Date: Tue, 13 Aug 2013 01:34:38 -0400
From: Taylor Thoresen <taylorthoresen@gmail.com>
Subject: Taylor's Secrets - 2

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This is about a boy discovering sex with the help of his older brother and
his college fraternity buddies.  It includes totally consensual acts of sex
between them, starting when the boy was 10 and as he gets older.  If that
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Copyright, 2013.  This is my story and no one has a right to reproduce it,
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TAYLOR'S SECRETS

Part 2

So if you read what i posted first, you know my secret about my first time
to do like real sex with somebody was when I sucked my friend Aiden's cock
when he was 19 and i was 12.  I don't count the time I told you about two
years earlier when my brother taught me to jack off when he was 18 and I
was 10 as real sex, even though he made me have my first dry orgasm that
felt really fucking awesome and then he shot his load of cum on my bare
back and ass.  That wasn't real sex; it was just my cool big brother
teaching me stuff.

In the first part I described what my brother Trevor and our two buddies
Mike and Aiden look like now.  That's pretty much what they looked like 3
years ago when this stuff happened.  So I won't waste time describing them
again.  But I also told you I am 5"10" now, but I measured myself after
that was posted and I am really 5'11" now in case you care about that
stuff.  I grew an inch since last time I checked in March.  Back when this
stuff was going on 3 years ago I was 12 and I think I was about 5'3" or
5'4".  (I hope I grow another 7" in the next 3 years so I can be just a
little taller than Trev. LOL)

But about my first real sex, remember I told you about Aiden and I were in
the fraternity house on a Friday night after a party, and I was sleeping in
Aiden's room because my brother, Trevor, was doing sex with some girl and
his best buddy, Mike, at the same time in his room.  Trev and Mike didn't
know Aiden and I spied on them through the hole in the wall, and that made
us horny and then we sucked each other off.  Then Aiden and I slept naked
together in his bed. It was my first time but I knew it was real sex.

Now I will start telling you more secret stuff that went on that weekend.
It was a really important weekend to me.  And it's really awesome to
finally be telling about this stuff.  But I'm really sorry if you are bored
when I tell you about what I was thinking and feeling about stuff but that
kinda explains why some of the stuff happened.  There was a lot of that the
next morning so lots of this might be really boring.  Well anyway, I'll
start now.

Aiden and I both jumped and woke up when someone started beating on his
door about 8:00 Saturday morning.  We were naked and kind of laying all
over each other on his bed.  I saw Aiden's cock was hard like mine but i
forgot that when i heard Trev's voice on the other side of the door say,
"Get up you slugs!  You're on clean up duty Graham (that's Aiden's last
name) and the other guys are already starting."

As soon as I heard my 20 year old brother's voice i jumped over Aiden's
naked body and wrapped myself in my sheets on my mattress on the floor.  I
heard Trev turn the doorknob and i was glad it was locked.

"Open this door!  I wanna know you're really awake and moving!"

Aiden got up and pulled on his sweatpants real slow like he was trying to
piss Trev off. He didn't act scared or anything.  He was being real cool,
but I saw his cock was going down like mine did as soon as i heard Trevor.
He was almost to the door, but he stopped and came back to my mattress,
kneeled down on it and kissed my forehead and ran his fingers through my
hair.  I felt my cock twitch.  He smiled at me and whispered, "Good morning
sexy bro. You ok?"

I whispered back, "No.  I want more of this." and I grabbed his soft cock
in his sweats.

Aiden pulled away from me and laughed out loud as he got up. He said,
"Don't worry, Taylor.  You'll be getting lots more of this," and he
squeezed his cock and balls.  I was horny and I know he was too.

Trev banged on the door again. "Aiden!"

Aiden made a face at the door and I laughed.  Aiden opened the door and
said, "Morning, studly." and smacked Trev's bare stomach as he walked on by
him, headed down the hallway to the bathroom. Trevor looked like he had
just pulled on a pair of jeans. They weren't fastened; you could see his
blue boxers; and he didnt have a shirt or shoes on yet.  It looked like his
eyes followed Aiden's round swimmer's ass (it looked great in those
sweatpants) for just a second before he turned and looked at me as he
stepped into the room.  I could tell he was in a really good mood. But
that's normal for my big bro. He was just being loud to wake us up. Trev
was vice president of the fraternity and had to make sure the guys did
stuff they were suppose to do.

He said, "You should help Aiden and the guys with the clean up duty this
morning."

I smiled at him and laid back on my mattress and did a big stretch, and as
I groaned and yawned i said, "I'll think about it."  Stretching my arms as
far above my head as possible, which showed my bare chest and stomach.

He moved really fast and grabbed my wrists and laughed and said, "Well you
are done thinking.  I just decided you're doing it."  and he pulled me out
of my sheets and off my mattress.

Then he laughed at me being naked.  "Starting to sleep in the nude like
Aiden, huh?  Just don't do it at home when Mom's around."

He turned and headed back to his room as he said, "Get your ass downstairs
and help the bros, Tay.  Please?"

Trevor never really orders me to do something.  But he knew i would do it.
I like doing things with the guys.  Even things like this.

I looked around and found my sleep shorts on the floor; they were covered
in Aiden's dry cum.  I was glad Trevor didn't see them.  After I looked at
the open door to be sure no one was there, I held them up to my nose and
got the strong smell of Aiden's cum.  My soft cock started to get hard so I
stopped with just one smell.  I wadded them up with my sheets and grabbed
my pillow, slid my mattress back under Aiden's bed, and went next door to
Trev's room (our room).

My brother was fastening his jeans, like he just noticed he hadn't finished
doing that yet.  As I tossed my sheets and shorts in my laundry bag, I
noticed Mike's underwear on the floor by Trev's bed but I didn't say
anything and i pretended like I didn't see them.  I pulled on just some old
practice pants over my naked butt, and when I looked again Mike's underwear
were gone.  I figured Trev saw them too and kicked them under the bed as he
reached for his towel. We both grabbed our toothbrushes and walked down the
hallway together to the bathroom.  I remember thinking how much i really
like just being with my brother.  Some of the bros at the fraternity house
had started calling me TJ; that's short for "Trev Junior." I am very proud
of that nickname.

Trev started pissing and I walked up and stood right next to him like i did
with Aiden last night and I started pissing too. My bare foot was even
touching his.  Trevor smiled but kept looking at the wall in front of him.
"Are you checking me out, or trying to get me to look at your cock again?"

I tried to keep a straight face and said, "Both!"

He laughed out loud but he looked down at my cock as he held his so I could
easily see it.  "Well you're not as big as me yet, but you're getting
there, Tay.  You'll make it."

I was really happy with what he said.  Like i said before, Trevor always
knows the right thing to say to me.

We put our dicks away and went to the sinks.  We both finished brushing our
teeth and were washing our faces when a stall door opened and Aiden joined
us at the row of sinks.  He looked at us like he was maybe disgusted at us.
"Are you two perverts really standing out here comparing your cocks?"

My super cool big brother just said, "Yeah.  I bet you're sorry you missed
the show; but it was for family only."

As a joke I said, "That's ok. I'll show you anyway." and I started to pull
out my cock.

Aiden was definitely looking down at my pants as I was pulling down the
front of them, but Trev was laughing and said, "Put it away Taylor. You can
play with it later."  Then he added, "When Aiden's not around."

We were all laughing.

I forgot my towel so I used Trev's when he was done with it, then I handed
it to Aiden who had just washed his hands. Before he took the towel from my
hand, Aiden wiped his wet hands on my bare chest and tickled me and I
yelled.  We were both laughing. I saw Trev's face in the mirror and he
rolled his eyes because we were acting silly, but he was smiling too.

"I was starting to wonder if you fell asleep again in that stall, Aiden.
Or, was that an extra long jack off session?" Trev said as he got his towel
back from Aiden.  I laughed at my brother's joke on Aiden.

Aiden smiled at us in the mirror as he cupped his junk in his right hand,
squeezed it through the sweatpants and said, "Yeah, I had a lot to think
about this morning so it took a lot more stroking.  It was good."

Trev grinned at Aiden, then headed for the door as he said, "Well all the
girls on campus will be glad to know your stamina is improving.  Last I
heard, they were suggesting your picture be added to the Wiki article that
defines premature ejaculation."

We were all laughing but Aiden said, "Fuck you, Thoresen!"

"Let me know when you grow a real cock to do the job, Graham," replied
Trev.

They joked more like they always do as we walked back down the hallway to
our rooms but I was imagining Aiden and my brother really fucking around.
I thought that would be HOT!  After last night I knew Aiden wanted to do it
with him for real, and so did I but I didn't think that would really
happen.

Back in our room, I pulled on a tee and sandals.  Trev said he'd be
downstairs in a few minutes.  I started out the door and he said, "You
going commando today?"  He was grinning at me.

