Date: Mon, 13 Feb 2006 23:24:36 -0800 (PST)
From: S P <crzyrazn@yahoo.com>
Subject: Crush: My Cousin, My Love

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       When my parents told me that my cousin would be spending the summer
with us I was very excited and nervous; excited because my cousin would be
spending the summer with us and nervous because ever since I could remember
I have had a crush on him.

       Everything started when my uncle suggested that my cousin come work
for my dad for the summer at his lawyer's office. When my uncle asked my
dad if that would be okay he thought it would also be a good idea since my
cousin wanted to study to be a lawyer. So it was decided that my cousin
would come stay with us this summer and work for my dad for the experience
and for him to see what it was like being a lawyer, also, my cousin could
use the money. Needless to say I was very anxious when I learned that Danny
would be staying with us.

       Danny was 19 and the boy next door, the all American guy. He had
short dark hair and clear blue eyes. He was 6' and muscled with a tan from
being the regular jock in high school. He looked like one of those models
from allAmericanguys, he was so hot. But that wasn't the best thing about
him. Danny had a smile that could make you skip a heart beat it was so
tragically beautiful. Coy smiles that made his eyes mysteriously light up
and made you feel as if he were letting you in on a secret that was only
between him and you. Many a night I would fall into sleep thinking about
his smile. It broke my heart every time I would think about him and know
that I could never have him. I was sure Danny was straight. He was always
popular with everyone in school especially the girls. Always going out and
having fun. Sometimes I would get jealous of Danny for living the seemingly
perfect life.

       Not that I was bad looking. In fact, Danny and I almost looked
alike. At 17 I had just finished my last year of high school. I had short
dark hair, but soft brown eyes. I stood a couple inches shorter than
Danny. Unlike Danny I was never really into sports that much, not because I
didn't like them but because I was always too damn shy to do anything like
that. But that didn't stop me from having a nice body. I would occasionally
work out in my dad's weight room, which gave me a nice toned body. But
that's where the similarities ended, physically speaking. I was never as
popular as Danny. Not that I wasn't outgoing, but from my earliest
childhood days I just knew I liked guys. Not that I ever had a problem with
it myself, but when high school started for me I was always frightened that
someone might notice and I would be hated. Therefore, I distanced myself
from everyone and kind of stuck to myself. Yet, despite not having many
friends I was never really lonely.

       Both Danny and I lived close enough to each other as to go to the
same schools. Even though Danny was more popular than me throughout middle
school and high school he would always try to make me join in with him and
his friends. He always made me feel as if I could always count on him to be
a friend. He would always defend me from his friends who thought I was
lame. Danny and I would always hang around together after school playing
video games or playing basketball or something whenever he could talk me
into it; we use to have a lot of fun. I guess that was when I began
developing a crush on him. Our relationship went on like that throughout
middle school, but when high school began for Danny and I that's when
everything changed and not because Danny wanted it to, but because I
decided I wanted it to.

       Danny was already in tenth grade when I began high school. He was
already one of the most popular kids there even among the seniors. When I
arrived Danny again tried to make me feel accepted. But I knew that there
was no way anyone was ever going to accept me the way they did Danny, and
the last thing I wanted was his pity, which would break my heart. Also, my
crush had been growing since our middle school days and I no longer felt I
could stand by and watch Danny knowing I could never be with him the way I
wanted to be with him. So I began ignoring him knowing that if I didn't let
him go I would end up being hurt. At first, Danny seemed puzzled when I
wouldn't talk to him in the hallways or whenever he suggested we hang out
after school. After a couple of months of this Danny one day finally showed
up at my house after school.

