Date: Thu, 10 Jun 2004 14:19:02 -0700 (PDT)
From: Matt Parker <shyguy_bj@yahoo.com>
Subject: pride & family

Hello again boys, well I'm sorry that I left so many
of you hanging with my last story (two jocks and the
runt) and I do intend to finish it soon, but I was
just juiced about this story idea and wanted to put it
out. So here's my new story. Again, my stories will
contain sex, and sexual situations, but they're
probably not for people needing a quick JO. So I hope
you like it.

Also, I feel I have to mention again how AIDS is still
very present in the gay community. Condoms were made
for a reason. Let's use them boys! And also, not sure
where this story will be placed, it may be placed in
Incest, even though that may, or may not be the
direction I'm heading with this character. I just like
a lot of sexual heat, and honestly don't know what
turn the story might take. Characters often seem to
take on a life and direction of their own and end up
in places I hadn't intended from the start. So just
read on...

Pride & Family

Chapter 1 work work and more work!


My dad had found them. My gay porn mags I thought I'd
hidden so well. I'll never forget the rage in his
eyes, or the disappointment. His only son, looking at
this type of stuff. He beat me up pretty bad, and then
decided to send me to my uncle for the summer. I
adored my uncle and was scared to death my dad would
tell him.

See, my dad and my uncle are from the olden days where
men weren't men unless they lifted heavy things, or
dug in the dirt, or got dirty under cars all day long.
How could I face this man? Or my cousin? My cousin was
a little older than me I was 15, he 17. My uncle and
cousin lived on a farm. They worked a lot, and were
well muscled and well tanned from the hot Kentucky
summers.

My father had said how I embarrassed him when his
brother visited, showing him stories I'd written, or
my attempts at art. These weren't manly things, at
least, not to my father. I was never like other boys,
the ones that play rough, and get bruised and
scratched up. Maybe I just wasn't like other boys, or
maybe I just didn't know how to play. I'd grown up in
a small town, it was isolated and not many people were
around. By the time I went to school, I had no clue
how to act with other children, and I fast became an
outsider. When we moved to the city when I was 5 or
so, the trend continued, I was just too quiet and
withdrawn to make friends. But when my cousin and
uncle visited I'd always feel better. I could talk to
my cousin cause he was family, and I just loved my
uncle cause he'd always take time to wrestle around
with me, and even read my stories, or looked at my
drawings.

I couldn't let them find out what I was. What I did. I
didn't mean to keep looking at those magazines. I just
wanted to see a naked man. Just to see what other
males looked like. I thought once I'd satisfied my
curiosity I could stop, but deep down, I knew there
were other reasons to look. Sure, I wanted to know I
was normal, but I also felt a way I just never felt
when I looked at those pictures. I'd seen my dad's
playboys, and never understood what the big deal was.
But when I looked at those naked men with their big
dicks, and their hard muscles, I understood why people
liked porn so much. I knew how it felt to get horny,
to lust, to just want to fuck! But I didn't want to
feel that way lookin at these men. And I was going to
change it. I decided right there and then, I would
spend the summer workin hard, pouring every ounce of
sweet into becoming a real man! No more writing
stories, and doing pansy assed stuff like that! I
would be a man! I would learn to love lookin a women!
I would learn to feel that way about them! My uncle
would never know what a pervert his nephew was, like
my father now knew!

I arrived at the bus station, and my cousin Alex
picked me up. He loved showing off the fact that he
could drive now.

"Hey there, Mikey!" He said, as I got in.

He was smiling at me, things were the same. My dad
hadn't told them!! He couldn't have told them, or the
first thing Alex would do is beat the shit out of me!
I felt a little relived.

"Hey" I said quietly.

"Is that all you got to say to your cous? I ain't seen
you since you were 12 and I was 14!" He said.

I giggled. "sorry, I'm just kinda tired from the
trip." I said.

"I understand cous." He said.

On the way we talked a little more. Discussed
everything that had happened since the last time we
saw each other. Our moms both leaving us, dad's being
pains, that sort of thing. I couldn't help but stare
at my cousin's armpits. he was wearing a muscle shirt
that revealed his body.

He has a nice thin muscular teen physic. Sweet was
dripping all down his body. I couldn't' help it, it
turned me on! My cousin just talked away lookin at the
road and not paying attention to where I was lookin. I
began to tent my pants! I was so ashamed. My nice
cousin talking to me about everything under the sun,
just being nice and givin me a ride, and here I was,
checking him out!