I felt my face go red, but I grinned back and said, "Just this morning
while we're cleaning.  I'll get dressed after i get a shower."

The old Nike practice pants I was wearing were faded and had a few paint
spots from when we painted our house for mom. They were also about 3 inches
too short now and the bottom of the legs were above my ankles. But I still
liked wearing them for dirty work things like mowing, washing mom's car,
cleaning and stuff like that because they were really comfortable and made
out of that real soft stretchy material that feels good when it rubs
against your cockhead and bare balls if you aren't wearing underwear.

I waited in the hallway for a moment while Aiden finished dressing in his
room.  Then we walked downstairs together.  He stopped me on the stairs and
whispered, "I wasn't kidding.  I really did jack off in the bathroom.
Couldn't help it.  I was thinking about you."

I grinned at him.  I didn't know what to say, but knowing that made me even
more horny.  Aiden put his arm around my shoulder and walked me down the
rest of the stairs to join the guys who were doing the "Morning After"
clean up duty.  We said hi to the other guys and they mostly grunted back
at us.  All of us were wishing we were still sleeping.

The kitchen is always the worst after a party, so that's where I went to
help.  There were only two 18 year old freshmen working in there. The older
guys left them to do the biggest job alone.  They were glad to have me join
them.  The guy named Davidson said, "They send you in here because you're
even younger than us, Taylor?"

"No, I'm not on your clean up committee.  I just volunteered.  I want to
help," I said.

"Thanks, Taylor.  You're really cool, bro," said the one called McKibben.

Davidson asked, "How old are you?  13?  14?"  (I have always been kinda
tall for my age so sometimes people guess I'm older than I really am.)

I said, "12"

They both laughed and Davidson said, "Even worse!  Dude, you're 6 years
younger than any of us, but you are like the perfect brother in this
fraternity.  Always helping everyone.  I heard you even tried to fix things
between Jameson and his bitch of a girlfriend last week. Did you really get
her to start talking to him again?"

I was a little confused and not sure if I did something wrong. Maybe he
meant I should not do these things.

I said, "She just misunderstood something someone else said he said, and I
told her he would never say stuff like that and she should talk to him
about it so she would know the truth."

They both looked at me and Davidson shook his head.  "Even our bitches
listen to HIM!"

They laughed and McKibben patted my shoulder.  I think he could tell I was
kind of worried.  He said, "What's the matter Taylor?"

I said, "I don't think I understand.  Should I not do these things?  Is
that wrong?"

"No, it's not wrong.  We're saying you're pretty fucking amazing. Doing all
this stuff to help other people is like natural for you. You are just a
super cool guy, and everybody around here likes and respects you a lot for
it."

I said, "I think they are nice to me because of Trevor."

McKibben said, "No way; they're nice to you because you deserve it."

I didn't know Davidson and McKibben very well yet since they were two of
the newest members, but they seemed like nice guys. It felt good to know I
earned their respect. Unless they were just bullshitting me about that, and
I figured that was a good possibility.

Trevor stopped in the kitchen for a few minutes to see what I was doing.
He got out some bread and made a bunch of toast for all four of us, so we
stopped working a few minutes and had toast and jelly and peanut butter and
milk and juice. While we ate, Trev was telling me his idea for a birthday
gift for mom from both of us.  He talked a little bit to McKibben and
Davidson, too; like he was trying to get to know them a little more. Then
he said he had to go to the library and study and he'd be back to the house
about 4:00.  I said I was going to see mom.

After Trev left McKibben said, "You two are definitely brothers. Except for
you being a lot younger, you're more like twins."  I liked hearing him say
that. So I said, "Thanks."

I had noticed McKibben before because he is kind of sexy, but this was the
first time I talked to him and spent much time with him. He is a good
looking guy and pretty fit.  While we were cleaning he talked about his
workouts and I wasn't surprised he works out a lot because you can tell
that by the way he looks even with clothes on.  He was wearing some old
baggy red shorts that weren't very long and an old tee from his high school
that said Trojan Wrestling.  Sometimes when he moved it looked like his
cock and balls were moving around loose inside his shorts like maybe he
didn't have any underwear on either.  When he bent over it looked like
maybe his ass was bare under his shorts too.  One time I thought he caught
me looking at the front of his shorts, but he didn't say anything or act
funny so then I thought he didn't catch me.

The other cleaning guys got done with their parts of the house before we
did and they took off. I figured Aiden went back to bed.  When we were
almost done with the kitchen Davidson said he had to take off to see
someone and he didn't want to be late.  I think it was a girl.  McKibben
and I told him to go ahead and we would finish up.

We got everything else done and then McKibben got a ladder and told me to
hold it while he cleaned the light on the ceiling. I couldn't tell how he
knew the light was dirty; it didn't look like it to me but I said ok.  The
ceiling in the kitchen is like 12 feet high so he was on like the next to
the top step on this tall ladder and stretching up to reach the light, and
I was afraid he would fall.  I was looking up so I could see if he started
to fall.  The way he had his legs let me see up his shorts and he was
definitely not wearing any underwear. I could clearly see his cock and
balls.  His cock looked kind of weird, like it was deformed or
something. So I was really curious about it and couldn't take my eyes off
it. I figured out that he is uncut, but it still looked different than the
few other uncut cocks I saw at the fraternity house or at my school. His
balls were hanging loose and they swung back and forth a little as he moved
around. Watching this was keeping me horny and I was trying not to get
hard.

He took the cover off the light and brought it down to clean it better.  He
pointed out that one of the light bulbs in the light fixture was burned out
and told me where the extra light bulbs are stored.  He was still cleaning
the cover when I came back with the new bulb; so he asked me to go up and
change the bulb.  I would have to really stretch to reach the fixture like
he did. I was a little nervous about maybe losing my balance and falling.
But I figured I could do it ok.

I was just starting to unscrew the bad bulb when I felt the ladder shake
just a little and I heard him say, "I'm right behind you Taylor. I won't
let you fall."  He was climbing up the ladder and was behind me.  He
stopped 2 or 3 steps below me on the ladder.  His face was right behind my
butt, but I wasn't thinking about that, I just didn't want us both to fall
off the ladder.

I got the bad bulb out of the light and handed it to McKibben.  He tossed
it into the trash from where we were on the ladder.  I was glad he didn't
miss the trash, or there would have been glass all over the floor to clean
up.

As I started to stretch to put the new bulb in the light fixture, the
ladder shook just a little again, and McKibben wrapped his strong right arm
around my thighs to steady me.  He was holding on to the ladder with his
left hand.  His right forearm crossed the front of my thighs just below my
balls. It felt like his chest was pressed up against the back of my
thighs. His head must have been really close to my butt but I couldn't see
behind me and I was trying to pay attention to what I was doing.

I got the bulb in and he told me to stay on the ladder.  He went down and
got the light cover, and brought it up to me.  He explained how the cover
fastens to the light fixture as he handed it to me.

He said, "Now I'm going to grab hold of you again, so don't jump.  I just
want to keep us both from falling off here."

McKibben put his right hand up under my tee on the side of my waist and
grabbed onto my pants, but he said wait a minute and he moved his hand from
my side to the middle of my back and grabbed hold of the top of my pants
there to hold me.  I stretched up and put the cover on.  It took a little
work to get it fastened on right.

As we both took one step at a time, backing down the ladder slowly, his
hand that was holding me by the top of my pants stayed fastened to me
there.  I could feel his fingers rubbing against my bare skin where the
waist of my underwear would be if I was wearing any.  Just before we got to
the bottom of the ladder he said, "Feels like I'm not the only one going
commando this morning."

I didn't say anything because I was embarrassed.  As I stepped off the last
step of the ladder, his hand slipped down inside the back of my pants and
the back of his hand rubbed against my bare ass for just a moment before he
pulled it out and let go of me.

He said, "Oops. Sorry. My hand slipped."  But he laughed and we both knew
it wasn't an accident.

McKibben saw that I was embarrassed and he stopped me from leaving the
kitchen. He turned me around but I couldn't look up at him.  He said, "Hey
Taylor, I didn't mean to embarrass you. I was just joking around; ok?  I'm
sorry bro."

He waited, but I didn't know what to say. He was holding me by my shoulder.
I finally looked up at him and he looked worried.

He said, "I'm sorry Taylor.  Forgive me. I wanna be friends, and I was just
fucking around like I do with all my close buddies. Please say we're
good. Please?"

I could tell he was really sorry, and maybe a little scared.  I said, "Ok."

He said, "Are we alright? You and me?"

I just nodded my head yes. I didn't know anything to say.  I was calming
down and just a little embarrassed that maybe I over reacted to his joking
around. But I was looking down again, and I could tell he was waiting for
me to look up at his face again, so I did.

He is a really good looking guy and I kind of liked him, so I didn't really
want to be mad at him, or make him mad at me. He said, "Thanks for saying
we're alright. Do you really mean it?  I hope so."

I said, "Yeah, we're cool McKibben."

