Date: Sat, 2 Jan 2010 08:24:48 -0800 (PST)
From: Jason Gardham <gardham1@yahoo.com>
Subject: "The Love of Brothers"  Chapter 18

Author: J. Gardham
gardham1@yahoo.com

This story is pure fiction as are all the characters, it's totally from my
imagination with a bit taken from my fantasies.  Thanks once again to all
of you who have taken the time to e-mail your comments, some of those
comments have really touched me deeply, here's Chapter 18 of "The Love of
Brothers".


"The Love of Brothers"

Chapter 18


Lance stopped in at Chuck's office to let him know there was a new arrival
to the community named Rene' Bouvier who would like to open a small
independent bank to serve the community.  Lance explained that Rene' ran
into David at the Haberdashery and during their conversation was asking if
there was anyone in the area with financial experience, and David mentioned
your name to him.  Chuck asked, what Rene' wanted, "if he's opening a bank
he surly has all the financial background experience necessary, and I have
a job here with you that I'm very happy with Lance".  Lance laughed saying,
"you'd better not even think of leaving us Chuck, we'd be at a total loss
without you running this place".  "I think Rene' just wants some advice
from someone who's been involved with the Hamlet from the beginning".
"He's coming over this evening around seven to discuss the architectural
possibilities for his bank building, you're welcome to join us if you'd
like to meet him, if not that's fine too, it's entirely up to you Chuck".

"Lance I didn't mean to sound rude, just the thought of not being here with
all of you sent butterflies to my stomach".  "Chuck you're stuck with us
for the remainder of life if that's what you want so never even consider
doing otherwise okay?"  Leaning over to give Chuck a reassuring kiss he
whispered, "we all love you Chuck, I can't imagine you not being a part of
our family."

After Lance left, Chuck thought, what on earth came over me, I know I'm
secure here with the rest of the guys.  Maybe I need to have a chat with
Frank and Jack to see if they have any insight into why I responded the way
I did.  I wonder if it has something to do with the fact that I'm sleeping
alone when everyone else has found someone to share their lives with.

Slightly after seven Chuck decided he'd go up to the house and meet this
Rene', he didn't want Lance to think he was being childish about this.
Walking into the living area Chuck nearly choked on his own tongue when he
laid eyes on the tall, dark, curly haired man with pale blue eyes that just
happened to be staring straight at him.  "Oh good Chuck's here", Stan stood
and greeted Chuck with a hug and introduced him to Rene'.  "Rene' this man
is the maestro when it comes to finances".  Chuck rolled his eyes as he put
his arm around Stan's shoulders and laughed, "that's just a bit of an
exaggeration Rene'".  Stan turned and kissed Chuck on the cheek as he said,
"like hell it is, this guy's the best there is, and you can take that to
the bank".  Chuck gave a double eye roll this time but laughed at Stan's
corny joke.  With a smile that could melt steel, Rene' looked Chuck in the
eye as he quietly said, "I believe I would like to take him to the bank".
With a bit of a flush to his cheeks Chuck was thinking, "and I believe I'd
like to take you anywhere you want to go, Mr. tall, dark, and handsome,
Rene' Bouvier".  Wondering to himself why he felt so attracted to this man,
there's plenty of hot looking guys right here at the farm, why him?

The others were already on their second beer as Lance brought one in and
handed it to Chuck who had seated himself across from Rene' in a
comfortable, overstuffed leather chair.  Staring at Rene' he asked if any
progress had been made on the architectural design for Rene's proposed
bank.  One of the architects spoke up saying, "yes I think we have a pretty
good idea of where we want to go with this, we'll have some drawings ready
for everyone's perusal by next weekend".

Following the architects departure the discussion rambled from topic to
topic with each man having a second and third beer before Frank walked in
and waved as he made his way to their bedroom winking a Chuck.  Frank's on
to something with that wink, I wish I knew what was going through that
pretty head of his.  Rene' stood and said, "he thought he'd better head
back to the Bed & Breakfast unless Chuck wouldn't mind giving him a few
minutes of his time, I'd like to run a few ideas by him concerning
financial needs inherent to this particular community".  Chuck was
thinking, "I'd have a few ideas I'd like to run by you too kiddo,"

Lance and Stan told them to take their time and wished them goodnight as
they headed for their bedroom where Jack and Frank were waiting for them.
Chuck had finished his beer and was so engrossed in thoughts of what he'd
like to be doing with Rene' he hadn't realized Rene' had walked over to him
until Rene' leaned over and kissed him, "wake up Chuck, am I boring you
into sleeping with your eyes open?"  Startled Chuck blushed, "no I'm sorry
my mind had just drifted momentarily".  "I'm really sorry, I'm being a bad
host, let's go down to my apartment where we won't keep anyone awake while
we talk".