I turned away and stared out the window at the scenery
rushing by. Mostly green, with a mixture of metallic
flashes from soda cans and things of that natures
littered along the highway.

We finally arrived, and I climbed out of my uncle's
old beat up truck. He came up from the field and
greeted me, and gave me a hug. He asked if I knew the
rules. That I had to pull my weight around here while
I was staying here, to work, and help out. I said I
understood.

"Dad, he just got here!" Alex said.

"I know, I just wanted to get that out of the way. I
am glad to see you Mikey." My uncle said and rustled
my hair the way he used to when I was little. I
smiled. "Now, let's get a look at you. Boy you've
gotten tall, a little skinny, but I think that's
what's in now." He said teasing me.

My uncle was a tall man, well built, but not gross
lookin like some of these body builder types. In fact
he his muscles weren't really that big, but I could
feel the power in them whenever he hugged me, or shock
my hands. He always told me, the bigger muscles aren't
as strong as the little ones that have seen a lot of
hard work. He always said if you had to bet on a fight
between a hardworkin guy who looked kinda small, and a
big terminator looking dude, bet on the small guy
cause he'd win every time! He knew that being small,
didn't mean being weak.

My uncle showed me around and introduced me to some of
the workers on the farm. All of them commented on me
being small, and saying stuff like how this summer was
gonna change me. I hoped so. I felt like there was
hope for me now. But then my uncle introduced me to
Ben, a 20 year old black guy he'd hired to help feed
the animals, and stuff. Ben was shirtless and the sun
glistened off his dark skin. The other men were all
older, 40ish, not bad, but not Ben! I got hard lookin
at him, and felt my knees turn to mush when he shock
my hand and I felt his powerful grip.

Strong young guys turn me on so much! Most of the guys
I'd seen in my mags were older guys in their 30's or
even 40's, I loved seeing guys my own age or near it
without their shirts on. They were sexy, and so much
more natural. Muscles turn me on, but the guys in the
mags are usually so big it doesn't look natural, and
it turns me on so much more to see a thin guy with
some muscle on him but not to the point that it looks
unnatural. Heck, even guys without a lot of muscle at
all, just thin and smooth, turn me on! But those guys
are never in my mags! I began to wonder if maybe the
reason I was still so curious is because I knew these
guys in my mag weren't what most guys look like. Maybe
I just needed to see guys like me! Maybe then it would
go away!

But right now I wasn't thinkin of any of that! All I
felt was the blood rushin to my dick. I chocked out a
"hello" and Ben said it was nice to meat me.
Thankfully, he didn't stay long. He had work to do.
After being shown around I was taken inside, and told
where I could sleep and so forth. My uncle said to
sleep tight, tomorrow was going to be rough!

I was woken up the next morning at 5 am! I'd only gone
to sleep a few hours earlier! But I didn't complain. I
was determined not to show weakness. The day started
with feeding the animals. Then me and Alex walked the
fence line to make sure there weren't any gaps from
which the animals could escape. Then we had to do lots
of other work that involved heavy lifting, pulling,
pushing, and moving! It was more work than I had done
in my whole life and it wasn't even lunch time yet!!!

The rest of the help began to arrive around 8am. My
uncle said Ben didn't come around much. He was only
part time help. Most of the work was done by him and
Alex, and some of the other staff. Ben was just trying
to earn some extra cash for the summer. He only worked
a few hours a day for my uncle, just basically double
checking the work he'd done. Feeding the animals my
uncle didn't have time to get to, and moving bags of
feed and grain, stuff like that. I was thankful. But
when Ben arrived at 12, it was already hot, and of
course, he worked without a shirt on! I was busy
myself, but I had to help Ben with some things,
usually Ben would be behind me, our bodies pressing
together and I'd be hard the whole time! Ben's sweet
on me, the feeling of his hard, hot body pressing into
mine. I could hardly stand it!

But Ben left at 5, and I was given some relief. But
then I still had my cousin to deal with! He insisted
on working with me. And he too took off his shirt
after a little while. He'd went nearly the whole day
with his white tshirt clinging to him, now as the sun
began to set, he decides to take it off!!! I guess, he
liked how the cool air felt. Since it was getting
dark, I didn't mind so much that I was getting hard, I
could hardly see my cousin's jeans, so I assumed, he
couldn't see mine either.

