Date: Sat, 29 Jan 2011 17:15:34 +0000
From: Michael Gouda <mikedg123@gmail.com>
Subject: Snapshots of War (Part 2)

*Snapshots of War*

*Michael Gouda*

*Part 2*

*Saturday 7th September 1940*

"Are my stockings straight, mum?" asked Adele Salter twisting round to try
to see down the back of her legs. She was preparing to go out. The Lewisham
Palais de Danse was her objective that evening. She wished she had a new
dress but the old blue one with the short puff sleeves would have to do.
"And tell William not to keep looking."

"I ain't looking," said William, outraged. "What would I want to look at
your legs for?"

"It's what sixteen year old boys want to look at all the time," said Adele
archly, "in my experience anyway." She was eighteen and knew everything.

"They're straight," said her mother turning to look from the sink.

"They're my last pair," complained Adele. "If I get a ladder in them, I
don't know what I'll do."

"You'll have to use gravy browning like Jean next door - and draw pencil
lines down the back."

"And all the dogs in the neighbourhood will follow you round to lick it
off," added her brother.

Theresa Salter laughed and looked from one of her children to the other.
They both took after their father, the same dark, wavy hair over a broad
forehead, brown eyes and straight nose. But William had got her sensitive,
rather full mouth and high cheekbones. They made him look a little foreign.
She knew he had been teased at school and called 'Chinky'. Now of course he
had left and had managed to get himself a welding apprenticeship with the
railway. It would be a good job, once he had qualified, and surely the War
would be over before he was eighteen.

"Do you think Dad could get me some more stockings?"

Theresa sighed. Bert had been lucky to escape from Dunkirk, that crushing
defeat of the British Army which had been hailed something of a victory -
though how that could be, she couldn't understand. Britain stood alone, and
for a time after that bleak May, everyone feared invasion. But for some
reason Hitler hadn't attacked and gradually, after month succeeded month and
the German airplanes flying through the summer skies, had been attacked and
shot down by Spitfires and Hurricanes, fears declined. Life got back to
normal - or at least as normal as it could be with the shortages. They made
do.

"Don't be daft. What makes you think your Dad can get stockings? He's in his
camp somewhere down South. Shouldn't think they sell stockings in the
NAAFI."

"Have you got any lipstick I could borrow?" asked Adele, peering at her
reflection in the mirror over the fireplace,

Her mother shook her head and Adele sighed. "Oh well. It'll have to be a
liquorice again." She rummaged in the paper bag for a red-coated sweet,
licked it, and rubbed it on her lips.

William laughed. "At least you'll taste all right when you get kissed."

"I hope you won't allow any liberties," said her mother.

"Oh, mum," said Adele but she was smiling.

"I don't like you being out at night. Not with the blackouts and the air
raids and everything."

"How many air raids have there been recently? The only time those sirens go
off these days, it's been a practice."

"Old Adolf won't dare send his planes over any more," added William with the
air of an expert. "He's lost too many to our Spitfire and Hurricane pilots."

Theresa looked out of the window to where the sunlight threw long shadows
across the street. Granby Street, Deptford, East London was two long rows of
terraced workers' houses built in the previous century for dockers and their
families. Nothing special, dark red brick made darker by the soot from the
chimneys over the years, but cared-for and the net curtains in the windows
were mostly clean. Some of the houses even had bathrooms though the lav was
down the garden and not much fun when you had to go in the middle of the
night in winter time.

It had been a phenomenal summer with day after day of cloudless blue skies
so that the dogfights above had attracted audiences out into the streets to
cheer when a Messerschmitt went down with smoke curling from its fuselage,
and groan when a Spitfire or Hurricane had spiralled like a falling autumn
leaf.

The Prime Minister, Winston Churchill, 'Winnie', had told them over the
wireless that they had won 'the Battle of Britain' and, though that wasn't
quite the same as winning the war, it had given them a sense of confidence
that the bad times were past. However much of a struggle remained, at least,
in the words of the newspaper headlines, there was now 'a light at the end
of the tunnel'. People had started becoming a little complacent. So the wail
of the siren startled them. William went over to the window and stared
through the criss-crossed bands of sticky paper at the empty sky. Adele
sighed.

"Hope it won't be long," she said. "The tram won't be running if there's an
air raid on."

"You've got plenty of time," said her mother. "The Palais doesn't open till
seven." She paused, then added, "I've a good mind to come with you." She
patted her hair. How long was it since she had last had a perm?

"Oh, mum," said Adele, aghast.

