Date: Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:28:53 -0800
From: freddie panda <freddie_thomas@hotmail.com>
Subject: Long Way Home: Anxiety and Confusion

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Long Way Home


Chapter 1: anxiety and confusion

Hi my name is Steven; the beginning of this story took place when I was 16
years old. I was about to finish grade 10 at the time this story took
place. To describe myself back then, I was about 5 feet 7 inches or so, I
was lean but not skinny. I'm an average looking guy who's very social and
people seem to like me (no I'm not the heartthrob of the school but I'm not
the sad kid who doesn't have any friends too). I was still not sure about
my sexuality when this all started. I mean I'm not a flamboyant guy or the
really queery type but I am a crybaby. Other than that I guess I'm just an
average kid.

I have two best friends at school, Jake and Sam. It was really funny cause
we each have a nickname, which match our personality and looks. Jake's
about 5 foot 5 inches, kinda skinny (not undernourished skinny), but he's a
real cutie for me. He's a very cheery person who likes to play pranks on
anyone (boy cant tell how much trouble he's gotten us into). He's this one
big ball of energy that can't even stop for 1 second; he gotta jump here
and there all the time. And that's where he got his nickname, monkey boy.

Sam at about 5 feet 9 inches, on the other hand, is the calm, gentle and
level headed one of our group (but then again we're 16, how level headed
can we be). He's like the big brother to Jake and me. At first Jake
suggested we call him owl since he's calm and Zen and all that other shit,
I didn't like it, said its lame, I wanted Sam to be bear. So we call him
just that.

Which comes down to me, see me being youngest one by a few months of our
group, and am kinda spoiled cause I will not be happy until I get what I
want. Plus a lot of my friends said I look like one, I was since then
called panda (since we thought panda looks cute and spoiled. hehe I
know.. doesn't make sense but that's how it was).

Well let's get along with the story, so this is how it all started...

It was my last week of school, I just finished all my final exams and I
think I did pretty well if I may say so myself. We don't have any more
class for this week; I don't even know why we're even here. Everybody else
was busy with their things, goofing around with friends, talking and
planning about their summer holiday. I was sitting at the back of the class
looking glum, when Jake, one of my best friends came up and sat next to me.

"Sup panda? Still confused about what to do?" I told Jake the other day
that my mom asked me if I wanted to go to Canada to continue my studies.

"Hey man, sup?" I replied unenthusiastically, "yeah I still can't make up
my mind, I mean yeah it's an awesome opportunity for me to go to Canada but
I would really miss my family and you guys." I gave a sad smile and punched
his shoulder playfully as I said that.

"Well I wish I can help you buddy.." he suddenly got serious which is
unusual for him since he's a very cheery hyperactive person, "if you ask my
opinion; as a selfish friend, I really don't want you to go.." I cut him in
mid-sentence, "why is that? Do you have the hots for me? Is poor wittle
Jakey gonna miss me if I go?" I asked him in my most taunting tone
possible.

He didn't laugh at my joke so I went silent, "HA HA.. Here I'm trying to be
serious and you're making fun of me. Shut up and let me finish will ya.. It
would be selfish of me to ask you to stay, cause u know this is a great
opportunity for you to leave this dump. So there... that's what I think
about it."

I kept quiet thinking about what he said for a minute then I asked him, "
but... seriously dude, would you miss me if I go away? One thing that's
been really bugging me is I have this stupid thoughts that if I go,
everyone's gonna forget about me. We'll just go our separate
ways... and... erm... I don't want that..." I really couldn't contain
myself. I just sat there trying to hold back my tears; trying to calm
myself down cause hey what would everybody think.

Jake just looked at me and he discreetly grabs a hold of my hand and he
told me, "How can you even think that, dude.. After all we've been through
together. You've helped me through my parents divorce; you've been there
for me dude. Do you think I would just forget about you? Do you even have
to ask that?" he suddenly got back to his cheery self and yelled for my
other best friend Sam.

Sam came to where we were sitting, "Sup you two? Makin out back here?" he
laughs at his own joke. Then he looks at me and sees that I was almost
crying, "Hey what's wrong panda? What did you do to him you monkey?" he
looked at Jake accusingly.

I kinda smiled when he said that, I really like being the baby of the
group. We have fun together and stuff but I always get what I want. It's
like I'm the little brother of those two. "Keep your voice down will you!
Do you want everyone to know I'm back here crying my eyes off?" I whispered
to them.