Finally, the day ended! We went inside, and I fell
into bed! I had never been this tired! My body ached,
and my muscles felt like they were torn and busted! My
uncle brought me a plate of diner in my room, and
laughed at me. He said he shoulda started me out a
little slower. But he said it would get easier.

I slept one of the deepest sleeps ever that night! But
it was all too short! Again, 5 am, and my uncle burst
into my room. He woke me up and said "let's get at
it".

On this day some of the posts, had to be dug up, and
reset! My uncle asked me and Alex if we'd mind helpin
out. Alex didn't want to, but I said sure. I wanted to
prove I was going to be a man! I couldn't say no! So I
helped dig, helped unload the posts all day, lifting
and pulling, rubbing blisters on my hands, sweeting
and feeling like I was about to die! But I did it
without complaint.

As I was digging a hole, Alex said "You'd better get
it right, you'll get a spanking if you mess up!"

I was a little scared. But my uncle chimed in "Alex,
don't scare the boy! You wouldn't know what to do if
someone whipped you! I don't whip no one for doing a
bad job." My uncle said, then paused for a moment.
"I'll only give a spankin for a really GOOD job!"` he
said laughing!

My eyes grew wide, and everyone laughed. I couldn't
believe he said that. My face turned blood red. "Aw
dad you embarrassed him." Alex said.

"Aw you know I'm kidin Mikey. Us guys joke around a
lot sometimes, I hope we don't offend you or nothin."
Uncle said.

"No, I don't care." I said.

"Good boy." Uncle said. "Some people don't like it
when you make sex jokes or say certain words."

"it's nothin I ain't heard" I said.

We went back to working, it was hard backbreaking
stuff. But at the end of the day the sun began to set
and the cool breeze began to blow across the field. We
finally finished, and my uncle said, "just look out
there, over that line! We did all that." We all sat
back lookin at it. There was something that felt so
great about that moment, standing there seeing what
I'd help do. Without warning a strong arm came around
my shoulder. My uncle pulled me up beside him, and
thanked me and Alex for helpin him. There was
something about that moment that felt so male, feeling
good about being there and doing a good job, a kind of
primal closeness.

My uncle patted me on the butt. I looked up at him,
not knowing what he was dong. He said "Remember, I
owed ya a spankin for doing a good job." He laughed
and my face again turned red.

"Would you stop that Dad, Mikey's going to think
you're a big perv!" Alex said.

I felt a little pain right in my heart. My uncle
wasn't a "perve", but I was! He didn't really want to
do anything sexual with a guy, but I DID!

The next few weeks, I throw myself into working harder
than I ever had! Any time my uncle needed help with
anything, I jumped up and volunteered. I worked so
hard, I thought I was going to die! I began to see
those kind of muscles I liked on guys on my own body.
I was getting stronger! I actually had shape now! I
looked in the mirror and I looked like a backstreet
boy! Smooth chested, the beginnings of a washboard
stomach, nice pecs! I was actually nice looking!
Everyone always said I was cute, but that I was too
thin, and still had that baby fat type stomach! But
now, I had changed! I looked like those guys on our
basket ball team! The one's I drooled over all the
time! I was becoming a man! But even though I'd
changed, one thing wasn't changing, every time Ben, or
my cousin, or heck let's face it, even my Uncle too,
had their shirts off and worked in front of me, my
dick got hard!

And when I jerked off, I tried to think about girls,
but I could never get myself hot enough to cum till I
thought of Ben, or my cousin, and seeing them out in
the hot sun with sweet going down their chest!

I myself never worked without a shirt! I'd grown used
to being ashamed of my body, and even though it had
changed, I still couldn't shake the feeling. Not only
that, but I WAS still the smallest guy there! I was
growing so frustrated, I was working so hard to prove
I was a man, but it wasn't changing! I still wanted
guys! I wanted to see them naked! And sometimes, I
thought of what I wanted to do when they were naked!