He said, "Awesome. Thanks, Taylor. I'm really sorry, and I'm serious about
wanting us to be friends." He still looked very serious and I believed him,
but I didn't know what else to say.

"I better go shower and get dressed," was the only thing I could think of
to say.

He said, "Ok; yeah; we're done down here.  Thanks big time for helping us
clean this place up Taylor."

I said, "No worries," as I left the kitchen and headed upstairs.

Aiden's door was shut so I figured he was gone or sleeping.  But I kind of
wanted to be alone and think about things anyway.  So I kicked off my
sandals in the room I shared with my brother, pulled off my tee, grabbed
the small plastic bucket with my shower stuff and my towel and headed to
the bathroom.  I was glad no one else was in the bathroom and shower. I was
pretty sure almost all the guys were gone for the weekend, or at least out
of the house right now.

There was a lot to think about.  I sucked a cock last night for the first
time.  I had thought about it and knew I wanted to do it, but didn't know
who I would do it with.  Aiden was older than me but he is a good friend
and I totally trust him so I was really glad it was him and that my first
cock was like full size instead of another guy my age.  But I was still
surprised to know he is either gay or bi.  Then there were the other two
definitely big shocks of last night; finding out my brother and his best
friend Mike are bi, and they do sex stuff together.  Trevor even fucks
Mike.  I saw them do it.  I couldn't believe that Mike lets anyone fuck
him.  Mike is a good friend of mine too, and this was confusing me a little
about him.  Then I remembered Aiden said he would like to get fucked by
Mike and Trevor too.  Was he serious?  Why would a guy do that?  I was
really surprised by all of this.  I was kind of glad about it, because I
thought I am probably gay.  But I guess it was still going to take a while
to get over this big surprise.  I knew no one would ever guess this about
any of them.

I also thought about my desire last night to suck Mike and Trevor's cocks.
Did I really want to do that?  Yeah, I knew I would like doing that if they
let me.  The desire was still there.  All I had to do was remember what
their awesome cocks look like and I wanted to suck them.  Then I was also
thinking about looking at McKibben's cock and balls.  Did I want to suck
him too?  I quickly knew the answer was No.  I was just looking because I
was curious and it was hanging right there above me, like on display.  But
I knew I didn't want to suck him.  Why?  What was the difference?  He was a
sexy looking guy and he was friendly.  I finally figured out the big
difference was I wasn't really close friends with him like I am with Aiden
and Mike and of course my brother.  I realized that was important to me.  I
wanted to do sex with guys I know and trust.  A really good friend like
Aiden will help me learn about sex and won't hurt me or tell anyone.

Then I started thinking about how soon will I get to suck Aiden's cock
again?  Will he suck me again too?  Will I ever get to do this with Trevor
and Mike?  When? How would that happen?

"Mind if I join you?"

I jumped because I was surprised someone came into the shower room and I
hadn't heard them coming cause I was thinking about all this sex stuff.

It was McKibben.  For just a moment I thought that's weird because we were
on third floor and his room is on second floor.  They have a bathroom down
there too.  But I didn't think about that very much because he was standing
there next to me; totally naked and looking very sexy. And he was looking
at me; all of me.

And I suddenly realized my 12 year old cock was hard from thinking about
sex with Aiden and wanting sex with Mike and Trev.  I was super embarrassed
and turned my back to McKibben.

There was silence except for the running shower.  The room was very warm
and steamy because I had just been standing under the shower about 6 or 7
minutes while I was thinking.  Had I soaped up and washed yet?  I couldn't
even remember if I'd done that yet.

McKibben sounded real gentle when he said, "Taylor, please stop being
embarrassed like this.  I didn't do anything this time to embarrass you.
And you definitely should not be embarrassed about your body, because you
are a really good looking guy.  You know your brother is proud of his body
and he isn't embarrassed if we see him in the shower."

I was soaping myself with my back to him.  I finally was able to
speak. "Why are you up here?"

"Because someone said the hot water was out on our floor, and I feel like
taking a long hot shower to relax."

I was pretty sure he was lying.  I wanted to like him but I felt confused
about him.  But he hadn't really done anything bad to me.  I was trying to
clear up my thinking.

At least my boner had quickly gone down because of the surprise and
embarrassment.  I tried to act relaxed and casual even if I didn't totally
feel that way yet.  I turned a little toward McKibben as I continued
washing.  I saw he was starting to wash too, but very slowly.

I said, "I'm sorry McKibben. You just scared me.  I didn't hear you come
in."

"No problem bro. I understand.  Yeah it looked like you were lost in
thoughts a million miles away.  Didn't mean to scare you."

I was glad he didn't say anything about my hardon.  I'm sure he saw it
because he had definitely looked me over.

"Taylor?"

I turned and looked at his face.

"Please call me by my first name. Ok?  I really want to be friends.  I know
I'm new and you've been around here for a while and you are buddies with
all the old guys, but I hope we can be friends too."

"Sorry, but I don't know your first name. I don't think I've heard it."

"Matthew, or Matt."

"Ok"

"Can I call you TJ?  I've heard some of the older guys call you that.  I
asked them why and they told me how that became your nickname.  I think
it's cool because you and your brother really are so much alike."

He was saying the right things, and making me feel better.

"Yeah; you can call me that if you want to, Matt."

"Thanks again for helping clean up the kitchen this morning.  Like I said
down there, you're a really good guy, TJ, and that's why everyone likes
you."

We started talking and asking each other questions, getting to know each
other more.  He said he is the only kid in his family and he always wanted
a little brother.  I wondered if that was true.  But if it wasn't, I didn't
know why he would say it, so I thought it was probably true.

I had finished rinsing off and was just standing under the hot water again
while we talked.  Matt took his time about finishing and rinsing off.  I
was careful not to look at him below his neck.  Finally, he was just
standing there under the running water too while we talked a little more.

Then he turned off the water for both our shower heads and said, "You
should be water logged by now.  But a long hot shower feels great though,
doesn't it?"

"Yeah, I like to just stand in the shower and think, and I had a lot to
think about today."

"Anything you want to talk about with a friend?"

"Nah, it's not stuff like problems.  It's just stuff."

Matt laughed and I thought what I said probably sounded like a stupid kid
thing to say.  We were over in the drying off area where there is a bench.
He was taking his time about drying off, like he didn't want to leave.  I
guess I slowed down too while we kept talking.

Matt said, "I wasn't kidding about you having a nice body like your
brother, TJ.  You really do.  You're going to be a big guy like him."

Now I felt more proud than embarrassed.  I guess because he was comparing
me to Trevor again.  I didn't care that Matt looked at my body now, and he
did.

"Thanks.  I hope I get as big as he is."

"I've never seen another 12 year old naked and with a hardon, but I bet
you're already bigger than usual for your age.  Aren't you?"

I kind of laughed because I was surprised he finally mentioned the hardon.
I had forgotten about it while we were talking about other things.  I said,
"Yeah, I'm bigger than the other guys my age at school."

Matt said, "I know what it's like to be a little different from the other
guys, too.  Sometimes guys joked about it, but I learned to just be cool
about it."

I didn't know what he was talking about.  He nodded his head down.  Without
thinking, I looked down at his cock.  I had avoided doing that since he
first walked into the shower and surprised me.

His cock is uncut and the extra skin is longer than I have seen before.  I
don't see a lot of uncut guys but Matt's cock is different because the skin
hangs about an inch over the end of his cockhead.  It's kinda hard to
describe it.  I stared for a moment, but then made myself look back up at
his face.

"You ever seen one like this before?" Matt asked as he held his cock in his
hand, like he was showing it to me.

I had to look at it again.  I shook my head no.

"You know about uncut cocks probably; don't you?"

I nodded my head yes, then said, "But I haven't seen one with so much skin,
like hanging off the end."  Without thinking much, I asked, "How's it
work?"

He laughed. "It works fine, thanks."  I laughed too.

He knew what I meant, so he showed me.  He slowly pulled the skin back all
the way behind the soft pink cockhead.  Then he let it slip back over the
head again and dangle off the end.  He pulled the skin straight out from
the head and pulled it open and pointed it in my direction so I could see
inside.  I was surprised the skin stretched so much.

I said, "Does it hurt to pull on it like that?"

Matt said, "No.  I like playing with the skin.  It's like there is more to
my toy than most guys have to play with.  When I'm hard, the skin still
covers most of the head except just a little opening at the tip.  When I'm
stroking, I love feeling the skin slipping back and forth."

I just stared at it for a little longer.  Then I noticed it started to move
a little on its own.  That made me a little nervous and I looked away.

He said, "It's ok to look, TJ.  I know you're just curious.  Lots of guys
are.  It's natural.  I saw you looking downstairs.  It's no big deal.
Doesn't mean anything.  Go ahead and look."

I glanced down again, and saw it was definitely bigger.  He was getting
hard.  I looked away again.  I was afraid I would start getting hard too.