Sam grabbed a chair nearby and sat in front of me and Jake, which is a good
thing cause now no one can see me. "So which one of you gonna tell me
what's going on?" so Jake answered him, "doofus here thinks we're gonna
forget about him if he goes to Canada. I told him that would never happen,
but see the big panda baby is still sad. Maybe you can do a better job."

Sam just sat there saying nothing, he too suddenly looked serious and sad,
"stupid panda... how long have we known each other? Me, you and monkey
here. I've known you since grade 1; you're the first friend I have at
school. Then monkey here move in on grade 2. Do you remember what we've
been through together? We've gotten this far and we're still best friends,
heck you two are like my brothers. Don't ever think, not even for a second
that me or Jake will forget about u." the way he said it, it wasn't even a
question, it was a statement. " Even if freak monkey boy here ever forgets
about you, I will smack some sense into him." Sam laughs as he pulls Jake
and gives him a noogie.

"Now go wash your face before someone sees u cryin, u crybaby." Sam smiles
at me and as he stands up, he rustles my hair and took off to the front of
the class to talk to some of our other friends.

I went to the washroom to wash my face and there I thought to myself, hey
maybe this isn't going to be that bad. I mean hey they can still visit me
and I can go back home from time to time.

When I sat back down in my seat at the back of the classroom, Jake who
you'd prolly guess by now is running around in the class talking to
everyone, came running back to me,

"Hey, u still up for going to the movies with us later tonight right?" he
asked.

"Oh yeah definitely, but we gotta go to a later movie cause I'll be having
dinner with my family first."

"Oohh what's your mom gonna cook? I love her cooking. Can I come over for
dinner?" it was normal for him or Sam to be at my house or me at theirs. As
I've told you we're really close.

"Geez slow down you monkey, somebody forgot to take their pill this
morning." I laughed, "Well yea just come down to my place. You know you're
always welcome; you practically live there anyways. And would it bother you
to stop teasing Evan? Every time you're at my place you two always fight
like two crazy monkeys" oh yea, I forgot to mention, Evan is my younger
brother, he's 10.

"For your information we don't always fight, we also make fun of each
other", he smiled, "You know I love the little tyke and he likes me too,
that's just our way of having fun together."

"Yeah like one monkey is not enough. Now there's two in my house." I said
to Jake.

The rest of the day at school was pretty much uneventful and about 5
minutes before the dismissal bell, Sam came up to me and Jake, "so who's
gonna drive today? I can pick you guys up if you want."

"Oh yea bear, Jake's gonna come have dinner at my place before we go, you
wanna come too?"

"Nah not today, mom's cooking my favourite foods at home since I've been
doing so well this year. And man, we shoulda call you leech, I think you
spend more time at panda's place then at your own home." Joked Sam, "ok so
do you want me to pick you guys at panda's place then?"

"We'll pick you up bear, your house is closer to the theaters
anyways. Besides, I wanna see Jake's new ride." See Jake's dad idea of
showing his love to his son is by sending him gifts on every occasion.

"Oh right, I wanna see it too. Well call me before u guys come pick me up
ok? So I'll see you guys later."

Sam walked to where he parked his car while me and Jake went to where I
parked mine. "Are you coming straight to my place or you going back home
first?"

"Well you gotta take me home now so I can get the car then we can go to
your place." He replied, "do I really need to drive tonight panda? You know
I hate that car. Can't we just take your car?"

"No one said you have to drive it, I can drive it. Hey I can even keep it."
I said as I tried to make him laugh.

"Hey you can keep it for all I care. Oh by the way, I'm sleeping over at
your place today. That cool?" Jake asked me.

"Dude just move all your stuff to my house, my mom and dad are practically
thinking of you as one of their sons", I thought for a second then added,
"and hey you can keep Evan company while I'm gone"

"Lets forget about that for now dude, you're still gonna be here for a
month right? Lets just have as much fun as we can while you're still
here. And it's not like you're leaving for good."

As we got in the car he added, " I promise you, we'll try to visit you on
holidays. I'll ask for a vacation trip to Canada from my dad next time he's
gonna send me a present. If he's gonna keep doing that, might as well use
it to my advantage." He said it looking kinda pissed.

"Sweet, way to stick it to the man. So lets go get your car then." We drive
to his house, which is like 15 minutes from school by car.