I began to work harder, putting myself to the
extremes! But one day, I pushed too hard. I did all my
regular chores, and was about to go in the house and
get a drink of water, when one of the helpers pulled
up and said the fences had been damaged by some kids
playing around, they'd knocked them down, and broken
some of the poles. I instantly went with my uncle to
fix it. We were working hard, like before, but
finished in no time. But when we got back there was a
load of cement that needed to be moved back into the
barn. I volunteered. My uncle said he was glad I was
willing to do it, and headed in the house to get some
food and something to drink, he said he'd come back
and help me soon. I started to work, and after lifting
about 4 bags I was bringing the 5th one in, when my
eyes went blurry, and then everything went black! I
could hear some of the workers screaming my name as I
faded into unconsciousness!

I awoke a few minutes later with my uncle standing
over me along with everyone who was around. My uncle
yelled at them to get back because I needed air. He
told one of them to run inside and get a glass of ice
water. I felt my uncle pulling my shirt off me, I
didn't want him to, but I couldn't protest. He carried
me like a baby to the house. Inside he took me up to
the room I was staying in and laid me down on the bed.
He brought in a glass of cold water and told me sip it
slowly. I did as he instructed and he sat down on the
bed stoking my hair as I drank. "That's it, really
slowly." He said.

He began to unbutton my pants, and I dropped my water,
and pulled his hand away! It's hard to believe but
even being tired and exhausted, but something about my
uncle playin with my hair and his bare muscled chest,
had set me off again.

"Come on buddy, ain't no need to be shy, I need to get
those jeans off you, you're overheated!" I didn't have
the strength to argue, so he pulled my pants off, and
now could clearly see my boner! "Oh, you're hard, I
didn't know. Well, it ain't nothing to be ashamed of,
when I was your age the thing popped up all the time!"
My uncle said. "now don't worry about it, I'm gonna
take off your undies too so you can get some cold air
on your balls!"

Before I even knew it, he had pulled them off, and my
cock stood there straight up like a dog begging for
attention! I was embarrassed and ashamed, but
thankfully, my uncle didn't seem to know what was
really causing my hardon. Just assumed it was another
teen boner from the body experimenting with itself.
Who know, maybe that's partly what it was. He quickly
pulled the covers up over me and let me hide. He was
right, the cold air on my dick and balls felt great!

He sat down on the bed and began to ask me what
happened. I said I was sorry for passing out and my
uncle looked at me as if I was stupid. He said I had
nothing to be sorry about and then he paused for a
minute thinking to himself.

"Oh my God, I just realized, you've been working
everyday nonstop since you got here haven't you?" He
asked.

"I...I guess." I said.

"Mikey, I love that you help me out, but you don't
have to work that hard all the time!" He said. "Man, I
was so busy I didn't even see it! You've been bustin
your ass since the day you got here! You've been
workin harder than anyone out there! Every time I turn
around you're doing something!"

I began to cry a little, I'm not sure why. "Mikey, why
have you been overworkin yourself so much?" My uncle
asked.

"I don't know." I said. "I was just trying to be..."
my voice broke.

"Tryin to be what?" My uncle asked.

I couldn't answer. I just sat there. My uncle sat down
beside me and wrapped his arms around me. "Hey Mikey,
you don't got nothin to prove to me. I love you. I'm
so glad you're here right now! But I miss my nephew!
The one who used to write stories and stuff. You ain't
been yourself since you got here. I'm so sorry I
haven't noticed, but I notice now. I think you're
trying to prove yourself or something. And you've more
than done that okay? So, as of right now, you're on
your vacation! No more workin of any kind for at least
2 weeks! And when you do start workin again, it's just
the normal stuff I ask Alex to do, nothing else, just
normal choirs got it?" My uncle said.

"Yeah, okay." I said, fighting back the tears.

"Now, I'll bring you some diner in here, and then
you're gettin some rest." He said, and rustled my hair
again as he left.

I slept very peacefully that night, I'd never slept in
the nude before, but enjoyed it. Feeling the covers
against my bare penis. I didn't know what was going to
happen next, but I felt like my uncle cared about me,
and that made me feel good about myself.

I awoke the next morning to my surprise to see the sun
coming through my window. I'd been getting up at the
butt crack of dawn for so long now that it felt weird
having the sun greet me and than the other way around.
It was 11am! I couldn't believe I'd slept in so late.
I stumbled out of bed and into the shower. I felt like
a new person, well rested, but also kinda strange. I
was used to working hard now, I'd heard of people
getting addicted to exercise, being lazy I thought
that could never happen, but now my body was used to
working hard, and my muscles felt the urge to stretch
and pull, and push themselves.

