Date: Tue, 31 Dec 2002 05:11:55 -0800 (PST)
From: Waddie Greywolf <waddiebear@yahoo.com>
Subject: "Cabbage Patch Cowboy Part 22"

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CABBAGE PATCH COWBOY PART 22

Waddie was up before the sunrise the next morning packing the truck.  He
let his dad sleep in while he got things ready to head back to town. It
wasn't that long a drive.  The lake was less than twenty miles south of
town and the creek and river that ran through the area emptied into it.

"You're up awful early there, Cowboy."  His dad grumbled .  Waddie handed
him a cup of coffee and smiled sheepishly at him.

"Hope you don't mind, Dad, I need to go to church this morning. Want me to
cook you some breakfast?"

"No, let's stop by the diner on the way in and we can get breakfast there.
I wouldn't mind going to church this morning either.  Come'mer and give
your old man a kiss.  Nothing better in the morning than a kiss from your
boy.  Sets your heart for the whole day."  Waddie sat on the side of the
bed and gently kissed his dad.  Then hugged him.

"Thanks, Dad.  You always know the right words to say to make things
clearer and put things in perspective.  I love you, old man, more'n stars
in the sky."

"Don't know what all I said that was so Earth shakin' but I'll sure as hell
take credit for it, if'n you say so."

"I say so!  You're the finest man a kid could ever hope to have for a
dad. Me and Little Gip are two lucky men."

Buck got up, brushed his teeth, and gathered his stuff.  They locked up the
cabin and were on the road back into town just as the sun was creeping over
the horizon.  It was a spectacular sight; an omen to Waddie that he had
made the right decision.  His heart felt lighter than it had in a month or
more and he needed to thank his Creator for letting him see clearly.

Buck called as soon as they got to the diner.  Linda Sue had just gotten
up.  Little Gip was still at the Justin's and they were bringing him in for
church.  She was glad her men were home and going to church with her.

"You want me fix breakfast, Darlin'?"

"No, Hon.  We're here at the diner.  We're bringing you breakfast. Just put
on a pot of coffee."

Buck and Waddie ordered three breakfast to go and jumped back into the
truck to go home and have breakfast with Linda Sue.  She was a little
surprised they didn't eat at the diner.  Waddie kissed his mom, told her
they thought about it but would rather eat with a pretty lady instead of
them ugly ranchers.  Linda Sue was in heaven.

After breakfast Waddie unloaded the truck and put the fish away in the
freezer.  Talk was lively at breakfast and Linda Sue kept looking at her
husband for some clue as to what went on.  Buck would just smile.  It told
her he'd tell all when they were alone.  Linda Sue was so thrilled that
Waddie seemed to be back to his normal self.  He was loving and caring.  He
couldn't do enough for his mom.
 
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Waddie met Little Gip, Big Gip and his brothers before church.  They were
joined by the rest of the families including Morgan.  He now sat with the
Claymore/Lovejoy families.  Ma and Pa Lovejoy couldn't be happier.  Their
boy was finally turning around and becoming a major player in the
community.  He was becoming more respected everyday as an honest and fair
businessman.  His repair service had prospered and he was in the third year
of his Ford dealership and was doing better than anyone expected.

Gip could tell immediately there was a change in his brother and he was
pleased.  Even Little Gip could tell and hung on to his big brother like he
hadn't done in a while.  He sat in Waddie's lap all through church but
promptly went to sleep during the sermon.  Buck reached over and took him
from Waddie and held him for the rest of the service.

Waddie prayed and thanked God for the blessings he had given him and for
showing him the way.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

As it turned out the family decided to gather at the Justin's for Sunday
dinner. Everyone brought something so the Justins never had to foot the
total bill for entertaining such a crew because the family had grown.
Bubba and Carol Franz had three new mouths to feed.  The Dyers had Sissy
and the Claymore family had Little Gip.  Then there was usually the
preacher, his wife and two kids. And of course Morgan was a welcome
regular.  He brought as much or more than the rest of the family.
Depending on what Jimmy Sue and Linda Sue were going to cook for that
Sunday he'd order most of the meat for everyone and have it delivered to
the Justins by Friday afternoon.

The rest of the family would bring side dishes of all kinds and specialty
desserts the ladies liked to prepare for the kids.  Needless to say, no one
went away hungry and there was usually enough for a light supper later in
the evening.  Most every one made a day of it.

Jannie was there with Bubba and Carol.  She and Waddie spent a great deal
of time together but she knew something was bothering him as well but today
he seemed like the warm hearted concerned boyfriend he always was.

Bonnie Tyler was there and a couple of the other girls from school were
with Oatie and Clyde.  Later they all decided to walk down to the creek and
wade in the cool water.  They invited anyone that wanted to come along.  Of
course the younger kids wanted to go with the bigger kids.  They had no
problem with that.

Waddie had Sissy sitting on his shoulders and holding Jannie's hand with
his other they walked slowly behind the rest of the kids.  It was a lovely
warm summer afternoon.  They got to the water and the older kids watched
the younger ones so they didn't wade too deep nor slip and fall.  Everyone
had a good time.  They spread blankets in the shade and sat down with
towels to dry their feet before putting their boots or shoes back on.

Sissy and Little Gip crawled up on Big Gip and Bonnie's blanket and
promptly went to sleep in the cool of the shade.  Waddie and Jannie were
away from the rest leaning against a big cottonwood tree.
 
"You've finally worked out what's been bothering you, haven't you, Waddie?"
Jannie asked him quietly, playing with the hair on his chest.

"Yeah, Sweetheart, I have."  Waddie didn't elaborate.

"Did it have anything to do with me, Waddie?"  she asked shyly like she
didn't want to hear the answer.

"I was almost all about you, Jannie."  Waddie waded into this talk with
unsure footing.  Jannie could sense it, she knew the young man sitting next
to her so well.
 
"But I'm not the only one it was about, am I?"  She said quietly and looked
down at her hands.  Waddie shook his head `no.'

"Momma's talked to me a lot and I've asked Bubba for help.  Bubba loves me,
you and Gip so much, it's hard for him to talk to me about it but I've
gotten enough from Mom and him that I think I know what's been worrying
you.  You're sitting here trying to figure a way to tell me you've made a
decision and obviously it isn't in my favor or you would've all ready
blurted it out."

"I don't know so much about that.  I've tried to think about it from all
angles but to have a man that loves you as much as I do tell you it can't
be between the two of you because of his prior commitment to his brother
just may be in your favor."

"How could that be in my favor, Waddie?  I know what argument you're going
to put forth about men loving each other with no place for a woman but
wouldn't it depend on the woman?  Shouldn't she have some input to your
decision, especially since it affects her future as wells as your's?  We've
gone steady now for almost two years and you've never told me you love me.
Most girls my age would find that unsettling to say the least but I don't.
Why?  Because your every action tells me you love me and how much.  Ever
since we were kids and you and Gip stood up for me at your birthday party
I've loved you and Gip.

Over the years if there was the slightest hint that someone was going to
cause me harm you and Gip saw to it I wasn't harmed.  Who walked me home
everyday for a month, missed your ride on the bus and walked the twelve
miles out to your place.  Course you got a lot of rides from deputies that
just happened to be going out that way.  Do you think that was by accident?
I'd get home, call mom, and she'd dispatch a deputy to go pick you and Gip
up and take you home.

Every time we go out together and we make out a little I feel how much you
love me.  I know how hard it is for you not to go further and it isn't
because you don't want to either.  I can feel you getting erect in your
levis.  Then there's a healthy male scent that comes over you that drives
me nuts.  It trips every switch in my body and you know when it happens.
I've even climaxed a couple of times when we made love and I know you have,
too.  It's been as hard for me to be a good girl with you as well.  If you
weren't the way you are, I'd probably been pregnant a year ago.  So that
tells me how much you love me, too.

