should take good care of him. Maybe J or M in gleaning
how deeply Jake and Dr. Karl feel about each other will say
something about Dr. Karl being welcome to come to Montana to
visit if he wants.
4/13/05 Vince wrote:
I have a good physical description of Jake and he would have
short hair, wouldn't he because the school would demand this?
I still need a 'feel' of how Jake acts and talks. If you could
give me some dialog of how he speaks, the expressions on his
face and body language, that will really help. For example,
when Winna asks her nephew what he remembers about his mom
(though that was at age 5), what exactly does he say about Judy?
Please give me a word-for-word dialog.
4/16/05 Luke's response:
I am drawing a blank in how to respond to this. Maybe
Jake will be largely unresponsive at first. Maybe he will
give only one word answers or not answer at all. After all he
is very upset about all these sudden changes in his life
which are all experiences of loss plus one of "gain" - moving
to Montana to be with his family for the first time in his
life. I imagine that he's scared and maybe a bit panicky.
Probably Jake would not look any of them in the eye when
they were talking to him but when the focus was temporarily
off of him - like when they were talking to the headmaster or
something - he would be looking at them intently.
I imagine that when Winna asks Jake what he remembers
about his mom, he might say at first "I don't want to talk
about that." I think he will talk about his mom only after he
is on the way to Montana. Don't forget, he just found out
that she's dead and he will be on the edge of tears-tears that
he is desperately trying not to shed because he does not want
to look "weak". That's why I suggested in an earlier letter
that maybe he could talk with Mike and, perhaps, cry with him.
In the context of NtL and NtTL, Mike has certainly shed some
tears and has been told by RW, Grandfather, and others to not
do that. Mike would understand Jake's tears and just hold him
without criticism but maybe acknowledging that he understands
how it's not OK for Indian men to cry.
W, M & J would probably rent a car at the airport and
drive to the school. They would go directly to the
Headmaster's office. He is the head of the school and might
be a Jesuit priest or maybe a layman. They would also talk
with the school Social Worker who would brief them on Jake's
background. Maybe she (I'm guessing that it's a "she") would
have the Social Worker who was there when Jake was first left
there by Judy. Maybe she snapped a Polaroid photo of Judy
which was put into Jake's file. After all, it's only been 11
years since Judy dropped him off and it's very realistic to
find somebody still working there after that period of time.
And it is the Social Worker who would talk about them needing
to get Jake's medical records from Dr. Karl. It is also
probably she who would go with them to the court to change the
guardianship. Probably she's somebody who's well known at the
court and is on a first name basis with the judges,
magistrates, attorneys and other personnel at the court.
When W, M, J & J fly back to Montana, the guardianship
change should be complete and there would be no reason for
anybody to return to South Dakota. Jake would probably be
able to get all of his possessions into a duffle bag or large
back pack. Maybe Jake has been keeping a journal of his
thoughts, feelings, and experiences and that's in his duffle
bag. Maybe he would eventually give it to Mike and/or Jessie
to read.
You predicted that Jake and his story would really grab me.
It certainly has! I will look forward to hearing back from
you on all this.
4/19/05 Vince wrote:
Your last letter was very good in helping to answer my
questions about Jake. Okay. I'm glad that you agree to my
clarifications regarding Jake and here's some more
solidifications about him:
* I'd think Jake would have been closer to 14 or 15 when he
began turning tricks. Any younger, and he'd still look too
young for his Johns to dare 'play' with least they risk going
to jail. Maybe Jake passed himself off as 'almost 18' to his
Johns to assure them they wouldn't get into trouble. If Jake
had been prostituting himself for too many years, he'd have
been corrupted by drugs and alcohol (like his mother) and have
caught a disease such as AIDS no matter how careful he was.
It's easier for Jake to leave this lifestyle if he's only been
at it for under two years. I know that Jake would have been
very selective of his customers; he's not in it for the money
but to find that 'father figure' he longs for.
4/23/05 Luke's response:
I agree with you on this. However, maybe 13 would be
possible. After all, these guys are still risking going to
jail because Jake is still under age at 14 or 15. And the
johns are clearly looking for younger ass or they wouldn't be
drawn to Jake, right? I'm guessing that few of the johns
would have asked his age but if so, maybe he would have passed
himself off as older. Regarding the drugs and alcohol, I
think that Jake would have remembered what happened to his
mother in terms of these addictions and may well have
completely sworn off drugs and alcohol. With respect to the
disease issue, remember that Jake wouldn't let the guys fuck
him - or do you think we should change this? However, your
point is well taken and I have no problem with saying that
Jake had only been turning tricks since he was 14 or 15. And,
yes, his psychological motivation is to find a "father figure"
to love him although this would be completely unconscious.
Only as he talks later to Mike & Jessie and/or gets into
psychotherapy would this wish become conscious. However, as I
said before, I do think that Jake is a kid who will eventually
end up being lovers with an older guy. Maybe with Dr. Karl.
Maybe with somebody else you will bring into the story at some
future point. Jake was introduced to male-on-male sex in the
Rosebud Indian Mission School from his first days there. He
was not completely innocent in this because he had seen a lot
living with the crack addict woman and also with his mother
after she started turning tricks. However, besides touching
some adult men's cocks, he had not actually done anything
sexual himself until he got to the school. So his decision to
start charging guys money to have sex with him was an
opportunistic decision one time when he was in town and
somebody offered him money to allow the guy to give Jake a
blow job. After that, he "learned on the job" so to speak!
About whether Jake has allowed anybody to fuck him or not,
I am guessing that he has been fucked by other boys at the
school. Maybe part of his building up his body and his
personal sense of pride was to stop this. Maybe he longs
unconsciously to get fucked by an older man but certainly not
by another teenager or boy. Maybe he has read something
somewhere about the dangers of HIV and that receptive anal
sex is the most dangerous. Maybe he has somehow gotten the
message that using a condom is absolutely necessary. Maybe he
has not let johns fuck him but maybe he has let them rub
their cocks in the crack or his ass or between his legs and
get off that way. Maybe he has never used a condom but has
just been lucky. Dr. Karl's testing of his blood and physical
examination of his body will show that Jake is healthy. After
that, maybe Dr. Karl will put the fear of the Lord into him
about safe sex.
4/19/05 Vince wrote:
* Jake has saved most of his 'earnings' then. Yet some purchases
for Charlie and himself has caught the attention of his school
who quietly discovered or only suspect his secret life. They
hadn't acted on it with a confrontation with Jake yet when
news of his mother's death came to them. This only adds to
their motive to put the boy in family hands. How much money
has Jake saved? If he's been selectively prostituting for
barely two years, how much did he gather or perhaps, he gave
it to his church anonymously with cash in an envelope to help
alleviate any guilt he's felt from prostituting himself. Money
is NOT Jake's motive for getting it on with men. Yet he won't
do that for free (or maybe he did!) but neither does he want
to keep this money.
