Date: Sat, 13 Oct 2012 09:00:27 +0200
From: Amy Redek <adultreading@gmail.com>
Subject: Letters. Part One.
This story is for persons of eighteen years or over. All comments, good
or bad, are welcome and all will be answered.
Part One.
Police Commissioner White Hart Hotel
Scotland Yard Greenwich Village
London London
Monday 10th June 1879
Sir,
Please find enclosed all the correspondence that I've collected, plus
copies of my letters that I've sent to you in relation to the case under
investigation.
In the top left hand corner, in italics, is the address, obtained from
the envelopes, that I have added to show to whom the letter was sent. The
postage stamps and subsequent postal cancellations showed that they were
posted from the town and country that the writer put at the top of each
letter. I have gathered enough evidence that I am sure will be enough to
ensure a conviction.
I will be here for another few days to tidy up loose ends before seeing
you in person with my full report.
Yours etc,
Arnold Baines. Inspector
Mr. Henry Forbes, The Ivy House,
24, Deptford Road, The Common,
Greenwich,. Greenwich,
London. London.
5th May, 1879.
My Dearest Henry,
Charles Lambrey arrived today and I must say that is a rather handsome
young man. Though you said he is twenty five years of age, he looks as
though he is still in his teens. It took some time to convince Mary that he
was indeed a doctor despite his youthful looks.
She has come to accept the fact that I am still going to spend at least
a month in a health clinic in Switzerland where the high altitude and
mountain air would be good for my lungs and that he would be accompanying
me to see that I do not get into any difficulties on the journey.
So the groundwork has been laid and we will be departing in a few days
time and will write again soon and let you know when we are leaving for
Baden.
Albert
Mr. Henry Forbes, The Ivy House,
24, Deptford Road, The Common,
Greenwich,. Greenwich,
London. London.
8th May, 1879.
Dearest Henry,
I am writing this letter to thank you for suggesting that I accompany
Albert to Switzerland. I don't quite understand why I should be posing as a
doctor but I don't care for he is as good as you in bed. I'm surprised that
you should let me go with him when he is one of your lovers and would
really have gone with him, but I'm thankful that I've now met and had
him. Or I should really add that he's had me too!
I duly arrived here on the Monday and met his wife, who I think is quite
attractive, as a woman, and surprised that he should be like us and prefer
to make love with another man. I know that you've said it in the past, and
I fully agree with you, that it's nice to handle and have what a woman
cannot supply. That being an erect and hard organ that is a delight to
fondle and suck as well as having used inside oneself.
She was pleasant company and yet, now having met Alfred, wanted him to
make love to me, so I was pleased when it was time for bed. But I was
disappointed that first night, for when he showed me the room where I would
be sleeping, he cried off from joining me in that lovely big bed. Instead,
when we were in that room, all he did was take me into his arms and kiss me
but said that we would get together the following night. So I slept alone.
The next day was similar to the day before, spending time with Mary, her
making me use her forename instead of keep calling her Mrs. Wallis. Though
I'm glad I boned up on the structure of the lungs and heart to be able to
answer her questions about how would mountain air help Albert.
The day was pleasant enough though I couldn't wait for dinner to end and
it would be time for bed. I learned that they both slept in different rooms
so it wouldn't be any problem for him to come into my room for the night.
The reason for separate rooms was the fact that he liked the windows open
at night for the cool air whereas she preferred hers closed.
I was thankful when dinner was over and as we left the dining room to go
to the lounge for coffee, Alfred managed to stroke my bum and whisper that
he would be seeing me during the night. I had actually trembled at him
touching me where he did and couldn't wait and so quickly finished my
coffee and begged Mary's leave for I pleaded tiredness. So with goodnight's
said all round, went off up to my room.
I went and had a full body wash in the bathroom and made sure that there
was a big jug of water and bowl, plus some cloths in my room before I got
into bed, naked, to wait for Albert.