Besides that you have a greater love for my parents and your parents.  You
wouldn't do something that would bring shame to them or especially me.  I'm
not as strong as you are, Waddie.  You could've taken me a long while ago
and you know it.  Remember that night I brought a condom along and begged
you?  I had a devil of a time getting that condom."  Jannie giggled but
didn't elaborate.

"You told me then, if we decided to get married you wanted our wedding
night to be the first for both of us.  I didn't think you were trying to
put me off.  I knew it was because of who you are and how much you love me.
You still do."

"You're right, I do.  I love you that much.  You been thinking about this
for sometime, haven't you, Hon?"

"Of course, I've felt this coming for a good while.  I know how close you
and Gip have been all these years.  You're off rodeoing and winning
everything you enter.  I don't get to see you or him all that much but when
I do no one shows me as much love as you and he does.  When I'm with you,
Waddie, it's only me and you.  I know Gip is part of your soul but I also
know you're capable of great love for others too.  I guess what I want to
say to you is, no matter what you decide, don't shut me out.

This last year of high school is important to me, too.  As much as it's
gonna' be for you and Gip.  I love you, Waddie, and want to share this last
year with you and Gip.  Don't get some noble idea that to set me free will
leave me available to date other guys.  Lets face it, there's only two
other boys besides you , Gip, Clyde and Oatie.  While they're our friends
and always nice to me, I'm not interested in them.

Look, I know you and Gip are planning on going off to college after we
graduate.  I'm not.  Bubba and mom want me to.  Between them they have the
money set aside.  I just don't want to go to college.  Maybe later but I
want a couple of years to be around here, help momma and Bubba with the
kids and then make up my mind.  Talk to Gip.  Don't stop going steady with
me until we graduate, Waddie.

I'll talk to Gip if you want me to.  I don't care if we double every date
with Gip and Bonnie.  You'd better say something to your brother about
Bonnie, too.  She's in the same boat I'm in.  She can't talk about anything
else by Gip.  He's good to her.  He makes love to her but he doesn't try to
take advantage of her.  Lord know's we've shared some of our fantasies
about you two with each other.  Believe me, Bonnie is sharper than you
might think she is.  We've talked about the four of us.

"When we started to talk about this I didn't know what I was going to say.
I haven't said much of anything.  You pretty well understand my dilemma and
now I know how you feel.  I haven't talked to my brother yet but I will
this evening.  Dad made arrangements for Little Gip to stay with Quinton
and the Tates for this evening so I can have some time alone with him.  Gip
ain't up tight about nothing.  He knows my word to him is good but maybe we
can work something out until we graduate.  Who knows?  Maybe he'll have a
change of heart by the end of school.  If not, Jannie, I can't go off to
college and ask you to still go steady with me.  I wouldn't be dating any
other girls, you know that.  It would be a lie to you and a confusion to
Gip.  I won't do that to either of you."

"Okay, okay, I can understand but that's not what I'm asking for.  I know
as soon as you and Gip graduate you're going off rodeoing that summer
anyway.  I'll understand that will be the end.  It's like in another week
the four of you will be off for a month to Bandera rodeoing and I won't see
you again until a week before school starts.  You're good to write me
letters and I love you for that.  I read each one a dozen times.  Oh and by
the way, I've know since Judy died that Little Gip is your son."  Jannie
said cutting her eyes up to him with a smile. Waddie kind of did a double
take.

"I overheard mom and Bubba talking and confronted them.  They wouldn't lie
to me and swore me to secrecy.  I'd never say anything.  No one else in
school knows but your brothers and me.  Besides, I think the two of you
together are so damn cute.  You treat him differently than a brother would.
You treat him like he was your child.  Everyone sees it but Little Gip.  He
doesn't know how a big brother's suppose to treat his little brother.
Lord, you never argue with him. If he wants something of yours, you just
give it to him.  You're the first one he runs to when he's hurt or tired
and cranky.  You listen to him like he's the most important person in the
world, but, then, you listen to me the same way.

 I guess that's part of what I see and love in you.  I can see what a
wonderful husband you'd be,---but even better, what a great dad you'd be to
our children.  I want at least eight but I'll settle for six."  said Jannie
with a wicked grin.  Waddie roared with laughter.

"God, you'd wear this old cowboy out, Woman!"  they both laughed.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Waddie and Gip talked that night and Waddie reaffirmed his plea to his
brother to be his mate.  Gip cried in his big brothers arms and told him he
knew he'd never let him down and would gladly be his mate through life.
Waddie told Gip everything about his conversations with Buck and Jannie.
Gip was honest with Waddie.  He hadn't considered getting married and only
wanted Waddie but he would consider if Waddie wanted to marry Jannie.  He
would live alone and see Waddie when he could and share his kids with him.
After all, he felt Little Gip was as much his as Waddie's.  Waddie couldn't
argue that for a minute for it was only through the sex act with his
brother that the seed for Little Gip was produced.

They decided to leave well enough alone until after high school.  Gip
talked to Bonnie and told her they could stop going steady if she wanted
to.  He didn't want to lead her on.  She wouldn't hear of it and was as
firm as Jannie in her resolve to spend her last year of high school with
Gip.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

As time passed Gip and Waddie grew closer as mates but they also grew
closer to their dads. All four boys won enough prize money those years
rodeoing to buy themselves a new pickup with nice, self contained, cab over
campers.  Of course having your Uncle Morgan as the local Ford dealer they
got them for delivery cost over the sticker price.  They had big enough
engines to pull a trailer with a couple of ponies.  Every weekend during
the summer they were off rodeoing with their dads.  The month of August was
spent with the Crenshaw family and Dan, Don, Lyle and Buck would take a
vacation to go rodeo and be with their boys and the Crenshaws.  They had
some great times together.

 If they chose to stay in a motel at a rodeo, most times Dan and Buck would
bunk it in together and Gip and Waddie would be in another room.  Clyde
stayed sometimes with Oatie but Oatie loved his dad and took every
opportunity to sleep in his dad's arms.  Come to find out, Clyde was pretty
taken with his old man as well.  So it worked out all way around. Waddie
knew the time was near for what Buck and he started so many years
ago,---but stopped, knowing the time wasn't right.  Waddie discussed it
with Gip. Gip agreed and wanted it with his dad as much as Waddie wanted
Buck.

Waddie and Gip turned eighteen in July of that summer.  Buck and Dan
suspected they'd messed around with Gus, Bubba, Earl D., Billy Bob, and
probably Randy Crenshaw but they never questioned them. They knew the men
well and thought the world of them. Buck and Dan knew they wouldn't do
anything to harm their boys. Besides, they knew their boys well enough to
know they weren't innocent young boys.  They knew how to say `no' if they
weren't comfortable with a situation.  Buck and Dan laughed, knowing Waddie
and Gip, the older men were probably the one's seduced.

Their two main dads felt the boys needed their privacy.  They'd been tigers
about giving Buck and Dan their privacy over the years.  The men knew
neither of their boys would ever say a word to anyone about their
dads. Buck and Dan talked years earlier and Buck told Dan he had no
intentions of doing anything with his boy until he was eighteen and mature
enough to make that decision for himself. If it was something he and Waddie
still wanted then it would be considered.  Dan felt the same.

Buck and Dan were no dummies and knew the way their boys were sneaking side
glances at them.  The way they'd get instantly hard if their old man
touched them.  It was the summer of their senior year in high school.  They
had just graduated and would be going to college in the fall; only weeks
away.  Buck decided he and Waddie had waited long enough and Dan felt the
same about Gip.  Buck never thought Dan would do anything with Gip but he
was wrong.  So many years of being Buck, Lyle, Don and Quinton's buddy
taught Dan the importance of close physical, intimate contact with your
kid.  Lyle talked openly about him and Oatie.  Don finally admitted that he
and Clyde slept together regularly.