Walking to Chuck's apartment it occurred to Chuck he hadn't even mentioned
the fact that Rene' kissed him, strange it seemed so natural he never
questioned it.  Rene' spoke up asking, "are you always so quiet or am I
just bad company?"  Laughing Chuck said, "neither Rene', for some reason it
just feels natural to be walking with you at my side".  "For the life of me
I can't explain why, it just does".  "Well at least that makes me feel
better, I was beginning to think you were forcing yourself to be with me
out a sense of hospitality".  Letting Rene' into the apartment Chuck
noticed Rene' had a nice basket showing in those dress pants he was
wearing.  "Have a seat Rene' can I get you another beer, I think I'm going
to have one?"  "Yes, I could us another if you don't mind".  Coming out of
the kitchen Chuck saw that Rene' had removed his shoes, tie, and unbuttoned
his silk shirt half way down showing a beautiful chest with a trail of dark
hair leading southward.  "What was it you wanted to ask me concerning the
banking business Rene'?"  "Well first, I really have to take a piss,
where's your bathroom?"  Looking Rene' in the eye with a mischievous grin,
Chuck said, "down the hall, door on the left".  Rene' made no effort to get
up from where he was sitting, he just took a few swallows of his beer and
grinned back at Chuck.  Chuck was thinking, "this guy definitely has
something in his mind and I'm getting the feeling it may be the same thing
that I have in mind, do I have to guts to call him on it?"

Deciding to go for it, Chuck walked over to Rene' and straddled his legs as
he bend down and ran his tongue across Rene's lips whispering, "and just
how bad to you have to piss Rene?"  "Chuck I'm about to piss my pants,
that's how bad I have to go".  "What do you want me to do about it Rene'?"
"Well Chuck I want you to get down on your knees in front of me and take my
cock out and let me piss down your throat and I don't want you to miss a
drop, can you do that for me?"  "I think that can be arranged Rene'",
dropping to his knees Chuck reached over and unfastened Rene's belt and
pulled it completely through his pant loops before unbuttoning his pants
and pulling the zipper down, Rene' lifted his butt so Chuck could pull his
pants down so Rene's cock could swing free.

Rene's half hard cock was beautiful, Chuck smelled his scent and licked the
tip of Rene's cock.  Rene' put his hands in Chuck's hair and pulled his
face close enough so his cock was rubbing on Chuck's lips.  Chuck open his
mouth and Rene' pulled his head close enough so his cock was resting on
Chuck's lower lip.  Rene' let his piss flow freely into Chuck's mouth and
down his throat, Chuck was forced to swallow in big gulps to keep up with
the rapid flow of Rene's piss that he had been holding through five beers.
Chuck didn't miss a drop of the golden nectar and Rene' had a full bladder
that took what seemed like forever to empty.  Leaving his cock in Chuck's
mouth Rene' said, "you really loved that didn't you Chuck?"  Chuck shook
his head yes, "my balls are still full of cum Chuck will you take care of
that for me now?"

Chuck sucked Rene's cock further into his mouth and down his throat, Rene`,
still holding Chuck by the hair started to face fuck Chuck faster and
harder.  Rene' said, "you love my cock don't you Chuck, just like you love
drinking my piss, and just like you're going to love eating my cum, so far
you've done well Chuck".  A few more hard thrust into Chuck mouth and Rene'
shot his load down Chuck's throat, rope after rope of cum blasting into
Chuck's waiting mouth.  Leaning back into the chair allowing his heartbeat
to slow he looked down at Chuck who was still holding Rene's cock in his
mouth as he looked up into Rene's eyes.

