Date: Sat, 1 Dec 2007 08:30:32 -0800
From: freddie panda <freddie_thomas@hotmail.com>
Subject: Long Way Home: Anxiety and Confusion 2

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Long Way Home


Previously on long way home:

Jake rustles Evan's hair one last time and got up, then he looks at me and
smiled. He rustles my hair and punches my hand softly.

"You're doing an awesome job. I'll see you in the morning ok?"

He then left for my room. Leaving me and Evan alone for the night.


Chapter 2: anxiety and confusion (continued)

As I sat there holding Evan, I started to wonder about what I felt when I
saw Jake half naked earlier. Why do I feel weird? Why do I feel this
wanting for him? Why right now? A thousand questions running through my
head. I need to talk about this with someone, but who? Who should I tell
this to? My head hurts thinking about all this; I need something to stop me
from thinking. It's too quiet here, maybe the stereo would help.

I tried to get up slowly to turn on the stereo without waking Evan up, but
he was clinging to me tightly that I can't help but disturb his sleep,

"Don't go panda, don't leave me", Evan said still with his eyes closed.

"I'm not going anywhere buddy, I'm just gonna turn on the stereo. Ok?" I
tried to calm him down.

"Sleep here with me tonight please", he said more awake now and kinda
pleading.

Before I can say anything, we heard a knock on the door. And then the door
was opened by mom, she sticks her head in and checked on us.

"Everything ok? Can I come in Evan?" she walked in away before Evan said
anything. She sat down on the bed and rubbed Evan's cheek.

"I'm sorry we didn't tell you earlier honey, but hey there's a surprise for
you. We're going to go to Canada too this holiday. Steven's gonna go first
tho to set things up with the school and then we'll go about a week or so
after him, since your dad can't get off from his work earlier." She smiled
to Evan as she said that.

"Can we talk about this tomorrow mom? I'm really sleepy", Evan said as he
turned around giving his back to mom. I think he is still kinda mad.

Mom looked a little bit sad and hurt when Evan did that. She got up and
walked to the door, but stopped before she went out.

"Go brush your teeth first before u go to bed ok, both of you? And I love
you guys, good night." And then she left.

"Evan, are you still mad at us?" I looked at him.

"I'm just sleepy, can I go back to sleep now?" he said a little annoyed.

"Well go brush your teeth first." I said as I walked to the bathroom. When
I was walked pass his bed, he raised his hands up, "I don't wanna walk, I'm
too tired"

"Lazy Koda!" I laughed as I sat on the bed and he got on my back, "you're
gonna break my back one of these days, Koda."

"Good so you wouldn't have to go. And by the way, I don't wanna wait to go
with mom and dad. I wanna go with you first."

"You know it would be busy for the first few days right? I gotta set
everything up with the school and I dunno what else they got planned. I
won't have a lot of time to play with you."

"I don't care! I wanna go with you." I didn't wanna argue with him so I
didn't push it further. I really wouldn't mind the company anyways; to be
honest I am kinda scared about going there alone.

"Ok, we'll talk about it with mom and dad tomorrow ok?"

We brushed our teeth and then got back to room, I put him down on the bed
and got in with him. The room was chilly by now since the air conditioning
was running at full blast. We got in under the covers and then he pulled my
hand to his stomach and scooted closer to me. I lay there hugging him and
before long he fell asleep.

I still wasn't feeling sleepy so I just lay there listening to the stereo,
looking at my sleeping baby brother. I smiled to myself thinking how cute
and vulnerable he looks while he's sleeping, very unlike his monkey self
when he's awake. I kissed his cheeks and then I heard the stereo playing a
song from the brother bear movie, the one called "look through my eyes". As
the song played on, a part of it caught my attention; yeah, "It will be all
right. You'll see, trust me, I'll be there watching over you". I'll
definitely be there watching over you koda, I hugged him tighter and before
I knew it, I was asleep.

I was woken up the next morning by the hyperactive brother bear I have. He
was always the morning kid while I'm the opposite.