They came with the Crenshaws to the Austin rodeo almost every year.  This
year was no different.  They got two rooms for them and the boys except
Buck told Waddie he was bunk'n it in with him while in Austin.  Dan told
Gip the same thing.  Gip winked at Waddie.  They knew this was it.  It was
like a dream that God had let Waddie see a glimpse of years ago because it
happened just the way he imagined.  He and Buck got their stuff in the
room, his dad went to the door, locked it and slowly walked back to Waddie.
He looked into Waddie's eyes and smiled.  Buck put his arms around his son,
felt Waddie shiver with uncontrolled anticipation, and spoke softly.

"Now, where were we when we left off eight years ago, Son."

"Well, first of all we were covered in cow shit, then,---I think we were
about to kiss each other, and I was a' hoping and praying the Sheriff of
our county was gonna' fuck the b'jesus out a' his little buddy."  Waddie
and Buck laughed together.

"Still a' hoping, Son?"  Buck kissed Waddie behind the ear.

"More'n ever, Sheriff.  Fuck the rodeo, Dad!  Let's have our own rodeo
here, I'll give you a ride you won't forget."

"Hell, you ain't gonna' hold me to no eight second ride, are ya?"  asked
Buck. They laughed with each other.

Buck held Waddie at arms length and looked at his beauty.  His boy was
almost as tall as he was but considerably better built than his old man.
Waddie was in top physical condition and had the body of a young God.  Buck
was no slouch but he didn't take care of himself like he should.  Waddie
didn't give a fuck.  It was his old man.  He knew it was meant to be
between them all those years ago and so did Buck.

Waddie never stopped dreaming of having that closeness with his dad.  He
had all he wanted and more from his brother, Gip.  He was Gip's bonded
mate.  The boys began to look at the need for their dads as more than
animal lust, it became a right of passage for them.  They made a pact,
their dads didn't count in the scheme of their love.  They were very much a
part of their love and when and if the time came that their dads decided to
welcome them into manhood with physical intimacy they weren't going to say
`no.'  The problem was, they each wanted the other's dad as well.

They weren't going to push it.  They were going to settle for what their
dads felt comfortable with. Waddie was about to cross the threshold with
his old man and he was as anxious as school girl waiting for her first date
to the prom. It was almost the realization of a promise.  Not between his
dad and him but something higher.  It was a promise to share the cravings
of an animal, primal urge from an earlier time that was postponed,
invested, and now they could reap the harvest of dividends.

There was no hesitancy nor stumbling into this moment.  Waddie was an adult
and could make the choice to participate or not.  Buck had no doubt about
his son's choice.  Buck began to kiss Waddie gently on his mouth.  They
hadn't shared an intimate kiss like this in a long time.  Waddie called
them, `his old man's get hard' kisses.  Every time Buck kissed him on the
mouth he'd pop a boner. So would Buck. This time was no exception.

"I want this to be good between us, Son."

"Are you kidding?  How could it not be good between us.  I've been waiting
all these years to give it up to my old man, I sure as hell ain't gonna'
hold nothing back from him.  I want my old man to take all he needs, drink
his fill, fill his boy's tank, walk away and later when he smiles at me,
I'll know it's `cause I pleased him; I gave my best buddy one hell of a
ride."

"Am I still your best buddy, Cowboy?"

"No contest, Dad.  You always have been ever since you took a scared little
five year old kid who didn't want to live anymore because he didn't think
life was worth it, cared for him, believed in him, treated him like he was
your best buddy, and never stopped loving him all these years.  And you did
all that before you even knew I was your kid."

"You're grow'n up too damn fast, Cowboy.  What am I talk'n about?  Look at
`chu!  You're all ready grown up,---I just don't want to admit to it.  Here
you are graduated from high school, top of your class, you and Gip going
off to college in the fall.  I can't tell you enough how proud I am of you.

I learned you were my son after much pain and suffering on our parts; I
turned around twice and you're leaving me. It was only yesterday you became
my boy.  Eight short years weren't enough, Son.

I've never told you this and I'd never tell your mom, but late at night,
when I can't sleep, I lie there and grieve for those first ten years we
missed being together and I cry.  I know you were with me and Dan most of
the time; I should be grateful,---I am; it's just,---I want to go back and
do it all over again but this time do it right with no beatings nor abuse.
You, me and your mom, lovin' each other like we were meant to be from the
beginning.  Do you think Mr. Urial would give us a magic clock we could
move the hands back eighteen years?"

"I don't think I want to ask him, Dad.  I think of the miracle God gave us
by finally bringing us together.  I could've been adopted legally and you
probably never would've found me.  Here we are together, still loving each
other as much or maybe even more than before.  I'm so grateful to God and
Mr. Urial that he gave me these years with you and mom I can't fault them
by asking for more.

I wouldn't have made it if'n it hadn't been for your love.  I knew if I
just hung in there one day you'd be mine and I'd be your's.  For all I went
through, Dad, I'd go through it again in a minute to be with you and mom. I
love you that much.

Besides,---you've had Little Gip to make up for all the years you didn't
have me.  I see the way you look at him and hold him.  He's your little
buddy, too.  Little Gip is precious to you.  You relate to him like you use
to with me.  You never lie to him.  You never talk `at' him.  You talk with
him, treat him as an equal and you listen to him; plus, you spoil him
rotten!  Don't look at me that way!  You do!  You allow him to get away
with things you'd never allow the rest of us boys to get away with."

Buck threw back his head in laughter.

"It's a granddad's right!"  he whispered to Waddie, "Wait a minute!  I
spoil him?  What about you?  You don't treat him like a brother. You treat
him like he was your son.  You have since he was a baby.  You and the boys
took over his care.  Your mom had to beg you to let her take care of him.

At first she was hurt but I got her to see the humor of it.  The women in
our family told her she didn't know how lucky she was.  They should have
had such help with their kids.  The family laughs and giggles behind your
back at how loving and cute the two of you are together.

When Waddie's home, forget old Buck. It's big brother Waddie or big brother
Gip's lap he wants to be a' sittin' in.  Don't get me wrong, he couldn't
have a better big brother or dad for that matter.  You even call him `son'
half the time.  You can't say no to him sleeping with you.  He even sleeps
with you and Gip. It's gonna' rip his little heart out when you men go away
to college the end of this month."

"You can't fool me old man you love that boy every bit as much as you do
me."  chided Waddie with a big grin.

"I'll admit it! But, not the same way; although, sometimes it takes my
breath away when I see him and Bubba's kid Donny dressed in them rodeo
chaps you and Big Gip handed down to `em.  He looks for all the world like
you did at his age.  He has almost the same personality but he does things
his way.  You did, too.  I love him like a granddad and I love you like no
other, you are the only son I'll ever have, Waddie.  You've never fully
understood what that's meant to me these years with you.  You've
accomplished so much.  You're mom and I are s'damn proud of you, Son.  You
and Gip have won enough rodeo money to buy yourselves new pickups and money
enough to go to any damn college you want.  You've got the grades, too.

I guess what I'm trying to say is I never loved anyone as much as I do you,
Son.  It's like I told you that day we were covered in cow shit. `When the
time is right, you're old enough to make that decision for yourself, and
you still want to, then I'll be happy to take you.  Hell, it ain't like
it's something we ain't done before with others."  Buck had tears in his
eyes.  He reached to the back pocket of his levis and pulled out his hip
flask.  He opened it and handed it to his son.

"You're eighteen, now, Son.  You're a man. I know the laws say you can't
drink `til you're twenty-one but if'n you're old enough to die for your
country, as far as this Sheriff is concerned, you're old enough to drink.
Just don't never let me catch you drinkin' in my county `til you're
twenty-one less'n it's with me.  Understand?"

"Yes, Sir, Sheriff Claymore.  Thanks, Dad."  Waddie took a pull off the
small flask and his face turned bright red as the firey liquid went down
his throat.  Buck took a pull and laughed at his son's reaction.

"Damn!  It's sweet,... tastes good,... but it burns like a mother!"  Waddie
shook his head from side to side. "It's still medicinal though, right, Big
Chief?"

