Date: Fri, 9 Apr 2004 20:00:57 -0700 (PDT)
From: John Harrington <pasco909@yahoo.com>
Subject: In the Dark by the Light of the Moon- Part 4

"You don't look so good Bobbie. Everything ok?" I
asked.

"Your leaking," he said. "Leaking out of me."  I could
feel myself turning a deep shade of red. "You're right
JJ I did plan it.  I wanted it to happen this morning.
 Are my jeans stained? I need a tampon or something."
He kicked my hand away. "Don't touch me! I don't want
anyone to touch me right now. Do you understand what I
am saying to you JJ? Do you really understand? It is
so lonely to be me. No friends and no one to love me.
" He was crying now, legs drawn tight against his
chest, his arms wrapped around his knees, huddled in
the corner of the seat, so sad looking.

"Leaking? What do you mean? Leaking? Are you
bleeding?" I asked.  He glared at me, stupid questions
deserve stupid answers. Was he a virgin?  It went so
smooth this morning.  Real smooth like it was made for
me. I just pushed into him and went blind as my eyes
rolled into the back of my head. SO hot! Does he have
a boy friend or lover? Who could it be?  I didn't know
that it leaked out. All I wanted to do was hold him,
the tears were rolling down his cheeks, eyes red and
puffy, like he had been swimming for hours.  "Bobbie,
you have lots of friends..."

"No JJ! NO!" he yelled back at me, " No I don't. You
don't know anything about me or my life. Only what you
see, what I show to you, mom, and dad.  Who am I? Who
is there for me? Who can I tell about what happened
last night or today ?  WHO? Nobody that's who. At
least you have girl friend. You can go the movies
together, kiss her, hold hands, tell your friends
about her, because it's normal. It's ok with
everybody. I hate being gay..."

There was a tapping at the glass. Some kid pressing
his face against my window.  He was asking something
about Bobbie and I gestured for him to move on.
"Bobbie, just think about this..." What was this kid's
problem?  Now he was trying to open the truck door. I
gestured for him to get lost.

Bobbie turned to face the window, "Oh, it's Ryan. He's
ok." Wiping his eyes with the back of his hand, he
opened the window. "Ryan" stuck his head right in.

"Hey Bobbie, let's go man!  We got class and the coach
wants to see us...Why are you crying?  Who is this guy
anyhow. Did he hurt you? Hey, you!  Yeah you! Who the
fuck are you man? I'm going to kick your ass pal if
you hurt Bobbie," he yelled trying to climb in through
the window.

"Get lost punk. Who is this kid Bobbie? Get off my
truck." He was dressed just like Bobbie.  Same jeans,
sneakers, red tank top, and swimmers goggles on his
head. Good build though, that lean defined frame of a
swimmer. His arms and chest were powerful but not
bulky. He was seething now, trying to push himself
into the truck. " Get off my truck or I'm going to
shove your head so far up your  ass you will be
looking out your throat." I leaned over and shoved him
out the window.  He scrambled right back through the
windows muttering about breaking my face or something.


"Ryan, stop! Please stop. It's ok! This is my brother
JJ. It's ok. He's ok. We're cool.  He knows.  Back
off." He pushed Ryan back out the window and unlocked
the door.

"Your brother! You don't like your brother. You said
he was an asshole.  Why are you crying Bobbie?  Are
you ok?" He reached in and laid his hand on Bobbie
shoulder.  Pulling him back against the door he
wrapped his arm around Bobbie's front.  Bobbie resting
one hand on Ryan's upper arm, calmly stroked his
fingers on the muscle, "Down Killer. Down.  JJ and I
are just talking about something last night. We're
cool now Ry-Ry. Everything has changed."

If looks could kill then I was already dead. The
animosity and hatred on Ry-Ry's faces was blatant.
Everything about him said, "HANDS OFF! Private
Property. Do not touch. This is mine."  If Bobbie was
a girl it would seem so natural, this guy stepping in
and protecting his stuff.

"Yeah RY-RY, we cool now so fuck off and let us
finish," I said. "Bobbie go with your knight in
shining armor. We'll go on and talk tonight." I
reached over and brushed my hand on his cheek. Ry-Ry,
what a stupid name, actually growled at me! Growled at
me.  I can only imagine what Bobbie had told him about
me.

"Ryan, enough please." He moved out of his grip and
closer to me. "JJ, don't forget the meet tomorrow at
noon at the country club. Promise you will come. And
the movie tonight! Early show. I have a team curfew,
so in bed by 10 pm.  OK?"

