Date: Tue, 14 Apr 2015 15:30:55 +0000
From: Robert Me <winchesterbornbred@hotmail.co.uk>
Subject: My Best Friends Story/4

"Hello?"
"Hi Ryan, guess who?"
"Thought you would be in bed by now with some poor unfortunate sod!"
"Will be soon but I will tell you about him later. Ryan you need to sit
down as this will take ages, I'm in Manchester and have met Nathan and he
is with us now."
"NATHAN? US?"
"Yes, I told you I would tell you all about Lee and me later. You
listening?"
"Ok I wont say a word."

It took most of the time I was on the phone telling Ryan all that had
happened, Lee was brilliant and kept me topped up with wine but also did
me no favours when he came out of the shower, naked. He came to me and
kissed me on the head and I grabbed his nuts, then got serious again.
When I finished there was a long silence and I knew Ryan would be
struggling with all this and now I became worried he would tell me to
tell Nathan that he did not want to see him again. IF they did meet again
it would be very different and no guarantee of a kiss and make up.

"Thanks so much for all you have done for him Dave, he owes you big time.
All I can say is if he calls me tomorrow we can talk about it and see
where we go from there. I do still love him and it seemed he was like he
was when he came down for the funeral because he was stuck with this guy
and trying to protect me at the same time. I was so angry with him
because he did not come down straight away when mum was killed and
assumed he was too "busy." But there is something else that will take a
long time to get over and that was why didn't he get in touch when things
started to go wrong? WHY didn't he want to involve me although he must
have known I would do anything to help him? Where the fuck is the love in
that? Look you have done more than enough for Nathan and you need to get
back to your own life. Lets finish with this and I will talk to Nathan
tomorrow if he wants to call."

"Ryan, there is just one more thing to say and then you can think it
through and I wont be any more involved than you want me to be.
Nathan has gone through a bad time and he is full of guilt because of all
that's happened, he needs help and you are the only one who can give it
but first you have to accept he made mistakes but also controlled by that
shit and he could see no way out and you have to try to work through
that. I know you love him and I hope you will have him back and try to
get back some of that love you had before he left. I know time heals." I
listened to the silence knowing my friend was thinking hard.

"Thanks Dave you know I will try to figure this out..............Now
,lets change the subject and tell me about Lee."

Lee had come back with just shorts on and had laid down with his head on
my lap while I was talking to Ryan and I just stroked his chest and belly
and he got hard which made me have to concentrate like hell on what I was
saying. I told Ryan everything about us which cheered him up no end and
he wished us both good luck then hung up. Ryan got out every photo and
sketch he had taken and done of Nathan and stared at them, all night. As
he looked at them he went down memory lane and went through every year of
the eighteen years they were together and afterwards realised he was
smiling broadly.

By the time Nathan got up Lee had already gone to work and found me in
the kitchen eating breakfast.
"Morning Nathan, how did you sleep?"
"Morning David, good thanks, I didn't know how tired I was. Thanks again
for all you have done, without you I would still be stuck."
"I'm going out soon and Lee told me to tell you to use the phone for as
long as you want. He is only doing a return trip to London and we are
going out for the rest of the day, so you have plenty of time to talk to
Ryan."
"I'm shit scared, what the fuck do I say except keep saying sorry. He
wont like that anyway........Christ I buggered things up so badly."
"We all make mistakes and much worse than you did and then you got stuck
into something you had no control over. I spoke to Ryan for ages last
night and yes he is very upset that you did not contact him when things
started to go wrong and you will have to think about that when you talk
to him, I take it you will?"
"Yes and cant wait, its going to be a bit tense to start with I guess and
I will just have to accept what he says."
"Can I ask you one thing Nathan?"
"Course."
"Are you in love with Ryan still, or are you thinking he is your only
option? As far as I know he is all you have and even he could be thinking
that."
"Yes that's already gone through this thick head and its for me to prove
I'm not looking for an easy way out. I do love him and even more so when
I realised what I had given up. Do you know Ryan never told me he loved
me except when I was a kid and now I know why and that was because if he
told me, he may have thought I had no choice but to stay, he wanted me to
go and see a bit more of life and we know how bad that turned out."