Buck smiled and took Waddie in his big arms again.  While Waddie's body was
in top shape, Buck's body was massive and he could still make Waddie feel
like his little boy.

"I've thought a lot about what I'd say to you if this night ever came.
It's finally here and the words seem unimportant now.  You're a man, now,
Waddie, able to make your own decisions.  In the eight years we've been
togther I ain't never had to scold nor punish you.  I've always trusted
you, but I want you to know one thing.  No matter how big you get nor how
high you climb, you'll always be that five year old little buddy I use to
carry up the stairs in my arms.

You'll always be that trusting, vulnerable, loving little ten year old I
laid down beside on that sandbar in the warm summer sun and fell asleep
with you in my arms after stealing countless kisses from you.  You'll
always be the strapping, tall, sure of himself, young cowpoke that ran all
over anyone with a rope along with his brother. I'm sorry, Son, but I can't
let those memories go.

The last couple of years watching you and Gip develop, I sometimes had a
twinge of jealousy towards Gip for sleeping with you, holding you close
like I use to when you were five and for a while after we got you home from
the hospital the last time.  Dan and I would come back some evenings after
being swimming in the creek with the four of you so horny we'd have to have
sex with each other twice.  It was all we could do to keep our hands off'n
you two.  The times we were working and you heard Dan and I laugh it was
from the way one of us was looking at your ass's as you were gettin' on a
pony or going up a ladder to the loft.  We'd get so damn horny.

And what can I say about the time you two made a love pig out of old
Quinton in the barn.  No man deserved that more'n Quinton did that day.
Dan and I still laugh our ass's off at Quinton today for that day. Tell you
one thing, though,---ain't a man alive loves you boys more'n old Quinton.

I was a little surprised, Dan wanted to be with his boy like us tonight.  I
told him why I needed to be alone with you tonight.  He told me he knew it
was coming and it's just as well because it was his cue to ask his boy if
he wanted that closeness with his dad.  He's come a long way understanding
about love.

The love between a woman and a man is different than the love a man has for
his buddy. That isn't as simple as it sounds.  Some folks say sharing
intimacy with another man is wrong.  Don't chu' ever believe them.  They're
the folks that are misguided and can't see God's greater purpose for
mankind.  The love two men have for each other only compliments the love
they have for their wives. It makes a man appreciate how his woman might
feel when he's having sex with her.  Don't ever forget that, Son.  You can
have both.

Buck gently kissed Waddie on the mouth.  It slowly turned into the kiss
they started eight years ago.  Waddie could recall the same excited, deep
craving need to share this with his dad.  When they finished the kiss,
Waddie laid his head on his dad's chest.

"You've always been my best buddy, Dad.  Don't never need no other buddy
but you, Buck." Waddie smiled knowing his dad remembered those words from
eight years ago.  Waddie continued, "Gip's my brother, my bonded mate, but
you, Dad,---you're my buddy."

"You wanna' get in there,---clean yourself?  Then come get me when you're
through and I'll shower with you."  Buck asked gently.  Waddie nodded,
grabbed his small bag, and headed for the shower.

Years ago, just after Waddie got out of the hospital for being raped by
Willie and his gang, Buck sat down with Gip and Waddie and told them about
sex and cleaning themselves for safety and hygiene.  If they were going to
have anal sex, make sure you're clean so you don't get hurt and it's
respectful to your partner.  Dr. Dyer told Waddie he wanted him to clean
himself with warm soapy water after using the bathroom to minimize the
chance of infection.  He had to do it several weeks.  Buck bought the boys
their own clean out equipment and quietly gave it to them.  Nothing more
was said.  He trusted his boys to do the right thing.
   
After a while the bathroom door opened and their stood Buck's magnificent
son in the glory of his youth.  He had the body of an athlete.  Buck
removed his clothes while Waddie was in the shower.  He lay on his back
across the bed.

Buck raised his left arm in a gesture for Waddie to join him.  Waddie had
dried himself pretty well so he would dampen the floor of the room.  He
crawled on the bed into his dad's waiting arms and Buck turned to him on
his side to hold him.  He reached down and grabbed himself a big ole
handful of cowboy butt and pull his boy closer to him.  Their dicks were
roaring hard and fighting each other for space between their bellies.

"We never could stay soft around each other, Dad."

"Don't I know it.  Hell, it's hard enough to keep from getting a roaring
boner when I'm rodeoing with you, you got your chaps on, and I'm a'
think'n, "Damn, my boy is one of the hottest rodeo cowboys I've ever seen.
Gip, too.  You can't know the number of times you and I've roped together
and I got a hard-on looking over at you."

"You too?"  they both broke up laughing.  Come'mon, Dad, get in the shower
with me.  Although you really don't have to.  You know how much I love your
smell."

"I'll leave it up to my boy, this is for him."  Buck stole a kiss and
Waddie stole one back.

"Hell, you all ready know the answer to that question.  I'll pamper my old
man afterwards then."  Waddie reached down and grabbed himself a big ole
handful of sheriff dick, "well, I'll be honest with you, too, old man, you
don't know how many times I've jacked off, my eyes closed, dream'n I was
looking up at you and having you take me.  I'll be lucky if I don't shoot
before you get it all the way in."  Waddie moved his face into Buck arm pit
and took a deep breath.

"Now I'm gonna' do something I've been ashamed to ask you for but you told
me a buddy don't need to be shy with his buddy."  Waddie didn't wait for
Buck to answer and started cleaning his pits with his tongue.  Buck had
this large pleased-with-his-boy smile on his face.  Waddie worked on it
until he couldn't get another bit of flavor.

He moved over to his dad's right arm pit and did the same with that.  When
he was finished he stole another kiss from is dad and ran his tongue around
Buck's teats.  He sucked on them getting good flavors from them. He moved
is tongue down to Buck's stomach where his shaft was laying.

Waddie licked all around his dad's dick and finally began to lick and clean
it.  He got in good under the foreskin of his dad and tasted the rich, full
goodness his dad had to offer.  The head of Buck's dick barely stuck out
from its sheath.

Waddie continued to run his tongue around under Buck's foreskin making sure
he got everything. His dad was squirming like a worm in hot ashes.  Waddie
withdrew his tongue and began to take as much of Buck's big cock down his
throat as he could.  He sucked on his dad's dick for a while until Buck
reached down and pulled Waddie back up to his arms.

Waddie excused himself and sprinted for the head.  He released the rest of
the water that became trapped inside him. He took a wash cloth and cleaned
himself well.  When he came back in the room his dad was up on his knees
with a tube of lubricant working his dick, getting ready.  He smiled at
Waddie.

"It's about time your old man took over.  Now lay yourself down here and
show me that pretty, little cowboy butt.  Waddie lay down with a big smile
of anticipation on his face. He raised his legs and held them so his dad
could have best access to his ass.  As anxious as he was, Buck leaned over
and kissed Waddie's tight little hole.

Buck took the lubricant and began to lube and relax his son's ass.  Buck
knew this was an important part of getting a man comfortable enough to take
his large cock. He especially wanted it to be as good for Waddie as it was
for him.  The surgeon, Dr. Black, that worked on Waddie was a genius.  He
put Waddie back together like he was brand new.  After a month of being
careful and cleaning himself he never had any trouble.

Buck started inserting lubricant into Waddie's hole.  Waddie was laying
back enjoying being touched and intimately probed by this huge man the
loved and treasured so much; his dad.  Buck was gentle and thorough.  He
kept stretching and applying more lubricant until he was satisfied his boy
was ready for insertion of his dick. Buck looked into Waddie's eyes.

"I know you were raped by Willie and his crew but you told me Mr. Urial
gave you back your virginity.  How'd he do that?"

"Don't know, Dad.  Maybe it was by providing me with the best surgeon in
the state at the time.  I've never had a problem after that."

"Who got your cherry?"

"You know who got it,---I promised him. I wasn't about to give it to no one
else first.  Son of a bitch made me wait `til the end of my freshman year
but Mr. Urial told him that would be all right."