As soon as we arrived at his place, one of his maids came out and let us
in. I've been to his place countless times but it still amazes me to this
day. It isn't huge or anything but his mom, being a home designer, made the
place look amazing. I'm not going into much detail but lets just say, his
house makes you feel like you're in Japan. It even has a koi pond and a
sand garden at the front yard. So anyway, we got in and he go straight to
his room to get some stuff, I don't feel like going up today so I sat down
in the living room. Then I saw his mom coming into the living room.

"Hi Mrs. S, didn't know you're at home today or I woulda go say hi to you."
I said as I gave her a kiss on the cheek.

"Hey Steve, how are you today? Good day at school? I heard from Jake you're
doing really great at school." She sat down at one of the sofa.

"I'm doing ok I guess. Oh did he tell you that I might be leaving for
Canada soon? Well that is if I decided to go."

"Oh is that so? Jake is going to be really upset when you leave; you know
he talks about you a lot. He really looks up to you."

I just smiled at what she said and thought; well here I am thinking that
he's the best guy ever. Yeah I do well at school but he does better and
also he's very active in school, everybody just adores him. To think that
he looks up to me is kinda silly. I mean what's there in me to look up to?

At that moment I saw Jake enter the living room, he saw his mother in there
with me, "hey mom didn't know you're home. How was your day?"

"Oh it was good sweetheart. I went to that auction I told you about and got
some things. Are you having lunch at home today? I cooked some food for you
earlier" she asked him.

"Oh really? Awesome! Lets go eat. Oh yeah mom, I'm going to the movies with
panda and bear today and then I'm staying over at panda's place."

"That sounds like a lovely evening, well I'll be going on a trip for a few
days too and I really need to pack now. It was nice seeing you again Steve
and have fun tonight you guys."

"Aren't you gonna have lunch with us mom?" Jake said sounding a little bit
disappointed.

"I already had lunch Jakey and I really need to pack. Ok honey? I love
you." She kissed Jake's forehead and then walk to the door.

"Love you too... mom" she was gone before he even finished saying it.

It was really awkward for a second there; I can feel how sad Jake is. And
don't get me wrong here, Jake has a really close relationship with his mom,
but sometimes she just get caught up with all her stuff that she forgot
about his feelings.

"Race you to the kitchen. Last one in gotta wash the dishes." I tried to
cheer him up and ran for the kitchen. I got there first and his maid
already has the table set for us.

"No fair, you didn't even say go. Like hell I'm gonna do the dishes. You're
gonna do it for me, aren't you rosie?" He said to his maid as he sat down.

"noone's touching the dishes but me. the last time you two were washing the
dishes, you filled the kitchen with soap bubbles." Rosie said to us.

We laughed remembering about that time. So we finished our lunch quickly
and then left for my house.

It was about 2 pm when we got to my house, so Evan must be home from school
by now. After we both parked our cars, we got in the house to be greeted by
Evan, he's practically the smaller version of Jake. He's hyperactive and he
likes to sneak up on people and give them a scare. So as soon as he saw me
and Jake, he started yelling.

"MOM! PANDA'S HOME AND HE BROUGHT THE BAD MONKEY WITH HIM!" he laughs and
playfully punches Jake.

Jake caught his hand and started tickling him around, it got Evan laughing
hysterically. Then Jake grabs him up and puts him on his shoulder, "I'm a
bad monkey? You're a bad monkey!" then we went to the living room, Evan
still on Jake's shoulder, to see mom.

"Now you two cut it out. Noone's gonna be bad when I'm around. You know
what I can do." Mom tried to give them the best angry look she can muster
but then can't help but to smile when she saw how Evan and Jake were
goofing around.

"How was your day honey?" she asked me

"It was slow and boring mom, the usual." I replied

She laughs, "with this guy around you all day? I can hardly believe it's
boring. You two didn't get into any troubles did you?"

"Hey hey mrs. W I'm hurt that you would think we're troublemakers", Jake
looked at her with his goofy I-am-hurt look and laughs, "we're not
troublemakers, we're just different than the other rule-obeying-ass-kissing
drones at school." He quickly added, "Oops, did I say ass? I mean behind."

Mom just smiled and shook her head and told us to play nice and left for
the kitchen.

"So let's put your stuff in my room first and then we can go to the game
room. I got this new game you're gonna love." I went for the stairs with
Jake following behind.