4/23/05 Luke's response:
Yes, I do think that Jake saved most of his earnings
except for purchases for Charlie and for himself. But he
tried to be very careful about this. That's why the
authorities at his school suspected something was up but
didn't know for sure. I'm not sure how they would have
suspected or discovered his secret life but it wouldn't be
surprising that they did. Like many adolescents he thought he
was being so secretive and careful but, of course, he isn't a
professional at this and maybe somebody discovered something.
Kids at a school like that would be very nosey and maybe
somebody, somewhere saw something. And, yes, the news of
Judy's death gave them the impetus to try to put Jake back
into family hands.
I don't know how much money Jake may have saved. I hadn't
thought about him giving some of his money to the Church
because of them taking care of him and also to assuage his
guilt at prostituting himself. That's a good idea, though.
You're right in saying that money is NOT Jake's motive for
having sex for money with older men. However, I think he
might have kept some of the money for is eventual departure
from the school whenever he thought that may have been. Again,
it is possible that he had entrusted the money to Dr. Karl
depending on how their relationship developed. I don't know
how Jake would have kept the money out of sight otherwise.
However, like somebody else we know, maybe he buried it
somewhere in multiple plastic bags under a specific rock in a
specific place so nobody else could find it. Even Charlie
wouldn't know where it was. That way, Jake could get it
before he leaves with Mike, Jessie, and Winna. Or maybe he
leaves it for Charlie. I don't really know.
4/19/05 Vince wrote:
* For story reasons, I'd think that Judy was murdered some five
years ago. That would get the interest of police investigators
instead of simply O.D.ing. Learning of his mother's death
would impact Jake hard and give reason why the school would
contact next-of-kin to come down and console the crying boy.
He sees his own prostitution (especially if the murder report
said that a John had brutally raped and murdered her for fun)
as following in her doomed footsteps and cause a small break
down in how he thought of himself.
4/23/05 Luke's response:
This is also an improvement on what I originally
suggested. Getting murdered, as horrible as that is, sounds a
little more "noble" than overdosing on drugs. Yes, Jake would
take this news hard. He would probably make the connection
between his own prostitution and that of his mother. Maybe
Jake had been roughed up by a john in the past. Maybe his
returning to the school with bruises and cuts might have made
them suspicious. Also I would think that Jake would have
thoughts of revenging his mother's murder although I don't see
how he could ever track down whoever did it. But the
connection between Judy's prostituting herself and then Jake
doing the same thing is a good one. And a good life lesson
for Jake. Maybe this is what he talks with Dr. Karl about.
4/19/05 Vince wrote:
* Dr. Karl is called by Jake. This man helps console him before
Winna's arrival and he's called again when Jake learns that
he's leaving for Montana. This doctor can present medical
records for use by the Social Worker during Guardianship
transfer. He was not hired by the school but by Jake himself a
year ago when his foreskin had hurt him a lot after a John
'chewed' on it too much. Hence why Jake didn't go to the
school's doctor. This is also a better way for Karl & Jake to
have met than 'on the street'. Jake confided in this doctor as
to how he got 'hurt' and Karl's fatherly instincts kicked in.
Their medical meet turned to friendship (and then more) when
Karl saw Jake over dinners to try turning the boy away from
that lifestyle but the good man found himself falling for him
and they go to a motel. Their relationship has been going on
for only a year then but it was strong.
4/23/05 Luke's response:
Again, I like your creativity in refining Jake's
relationship with Dr. Karl. I think that Jake hiring Dr. Karl
himself would be possible although how he would explain Dr.
Karl to the school if/when he presents medical records for
use by the Social Worker during Guardianship transfer? Maybe
Dr. Karl is a volunteer at the school. You know - a sort of Big
Brother who "adopts" one of the boys, takes him out regularly,
and so forth to give him an experience of a "normal relationship".
Maybe somehow Jake and Dr. Karl met at the school. Then when
Jake needed help with is hurting foreskin (I NEVER would have
thought of this!!) he decides to contact Dr. Karl directly
since he has already met him although Dr. Karl is not the
school's doctor. After that the relationship can develop.
Maybe Dr. Karl gets Jake, for medical reasons, to tell him how
he got this bruised foreskin. This would lead Dr. Karl to do
the baseline blood tests and so forth to check out Jake's
health-HIV status, any STDs, and so forth. Maybe Dr. Karl can
arrange through the Headmaster at the school to become Jake's
"Big Brother" and, thus, give them the official OK to get
together for dinners, conversation, developing intimacy, and
eventual time together in the motel. And, yes, the
relationship with Dr. Karl would be very strong, intimate, and
loving. My own thought is that Dr. Karl comes back into Jake's
life in Havre.
I'm proof reading this letter and I was thinking about a
very interesting scene where Dr. Karl tells Jake that he needs
to give him a thorough physical examination including blood
work and urine sample. Given what Dr. Karl now knows about
Jake's prostituting [Maybe Jake would have a more defensive
way of describing this to Dr. Karl and to himself. Like maybe
he would talk about these guys as his "friends" who were very
generous with him financially and that, sometimes, they
wanted him to get naked, hold him, and so forth. You know as
much about how he might describe this to himself as I do.
That is, he would do this in order to not face the fact that
he was a prostitute. Know what I mean? Maybe Jake didn't
just go into town to sell his body but developed a very
selective clientele who would talk to him as much as have sex
with them.] he would obviously have to do a thorough
examination of Jake's genitals and his ass. He would have to
do an external and internal anal examination to check for
warts and/or other damage even though Jake assures him that
nobody has ever fucked him. Dr. Karl would be aware of the
"classic denial" around such issues in guys and would just go
ahead and check anyway-maybe telling Jake that he is
professionally obligated to be "thorough" in his examination.
I can imagine Jake up on the examining table. Naked.
Kneeling up with his ass in the air. Dr. Karl puts on rubber
gloves and gets the KY. He puts some KY on his finger and
rubs it across Jake's anus and then goes inside. As he's
rubbing his finger inside, Jake's cock begins to get hard.
Jake is blushing with embarrassment but also seems to be
enjoying it. Dr. Karl realizes that he's gotten quite hard
himself. When he hesitates in his anal examination of Jake to
look down at himself, Jake turns his head around a bit and
sees what Dr. Karl is looking at. Well..... Mr. Writer, you
can surely take it from there. If I were writing this, I
would suppose that this would puzzle both Jake and Dr. Karl.