"Wake up wake up WAKE UP! Hurry up panda, mom told me to wake you up now."
Evan was really putting his all to shake me up.

"C'mon koda, 5 more minutes. Go shower or something first, then wake me
up." I really don't wanna get up from bed.

"I'm done showering, even monkey's already downstairs having
breakfast. C'mon wake up!" he got on the bed and started to tickle me.

"Ok ok stop it! Ok I'll wake up already!" I laughed hysterically; he knows
I'm very sensitive to tickling.

I walked to the bathroom still sleepy with my eyes half closed, got
undressed and in the shower. I turned the water to cold and that really
woke me up. After that I went to brush my teeth and do my hair, I got out
and found my school uniform on the bed, with Evan nowhere in sight. Hm
imagine, having a 10-year-old help me get my uniform ready in the
morning. How the hell am I suppose to life on my own in a month. So I got
dressed and went down to the dining room.

Dad was getting up and almost out the door when I got there; he was in a
rush to work. Mom was also dressed up this morning, which is unusual since
she usually go out in the afternoon to do what moms do. Evan and Jake was
also there eating their breakfast playing with each other. I stopped at my
tracks and stared at them, Jake in particular. I noticed every detail, how
his eyes would brighten up when he smiles, and his smile... his reddish
pink lips would curl up a tiny bit, man he is cute, no beyond cute.. He's
beautiful.

"What?" Jake smiled at me as caught me staring at him


"Hey honey, I have to go to your aunts place in like 5 minutes and I will
be home late. So can you drive Evan to school and pick him up after?"

"Sure mom, but he gets out earlier than I do right?"

"Well he can wait at school until you pick him up. Now hurry and eat your
breakfast or you'll be late for school. I got to go now, I'll see you guys
later tonight ok?" she said as she took off.

"Oh yea mom, just wanna remind you, I'm taking Evan to the movies later
tonight. Have fun and say hi for me to aunt Jane."

"Say hi to her from me too" Evan chirped in.

"Monk you ready to go? Evan, have you got all your stuff?"

"Yeap" They both replied.

"Ok lets go then, or we're gonna be seriously late. Monk you wanna drive or
should I?" I looked at jake.

"I wanna drive" Evan said.

"Yea, sure you do you little monkey. But then we're never gonna get to
school. We're gonna end up in the hospital." I smiled at him.

"I'll drive your car" Jake replied.

All three of us grabbed our school bags. Mine was empty except for my ipod
and some playing cards. There's no more studying going on at school
anyways, might as well bring something to entertain myself. After that we
ran to the garage and got in my car.

"do you remember how to get to evan's school?" I asked

"I think I do. Just tell me if I take the wrong way."

Turns out he forgot where to go, and we had to turn back quiet a way. We
dropped him off and hurriedly went to our school. We arrived late but
didn't really care cause we thought we got nothing to do at school
anyways. But just our luck, this one teacher who don't really like me and
whom I don't like much too was on guard duty, she was waiting for late
arrivals.

"Shit, the fucking beast is out looking for prey today." I told Jake as
soon as I saw her outside the school building. I don't swear much but I
really hate this bitch with a passion.

"Hey you can tell her to shove it up her ass. You're leaving anyways." Jake
laughed.

"Yeah right and get in trouble at the last week of school. No thanks, lets
just get it over with." I said as I got out of the car. We acted like we
didn't care and walked to the building. She saw us and smiled, fuck I wanna
smack her face right there and then.

"Well well looks who it is. Mr. Jake and Steven, decided to grace our
school with your presence today, have you? Do you know what time is this?
You're already 30 minutes late." the bitch said.

"Well we had to drive my brother to his school and we got a little lost
going there." I tried explaining to her.

"I'm not interested in your excuses, detention 1 hour after school."

"But I have to pick my brother up after..."

"I said no excuses, do you want to make it 2 hours?"

"Well no mam", I said grudgingly.

Her smile grew wider, happy about her victory against me. And told us to
hurry and get to class.