I spent a whole hour there, fretting that he might not come, but the
door eventually opened and he came in. He was wearing a dressing gown and
saw in the dim light that he was bare foot and guessed that he naked
beneath his robe. This he proved when he opened the front for me to see his
massive organ sticking out in front of him and I positively drooled at the
wonderful sight. I quickly threw back the sheet covering me to show him
that I was in the same condition that he was in.
His smile was beautiful as he looked at me and climbed onto the bed, his
erection swinging from side to side, and came into my arms and we kissed.
Our two cocks got mashed together as he rolled on top of me, our mouths
open and our tongues getting to talk to each other as we kissed, our bodies
moving sensually against each other.
But now having seen what he had and having it up hard against my
stomach, I wanted it in my mouth and so quickly rolled him over and kissed
my way down to have it right before my eyes. Such had been our movements,
his foreskin had rolled right down and there was the throbbing redness of
the head just waiting for me. My mouth was full of saliva as I opened it
and drooled as I took in the hot head to his groan as my lips clamped
themselves round the base.
It was heaven Henry, having him in there, feeling it throb and pulsate
as I moved my tongue over and round it. My hand was holding the base and
gently moving it up and down as I sucked and chewed on him. Making it jump
when I scratched the G string with my teeth.
He then gasped out that he wanted me to turn round but not release him,
which I did and keeping a firm grip with my mouth on that wonderful cock of
his, manoeuvred myself round till we were in an opposite position on the
bed.
I nearly choked then when I felt his hot mouth take in the head of my
now really throbbing cock and begin to suck on me. Oh what bliss I was in
Henry, though I would really have wished it was yours that I was sucking on
and you sucking on mine. But it was what I was wanting and here it was, in
my mouth and really enjoyed my sucking and chewing of him as he was doing
to me.
Such was the passion generated in both of us, it was with delight when I
felt him swell up that little bit more and had him come in my mouth. Coming
out in surges that filled the little space there with his lovely semen. His
coming triggered me off and I came at almost the same time, sending my seed
into him and felt it being washed round the head of my cock before he
swallowed it. I too then swallowed his and spent quite a few minutes
sucking out what I could of any remnants of his sperm. We kept on with the
sucking and licking of the head of each other's cock until they were clean,
my foreskin having rolled down too and the night air felt rather chilly
after the heat from his mouth on the exposed head.
After now tasting this wonderful man, I couldn't turn round on the bed
quick enough to go back into his arms for us to kiss with our sperm coated
lips. He also pleased me by saying how positively nice I had tasted, and
with a grin added that it was better than the cream brulee we'd had for
dessert at dinner. I now couldn't wait until he was roused again for me to
have that lovely cock up inside me. Mind you, I wanted to fuck him too!
So after an hour of the stroking and fondling of each other's bodies, we
managed to bring both our cocks up to fighting strength and begged that he
fucked me first.
We both rose up in more ways than one and while he was on his knees, I
gave his cock head a good suck, coating it with my saliva as a lubricant,
for he is quite big, but then you know how big he gets.
With that done, I turned round on my knees and had him get in between my
open legs and had a tremor run through my body as I felt the head of his
cock pass across the cheeks of my bum. Not only that, but his hands stroked
me and his fingers parted them to see his target.
Now you know of that lovely feeling you get when a pair of hands come on
to your hips as you feel the head of that wondrous cock start to push
against your ring piece. The pressure you feel as it starts to fight
against the instinctive resistance of the sphincter muscle inside your
arse. I simply loved that slight pain as he widened my entrance and felt
the head slowly move in and then had my muscle start to squeeze him as the
shaft slid in till I had his thighs up tight against my bum and felt that
throbbing organ beat a steady tattoo to my insides.
I must admit that I was drooling again as it pulsated away, sending
ripples of pleasure throughout my body, and that was before he'd even
started to fuck me.