Jake would wonder if Dr. Karl would then initiate sex with him
as his johns have done. After all, maybe Jake has allowed his
johns to rim him and stick their fingers in his butt. Never
their cocks but maybe, for regular customers whom he likes, he
allows rimming and finger fucking because he really gets off
on it himself. However Dr. Karl is strictly professional
during this examination and just ignores his own erect cock.
Maybe he reaches down and tries to rearrange himself and Jake
also sees that. Dr. Karl is maybe really embarrassed by his
own sexual response to this examination of Jake. After all,
he's probably done many of these in the past and it has rarely
affected him like this. He would maybe examine Jake's
testicles to check for lumps and any evidence of cancer or
infection. He would palpate (stroke) Jake's cock to see if
there is any leakage that might indicate an STD. Jake would
probably get hard but Dr. Karl would "stay professional" and
act like it is the most natural thing in the world. Dr. Karl
would notice how the erect end of Jake's cock pushes out
through the foreskin. Maybe would look carefully at the slit
in the end of Jake's cock. Maybe he would be tempted in his
palpation of Jake's cock to just make some excuse to
masturbate him to orgasm and ejaculation. Maybe he would have
some reason to send a sample of Jake's ejaculate to a lab for
a testing of some sort. Or maybe this would all just be
going on in Dr. Karl's head. In any case, it would really
upset Dr. Karl to realize his response to Jake. And Jake
would be puzzled that Dr. Karl doesn't put the moves on him
or in any way take advantage of the situation. This would, of
course, make the sexual tension for both guys even more
intense for eventual resolution later.
Maybe Dr. Karl would ask him if he would like to be his
"Little Brother". Jake would say "yes". Dr. Karl would arrange
it with the school and they would begin weekly get together
with Dr. Karl coming out to the school to pick up Jake and
spend an afternoon with him. They would go to dinner. They
would talk. They would get to know each other nonsexually.
They would actually fall in love. Eventually something would
happen where Jake was very upset and Dr. Karl would hold him
to comfort him. Jake would really let his guard down and
allow himself to be hugged and comforted like this-almost like
a little boy instead of the "tough teenager" that he is. Dr.
Karl might kiss the top of his head. Maybe Jake would turn
his face up, kiss Dr. Karl on the lips, and then jump out of
the car and run into the school. On their next visit they
might talk about what happened and one of them would suggest
that maybe they could go someplace where Dr. Karl could just
hold Jake without anybody seeing. Dr. Karl would know of a
motel where nobody would know him and would go with Jake and
rent a room. They would, at first, just lie on the bed
holding each other. Eventually maybe one of them would need to
take a shower or something. And then... well, you can imagine!
As I've told you before, I certainly feel the sexual pull
of a hunky adolescent guy. However, I would never allow myself
to follow through on that for reasons I've told you about in
earlier letters. In your story, though, such sex between an
adult and an adolescent does occur. Maybe this could be
written in such a way that Jake's sex with Dr. Karl is really
"making love" and it allows both of them to grown through it
and because of it. Maybe it's just when this is really
causing Dr. Karl to question his own sexual orientation and
causing Jake to become increasingly less interested in selling
himself to johns that the news of Judy's death arrives at the
school and things begin to roll in terms of Jake coming back
to Montana.
4/19/05 Vince wrote:
* I agree with you that the school has an attorney and their
Social Worker can get the Guardianship passed through the
court in the judge's chamber. The school has no objections to
Winna taking the boy from them. At first, Winna is only coming
to see Jake but the school suggests she take him home. What
doesn't work out so well is that his classes end three weeks
later. Perhaps he's so broken up over his mother's death that
the headmaster thinks he's in no position to finish before
leaving with Winna and forgoes those remaining weeks, dropping
him one letter grade for each class for not taking finals.
Jake's school records show he's an excellent student so he's
'passed' into his next grade whatever that would be.
4/23/05 Luke's response:
Yes, I think this would work. However, I do think that
probably the school would have told Winna on the phone that
they wanted her to plan to take Jake back with her to Montana.
Maybe they would have suggested over the phone that it be a
first visit with his family. But when she got there and given
everything that has happened, maybe they would have then
suggested that they go ahead with the change of Guardianship
while she's there and have it all done. The school would
know - although I don't know if they would have told Winna
this - that they would not be willing to take Jake back given
what they know about his extracurricular activities! I think
that something needs to happen so that Jake leaves having
completed whatever classes he is taking and, thus, finishing
his 10th grade. Maybe he's doing so well that his teachers
will be willing to allow him to take the final exams right
then and, thus, finish the year that way. I have known this
to happen in the case of families that have to leave the area
to go overseas on a State Department assignment or a military
transfer. Schools tend to be flexible in such situations
especially when they have a kid who is doing very well
academically anyway and the leaving is so close to the end of
the school year. Maybe Jake could take his finals as M, J,
and W are flying to South Dakota. Between the phone calls
between Winna and the school and the actual flight, there
would be several days I would think just to get plane tickets,
make arrangements, and so forth. Since the school would know
that their plan is that Jake would not be coming back, they
might just go ahead and do this. I'm not sure how much they
would have told Jake.
About the grade that he would be in, it would depend on
what age you make him. If he is 16 and it is near the end of
the school year, then he would probably be the 10th grade that
he is finishing. Often 10th graders turn 16 before they finish
the year. And he would then go into the 11th grade in the
fall on the Reservation or in Havre at whatever high school
the Reservation kids attend. He would not be enrolled in
school when they return home because he would have finished
10th grade. So he would have the time between arrival at home
until school starts in the fall to get settled and have
whatever "adventures" he's going to have.
4/19/05 Vince wrote:
Luckily, this is only a fictional story because I see other
legal difficulties concerning Jake such as his birth in
Mexico. We just won't deal with them. Judy was a U.S. citizen
but there wouldn't have been a birth certificate for her baby
son. What about Jake's last name? Could we use Marques (I'm
not sure of that spelling) as that would be Miguel's last name.
(My boyhood friend who entered the Catholic priesthood was
named Michael Marques with his father named Miguel).
4/23/05 Luke's response:
Regarding this, maybe Judy realized that eventually she'd
be returning to the US and arranged to get a US Passport for
Jake, somehow, showing that he is a US citizen. His birth
certificate would show Judy and Miguel as parents. Maybe it
would also show that Judy is a US citizen and not a citizen of
Mexico. I have a colleague whose kids were born in Brazil
while she and her husband were there on State Department
assignment. The kids are now living here in the US and are
married. Clearly they are both citizens. I will ask her how
the birth certificates worked. In this case, though, since
both mother and father were US citizens and they worked for
the US Government while in Brazil, maybe all this would have
been handled through the Embassy. Maybe Judy could have made
a trip to whatever the nearest big city is while living with
Miguel's family, taken the birth certificate and whatever
proof she has that she was born in the US, and having the
Embassy or Consulate do what is necessary to certify Jake as
a U.S. citizen.