"I wanna go play too! Panda give me a piggyback ride!!" Evan jumped up and
down in front of me.  "Go ask jake to give you one!" I said to him.

"No I want you to give me one! C'MON, pleassseeeee", he gave me the cutest
puppy eyes you know you cant resist.

"Okay okay, enough with the puppy eyes. Geez one more monkey in this house
and I'd go insane", I said as I kneeled down so he can get on my back.

"Whoa this monkey is turning into a hippo", I joked, "let's hope I don't
drop you on the stairs, ok?" he grabbed tighter to my neck when I said
that, it made me smile.

As we got on the second floor, I said to him, "arriving at second
floor. Panda's room, Evan's room and the game room. All passenger please
get off", I was about to let him go when his face got closer to mine and he
kissed my cheeks, "thanks for the ride Mr. escalator man".

"Awww how sweet is that. Maybe I should move here to see if I can get one
of those one of these days." Jake laughed at the sight. Evan then ran to my
room.

I just blush and laugh at what Jake said. We went to my room and there was
Evan, jumping on my bed laughing his head off. It's nice to see how easy
kids can have fun. So I told Jake to put his stuff away and I went to grab
some clothes to change myself.

After that we went to the game room and played this new fighting game I
just got for my PS2. We take turns playing, whoever loses has to change
place with the next person. Evan was really good at it and he kept winning,
so me and Jake decided to bug him while he played. Whenever one of us is
playing against Evan, the other would tickle him so he can't
concentrate. We had a lot of laughs that afternoon. Time flies when you're
having fun, before we know it, dad came sticking his head in the game room
and told us to wash up cause it's almost dinner time.

Again Evan asked me to give him a piggyback ride to his room, so I took him
to his room and then went back to my room. Jake was already there, and he
was talking on his cell phone,

"So the last showing of the movie is at 10:00 pm. Oh here comes panda, let
me ask him what he thinks." He covers the phone with his hand and ask me,
"you wanna watch "dawn of the dead" right? The last show time is at
10. wanna go see that?"

"Sounds good to me. Are you guys ok with it right?" Jake told Sam that
we're going to that one and then they said goodbye.

"Yeap, we're all set. We can leave at 8:30 so we can get good seats. Oh by
the way, can you grab me a towel Panda?" he said as he was getting his
clothes out of his backpack. I grabbed a new towel for him and gave it to
him.

"So you wanna go first or should I?" I asked him. See, me and Evan shared a
bathroom, and we have a bathtub and a shower in it. What usually happen is
me and Evan would take a shower at the same time, him in the tub and me in
the shower. And when Jake's sleeping over he usually lets me take a shower
first cause he's kinda shy to be naked around anyone.

"I'll go first, you always take forever in the shower. I'll be real quick."
Jake replied. So he started taking off his clothes and his pants, all this
time I was looking at him and I got this strange feeling inside me. I can't
take my eyes off his body. His chest was smooth and toned, his stomach was
lean and I can see the v shape of his pelvis going down to that forbidden
part of him. I can also see the beginning of his pubic hair too cause his
undies were a bit pulled down when he took off his pants. There were some
hairs under his armpit too, other than that and the tiny bit of pubic hair
showing, he was smooth like a baby's bottom. He wasn't big and bulky like
those body builders but there's also not a single ounce of fat showing on
his body.

He caught me looking at him and blushes, "looking hot their buddy", I joked
and swatted his butt nervously.

"Stop it you're embarrassing me" was all he could reply.

He got a towel around his waist and went in the shower. I heard Evan's
already in there playing with the water in the tub and then I heard the
water from the shower running.

I sat down on my bed, feeling really hot all over; I'm having a hard on
just thinking about how hot Jake looks. I was confused, why am I feeling
this way for him. To be honest with myself, I have got this feeling of
longing for some time now. I don't know what I should do with these
feelings. Should I tell Jake about it? Would he be angry at me if he found
out? I can't risk losing him as a friend. I'm really afraid of losing
him. So I decided to just keep it to myself for now. Then I felt a tap on
my shoulder, I jerked and turned around.

"Whoa, relax man, it's me. What are you so tense about?" and there Jake
stood with a towel around his waist, his hair still wet and his body
glistening from the shower he just took. He looked really HOT! I just sat
there staring at him saying nothing.