"Why not? I can still dance the fox-trot and my quickstep has to be seen to
be believed."

There was a muffled crump in the distance and a lone ack-ack gun started
firing. William went out into the hall and opened the front door. They heard
his startled cry, "Fuckin' 'ell!"

Scandalised Theresa followed him out. "William," she shouted, "don't ever
let me hear . . ." Her voice died away as she saw what he had seen. Over the
roofs of the houses opposite, still in the distance but rapidly coming
closer, like flocks of birds, wave upon wave of aircraft approached. They
could see a line of them and then a gap, then another line, a gap, a line,
on and on to the endless horizon.

"Oh my God," she said and clutched at her heart. "Where are they going?"

They could see the first line and little black blobs falling from them,
bombs dropping onto the docks to the north east of them: Surrey Commercial
Docks where timber and grain was stored; West India Docks, ivory and marble,
rubber and perfume; Millwall Docks, tea and fruit, chilled meat and tobacco;
Royal Victoria and Albert Docks, wool and wheat, every imaginable commodity
from all parts of the world. Then the line split, half going one way, half
the other as the black dots disappeared behind the houses, and the sound of
explosions echoed. Black billows of smoke rose over the roofs and the planes
came on.

"They're coming here," shrieked William and found he couldn't move.

Incendiary bombs fell in clusters, setting light to warehouses and domestic
dwellings alike so that sides of meat hanging from hooks and old ladies
knitting in their arm chairs were roasted with equal impartiality.

"Come indoors," screamed Theresa and dragged William back. Adele's scared
face peered round the doorway of the living room.

"Where can we go?"

"Cupboard under the stairs,"

They crouched in that tiny, claustrophobic space, with the inverted stairs
as their roof, holding hands and sharing with the electric Hoover, Theresa's
pride and joy, while the bombs whistled their song of destruction and
exploded with a roar of bestial laughter, while the very fabric of the house
shook and Theresa murmured those prayers she thought she had forgotten
decades before. William, the man of the house, white-lipped, controlled his
shivering and hoped he wasn't going to piss himself.

At ten minutes past six the All Clear sounded.

They emerged to find the window glass in the living room despite the
abundance of sticky tape, shattered and parts stabbing the opposite wall.
Theresa shuddered to think what someone being in there would have suffered.
The front door had been blown off its top hinge and hung at a strangely
surreal angle. A piece of wallpaper had been stripped with almost
mathematical regularity the full length of the hall.

Through the gap in the doorway they could see the lurid redness of the fires
all around them, feel the heat. Dust hung in the air and there was an
unnatural stillness and quietness everywhere.

It was suddenly broken by Adele despairing shriek. "My stockings!" Ladders
ran the full length of each one.

"At least we are alive," said Theresa comfortingly.

Two hours later the German Dornier and Heinkel bombers returned and this
time they stayed until dawn broke. It was the first night of what was to be
known as 'the Blitz' which was to last, without respite, night after night
for the next seven months.


*Thursday 14th November 1940*

Today was William's seventeenth birthday. In some ways he regretted telling
his work mates, for the most part middle-aged or, in William's eyes, old.
They had, of course, celebrated it in the customary way, sending him to the
stores for a left-handed screwdriver, a smooth piece of emery cloth - though
he'd actually balked at asking for a tin of striped paint.

It was all done in good spirits though, for they considered William 'their'
special lad. He was the only apprentice at the small Deptford Works and they
felt they had every right to tease him.

"I'll bet you're still a virgin," said Old Joe, the foreman, poking him in
the ribs.

William didn't answer. He knew what a virgin was, of course. At school a
friend had told him that girls had a sort of thin skin inside  them - you
know, 'down there' - which was broken when something was pushed into them -
like an erect cock.  To William it sounded unpleasant and painful - but he
couldn't understand how a bloke could be a virgin. Surely he hadn't got
anything to 'break' when he had his first sexual relations.

Perhaps it meant when you 'came'. He had done that certainly. The first time
at night after a very lurid dream in which he was rubbing himself against a
naked body. It was worrying because - though it had felt pleasant at the
time - afterwards it was as if he had pissed himself, and he was concerned
about what his mother would say if she found the evidence on the sheets.
Even more worrying was that the 'body' in the dream was that of a friend of
his at school - in fact the same boy who had told him about virgins.