I have no idea about Jake's last name. Surprisingly I
haven't even thought about it. Since Judy and Miguel were
never married, might Jake have carried Judy's last name? In
terms of Miguel, the last name of Marques is fine with me.
4/25/05 Vince wrote:
I've written a first draft for that 'letter' the Rosebud Jesuit
School (have we 'locked in' that school's name as such?) for
your review. PLEASE make any necessary changes, wording tone,
etc. It was sent by the school's headmaster to the Blackfoot
Nation in Chinook, Montana for forwarding to Judy's sister
'Winnapah'. Elder Quiet-before-the-dawn takes care of legal
matters for the tribe so he receives this letter. He'll
present it to Winna in part 12 NtTL on Monday evening, May 5,
2003 (story time). Anyway, take a look at this draft:
April 30, 2003
Blackfoot Nation
Chinook, Montana
Dear Tribal Representative,
We are searching for the next-of-kin to one of our students,
Jake Marques who is now sixteen. He was admitted into our
school at age five by his mother Judy whom we've recently
learned was deceased in 1998. This news has impacted Jake
terribly. There is no contact information regarding the boy's
father, Miguel Marques who we believe is a Mexican National.
It's not likely that he'll be found.
I am writing to the Blackfoot Nation because Judy listed an
older sister named 'Winnapah' who resided in Havre, Montana
according to Jake's admission records. No maiden name was
given for this woman. It's not much information to go on but
we hope that with your help, Jake will find his aunt and
other family members. A photograph of Judy with her son is
enclosed for your review. This was taken by our {case worker?}
in 1992 when Judy was twenty-two and her son Jake was five.
If you can with certainty identify who Judy's sister is or
can contact her husband Miguel Marques, we ask that this
letter be given to them. It will help Jake to know that he
has family to turn to in this time of grief.
Most Sincerely Yours,
Headmaster {name}
Rosebud Jesuit School
Rosebud, South Dakota
[phone number]
Luke - this is only a first rough draft. PLEASE help me to
write it properly as this text will actually appear in NtTL
when Winna hands it over to M&J to read while she discusses
it with Quiet-before-the-dawn, shaken by the news.
A letter from that school would be based primary on their
motive to find Aunt Winnapah who they hope will come out to
Rosebud to console a very begrieved Jake. It wouldn't give
out too many details at this initial contact for several
reasons. Does the Blackfoot Nation know who this Winnapah is?
Do they know the boy's father, Miguel Marques? Details of
Jake's personal information wouldn't be given to strangers.
Enclosing that color copied photograph of Judy with her
little son was done in the hope that she would be recognized.
Details of Judy's grizzly murder would be omitted of course!
The police Cold Case Investigation Unit found a 'Judy Marques'
in judicial records for her Guardianship transfer of 5yo Jake
to that Rosebud school. Only took them five years to do so...
sigh. The police investigators visit the school and compare
their grizzly murder scene photographs to that younger woman
seen in the schools' Polaroid shot of Judy with her son Jake
at the time of his admission. Yup. Could be the same woman.
And the investigators know that she had a son from a
photograph of him at age 3 or 4 found in her room where she
was murdered that seems to match Jake at age 5. He's sixteen
now and that jives with what the boy's age should be in 2003.
Another photo found in Judy's room shows her at a much younger
age standing with an older girl with the names 'Judy & Winna'
written on back.
With the school's permission, Jake is shown an only facial
shot of this dead woman to identity. His mother had left him
eleven years ago... Could it be her? Does the boy know who
'Winna' could be? "That's my Aunt Winna whom I've never met,"
says Jake. He remembers being told about his mom's older
sister who'd taken care of her after their parent's death who
was a Blackfoot Indian in Montana. Winnapah (longer name form
for 'Winna') appears in the school's records as Jake's aunt
but no maiden name given. That's because Indians don't have
'last names' but go by 'daughter of {father's name}' which
can be very frustrating for U.S. Government agencies and to my
own writings! I don't even have Winna's parent's names listed
in my family tree yet.
Jake learns the manner of his mother's death and he's
naturally upset and filled with terrible grief. He'd felt
that something was wrong when his mom never came back to
visit him as she'd promised. But what really hits Jake hard
is that by prostituting himself, he's following in his
mother's doomed footsteps! Dr. Karl will be holding a crying
terrified teen in the next few days, huh?
How to find Winnapah? From Jake knowing she's Blackfoot in
Montana and/or Judy's admission records listing her sister,
they send off that letter in hope of contacting her. If an
address/phone number for Winnapah was given the school, it's
since out of date when Winna and her husband purchased a
house in Havre after Judy ran away.
Quiet-before-the-dawn gets the school's letter on Monday, May
5th and he recognizes the Judy/Winnapah as sisters connection
though that Polaroid photograph of an older Judy with a son!
isn't that identifying for him. He presents this letter to
Winna that evening. She'll call the school on Tuesday from
work and ask to see Jake of course! "I'll fly out tomorrow!"
The school will NOT allow Winna to speak with Jake at this
time on the phone and gives her an excuse that he's in class,
can't be found right now, etc. The reason for this is to
build story drama of their first meeting but also for
practical reasons. The school will demand proof that Winna is
indeed Judy's sister in their school office before allowing
Jake to meet with her. The boy is very upset now from
learning of his mother's murder so they want to protect him
from a false hope. Perhaps Jake hasn't even been told that
Winna is flying out to see him Wednesday! Winna will bring
proof to them on Wednesday which will include childhood
photographs of them together (matches a color copy of the
police investigator's photograph of Judy with Winna in their
childhood found at the crime scene), that FBI missing person's
report filed by Winna when Judy ran away at age 16, etc.
If Mike hasn't already, he'll reveal to Winna that he's
Gleaned that Judy had run off with a Mexican worker. That
matches what the school has on Miguel Marques as a Mexican
National. Judy's admission record for Jake would list that
man as his father out of wedlock, whereabouts unknown. Jake
was born in Mexico without proof of a birth certificate but
she'd taken her son back with her to the U.S. at age 2/3?
Jake's legal entry into the U.S. recognizing him as a citizen
occurred when the school took Guardianship of the boy at age 5.