"I don't want to see it hard."

"Why?  I saw you hard.  It's no big deal, bro.  Yours is very impressive
when it's hard.  Must run in your family, from what I've heard."

"What do you mean?"

"Just rumor around the house. Guys that have seen Trev boned up in the
shower or someplace.  Word around here is your brother is big when he's
soft, but really fuckin huge when he's hard."  Matt kinda laughed.

I smiled to myself, and said, "Yeah he is."

"That must be amazing to see."

I glanced back at his cock again.  He was still holding it in his palm, but
now it was longer and fatter and the skin was tighter.  I wondered if he
was fully hard or if he would get even bigger. He slowly stroked it just a
little.  It jerked in his palm.

Matt said quietly, "You can touch it, if you want, TJ.  You're just
curious, and it's no big deal between two buddies. Wouldn't mean anything,
and no one will ever know."

I was really tempted, but now I was scared and I didn't really understand
why.

But it was like Matt really wanted me to touch his cock. "Come on,
TJ. Nothing to be afraid of.  You looked at it. You might as well touch it
too.  Come on.  Just see what it feels like.  I just wanna help you with
your curiosity.  I'll never tell anyone."

It scared me even more because he was starting to sound like he was
insisting that I touch his cock.  I looked away and started gathering up my
shower stuff.

It was like he knew he went too far.  "Sorry TJ. Guess you're not so
curious, or at least not ready for that step yet. It's ok bro.  I
understand."

I wrapped my towel around me and picked up my shower bucket. Matt gently
grabbed my arm to stop me a moment.  "Let's not tell anyone about this
stuff; ok?  Just keep it between us.  Nobody else needs to know, even
Trevor. OK TJ?  I'm really sorry if you think I said or did anything
wrong. Please think about it and if you are mad at me about anything, come
and talk to me about it. Ok?  I want to be friends."

I was looking at the bucket in my hand, but from the corner of my eye I
could see his cock was soft again, with that extra skin dangling off the
tip. I didn't look up, but said, "Yeah, no prob Matt.  I won't say
anything. I'm not mad."

He nodded his head and said, "See you later, bro."  He let me leave.  I
didn't say anything else to him.

As I got back to our room I saw Aiden's door was still closed.  I went in
our room and locked the door. I don't know why I did that because I think
the only time it gets locked is when Trev has a girl in there for sex.
Well I guess now I knew he probably locked it sometimes when it was just
him and Mike in there too.  For just a moment I wondered if there were
other guys my brother took to his room (our room) and locked the door.  But
then my brain switched back to McKibben.  I was really confused about him
and kind of scared.  It was like I wasn't scared of him, but scared about
being confused by him.  I didn't really believe he was just showing me his
cock because I was curious and he was being helpful.  I admitted to myself
I was curious about his unusual cock and I wanted to look at it. I even
admitted I really wanted to feel it too.  But it was like there was
something else about McKibben that he wasn't telling me and I couldn't
figure out.  I guess not knowing what that missing thing was is why I was a
little scared. But I also knew I still kind of liked him and wanted to be
friends with him.  I wanted to get to know and trust him, but we weren't
there yet.

I laid down on Trevor's bed.  It was made, very neat. The only time it gets
made up like that is when he changes the sheets; so I knew he did that
before he went to the library.  I thought about him and Mike doing sex
stuff on this bed last night. It seemed like a dream now, but I knew it was
real.  I really saw him put his big cock in Mike's ass.  And I could tell
Mike liked it a lot.  So did Trevor.  But it was like a different Trev than
the one that talked to me today about mom's birthday gift.

Fucking a guy was like over the line for me.  I thought fucking a guy's
butt was gross and dirty.  So why did they do that?  I mean I know gay guys
do that, because I saw lots of porn videos online with fucking, but I
closed my eyes or forwarded through those parts of the vid. On the videos
and in the Nifty stories they acted like fucking and getting fucked was
normal and felt good.  But the guys getting fucked also acted like it hurt
a lot sometimes too.  And the stories said it hurt, especially the first
times.  I never wanted to fuck or get fucked.

But then I remembered feeling Aiden rubbing his smooth cheeks on my ass
last night, and rubbing the washcloth in my crack and around my asshole,
feeling his finger really slow and gentle.  Why did those things feel so
good, and why did I want to feel more feelings like that?

I thought about looking at sexy guys' naked bodies.  Looking at cocks,
touching cocks and sucking cocks is what really excited me.  And now I
added kissing to that list since Aiden taught me how to kiss last night.  I
laid there thinking I really really want to do more of these things.  But
who would I do them with?  When?  How would it happen?  Would I have to
wait for someone to start it with me?  Was there a way for me to start it
with another guy I want to do it with?  I was real sure I could with Aiden.
I hoped we could do it again soon!  I knew I wanted to do these things (not
fucking) with Trevor and Mike too.

I remembered all the feelings last night.  Especially feeling Aiden's 19
year old 7 inch cock in my throat.  I remembered making him moan, feeling
him cum, tasting his cum.

Then my thoughts changed to thinking about Matt's really weird but sexy
cock with the extra skin.  I saw it hard and knew it wasn't as big as
Aiden's but I wanted to feel it and slide that skin back and forth like
Matt described to me. I wondered what it would feel like if I put his cock
in my mouth when it was soft, all that skin dangling off the tip.

Suddenly my toes curled up tight and my 12 year old balls pumped my small
watery load of cum onto my stomach. I don't know when I opened the towel
and started jacking off while I was thinking about all this sex stuff but
it felt really good to cum.  And I realized thinking about Matt's cock
pushed me over the edge.

I wiped the cum off my stomach with my towel and put it in my laundry
bag. While I was getting dressed I heard Aiden's door open.  I finished and
put on my shoes, then went to see what he was doing.

His door was open and I just walked in like we always do around the
fraternity house. An open door means walk in.  A closed door means knock.
If no one answers you leave a closed door alone.  Everyone followed those
rules so that is why we almost never lock our room doors. That way we don't
need to bother carrying a key with us and maybe losing it and being locked
out and all that hassle.  But to be safe, we put a spare key for our room
in Aiden's room, and he had one hidden in our room too.

Aiden heard me and turned around. "Hey Tay, whats up?"  He was in his
running gear and sweaty and a little red.

I said, "Running on a Saturday?"

"Yeah, I just wanted to think about some things and I like doing that while
I run. Makes the miles go by faster if I'm not thinking about the run."

I wondered if he was thinking about the same stuff I was, but I didn't ask
him.  I noticed his bed was made up too, so that probably meant he changed
the sheets.

He asked, "What have you been doing? Where's the big guy?"

"Trev's at the library.  After I got done cleaning I showered and took a
nap."  I told a little lie because I didn't want to start talking about sex
right then, but if I said I jacked off we would talk about sex.

I added, "I'm going home to see mom for a while before she goes to work
this evening.  What are you going to do?"

Aiden took off his shirt and running shoes while we were talking.  He said,
"I'm going to grab something for lunch and then I better get my ass to the
library too for a couple hours today.  You wanna eat with me?"

"Nah, thanks.  I wanna get home to see mom.  I'll grab something when I get
home.  Mom's always got stuff there."

He grabbed his shower bucket and towel and walked past me into the
hallway. I smelled his sweat.  He said, "Don't forget there's another party
tonight. You gonna be here?"

"Yeah, I'll have mom bring me back on her way to the hospital about 10."

I pulled his door shut for him and headed down the main stairway. Halfway
down the stairs I saw Matt going out the front door. He didn't see me and I
didn't say anything.  I thought again that he's a really good looking
guy. I felt my cock jerk a little. As I got close to the door I looked
through one of the front windows and saw Matt get in his car and drive
away.

As I walked out onto the front porch of the fraternity house I was thinking
about sex again.  I stopped and sat on the porch bench.  I thought about
those questions again.  Would I really get to suck Trevor and Mike's cocks?
Are there other guys that I want to suck?  How does this stuff happen?  It
was like an accident with Aiden; it just happened because of other things.
Is that how gay guys and bi guys find out about each other?  By accident?
I mean especially guys you would never guess might be into sex with guys
too; guys like Aiden, Mike, and Trev don't act like gay guys.  I wondered
how many guys are like that and you just can't tell.  So how do you end up
doing sex stuff with them?  Then I thought about Matt, and wondered if he
was trying to let me know he would like to do sex stuff with me.  I didn't
think so, but that is part of what confused me about him. I didn't know why
he touched my ass in the kitchen and came to our third floor to shower with
me and let me see his cock, and why he was almost insisting for me to touch
his cock.