       "What's up man?" he asked smiling at me when I opened the door. I
was actually shocked too see him after ignoring him the way I did. He
looked so hot standing there with his short, dark hair and blue eyes, in
his polo shirt and jeans, which he filled very nicely. I just wanted to
fall into his arms right there.
       "Nothing much," I shrugged my shoulders with my head down.
       "Can I come in man or are you gonna leave me here on your doorstep?"
he grinned. I couldn't tell him to simply go away, so I stepped aside and
let him in. I walked into the living room with Danny following behind and
sat down on the couch. We chatted for a couple of minutes about what was
new than it became quiet. After a moment of silence I finally asked,
       "So what brings you here?" Danny looked at me for a minute
apparently thinking about what to say.
       "Jos, why are you ignoring me?" he asked with a hurt look coming
into his eyes. I instantly felt ashamed, but I knew I couldn't go back now
that I felt I was finally getting over him.
       "It's complicated," I said honestly.
       "Well, try me?"
       "Danny," I gave a sigh, "you and I are different, you are popular
and cool and I'm just the guy who everyone never notices and even though
you try to make me fit in I just never will." I tried my best to come up
with a believable lie, anything to hide the real truth.
       "Is that what this is all about? Who cares about any of that man?"
he laughed seemingly relieved. But I was becoming angry that I had to lie
to him when I really wanted to tell him the truth, "It doesn't matter if
we're not part of the same clique, you're my buddy!" he said jumping up
across the couch and putting me into a mock headlock. His touch and smell
were starting to bring back all the old feelings and it was making me
angrier.
       "Stop it!" I said pushing him off me. Danny, surprised at my
outburst, backed away more hurt than I have ever seen him.
       "Jos?" he said pleadingly, but I broke through, hardening myself
against his pleas.
       "We just can't be friends anymore," I said calmly, all the while
pushing back the tears. Danny stood, staring at me not saying anything, the
silence cutting me like an executioners axe. Slowly he turned and walked
away. I stood there until I heard the door shut close behind him. I
languishingly made my way up to my room where I fell on my bed, and too sad
to even cry, fell asleep.

       We really never spoke again after that. It remained that way until
Danny graduated high school. He had already chosen the college he wanted to
go to and would be leaving the following fall. My aunt and uncle were also
moving to another city when my uncle got promoted to a new job within his
company.  When Danny left I finally did cry, even in the end all I could
say to him was a simple goodbye.

       So it was a really big surprise when I was told that Danny would be
coming to stay with us for the summer to work with dad. The day Danny was
due to arrive I walked around moody and silent, a real nervous
wreck. Finally, when I thought he might not show to my disappointment and
relief, I heard a car pull into our driveway. I ran to my window and looked
down into the driveway and sure enough there was Danny getting out of his
car. From my second story window I didn't get a good look at him. I took a
deep breath and walked to the top of the stairs waiting for my mom to let
him in when he rang the doorbell.

       My mom opened the door.
       "Danny! How are you?" I heard her ask and could see my mom's arm as
she hugged him, still not being able to get a good look at Danny.
       "Hey, aunt Grace," he greeted, the sound of his voice making me
dizzy.
       "Come in, come in," she said and I heard the door shut. "It has been
a while since I've seen you."
       "Yeah, about a year and a half," I heard him answer as they stood
talking in the entrance hall. Slowly I made my down stairs. When I could
finally see them, Danny turned to where I came to a stop on the
staircase. He looked the same as always, but a bit more mature that made
him hotter than I remembered. Danny smiled, genuinely happy to see me, and
came toward me. I walked to the bottom of the staircase.
       "Jos! What is up man?" he asked grabbing me into a hug. Hoping he
couldn't feel me shaking I hugged him back. He felt so good. I could
faintly smell the hint of deodorant on him, which made me exhale
euphorically. I broke the hug not wanting to make it awkward by holding
onto him for too long.
       "You look great Danny," I said, "College seems to be working for
you."
       "Hell yeah, it's awesome!"
       "Well, welcome back," I said. He stood there smiling at me.

       After Danny got settled in we ordered pizza and talked while we
ate. It seemed college really was going great for Danny. Just as we were
clearing the dishes my dad who had come home from work told he us he had
some news for us.
       "It seems me and your mom is going to be out of town for the next
two weeks," he told us, "I have a conference in Atlanta where I'm working
on a case."
       I was instantly mortified about the idea of just Danny and me being
alone, "Why is mom going?" I asked.
       "Well, we thought it would be nice if she and I got away for a
little while together, sort of like a mini vacation," he said.
       "What about Danny starting work at the office?"
       "He can begin when I get back, besides, he needs a little break to
enjoy his summer vacation before he goes back to working his ass off," he
laughed.
       "Yeah cuz, we'll do some catching-up, have some fun," Danny said
smiling and shook my shoulder. There was nothing to do now except cross my
fingers and hope I would come through this intact.