"You never told me that?"

"You never asked me to save it for you, Dad?"

"Well, you couldn't have given it up to a better man.  He's the only big
brother you'll ever have.  You know he and I,---?"

"We have no secrets from each other, Dad.  I'm glad for both of you.  Ed
worships you."

"Pretty fond of him myself." allowed Buck

Waddie moaned and smiled at his dad as he felt Buck move from one finger to
two and then three.  Now, it felt like he had his four digits inside him
and he was beginning to insert his thumb.  Waddie knew better than to say
anything to his dad.  He trusted him. If his dad wanted to feel his fist in
his ass he would have it.

It was important to please and love his old man anyway he needed.  A little
loving sex was a far cry from the beatings he had to suffer under Morgan.
Best part was he got to make love to his old man and it wouldn't take a
damn month to recover.  However, he hoped his old man planned to fuck him
so silly it would take a couple of weeks to get the grin off his face.

Buck would hold his hand in Waddie and stretch his ass muscle as far as he
could then let off to massage and relax the muscle more.  He did that over
and over again until Waddie was about to climb the wall behind the bed.

"You do than one more damn time, Dad, and the party's all over.  I promise
you I'm about to shoot my load."

"Well, we can't have that.  I don't want you coming until your old man
tells you he's coming then let `er rip, Son.  If not then your old man's
gonna' fuck you `til you do.  We'll let you put your legs down for a minute
to relax; then I'll see if I can tame me down a right nice young bronc.
Once I get into the saddle, you gonna' try'n buck me off?"

"Oh hell, no!  You'll be damn lucky if'n you get your dick back."  they
both laughed.

"I think you're ready for your old man, Cowboy.  High them legs up there
and let your old man do us some good."  Buck growled at Waddie.  Waddie
loved that voice and would make Buck growl at him when they were in
private.  He told Buck if they ever had sex that was the voice he wanted to
hear from the Sheriff.  Waddie's dick got harder, if that was possible, as
Buck moved forward to place the head of his cock at his son's rosebud.
Waddie couldn't have been more ready to take his dad.

Buck leaned forward and allowed the weight of his big body to slowly but
surely penetrate Waddie's anal opening.  Waddie was so relaxed and his dad
was great at knowing how to get his big dick inside a man without hurting
him.  He worked Waddie's ass a little more then leaned forward over him.

"Well, that's about it, Sweet baby."

"You all the way in, Dad?"

"Naw there's about another inch in a half, maybe, but don't worry, I ain't
gonna' cheat ya' none.  This is about the time poor old Quinton gets real
nervous and starts his, `don't cheat me none, Sheriff,' routine.  Ain't
never cheated that good looking man out a' none of my dick.

Don't intend to cheat my boy out a' none neither.  When you ass relaxes,
you'll dilate and the weight of my body with sink it in.  When you're ass
is ready to take all of it, it will.  In the mean time, if that feels
pretty good to ya' how's `bout a kiss for your old man."  he said as stole
a kiss from Waddie.

"Feel good?  Woah, dogies. `Bout the best feeling I've had in my life.
Gimme' a kiss, Dad."

Waddie kissed and explored his dad's mouth as he had many time in intimate
moments with his old man.  This was different, he had his old man inside of
him, on top of him in no hurry to go anywhere.  Buck felt himself falling
into his boy as he, too, had on many occasions except this time he wouldn't
walk away with his dick dripping.

It was where it should be for making love to his sweet baby.  Waddie was
gently moving under Buck's big body and felt what his dad was talking
about.  His ass dilated and he felt the rest of his dad's huge dick slowly
sink to the depths of his ass.

"Ooofff."  Waddie said, "don't tell me,---I felt it.  Damn, you fill me up
old man.  You feel great."

"So do you, Cowboy.  I love you, Baby."

"I love you, too, Dad.  Now show me how much you love me."  he didn't have
to ask twice.  Buck couldn't remember when he felt anything or anyone who
felt better in his life.  This was like a dream come true for Buck and
Waddie.  This was the dividend the angels had rewarded them for their
decision to wait until Waddie was older.  This was the final joining of
their love and need to feel close to each other.  At that moment, they
couldn't get much closer.

Buck fucked Waddie like he did the several men he fucked.  He would fuck
slowly and deep for a while until his partner was moving under him trying
to get as much of the Sheriff into them as fast as they could get it.  Buck
led him along until he was fucking Waddie pretty fast and furious.  He
stopped for a minute.

"Am I tiring you out, Hon?"

"Lord no, I'm just getting warmed up.  Take all you need, Dad, but take me
along for the ride."

"Won't forget my baby."  Buck stole another kiss as he picked up some
speed.

Buck was a man that loved to fuck.  He could fuck for hours and never seem
to tire.  Waddie and Gip used their stop watch when Linda Sue and he were
getting it on in their bedroom.  The longest fuck on record was one Friday
night, Buck fucked Waddie's mom for three hours and twenty-two minutes.
Then when the two of them got their climax you would swear his dad had
stabbed his mom through the heart with an ice pick.  He sounded like
locomotive, the little engine that could, trying to make it up a steep
grade.  The boys laughed and giggled for days.

Waddie wasn't in a hurry to get anywhere and was enjoying giving it up to
the greatest love of his life.  It became more than animal rutting they
thought they yearned for.  It became the final joining of their love like
the period at the end of a long sentence.  It would invariably come and so
would they. Waddie was putting it up there for his dad meeting his ever
thrust and was enjoying every one.

Buck had been supporting himself above Waddie but relaxed and lowered his
full weight on his son.  He reached down and pulled Waddie's foreskin back
on his dick and left if uncovered as it was trapped between their bellies.
He smiled at his son and stole a couple of kisses.

"You ready to ride your pony to the barn, Cowboy."

"I'`m a' ready, Cowboy." Waddie replied.  Buck started kissing Waddie
deeply as he began a strong but steady fucking of his boy's butt.  He was
building up and Waddie could feel his old man was getting close.  The
movement of his dad's belly rubbing against the unprotected head of his
cock was about to send him into orbit.  There was no way he could get out
from under his dad's massive body nor stop the train at this point.  He
knew his dad was riding him to the barn.  Waddie spoke to Buck.

"Oh God, Dad.  That's so damn good.  You're driving me crazy.  I can't hold
it much longer, Dad."

"Get it , Sweet baby, and then you old man will get his when he feels you
trying to bite his dick off with your little butt."  Buck kept his
relentless strong, steady fucking until he felt Waddie's dick start to pump
out stream after stream of come between their bellies.

Buck kissed Waddie again and then roared like a lion as he unloaded into
his son.  Waddie could feel his dad filling him full of the life fluid that
provided the seed to give birth to him.  The very thought wouldn't let
Waddie's dick get soft.  He finally had his old man's love inside of him.
He had dreamed of this moment for years.  Was it what he expected?  It was
more, much more.  He knew it wouldn't be a regular thing between him and
his dad but it would be great when it happened.

They lay hooked together for thirty minutes or more talking softly, making
sweet love to each other.  Buck taking another couple of long deep strokes
into his boy's ass.  Waddie would grab him around his neck and push down
with his butt to get maximum penetration from his dad.  He had to give it
to his old man, he was a sex machine.

Everything Buck did was calculated to tease or extract more pleasure from
the experience for them both.  Waddie begged him to fuck him the second
time but Buck though that was enough for the evening.  He told his boy to
always leave your sex partner wanting more.  Never completely satisfy them.
That way they are always looking forward to the next time with you.

 It was the moment of closeness they both had yearned for all these years
and neither wanted to call an end to it.  The moment was too perfect .
They knew they were all the more in love with each other but it was good.
They understood the ramifications of their actions and these feelings.