My thoughts got interrupted as one of the seniors named Colin parked and
got out of his car. He was the president of the fraternity that year, and
he is another really good guy that is also very fit and really good
looking.  He is also a pretty good friend to me, but we weren't as close as
I am with Mike and Aiden. He was wearing a fraternity shirt with khaki
shorts and sandals. I thought he looked sexy.  His junk made a lump you
could see in the front of his shorts; not a big lump but you could tell
he's got some equipment in there.  I was remembering what he looks like
naked in the showers.  I had never seen him hard in the showers but his
soft cock looked really nice and average size. I guess his balls looked
average too.  He has nice muscles and abs but not like a guy that does a
lot of lifting weights.  His build is more trim like Aiden.  He is probably
right about 6' tall and he has dark blond hair. He is really good at
basketball and swimming. I think he is a lifeguard during the summers.

He had a sack from Wendy's and a large drink. He smiled when he came up on
the porch and saw me and plopped down on the bench next to me.

"Hey TJ whats up?"  He looked in his sack and pulled out his order of
french fries.  He held them over to share them with me.

I took a couple fries and said, "Nada, just watching people walk by and
thinking. Going to see mom this afternoon; visit with her a while and get
some home cooking for dinner. What are you doin besides eating junk food?"

With a straight face he said, "Trying to decide between going to study at
the library, or going to my room and stroking one out. Ashley was doing
girl things with some friends last night so we couldn't be together.  She's
coming to the party tonight but I don't know if I can wait that long. I'm
about to explode.  You know how that is?"

He looked at me and was trying not to grin, so I knew he was teasing me
like the guys do sometimes.  He offered me more fries and I took some more.

I said, "Yeah, we all know how that is bro. I'm good for a while; at least
until I see the girls at the party. But the ones that flirt with me tonight
may be in trouble."

He knew it was just guy bullshit.  He laughed and offered me his drink.  I
took a sip from the straw and handed it back.

"Yeah you get a lot of talk time at our parties.  The babes like you.
Which ones that flirt with you do you think are the hottest?"

"The one that acts like she wants me the most."

"Ohhhh – and who is that, TJ?"

I finished his fries for him and said, "Ashley!"

Colin almost fell off the bench laughing.  He said, "Fuck you, Taylor!"

I grinned at him and remembered what Trev told Aiden, "Well, let me know
when you grow a cock big enough to do the job, Colin."

He was still laughing pretty hard.  "Come up to my room and I'll prove I've
got more than enough to do the job right now, you little shit."

I picked up his Coke from the porch and took a long drink this time, then
put it back down.  I watched another good looking college guy walk by as I
said, "That's not what Ashley says."

When he finally stopped laughing, he pulled his sandwich out of the bag. As
he was unwrapping it, he said, "I know a little boy that's been hanging
around his big brother too much.  You are just like him."  I grinned.

In the middle of chewing a bite he said, "Except..." he paused while he
finished chewing and swallowed... "Except if your brother said that to me,
I'd really worry about keeping an eye on him and Ashley."

He took another bite and I said, "Because you know if she ever spent time
in Trev's room she really would think you need to grow more."

He punched me in the arm and shook his head and grinned while he was still
chewing.  We both knew we were just joking around like all the guys do with
each other.

But then he said, "Seriously, TJ, I wish my 16 year old little brother was
even half as cool as you.  He's such a dweeb.  We all really like having
you around here.  Ashley and the girls do too."

"Thanks, Colin."  I didn't know what else to say and I think he could tell
I was a little embarrassed by his unexpected compliments.

He gathered up his stuff and said, "Well, a man's gotta do what a man's
gotta do." and winked at me as he turned to go in the house.  He added,
"Nice having lunch with you bro."

As he stood up he was kind of holding the Wendys bag in front of him but I
saw it looked like you could see his cock more plain in his shorts now;
kind of like a tube sticking down the left leg of his shorts.  I wondered
if he meant he was really gonna jack off now. I suddenly knew I would like
to suck Colin's cock if he would let me. I like him a lot and trust him,
and he's really sexy.

I said, "Thanks for the fries and coke, Colin.  Later, bro."

Over his shoulder he said, "Get your little ass back here tonight for the
party or the girls will be disappointed."

I said, "Yeah, I promised Ashley I'll be here."

He started laughing again and before he closed the door he said, "Tell your
mom I said hi and I had a good time the other night, and she can call me
again anytime she's lonely."

I said, "Fine with me Colin if I get a new little brother and he looks like
you and has a tiny dick instead of a cock."

He was grinning at me and flipped me the finger as he closed the door.

I started to head home, but now I was way horny, more than before.  I
decided I could wait a little before heading home to see mom. I ran back
upstairs.  As I walked by Colin's closed door I heard the lock click. I
imagined him stripping off his clothes to jack off right now on the other
side of the door while thinking of Ashley.

Aiden's door was open just a little. I pushed it open and walked in.  It
looked like he had just finished dressing. His hair was wet.  He looked
surprised, but smiled.

He said, "Hey Taylor.  Thought you went home.  Whats up?"

I closed his door and said, "I started to, but can go later.  I'm really
horny right now."

He grinned real big as he walked over to me and said, "Oh really?  What a
coincidence; so am I."

He put his arms around me and I heard him click the lock on the door. He
pulled me into a tight hug and started kissing me that new hot way with his
tongue in my mouth and all.  My cock was really hard, really fast.

Aiden's arms were around me and his hands were all over my ass.  My arms
were kind of trapped down at my sides but I reached between us and was
feeling the front of his pants until I found his cock.  I could feel him
getting hard too as we kissed.  I kept squeezing his cock.  I started
trying to unfasten his shorts but that was hard to do, so I unfastened my
pants.

As soon as my pants were undone and loose, his hands went down inside the
back and now his hot hands were rubbing and squeezing my bare ass.  It felt
really good and I pressed my ass back against his hands.  I worked my hands
around to squeeze his round swimmer's ass too.  I was surprised about the
way he was moving his hard ass and I could almost imagine it was alive and
wanting to have sex too.  But I still wasn't thinking about fucking.  I
don't know what I was thinking.  Guess I was just getting kind of lost in
feelings. We had each other by the ass and were pulling our hips together
and smashing our hard cocks together through our pants.

We stopped kissing and we were both breathing hard and grinning at each
other.  Aiden said, "Get naked."

We stripped fast.  We both stopped and just looked at each other's body up
and down.  Our cocks were kind of hanging out there, bouncing in front of
us.  I saw precum on the tip of his cock.  I bent over and sucked the head
of his 7" cock into my mouth and licked the precum off and circled the head
with my tongue.  He groaned really loud and I laughed with his cock in my
mouth.  I wanted to make him groan a lot but we both knew we had to be
quieter than that.

Aiden pulled me up off his cock. He gave me a fast kiss on my lips and then
licked my lips.  He said, "I like tasting my cock on your lips."

He backed up to his bed and pulled me down on it with him.  He pushed me
down on the bed on my back, pushed my legs apart and got between them on
his knees. He leaned over me and kissed me again and I wrapped my arms
around his neck.

His mouth moved from kissing me to licking my chin, and dragging his tongue
along my jaw to my ear, then it was in my ear. He bit my neck a little and
I jumped but it was all real sexy and making me hotter.  He put little
kisses on my neck and then he licked from my adams apple to the area just
below it like at the bottom of my throat.  I heard myself moaning. It felt
weird but really HOT too.  Then he started licking and kissing my nipples
and I reached for my cock so I could jack it while he was doing this stuff,
but he took my hand away and held it down on the bed.  He said, "No! Bad
boy!" and smiled at me.

My stomach is real ticklish but when he licked my abs he was pinching my
nipples and it just felt really hot.  I wanted to cum real bad.  He licked
around and in my navel and that was hot too.  He stopped licking just
before he got to my cock and balls, and started massaging my thighs with
his strong fingers.  He rubbed down one leg, and then up the other.  I
didn't know it would feel so sexy to have someone rubbing my legs.

When he came back up the other leg and got to my thigh I thought he would
reach for my cock or start sucking me.  But he said turn over.  I rolled
over on my stomach and then thought about my ass sticking up.  I was a
little scared.  I said, "Please don't fuck me Aiden."

He turned my head and put his face down on the pillow so we were looking in
each others eyes and he said, "Don't worry little bro. I know you're afraid
of that. I won't go there until you're ready. I promise.  But I want you to
trust me totally, ok?  Just relax and focus on what you're feeling with
your body, not what you're afraid of in your head. Ok?"

I loved looking in his eyes.  I said, "Ok. I trust you Aiden."

His hands started real slowly massaging my neck and then shoulders and
back.  He was kissing and licking where he was rubbing too.  He massaged
both of my butt cheeks a little and kissed and licked them too.

I know I got tense when he was doing that, and he told me to relax my
muscles so I tried to.  He moved on down to my legs and he went down one
side and came back up the other leg.  I felt him rest his elbows on either
side of my shoulders and then he almost laid down on top of me. But he
stopped so his chest was just barely on my back. I felt his hot hard cock
on my ass. That made me a little scared again.

I just whispered, "Please don't Aiden."