       The following weekend, my parents left for Atlanta leaving me and
Danny all alone for the next two weeks. At first, Danny and I hung around
and talked about what college was like and where I would be going to
college.
       "Yep, when you get to college everything changes," Danny said one
day while lounging on the couch throwing a football up into the air. He had
on a pair of mesh shorts, a pulli, and socks. Despite my best efforts I
just couldn't stop my eyes from traveling from his feet, up to his legs and
from there to his crotch, on up to his chest and finally to his beautiful
face. I was sitting on the sofa when Danny caught me staring at him. I
instantly looked down and returned to the conversation.
       "Yeah, I bet," I said hoping I didn't sound too nervous.
       When it remained quiet for what seemed like forever I brought my
eyes up to look to see if he had noticed that I had been looking. He was
lying on the couch holding the football wrapped in his arms staring at
me. I blushed and looked back down.
       "Let's play some football," he said jumping up tossing me the
football.
       Relieved to be rescued from that awkward moment I didn't hesitate. I
followed Danny into the backyard. He walked to one end of the yard and I
walked to the other. We began by tossing the football back and forth. Danny
hadn't lost his touch since his high school days and I didn't play bad
either. After a while of this Danny told me to see if I could score a touch
down. I was game. Danny threw me the ball and I caught it easily and began
running to Danny's side of the field, but Danny was too fast for me and
before I knew it I was lying on the ground with Danny on top of me. For a
moment I was disgruntled, than I looked up to see Danny staring down at me
with a grin on his face.
       "You have to be faster than that cuz," he said amusingly. "You
okay?" I shook my head yes. After several minutes of looking down at me he
shook his head and got off me. "Let's do it again." he said picking up the
football.
       Again he threw me the football and I caught it and starting running
to get by him. Again I was knocked to the ground with Danny on top of
me. This time I lay there out of breath. I could feel the weight of Danny's
body on mine. I struggled to get up, but Danny held me down.
       "What are you doing?" I asked breathless and lightheaded.
       "Nothing, just remembering what it was like when you and I use to
play together after school, you remember in middle school?"
       "Yeah" I said softly. Danny lay on top of me for a couple of minutes
staring down at me. I could feel the heat of his body against mine. Getting
turned on I immediately squirmed to get free so he wouldn't feel how hard I
was getting. Suddenly, he slowly began bringing his face closer to mine,
for a moment I was scared and thrilled about what he was doing. But just
when I could feel the heat of his breath against my lips he stopped and
rolled off top of me and lay beside me. I lay there feeling like a fool.

       For the next couple days after that I ignored Danny as best I
could. I would go hang out with a couple of friends or pretend to be busy
with errands to avoid him. Not that it was hard since Danny was spending
his time reconnecting with old friends. Yet, it seemed that with each day
Danny was becoming more frustrated. But by the end of the first week
everything started to return to normal and Danny and I began talking
again. I was relieved that I could forget about what had happened and that
Danny hadn't noticed.

       One night Danny and I were up in my room playing a video game. I was
winning, which was really pissing Danny off. After another humiliating
defeat Danny threw down his controller in anger. I laughed at his
immaturity. Suddenly, Danny turned to me and asked me something that made
me go dead silent.
       "Jos, what was the real reason you broke our friendship in high
school?" I was speechless. I stared at Danny dumbstruck feeling sweat
forming on my brow. After a moment of silence Danny began again, "Even
though you won't give me the answer I know why." All I could think was that
Danny knew now and he would hate me for it. I sat in my computer chair
paralyzed. "It was because you had a crush on me." He knew and there was
nothing I could do about it. I had to get out. I got up and began
immediately walking toward the door. Suddenly I heard Danny say in a
commanding voice, "Don't you walk away from me."

       I stood frozen by his words as if they had had the actual power to
stop me. Slowly I turned to Danny where he was now sitting on the bed. All
I could clearly think was that he looked sexy sitting there in his polo
shirt, jeans, and socks with his head bent down and hands clapped together
between his legs. He got up and walked until he stood directly in front of
me.
       "I was such an idiot not to have seen it," he said with pain in his
voice, "Ever since that day here in your house when we stopped being
friends I thought it was just because you hated me." I wanted to say
something than but he cut me off, "At first when you started ignoring me I
thought you had found out about me and hated me. I was relieved when I
thought you just hated me, but if I had known^Å" he stopped and looking
into my eyes and seeing my confusion began again, "Danny, I love you too."

       I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My heart was beating so hard
I was scared it was going to rupture. My world was completely spinning out
of control.
       "What?" I asked with what breath I had left. Suddenly, Danny grabbed
me by the neck of my shirt and pushed me into the wall roughly, but not to
hurt me, crushing me with his body.
       "God damn it, Jos!" he said frustrated, "I want you." I stood there
shocked, my brown eyes looking into his clear, blue eyes full of
uncertainty and hope.