Although his form teacher had warned him against what he called 'the
practice of self-abuse', William had swiftly discovered and enjoyed the
pleasures of masturbation. Did that constitute loss of virginity? In which
case he had certainly lost it - probably once or twice a day for the last
couple of years - and still, though he searched diligently, he saw no signs
of hairs growing in the palms of his hand, nor did his sight appear to be
deteriorating.

"What do you say we set him up with a prozzie from Kings Cross?" asked Joe
to the assembled gang, who chuckled appreciatively - more at William's blush
than the suggestion.

"The Paddington Green ones are better," said one middle-aged man, who looked
respectable enough to know better.

The conversation developed into the relative merits of the two red light
districts. William hoped they would forget about him.

"Or there's Fitzrovia in Soho," suggested a third.

"That's for queers," said Joe in a tone of great disgust. "They're
shirt-lifters as hang out there."

The hooter went and the workday was over - much to William's relief.

"Got to get home," he said. "Mum's expecting me."

A howl of derision met his innocent remark. "I mean," he said, "we're having
a party. She's made a cake."

"Jelly and ice cream?" asked someone.

"Probably jam 'tarts'," said another with a wealth of innuendo and trying to
return to the previous topic.

"Lots of girls, eh Bill?"

"I don't know," said William. "Expect so."

"Be good," said Joe, "and if you can't be good. . ."

". . . be careful," chorused the rest.

William was not actually expecting anyone exciting to his party. The
neighbours, Mr. and Mrs. Foster, James and Beth, would come of course and
Jean, whose husband had been killed in the Battle of Britain, from the other
side. Adele no doubt would have invited her special friend of the moment,
though who that was William didn't know - and didn't much care.

He, himself, had lost touch with most of his friends from school in the two
years since he had left so it looked as if it would be a small and very
select gathering. The only one he occasionally saw was Steven Briggs and
that was because he lived in the same road. 'Stringbean' they called him at
school because he was as tall and thin as a piece of string. William hadn't
liked him all that much. There was something supercilious and patronising
about the way Stringbean had looked down on everybody else in the class. It
hadn't done him much good, William thought. Although William hadn't seen him
for some time, he'd heard that Stringbean hadn't got an apprenticeship and
didn't seem to be doing anything in the work line - probably just waiting
for his call-up papers.

So it would be a small party, and anyway the air raids could be counted on
starting as soon as it got dark - 7.00 pm at the latest - and before then it
would be wise to be off to the shelter or at least to the Underground
station because, though smelly and noisy, with so many people crammed in
night after night, mum felt safer there.

William wondered whether Dad might have got a weekend pass and at the
thought quickened his step. In the end he was running down the street whose
terraces of two up and two downs were now punctuated by holes where
explosions and fires had ripped out the houses. Their bare carcasses, with
wallpaper and fireplaces stuck surrealistically on the remaining walls one
above the other, were open to the inquisitive gaze of every passer-by.

But Bert Salter, now actually made up to Corporal, had not been able to get
a weekend pass. Theresa, though, had provided as good a spread as the
shortages allowed. Somehow she had managed to get a couple of tins of pink
salmon which disguised the taste of the margarine in the sandwiches. Sugar
of course was scarce - almost impossible to buy as it had all to be
imported, the convoys running the risk of U-boats in the North Atlantic -
but the Ministry of Food recommended finely-grated carrot as sweetening in
cakes and puddings. No jam tarts though there was some jelly trifle which -
a great treat - contained tinned sliced peaches.

William wasn't expecting presents - well not from anyone but his mother - or
Adele if she was feeling in a good mood but the Fosters, the elderly couple
from next door, were already there when he got home and had a large square
box, wrapped in scarlet paper, for him. The wrapping, they explained, they
had had for some years and could William take it off very carefully as
they'd like it back. Inside was a wireless. He was thrilled. A wireless of
his own. He could put it in his bedroom and listen to the news. He could
also tune in to the newly-formed 'Forces program' which concentrated on
sport, variety and dance music, besides news bulletins, rather than the
stuffy content of the Home Service which his mother insisted on listening
to.

"Thank you," he said to them. "Thank you very much." His smile proved to
them how appreciative he was and the Fosters were touched.

"How's Bert?" asked Beth. He had always been a favourite with them and in
return Bert always asked after them in his letters home.

Jean, from next door the other side, bottle blonde and wearing slacks, gave
him a tie. It was silk and bright green and yellow stripes and William
couldn't help but think it had probably belonged to her late husband as
there was a slight mark on it, and although carefully ironed, looked as if
it might have been worn before.

