Date: Thu, 16 Sep 1999 02:25:41 GMT
From: Joe Camp <idc90@hotmail.com>
Subject: Hadrian 17

My Hadrian
Part 17
By Joe Camp
      idc90@hotmail.com

WARNING: This story contains vivid descriptions of sexual
acts between boys and with men and boys.  The following
story is a work of fiction.  It is a fantasy. Caesar Hadrian
and Antinous are well documented historical figures, as
is their relationship as lovers. Scholars disagree on
certain facts concerning Hadrian and Antinous. Few disagree
as to their relationship. This story is Fiction, but the
author has tried to keep it to what would be reasonable
for beliefs held at that time. Please read the preface for
more information on the subject.  The preface also includes
a glossary of special words used in the story.

This story contains sex between a boy and a man. While
these acts were acceptable by social standards 1860 years
ago, today, they are not. The author does not encourage
or condone sex between adults and children.

  If you are underage, or reading about homosexual acts
between boys or by a man and a boy offends you; find
something else, and delete this file. Most historians
agree the relationship started before Antinous was 13,
probably sometime around age 11 or 12, and continued to
his death, in his late teens or early twenties.  It is
known that Antinous drowned in the Nile. It is debated
if it was a sacrifice or an accident.

  The author wishes to thank and acknowledge the help of
Ronald Staley, in his efforts to keep the general tone of
the story, historically accurate.

The author retains the copyright of this story.  Placing this
story on a web site without the authors permission is a
violation of that copyright.

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My Hadrian
Part 17




  I was humping my butt in time with my Hadrian when he had to
speed up. Faster the big head of his dick scraped across the
home of the pleasure gods. Faster it was pushed back in. My
erastes gave that grunt he does before the gods touch. I had to
scream my thanks to the gods as my seed was once again pumping
out my dick as my lover's life force splashed into me.

  We didn't get to see all of Hispania the Emperor had planned on
touring. Hadrian was called away to war. The barbaric  Moors
were attacking Roman towns and villages in North Africa. I
pleaded with my erastes to let me go with him! He refused. Even
after I reminded him he had gone to war with his uncle when he
was only 17. I had to return to Rome with Empress Sabina's
party.  I stood at the side of the road waving and wanting to cry
as I watched my erastes march off to war at the head of the army.

  The Empress and I were very good friends, and we enjoyed each
others company as we traveled back to Rome. Sabina joined me in
my daily prayers to all the gods, for the safe return of our Hadrian.

  My erastes had been gone two months, and I missed him so
much. I wondered how the other eromenos' had stood his being
gone for years at a time. Only Caius, Paulus, and I were left.
Paulus would be leaving us soon. I had expected Caius to become
a man first, but I guess you can't go by the size of his dick.

  As we would play at night, I could almost imagine Caius was my
Hadrian. His cock filled me almost as much as my erastes. Yes, I
could almost imagine it was my Hadrian making love to me.
Almost, but just almost.

  I fell to my knees and blessed each of the gods giving thanks
the day we heard Hadrian would soon be home. It took Emperor Hadrian
only three months to put down the rebellion.

  He captured and executed Hishas Ridadi, the leader of the
barbaric rebel Moors. The Moors are Arabs who are a nomadic
people living in the desert areas of North Africa with their wives,
children, camels and donkeys. They can't be controlled as they
have wandered the desert for hundreds of years, but at least
Hadrian had put the fear of Rome into them. I doubt they well
attack another Roman town.

  The other eromenos' and I were not far from the Empress as we
watched the Emperor's triumphant entry into the city. The parade
seemed to last forever. It would have been wonderful if I hadn't
needed my arms around my Hadrian. We would just have to wait.

  Paulus and I made our way back to the palace to wait on our
erastes. Caius said he wanted to hang around a while longer, but
he would be back in plenty of time. We were sure of that! It
would be hours as the Emperor performed his duties and attended
the ceremonies.

  It was late in the evening when we received word we should go
ahead and have supper without our erastes. It was a subdued meal
we had, as all three of Hadrian's eromenos' wished he was there.
Only Caius really felt like talking as he told us of the God Jesus
he had been hearing about.

  There wasn't any play that night. We just had supper and retired
to our chambers. I was asleep when Stephen woke me to tell me
the Emperor was asking for me.

  I rushed to my erastes' chamber, and was wrapped in his arms as
I slid into bed. Hadrian was too tired for sex, but I was satisfied
just being held as I snuggled close against him.