"Freakin bitch pisses me off. If I ever found out where she lives, just
wait and see," I whispered talking to myself.

Jake laughed, "Well you're in luck pal, I just so happen to know where she
lives. I knew it would come in handy sooner or later. What you wanna do to
her?"

"Hm... I know exactly what I'm gonna do to her." I smiled my evil smile as
we walked in to our classroom. We explained to our homeroom teacher what
happened and he excused us. The seat at the back was taken, so we sat at
some seat near the front and then Sam walked to us.

"You guys sure are late today, I thought you two lazy bums ditched school
today and didn't tell me about it", he grabbed a chair and sat down with
us.

"I was planning that, but panda here was afraid you'd get mad and beat the
snot out of him" Jake joked.

"Did I? I thought you said you had plans with lunch lady Doris today,
monk. Some kind of a date or something?" I tried to look serious when I
said that, but then laughed and stuck my tongue out at jake.

"Ewww, lunch lady Doris? Can't you give me something better than that."
Jake acted disgusted.  "So, for real, why are u guys late?" Sam asked.

We told him what happened and about our encounter with the bitch.

"Man, she has been giving trouble to us all year. What's her damage
anwyays, did you guys ever do anything to her?" as he said that, he looked
specifically at monk.

"What are you looking at me for? I didn't do shit to her. Hell I stay as
far away as I can from her", Jake defended himself, "Maybe panda rejected
her."

"Oh well, by the way panda, is everything ok with Evan now? Dude you
should've told him about it sooner." Sam said to me.

"It's fine now bear, I think he's still a little mad but it's all cool. Oh
yea, I promised to take him see a movie tonight and monkey's going too. You
wanna go with us?"

"Hey sure, maybe I can take my little sister too. she always whine about
going with us, she likes you, you know monk."

"Ooo, somebody's got an admirer" I tease Jake.

"Oh shut up you two. I'm not interested in little girls. I'm not some sick
old pervert you know." He blushes as he said that, which made bear and me
laughed hysterically cause Jake don't get embarrassed often. And it's heck
funny when he does.

"So same plan as yesterday but on an earlier show? You guys pick me and my
sister up."

"Sounds good."

After that Jake went to talk to some friends, you know him; he can't stay
still for long. Sam just sat there keeping me company; I remembered about
the thoughts I had for jake last night and was thinking whether Sam is the
right person to talk to. I don't want him to think of me as weird, but then
again there's noone else I trust more than Sam to give me a good advice. He
was putting on his headphone when I grabbed his arm.

"erm, Sam... I'm confused about something... can I... erm never mind."

"What now panda? Just spill it out. What's bothering you?" he looked at me
intensely, but his eyes were warm and concerned. Haha that's him, the care
bear.

"Well, I can't figure out what it is, and I don't want you to think that
I'm weird."

"Just spill it out then. We already know you're weird. Nothing you can say
now that's gonna change that." He joked trying to lighten the mood.

"erm... ok but promise me you won't say anything to monk cause it's about
him." I searched for jake as I said that, he still back there talking to
the others.

"ok, I promise. Now tell me what it is, stop being so mysterious. Did you
get into a fight with monkey?"

"no... it's not that."

So I told him all about last night, how I felt when I saw jake half naked,
and the questions that's been in my head all night. Sam just sat there in
silence listening to my story and waited until I finish patiently. Then he
smiled at me and said,

"that wasn't so hard right? And no, I don't think you're weird or
anything. We've always known you're a sensitive guy, but I can't really
tell you if you're gay or not panda. It could just be that we always hang
out together that your feeling grew for him or it could also mean that you
like him. That's something you're gonna have to figure out yourself, but no
matter what it is, I'm here for you. And I'm sure monk feels the same way,
heck he might even get a big head cause you like him and not me." Sam said.

"Thanks bear, for not thinking that I'm weird", I feel like a small burden
has just been lifted off me, "it just frustrates me that this is all
happening when I have so much other to think about."