"That was good Chuck, I'm proud of you".  "Chuck you love having my cock in
your mouth don't you, and I like seeing it there, it feels warm and good in
your beautiful mouth".  "Chuck do you have to piss?"  Chuck shook his head
yes still looking into Rene's eyes, "well you I won't let you piss yet
Chuck, there's something else I want you to do for me, you can release my
cock Chuck.  Rene' stood and stepped out of his pants before removing his
shirt so he was totally naked. "Chuck I want you to raise your arms over
your head while I remove your shirt, that's right, you can put them back at
your sides now", Rene' continued to undress Chuck until he was completely
naked.  Stepping aback Rene' said, "you have a gorgeous body Chuck, it
maybe the most beautiful body I've ever seen".  "Now Chuck I'm going to get
on my hands and knees and I want you eat my ass out and get my hole nice
and wet before you use your saliva to lube your cock so you can fuck me
deep and hard".  "Do you understand Chuck, I want you to fuck my ass deep
and hard but I don't want you to cum, when you have your cock as deep into
my ass as you can, I want you to piss inside me, can you do that for me
Chuck?"  "Yes Sir, I can do that Sir".  With that Rene' got on his hands
and knees on the floor in front of Chuck, he reached back and spread his
cheeks wide giving Chuck easy access to his hole, Chuck licked and tongue
fucked Rene' as Rene' moaned his pleasure, "now Chuck fuck me now, ram your
cock in deep and piss until you're completely empty".

Chuck and Rene' at this point switched roles from dominant to passive as
Chuck now took charge of the sexual role that was being played out.

Chuck lubed his cock and rammed Rene's ass hard shoving his huge cock deep
into Rene', slamming into him again and again until Rene's said, "please
Chuck fill me with your piss".  Chuck let loose with a torrent of piss that
he had been holding back way too long, he pissed so hard he was surprised
it didn't come flying out Rene's mouth.  "Rene' you like that piss in your
ass don't you?"  "Yes, I love it Sir, it's so warm and feels so good
flooding my asshole, give me more Sir, I want everything you have".  Chuck
drained his overly full bladder as Rene' continued to beg for more, when
there wasn't a drop left Chuck said, "now Rene' there's one more thing I
want from you, "yes Sir, anything you want", I'm going to fuck you until I
unload three days worth of cum into your piss soaked ass, do you think you
can take it Rene?"  "I want it all Sir, I want your load of cum", with that
Chuck slammed into Rene' hard as he spanked Rene's ass cheeks using the
belt he'd removed from Rene's pants.  As Rene's ass was glowing bright red,
Chuck slammed into him as hard as he could shoving his cock deeper than
ever as he unloaded his seed into Rene's piss soaked guts.

Exhausted, Chuck slumped over Rene's back forcing Rene' to lay on the floor
as both men lay dripping sweat as they tried to regain their breath and
steady they shaking muscles.  "Aaah,,,,, Chuck".  "What Rene'?"  "I really
do need to use your bathroom now".  "Yeah I bet you do, follow me".  Rene
got to the toilet just in time to release a flood of piss and cum, Chuck
turned the shower on and motioned for Rene' to enter first, closing the
glass door they embraced and kissed as the warm water rushed over their
tired bodies.

"Chuck I have never in my life experienced anything as fantastic as what we
just did together, it's been a fantasy of mine but you're the first person
who seemed to understand where I was coming from".  "For some reason I felt
that was what you wanted the minute I laid eyes on you up at the house
Rene`, and I'm happy I wasn't wrong".  "I nearly didn't follow through on
my feelings, but it's something I've longed for, for such a long time that
I felt I had to take a chance".  Rene' asked Chuck if there were other
fantasies that involved water sports that has wondered about and wished he
could share with another guy.  Chuck said he had many fantasies, but had
never even expressed them to anyone.

"What other fantasies have you dreamed about experiencing?"  Laughing Rene'
said, "it would take a life time to explore all of them Chuck".  Looking at
Rene' very seriously Chuck said, "I just happen to have a life time that's
available if you're interested Rene'".  "Are you for real, I'd love to take
you up on that offer Chuck, as crazy as it sounds for just having met you
I'm with you all the way, there's so much we can share and explore sexually
with each other".  "I'll have to close down my apartment in Seattle and
there's a lot to be done here to get the bank going in the direction I want
for it, but if you'll have me Chuck I'm all yours".

"Would you mind living here on the farm with me?"  Are you kidding, this is
the most wonderful place I've even been, it's so special, the feeling of
love and acceptance is almost overpowering".  "I can't believe my good
fortune in finding you Chuck, I thought I would spend my life living only
fantasies of what I wanted to experience with the man of my dreams, and
here you are on the same page, it's like a miracle".  "Chuck I'm so happy I
can't even express it to you".  "Rene' I'm feeling the same happiness, and
the same excitement at finding someone who's of a like mind".  "You're
right it's like a miracle that we found each other and I'm so thankful, but
Rene, I also believe it was meant to be".  "It took us longer than some to
find each other because we both have sexual tastes that go beyond the
usual, we're a minority within a minority if that makes any sense.  Rene'
said it makes perfect sense Chuck.