Mum and Adele had got together - which probably meant that Adele had
contributed very little - but the overcoat was useful, what with winter
coming on and though it was a bit large, Mum said he would grow into it.
William rather hoped he had stopped growing; he was nearly six feet tall.

It was already approaching dusk so the party did not go on for long. They
ate the sandwiches and trifle - much complimented on by the Fosters - and
William blew out the seventeen candles and cut the cake. No icing
unfortunately but there was a layer of cream substitute and it tasted very
well. Then Theresa and Jean started getting a bit edgy so, loading up with
the usual paraphernalia of cushions - station platforms are hard on the
bones - blankets and thermos flasks, they set off for the Underground
Station. The Fosters said they were going to chance it and remain at home.

Aldwych and the Elephant and Castle were the best stations as they shut off
the electricity after the trains stopped at midnight so there was more room,
and hammocks could even be strung out across the lines. The West End though
was too far away so they made for the Elephant and Castle, even though that
was a good hour's walk.

As usual there was a queue though not too long and, by the time the sirens
started their usual nightly howl, the Salters were already inside, had
purchased their three ha'penny tickets and had commandeered a space for
themselves on the platform.

Theresa had brought a thermos flask of Camp coffee, that dark brown, bottled
stuff which didn't taste like coffee at all but had to be used as a
substitute. Not that they wanted to drink much, for the toilets got into a
dreadful state by the morning and it was no pleasure using them. It was
still too early to think about sleeping and anyway the trains were still
running, every ten minutes or so arriving with a roar and a blast of air
which did something to circulate the atmosphere of the station which was
already beginning to smell a bit fetid.

Some people down the platform tried to start a singsong but their efforts
were not that successful, groups of friends or relations preferring to chat
quietly amongst themselves - or even make new friends from their
neighbours.

Time passed. Trains drew in, discharged passengers, took up more and roared
off into the tunnel. More people arrived to find places to sit.

William was rather bored. He would have liked to walk around but knew that,
if he did so, he might lose his place. He wished he was at home listening to
his new wireless. The family next to them seemed to be occupied in bickering
with each other - much as he and Adele did.

A youngish man with dark hair walked down the area at the edge of the
platform, kept blank for bona fide travellers but he obviously wasn't one of
those for he seemed to be keeping a lookout for any spare space on the now
crowded platform.

As he passed he caught William's eye and, rather than just looking away,
held his glance until William, suddenly embarrassed, looked down. He
expected the man to walk on and was surprised when he saw a pair of shoes
standing next to him and, glancing up, saw the stranger, smiling, looking
down at him.

"Room for a small one?" he asked, the words sounding a little odd to
William's ear, clearly enunciated but stilted rather as if he might be
speaking a foreign language. The phrase was odd too. Usually they said 'Room
for a littl'un'. But the man was waiting and William moved aside to give him
room. He looked at his mother but she was busy chatting to Adele and Jean,
no doubt, about some 'women's matters'.

"Peter," said the man and held out his hand.

William felt surprised. People didn't shake hands like that, didn't
introduce themselves so soon, but the man had a pleasant smile - his upper
teeth had a gap in them as if he had lost one - so William took his hand and
muttered, "Bill".

Peter shook his hand, holding it just a little longer than seemed necessary.
It was warm and dry and didn't feel unpleasant at all. He sat down beside
William. There was very little room - William tried to move up even more -
but all the same their thighs touched in an intimate way. William wondered
whether to move away but he rather liked the touch and if this Peter didn't
object then why should he?

A train drew into the station and for a while it was impossible to talk. The
young man though continued watching William with an appraising look until he
felt a bit embarrassed.

At last the platform cleared again and the passengers either walked off or
found places to settle in between those already waiting. Peter had to move
even closer until William could feel the side of the young man's body,
shoulder, hip, thigh, running down the whole length of him.

"You're a fine-looking lad," said Peter. "I'm surprised they haven't already
snapped you up for the Forces."

"I'm seventeen," said William. "It's my birthday today."

"Many happy returns," said Peter. "You have received many presents?"

Again it sounded a rather odd way of asking but the man seemed genuinely
interested and William found himself talking about the wireless, his new
overcoat, his tie, and then explained that his father was in the Army and
hadn't been able to get leave otherwise he would no doubt have given him
something else.

"I understand," said Peter. "Do you live near here?"

"Deptford."

Theresa looked up from her chat and started distributing blankets and cups
of coffee. "Would your friend like one?" she asked and Peter smiled though
it was pretty obvious that he did not think much of the 'coffee' but was too
polite to say so.