Oh it was so lovely to once again have a hard male organ moving smoothly
inside me, giving me all kinds of thrills as he fucked me. I'm sure I was
crooning at this steady reaming of my backside and even began to move
myself back onto his forward thrusting, loving every inch I could feel of
him inside me.
I think he needed me as much as I needed him for it wasn't long before
he was gripping my hips tightly and he moved up to his ramming speed. His
thighs smacking against the cheeks of my bum, sometimes feeling his
swinging balls hitting me before he held me tight up to his thighs and
began to jerk himself inside me.
I felt the first spurts of his semen as he came, feeling it hit the
sides of my canal. He was gasping now as he jerked as hard as he could,
sending the rest into me to join up with his first salvo. I used my muscle
to squeeze him as tight as I could, loving the feel of his cock swelling as
he came.
I found that I too was gasping at having the thrill of his extra
expansion inside as he came, his thighs grinding tight up to my bum cheeks
as he finished off with a big shudder. He was some lovely fucker and I told
him so before the dreaded pulling out of that organ of pleasure. I cried
out as I got that small feeling of the enlarging of my ring piece as the
head left me, leaving that horrible emptiness behind, almost like a vacuum.
I then found that I was crying from the sheer joy he had given me but
also for the loss of his erection that had just pleasured me. He got off
the bed as I fell forward and turned and watched as he poured some water
into a bowl which he then placed on the floor. Here, he got down onto his
knees to wash his cock in the water before getting up and drying
himself. The bowl he left there for me to use after I had fucked him. Which
I now wanted to do, for my own cock was really paining me from the need of
release from its hardness and also to empty my balls in his backside.
I got up onto my knees as he got back on the bed and we held each other
in a tight embrace and kissed before he bent down and took the head of my
straining cock into his mouth to coat it in saliva for my turn to fuck him.
He then turned round on the bed on his knees presenting me with his
backside, his legs open waiting for me to move in between them. From the
rear, I couldn't really tell the difference between the cheeks of his arse
or that of yours, so pretended that it was you bent over there in front of
me as I first stroked the cheeks before parting them for the rabbit to see
the hole.
I grunted and he gasped as I pushed the head of my cock up into him,
watching it move in to be followed by the rest of my shaft until I was
tight up to his body. Now instead of just the head of my cock feeling the
inner heat of his body, I had the whole of my cock surrounded by it in the
tightness of his arsehole.
I whispered in my mind that I asked you to forgive me for using my prick
inside somebody else, but then realised that you had given me tacit licence
to be where I was at this moment in time in sending me to him. So I fucked
him and had a great thrill run through my body that I was doing just that,
and with your permission. It was fucking lovely!
Like Albert, I came far too soon, holding his hips in a tight grip as I
jerked my hips up tight to his rear as I came inside him. Pleased at the
release my balls had got but dismayed that I had come and would now begin
pulling myself out from that tight orifice that had been a pleasure to
ream.
He gave out a cry as I did so, his muscle trying to hold me there, but I
was out and got off the bed and washed my still hard cock in the basin on
the floor. After drying myself, picked the bowl up and put it back on the
dresser and got back onto the bed and into his arms.
He stayed in bed with me for the whole night and I was woken up in the
early hours of the morning with his cock trying to make another hole in
me. I too was as hard as an iron bar and we both had another glorious fuck
before he finally left me to go back to his own room.
I lay there alone in those few hours before dawn, reliving the pleasure
we'd both enjoyed. His hard cock up inside me, smoothing out the kinks and
settling the nerves that his cock had excited by being where it was. So
much were my thoughts that I got another hard on and had to masturbate
myself, coming in my handkerchief and then licking off my semen.
I seemed to have filled quite a few pages of this letter and waxed
somewhat lyrical in the pleasure I experienced with Alfred, though I still
wish it had been you. We leave in two days time and as promised, I will
write often darling.
Charles
Mr. Henry Forbes, The Ivy House,
24, Deptford Road, The Common,
Greenwich,. Greenwich,
London. London.