"Well don't carry the burden yourself. Talk to me when you're confused
about something." He pulled me closer to him as he said that.

We just sat there in silence for a few minutes, I noticed monk goofing
around with some friends at the back of the class. Again I can't help but
stare at him, even when he goofs around acting stupid he looks cute. And
again his smile, I've seen it a million times; I mean its monkey we're
talking here. I think he can smile through everything, and still I can't
get enough of it.

I really should stop thinking about him. So I took out the deck of cards
that I brought and called monk to come and play with us. Some of the other
kids joined in. we played on until the lunch bell rang, then we headed to
the cafeteria.

We grabbed some food and I deliberately called lunch lady Doris and tell
her Jake wants to talk to her. Jake just told me to shut up and we all
laughed. We picked a table near the window and sat. As I was about to eat
my lunch, Michael came up to me.

"Hey punk, you're sitting at my chair." Michael said staring at me, his two
goons standing behind him snickering.

Michael always acted like the tough guy and I've seen him bully the smaller
kids before. I never had anything to do with him, as far as we know, each
of us don't exist to the other. I wonder why he's messing with me today. I
was already in a bad mood today cause of all the problems I have right now.

"Dude, I'm not in the mood to play with you today. Go bully some little
kids, they don't hit back, but I will." I said to him coldly. Some of my
friends saw what's going on and they came to my table looking pissed at
Michael.

"Oohh, little shit is so tough with his friends helping him." Michael said
to his goons mocking me.

Monk and Sam stood up and pulled their chair to block the way. They looked
at my friends who are coming to help me.

"Guys, calm down and let Panda handle this." Sam said to them. Jake just
smiled as he stood there blocking the way.

"so do you wanna go find another seat or should I send you to the nurse's
office?" I challenged Michael.

"Yeah right, as soon as they see you getting beat up, they're all gonna
jump on us." Michael said still cocky but a little unsure.

"Look guys, if any of you butt in, monk and bear are gonna kick your ass."
I said to my friends. As I said that, Michael gave me a cheap blow. He
punched my stomach while I was talking. It took the wind out of me and I
fell down to my knees.

"Not so tough right now are you", Michael smiled at me, his goons just
stood there laughing.

I was getting really pissed and angry. I don't like to fight, cause when I
get pissed I lose control. Maybe I'm a little psychotic. I snickered and
then started to laugh hysterically.

"What the fuck are you laughing about? Are you crazy or something you
queer?" Michael said a bit shocked with my reaction.

I punched his knees as hard as I can which caused him to fall and as he was
going down I grabbed his hair and smashed his head on the chair.

"You want this chair so bad? Huh? HUH? ANSWER ME YOU FUCKING PRICK! YOU
WANT THIS CHAIR? WELL YOU CAN HAVE IT!" I pulled his hair and smashed his
face on the chair again, I heard his nose snap. I was gonna smash his head
again when Jake grabbed my arms and pulled me back. I pulled away from Jake
and tried to lunge at Michael again when Sam stepped in between us. He held
me tighter than Jake did.

"PANDA! Snap out of it!" he yelled as he looked into my eyes. I stopped
struggling and stood there, blinking.

"dudeeee, you messed him up good. I thought you're just gonna teach him a
lesson, not kill him." Jake said to me as he grabs a hold of me. Sam let me
go and helped Michael up, his nose was bleeding pretty badly; he then
whispered something to Michael before letting him go.

"You guys want some of these too", Sam said to Michael's goons. They just
ran as fast as they can while grabbing Michael with them.

"Shit, we're gonna be in so much trouble now", Jake said. I just stood
there in silence, still speechless from the anger.

"Well noone saw anything happen here, right?" Sam said to the others who
are now surrounding us.

"Nope, I don't see nothing. I just saw Michael trying to be an ass then
fell and broke his nose." Someone said, and then the others laughed and
agreed with that and then they broke off.

The three of us sat back down again, I pulled another chair cause the one I
sat on before was now bleeding.

"We'd still be in a lot trouble if that shit tells the teachers." Jake
said.