I needed to get out and leave Nathan to be private and so after a quick
shower I left him to it and wished them both luck. I was off to meet Lee
and could not be more happy. We had made quiet love before he went and he
had taken my babies with him.

Nathan sat in front of the phone staring at it and in his house Ryan was
sat staring at his. But he had made one call already and that was to Drew
asking if he and Albert had an opening and would they take Nathan back.
"He maybe coming back home as it seems he is done in Manchester Drew."
"Of course we want him back, every bit as you do only in different ways
I'm sure!" Drew laughed at his joke and Ryan tried to join in.
"I will tell him that when he rings me later Drew and thanks, I'm sure he
will love to be back with you."
"And you dear man, and you." Ryan put the phone down wondering if indeed
Nathan would take the offer up but at the same time wondering about
himself and Nathan. At least he would have work, the rest was not at all
certain.
He then went to his computer and logged into his accounts and transferred
money to Nathan's account, money that he was holding for him from their
mothers estate.

Nathan was still sitting looking at the phone when it rang and nearly
jumped out of his skin.
"Hello?"
"Hi its David, have you rang Ryan yet?"
"No."
"I thought not. Do it now Nathan." The phone went dead. He got up and
looked at himself in the mirror and saw the reflection of a 21 year old
who had lost his way and was no where near the confident 18 year old he
had been when he was still at home with Ryan and his mum. He also knew
that if he didn't pick the phone up nothing would change either. He
fondled his Ruby birth stone and thought of all the times he had shared
with Ryan before and after his 14th birthday. He raised it to his lips
and for the millionth time kissed it. He picked the phone up.

He dialled Ryan's number and with his heart racing waited.
"Hello Nathan." Ryan knew it would be him.
"Hi, how are you?"
"Never been better, got loads of work and thinking of going to Singapore
and stay with David for some time, it seems Lee maybe there as well, hope
they have a good life together."
"Oh good, I'm glad every thing is good for you and thanks for every thing
you have done for me." That gave Ryan the excuse he was waiting for.
"ME? What help have I given you? It was David who helped you and got you
out of that shit, he did it all AND put money into your account. I have
as well but its not my money its part of your inheritance from mum. I
didn't do fuck all for you and the reason is you didn't tell me about the
shit you were in so there is no need to thank me is there."
"Ryan, please I'm so sorry for every thing, I fucked up and it destroyed
us. I will go now and......."
"No you wont, you just sit there and listen to me other wise I will come
up there and MAKE you listen."
"Ok."
"Right, I am going to assume you want to come back this way but tell me
now if I'm wrong and you have other plans."
"I do what to come back and no I don't have any plans." Ryan surprised
himself and punched the air with a fist.
"Ok, this is what I have done. Drew and Albert want you back so you have
a job to go to if you want it, I have transferred some of mum's money she
left us into your account and what with that and the money David took off
that guys account you have 50000 so you can find your own place when you
come back. This is your house as well as mine and I don't have a problem
you staying until you find your own home. I'm selling up soon and have
already had an offer which I'm going to take. You and I will have to look
at the furniture so we take what we want and so you should be able to
furnish your own place when you find one but it will have to be soon
because I will be out of here in about a month. I'm going to the cabin
and live there. How does that sound to you?" Nathan had no opinion except
to be disappointed, obviously Ryan was not looking to try to get back,
but then why should he? He also knew he was lucky, he had a job, money
and could afford to get his own place.
"I have no idea how to go about getting a place of my own, would you help
me?"
"Yes. When will you come here? I'm quite busy and have to go away next
week."
"Can I come later today if I can get a train soon?"
"Ok, let me know what time you will get in or maybe tomorrow would be
better. I will get your room ready and meet you at the station, just let
me know. I have to go now I'm already behind."
"Oh, sorry again, I'm nothing but trouble am I?"
"Come home and we can talk better when your here."
"Ok Ryan, I know you hate me for keep saying but I don't care, sorry."
"No worries, bye for now and see you later tonight or tomorrow, bye."
"Bye Ryan." He put the phone down and picked his mobile up and rang David
and told him all about what was said.
"I want to get the first train to London so I will be leaving and get a
taxi soon."
"Wait for me Nathan, I'm on my way now."