He kissed my neck and whispered in my ear, "I promised I won't, Tay.  Trust
me. I love you bro. I'll never hurt you or do anything you don't want me to
do."

While he was saying that, his body was moving around on top of me a little
and his cock was moving back and forth across my ass, left and right.

He whispered, "Relax Tay."  Then he added, "Think about the good feelings."

There were a lot of good feelings to think about.  His hips were going in
circles and his cock was smearing his hot slick precum around on my ass.
His hands were under my chest and he was playing with my nipples.  He was
kissing the back of my neck. My cock was rubbing against his bed.

His knees were resting on the bed between my legs and he kept moving them a
little wider, spreading my legs more.  But I wasn't thinking about that
because he was kissing, licking, and then putting little bites on my neck
and shoulders.  Then I was surprised by one really sharp and painful bite
right where my neck connects to my shoulder and I jumped and yelped a
little.

While he kept his body moving over mine he was licking my ear and
whispering, "Shhhhhhh... It's ok little bro... shhhhh... just a little love
bite... I'm not a vampire."

He kinda laughed and so did i.  But then I felt it.  His cock was now
between my cheeks, moving up and down my crack.  It must have moved in
there when I jumped.  It felt slick.  It must have been his precum.  It
slid over my hole a few times, and then stopped with his cockhead right
against my hole.

His mouth was still at my ear and I felt him panting in my ear.  I knew he
was super horny like me.  He knew I was scared and said, "I promised I
wouldn't fuck you, Tay; and I won't.  Until you want me to.  But little
bro, this would be an excellent time to change your mind.  Let me show you
how good it can be."

I was too scared and I said, "No Aiden. I don't want to do that.  Please
don't fuck me."

I felt him sigh against my ear and he whispered, "It's ok.  It's up to you
to decide when you're ready. I won't enter you bro, but is it ok if I cum
on your ass?"

That surprised me and sounded funny and I started laughing.  He kept
rubbing his slick cock up and down my ass crack real slow and I understood
what he meant.

He said, "Is this ok with you Tay?"

I said, "Yeah.  Kinda feels funny but good too."

He said, "You are so fucking hot bro.  So sexy."

His hands pulled my hips up from the bed a little, so I was kinda up on my
knees with them still spread wide apart but my chest and head were still
down on the bed. I realized my ass was in the air. But then his hands
cupped my cock and balls and started playing with them.

His cock kept moving and felt a little slicker.  I figured he was leaking
more and more precum between my ass cheeks.  A few times he pressed his
cock head just a little bit against my hole but I wasn't scared now; I knew
he would keep his promise; and I was surprised because it felt a little
exciting when he did that.

He said, "You like this, Tay?"  His voice almost didn't sound like him and
I guessed it was cause he was so horny and close to cumming.

I said, "Yeah, I love your big cock rubbing on me bro.  You wanna cum on my
ass?

He said, "Fuck yeah. Gonna blow a load on your sweet virgin ass, Taylor."

I was panting and said, "I'm gonna cum too bro. Don't stop.  Make me cum
bro."

Next thing I knew, I was shooting my little load of 12 year old boy cum in
Aiden's warm hand and on his bed. Then he groaned in my ear and I felt his
big hot college guy cum gushing between my ass cheeks. I felt a couple
shots up in the middle of my back and also felt it running down the back of
my balls. I think his last shot was with his cockhead pressed pretty tight
against my hole.

My brain was kind of dizzy with all the feelings.  Feelings from my cock
and balls, and from feeling Aiden's bigger 19 year old body rubbing all
over my back and his cock against my ass, and feeling his hot cum all over
me.  I could smell it really strong too.  It was fucking awesome!  I
collapsed down on his bed and he was laying on top of me again.  I felt his
cock jerk in my crack.  I wondered if it really does feel good to get
fucked.

"Ohmyfuckingod!" he said in my ear.

Then he said, "Tay? You ok bro?  Was that ok for you?"

I started laughing.  Then he was laughing too.  He rolled off me and hugged
me.

I said, "Will it keep getting better every time we do it?"

"So I guess that was ok for you?" he asked again.

"Fuck yeah! It was awesome bro.  YOU'RE awesome Aiden."

We did a short hot kiss, then we sat up on the edge of his bed, next to
each other.  I had cum smeared all over my backside.  He had it smeared all
over his front.  We had to figure out how to get cleaned up and hope no one
figured out what we did.  He wiped himself off with a towel, and then took
another towel to the bathroom and brought it back all wet with warm water.
I stood in the middle of his room while he carefully cleaned our loads off
my body.  The way he was doing it felt really good and I got hard again and
he laughed about it.  He said Colin was coming out of the showers and saw
him wetting the towel, but Colin didn't say anything about it, he just said
"Hey" and went to his room.

After I was dried off and dressed, I said I still felt like I should do a
fast shower.  I was afraid mom would smell his cum on me when she hugged me
like she always does.  He said he didn't think there was anyone else
around.  He said he'd let me shower and then when he heard me leaving to go
home, he would go shower and then go study.  We did a quick kiss and hug,
then as I left his room he started stripping his bed to change it again.

As I closed Aiden's door I looked up and saw Colin leaving his room and
heading for the stairs.  He glanced over and saw me.  He smiled and said
"Hey TJ." and kept going, except he kinda paused for just a second and
looked at me again, but kept going.  I wondered what he was thinking.

I got my stuff from our room, showered, put on clean clothes and headed for
home.

It is only a few blocks between the fraternity house and our house; about a
mile.  I was feeling really good about things as I walked home. I had a
great visit with mom and she dropped me off at the fraternity house as she
headed to her job at the hospital about 10:00 that night.  When I got back
the party was just getting started good, and by 11:00 the place was
rockin. I had fun talking with the bros and the girls.  Some of the girls
were there as dates with the bros, and other girls were members of the
sorority that was invited to the party.  I knew some of the girls pretty
well since I am around there a lot.  Some of the partiers were drinking too
much and starting to act pretty drunk.  It was usually fun to watch the
drunks, unless they got sick.  I was only allowed to drink soft drinks as
usual.

I saw Colin and Ashley.  They didn't seem drunk, but I could tell they'd
been drinking a little while.  They were both really friendly.  I told
Colin my mom says hi and thanks for keeping her company when she gets
lonely. He started laughing.  Then I told Ashley that Trevor said he'll see
her later.  Colin laughed even harder.  I left Colin to explain the jokes
to his girlfriend.

Aiden saw me and nodded for me to follow him into the alumni room.  No one
else was in there.  He said, "You wanna sleep in my room again tonight?"

"Trev hasn't told me if he might have a guest again tonight in our room"

"He hasn't said anything to me about that either, but just tell him you're
sleeping in my room."  Then he added, "If you want to.  Do you?"

I grinned and said, "Yeah, I do."  I knew we were thinking the same thing.

"So just tell him.  Let me know what he says."

We went back to the party and I mixed around with people like I always do.
But I was trying to think up a reason why I would tell Trevor I wanted to
sleep in Aiden's room.

I got another Mountain Dew and saw Ashley in the crowded kitchen. I could
tell she had been drinking more because when she saw me she stopped talking
to one of her sorority sisters and yelled, "TJ! Come here you little stud!"

Some people around her stopped talking and looked.  She was smiling real
big and I figured Colin had told her about our joking around out on the
porch.  As I got to where she was standing, I looked to the left and saw
Colin talking with one of the other guys and another girl, but he saw me
too.  He was watching when I got to Ashley and she grabbed me and gave me a
big kiss on the lips while she patted my butt.

I knew it was a big joke so I played along and put my arms around her
back. All the other guys and girls around us were staring at us like in
shock and they all turned to look at Colin to see if he saw what we were
doing. Colin was almost falling on the floor laughing. I figured he was
probably half drunk too.

He came over to us and said real loud, "What the fuck! If she's gonna fuck
around on me I'm glad it's with you little bro." and he hugged me tight,
and I could feel a little stubble on his face against my cheek, and smell
beer on his breath.  Ashley said, "Hey I want in on this bromance!"

She pressed herself against my back and put her arms around both of us,
Colin opened his arms and included her too.  For a moment I was feeling
Ashley's tits rubbing against my back and Colin's junk lump rubbing against
my cock. I was trying not to get hard. People around us, especially the
fraternity brothers, were laughing and shouting and clapping.

When they let me go Colin winked at me and rubbed my hair.

I said kinda loud, "You mean you'd rather Ashley hook up with me instead of
my BIG brother."

Everyone laughed and Colin smacked me on the head kinda hard, but he was
laughing. Ashley pulled me over to her and whispered loud so everyone could
hear, "How big?"

Everyone laughed again and Colin acted like he was offended or something.
I said, "Go ask him."

They laughed again and Colin said, "Isn't it time for you to go to bed
Junior?"

Everybody in the kitchen was laughing with us.

Finally, it was 11:55 and the rule is that I have to leave the party and go
upstairs at midnight.