I walked out side, Ben was workin and asked me how I
was feelin after calling me sleepy head. He said he
told the guys I was lookin kinda strung out, he said I
looked like a new person and that I was hansom without
the tired look. I bushed as his comment took me by
surprise.

My cousin came up to me and asked if I wanted to come
with him and his gang to the local mall. I said I
wasn't sure if I wanted to or not.

"Aw come on cous. I ain't hardly spent no time with
you. Dad says you had a stroke or something from
workin too hard. Come on, leave these old farts to do
their jobs and hand with the cool kids." He said.

"Hey" Ben shouted, "I'm not much older than you, and
I'm way cooler."

"Okay leave the old farts, AND Ben and hang out with
us." He said. "Don't worry, it's a mixed crowd,
there's guys you're age too."

"How many guys?" I asked.

"Just four of us." He replied.

I hesitated be he soon had me talked into it, and we
went off to pick up the guys. Alex has some very cute
friends! Guess it's all the hard workin folks around
here, cause everyone was built pretty nice, again not
in that big California Governor kinda way, just nice.

Alex introduced me to them. Phillip was his age, a
cute blond with the bluest eyes I've ever seen. Ricky
was 19, the oldest of the group, sandy brown hair,
brown eyes. Ted and Jason were brothers, one 14, the
other 15. Jason, 15 had red hair and brown eyes, his
little brother Ted was blond with green eyes.

We all headed to the mall and hung out the whole day.
I'd never done this before, been with a group of guys
just shotin the breeze. I was kinda quite, but the
guys talked about movies and stuff, and I was into
some of them, and chimed in. No one treated me like
they did back home. People back home were mean. If I
opened my mouth to express what I thought they'd tell
me to shut up, not one asked me, and call me queer or
something. These guys were nice, I didn't know quite
how to react to this.

After we left the mall we drove out this abandoned
mine, I'd never seen anything like it. Black coal dust
mixed with sand, rusty old structures and beat up old
buildings left behind. The guys said the all loved
hanging around here.

We sat talking for a long time about nothing, in the
back of uncle David's beat up old truck. Jason
stretched his arms and his pit hair came into view,
Alex said he was seein red again and the boys laughed.
I didn't get it at first, and Alex explained, the red
arm pit hair is what he meant.

"It's red all over?" I asked before I could stop
myself. The guys laughed.

"Show him you're pubes Jason." Alex said.

I didn't know what to say, I couldn't believe Alex
said that. "Nnnno, that's okay." I stuttered out.

"Relax Mikey" Ricky said, "it's just freaky lookin,
red pubes."

"Yeah" Alex said "you probably ain't never seen em
that color have you Mikey?"

"No." I said.

"Come on Jason, drop em." Alex said.

Without hesitation, Jason got up and dropped his pants
and undies to his knees! His limp dick hung down
between his legs, he had low hanging balls too, don't
know what it is about them, but I love those kind! It
was weird seeing bright red pubic hair glistening in
the sunlight. I couldn't help it, I was hard in an
instant!

"So what do you think?" Jason asked me.

I just shrugged my shoulders, I didn't know how to
reply. He just smiled at me. "I never saw any other
color but brown." I said. Jason pulled his undies and
pants back up and sat down.

"I got blond ones." Phillip chimed in. "That's how you
know I'm a real blond."

"We can tell you're a real blond without lookin at
your pubes Phillip." Alex teased.

"I ain't dumb, I just don't like showing of my
smarts." Phillip said.

"Show him your's Phillip." Mike said.

"Can't, I got a stiffy from watching Jason here."
Phillip said, and gave Jason a little jab.

I knew my eyes got wide, I couldn't believe he said
that, even though I knew he was just kidding. "Come
on." Alex said.

"No seriously, I do have a hard on now." Phillip said.


"Since when are you so shy?" Jason asked.

"I'm not, it's just, Mikey's new." Phillip said.
"Maybe we shouldn't..."

"Shouldn't what?" I asked.

"NOTHING." Alex said.

"Come on, what?" I demanded.

"Okay, you swear you won't tell anyone?" Tim asked.

I agreed. "Okay, here's the thing....I can't believe
I'm going to tell him...We all get together now and
then, look at porn and jerk together." Alex explained.