They stood on the platform waiting for the train, Nathan was already
nervous and he had over five hours to go before he would meet Ryan again.
He had sent a text telling him he would arrive in Southampton at 6pm and
got one back saying, "ok." Nathan wished he could have said more like,
"cant wait?" Ah well, what ever he was heading for it was better than
what he had just been rescued from.

"Christ David I'm shaking like a leaf."
"I bet you Ryan is as well." He showed David Ryan's reply, David looked
at it and laughed.
"I bet you he cant wait Nathan, he is just going through a period of
adjustment."
"That's bullshit!"
"I know but I tell you now it will work out well for both of you, just be
patient and let love take it's course, trust me."

The train pulled in and they cuddled in tight and Nathan thanked him and
asked him to thank Lee as well and he was gone. David stood there
watching the back of the train and as it went out of sight he sent his
love to both of them. He then went to the bar and waited for his love to
arrive knowing he could now concentrate on Lee without interruption at
last, they would have 10 more days together and Lee was off for 7 of them
starting that night.

Ryan stood on the platform and watched this beautiful man walking towards
him and once again thought of all that had passed between them but
dismissed it and could not help thinking of the guys who knew his body as
well as he did by now.

"Hello." They shook hands and Ryan led the way to his car and waited for
Nathan to put his two cases in the back.
"Good trip?"
"It was fine thanks and thank you for letting me stay."
"No problem, your room is ready, I have eaten but yours is in the cooker.
I have a couple of appointments in an hour and may not be back until
late."
"Ok, I wont get in your way, I promise." Nathan said very quietly. Ryan
heard it and ignored it at the same time.
"I have given myself two days off starting tomorrow so we can go out and
look for a flat for you and think I know a good area that you may like."
"Thank you." They drove the rest of the way in silence.

Nathan was in the kitchen eating and heard the front door close as Ryan
went out to get into the taxi. He finished eating all he could and washed
up and then wandered around the house remembering his life there and
the 18 years of happiness with his mum and Ryan. How things had changed
in the three years he had been away, mum gone and Ryan gone as well but
in a very different way, a Ryan he no longer recognised, indifferent and
distant.
"Bloody hell what's happened to me, every fucker was in control of me for
the past three years, now Ryan's doing it. I don't want my own flat I
want YOU Ryan!"

Then he thought again and even smiled!
"I'm going to get you back Mr Ryan Walsh, you don't now right now but I
am." He also knew he would have to go through some shit as well, but he
had already been through plenty of that but now he was thinking a bit
clearer.
"Ok, it will be tough but I'm not going to give in. Ryan you have your
own issues and I'm going to find out what they are and then look out!" He
went for his shower, watched a bit of tv, sitting in the same place as he
and Ryan had sat and cuddled in so many times, then went to bed and fell
asleep in the bed he had not slept in since he was 14, seven years ago.

Ryan meanwhile arrived at his first "appointment" which was the badminton
club and played six games loosing all of them. He then went for a shower
and dressed to go to the second "appointment." The taxi stopped outside
the Pink Broadway  sauna and he went in and got his locker key and towels
plus the three drinks tokens that were allowed. After the tokens had been
stamped with his locker number he went and got changed and went into the
lounge area with a gin and tonic and sat down watching a porn film. Three
drinks and two hours later he got dressed and ordered a taxi and arrived
back at midnight.

The next morning he was eating his breakfast when Nathan came in and said
good morning and smiled at Ryan. Ryan sort of smiled back and wished
Nathan a good morning as well.
"How did you sleep?"
"Fine thanks, you?"
"Yes, had a good night as it happens, I ended up at the Pink Broadway,
did you ever go there?"
"No and you know I didn't."
"Oh, must have forgotten." Ryan wasn't lying of course, but what he did
not mentioned was all he had were the three drinks and even though
several guys had tried to get him interested, he wasn't.
"Help yourself to what you want and have a look at these flats, the three
I have ticked are available straight away, the rents not bad either and I
know you can afford all of them." Ryan got up leaving Nathan to think
that getting Ryan back was indeed going to be hard work.