  Stephen woke me just before dawn so I could slip back to my
own chambers. I was starting to rise as Hadrian's strong arm
wrapped around me and pulled me tight against him.

  He turned me on my side as he prepared my ass with oil. I had to
sigh as his huge cock that I had been missing started into me. Yes,
Caius is almost as big, but he will never be my Hadrian.

  My erastes was humping into me and I had to thank the gods for
returning him. Hadrian's hand came across me and wrapped
around my rigid cock as he kissed my neck and shoulders. I was
on top of Mount Olympus!

  The gods were very pleased as my Hadrian's cock went back
and forth across their home. The sky outside the window was
turning pink as my erastes pushed into me and I had to scream the
pleasure the gods sent flashing through my body.

  Hadrian was trying to catch my seed in his hand, but the way I
was jerking it was going all over the bed. I heard my erastes' hard
grunts as his life force was shot deep into me.

  We took a moment to get our breath back, before Hadrian
withdrew his soft cock from my hole. He licked what little of my
seed he had caught off his hand, before turning me on my back
and slurping my dick into his mouth.

  My cock got hard once more as Hadrian gave a few sucks on it.
He raised up and kissed my mouth before telling me he was sorry
we didn't have time to finish. He gave me a few pats on my hip,
telling me I best hurry.

  I rushed back to my own chamber, and didn't meet anyone in the
hallways but a few servants. I lay face down on my bed, savoring
the feel of my Hadrian's life force in my ass. I used my hand to
clamp my butt closed so I could keep him inside me as long as I
could.

  I know a man is supposed to impart his strength when his shoots
his seed into a boy. I don't know if that is true or not. I don't have
anywhere near the muscles my Hadrian has. I just know it makes
me all warm inside to have part of him in me.

  Our erastes was able to care for Paulus' and Caius' needs during
the day, so when he indicated I was to join him in his bed that
night, they just thought it was my turn.

  Just after my 17th birthday, we took another little trip. We got to
spend some time in Sicily again, but didn't get to see the sunrise
from the top of Mount Etna again. We spent a day in our "special
library," on the Isle of Capri,  before returning to Rome.

  By the time we returned, Paulus had become a man. It was
obvious that it wouldn't be long before Caius was one also. Caius
asked to speak to our erastes privately, and he spent a long time
with Hadrian.

  I didn't get to talk to Caius until after supper. Hadrian took
Paulus to his bed for his last night as a boy. I was going to
suggest to Caius we spend the night together. As we were walking
towards our chambers, he told me what he and Hadrian had
spoken about.

  Caius had become a Christian, and had asked to be released from
his vows. Our erastes had granted his request, and in the morning,
he would declare both Paulus and Caius men. I would be the last
eromenos.

  I stood at my doorway watching Caius as he entered his
chamber. I knew the next time I saw him, he would be a man. The
next morning, I hugged two new men goodbye, and watched as
they left the palace for the last time.

  It was only a few weeks later that Stephen found a hair on my
chest as he was bathing me. I was alone, so no one else saw it.
Stephen plucked it out for me. I knew then my time with Hadrian
was numbered. Plucking out the hairs would work for a while, but
not forever.

  I knew my erastes. He is the type of man that will always need
an eromenos. He may be in his 50's, but he is not an old man. I
couldn't help but notice every boy we met. I couldn't help but
watch how my Hadrian reacted to them, and judge how good an
eromenos they would be for my Hadrian. None of them could
love him as I love him.

  We were at my Hadrian's Villa at Tivoli. It was shortly after my
18th birthday that the Emperor was planning a banquet for Gaius
Diocles, the champion chariot race driver, to honor Gaius for his
prowess in chariot racing that has brought honor and glory upon
himself and Rome. In the 24 years he has been racing, Gaius has
won 1,462 of the 4,257 races he has been in. It is no wonder he is
a champion charioteer! Hadrian stressed it was only going to be a
state banquet, not an orgy. Gaius would be bringing his 14
year-old son Marius. Being a state banquet, togas would be the
proper dress.

  We greeted the guests in the dining chamber, and Gaius might be
a great chariot driver, but his speech was coarse and uninteresting.
His son wasn't any better. He was uneducated, and spoke as the
lowest class. I have seen many like him in the forums. Overbearing
and crude. A self assured street person that thought they were
smarter than anyone else. One that knew how to work the system,
but one who will never go anywhere.

  I was surprised at the interest my erastes was taking in the boy.
He was beautiful, but he had nothing to offer my Hadrian's mind!
He was everything I though my erastes didn't like in a boy. Was
my erastes losing interest in me? I know I won't be a boy much
longer! A few more years at the most if I'm lucky. Is he what
Hadrian wants in a new eromenos?