They expected them, anticipated their effect, and bathed in them like two
pigs in a wallow.  They were done but the love that they were looking for
came upon them.  It was the final validation that said I am your son and
you're my father. We have given and taken physical pleasure from each other
as consenting, loving male adults.  We've joined our bodies as well as our
souls to create a greater love between us, no man nor angel can deny.

They cleaned up.  Waddie led his dad to the shower and spent an hour
pampering and cleaning his old man.  Then Buck cleaned his boy and marveled
at his hard, massive muscles and stole kiss after kiss.  Waddie stole his
share too.  It was an afterglow that was like a haze over them.  Neither
wanted to disturb it by speaking.  It was an unspoken love between them
that needed no commentary.

For no reason they would hold each other and burst into tears.  Almost like
they were relieved they had made it; made it this far and still loved each
other as much, no, more than ever before.  At that moment and for the rest
of their lives they shared perhaps the greatest love a father and son ever
had for each other.  There was never room for doubt from anyone who ever
knew the two of them.

They were exhausted physically and emotionally as they crawled into bed.
Buck pulled Waddie up close to him and didn't let him go all night.  Their
bodies and dreams intertwined each other in love, play and joy.  They
dreamed together as one in a long, languid dream of undefinable bliss.
Their passions and their souls had come to rest within each others sphere.
They were at peace.

Waddie managed to get his ass lubed the next morning and before his dad
woke up and worked his ass down on his old man's shaft.  Buck woke and
kissed him behind the ear.

"Did you do that to keep your old man's dick warm, Sweet baby?"

"Yes Sir. That was the only reason.  I was just thinking of you, Dad."
Waddie said innocently.

"You sure, Cowboy?"

"You believe me don't you, Sheriff?"

"Not this time, Buckaroo.  I feel that little ass trying to eat more of my
dick.  It's hungry and needs a good feeding."

"Well, if'n you say so, Sheriff.  I'm sure I wouldn't mind."  Waddie
giggled.

He didn't fool Buck for a minute.  They lay there and fucked for over an
hour until they heard the maid coming around to make up the rooms.  Buck
got busy and took care of his boy and himself at the same time.  They ended
up in the shower again but this time it was business; except for the last
few minutes they stood under the hot running water and swapped spit for
several minutes.

"Thanks, Sheriff." said Waddie softly.  Ain't never been made love to any
better. Glad I got me a buddy that likes to take care of his buddy now and
then."

"Thank you, Cowboy."  Never had anyone give to me as beautifully as you
did.  You need your buddy to straighten your kinks out, just ask him real
nice, maybe beg him a little, and tell him how bad you need your buddy to
take care of you.  I'm sure he will."  Buck grinned as he gently kissed
Waddie again.

The rest of the day was unbelievable. Waddie would catch his old man
looking at him and wink.  Buck would damn near fall off his pony laughing.
He knew what was going on in his boy's mind.  Waddie would laugh until he
almost was in tears at Buck's hysterics.  They found something hilariously
funny about every thing.  They loved to love together and laugh together.
What more does anyone need in a companion, and loving dad or son.

 Dan and Gip won the team roping that day and Buck and Waddie took it the
next. The third day, Gip and Waddie won with the best time for the rodeo.
They won the whole bag of beans.  Dan and Buck just shook their heads. The
last night the boys other dream came true and Waddie had a chance to please
his beloved Dad Dan.  Dan was all Waddie hoped for and more.

Gip knew Buck was a big man and was a bit intimidated by his size but after
he and Buck lay together for about and hour making tender, sweet love Gip
was ready do anything the big man wanted.  He couldn't get over how gentle
and caring his Uncle Buck was for such a big man.  He understood why his
dad had such a deep love for this man.  They were perfectly suited for each
other just like Waddie and he were.

The boys had their relationship and didn't intrude on their dad's too much.
They rodeoed together every summer they were in college and maybe once a
summer they'd talk their dads into playing `ride the buckaroo.'  Or as
Oatie so indelicately put it `Polka the Cowpoke."  The boys finally swapped
dads all round and Waddie and Gip got to sample Don Rayborn and Lyle
Rawlings.  Waddie, Gip, and Clyde were ready to burn Oatie at the stake for
latching onto Lyle Rawlings for a dad.  The boys decided, Lyle was the best
fucker of all the four men, hands down.  When you were fucked by
C. D. Rawlings you got the Cadillac of fucks.  The Sheriff agreed with
them.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Their final year in high school was the greatest year of the boys life and
the girls too.  The boys rodeoed all summer with each other and their dads.
It was a time of great rejoicing, comradery, love and personal appreciation
for each other. The two Bandera families and a Buck's families were so
bonded you couldn't drive a railroad wedge between them.

Toller Crenshaw took his older brother's advice and slowly brought on his
younger brother Shad until they were almost invincible as a team.  Shad
made good his word to his big brothers Waddie and Gip that one day he would
be as good as they were with a rope.  They became Waddie and Gip's major
competitors.  There was never a word of anger nor discouragement.  If the
younger two men won their older brothers were all over them congratulating
and hugging them.  They had to go some to beat Waddie and Gip so when they
did, they damn well deserved the praise.

C.W. Crenshaw grew to look like a miniature Randy Crenshaw.  He and the
twins were idolized by both families.  C.W. may have looked like his dad
but he copied his namesakes walk and speech patterns to the nines.  You
could see the two of them coming from across the lot and until they got
closer you couldn't tell which was which.  And then get C.W.  and Little
Gip would get together you'd think you were talking to the same cowboy.

Randy and Gus just gave up trying to teach any of the boys about roping.
It was up to their four other boys, Oatie, Clyde, Waddie and Gip.  The boys
would get five to six letters a month from one or the other of the
brothers.  They answered every one and loved it.  Shad still has every
letter he got from his big brothers all those years.  So does
C. W. Crenshaw who is now a judge in the Texas judicial system.  Still
rodeos every weekend with his sons and two daughters.  His oldest boy
C. W. Crenshaw Jr. was pretty big on the rodeo circuit during the eighties.

The Dyer's had to give up more of Sissy.  Dora and Brenda Lou Franz and
Sara Crenshaw adored her and insisted she come with the boys in August.
Once again the Dyers became a part of a larger family they dearly loved and
cherished.  They too made the pilgrimage to Bandera at least once a year.
They saw the changes and growth come in their daughter and couldn't say no.
Of course she became a favorite of the Dyer's special friend Agatha and her
daughters.  She was Auntie Boo to little Sissy.

The boys had the money to go to any college or university they wanted but
they chose Texas University in Austin.  Guess where they stayed the four
years they were in college.  You guessed it.  They had their same room at
Mrs. York's with a new bunch of animals that loved their cowboy brothers.
J.R.  Crenshaw graduated high school the same year Waddie and Gip did and
attended Texas U. with them.  Lived with Mrs. York as well.

They were joined the next year by Cassidy who shared a room with his
brother.  Every weekend Waddie and Gip loaded up their camper and was on
the road to Bandera.  J.R. and Cassidy would be in the camper in the back
studying or sacking out.  The four were going home to their little
brothers, big brother, two dads and moms and especially their baby
brothers. They left their two ponies and their trailer there at the
Crenshaws.  Many week ends they'd be joined by their moms and dads.

Talk about a happy preacher.  When the pastor heard the Claymores and
Justins were visiting the Crenshaws and Franzs he pulled out his finest
sermons on family and love of neighbors and dusted them off.  He considered
Waddie and Gip his sons and C.W. Crenshaw he idolized.  He was a good man.
He never remarried but his son made him very proud and became the sheriff
of the county for several years and had five children.
 
* * * * * * * * * * * * *

Oatie and Clyde didn't want to go to college.  They had money from rodeo
winnings and other investments but Clyde was a home boy and Oatie wasn't
about to leave his love.  They had a little more open and loose
relationship than Waddie and Gip.  They both wanted to marry and have each
other on the side.  There was no doubt in anyone's minds that was exactly
what they had planned.  Oatie and Clyde were still inseparable after high
school.

