Date: Wed, 28 Sep 2011 15:36:57 +0200
From: Nicolas Wilson Wilson <nclswlsn@gmail.com>
Subject: Australia - Part 2

The following story contains graphic sexual language and actions
between males. If material of this nature offends you, or it is
illegal in your jurisdiction for you to view it, DO NOT READ any
further.
This is a work of fiction and any similarity between real people or
events is purely coincidental.
As this is fiction, safe sex practises are not always followed by the
characters, but should be by you.

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I didn't talk with Joshua at all for days even though we shared the
room. In the shower, I jerked off to the images of him fucking me but
I was still mad at him for betraying my trust like that.

Shortly after my dad had died, mom moved us from Boston's suburbs back
to her hometown Bunbury in Western Australia. I hated leaving all my
friends behind and uprooting to another country but moving in with
recently divorced Aunt Sara and my cousin Joshua, with whom I had to
share a room, made it worse. Joshua was a year younger than me and the
only cousin I had liked, really. We Skyped a few times every month
notwithstanding the 12 hour time difference but I never had to share
anything in my entire life, let alone a room. Now, as roommates, we
didn't talk at all as he and his best friend had blackmailed me into
having sex with them.

Joshua tried his best to make up with me. But what was there really to
say after he had told Ryan about me being gay and having me agree to
letting them fuck me in return for not telling everybody at school, a
new school for me since I just moved here a few weeks ago? I didn't
even need to play mad, I was deeply hurt by what he had done. Ryan had
forced me to get naked in front of them, get down on my knees and beg
them not to tell anybody while "volunteering" my hole to them. It was
humiliating and even though I quite enjoyed my first fuck in months, I
was rather glad that Ryan was away on vacation with his family. Almost
a week after it happened, Joshua and I were lying in bed and he
started to talk to me again. For the first time, I answered.

(Joshua) I'm so sorry, really.
(me) I don't care.
(Joshua) What do I need to do for you to forgive me? I tried
everything those past few days.
(me) You can't undo the past so shut up and let me fall asleep.

Unlike before, maybe because I said something in return, Joshua really
stopped to talk but I couldn't fall asleep. He could neither as I
heard him move in his bed every few minutes, trying my best not to do
the same so he'd realise I was awake like him. After a while, he got
out of bed and went into our bathroom. Even though he closed the door,
I heard he was crying. I felt a little bad for him but at the same
time, was happy he suffered. What neither Ryan or Joshua knew, I would
have happily let them fuck me any time. So I wasn't mad about that, I
was mad and hurt for getting humiliated, for having my trust violated.

After a few minutes, Joshua came out of the bathroom but instead of
getting back into his bed, he walked towards mine and I could make out
he was kneeling in front of my bed. He was still crying and started to
whisper.

(Joshua, whispering) I know you won't hear this but I need to tell you
even though you're asleep. I feel awful for what I have done and if I
could, I would undo it. I don't know if you feel the same, but the
worst thing I did was telling Ryan. I mean, the sex probably wasn't as
good for you as it was for Ryan and me, but you trusted me with a
secret and I didn't keep my mouth shut. (He wiped a few tears off his
face.) I feel horrible but I know you feel worse. I should have
stopped Ryan, I should have protected you from having him humiliate
you, from having him force both of us on you. I didn't and I'm much
more ashamed about that than you will ever know. You don't have any
friends here and even when you lived on the other side of the globe, I
felt like we were friends, I felt like we were more than just
relatives. (He wiped some more tears away.) And I ruined that. I
ruined that because I didn't stand up to my best friend, didn't stop
him from bullying you. I'm such a coward. I should have stopped him, I
should have told him that the first time I'll have sex with either a
girl or a boy should be out of love and respect and not because that
person had no other choice but to agree to it. I'm sorry, and for the
rest of my life I have to live with that.

Joshua started to weep and he placed his head on my bed. He cried
wholeheartedly and I couldn't take it anymore. I brushed through his
hair, trying to comfort him as he looked up in terror.

(me) Shhh.

My cousin put his head back down and while he continued to cry, I kept
stroking his head as he repeated how sorry he was. I was still mad and
hurt but at the same time, didn't want him to suffer anymore like I
had when he was in the bathroom. After a while, as he still wept like
a little baby, I moved back in my bed and pulled the sheets with me,
offering Joshua to get in. He didn't hesitate and immediately climbed
in. He started to say he was sorry again but I put my finger over his
lips as I held him closely, calming him down as we hugged until I fell
asleep after a while.

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Hope you liked part 2!
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