"What?!" I said, I really wasn't sure I'd heard right.
"We just like to do it, it's fun, we're not gay or
nothin, it just feels weird, in a good way man." Tim
said.

"So you up for it Mikey?" Alex asked.

I didn't know what to say. This was very unexpected to
say the least! I'd heard of boys jerking together, but
I never thought my cousin Alex would engage in
something like that. I was afraid somehow they'd know
that I was different, that I wouldn't be exited by the
girls in the mags, or whatever they had, I would be
exited by them! I was trying so hard to move away from
this type of thing. But I couldn't help it, before I
knew it, I'd said "okay" in a whispered voice.

"Bring em on!" Tim yelled. And Alex oped the back
glass window and reach behind the truck seat and
pulled out a plastic bag, he poured out a load of
Marines from lots of different era's. All the boys had
put their magazines together, some they'd gotten from
there fathers', others they'd bought. All the boys
grabbed a mag and started flipping through the pages.
I picked up a playboy, maybe this was my chance, I'd
been workin hard, now all I needed to do was make
myself like women!

I sat there staring at the pictures, but it was no
use, I might as well have been watching golf! the
other guys were groaning and sayin things like "Oh
yeah, I'd like to fuck her." I tried joining in sayin
how hot these girls were making me. But I mostly just
got out "yeah".

After about a half hour of lookin at these mags Tim
opened his fly and pulled out his hard 5 inch cock. I
figured people would laugh, he was kinda small, but no
one did. He was soon followed by Jason, and again I
could see his red pubes coming out of the fly of his
jeans.

Phillip stood up and instead of just pullin it out
through the fly, pulled his jeans all the way down and
stepped out of them, followed by his undies. He was
right, he did have blond pubic hair! I'd never seen
anything like it! It almost glowed in the sunlight,
his dick was an impressive 7 at least, but kinda
skinny, which I think looked really good on him.

The rest of the boys followed suit an soon the truck
was full of a bunch of naked teen boys storkin! I was
still left sitting there, completely clothed. "Come on
Mikey" Tim said "you'll see how good it feels,and no
one's gonna judge you if that's what you're afraid of.
Hell, look at my little donk, and no one's laughing at
me!" He said, which of course made everyone laugh.


I hesitated but slowly removed my shirt, and slowly
undid my pants, I was hard now, I just hoped everyone
thought it was cause of the playboy. Soon I was naked,
caught up in all these sexual feelings I couldn't
control. Alex smiled at me, but no one said anything,
not laughing, or making fun of me or anything like
that! I began to relax and we all started stokin.

Tim was right, there was something very amazing about
this. Even if I didn't have this attraction to guys, I
think I would've still enjoyed this very much! The
feelings of the other guy's excitement, knowing
everyone was horny and jerkin, it was just so
amazingly hot and sexy, and primal.

Everyone went very slowly, just taking their time
pleasing themselves. Jason liked playing with his
balls, Alex played with his nipples while he jerked.
There was nothing hidden, no shame or fear, just guys
enjoying themselves. "Draw it out." Phillip urged me.
"Just relax and do it really slow till you can't hold
it, makes it better."

"Yeah, just imagine the hottest thing you can, and
just go real slow." Jason said.

But I didn't need to picture anything, I just looked
around at all the hot teens guys strokin their cocks,
and it was enough for me! This was the hottest thing I
could imagine! Everyone moanin, and playin with
themselves. It was the hottest thing I'd ever seen in
my life!

15 minutes went by and finally Alex yelled he was
about to cum. "Me too" the others all said. Alex's
body tensed up, and his cock shot a load so hard it
hit his chin! The rest of the dicks started firing
too, everyone groaning with release as the white spray
went everywhere. Jason was across from me, and his cum
came right over and landed on my belly! That was all I
needed, and I unloaded the hardest load I'd ever had!
I didn't know such a feeling existed! My cum shot up
in the air, and I could feel it landing in my hair!
"WOW!" Ricky exclaimed.

We all sat there, breathing hard, coming back down,
the back of the truck had went from rusted blue, to
rusty blue and white! Cum was everywhere, I couldn't
believe I'd done this! But I just couldn't resist!


To Be continued, stay tuned!

My e-mail address is Shyguy_bj@yahoo.com but please,
if you have yahoo messenger, leave me an IM. If you
want to e-mail me it's better to e-mail me at this
address that I just created mathewbnj@yahoo.com

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Matt