I found my big brother and Mike talking to a couple girls. He turned to me
so we could kinda talk private and I said, "Goodnight bro. I'm gonna crash
in Aiden's room again."

Trev quietly said, "Won't be any need tonight. You can sleep in our room
bro."

"Nah, I'm gonna sleep next door."

"Ok; no big deal I guess, but why?"

"Uh because you snore worse than he does."

He laughed out loud and said a little louder, "I do not."

I grinned at him and said, "Yes you do Trevor. A little bit. I never hear
Aiden snoring."

He laughed again and shook his head. "Ok, ok. Sorry bro. I really didn't
know I do that.  Goodnight Tay. See you in the morning."

I smiled at him and started to leave, but he stopped me. I looked back at
him.  He pulled me close and I could smell the beer on his breath as he
whispered, "Don't tell anyone else about that, ok? Especially not the
girls."

I laughed and said, "Ok; promise."

I found Aiden and said everything was cool with Trev. He wanted to know
what I told him, and then he laughed about it. I made him promise not to
say anything to Trev about snoring.  Aiden said he'd be joining me in about
an hour. I understood he didn't want anyone to notice he left the party
early and followed me upstairs to his room. That would seem weird.

The back stairs at the fraternity house are narrow and usually not used
during parties because they don't want drunks to fall down them. I was just
starting up the stairs to go up to the third floor and someone came up
behind me and put their arm around my shoulders and stopped me.  I smelled
beer before they even said anything.  It was McKibben.

"Hey where you goin, TJ? This party rocks. You cant leave."  He seemed
pretty drunk; his words were slurred.

I said, "I have to leave the party at midnight; that's the rule. I'm going
to bed."

"No bro. You gotta stay."

"Matt, I gotta go. You go have a good time."

"Won't be fun if you leave."

I didn't know why he said that, because I didn't remember even seeing him
in the crowd until now.

"Sorry bro but I gotta go.  Go have another beer."

"Maybe I've had enough. I should go to bed too."

I thought he was joking.  But then he acted like he was going to go
upstairs but he tripped on the next step and I reached out and caught
him. He put his arm back around me too, so we were holding each other in
the dark stairway.

"Fuck! I'm wasted bro." We both laughed a little and he didn't let go of
me.

"Help me up to my room bro. I don't know if I can do it by myself."

I'd seen a lot of the guys drunk and he didn't seem THAT drunk to me, but I
thought it wouldn't hurt to help him walk to his room.

He kept his arm around my shoulders and we went up to second floor and down
to the other end of that hall to his room.  We didn't pass anyone else
along the way; they were all at the party downstairs. He stumbled a little
on the stairs and in the hall. He was leaning on me pretty heavy but not
enough to knock me over.

At his door I tried to pull away and let him take it from there on his own,
but he held onto me and kinda pulled me with him into his room.

"Come on in TJ. You haven't seen my room. I got lots of stuff in
here. Fixed it up myself."

He closed the door and leaned back against it, like so he wouldn't fall
over.

"Have a seat. Lets talk more and get to be better friends. Wanna beer? We
can have our own party up here. I got beers and a little weed. We can have
fun. What do you want bro?"

"Nah, Matt. I'm going on up to bed. I'm getting sleepy."  I lied a little
again.

He didn't move away from the door.

"Bro you can sleep right here if you want. I'm kinda tired too.  Let's go
to bed.  My bed is really comfortable.  You'll like it."  He pulled off his
shirt.  I noticed his muscles and they looked nice, but I was starting to
feel like I was trapped.

"Thanks Matt but I want to sleep in my own bed upstairs."

"Wait, wait.  Just a sec bro.  I got something to show you. I know you'll
like it."

That kinda threw me off a little bit and I wondered what he was going to
show me. He was still leaning on the door and undressing, kind of turned
away from me while having trouble getting his pants off his feet. He was
wearing a black jock brief with the Under Armour logo on them. He got his
feet free from his pants and then before I realized what he was doing he
pulled off his underwear too. He turned to me.  He was totally hard and his
cock was bobbing up and down.

"I know you wanted to see this better bro.  Here it is.  You like it?"

"I'm outta here," I said and moved toward him, hoping he would just move
away from the door and let me out.  But he didn't move

"I know you like it.  I know you wanna touch it.  You were just afraid to
do it this morning.  It's ok TJ. I won't tell anyone."

He grabbed my right wrist.  His hand was really strong and he was gripping
me hard. He moved my hand down to his cock and rubbed the back of my hand
on it.  It was very hot and hard. He held my hand against it. I could also
feel his soft pubic hairs against my hand. I kept trying to pull away.  I
was scared.

"Come on TJ. Wrap your fingers around it. See what its like to stroke it.
You'll love that. Make us both feel good bro. I've been thinking about you
all day. We are going to be really great friends bro.  You can see this
anytime you want.  We can do other things too and have a lot of fun. No one
else will know.  Just us bro. I've seen how you look at my cock and my
body, you want me like this.  It's ok, I'll let you have it as much as you
want.  You'll be my little brother.  I'll be your new big brother. You'll
love it, I promise.  I'll take really good care of you bro. I've been
watching you for weeks around here and I see how you look at me
sometimes. This morning we finally connected bro. Come on; lets do this."

His other hand was on my shoulder and pressing me down to the floor.  I
didn't want to hurt him but I was scared. i closed my left fist and hit him
hard in the nuts.  He let go of me and doubled over and dropped to the
floor. He groaned really loud and his face was red and I thought his eyes
were going to pop outta his head. As I was getting the door open it sounded
like he was throwing up but I didn't look back to see.  I closed his door
and ran up the stairs to Aiden's room.

I closed Aiden's door and locked it.  I was glad I didn't tell McKibben I'd
be in Aiden's room.  If he came looking for me he would probably check our
room and then think I left the house.  I stood against the inside of the
door with my eye glued to the peek hole so I could see if McKibben came up
in our hallway.  I think I stood there about 15 minutes.  I kept wiping
tears outta my eyes so I could see. I was afraid to turn on a light or make
any noise.

Finally I was calming down and my brain started working again.  I figured
he was either too hurt or too scared to follow me upstairs where he might
run into my brother or one of the other upper classmen who were my friends.
I figured he might be drunk right now and maybe that's why he acted like
that, but when he sobers up he is going to be scared shitless that I'm
going to tell Trevor and the guys what he did.  And they would definitely
believe me over him.  He'd be totally fucked as soon as I told anybody.
Then I started thinking about if I was going to tell anyone.  That
surprised me that I might think about not telling. Fuck yes; I should tell.
I should tell the fuckin cops and have him arrested.  Well I should at
least tell my brother and he could help me decide who else to tell.  But if
I tell Tevor, he would probably go beat up McKibben really bad and then
Trev would be in trouble maybe.  Same thing would happen if I tell Mike or
Aiden.  And I think some of the other guys would react that way when they
heard about it too.  I didn't want them getting in trouble for me.  I
didn't know what I was going to do.  I sat down on the floor with my back
against the door and cried a little.

Then I was just sitting there feeling kind of numb. I wiped my eyes and got
a beer out of Aiden's little refrigerator.  I drank about half of it pretty
fast. Mom had let me share a beer like three times at home with Trevor, but
I had never had one at the fraternity house and I'd never had a whole beer
myself.  I finished it and got a second bottle.

I kept thinking about McKibben. I liked his looks.  And I was liking him up
until a few minutes ago.  I liked his cock. It was awesome! So why did I
act like I didn't want to touch him?  I knew I really did want to touch
him. Somehow he knew I wanted to touch him. What the fuck was wrong with
me?  Did I make him act crazy like he did?  Why did he do that?  I felt
kind of guilty.  I drank more beer.

Very early Sunday morning I woke up with Aiden's arms wrapped around me. My
clothes were still on me. He was still dressed too.  He was either already
awake or he woke up fast when I moved just a little bit.  He leaned over me
with his face close to mine.

"Taylor, are you ok?"

I didn't know what to say. Then I remembered McKibben, and I still didn't
know what to say.

"What's going on, Taylor?"

I just looked at him and tried to decide what to tell him.

"The beers.  That's not like you.  Did something happen?"

I could tell he wasn't mad at me.  He was really worried about me.

Finally I cleared my throat and said quietly, "I gotta piss."

He let me out of his arms and sat up on the edge of the bed with me.  I
stood up slowly. My head hurt a little. I saw the three empty beer bottles
by the bed.  I stopped at the door and looked through the peek hole. The
hallway was dark and empty.

"Will you go with me?"

Aiden looked really worried but didn't say anything. He got up and silently
walked with me to the bathroom.  We pissed next to each other again, then
he stayed next to me in case I needed help standing.  I didn't think I
would stop pissing.  It got kinda funny and we both laughed a little. I was
finally empty.  We washed our hands and dried them on our pants.

We got back to the room and he closed and locked the door again.  I still
hadn't decided what to tell him.