The flats were new and in a great location with a nice view over the
harbour and in fact Nathan liked all three of them even if he didn't want
to move in, still that's what Ryan wanted, so just go along with it. By
the early afternoon every thing had been signed and Nathan was handed the
keys to the first one they had viewed. He made up his mind when they were
in the second one when Ryan called him into the kitchen.
"See that roof there?" He pointed and Nathan had to get closed to Ryan so
he could see and for one brief moment they looked at one another just
inches away before Nathan thought he should look.
"The big roof?"
"Yes, its a gay pub, very handy for you, nice pub too."
"Thanks, I will remember it."

When they got back to the house Ryan was still in his officious mood and
told Nathan to select all the furniture and anything else he wanted to
move to his place.
"I expect you will need a double bed of course so you can have mum's or
mine, take your pick. When I move you can take anything else other wise I
will sell it and give you half. I will hire a van tomorrow and move your
stuff, right I'm off for swim, see you later."
"No sauna then?"
"Maybe, that alright with you? I'm sure you know what one looks like
inside." Nathan had no idea how he managed it but as soon as Ryan left he
burst out laughing!
"Oh Ryan you look so lovely when your pissed off!" He laughed again and
began to select his furniture and knew he would be taking Ryan's bed and
if for no other reason, just to piss him off even more, but of course it
held other special memories. Nathan was much happier because he was being
to understand what was bothering Ryan so much, but sorting it out would
only be after a big confrontation and hoped he could hold his own
emotions when it happened.
Nathan made himself busy and cooked a beef pie and the usual veg and
dished a plate up for Ryan after it was cooked but in all that time he
could not help wondering if Ryan had gone to the sauna and hoped he
hadn't.
He was sitting in his mothers chair when drop dead gorgeous came back. He
told him dinner was keeping hot.
"How was the sauna?"
"Didn't go."
"Didn't think so, I looked all over the place for you." Ryan had to turn
quickly so Nathan would not see him smile.

It took five hours to move everything and get it into the flat then after
that they had to go shopping for fridge, freezer, cooker, kitchen
stuff and all the hardware to keep the flat clean as well as a ton of
other stuff.
"Ryan?"
"What?"
"Why are you in such a hurry to get rid of me? You obviously don't want
me at home and if you wanted me to feel like shit and some sort of
parasite you have done a good job. Thanks for all you are doing now but
no thanks about the way you are doing it." There was a long silence and
Ryan pulled into the Supermarket car park and turned the engine off. He
looked at Nathan.
"And thank you for not calling me when you were in trouble or coming down
when I told you mum had died, you only just made the funeral. How do you
think I feel? Only by talking to my best friend about us and him
doing what he did is why you are not in the same shit now. Do you know I
could have done that as well believe it or not and definitely sooner. So,
thank YOU Nathan. I'll wait in the car, I'm sure you can manage to buy
food on your own."
"Can I stay one more night or do you want me to come back and pack and
get out tonight?"
"Its up to you, you still have your room and I have mum's bed, your
choice."
"Maybe its best I get out as soon as I can then you wont have to make an
excuse to go out and can stay in and be miserable on your own. I will be
SO happy being on my own in a strange place thinking I know the real
reason you turned from love to hate. I may have fucked up by not
contacting you but I fucked up lots more besides. One day even YOU might
fuck something up and find out what it feels like, its not nice." Nathan
got out of the car reasonably happy he was bringing this to a head but
hating it at the same time. This was going to be make or permanently
break.
Ryan sat there and thought it all over and one thing kept coming back at
what Nathan had said, "thinking I know the real reason you turned from
love to hate." Ryan knew damb well what the real reason was and that was
why he told Nathan he had gone to the sauna hoping he would be jealous of
him going with other guys as well. Nathan didn't know but Ryan was doing
his own fucking up and would need a friend to help him to get out of it.
That friend was making love to Lee at that very moment.

"Would you like to stay for coffee or are you in a hurry to get out of
the Leper colony?"
"No thanks its best you get settled in and may see you some other time."
Nathan's heart sank and found he could not now bring this to the head he
had hoped would happen, instead he handed a card he had bought in the
market.
"Take this and read it when you get home please." Ryan put it in a pocket
and said goodbye. Nathan watched him drive away wondering if that was the
last time he would see him. Both of them had a miserable evening in their
respective homes. But Ryan had Nathan's card and after something to eat
he sat in his mother's chair and opened it.

Someone once told me that to forgive is one of the biggest decisions and
most difficult you will ever face and only someone with compassion and
understanding can give it but they maybe hard to find.
That was mum, she had a load of both as we both know.
Nathan.