"Nah, we won't. Don't worry about it you monkey. Lets just finish our lunch
and get back to class." Sam said to Jake.

"What did you say to him Sam? Before he left. I saw you whispering
something to him." I asked still trying to get out of my daze.

"Well lets just say I convince him to not say about what really happened or
else." Was all that Sam would say.

"I still can't believe you smashed his face to the chair like that. That is
so freakin cool panda." Jake laughed. All that afternoon, he kept on
banging air to a chair and said how cool that is. Yes we're kinda retarded
like that. I still can't believe what I did myself. I mean I'm the last
person to be violent any other day, but today I just don't feel like
dealing with any more bullshit. It went as usual the rest of the
afternoon. When the dismissal bell rang, we parted ways; me and Jake to the
detention room and Sam to home.

As we got in the detention room, I remembered that with all that's
happening today, I forgot to tell Evan I'm gonna be late. I tried getting a
permission to make a phone call but the teacher on duty wouldn't let me. I
was pissed but there's nothing I can do. I sat there fidgeting for an hour
before he finally let us go.

As soon as we got out, I called Evan's cell phone. He wasn't picking it up
so I tried again a couple of times, still he doesn't pick it up. I got a
little panic now, is he ok? Why isn't he picking up?

"Monk, he's not picking his phone up. Lets just hurry and go there. I hope
he's fine." I said sounding really worried now.

"Calm down panda, I'm sure he's fine. He prolly put his phone in his bag."
Jake tried to calm me down.

"Lets just hurry monk, please." Was all I could say.

Jake drove as fast as he can and we got at Evan's school at record speed. I
got out and I can't see him at the door, so I go in and went to the
teacher's lounge. I asked his homeroom teacher if he's here. He wasn't
there and his teacher doesn't know where he is. I'm getting really worried
by now. I tried calling him again but he's still not answering.

I ran to the cafeteria to check if he's there, but he's not. I then ran to
the playground, but can't find him there too. Where else can he be? The
library! I ran as fast as I can and got to the library, but it's already
closed for the day. Goddamit, please let him be ok. I'm really freaking out
by now. Silly thoughts started running through my head, what if he's
kidnapped, what if he got hurt? Then as I ran through his classroom, I saw
a glimpse of him. he was sitting there looking bored with a frown on his
face. I ran to him and hugged him, but he pushes me back.

"Jesus Evan, so this is where you've been. I've been running around looking
for you. I thought something happened to you. Why didn't u answer my call?"
I looked at his face.

He looked at me and asked me angrily, "Where have you been? I've been
waiting for you for more than two hours. I thought you're gonna pick me up
as soon as you got out of school."

"I'm sorry lil buddy, I got into trouble cause I got in late this
morning. And I forgot to call you and tell you about it. I didn't mean to
make you wait that long." I explained, "please don't be mad, I've had a
really bad day, I can't have you being mad at me right now."

"What happened to you?" he asked suddenly sounding concerned.

"Tell me first you're not mad at me, then I'll tell you all about it on our
way home." I pleaded to him.

"Fine, I'm not mad at you. Just don't make me wait like that
again. Everyone went home like an hour ago and I was getting bored here."
he smiled as he said that, grabbed my hand and pull me to the door.

"Oh and Evan, don't scare me like that again or you're gonna get it" I
tickled him as I said that, he laughed hysterically. Then I stopped, got
down on one knee. He smiled and got on my back.

"Hey, I'm hungry panda." he said as we walked to the door.

"Well let's go get something to eat at McDonalds, you can have your
favourite."

"And a Sundae?" he added

"Yea and a Sundae, but don't tell mom about it." I said to him. I called
Jake to tell him I found Evan so he wouldn't worry.

We got out and got on the car, then I asked Jake to drive so I can tell
Evan what happened today at school. As I told my story, Jake keep saying
how cool it was, that Evan shoulda been there to see his brother went
berserk. I hate it when I go crazy so I told Jake to shut it. Then we
grabbed some lunch at McDonalds and went back to my place.