The school will be convinced that Winnapah is Jake's aunt and
take the boy out of class Wednesday to meet her in the
headmaster's office. When they hug, Jake will KNOW that this
is his mother's sister from his ability to See into people he
touches like Jessie does. M&J have been waiting outside in
the hall where they see Jake first!, briefly, when {person who
works for the school} escorts the boy to the headmaster's
office. Mike Gleans this is Jake and Jessie's heart Feels
this truth. Anyway, I avoid some difficult story writing by
having Winna's first meet with Jake being done while Mike is
waiting outside in the hall with Jessie.
You and I will discuss what will transpire with their visit
with Jake that Wednesday that turns into a desire by Winna to
get Guardianship of the boy she requests from the headmaster
on Thursday morning, the judge's sign off on Friday with
their return to Havre on the weekend. During such, Charlie
will be met by M&J, Dr. Karl who helps with his medical
records (still awaiting your approval for how Jake met him as
a doctor outside his school because of a chewed foreskin
though that aspect may never come out in the actual story).
Jake is YOUR character yet I must write him to 'life' from
events that must make story sense, hence my modifications to
your original Jake outline.
I've had to figure out ages and dates of persons and events
based on what's 'locked in' by my stories and your outline
and luckily, it appears to be workable. Please review:
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Age/Date Calculations - Letter given to Winna on May 5, 2003
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2003-16age=1987 when Jake was born to Judy and Miguel Marques.
1986 was when the boy was conceived when Judy was sixteen.
Judy age 16+9 months pregnant +16 Jake's age = 33. Therefore,
Judy would be around thirty-three years old in 2003 story time
but she was murdered five years earlier in 1998.
1970 Judy's birth year. Her actual birth date is: ______, 1970.
1986 Jake conceived by his mother at age 16 while in Montana.
1987 Jake is born in Mexico with Miguel's parental family.
1992 Jake at age 5 is given into care of the school.
1998 Judy is murdered unbeknownst to her son at his age of 11.
2003 Jake is sixteen.
No birth date is given for Jake so keep in mind he's sixteen
prior to May 2003 when born in 1987. Jake's birth date is:
______________, 1987.
Judy's age 33+7 years older for Winna means she is 40? in 2003.
Her son Jes-ee-ah was born on July 20, 1979 and is nearly 24
(this July 20th) when his mother was only 16 or 17?!! No way!
Therefore, I'll increase Winna's relative age to Judy by a
year to eight years older so she married Looks-from-mountain
at barely 18 years of age and gave birth to Jessie right
before she turned 19 to make it legally and morally acceptable.
1961 Winna's birth year if she's eight years older than Judy.
1978 Winna's marriage year at barely 18 years of age.
1979 Jessie born July 20th so he's nearly 24 years old.
2003 Winna's current age is nearly 42.
There is a seven year difference between Jake and Jessie's
ages. That means Winna married when Judy was only around 8
according to the given timeline. Judy was around 9 when Jes
was born in 1979 and in NtL, he tells Mike that he doesn't
remember his Aunt Judy (because he was seven at the time when
she ran away with Miguel according to my calculations).
Luckily, I don't believe that I've 'locked in' Winna's age
anywhere in these two series and I didn't find an age given
for her after a search of those texts. Therefore, Winna is
around 41. According to your Jake outline, Winna took care
of her kid sister after the death of their mother. Their
father is also deceased. Maybe a car accident killed them
both? That'll be up to me.
Winna was taking care of Judy after their parent's death (as
if Judy were her own daughter) would mean that Winna was
doing so prior to her marriage at age 18; Judy was ten then.
I would think that especially after Jessie was born, Winna
couldn't look after Judy and she went with other family who
obviously didn't do a good job or Judy felt abandoned by
'mother Winna' hence why she ran away with that Mexican
immigrant worker at age 16. I'm just thinking out loud since
this may come up when Winna explains Judy's childhood to Jake.
We're getting Jake's introduction into NtTL ready!
I look forward to yet am in terror of the writing challenges
facing me concerning Jake. Will my view of him and writing thus
meet with your approval? Please answer my previous questions
concerning Jake and do provide ANY further insights into how
Jake may act when Winna, M&J visit him at school, flight home,
move into the laundry room and settling down in his new life.
I don't need beyond that (yet, if ever) because I'll have him
'locked in' as a character to what I hope will be to both our
satisfaction. Please remember that NtTL is from Mike's first
person perspective though he can Glean past events from Jake
and Jessie can Peer in for the boy's thoughts and emotions of
the moment once Jake allows such contact. Shielding from each
other will be a concept I'll demonstrate to readers when
characters share a similar ability as we've seen already
between Mike and Brings Wood to Glean things from the other.
These next few weeks will be your chance to get Jake molded
as you see him and communicated to me so I can write about
your character. Here's yet more questions I need to be answered:
I have memories of my Lutheran school days from 1st-4th
grade. That may be some help to what I need to know from you
regarding the functions of school personnel (nuns, priests,
acolytes, regular people who serve food, teach, etc.) at
Jake's Jesuit school, the rooms, Catholic terms, behavior of
people there, etc. What will Winna, M&J SEE when they go to
the Rosebud school, enter it, meet persons, their escort to
the headmaster, his name (is he a priest?), Jake's 'dorm'
(does he share this room with other students?), etc. How do
you think Charlie will be met? Details! Dr. Karl offers his
medical records to assist Winna with her assuming Guardianship
of Jake out of his love for him and wish to get the boy out
of this situation of being a prostitute here though that
means he may never see him again.
You've noticed my attention to details in my story writing.
I demand this of myself. For example, I've done Internet and
book/encyclopedia research of the places Mike has been to
such as Fort Assinniboine. You now share that responsibility
to help me KNOW Jake's haunt in Rosebud so I can write such
images effectively to my readers. I'll take care of the Town
of Rosebud when Winna, M&J go around with Jake to eat and
sightsee, but when at his school - that's where I really need
your help!
I want to stop here in my letter but my fingers continue to
fly over the keyboard and demand this to be written: If
you're hoping to read about Jake having sex with M&J, it just
isn't going to happen! Jes would see that as incest. Mike is
getting pretty hard nosed concerning underage boys as we've
seen with Simon especially after upsetting Winna. HFO will be
taking Simon under his wing through a lengthy nonsexual
'courtship' of friendship and the man coming to terms that he
'likes' boys. He wasn't that sex role fixed when his balls
weren't filled with sperm and that's why he married a woman.
We've seen his 'gay' interest in Mike while denying he's gay.
A hint is given in part 11 where HFO is now 'horny' all the
time and his odd look given in reaction to Mike saying that
them women better watch out for him. HFO didn't feel that
lustful towards women before but he still loved his wife from
his heart. Now, HFO wonders if Mike's Passing of male
strength to him had also made him gay. Nope. With his balls
restored and getting him more lustful than the man has ever
been before, he'll discover (with Simon's help) that he is
sexually interested in boys much to his shame. This is where
Simon will help this man come to terms with their developing
relationship that just feels right. HFO will then talk with
Mike about it and gain his permission to be with the boy in
his role as monedo.