Ryan stared at those words for a long time and thought for even longer,
but when a month had passed Nathan assumed he had made yet another
mistake.

One of the positives in Nathan's life was work and he loved being back
with Drew and Albert as much as they loved having him back. They of
course knew that Ryan and Nathan were no more but did not mention it but
were itching to help if only they could. Drew was hoping one day he could
bring it up but really it was none of his or Albert's business. Oh to
hell with it!
"Any word from Ryan may I ask?"
"No Drew and I don't mind you asking. He is in Devon now as you know and
I assume moved on with his life as well."
"Such a shame, you deserve more. I'm not giving advise Nathan but if that
was me I would have confronted him by now." Drew advised.
"How do I do that, just go down there and pin him up against a wall and
kiss the shit out of him?"
"What a lovely thought! And a great idea, take any time off you
need." Nathan picked the phone up and dialled Ryan's number.
"Hello?" Nathan put the phone back.
"He's at home. Can I go please?"
"Go home and pack a bag first, you never know you might get invited to
stay."

Many thousands of miles away David read the email from Ryan and as there
was no mention of Nathan in it guessed it had all finished between them.
They had just got in from a night out and it was late and David had
checked his emails before taking Lee to bed.
"From all you told me about these two I'm betting your disappointed about
that David?" He looked at Lee and kissed him.
"Shall I get involved again Lee?"
"Why not, it cant make anything worse can it. I know I would." It was
Lee's turn to kiss David. David picked up the phone.
"Hello?"
"Hi fart ass how's it going?"
"Was that you just now Dave? My phone rang and no one there."
"No, you must have a ghost. How are you and Nathan?"
"I'm fine, no ghost and no Nathan."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm a fucking idiot.........and I don't deserve him. At least
that's what I have been telling myself."
"What are you going to do about it?"
"I have no fucking idea, just thought it best for him to find a new life
without me getting all jealous, not that he would give me reason to be if
we were back together."
"Ryan, for fucks sake call him, get him down to Devon, have a massive row
then go to bed, that's where Lee and I are going right now. Sort your
fucking self out. Good night." This time they both kissed and forgot
about Ryan being stupid as he had just admitted. Ryan phoned the workshop
and was smiling as he dialled.

"No Ryan he is not here, he has a couple of days off and going to see a
friend of his so he told me. Are you home for a while or rushing off
again?"
"No, got a lot to do here, aaaah....... did he say what friend? A new
one?"
"Gosh Ryan none of my business you must know that. Nathan is his own man
now, still not that happy of course and consumed with guilt poor lad, not
that he should have any, we are all human, even Albert."
"Yes of course, um..... say hi to him when he gets back, I'm coming your
way next week and will pop in if that's alright with you?"
"It will be good to see you again Ryan, let us know what day you are
coming just in case he wants to take the day off and go fishing again."
"Nathan fishing? He never did that."
"How do you know he doesn't? You don't know him any more and that's all
down to you, but I know what he would love to catch and its not a fucking
cod." Drew had just shot him with both barrels.

Nathan was getting closer and more uncertain at the same time. He stopped
at a café and got his phone out and rang Ryan's number but did not
connect it. He stuffed it back in his pocket and as he did, it rang. It
was Drew.
"Just to let you know Ryan has just called, he is at home and says hi to
you. Nathan go to him, have a massive row and then go to bed, oh and take
the week off my boy." Two minutes later Nathan was breaking the speed
limit.

As he approached the sharp bend that lead into the cabin there was a wide
turning point and he parked there and got out. He went through the open
gate and instead of going to the front of the cabin he went along the
back towards the swimming pool and when he peeked round the corner there
he was, Ryan sitting on the side with his back to him and his feet
dangling in the water. He was moving them back and forth with his head
down and his hands either side of him and seemed miles away. Suddenly he
got into the pool and swam as fast as he could up and back down
concentrating on his strokes and therefore did not see Nathan go to the
pool and sit down watching the magnificent sight of the man he loved so
much as the beauty of his body glided through the water.