As we got out of the car, I looked at my watch. Still a few hours before we
have to get ready for the movie. I wanted to talk to Jake, no I needed to
talk to Jake. So when we got in the house, I picked Evan up and told him,

"Ok buddy, remember my promise yesterday? We're going to the movies later
on, but first you gotta take a nap so you don't get sleepy at the movies
ok?"

"Awww do I have to? I'm not feeling tired at all", but his fatigue betrayed
him, cause he yawned as he said that.

"Oh yea? Then what was that? You singing?" I started to tickle him.

"Ok ok but you gotta carry me up to my room."

"Don't I always?" I picked him up and took him to his room, Jake was
following behind and he went to my room.

I got into Evan's bedroom, put him in bed and turned on the air
conditioning.

"I'll wake you up in a few hours ok Koda? Love ya lil bear."

Then I went to the bathroom that's separating our room and sat on the
toilet seat. I was getting nervous and sweaty. My mind was running fast
again, do I really wanna tell him? What would his reaction be? I know he's
gonna hate me, I just know it! But then again, I can't keep this any
longer. We never kept secrets from each other, he's gonna notice sooner or
later that I'm hiding something. Besides bear said he'd probably be ok with
it. dammit, what do I do!?

A knock on the bathroom door made me jump and I was snapped out of it.

"Hey, is that you in there panda? I need to use the bathroom, hurry it up
will you. Are you taking a dump or something?" Jake said.

"I.. I'm almost done. Gimme one sec."

As I opened the door, Jake came running in.

"Took you long enough, I almost peed my pants."

I don't know why but I blushed when he said that. And with all the thoughts
running through my head, I just stood there absent-mindedly while he peed.

"What? You need to pee too? Or are you admiring my ass?"

"Oo... I.. I'm sorry." I was flustered and quickly got out of the bathroom.

When he got out of the bathroom, he looked at me sitting on the
bed. Staring blankly at the bathroom door, lost in my own thoughts.

"Dude, what have gotten into you these past few days? You don't talk as
much, you keep spacing out on me and that fight today, you meant to hurt
him real bad dude. Is something bothering you? Tell me will ya. You know
you can trust me."

When he said that, something in me just broke. All my defenses were blown
to bits and everything just came out flowing like a river.

"See, that's the problem monk. I don't know if I can tell you this without
making you upset. I'm afraid you're gonna hate me when you find out. I
don't wanna lose you monk, I really really don't." I started to sob a
little, but I tried to calm myself down.

"I don't know for sure what I'm feeling, but I think I like you monk. I
don't know if it's love or just lust or the fact that we spend almost
everyday together made me feel something, I just know that whenever I'm
with you I can't stop thinking about you, or how hot you look." I blushed a
deep red when I said that.

He stood there dumbfounded as I practically confessed my feelings for him,
I can't believe I said he's hot! At his face! He's gonna beat me up now and
leave! I just know it!

"Monk, say something. Are you mad at me? Please don't be mad, I know I
shouldn't have said anything to you. But I can't keep these... these
FEELINGS I have... do you hate me now monk? I don't care if you wanna beat
me up..."

Before I can finish my sentence, monk pressed a finger to my lips to shut
me up. He looks me in the eye and he kissed me on the lips. I was shocked
at his reaction and sat there dumbfounded; he kissed me long and he kissed
me tenderly, it was SWEET, IT WAS HEAVEN. When he finally broke off the
kiss, he sat there beside me on my bed. We just sat there in silence for a
few minutes, and then he grabs a hold of my hand.

"I don't know what have just gotten into me panda. I hope you're not
mad. To be honest with you, I've been getting the same feelings about
you. And I also don't know for sure what it is. But I'd be glad if you want
to figure this out together with me." Jake said seriously to me, all this
time he was still holding on to my hand tightly.

"Wow monk, I never expected this to be your reaction. I mean, I never
thought you'd like me too. You were always flirting around with the girls
at school and all. And how long have u felt for me?" I said in all my
confusion. The kiss, the answer.. Everything was not what I imagined it
would be, I mean yeah I'm happy about it but it still shocks me.