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Several months have passed and Rene' and Chuck's relationship has
solidified into an exciting and loving one.  The new bank building in
coming along not far from Gil's Bakery.  It's turning out to be another
piece of architecture that lends itself to the old English theme of the
Hamlet.  Chuck, with the help of Stan and his dad have brought
international financial connections into play for Rene's bank making it
competitive with some of the major world banks.  Most of the affluent gays
that were now living in the area brought large assets to Rene's "Banque de
Hamlet", adding those to what Stan, Lance and the Lockhart's large
deposit's amounted to, the Banque de Hamlet became more financially sound
than many United States banks.

Sitting together in front of their fireplace one evening Rene' mentioned to
Chuck that the bank was going to need some residential and commercial
experts on staff to handle the continued expansion of the Hamlet as well as
the new homes that were being built in the surrounding area.  "Chuck is
there anyone you're familiar with who has that type of experience that
might be interested in moving to this area?"  "Rene, let me give that some
thought, there just may be someone who would fit the bill, I haven't heard
from them in quite a while, let me see if I can get in touch with them and
see what their up to".

Chuck found a phone number for Jordan and Alex, and decided to give them a
call, he wasn't even sure they were still in Boston.  After several rings
Chuck was about to hang up when Jordan said "hello".  "Jordan it's Chuck, I
was thinking about you and Alex the other day and thought I'd call and see
how you two financial wizards were doing".  "Chuck", It's so good to hear
your voice, I haven't heard from you in at least three years, where are
you?"  Sensing a sadness in Jordan's voice, Chuck asked, "how are you and
Alex, I've missed you guys, you were my best friends in Boston, I'm sorry I
haven't stayed in closer touch, it's been busy but I know that's not a good
enough reason".  Chuck I tried to locate you two years ago when Alex died,
but you seemed to have disappeared from the face of the earth, and I know
you and the other guys had started your own mercenary group for search and
rescue operations, so I hadn't any idea where you might be".

"Alex died?"  "Jordan what happened to Alex, are you okay, I'm so sorry,
Jordan I feel terrible I should have been there for you".  "Chuck I know
you would have been here so don't beat yourself up for something you didn't
know."  "Alex and I were on our way home from work when we decided to stop
at Maxie's for dinner.  For some dumb reason we stopped at an auto-teller
machine to get cash which we didn't really need since we both had credit
cards with us.  When Alex jumper out of the car and withdrew the money he
was hit from behind by a guy that grabbed the cash from his hand, Alex
reached for his arm trying to stop the guy and was shot and died moments
later as I held him in my arms".

"Jordan I'm sick to my heart you two were such a perfect match and so much
in love, I wish I could do something to ease your pain".  "I know how much
you loved us Chuck and life is what it is, I'm trying to move on one day at
a time, sometimes I do better than others, it's hardest at night when I'm
alone in that big house we worked so hard at restoring together".  "Right
now I just try to stay busy doing anything I can think of to keep my mind
from dwelling on Alex".  "Jordan would you consider coming to the Hamlet
for and staying with me for a while, I'd love to see you and a change of
scenery might be helpful".  "The Hamlet, where's that Chuck, I've never
heard of it".  "It's in the northwestern part of Michigan's lower peninsula
not far from Lake Michigan, it's a beautiful area especially this time of
year".

"Chuck that obviously wasn't the reason you called originally was there
anything special you wanted to talk about.  "Yes there was but I don't
think now would be a good time to discuss business with you".  "Actually
Chuck now would be a very good time to help keep my thoughts working on
something other than Alex, please tell me what's on your mind".  Chuck went
on to explain his reason for calling and when mentioning some of the
backers of the new bank Jordan latched onto the name of David Lockhart,
"are you talking about the David Lockhart from Boston?"  "Yes David and
Mary have built a beautiful home here next door to the farm".  "The farm?"
Jordan there's so much that has happened since I last saw you, that it'd
take days to fill you in over the phone, catch a flight into the Grand
Rapids airport and I'll pick you up, there's someone special I want you to
meet".