"Your getting faster Ryan!" He called out. Ryan stopped and trod water as
he looked at Nathan in astonishment.
"Drew told me to come down and have a massive row with you and I'm ready
to start." Ryan had little choice and got out and sat three feet away
from Nathan.
"David told me the same thing. What are you doing here? Drew told me you
were seeing a friend today?"
"Yes and I'm sitting three feet away from him, but it seems we are not
even that anymore." Ryan didn't reply and so Nathan started, he hadn't
come all this way to say fuck all.

"I didn't come all this way to say fuck all, so I might as well say my
bit then you can tell me to piss off and I will believe me.

Right just listen. I don't know how many more times I have to admit I
made mistakes or how many times I have to say sorry I did and this is the
last time I will, so yes I made mistakes and I am VERY sorry but the
reality is they were made and will never go away but they can be
forgotten. But there is a bigger issue for you and THIS is why you are
what you are towards me. Its obvious I got involved with other guys
and its eating you up that I did. I, Mr Ryan Walsh am trying to forget my
mistakes but YOU wont let me, you are full of jealousy I got involved but
it was YOU who encouraged me to go in the first place and although you
were right, I fucking know you didn't really want me to go anymore than I
wanted too. NONE of this is your fault, it was mine alone. Ryan Walsh
believe me or not, I don't care anymore." He lied.  "But I tell you now I
would have been more than happy to stay with you and for us to carry on
being in love and spend my life with you without having to go anywhere to
find another life like you thought I should. I of course went along with
it which turned out to be my first mistake. I just need to say one more
thing Ryan and then I will go. I have NEVER stopped loving you, I STILL
love you and I will NEVER stop loving you. THERE! Another mistake!
Goodbye and have a lovely time at the saunas." Nathan looked at Ryan's
face and wished he could kiss him but got up instead and started to walk
away then stopped and turned round and looked at Ryan. "By the way
didn't it EVER accure to you that I was wondering who you were seeing
when I was away because I'm damb sure you didn't put it in storage. THREE
years and no sex? Like you Ryan I wondered every day who you were
sleeping with and don't tell me you weren't involved because I never knew
you to lie. There, that makes us both jealous doesn't it." He turned his
back and walked away his heart sinking further with every step and tears
falling down his cheeks.

"NATHAN! Don't go........., please?" Nathan went back and sat down and
stared at the water with his knees tucked up and his arms around them
praying like fuck. He waited knowing Ryan needed to sort his head out and
say the right thing.

"I know it was stupid but I went to the sauna hoping I would make you
jealous like I have been, nothing happened, I just had a few drinks and
came home. I was hoping you would be like me and your 100% right I was
jealous thinking about you and I know that was one of my own many
mistakes.
I was REALLY mad at you for not telling me you were in trouble but
neither of us can change that now or anything else as you said." He
stopped and knew he had to be honest. "Yes, you are right, I didn't put
it storage, sorry. When you got back home I made yet another mistake and
put distance between us and I'm very sorry about that as well but I also
want to put it right if you will let me. Nathan, I never stopped loving
you either and I still am but there is one big difference, I'm bloody
sure I am in fact more in love with you now than I was when we were
together." Nathan kept quite knowing there was more to come.
"Nathan can we try and forget and give ourselves another chance and get
to know one another again? At the very least meet up and see where we
go?"
"No."
"NO!?"
"No Ryan. We have both said we are still in love so why waste time in
finding out what we already know. Why cant we TRY and start where we left
off, ok it may take a bit of time and I'm not asking for us to go to bed
like we used to but, for me anyway, that's where I want to end up! Yes we
have a bit to make up and if we try hard enough we will get there."

"I love you Nathan, I fucking love you so much." Nathan stood up and got
Ryan to his feet and as soon as he was on them he shoved him into the
pool and a second later, still fully dressed he "bombed" in after him.
There was no fight this time and both stood there looking at each other.
Nathan's new determination to control things a bit took over.
"Either you kiss me now or I'm going to walk round the cabin like this."
For the first time in three years they wrapped arms around one another
and they would kiss for a very long time and as they did the memories of
those three lost years was at the beginning on the long road to forget
them.

Two hours later they were in a restaurant eating and talking about good
times and loving all of it. When they got back it was time for bed and as
neither of them mentioned sleeping arrangements, Nathan kissed Ryan
goodnight and went to the spare room. Ryan went to his and both laid
there unable to drop off and hoping the other would either call out for
one to join the other or stay there like that all fucking night. They
stayed like that, all fucking night.