"I've had this feeling for you for some time now panda. I just hide it
better than you do I guess. And as I said, I don't know for sure what this
feeling is I have for you, I've never felt like this about another guy."

"Well... I'm not sure if I like that kiss u gave me just now. Do you think
we can do it again so I can make up my mind?" I smiled at him.

"You perv! Admit it! You just want another of them hot kisses I give." Jake
was laughing now, I'm so glad it didn't turn awkward or tense.

He let go of my hand and grabs my neck with his hand; I pulled his chin so
his lips can meet mine. As we got closer, my other hand found his back. I
started to rub his back slowly and I was getting really hot by now. The
kiss started slowly and passionately and then we both start to slowly felt
the urgency. He pushed his tongue to intrude my mouth; I let it in and let
my tongue intrude his. The kiss lasted a few minutes before we broke for
air. We were both breathing hard. I can feel my hard on pushing at my
school pants.

"Hm, not bad. I can get used to it." I joked

"Not bad?!?! You shoved your tongue down my throat panda! That wasn't not
bad, that was fucking awesome!" Jake said excitedly.

I pulled him further back so our heads were at the bedpost. I pulled him to
me so I was spooning him. My hard on was resting on his two butt cheeks
separated by our pants. His head just under my chin, I can still smell a
small hint of his shampoo and I can also smell the day's worth of sweat
from him. It really turned me on. I really felt the urgency to do more but
held myself back. I wanted this moment to last forever. he was purring
softly too not complaining.  "Can we just stay like this for a while? I
love the way you hold me right now panda." Jake said softly as he pushed
his body further back to me, if it was even possible. He purred and moved
his head to tickle my chin.

I said nothing back to him, just held him to me to answer his question. My
hand started to explore his body. From his face, I gently touched his eyes,
nose, and cheeks. When I reached his lips, I traced it softly and he opens
his mouth, licking my finger. Then I went to his chin and from there I went
to his chest. My fingers went for the top button of his shirt, and then I
whispered to him as I kissed his neck

"Can I open your shirt monk?" I was nibbling at his ear now.

He holds my hand and directed it to his top button; I took that as a
yes. So I started to unbutton his shirt one button at a time. After I got
them all off, I caressed his chest. He purred softly when I did that. and
then I circled his nipples and lightly pinches them, that got them
hard. All this time he was pushing his whole body back at me humping my
hard on through the fabric of our pants. I have turned on the air
conditioner in my room but we were both still felt hot and started to
sweat.

While my hands were still rubbing his nipples, I licked his neck and tasted
his sweat. It was salty but it wasn't bad. Then my hand went down to his
belly button, below it I can feel a small patch of fuzz started; it was his
happy trail leading down to his treasure down there. I played with his
happy trail rubbing it teasing him. I can feel his dick throbs with his
heartbeat.

"Somebody's getting impatient." I laughed as I turned his face to me and
kissed him again.

Has hands went to unbuckle his belt but I pushed them away. I played with
the belt buckle for a bit to tease him. He was getting desperate by now and
tried to unbuckle his own belt again.

"Now now monk, be patient ok. If you do, I'll reward you with something
later." I teased him again; I never knew I was such a tease. Wow I found
out a lot about myself today.

As I unbuckled his belt, we heard a knock on the door. We panicked and monk
hurriedly buttoned his shirt. I got up and opened the door. It was one of
the maids just checking what we wanted for dinner. I told her what to make
and she left. I closed and lock my bedroom door, then turned back at monk.

"That's why we don't rush things. Now where were we?" I looked at him
longingly.

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Hahaha... am I being a bitch leaving things at that? well read the next
chapter to know what happens between these two. I promise I will write the
next chapter faster than I did this one. Leave comments, response,
suggestions or whatever to my email (freddie_thomas@hotmail.com). Thanks
for waiting patiently.

Luv,

Freddie.