Back to Jake, my flying fingers! Let's get to know who this
sixteen year old displaced person is first. Okay? He'll
figure out pretty quick (in Rosebud) that M&J are a gay
ouple. What the boy thinks about them, reacts outwardly
towards them, etc. will make for an interesting story and
build sexual tension. Winna wants to take care of her 'new'
son and will protect him from 'bad influences' though it's
already too late. Jake is gay. When she learns about that!
Perhaps Simon gets it on with Jake in the hot tub when M&J
make love over a towel nearby. No love between S&J but boys
will be boys! HFO would have excused himself from the hot tub
when M&J are getting passionate in shame by his excitement so
he won't jump Simon though that boy wants him to. He turns to
Jake for some simple male relief, perhaps hoping that would
make HFO jealous. I don't know what'll happen.
At this time in the story, it's difficult to 'lock in' events.
Things develop in the flow of NtTL that I can't foresee and
that's part of its great interest to me to learn myself what
my flying fingers unfold in it as well as for my readers. I
am able to set rules to what will/won't happen based on
keeping true to my characters from their past behavior.
Anyway, I don't want to dash your 'lustful' hopes concerning
Jake when the next several story parts see him remaining in
his clothes. We need to learn who this young man is first.
Otherwise, he'll become another sexual conquest that Simon
himself nearly fell prey to by my own lust 'Jes will break
the boy in' until you helped me see this youth with my heart
and head instead. I used to write very lust satisfying
stories such as in my 'Willow Bird' series. I'm hoping that
my writing is maturing so that along with entertaining my
readers, I can make deep biting statements about the touchy
issues in our society such as boy/love, being gay (in its
many aspects), racial prejudices, etc. that may leave readers
with something to think about.
Let's get Jake settled. He will, with M&J's help become a
'love hopeful' young man per this NEW TO TEACHING LOVE theme
of my series versus just being sexually gay if Jake has even
consciously recognized that in himself. He's been seeking a
father figure through prostitution and had done things to
satisfy his 'daddies'. Dr. Karl was a true father to him from
what you've told me and perhaps their lives will come full
circle when Jake can teach love to this man in return when
they meet again.
4/25/05 Vince wrote:
My last letter responded to your previous Jake letter and now,
I'm responding to and locking in information with this letter
in response along with asking you more questions.
It's important that I know what's happened to Jake, his
background and development even if this information won't reach
our readers so I can carrying him through true to your view in
NtTL. Eventually, Jake will confide in Jessie (versus Mike)
through talk and Peering into each other while Jes Passes that
on to Mike so reader will know too! That's how some of Jake's
past will enhance this story just as M&J relay their own
interesting past from former selves.
What follows is what I think we've agreed upon though please
feel free to correct, elaborate or change:
POINTS OF FACT:
* Name of Jake's school is: Rosebud Indian Mission School.
* Jake messed around sexually with some of the boys in school
from an early age that included getting himself fucked when he
was around 11. He let younger boys stick in him (maybe sat on
them to 'force' their cooperation) because their erections
were smaller so it wouldn't hurt as much and he could remain in
control of the situation. He enjoyed penetration and got off
from it (in hand at that moment or when a kid's really long
pole massaged his prostate and his dick shot off on its own,
or reliving the experience later when he beat off). No strong
emotional response though. When Jake was approached by an
older boy of sixteen, it HURT not so much because of a larger
sized cock but that 16yo said 'You my squaw now!' afterwards
that shook Jake's identity of self so he stopped all fucking
and no more sex with that insulting boy.
* At age 13, Jake was offered $75 to get sucked off by a man
in the local gas station restroom. That excited him both
physically and emotionally because he saw how much the guy
enjoyed servicing him and paying to boot! Thus began Jake's
'searches' to be with a man. They were rewarding for him both
physically and emotionally when Jake saw how his smaller
younger body satisfied a man's need and they TOUCHED him with
hands and from kissing. Taking money helped Jake deal with
being in control of the situation and he gave it all to the
church at first but then hid his stash at school in its
basement storage he had access to per his duties to move
furniture and equipment (Jake was already physically strong
from working out).
* You're right. Them Johns want a 'boy' so even when Jake
claimed he was older by three years from his true age, they
chuckled to themselves and enjoyed him for his youth. No
fucking. Jake's experience with that insulting boy kept him
from having that happen to him again.
* Dr. Karl entered Jake's life through the man's volunteer
work for his school. I like your idea of Karl being a 'big
brother' to some of the boys by taking them out to dinner,
sports games, etc. Jake and him started their relationship
based on friendship though both felt the sexual tension
growing between them but it was kept secret from the other.
Jake didn't want to risk making a move on this married man and
jeopardize their friendship that Jake craved or get reported by
Karl to the school. They met when Jake was 14.
* Dr. Karl is a medical doctor. That was incidental to his
volunteer work with the school. When Jake's foreskin got
chewed, he turned to his trusted friend for help and that very
good examination scene you've given me in Jake4 works! Jake
would have claimed a mean boy at his school did it and arl
appears to accept that while suspecting otherwise. On the
follow up examinations (Karl checks his blood work for
diseases and finds them negative) the two do more together on
the examination table as you've described and fingering Jake
under the guise of an examination obviously excites the boy
while Karl realizes his sexual interest in Jake. That leads to
them being together in that motel room as you've described.
Dr. Karl did NOT fuck Jake since he felt that would betray his
marriage to his wife yet he rimmed and fingered the boy to
pleasure him and they handled each other off that led to
sucking then belly rubbing with kisses that crossed the line
in Karl's eyes regarding his wife but he couldn't help
himself. Hey. I'm not cheating with a 'girl' and she can't get
pregnant by me...
* Jake was nearly 15 when he and Karl become 'lovers'. He called
the man his 'dad' from then on instead of 'big brother' as
during their nonsexual friendship. Their deepening relationship
was mutually satisfying to them physically and especially
emotionally. Usually, Karl only held/massaged Jake naked
though the boy always felt the need to get off. When the man
was horny, he surrendered to getting off in hand, sucking or
belly rubbing where only then their kisses happened in he
heat of the moment. Remember. Karl is married and he's trying
to deal with having loving feelings for someone other than his
wife and for a boy at that!