9th May, 1879.
Dear Henry,
Just a short letter, thanking you for sending the delightful Charles. He
is indeed a treasure and I must admit that I plundered it last night, and
expect to do so again tonight.
He much reminded me of you when you were his age so much so that I
fancied that it was you that I fucked last night and will continue to do so
until we return to England, for I plan to leave tomorrow.
I'll let you know when we've arrived in Baden, which should be around
the 17th or 18th, and you can take it from there. A kiss I send you and one
from Charles.
Albert
Mr. Henry Forbes, Somewhere in
24, Deptford Road, The English Channel
Greenwich,
London.
11th May 1879
Dearest Henry,
Please excuse the dismal writing for I'm writing this on the packet boat
bound for Calais from where it will be posted. It's a bit of a bouncy
crossing and Albert is suffering slightly from Mal de Mer and has asked to
be left alone. I hope he will feel better when we get ashore.
That hope is for us to do again what we did last night in my room. Once
again, he was fantastic! His cock up hard and ready when he entered my room
and we were soon on the bed sucking and chewing each other, taking in and
swallowing our emissions.
This time I fucked him first before having that lovely organ of his
pushed up inside to pleasure me once again. I know now why you have loved
this man for so long, and I hope that when we return to England that the
three of us can be together some nights.
It was when he was up behind and smoothly reaming my back passage,
lovely as it was, my thoughts went to his wife Mary. This was to be our
last night in England for at least six weeks and yet here he was, fucking
me instead of being in bed with her? But as he was in the middle of fucking
me, I didn't think it would be the right time to ask why wasn't he doing
this to her, though, with a chuckle, didn't think she was the kind of woman
to take it up the arse.
The thought came up again a little while later as we lay in each other's
arms, kissing and decided to keep my mouth shut on this, but, again a
chuckle, which I couldn't do, for I had his tongue in mine playing touch
with my tongue.
Anyway, after another lovely night of sex with Alfred, the next morning
we said goodbye to Mrs. Wallis, him giving her a kiss while I could only
shake her hand and thank her for a nice stay in her house. A carriage took
us to the Coaching Inn in the center of the village where we caught the
Dover coach coming from the city.
It was a fairly smooth ride down to Dover, stopping several times to
drop off and pick up the odd passenger travelling our way. So with all
these stops, it was early evening before we arrived in Dover and went and
booked into an hotel for the night. We had dinner and then went up to our
room where we soon rid ourselves of our clothes and had a good wash before
going into a clinch to kiss and feel each other's erection pressing hard up
between us.
It was here that Alfred found a new way for us to have sex. We were
naked and kissing each other when he pulled me forward as he sat down on a
hard backed chair. I automatically, still holding him, went down onto my
knees and in between his opened legs. So there in front of me was his
upright erection almost begging to be sucked.
This I did and as I licked and chewed on him before he told me to get
astride of him and cottoned on straight away what this meant. So leaving a
quantity of saliva on the head of his cock, stood up and got astride of his
legs. I had my hands on his shoulders to steady myself above him, feeling
his arm brush my thigh and knew that he was then holding his cock upright.
I lowered myself down and felt the head of his cock nuzzle the entrance
to my cave, and with a deep breath taken in, sank down onto him. The air
I'd taken in came back out in one big gasp as the head of his cock really
widened me as the head passed the sphincter muscle and I then had the
glorious feeling of him sliding up into me as I finally sank down to sit on
his thighs.
This was another kind of heaven for me, having him deep inside me,
pulsating away and I could now see the glowing pleasure on his face. It was
a lovely smile he wore as his hands came round my chest and pulled me tight
to him for us to kiss, my erection being squashed between us.
What bliss it was to be able to kiss Albert and have his prick twitching
and throbbing away inside me at the same time. I was still able to be
kissing him as I lifted myself up and down on his erection and so brought
him to his climax in this way. We had to break off the kisses for his hands
now came down to my hips to help me bounce up and down on him till he came,
pulling me tight down to his thighs as he pumped his seed up into me.