Oatie took a lot of his money and together with money from Clyde, Don and
Lyle formed a corporation to raise beef cattle.  They bought the best stock
and bulls and began making money hand over fist.  Clyde and Oatie became
the head wranglers and hired eight men to help with the ranch.

Don and Clyde bought a huge ranch on the other side of Lyle's.  They ran
the cattle on their ranches, Bucks and part of Dan's.  The two families
never wanted for the best beef.  They couldn't eat all the beef the boys
provided them for the use of their land.

Finally, Morgan wasn't using his land and Ed was making too much money
plumbing to run much stock they allowed the cattle on their property and
reaped the same benefits.  Of course Morgan gave his to his mom and dad and
the rest of the family for family cook outs and picnics.

Ed and his family were absorbed into the greater Claymore/ Justin families
and ended up giving half of their beef to the family every year for the
same purposes. The boys sent a side of beef to the Crenshaw and Franz
family every spring.  They were truly grateful but had their own cattle as
well.
 
While the boys were home for Christmas their sophomore year.  The families
gathered at the Justins as usual.  There were nearly a hundred people
there.  Family and family associates.  Deputies and neighbors.
Mrs. Jessup, Bubba, Carol, Jannie the two boys and their little girl,
Sarah.  Ed, his wife and two kids.  All the deputies and their wives and
kids.  Plus the Dyers, Sissy, Buck, Linda Sue and Little Gip.  It was a
wonderful day.  The ladies cooked six turkeys, four hams, and buckets of
vegetables and goodies.  There was enough food to feed the national guard.

It had gotten to be tradition that if the deputies knew of a family or
families that weren't going to have Christmas they would drop by and tell
the family to be ready Christmas morning, the school bus would be by to
pick them up and take them to have Christmas dinner with the Sheriff and
his family.  There was usually three to four families, black, white or
Hispanic.  They all piled on the bus and were driven to the Justins.  The
Sheriff and his family were there to welcome them.  There was toys and
games for the kids and food for all.  The folks were given food to carry
home with them and the kids took their toys with them.
 
The women kept their kids older but good clothes and put them in boxes for
the mothers to go through for their kids or themselves.  They could take as
many or a few as they wanted.  Most times they had several boxes filled
with nice clothes for their kids.

That was one of the most wonderful Christmas's the boys could remember.
Oatie and Clyde were so enthused at their financial prospects and their
dads were so proud of them.  Now their brothers were going to become vets
to come back and work with them and share a part of the financial windfall
they were experiencing.

Earlier that fall, at the end of October, Waddie got a letter from Jannie.
It was the sweetest, most loving letter anyone had ever sent him but she
wrote to him as Dearest Beloved Brother.  Waddie knew before he even got to
the body of the letter what he would find.  Clyde asked her to marry him
and she couldn't unless she had Waddie's blessing.
 
Clyde asked Waddie when he went off to college would he be upset if he
dated Jannie.  Waddie told Clyde and Oatie that he had set Jannie free
because he was unsure what his and Gip's future would be.  Oatie knew how
tight Waddie and Gip were and Clyde guessed but he wasn't too troubled
about asking Jannie to marry him.

Waddie's first reaction was, he felt crushed. He knew it was a possibility
because he always knew how much Clyde adored and loved Jannie when she had
no eyes for anyone but Waddie.  Waddie made his decision to be a mate to
his brother because he knew his brother wouldn't marry.  Waddie wouldn't
leave his brother alone in life.  After all it was mostly because of Gip's
love for him and his for Gip that he survived childhood. He not only loved
his brother, he owed him his life.  After a week talking to Gip and crying
his heart out unreasonably and a weekend with his two Dads in Bandera he
sat down and wrote a letter.

"My Dearest Darling Sister and my Beloved Brother,

This letter has to be to the two of you because it would be unfair to
divide my love for you at this point in our lives together.  What can I say
to you my wonderful, loving sister who has given me so much love and asked
for so little in return.  What can I say to you my beloved, bonded brother,
my strong right arm in all things, my champion, my hero, my staunchest
ally; that you should seek my blessing for your union in marriage has to be
the single highest honor I've ever been given in life.

Of course you have my unqualified blessing and unconditional love in your
joining together.  The light from your two loves coming together can only
be compared to the light that shown over a manger a couple of thousand
years ago to light the way for the Magoi.  So let it be the light that
leads me home to join your celebration and share my joy and love for you at
the most holy time of your lives.

There are no words in our language nor any language in the world that I
could use to tell you how thrilled and happy I am for you.  There is no one
that could wish you greater joy, happiness, and love than I can with
greater love in their heart for you both.
 
Your loving brother, Waddie"

That Christmas when Clyde arrived with Jannie in his truck.  Waddie slowly
walked toward them.  He kissed them, threw his arms around the both of them
and started crying his heart out.  Gip joined him and soon Oatie was there
with them surrounding them and crying too.  Bubba , Carol and Don walked up
and put their arms around the boys soon to be joined by Buck, Linda Sue,
Dan, Jimmy Sue, the Dyers and everyone else in the family until they were
all standing there with tears running down their faces.  Clyde and Jannie
was overwhelmed that their love meant so much to their families.

Clyde took Waddie into his arms, hugged, kissed his brother and asked
Waddie to be his best man.  Waddie accepted immediately without reserve.  A
cheer went up you could of heard all the way to town.

The highlight of the summer was the June wedding of Jannie and Clyde.
Waddie was Clyde's best man and Oatie, Gip and Don Rayborn, C. D. Rawlings
and Buck were groomsmen.  Bonnie Tyler was Jannie's maid of honor and the
four other girls of their class were bridesmaids.  It was one of the
biggest blowout weddings the town had seen since Bubba and Carol were
married.  It was one of the most emotional weddings the community had as
well.  Jannie and Clyde represented the first marriage of the this
generation of kids.

There were other kids that were promising but the class that graduated in
fifty-eight were truly the hope for tomorrow.  They all had struggled and
fought to get to where they were and there wasn't a rotten egg among them.
They were all damn good kids and everyone of them loved by the community.
Waddie couldn't be satisfied to be the first to kiss the bride, hell, he
had to be the first to kiss the groom too.  There were many tears shed and
many good wishes for the young couple.

It was one full day of celebration and they left late that afternoon on a
two week honeymoon.  Everyone was there at the Justins throwing rice and
sending them off.  They left and the day settled down into evening.  There
came a great pall over the three boys that were left.  They slept with
their brother Oatie in the loft with him in between Waddie and Gip.  They
held him all night long and reminded him that one day soon they would be in
the same loft holding Clyde when they sent Oatie off on his honeymoon.

When Clyde and Jannie got back from their honeymoon, Oatie and Clyde
received draft notices.  They had one week to report to induction in
Dallas.  They reported for duty but Oatie wasn't taken.  He had a
congenital heart problem that Dr. Dyer knew about and sent Oatie's medical
reports.  Clyde was heathy as a plow horse.  He went to basic training at
Ft. Hood came home for two weeks and was shipped to Nam.  Jannie was
pregnant when he left.

The family gathered for Thanksgiving that year and Jannie was radiant in
her pregnancy.  Waddie listened and felt the baby kick.  He took odds with
anyone that wanted to bet it was another cowboy brother the family would
have to love.  Thanksgiving day amid all the festivities and love a
military staff car pulled into the Justins's driveway slowly led by a
sheriff's patrol car.  Two army officers and their driver came to give the
family the news that Clyde had been killed in combat.  His body would be
delivered to the local mortuary with in twenty-four hours.

Waddie was the first person Jannie turned to and collapsed in his arms.  He
picked her up and carried her into the Justin's guest bedroom and laid her
on the bed.  Waddie was in no shape to offer her comfort and asked his mom
and Momma Sue to see to her.  Waddie ran out of the house and ran as fast
as he could to the deep meadow behind the far critter barn, tripped and
fell, tumbled head over heels down an embankment, and lay there in agony
with a mouth full of dirt and bluebonnets.