"Don't tell me someone has actually captured Chuck's heart after all these
years", "what do you mean all these years I'm only thirty-one, but yes
Jordan, his name is Rene' and he definitely has captured my heart and all
that goes with it".  "Chuck you've managed to peak my interest, I actually
feel excited for the first time since losing Alex, I'll check on flights
and let you know when I'll be arriving".  "Jordan I can't wait to see you
again, thanks for agreeing to come visit, we'll meet you at the airport as
soon as we know what time you'll be arriving".  "Love you buddy, take care
and we'll talk again soon".

Rene' walked into the room just as Chuck was hanging up the phone, "did you
have any luck finding your friends?"  Turning to look at Rene`, Rene' saw
tear filled eyes and pulled Chuck into a loving hug, "what's wrong honey?"
"I was able to reach Jordan only to learn that his life's mate Alex, was
shot in a robbery and dying in Jordan's arms".  "Oh God, Chuck I'm so
sorry".  "They were my best friends outside of the marines Rene' and I
wasn't there to comfort him".  "I feel like I've failed one of the most
gentle and loving men I've ever known".  "If I'd just taken the time to
stay in touch, but I've been so involved with my own life that I let too
much time pass before calling".  "Stop it Chuck, you've been involved in
helping save several lives from what the guys here have been telling me,
you don't have a selfish bone in your body".  You're one of the most
caring, loving men I've ever met, so stop beating yourself up over this, I
know you'll be here for your friend, because that's who you are, that's who
I fell so deeply in love with".

"Now what can I do to help?"  Stepping back to look into Rene's eyes Chuck
said, "what did I ever do to deserve such a great guy like you Rene'?"
Chuck you brought love into my life, a love that I had given up on ever
finding and that's only one of the things you've done for me".  "Now tell
me what I can do to help your friend Jordan".  Chuck explained that Jordan
was coming to visit with them and would call as soon he knew what time his
flight was arriving.  "Rene' you're going to love Jordan, everyone loves
Jordan, and I think if you can get him tuned into what you need at the bank
that may help him begin to heal from his loss by giving him something new
to work toward".  "You can count on it Chuck, and once he sees and
experiences this area I doubt he'll want to leave and he already has you
here Chuck".

Jordan called from Boston's Logan International letting the guys know he
would be landing in Grand Rapids at one-twenty that afternoon.  Chuck was
so excited that Rene' thought he'd explode before it was time for them to
hitch a ride on David's helicopter at eleven that morning.  Looking at
Rene's big smile, Chuck asked, "what are you smiling about?"  Laughing Rene
said, "are you kidding just to see you this happy and excited fills my
heart with love for you, I don`t think you have any idea what a great guy
you are".  Landing in Grand Rapids around noon gave Chuck and Rene' time to
check the arrivals and gates.  They had about forty-five minutes to wait so
they grabbed a couple of sandwiches and cokes for lunch.  By the time they
were done Jordan's plane was at the gate with passengers disembarking.

Chuck saw Jordan making his way up the corridor with a small carry on,
Rene' noticed a worried look on Chucks face, "what's wrong Chuck?"  "Rene',
Jordan's just skin and bone".  "Chuck wipe that worried expression off your
face before Jordan sees you, give him a big smile and wave".  Chuck did as
Rene' said and waving frantically he got Jordan's attention".  Jordan
hurried his pace as he waved back with a huge smile on his face, being he
best friend was going to be good for him".  Hand shakes and hugs all around
as Rene' kept giving Chuck a look trying to remind him to keep smiling, the
last thing Jordan needed was to see a worried look on Chuck's face.
Turning to Rene' as Chuck introduced them, Jordan said, "so you're the
handsome man that managed to capture my buddies heart".  "Alex and I set
him up so many times with friends of ours and he never seemed to give them
a second look".  "Jordan I didn't take a second look at Rene', one look and
I was hooked, I love this guy so much it hurts".  Rene' put his arm around
Chuck's waist and gave him a look that said it all, the love there was
unmistakable.