The only problem was that with having my own cock, being squashed
between our bodies, I came too, smearing my come all up between our
chests. A lot there was too, but Alfred didn't seem to mind as we kissed,
both having had our orgasm, his eyes shining brightly. We couldn't help but
laugh at the rude noise that our coming unstuck made as I lifted myself up
off of his still hard prick.
Using the water in the bowl from which we had previously washed
ourselves, I washed his cock that was now starting to deflate and the mess
from both our chests before drying us and then getting into bed to kiss and
cuddle before going to sleep.
We both awoke early next morning, both of us sporting an upright hard
cock which we used on each other, and it was glorious to have his hardness
once again soothe my insides as he ploughed the field that you like sowing
your seed in. I gave out the cry that you've heard that I give when a
throbbing organ is pulled out, that lovely fucking tool that has given me
the pleasure of being inside me.
I quickly got off the bed and washed him before getting back and in
between his legs as he presented his backside for me to give him the same
pleasure that I had received. What bliss to feel the head of my cock being
compressed as it starts to enter that tight orifice, holding his hips as I
push forward until I'm fully inside and can feel the internal body heat all
round my throbbing cock.
He'd given out a gasp at my entry and I then started to croon as I
slowly moved myself back and forth as I fucked him. His waist is slightly
narrower than yours and made him give out a shiver as I ran my fingernails
along both sides as we fucked. I still had you in my thoughts as I did
this, but I couldn't make the pleasure last any longer as I soon felt
myself beginning my orgasm and began to ram myself harder into him as I
pulled his hips back towards my forward thrusts.
I was grunting and he was groaning as I'm sure he felt my seed splashing
his insides as I came, droplets of my sweat falling onto his lower back as
I leaned over him. We were both breathing rather heavily as I came to a
stop and he then gave out a cry as I pulled myself out of the lovely hot
interior.
I next got off the bed and washed myself before getting back and into
his open arms for us to kiss and he held me tight as he thanked me for a
wonderful fuck. Well we thanked each other as we kissed and stroked our
bodies, especially our wilted dicks.
We couldn't stay in bed too long for we had a coach to catch, so we
parted and got washed and dressed before going down for our breakfast.
This wasn't what I expected! Nothing like what we would normally have
for this meal. A few crescent shaped pastries that they called croissants
that I saw some other people dunking them into their coffee.
But Albert, bless him, managed to secure us a couple of boiled eggs but
that was all which we washed down with a very inferior quality of coffee.
I'm just managing to finish this letter while eating so that I can get
it posted to you for we will be leaving this inn very soon now. So with
lots of love and kisses I send to you till my next letter.
With fondest love,
Charles
Mr. Henry Forbes, Le Aigle
24, Deptford Road, Reims
Greenwich, France
London. 13th May 1879
My dear Henry,
Just a short one page letter to let you know that we are now well into
France as you can see from the inn that Charles and I are staying for the
night.
I must thank you too for the choice of travelling companion for me for
Charles is as good in bed as you are, and is seeing to my needs with much
pleasure being derived from the both of us in our nightly forays into each
other's field.
This is our third stop at a coaching inn and somewhat disappointing in
the quality of food that we have to eat and hope that when we are in
Switzerland that the fare is better than we've had so far.
My next letter will be from Baden, so till then my dearest Henry,
Love,
Albert
Mr. Henry Forbes, Le Aigle
24, Deptford Road, Reims
Greenwich, France
London. 13th May 1879
Dearest Henry,
Just a short letter as no doubt that is what Albert is doing at the same
time. I must thank you again for letting me travel with him.