        Before I could even comprehend what he was saying he kissed me
forcefully. I tried to push him away from me but he was stronger than I had
thought and held me pinned against the wall. The feel of his lips pressed
against mine and the smell of his faint cologne and sweat sent me into
complete bliss so that soon I stopped struggling against him. I could feel
his tongue exploring my lips wanting to be with mine. He had been kissing
me for so long I thought I was going to suffocate when I opened my mouth to
receive his tongue. This surrender made him moan. His tongue instantly
found mine. The taste of him encouraged me to reciprocate the play of his
tongue. He released me by my collar and put his hands on my hips holding me
to him as we shared each other.

        He began guiding me toward my bed with his hands on my hips all the
while we were kissing. I fell back onto the bed with Danny on top of
me. The weight of his body on top of me was making me even hotter.
       "I'm I hurting you?" he asked talking about being on top of me.
       "No," I said placing my hands on his lower back grinding his groin
against mine. He smiled and began kissing me softly on my neck. I lay there
perfectly content with Danny sending every kind of emotion through my body
with every kiss.
       Danny had me lean up as he removed my shirt to reveal my chest and
abs. He kissed every part of me exploring every inch. I had Danny remove
his shirt as I rolled on top of him and began doing everything he had done
to me. I loved the way his body looked and tasted; never in all my dreams
did I imagine it could be this way.
       Danny pushed me back to the foot of the bed so that we lay toward
that end. With him renewing his assault on my mouth I felt his hand grope
my crotch making me quiver. Seeing how much I liked it he slid his hand
into the top of my jeans and took hold of my rock hard dick. I was well
endowed with a 7 inch cock when hard. Danny began making his way down to my
crotch, undoing my pants when he got there exposing my boxer briefs. With
my pants half way down my hips he began tonguing my cock through my
underwear. This sent me into convulsions of pure pleasure. I pushed my
jeans all the way off with Danny kissing my inner thighs. He than removed
my boxers fully exposing me to him.
       "You're beautiful," he whispered as he took my cock into his
mouth. The feel of my erect cock in his warm mouth made me almost cum. He
continued working my cock, sucking my nuts. I was near ejaculation as his
mouth slid up and down my cock more rapidly. He easily swallowed my
cock. When I thought I couldn't take it anymore he released me. He crawled
off the bed and took his jeans and boxers off. I stared in wonder at his
cock which was bigger than mine by at least an inch and a half.
       "Suck it," he commanded as if I were to be told twice. I reached out
and grabbed him by his hips and brought his cock to my mouth. I savored the
feel of his warm cock in my mouth and the salty pre-cum at the tip of his
erect, hard penis. I kissed and sucked every inch of him without
restraint. "Take it all for me," he asked pleadingly. At first, I was
scared I couldn't do it but Danny guided me gently and before long I was
deep throating his massive cock. Danny couldn't stop moaning I was working
his cock so good. "Ugh, stop Jos! I'm gonna cum.," I heard him say as I
lost myself to pleasuring him. I stopped and Danny pulled me into his
arms. "Jos, I want you," he whispered and there was urgency to his voice.

       "I need you Danny," I answered him. He held me tighter. I released
myself from him and lay on the bed. He crawled toward me on the bed where
he turned me on my stomach. He eagerly licked his finger and starting
stimulating my anus. I couldn't stop squirming, it felt so damn
good. Slowly he inserted his finger into me with ease as I lay there in
complete ecstasy. Soon he had both fingers in me fucking me. Seeing me
totally at ease, he pulled his fingers and out and turned me on back and
lifted my legs to rest on his shoulders. I lay there looking down at him
waiting for the moment when we would become one. He positioned himself so
that his penis rested between my cheeks and slowly while looking into my
eyes began inserting his cock into me. For an instance I felt a little
pain, but Danny went slowly and soon all I felt was pleasure. He continued
until his cock was buried all the way up my ass and his hips were slamming
against my cheeks. Danny and I grunted in utter bliss as he fucked me. He
had grabbed my cock by than and was jacking me off. Soon I felt Danny
tightening up and I knew he was gonna cum. He jacked me faster. He slammed
into me a final time and I felt his cock exploding, feeling me with his
juices. I came at the same time releasing myself all over Danny's chest and
mine, my anus tightening against Danny's cock.

       Afterwards he lay on top of me, holding me until our embraces
carried us slowly into sleep.