On the flight back to the Hamlet Rene' caught Chuck giving Jordan his
worried look and kept trying to get through to him that he needed to stop
doing it without much luck.  Rene' and Jordan were in a fairly deep
conversation when Chuck was wearing his sad look again when he heard,
"Chuck stop it before you hurt Jordan's feelings, what you're doing is
working against him not with him, listen to Rene, he`s trying hard to help
you".  Chuck looked at the pilot and asked if he had said something, the
pilot laughed and said, "he hadn't but he recognized the look on Chuck's
face".  "What look?" "That Frank just reached out and touched me look".
"Come to think of it, it did sound like Frank's voice".  "Man that's just
too weird, has he ever spoken to you telepathically?"  Laughing the pilot
said, "no and if he doesn't want me crashing this helicopter he'd damn well
better not".  Chuck definitely got the message and stopped looking at
Jordan like he was about to burst into tears.

They landed at David's around two-fifteen and decided to take a drive
through the Hamlet to show Jordan their little piece of paradise.  When
they reached the site where the bank was under construction they stopped
and walked through the site giving Jordan a verbal picture of what it
should look like finished.  Rene' said, "there should be an artist
rendition of what the finished product is if I can find it".  Turning to
the foreman, he asked if Elliot knew where the artists drawings were.
Elliot said, "sure hold on a sec. and I'll bring them over".  Laying the
plans out on a make shift table for the guys, Elliot looked up directly
into Jordan's hazel eyes and lost his train of thought.  Jordan looked back
into Elliot's deep blue eyes with an almost puzzled look.  Chuck and Rene'
remained quiet and watched the two men.

A full two minutes must have passed without a word being spoken by anyone,
finally Elliot blinked a couple of times and smiled at Jordan before
continuing with the conversation as if nothing had happened.  Jordan smiled
back at Elliot and looked down at the building plans as Elliot described
where they were at in the process and how long before it should be
finished.  From there they drove on to the farm, as they were turning in
Jordan asked if Chuck would stop for a minute.  "This place is a marvel,
it's something out of a Dickens story, the entire area speaks to me as if
it's home".  Chuck said, "it seems to have that effect on nearly everyone
Jordan, I'm glad you like it".  "Like it, how could anyone not like it?"

Jordan was introduced to several of the men who were nearby before going
into Chuck and Rene's apartment.  Jordan put his things in the extra
bedroom and said he'd like to take a shower and freshen up from his flight,
Rene' made sure there were extra towels and other necessities ready and
told Jordan they'd be on the patio having a beer, when he was finished to
come and join them.

"Okay Chuck tell me what you noticed when we were at the bank".  "Don't be
coy Rene' you know exactly what I noticed and so did you".  "Okay, okay, I
just wanted to make sure we were on the same page here".  "That was really
strange the way they stared into each other's eyes like that not saying a
word, and then returning to the conversation like nothing had
happened". "You got me there Rene', I'm as baffled as you are, it was
almost like they both recognized each other or something, it was almost
like a spiritual connection".  "It is a spiritual connection Chuck, a very
deep spiritual connection and it's important that you let Elliot and Jordan
be drawn to each other, they both need healing and they'll find it within
each other".  "Okay that's twice today that's happened".  Rene' looked at
Chuck with a puzzled expression, "what happened twice today?"  "Frank has
made a mind connection twice today, it's a bit unnerving to tell you the
truth".

"I heard he could do that, what did he say to you?"  Chuck told Rene' and
they both looked at each other with the same questioning look.  Jordan
walked in and asked if he was disturbing anything?  "No, not at all we were
just thinking about one of our friends".  "Chuck asked, "are you feeling
better after your shower?"  "Yes, a lot better thanks, you suppose I could
have that beer now?"  Chuck brought Jordan a beer and they sat and talked
about what Rene' needed help with when the bank opened.  Rene' explained
that with all the new home and commercial construction going on along with
requests for additional public services, we're going to need someone who
knows all the legal ramifications of building permits, licenses, and other
safeguards required to make sure we meet state and local regulations as we
proceed with developing our little community.

Chuck added, "we have a very special community here Jordan and we want it
to grow with a certain amount of intelligent design so we end up with a
community that everyone will enjoy and approve of".  "No one quite
understands how people are finding out about us, but they're being drawn
here to find peace of mind and acceptance, and we want to keep that
spiritual quality of love where gay`s and other`s feel in harmony with God
and one another".

Jordan said he felt the peace, and harmony between God and man as soon as
they began their drive around the Hamlet, "this place is quite remarkable
and I understand your not wanting to lose what you have here".  "I would
like to go back into the business area tomorrow and look around more, is
there any place I could rent a car?"  "Jordan we have cars and trucks all
over the place we'll find one for your use in the morning".  "Would you
like Rene' or I to go with you?"  "Thanks guys but I think I'd like to just
wander on my own if that's okay".  "That's fine and if you decide you'd
like to meet us for lunch at the Café just give us a call otherwise we'll
leave you to your exploration.