 He pushed the door open and stepped out.  Ry-Ry stood
right beside him, arm over his shoulder, glaring at
me. "See you JJ," he turned to the school and headed
off for class. Ry-Ry walking beside him, flipped me
the bird and pulled Bobbie closer to him. As they
walked Bobbie leaned in and whispered something to
Ryan. Not a good reaction from the guard dog, boy
friend, swim troll, what ever he was.  I watched them
head up the steps, surrounded by 6 or 7 other
swimmers, all dressed alike, forming this wedge, as
they moved into school. At the door, he turned and
waved again before disappearing into the shadow.

"He's right! I can't tell anyone about any of this.
Who can I tell? Hey Dad, got a minute, I fucked Bobbie
this morning and have a little problem.. Ma, how about
some advice about my new lover, you know him pretty
good... Eric, buddy, what till I tell you about last
night and the guy that I gave a blow job too..." There
was no one to tell.  No way no how no ever.  It was a
secret and like all secrets covered in guilt. I was
screwed. Why did I ever do it? What was wrong with me?
 A guy!  My brother! What a nightmare. I turned into
the school parking lot and there was Jen....

"Bobbie what is going on? You hate your brother! Now a
movie and the swim meet? I thought that we were going
to the movies tonight.  Not you and jerk off."

"Ryan everything has changed. Bobbie and I spent some
time together last night and this morning.  It ok now.
We're cool..."

"You did it with him didn't you?" he muttered in my
ear.  "You did with him!  Shit!  How could you Bobbie?
What about us?" He slammed his hand into the locker
behind me. Face inches from mine, nostrils flaring, he
waited for a response.

"Ryan, you are not my boy friend! I told you that over
and over again. And I did not do it with him. And If I
did,  it's none of your business anyhow. So piss off
and stop acting like the biggest gorilla in the
jungle."

"Bobbie, something changed with you and him and I
think that you fucked him. You were talking about it
the other night at my house.  Remember, when were in
bed Bobbie? In bed together, naked, and rubbing our
cocks against each other. REMEMBER? You said,  `that
it would always be just us.  Just you and me Ryan.'
And then I gave you a blow job. You fucked him! Just
tell me the truth. I can deal with it," his voice
getting louder in the hallway.

"Ryan not so loud man. Shut up! Get lost.  So what, I
wanted the blow job and you wanted to do it.  We are
not boy friends. Understand? I like you a lot. A real
lot.  I enjoy the boy sex thing with you.  It's been
cool and kept me from going crazy. I am so glad to
find a friend that is gay. You're a sweet guy and my
best friend. But I'm late for chemistry. That's the
bell. Stop by at lunch. That new kid is eating with
me. He's interested in the swim team and coach wants
him to try out after the meet.  See you later." I
hugged him quick and turned the opposite way.

"I know that you did it with him. How could you
Bobbie? Don't go yet! I'm sorry. Sorry. I just get so
messed up when I think about you and anybody else. It
makes so mad I could crush your brother right now. I
know that you and him did it. "

"Ryan stop shouting at me. I got to go now.  We'll
talk about this later. After practice maybe. See you
at lunch ok?" and I headed down the hall to chem.  My
ass was so sore.  I had to be walking funny. Felt like
someone stuck a broom stick up my butt. A little
cramping deep inside of my stomach.  I needed to take
a dump.  Take a note Bobbie, no more Vaseline!  Works
good but I think that my insides don't like the stuff.
 Next time get some real lube. Next time?  What next
time? JJ will never even talk to me again. Ryan will
never touch me again. Not true I can always work Ryan
however I want. "God I need to take a dump," stumbling
into the lockers, I dropped my books and doubled over.


"Bobbie!  Bobbie! Let me help you...

"Hi Jen. What's up babe?"

"JJ where have you been?  I called your cell phone all
night and you never answered. Where were you?"

What to say?  With Bobbie?  In bed with my brother?
"Sorry Jen I was tired and went to bed early. A hard
day at practice. Anything special happening? I need to
cancel for tonight. My brother and I..."

"Cancel our date tonight? JJ we always spend Friday
night together. We're going to that party at Beau's
house. We planned this for weeks.  What is going on?
You and your brother? Are you kidding me? You don't
even like Bobbie," her voice getting louder and
louder.

"Jen, something came up last night and I promised him
that I would take him to the movies.  Cut me a little
slack here. It's just one night and it's important for
him. We're going to see the new Lord of the Rings
movie at the mall. It's just one night. I can join you
at the party about 11 pm." Did I sound like a whimp or
what?  Was I really asking her permission to do this?
Nothing was going right for me today.

"JJ, forget it.  Go to the movies with boy wonder.  We
made a date and I want you to spend the time with me.
Is he sick or something? In trouble? Are you
babysitting him?"

" Jen knock it off. It's just a movie and I..."