He heaved once, then twice and stomach bile mixed with vomited snacks came
from his gut.  He tried to crawl a bit to get away from the smell of horror
his own body had effused.  He didn't make it very far until he was racked
with another gut wrenching contraction and he heaved again.  This time it
was pure green bile.

Somewhere from deep within him came a long, slow growl, a moan that
increased in decibels until it was the sound of a wounded animal caught in
a death trap and had no escape but to chew it's own leg off.  Waddie
couldn't get his breath.  He was sure he was dying himself but he had no
control over his body as he felt his bowels go and then his bladder empty.
The last thing he remembered as his head hit the ground was a sea of
bluebonnets he was surely drowning in.
 
 Little Gip was the first to find him and ran for his dad, Buck.  Dan heard
enough from what Little Gip told Buck he grabbed several towels and told
Big Gip to get one of his bathrobes and bring it to the creek.

Buck and Dan got there and told everyone but Oatie and Big Gip to go back
to the house.  They undressed Waddie as Buck and Oatie threw off all their
clothes in the pasture.  They carried Waddie to the creek and lowered him
into the cool water.  At that moment he came to.  He looked and saw his dad
and Oatie with tears in their eyes lowering him into the water to clean
him.  He was embarrassed, humiliated and still hurting beyond belief.  He
threw his arms around his dad and cried out,

"Why, Dad,---why......?"  Then the bottom dropped out of his soul.  No one
had an answer for him. No one could tell him why his brother had to die;
not even an angel.

His dad and Oatie cleaned him and made him rinse his mouth out with clean
water.  Waddie grabbed Oatie and they cried together.  He grabbed Gip last
and wouldn't let go until Dad Dan waded into the pool and helped him and
Gip get out.  They covered him with the bathrobe and he asked them to take
him to the barn.  He couldn't see anyone else, just his brothers and dads.
The three young men lay together and cried themselves to sleep in each
other's arms.

In the early evening Waddie was awoken by someone, a child, whimpering
close to him.  He looked up and Little Gip was on his knees next to his big
brother crying his little heart out.  Waddie whispered to him to take his
clothes off.  He did in a flash.  Waddie raised the blanket he and the
other boys were under and took Little Gip into his arms and cried with him.

He almost had no more tears to cry and found himself comforting and loving
Little Gip, his son.  A peace came over him that through all the pain and
suffering of life, no matter what it brings you, there are others you have
to consider and go on for.  He talked to Little Gip for an hour or more
telling him not to cry.  Bubba Waddie was going to be all right and so
would he.

That Thanksgiving was remembered as the worst holiday anyone could
remember.  The only bit of joy was the entire contingency from Bandera
packed up and came to be with the rest of their family in their time of
sorrow.  Clyde had etched his love on the whole Bandera family as much as
Oatie, Waddie, Gip and Little Gip.  They stayed through Clyde's funeral and
left the next day.  Waddie, Gip and Oatie hated to say goodbye to them and
told them they would see them shortly after Christmas.  They let C.W. stay
with Little Gip and his three big brothers.  They promised to bring him
home when they picked up J.R. and Cassidy to return to college.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Waddie and Gip graduated college and were to go on to vet school.  That
summer they went pro-rodeoing together and with their dads.  Because of a
snafu in the draft regulations, even though they were accepted in medical
school in the fall they should have continued their education on into the
summer semester to avoid the draft.  Beyond undergraduate school there
could be no gap in schooling to exempt them from the draft.

They didn't know this and even though every politician in the state of
Texas was asked for help no one could do anything.  Waddie and Gip were
sent to Nam as field corpsmen/medics.  They had one month left to go to be
home free, riding the high country together, sharing their love with their
family and little brothers.  J.R. and Cassidy Crenshaw were both drafted
and killed within a year of each other.

Gip was shot through the heart while caring for a wounded man.  He was
kneeling next to his brother, his life mate, so close they were rubbing
elbows when his took an exploding cartridge through his heart.  He
collapsed into Waddie's arms, asked him to kiss him goodbye and to tell his
dad and mom he loved them.

Waddie kissed his beloved brother goodbye, felt his soul leave his body,
closed his eyes, sat him aside, finished tending the wounded man he was
caring for, then picked up his brother and carried him back to the chopper.

Waddie didn't want to live after that and signed up for another six years.
He figured he was too much of a coward to off himself so he'd let the VC do
it for him.  He was shot so many times he threw the last three hearts away.
After he lost a kidney and almost lost his left arm he had a visit from a
very pissed off angel.  He wasn't having any of Mr. Urial's crap and told
him so.  There was no sense nor plan to this insanity and he didn't want to
be a part of it anymore.  Go away, leave him alone, and don't ever come to
him again.

"Now you listen to me, you ungrateful little twit!  I've loved you too long
and too much to have you dismiss me like that.  It wasn't me nor your
Father that brought about this horror.  Instead of crying over your loss
and wanting to end it all get up off your dead ass and change what's
happening.  Don't allow another of your brothers nor your son to come over
here and become gun fodder for the fat cats in your society.  Your brothers
are your tomorrow.  So you lost your brother!  He's safe!  He's with me.
You know damn well you'll be with him again.  Your souls were joined before
birth and one can't go on throughout the ages without the other.

He's guided your every step since his death to keep you from harms way.
You have other's to live for, Cowboy!  If you don't go home you'll lose
another four or five of your brothers and maybe your son.  Do you want
that?  You've done more than your share here and there are thousands of
souls you held that didn't make it.  You knew they weren't going to make
it, yet you heard their cry for help, felt their pain and fear, forgave
them of their trespasses and told them to walk into the light of
forgiveness and love,---they are a powerful force behind you.  They will
not be denied!  They are yelling at you in unison!  Wake up!  Go home!
Make a difference!  Make our deaths count for something!  Tell the naive,
the week minded, the `my country right or wrong' fanatics,---their country
is wrong!"

And so Waddie returned home after almost seven years in Nam.  He was sent
to Hawaii for recovery and still in a wheel chair when his plane arrived in
Houston.  He was the last to leave the plane and expected to be met by
military transportation.  There at the bottom of the ramp was his entire
family including the Crenshaws, Franzs, Bubba, Carol, Oatie, Dad Dan and
Momma Sue, the Dyers with Sissy, Jannie with Clyde Jr., Lyle, Mavis, Mavis
Lyle, Aunt Agatha and her daughters, his beloved Quinton, but most
importantly his mom and dad and Little Gip.
 
There is more to Waddie's story.  It may never be fully told.  He never
fully adjusted back into society.  He saved his brothers lives by not
allowing them to be shipped off to be slaughtered by the VC.  He paid a
great price.  But because he did as his angel told him and reconciled
himself with his God he was sent a second savior.

Waddie bought himself a Harley and hit the road. He spent many years as a
scooter bum.  He met many Nam vets out there that were `running from the
rain.'  He met a young man, who, himself was lost in a world he was having
difficulty fitting into and coping with.  He asked the hardened, lonely,
broken cowboy to become his Master.  He only asked to see to his Master's
needs.

He was the most handsome, beautiful young man Waddie had ever seen after
his brother.  He needed a man to serve, love and take care of.  He found a
home in Waddie's heart.  He was a perfectly formed, masculine man who was
born an intersexual.  He had both fully developed sexual organs at birth
but his family decided, with the stupid, incompetent and arrogant
suggestion of quack doctor, John Money, to assign him sexually as a female.

His name was Zane and he brought to his big cowboy the best of all possible
worlds.  Waddie's mom passed away while she and Buck were watching the war
wind down in Nam in seventy-three.  Buck lived with Little Gip, until
Waddie and Zane came to live with him several years later.  Waddie and Zane
took care of Morgan during his last years.  He passed away peacefully in
his sleep between the two men he had come to love above all others.

End of Story


End Part 22~12/31/02
Cabbage Patch Cowboy
Copyright 2002 Waddie Greywolf
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