* Jake stopped most of the prostitution after Karl became his
'dad' but they couldn't always get together (family duties) so
the boy went to a few regulars to get off, compare how the sex
wasn't as fulfilling as with Karl because of the emotional bond
they shared. (I need Jake to still be prostituting for money
so learning of his mother's murder in like profession will hit
him very hard.) Of course, Karl doesn't know Jake is still
with other guys thinking he's weaned the boy from that self-
destructive activity from Karl's own 'self sacrifice' to
relieve the boy's sexual needs. Karl needs to come to terms
that he's gay, or a boy lover, and when Jake is gone from his
life (Winna takes him home) that's when the man aches so much
from his heart that he eventually divorces his wife as you've
outlined and he will be with Jake later in NtTL.
* About Jake and Charlie. Hmm... As you've outlined, Jake had
become this kid's big brother to protect him from the mean
boys at school. They've messed around with each other and
during Jake's fucking exploration, had Charlie stick in his
butt a few times yet the youth felt it was wrong since hat
crossed the line of boys 'messing around' and too, Jake was
his big brother who shouldn't be conquered. Jake had confided
in him what that insulting 16yo had done to him. So as to not
complicate the story, Charlie is not gay but acting out of
sexual curiosity and friendship. Jake fulfills his need to be
a 'big brother' to a needing kid while Dr. Karl was teaching
him nonsexually in that role model. When Karl became Jake's
'dad', Jake stopped sex with Charlie who was in a way relieved
to just be friends. By this time, Charlie can cum and he has
feelings for girls. Sorry. But Winna is not going to run a
'youth hostel' and I don't think Charlie will see Jake again
after they part.
* The scool suspects Jake is prostituting because of the few
purchases he made for himself and Charlie, the occasional
bruises Jake displayed and word had gotten around that Jake
messed around more than the other boys at night, in the
showers, etc. known to certain priests who sought out boys.
Jake resisted any involvement with them (though it would have
satisfied his need for a 'dad') since he feared risk to those
priests and himself from discovery and punishment. Jake had
his Johns outside of school for that.
What follows is a concise series of events for Jake leading up
to Winna being granted Guardianship of this teen: the police
Cold Case Crimes Unit go to Jake's school to investigate the
possibility that he is the son of Judy Marques in late April
as I've given you in Letter60. Jake presses them to reveal all
they know about his mother's death once they're assured Judy
was his mom. Jake is really shaken by the news. He loses
interest in school, sleeps a lot and cries. This is a dead-end
lead for the police so they're no longer involved at this
point. Jake gets consoled by Karl who may learn why the boy is
so upset - he was still prostituting 'a little' while they've
been together and that sets up story tension between them. The
Headmaster writes his letter to the Blackfoot Nation. Winna
calls him on Tuesday from work and will come out to Rosebud on
Wednesday. After satisfying the Headmaster that Judy is
Winna's sister, Jake is brought into his office for their
first meet while M&J are waiting outside in the hall. They
spend the rest of Wednesday visiting with Jake and try to
console him. Winna feels the need to get Jake back home and
presents her proposal of Guardianship to the Headmaster on
Thursday morning. Quiet-before-the-dawn had suggested this
possibility last Monday night during their discussion o the
letter. Headmaster agrees (sure would solve a lot of his
problems as we've discussed) and fast speeds the paperwork
through. Karl is looking for Jake at the school after thinking
over their last difficult meeting, learning that Jake is being
taken back to Montana by his aunt. He's of mixed feelings
about this but thinks it's for the best, assisting her with
medical records for Jake (omitting chewed foreskin incident
from his report of course!). Friday, the court grants Winna
Guardianship. Jake takes final exams on Saturday. Sightseeing
of Rosebud. By the way, Jake had voiced his acceptance to the
Headmaster for his aunt to take him home to Montana (and away
from Rosebud!) after difficult meet with Karl. He also wants
to break all ties with his regular Johns which he felt would
lead him to the same doomed end his mother suffered. On
Sunday, Jake packs and says goodbye to school friends
(Charlie), teachers, etc. and he meets with Karl to thank him
for his help in person, alone, and they make up. A last get
together with both crying and secretly regretting decisions
made that will now separate them. Yet Karl is happy that Jake
has found family and will find his roots in Indian culture. He
promises to fly out to see Jake in a month to see how he's
settled in. Sunday early evening flight back to Havre.
What do you think, Luke? We don't have to plan beyond Sunday
as this material will take several parts to write in NtTL.
Here's some information I need from you:
* Name of Headmaster (a priest?) is: ____________
* Give me the names and roles of school functionaries that
Winna, M&J will meet. I need the description of those parts of
the school they pass through and any Catholic terms that may
come up in conversation.
* Your help with finishing the Headmaster's letter mailed to the
Blackfoot Nation in care of Winnapah.
* Answer questions posed in my last letter(s).
Jake is YOUR character. If there is something I suggest that
is NOT in your view of him, PLEASE LET ME KNOW! I've noticed
all the 'maybes' or 'coulds' in your last letter. Let me know
what you want me to write of Jake in NtTL. Together, I think
we've got a good workable outline ready for his introduction.
Jake will be an example of how M&J can help gay teens while
learning about love themselves. They're so Connected tht it
blinds them to how difficult and yet also so fulfilling a
relationship between 'normal' people can be without Sharing
thoughts and emotions in this kind of 'cheating' way that M&J
have. Remember. M&J have their own lives in NtTL and Jake is
in theirs only for the present. Don't take what I'm about to
suggest the wrong way. Jake will eventually 'fly from the
nest' when he's come into his manhood (emotionally and from
wisdom) to be with Karl. This will take many story parts in
NtTL to accomplish. After his exit from my series, why don't
you pick up Jake's story from there? I can assist you with
ideas, editing, etc. and you post them on the Nifty Archive!
4/27/05 Luke wrote:
It was nice to get your last two letters about Jake. I
will be responding to those two letters in this letter to you.
Let me start by responding to your second letter.
I agree with your "points of fact". I like what you've
done in terms of fleshing out the story of Jake at school.
What you say about him fooling around with other goys a
school including getting fucked himself is good. It's very
sexy to read even that little bit so it will be great when you
fully expand it whenever it comes up in the story. The idea of
being told "You my squaw now" and Jake recoiling from that is
good. And then at 13 getting offered $75 to get sucked off by
a man at the local gas station restroom is also very
believable. As I sit here typing this, I'm imagining Jake's
early sexual experiences!
Yes, what you describe spinning off my own ideas about Jake
and Dr. Karl is just what might have happened. The
relationship builds up until both of them are feeling a whole
lot more for each other than either even intended and
certainly more than Jake has ever felt for anybody else before
this. And, yes, Dr. Karl would be struggling internally with
his own feelings for Jake vis-à-vis his being married. Having
sex with another guy is one thing for Dr. Karl. But to begin
to realize that he probably loves him is quite another! And
for Jake, who has kept his feelings carefully hidden, to feel
so tender and so vulnerable is exciting and very scary.