"JJ, go the movies with your brother. In fact take him
to the party after the movie. I don't care. You
choose.  Me or him."

She was so pissed. I hate it when she acts like this.
Like she owns me. Like I have no personal life.  "Fine
Jen, see you around then. I am going to the movies
with Bobbie," I snarled at her.  "I prefer him anyway
at least he's happy to see me. You are such a bitch
sometimes Jen." She stomped off towards the school. I
can't believe this! I just broke up with a beautiful
girl over my brother. I was going to spend the entire
summer with her. My last summer before college. What
is wrong with me? I just chose my little kid brother
over a gorgeous blond with great tits. "Jen, wait up a
minute!" She never turned around.

"Fuck you JJ!"

How did I ever get into this mess?  I'm going to kick
JJ's ass. This morning was a nightmare.  At first it
seemed so cool.  He was lying there, all soft and
warm, pushing back when I pushed in. So different than
doing it with a girl.  He was moaning so loud. I
clamped my hand over his mouth.

"Bobbie be quiet!  Mom will hear you man." He nodded
his head and started licking my hand with his tongue.

"It feels so good JJ. I can't help it. SO good." He
leaned up and bit me on the shoulder.  What a bitch!
He bit me right on the bridge where my neck and
shoulder join. Bit me hard and was shaking his head
back and forth. It was so wild. I felt his ass start
to clamp down on me.

"JJ, I'm going to shoot now.  I can't help it. It's
coming. My balls are boiling over and here it comes."
He buried his face in my neck and started to moan. He
was such a fuck animal. Wrapping his arms around me
and squeezing me so tight. His ass clamping down, his
legs twitching in the air over me.  I was losing it
too. Everything was turning so dark. My eyes shutting,
my breathing getting faster and faster.  I thrust deep
into to him, my cock was so slick, gliding in and out
of his hot hole. Every time I pulled out completely,
his box would shut, and I slid it back into him. It
felt so great. He moaned again and started to squirt.
Warm liquid shooting up between us. I was going deep
into blackness, my mind just numb with pleasure.

"Bobbie, Bobbie, I going to fill your ass with my cum.
You are so hot boy. I love the way that my cock feels
in you. "

He moaned again, opened his mouth, and bite me hard
again. His teeth digging into me, his lips sucking at
my neck. My head seemed to explode. My cock was
pumping juice, the stars in my head were a million
different colors, all flashing at different speeds. I
arched up and thrust once more. Once more, my hips
pushing back and forth, his legs dancing around me,
welcoming me, forcing me to finish this mad passion to
possess him.

"BOBBIE," I roared into the bright light bouncing in
my head, "BOBBIE!" He clung tight to me like a monkey,
riding me as I pushed deep into him. Sweat running
down between us, that slapping sucking sound bodies
make when humping each other in the hot summer, a
constant back ground noise to the moaning and gasping
coming from us. I collapsed onto him. Slipped my hands
beneath him and pulled him to me.

"Jesus Bobbie that was so wild!" I whispered,
struggling to catch my breath. "So fucking wild. You
are a great fuck. I love you so much brother." I
kissed his cheeks and chin.  Licked his eyes and
stared into his hidden boy world. "Where did you learn
to do this? It was so fantastic. Was it good for you?
Bobbie is everything ok?"

"JJ that was awesome man. I never felt anything like
that in my life." He nuzzled me with his lips and I
turned my head to kiss him. A light kiss, filled with
tenderness, he shifted beneath me, his legs wrapped
around my ass. It felt so natural to be here with him.
So warm and right. "I loved it when you pushed into
me. Your cock is so big and hot. I never did this with
anyone else before. I wanted to do it with you first.
I wanted to celebrate my..."

"You talk to much brother!" I interrupted him, "Kiss
me again, it seems so strange to be here with you and
so good." I brushed my hand over his back and moved my
fingers down to stroke his ass.

"JJ, move over a little. My crotch is getting
crushed."

I pushed off him and slipped next to him. He buried
himself against me. His hands rubbing my chest. I
pulled him close and kissed him again. "So strange to
kiss a boy, so different than a girl. I wonder what it
is about this whole gay sex thing." My hand was
following his valley and pushing into his crack.  i
felt a tingling sensation down there again, in my
crotch. It started to move, to get hard and expand.
"Bobbie, I want to do it again with you. Man I want to
put in you and find that fucky fuck feeling again." I
began to push him into position. A nice spoon fuck,
his ass was so sweet and firm. I wanted to kiss it a
little, to lick it, and smell him.

"JJ tell me that it was good for you.  I never did
this before and it ..."

"Boys! Boys are you up yet?" asked  mom from the
hallway.  "It's late and you'll miss school." She
turned into the room and stopped.