"Hey panda are you ok? What's up with you man? Snap out of it!" Jake said
getting a little concerned at me.

I blinked once, twice and found my voice, "oh it's nothing, was just
thinking about something. Go get dressed man, can't keep mom waiting long."
I smiled weakly at him when I said that.

So I got in the shower and there was Evan still there playing with his
robot toys in the tub, I feel like I need some privacy right now so I said
to him,

"Hey you, better get yourself out of the tub now before you turn into a
prune."

"Awww do I have to?"

"Yes, now c'mon lets dry u up." I grabbed his towel, dried him up and then
sent him to his room.

After Evan went to his room, I turned on the shower and got a nice cold
bath to cool my head off. I can't stop imagining Jake's body and I was
really confused about it, but the cold shower really helped. After about 20
minutes I got out of the shower and dried myself off and got out of the
bathroom, I was in my boxer.

"Hey you're not lookin bad yourself too there", Jake said when he saw me. I
blushed and told him to shut up. I was particularly self-conscious about my
body that I dressed in speed record that night.

"What's up with you tonight panda? You're all jumpy and stuff. You having
your period or what?" Jake joked.

"No I just don't want to keep mom and dad waiting. OK?" I replied to him
kinda too snappy.

"Whoaa, easy there tiger, u don't have to bite my head off." Jake said
getting annoyed now.

"Lets just go down", I tried to control myself. I really don't wanna fight
with him. I checked Evan's room before going down and he was already gone.

As we got down the stairs I said to Jake, "hey monk, sorry for snapping at
you like that. I just got a lot on my mind".

He looked at me smiling, put his hand on my shoulder and pulled me to him
so my head was resting on his shoulder, "next time you snap at me like
that, I'm gonna give you the worse noogie ever. But I still wanna know
what's bothering you."

"I'll tell you when I figure it out myself, deal?" I replied, I am really
loving this extra attention that he always give me. I mean yes me, Jake and
Sam are all close friends, but I feel like them two always give extra
attention for me, maybe because I am the crybaby of the group. Oh what the
heck, who cares right? I AM LOVING IT.

So we got to the dining room and sat down. Mom, dad and Evan were already
there waiting for us. We apologize for being late (mom is awesome but she's
really strict about dinner). Soon we were eating and chatting about how our
day was, and I told mom about our plan to go to the movies later
tonight. As expected Evan started to whine that he wanted to come with us.

"Can I go with you guys? Pleaseeeee"

"No you can't, it's gonna be really late when it's over." Mom said to evan.

"Then how come panda get to go? I wanna go too. C'mon please dad..." he
kept whining about it.

I cut in before mom answered him, "how about this, tomorrow I'll go with
you to see any movie you want. If mom says yes that is"

"I'll go with you guys too and I'll even buy you popcorns", Jake chirped in
and squeezed Evan's nose playfully.

"Yes how about that? You can go tomorrow with Steve and Jake. That way
mommy and daddy can have some alone time too." she looks at dad and laughs
coyly.

"Eww mom, too much information there."

"Ok, but you gotta keep your promise tomorrow ok?" Evan said looking at me
then at Jake, "both of you."

"Have I ever broken any promise I made to you?" I said to him.

It was a fun, light dinner talk that we're having. Then mom got serious and
asked me, "so have you decided whether you're going or not Steve?"

"Where are we going? Are we going somewhere for the holiday?" Evan asked
excitedly.

"Mom can we talk about this later? I really don't wanna talk about it right
now." I was getting annoyed with his mom cause they have decided earlier
not to tell Evan yet about him leaving.

"No, tell me where are we going? Mom? Dad?" Evan looked back and forth from
mom to dad.

"I think we should tell Evan now, son", dad said to me and then he looks
back at Evan, "Evan, you brother is going away to study in Canada. He is
leaving next month."

"I haven't even made up my decision about it," I argued.

"WHAT?! HE'S GOING AWAY? HOW LONG WILL HE BE GONE? I DON'T WANT HIM TO GO!"
Evan screamed, "YOU CAN'T GO! I WON'T LET YOU GO! YOU'RE GOING BECAUSE YOU
HATE ME DON'T YOU! I PROMISE I'LL BE GOOD! JUST PLEASE... PLEASE DON'T
GO..." he's now in tears sobbing, suddenly he got up and ran out of the
dining room and then I heard him slam his bedroom door.