"Do you want me to go get Trevor?  Do you need to talk with your brother?"

"No. Please don't."

"Taylor, are you upset with me?  Be honest. Tell me if you are."

"Hell no, bro. I really love you, like I do Trev and Mike."

"Tell me what's going on, Taylor.  I don't know what to think. I got up
here last night and found the door locked, so I got the extra key I hid in
your room and let myself in.  I found you passed out on the bed with empty
beer bottles on the floor.  I couldn't get you awake.  And the pillow was
wet like you'd been crying. I almost went to find Trevor then, but he and
Mike were pretty drunk together last time I saw them and I think they may
have been heading to Mike's room, so I didn't know if whatever is going on
with you was serious enough to barge in on that."

I grinned at that thought.  "No, I'm glad you didn't do that."

He just looked at me.

"Aiden, I'm really sorry to cause all this problem for you.  I just started
thinking about some stuff last night that really upset me. And I wasn't
really thinking when I got into your beer. I don't even remember anything
after about the first half beer.  I'm really sorry."

"But what the fuck upset you that much?  What we did together?"

"No, Aiden! That was awesome and I know it was the right thing for me too.
And I really want to do more like that with you."

"Are you upset with Trevor and Mike?"

"I'm not upset with them but I am still really surprised and my feelings
are kind of confused about them a little.  But I definitely still really
love them. I just need to get use to the idea of them doing that stuff
together."

"Why is what they did different than what we did?"

"They were fucking.  We don't do that."

"Tay, in case you missed the clues, I've fucked with guys before and I
would fuck with Trev and Mike if I find a way to let them know about me,
and if they want to be with me that way.  Fucking is awesome."

"No I didn't miss the clues. You've been real clear about that, and that
you want to fuck me too.  But I'm kind of ignoring all that right now."

"That's probably good then.  Totally ignore it as long as you want, and if
you decide you want to talk about it someday let me know. You've been clear
that you're not ready to get into that yet.  I gotta respect that.  I think
it takes some of us a while to make that step."

Aiden was still watching me closely.  "So what was the big problem last
night?"

I decided the best thing to do was lie. I was getting upset about how much
I was lying lately.  I wondered if you have to lie a lot when you start
doing sex things.

"It seems stupid now.  I guess I was just really tired and made a big deal
outta nothing.  But when I was leaving the party to come upstairs I heard
some girl say something about Trevor that really pissed me off. It totally
wasn't true but the other girl agreed with her."

"What girl?"

"I don't know her."

"What did she say?"

"That doesn't matter now. Like I said, it's not true anyway, and she wasn't
one of our friends so it doesn't really matter.  People just say shit all
the time and I shouldn't get so pissed off about it."

Aiden finally smiled and hugged me.  "I know how you feel about your big
brother, and I understand how something like that upsets you.  But you're
right.  You need to deal with it better than you did last night.  Ok?"

"Yeah, I promise I won't over react like that again.  Do you have anything
for a headache?"

He laughed at me.  "Sometimes another beer makes it go away."

"Oh fuck no!  I will never drink beer again."

He laughed harder.  "Dude you have no idea how many times the walls of this
house have heard that statement."  He got up and gave me two Advil and a
bottle of water from his refrigerator.

"So, other than the headache, how are you feeling about things this
morning?"

"Really sorry that I fucked up the chance for us to do stuff again last
night.  I really wanted to do it again with you."

"Yeah, I was really horny, just thinking about you during the party.  But
when I got up here I forgot all that and I was just scared and didn't know
what to do to help you."

"Did you hold me like that all night?"

"Yeah. I wanted to know if you woke up, or got worse."

"Thanks.  That's probably the best thing you coulda done for me bro. I felt
safe when I woke up with you like that; and that probably helped me sleep
ok last night."

I realized I probably shouldn't have said that, and he looked like he had a
question about it but he didn't say anything.

"So are you still really horny?" I asked?

He grinned and I felt my cock move a little in my pants.  But we heard the
door to Trevor's room being opened real slowly.  I wondered later if I
should tell my brother that no matter how he opens that door, we can hear
it in Aiden's room.  LOL

Aiden whispered, "Your wandering brother is sneaking back into his room in
case his little brother comes looking for him when you wake up."

I whispered back, "Do you think he was in Mike's room all night?"

Aiden nodded yes.

I said "Then I'm glad at least half of us got to have sex last night."

Aiden and I laughed but tried to be quiet about it.  I looked at his
clock. It was 6:35 AM. Later I looked at Trevor's cell and saw he had the
alarm set for 6:30 that Sunday morning.  So Aiden was right; he wanted to
sneak back into our room before I got up.

We were really quiet because we figured it would take a few minutes for
Trev to get in bed and fall back to sleep.  We just whispered a little and
started hugging and kissing and touching each other.  Then we were
undressing each other.  This was all very slow, not like Saturday afternoon
was.

I copied what Aiden had done before.  I kissed and licked my way down the
front of his body, and back up; but when I got back up to his cock I had to
suck it. I really liked having his cock in my mouth.  He pulled me around
and started sucking me too.  I was doing my first 69. I loved feeling him
sucking and licking my cock and balls, and feeling my ass with his hands,
while I was sucking him too.

When I tried to deep throat him, I found out the back of my throat was
kinda sore from Friday night.  I guess maybe I had over done it a little
and should have started out slower.  So I couldn't deep throat him Sunday
morning, but I had fun sucking his cock anyway.  I could kind of tell when
he was getting close to cumming.  He suddenly tried to pull out of my mouth
but I was ready for that and I held on to his ass tight as he hit his nut
and he shot all his cum in my mouth.  There was a lot and some of it leaked
out and down my chin but I swallowed lots of it.  It tasted stronger than I
thought it would but I liked doing that with him.  I wondered what Trev's
and Mike's cum tastes like.  And Colin's.

I didn't cum at the same time, so when he was done cumming, he started
working on me again with his mouth while I looked at his cock up close and
licked it a little more. He deep throated me a couple times and sucked my
balls into his mouth.  He licked the place just behind my balls a little
and that felt weird, but in a really good way.  When he put me all the way
in his mouth again, I came in his mouth.  It was awesome!

When we kissed later, we could taste cum in our mouths.

Aiden had been feeling and rubbing my ass while we did all this stuff, and
I was getting use to that, and had to admit to myself I kinda liked it.

When we were done, we fell asleep together for about an hour.  Then I tried
to be quiet when I got my shower stuff from our room, but Trevor woke up.
He got up and I saw he was half hard. He saw me looking at it but he didn't
care and that was cool.  We went to shower with Aiden.  Right after we got
in there, Mike came in to shower too.  The three of them were all talking
and joking around.  I was imagining my brother, Trevor, fucking his best
friend and I was remembering how much Mike seemed to like it.  I started to
get a little hard and Mike saw it and smiled at me but he didn't say
anything.

The four of us got dressed and went out to a restaurant that all the
college students love for a big Sunday brunch.  We saw Colin and Ashley in
the line waiting for a table too, so they joined us and it was all awesome.
Trevor said he heard from a lot of other people at the party about Colin,
Ashley, and me joking around in the kitchen in front of everybody there.
We joked some more while we waited for our food. I think people at the next
table heard us and were trying not to laugh too.

I went to the restroom and Colin came in right behind me. He looked around
like he was making sure no one else was in there with us. He said, "You've
been really cool TJ about Ash and me joking around with you in front of
everyone last night.  Later when I sobered up a little I started hoping we
didn't take it too far and embarrass you.  Are you really as cool with it
as you seem?

I grinned and said, "Yeah we're good Colin.  You and Ash are awesome and
fun to be with.  It was fun to fuck around like that in front of everyone
else."

He said, "Great. I was worried that we went too far, especially with the
physical stuff."

I said, "The physical stuff was the best part. I was hoping for more of
that."

We laughed, but I wasn't really joking and he looked at me like maybe he
wondered about that.  But I knew I really liked Colin and I knew I could
trust him.

Trev and I went home to spend Sunday afternoon with mom. We mowed and
trimmed the yard while we were there.

I didn't think about McKibben at all until we got back to the fraternity
house. But his car was gone and I didn't see him around Sunday night.  I
will probably tell you more about McKibben later.

So these are some more things I've been wanting to tell about.  I had sex
with Aiden three times during the weekend when I first started having sex.
I found out from McKibben that some people can be kinda fucked up about sex
stuff.  But I started finding out from most other people that sex can be
fun and really cool.

If I tell you more about stuff I started doing with more people you will
probably think I'm a slut or something.  LOL

Sorry this part was even longer than the first one and a lot of it was
boring stuff instead of fun sex stuff.  I tried to make it shorter but I
didn't know what to take out because everything was kinda connected, and it
all explains why that whole weekend will always be very important to me.

You can email me if you want to.  taylorthoresen@gmail.com

Later guys.

Taylor