As it turned out delaying the obvious was a huge turn on for both of them
as they went out for walks, shopping, going to a second hand dealer and
finding what Nathan was looking for, an old walnut wardrobe and other
wood and tools he would need to start making a cutlery cabinet, exactly
like the one he had sold to David and Ryan never got and never would, it
was on its way to Singapore. He would work on it while Ryan did his work
at the same time. Nathan worked on the porch which meant they could see
one another.

It was on the fourth day while they both worked a thought came into
Nathan's head and stopped working and looked at Ryan who was
concentrating hard and did not see Nathan come in and stand behind him.
He smiled as he felt Nathan's arms wrap around him, just like all those
years ago. He looked up and waited for the kiss which went on for some
time.
"I had better let you get on artist boy, but just need to say something
which you maybe thinking about. I don't need condoms, just something you
would like to know in case that's stopping anything." He kissed the top
of Ryan's head and went back out onto the porch. Ryan called out.
"Neither do I."

They both stopped working for the day and got dinner ready together and
shoved it in the oven to slow cook.
"Swim Nathan?"
"I need a shower first. See you in the pool." Fifteen minutes later
Nathan came out with a blanket and dropped it by the sunbeds.

It was a lovely warm afternoon and they both dived in and swam around for
a while and then Nathan went to Ryan and cuddled into him.
"We are going for a walk mister, come on." Ryan obediently followed
Nathan and they dried one another off after which Nathan picked the
blanket up, took Ryan by the hand and went into the wood and found their
favourite spot. He laid the blanket out and looked at Ryan.
"We are going back down memory lane Ryan, at least that's what I would
like us to do."
"And start new ones?" They came together and hung on tight. Nathan laid
down with Ryan on top with their arms around one another holding on tight
and engaged in the most profound way to show ones love to another,
kissed. That would lead to one other act which both of them had thought
of constantly since Nathan had arrived and they had come to their senses,
or to be more precise Ryan did.

As they kissed they both arrived at the point when they knew they
were ready and all Nathan said was, "Now." He raised his legs and put
them on Ryan's shoulders who then reintroduced his massively hard self
and entered Nathan and slowly stroked into him, all of it. As soon as he
was fully embedded into his man he lent down and they kissed as Ryan
stroked himself time and time again and both knowing this could not last
long, there were three missing years to catch up.

"Nathan....., Nathan!" Ryan pushed fully into him and held himself there
as he ejaculated time after time and calling out his love as he came.
Nathan had to hurry because if he didn't he would loose out and more or
less forced Ryan onto his back who had just enough strength to lift his
legs onto Nathan's shoulders and as soon as they were there he felt
Nathan enter him and after just four strokes, he too expelled huge loads
into the love of his life.
Nathan collapsed on top of Ryan who then put them both on their sides and
with arms and legs around one another gently kissed for a very......,very
long time. Bad memories had just been put back a hell of a long way and
as each day passed the further they got and would never get in the way of
a love that was now unbreakable.

                                                                               ???*******

Lee and I were at Changi airport in Singapore waiting for our friends to
come through and as soon as they did all four of us cuddled in and the
start of a two week holiday had begun.

Ryan came into sight looking great as usual in light blue shorts and pink
top. Nathan was in yellow shorts and a black top and looked like an
oversized wasp. On the front of his top in bold letters we read; "33-23.
S**t happens!"

Ryan and Nathan had been back together now for nearly a year. Lee and I
had smiled at their emails and during phone calls and we agreed it seemed
like the pair of them had not only forgotten the bad years but had
reverted to being 24 and 14 again! One who claimed to be a man and the
other a kid, but we were never sure who was who.

Nathan had set up his own workshop in the grounds of the cabin and was
doing quite well but the most important thing was when Ryan was at home
they were never more than a few yards away from one another and work was
often interrupted when one of them either went back into the cabin or the
other visiting the workshop. After an hour or so, both went back to work
and tried to concentrate!

We are off to find my car now, but you are staying here, I don't want to
be rude but you have a plane to catch. Goodbye and hope you are as happy
as Lee and I are and of course our two best friends. RYAN and NATHAN.

The End.