We stayed at an indifferent inn in Calais, called the Le Cygne Royal,
that's the Royal Swan in English. Then another called the Le Moulin Courant
in Cambrai, which in English is known as The Mill Stream. This one is
called The Eagle, and right glad that we are now out of the coach, for this
last stretch was horrendous. The roads here are much worse than those of
England, ruts and pot-holes galore, thank heavens for a bed. (I couldn't
help but snigger when I wrote that last word.)
For it's what I look forward to after all day rocking and rolling about
in the damn four wheeled contraption. I wouldn't like to travel like this
without such a companion as Albert. It's lovely to get into bed with both
of us naked and see that he's fully aroused, throbbing away, and it's a
sight to behold after a day in that coach.
I just couldn't resist to take the head of his cock into my mouth to
suck and chew on and have that wonderful nectar of his, flood my mouth when
he came. Then to have him do the same to me! It was wonderful.
It took an hour before he was up and hard again to fuck me with that
wonderful tool of his and I positively drooled when he held my hips tight
in his hands as I felt the head slide into me to be followed by the
pulsating shaft. Shaft is the right word for he shafted me beautifully and
gave me the same thrill that you do.
So we will soon be going to bed here and we both will have the pleasure
of fucking and sucking each other again and revelling in throes of having
our mutual coupling together. Then in the morning, we will do the same
again. How lovely!
But I must finish now as I can see that he is ready to go to bed, which
I'm not averse to. So till my next letter,
Loving you always, Charles
Mr. Henry Forbes, Le Aigle
24, Deptford Road, Reims
Greenwich, France
London. 13th May 1879
My dearest Henry,
We are now well on our way and I've found that Charles is a
delightful companion and most accommodating, especially in bed at night. We
both enjoy entering the accommodation that we each have with the mutual
loathing at leaving such a hot and tight place that has been such a
pleasure.
He is so much like you in the fact that he almost weeps when I withdraw,
having given him what he describes as the most wonderful experience of his
life. I must confess that I too almost weep when he leaves my body after
the thrill of having him have me in the same fashion.
During the day, travelling in the close confines of the coach, being
bounced about most of the time, tends to give me an erection and it is only
the presence of other passengers that stops me from taking him there and
then. He has such a lovely smile and he really turns me on when he does so
and gives his lips a caress with his tongue. He quite often teases me by
opening his mouth to waggle his tongue at me and giving a sucking
expression that gives me the urge to stick my prick in it and have him suck
on me.
Mind you, I also want to have his in my mouth too and it is a blessed
relief when we stop for the night for me to be able to do just that when we
repair to our bed chamber for the night. He is at this moment, sitting
opposite me at the table, writing to you at the same time and I've got a
massive erection inside my trousers. I wonder if he's in the same state as
me. Oh ho! He's just giving me that secret kind of smile now so I think he
is, and I can feel his foot rubbing my shin.
So I'll close now for I really am needing the relief as I'm now sure he
is in the same state that I am. I will write again from the next stop.
All my love and kisses I send with this letter,
Yours in life,
Albert
Mr. Henry Forbes, Le Cheval Noir
24, Deptford Road, Chaumont
Greenwich, France
London. 14th May 1879
My dearest Henry,
What a lovely night we had at our last stop. We had both finished our
letters to you and left them to be sent by post before retiring to our
room. I was right in the fact that he was wanting me as much as I wanted
him.
It was almost indecent at the speed and way we took our clothes off to
be naked and show each other our desire in the fact of our obvious
erections bouncing about in the haste of getting onto the bed. They clashed
together and got squashed as we went into an embrace to kiss and move our
lower bodies together, and feeling the need of us both, we quickly broke
apart and he turned himself round on the bed.
It's lovely to once again be lying on my side and see the hard erect
cock before my eyes and run my hand up the smooth and hard shaft before
grasping it tight in my fist and moving that soft and smooth skin up and
down over the solid bar of flesh.
There's little difference between his cock and yours, though I would
rather it had been yours there that I was holding, squeezing it to see the
eye wink at me before taking it into my mouth. He gave out a groan before I
had his hot mouth take in the head of my cock and begin to suck and tongue
mine the same way as I was doing to his.