People around were preparing to get as much sleep as they could. Of course
the lights never went out but they were dimmed and it was possible to
snooze. William moved around to try to find a better position. Peter must be
really uncomfortable, sitting as he was on the cold concrete.

"Would you like to share my cushions?" William asked and Peter with a smile,
moved even closer.

William felt he could hardly keep his blanket to himself so he spread it
over the two of them. It was warm and pleasant lying next to another human.
William had never in fact been in this position - well not that he could
remember - he must, he assumed have slept with his mother when he was young.

He could feel the young man's body wrapped round him so that fitted
together. He smelled nice, thought William and wished that he had had a bath
more recently though he didn't think his own body smelled unpleasant. He had
a curious feeling in his groin and realised that he was getting a hard, but
as he was facing away from Peter, this didn't really matter. He tried to
think it was because he was imagining a girl next to him but all he could
think of was the man's hard body, his flat stomach, the hair around his
genitals... His own erection grew.

He tensed when he suddenly felt a hand resting softly on his hip bone. Of
course, lying as they were, Peter would have to put his hand somewhere
but... William tried to think otherwise but he realised that he was wishing
the hand would come round a little further, over his pelvis, down between
his legs to where his erection stood.

Then it did. Gently the hand came round - it couldn't be chance, surely. No.
the hand was there, in his groin, feeling his cock, gasping hold of it.
William's heart beat thudded. He felt the man pull his body back until he
could feel between his arse cheeks, through the layers of his trouser and
underpants, a hardness pressing into him from the rear. He pushed himself
back into the hardness.

Then the hand was undoing his fly buttons, from the top, one, two, three,
four - and going inside, exploring the warmth, feeling a way through the
slit in his underpants until it took hold of his cock.

William gasped. His eyes opened to make sure that no one was watching but
his mother and sister and Jean, though so close, were cocooned in their own
blankets.

The hand, warm, dry, gentle, grasped him, started rubbing gently, stopped,
cradled his testicles, felt underneath them, stroked gently, returned to his
cock, played with the hair around him, back to his cock, always back.
William could feel that special feeling building up. He knew he was about to
come.

"I'm . . I'm . . ," was all he could manage before he throbbed into an
orgasm, the spunk shooting into the man's hand and no doubt all over his own
trousers, the blanket, everywhere. William had never in his life experienced
such physical ecstasy. He feared that he would be unable to control a great
cry but, as nobody was staring at him, presumably he didn't actually make a
sound.

Afterwards he tried to turn over, to do something for Peter but heard a
whisper in his ear, "Not now, Bill. Perhaps there will be another time.
Perhaps you can come back to my flat and we can really make love."

Was that what it was, wondered William. Making love. Surely there must be
something more. There was a worry at the back of his mind. He tried to
rationalise it. Someone had wanked him off - surely that wasn't the end of
the world. He had enjoyed it - was that wrong? The act of coming was
pleasurable - he certainly knew that. Someone else doing the action had made
it more so. What was so worrying was that he had imagined the man - Peter's
body, thought what it would be like to be in his arms, naked, pressed front
to front - and this had made it more exciting.

Was he one of those 'pansies', 'nancy-boys' you occasionally heard of? But
surely they were effeminate people who wore their hair long and floppy,
flapped their wrists when they talked, posed with hands on hips - and he
wasn't like that. Nor was Peter. Quite the opposite!

Peter! He could feel his body lying against his back. Peter's soft breath on
his neck. Peter's arm was still holding around the waist, his hand against
his chest - safe from prying eyes under the concealing blanket.

William was confused, wondered whether he should draw away from the man but
the embrace was comforting. The day had been long and eventful.

He dozed.

He slept.

A long dreamless sleep.

In the morning Peter was gone and William's back felt chilled. The word was
passed down from the entrance that the All Clear had sounded and people
started, sleepily, to pack up their belongings and head for home - if these
still remained.

William folded his blanket, holding it against himself in case any marks
from last night were visible on his trousers or sports jacket.

The Salters and Jean from next door walked home through the streets some of
which had been 'altered' by the bombs. When they got back to Granby Street,
they found number 14, the Fosters' house, had been entirely destroyed, a
jagged hole between the walls of numbers 12 and 16. An ARP warden said that
two bodies had been dug out of the wreckage first thing that morning. He
said they would need some wooden scaffolding to prop up their walls.

The sad thought went through William's mind the Fosters would never be
needing that scarlet wrapping paper again.


   - End of Part 2