Dad looked at mom and said to her, "I think you should go up and talk to
him, honey..."

"No dad, I'll go talk to him. I know I should've told him earlier." I got
up and was walking to the stairs when I saw Jake about to follow me, "monk,
let me handle this, ok? Please?"

I walked up to the second floor and knocked on Evan's bedroom door.

"Hey, it's me. Can I come in Koda?" I said to Evan. see, Koda is the
nickname I gave to Evan. incase you're wondering what Koda is, it's the
small bear from Disney's movie "brother bear". We were watching it the
other day and I jokingly said to him, "hey you're really nosy like that
bear, so I'll call you Koda from now on." And you know what he likes it.

"NO, I DON'T WANNA SEE YOU! GO AWAY!" I can hear him sobbing as he yelled
at me and it breaks my heart. Then I sat down with my back resting on his
door. I can still hear him sobbing and at that I just wanna get inside and
hug him, but I know he's just gonna be angrier at me. So I sat there in
silence for a minute, almost in tears myself.

"ok, if you won't me in, then at least hear what I have to say."

No replies from Evan, good at least he's listening, I thought. So I talked.

"I really didn't plan any of this you know Koda. I was upset too when mom
asked me about it. I really didn't wanna go. But mom and dad think it's for
the best. If it's up to me, you know I wouldn't wanna go and leave
you. Sure they say I can decide but you know them, when they first planned
it, they know I'll be going no matter what I say."  I paused and waited for
him to say something. Still he kept quiet and all I can hear is his sobs.

"And Koda, you KNOW I don't hate you. Yea, we fight sometimes and we argue
a lot, but that's what brothers do. You know I love you, right?" I waited
and still no reply from Evan.

"You wanna hear a funny story? So when I was about 5 years old, I always
feel lonely at home cause I have no one to play with. So one night, I asked
mom and dad to get me a baby brother so I have someone to play with. They
laughed and told me it's not up to them, it's up to God. So that night, I
prayed to God, I remember what I said to Him, 'God, it's me Steven. Mom and
dad said you can give me a baby brother. Can you send one for me? Cause
it's really lonely here at home. If you send me a baby brother, I promise
you I'll love him and care for him and play with him everyday. Oh and I'll
promise I'll be good too.'" I chuckled when I remembered about it, "well
you know what, a few weeks later mom and dad told me that my prayers have
been answered. They're gonna have another baby. They told me it can be a
boy or a girl, but I know for sure it's gonna be a boy. And I was right,
cause now I have you."

I felt myself sliding back and realized that the door was opening. I turned
around and looked up to see Evan's face still sobbing but smiling,

"Stupid panda, that's not a funny story."

I got up and hugged him. He was still sobbing which caused me to tear up.

"Calm down lil buddy. I'm here... I'm here..." I tried to calm him down.

I got him back to his room, and then I lift him up and sat on his bed. All
this time he kept clinging on to me. So I got further up in his bed and
rest my back on the wall. I kept hugging him close to me while he's
sobbing.

"I'm not going anywhere, ok koda? I'm right here with you." I was slowly
rocking him and his sobs quieted down slowly and his breath becomes
calmer. The little bear fell asleep on my lap. He kept clinging to me tho
and I really don't wanna let go too. Not long after that, Jake knocked
softly on the door and then sticks his head in.

"I called Sam and told him we're not going to the movies tonight. Is the
tyke sleeping?" he whispered while walking to the bed. He sat beside me and
rustles Evan's hair gently.

"Yeah he is. And thanks for calling Sam, monk. I'm sorry you guys gotta
cancel your plans tonight. You could've go on without me."

"Nah, it's cool. We wouldn't be having fun too."

Jake rustles Evan's hair one last time and got up, then he looks at me and
smiled. He rustles my hair and punches my hand softly.

"You're doing an awesome job. I'll see you in the morning ok?"

He then left for my room. Leaving me and Evan alone for the night.

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Well that's it for now guys. Sorry if you're expecting hot sex right away,
that will be on the next chapter... I think. =P well any comments please
sent to freddie_thomas@hotmail.com

P.S. I want to thank Tommy Evans (incase u don't know who he is, here's his
story ---> /nifty/gay/young-friends/uriel-and-jon/ <---) for taking the
time to read my story and give comments about it before I sent it in.


Thanks,

Freddie.