Yes, Jake stopped most of the prostitution after hisand
Dr. Karl's relationship began to develop. It would be tough
for Jake to completely give up selling his body for money. He
likes having the money. Also he probably likes some of his
"regulars" and enjoys the time with them. Not only is it
stimulating for Jake, but it is also clearly pleasurable for
his client. Jake knows their likes and dislikes and is very
skilled at pleasuring their bodies. But mostly he is doing his
thing with Dr. Karl.
The way you describe things with Charlie (the boy at Jake's
school) sounds reasonable. Jake does fulfill the role of a big
brother for Charlie. It's OK with me that Charlie drops out of
the picture when Jake leaves for Montana. Can they have e-mail
contact? Remember, the Rosebud School as a non-profit
organization receives lots of computer equipment donated by
companies who are upgrading. All of the donations would be tax
deductible. Many of the laptops, desktops, and other equipment
are perfectly useable but they are not the absolutely latest.
Also the school, at least in the library, would have Internet
access. And Jake and Charlie could both have Yahoo or Hotmail
e-mail accounts, right. Both would be completely computer
literate because most kids that age are and also becaus of
the plethora of computer equipment at the school.
I think your shift from the school discovering that Jake
had been selling his body for money and that being the reason
for dismissal from the school to the fact of the discovery of
Judy's death being the reason for contact with Winna and
subsequent leaving the school-this shift is a good one.
Instead of leaving in disgrace Jake will be leaving to rejoin
his family. And about the "certain priests who sought out
boys" that probably would have happened. However, remember Fr.
Jerry who never laid a hand on Jake although there was one
situation when Jake was very young that and was sitting in Fr.
Jerry' lap, that he became aware of Fr. Jerry's erect penis.
He thought Fr. Jerry might "do something" with Jake but he
didn't. Jake always remembered that.
Your description of the "concise series of events for Jake
leading up to Winna being granted Guardianship" is just fine.
It all fits together. You've done well with this.
When you say that Jake is my character and how to I want to
develop Jake, I've been giving you as much detail as I an.
When I say "maybe this" and "maybe that" I'm really saying
that Jake's character development could go either way and I'd
be fine with it. Exactly which direction it takes is up to
you. I will tell you if you suggest something regarding how
Jake is and what his experiences are that I am not at all
comfortable with. So far, though, that has certainly not been
the case.
In answer to your questions:
Yes, the Headmaster is probably a Jesuit priest. His name
could be Fr. Sean McMillan.
The school functionaries that Winna, Mike, and Jessie meet
would include the school social worker who originally
interviewed Judy and who will "hand hold" Winna through the
Guardianship transfer. It would probably be a woman and she
could be Ms. Kathleen Klein. She would be a woman in her early
60s who's really been around and "seen it all". Nothing shocks
her including whatever she knows of Judy's background and what
Jake has been doing. She also knows the way things are done at
the courthouse and the whole change of Guardianship proess
goes quite smoothly with her leading Winna through it.
They would also include Jake's dormitory prefect - probably
one of the male, lay faculty members who live in a larger
bedroom with bath at the end of the dormitory. He would be
responsible for keeping good order during the night. Maybe his
name is Mr. Devlin (Ralph Devlin).
They would also include some of Jake's teachers who would
be a mix of priests and lay persons. Maybe there would also
be a school nurse who runs the school's infirmary. Probably
Mr. Devlin would have been Jake's teacher. Maybe even Fr.
McMillan himself would have filled in as a teacher himself.
I like the plan that Jake "fly from the nest" at some
point - possibly with Dr. Karl. I don't know if I'd be able
to pick up "Jake's Story" at that point but maybe so. I
certainly feel into him now!
I'm now going to work on your first letter of the two.
Since it has such specific content, I'm going to send this
letter off to you this afternoon and then send my respose as
another "Jake letter". I may not finish it until this weekend
but I plan to give you all the detail about the school that
you request including a description of the physical layout and
use of each of the buildings, a polishing up of your very good
letter to the Tribal Representative about Jake, how the
interview with Fr. McMillan might have gone with Winna, some
background on the school and its founding given to Winna by
Fr. McMillan in response to her questions about this, anything
specifically "Catholic" about the school that the group of
three might encounter, and so forth and so on.
I am impressed with your Age/Date Calculations. I told my
partner this morning how impressed I am with all the work you
go to in order to get all this straight. As I read it now, it
all makes sense. I always thought of Winna as a plump lady in
her early 40s.
4/28/05 Luke wrote:
Here's the letter. I decided to write it tonight and send
it off to you. I will respond to the rest of questions ver
the weekend. This way you can go ahead and add the letter to
part 12. {Letter sent to Blackfoot Nation in the hope of
contacting Jake's aunt, Mrs. Winnapah}:
ROSEBUD INDIAN MISSION SCHOOL
ROSEBUD, SOUTH DAKOTA
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ESTABLISHED BY THE SOCIETY OF JESUS
1973
April 30, 2003
Blackfoot Nation
Chinook, Montana
Dear Tribal Representative:
I am writing to request your assistance in locating the
next-of-kin of one of our students, Jake Marques, age sixteen
years. He was admitted into our school when he was five years
of age by his mother, Judy, whom we have recently learnd died
in 1998. This news has had a great impact on Jake who has had
no contact with her since she left him here with us.
We do not have any contact information regarding the boy's
father, Miguel Marques, who we believe is a Mexican National.
It is not likely that he will be found.
I am writing this letter to the Blackfoot Nation because Judy
listed an older sister named "Winnapah" who resided at that
time in Havre, Montana, according to Jake's admission records.
No maiden name was given for this woman. It is not much
information, I know, but I hope that with your help, we will
be able to locate Jake's aunt and possibly other family
members. I am enclosing a photograph of Judy with her son.
This photograph was taken by our school social worker,
Kathleen Klein, in 1992 when Judy left Jake with us. At the
time that this photograph was taken Judy was twenty-two and
Jake was five.
If you are able to identify with certainty who Judy's sister
is or are able to contact Jake's father, Miguel Marques, I ask
that this letter be given to either of them. It will hep Jake
to know that he has family to turn to in this time of grief.
My phone number is given below. I would very much like to talk
with either Ms. Winnapah or Mr. Marques as soon as possible.
Yours sincerely in Christ,
Rev. Sean McMillan, SJ, Headmaster
Rosebud Indian Mission School
[123-456-7890]
Please note, Vince, that "SJ" are the initials of the
"Society of Jesus" or "Jesuits". Any priest or brother in the
Jesuits would put SJ behind his name to designate his
membership in the Order.
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