What joy it is to have it there, running my tongue round the bare hard
flesh and making him squirm when I tease the G string of the foreskin. Mind
you, I was getting the same pleasure in return as we both moved our hands
over the lovely cock, feeling the throb of his pulse as I sucked and gently
chewed on him.
But it didn't last long for we both needed the release and were soon
both pumping our hands and glory of glories, to feel his seed start to come
up the inside tube of his cock and erupt into my mouth. I was doing the
same, slightly bucking my hips as I came in his mouth. Both of us shooting
out our semen in short bursts until our mouths were full of the nectar that
only a male can produce.
Both of us were experienced enough to be able to swallow this coming
without letting go of the head and could then still suck out what residue
was still left inside before licking all over the exposed head and then
nibble up and down the wonderful shaft before the wilting process which
enables us then to be able to take the whole cock into our mouths to gently
chew and tease with our teeth.
This we did upon reaching our room for that night, but such had been our
need for each other that we did this before dinner. It was with reluctance
that we parted and got dressed to go down for our evening meal. But like
the other stops, it was rather an indifferent fare that was on offer and I
do hope that the quality of meals in Baden, our destination, are of a
better standard than these coaching houses.
I think it is only the wines that they produce make the meals edible,
washing down the indifferent meat and almost raw vegetables. If fact, we
have found that this different food creates wind, which is rather
embarrassing when one of us passes wind in a fart when you are just about
to stick your dick in where it comes from.
In spite of that, it's lovely to see the naked body there before me on a
bed, knees apart, waiting for me to move in behind and put myself into
him. Mind you, you know that I'd rather be on the receiving end, having you
or Albert now, putting themselves into me and giving me the thrill of once
again having a throbbing organ giving me that lovely internal massage and
to then feel the seed coating my canal.
What a thrill that is, having a pair of hands holding me firm as my hips
are pulled back onto the thrusting organ that is smoothly moving backwards
and forwards inside me. The only downside is when it is pulled out. Feeling
the loss and really wanting it shoved back in again.
Bloody hell! It's made me really randy writing this and I can't wait to
get to bed and once again have the pleasure of fucking Albert and having
him fuck me, so I'll close now and write again from our next stop.
Our love we send you,
Charles
Mr. Henry Forbes, Le Coq d' Or
24, Deptford Road, Belfort
Greenwich, France
London. 15th May 1879
Dear Henry,
Thank God that this is our last stop in France! I just hope that the
food is better in Baden, our final stop. It is only the thought of the
nights that keeps me going. Going to bed with Albert!
This whole journey would have been a nightmare if there wasn't Albert
there every night for me. I...I... it's not something I should really say
to you my love, but I find that I am also falling in love with him.
I'm sorry Henry, but I must speak what I truly feel. I know that the two
of you in the past have been lovers, and may still be, but can't I too love
another without losing your love? I beg you to forgive me for saying this
in a letter for I would rather have spoken to you face to face.
My mind has been in a turmoil since last night when...when I said the
words of love to Albert. He kissed me with a smile but didn't say yea or
nay to my declaration and I am now in a quandary as to whether he returns
this love that I'm now feeling for him. I want him to love me as you love
me and hope that this love I am now feeling you will understand and not
cast me aside.
Surely you, we, can share this love, can't we?
Oh how I wish you could be with us for me to say this to your face with
you and Albert together and, and maybe, we could go to bed together to
prove that I still love you as well as loving Albert.
That would be heaven to have the two men I love either side of me, to
kiss, fondle and have them both make love to me in our fashion. Then for me
to show my love to the both of you.
Oh my dearest Henry. I can't write much more for my eyes are full of
tears and cannot see the paper I'm writing on so I'll close now and write
again in a few days time when we've settled in Baden.
Please, please Henry. Forgive me and say that you understand. With love
and the hope that you do.
Your ever loving,
Charles