  The dinner seemed to last a lifetime as my Hadrian flirted with
the boy. It broke my heart when the Emperor asked his father if
the boy could spend the night with him. What father would say no
to the Emperor? The boy just looked at me and smirked! I hated
him!

  The Emperor didn't even wait until most of the guests were
gone before slipping out a side door with that boy Marius Diocles!
I wanted to cry as I went to my bed chamber. Stephen removed
my toga, and I lay on my bed brooding. Why was my Hadrian so
taken with THIS boy? I could understand if he wasn't such low
class! The son of a freedman! I could even understand if it had
been an orgy! But this was supposed to be just a state banquet!

  I still don't know why I did it. I guess I was hurt and wanted to
hurt Hadrian. I didn't ask permission, I just went. I slipped on my
tunic and made my way to Gaius' bed. He was very pleased to
see me. He was about 35 then, and a strong man.

  He was all too happy to help me out of my tunic. His hands were
caressing my back and butt as we moved to his bed. His broad
chest isn't as hairy as my Hadrian's is. I kissed down his chest to
his cock. His eggs weren't as large as my erastes'. I licked them
until they started moving against his body. My tongue lapped his
hard cock as he groaned. Not as large as my Hadrian's but quite
sufficient. I licked the dark red head of his dick as he moaned
under me. He was ready.

  I quickly oiled his dick, and swiped some up my ass. I lay face
down on the bed as he mounted me. Of course, he had no trouble
as his cock slipped inside my channel even though he nudged my
legs farther apart. He started slow, but soon was pumping into my
ass like he drives. Hard and fast. Over and over he pounded into
me as he used my butt for his pleasure.

  For a long time he silently jammed his hard rod into me. At last,
I felt him tense. Not a sound did he make as his life force was shot
into me. No sound at all, but for his heavy breathing. He sighed as
he took his softening cock from my hole. He rolled to my side and
closed his eyes, not even caring I hadn't received the touch of the
gods.

  I slipped out of his bed and put my tunic on. No "thank you" was
said as I went out the doorway. There had been no tenderness. No
caring. It was all nothing. It was all for nothing!

  What had I done? Why had I done it? I kept asking myself over
and over as I walked back to my bed chamber. What was I going
to tell my erastes? Never before had I cheated on my Hadrian. I
begged the gods to not let him find out. I love him too much to
hurt him this way. I'll accept the boy and be happy for my Hadrian
if he is what my erastes wants. I can even accept the boy being
Hadrian's favorite. "Just please don't let him send me away." I
begged the gods.

  What would I tell my lover? I knew there wasn't any way he
wouldn't know. At the least Gaius would thank the Emperor for
sending me to him. That had been what I was counting on when I
had been mad and wanting to hurt my love. Oh, I am so sorry! I
felt dirty and woke Stephen to give me a bath.

  I couldn't sleep that night. All night long I lay on my bed tossing
and turning. Trying to decide how to tell my erastes the terrible
thing I had done. Praying that he could forgive me. I pleaded with
every god I thought might help me. By morning, I still didn't know
how to tell him.

  As soon as it started getting light, I sent a message by Stephen.
I instructed him to leave a message with the Emperor's servant.
"Tell the Emperor as soon as he awakens, that I have to see my
erastes before he meets with Gaius." It seemed forever that I
waited on my Emperor to summon me to him. He entered my
chamber, and I couldn't look him in the face. I blurted out what I
had done, and I begged his forgiveness, vowing to never do
anything like that again.

  My Hadrian just opened his arms to me and I rushed to him. He
was kissing and petting me, as he guided me towards the bed. His
strong hands removed my tunic, as he kissed my body
everywhere. He sat me on the bed as he knelt in front of me. He
spread my legs open, then his tongue was licking my nuts. My
moan was full of love as my Hadrian sucked my cock into his hot
mouth. How could I have hurt someone that loves me that much?
It didn't take long for the gods to touch me. All the life force in
my nuts shot into my erastes' loving mouth as I sighed and told
him how much I love him.

As the Emperor was saying goodbye to Gaius, he was
thanked for sending me to his bed. The Emperor didn't even
look over at me as he smiled and told him he was welcome. The
Emperor thanked him for letting his son share his bed, and they
were gone. Except at the chariot races, I have never seen
either of them again. My erastes has never said one word of
rebuke to me about my actions that night.


Continued

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Thanks for reading,
Joe Camp
1999