In the morning Chuck gave Jordan the keys to his truck and told him to have
a nice day and to call if there was anything he needed.  As Jordan drove
out the drive towards the Hamlet, Rene' leaned against Chuck whispering, "I
love you with all my heart".  Turning to kiss Rene' Chuck asked, "what
brought that on?"  "Oh I don't know, maybe the love and concern I see in
your eyes for your friend might have something to do with it".  "It shows
that much does it?"  "Yup, it does at that, what do you think he's really
up to, since he obviously wanted some time to himself?"

"Rene' I have a feeling Elliot might have something to do with Jordan`s
wanting to be alone, Frank said to let it be, that they both needed healing
and they'd find their own way, so that's what I'll have to do".  Laughing,
Rene said, "it's not easy is it?  I know you want to follow him and make
sure he's okay".  "Yes smarty-pants, I want to make sure he's okay, I can't
help it Rene'".  "It's okay Chuck I feel the same way about you, I don't
want you out of my sight for a second when I know how worried you are about
Jordan, I feel just as protective of you and you do of him".  "Dear God,
Rene' I love you so much".

Driving into the Hamlet Jordan parked near the new Bank construction and
walked in looking for Elliot.  Elliot, standing where Jordan couldn't see
him said, "good morning Jordan, I've been expecting you".  Looking around a
wall Jordan smiled at Elliot as Elliot walked over and pulled Jordan into
his arms for a warm embrace.  "Thanks for coming Jordan", "you're welcome
Elliot and of course I'd come, I know you need me as much as I need you".
"Strange how we knew wasn't it, when I looked up at you yesterday Jordan I
felt your hurt, and knew your heart was broken".  "Yes Elliot I also felt
your pain, you hide it well but it was there staring me in the face and I
wanted to comfort you".  "I don`t understand how but when you looked into
my eyes I knew you had been watching as your Josh was killed by a hit a run
driver as he was crossing the street to meet you".  "We need to talk if
there's a place that's private if you're able to take time off from your
work here".

Elliot led Jordan to the church yard and they sat by the lily pond, Jordan
took Elliot's hand in his, looking into his eyes asked, "how can I ease
your pain Elliot?"  "Jordan you already have just by being here with me and
knowing of my loss and sharing the terrible hurt you've been caring in your
heart".  "Will you let me carry some of your pain, you need to let go
Jordan, it's weighing you down".  "I feel a weigh has already been lifted
Elliot, being near you I feel the pain and sadness slipping slowly away, I
hope it's the same for you".  "It is Jordan, it's exactly the same, you
never left my thoughts last night, I kept wishing you were with me, I hope
that doesn't sound selfish of me".  Laughing Jordan said, "I laid awake
most of the night thinking of you also, I couldn't get you out of my mind
and yet this morning I felt as if I'd had a good nights rest for the first
time".  "I wish I could properly explain what I'm feeling, but I know it's
impossible, it's like Alex is releasing me from the loss and emptiness that
I've felt since his death".  "I know it's okay to let go and I need to let
him go so he can move on, I'm holding him back by grieving, he wants me to
be happy again and he wants to go home Elliot, God wants him home".

With tears falling Elliot hugged Jordan tightly as he cried his heart out.
"Oh Jordan letting go of Josh is so hard, he was truly the light in my
life".  I need to let him go and you won't believe this but I can see them
both in my mind's eye, Josh and Alex are watching over us Jordan, they
brought us together and now they're free to go back to the Lord".  "I see
them too Elliot, they walking home together now knowing that we've found
each other, please don't ever let go of me Elliot".  "That's a promise
Jordan, as long as you're with me I know life is as it should be".  "Josh
and Alex loved us so much they couldn't continue they're journey without
knowing we were together, they knew we were a perfect match Jordan.

Seemingly out of nowhere Frank walked up and knelt in front of them with
his hands on their knees, "how are my two very special men doing?"  Looking
at Frank, they told him they were going to make it as long as they were
together, Jordan asked if he was aware of what they had just experienced.
Frank said he was aware only that Josh and Alex loved each of them with the
most pure form of love possible and their greatest wish was for their
happiness.  "You need some time alone together, but I want you to know
there's a place for you at the farm, I hope you'll both consider it your
home from this day forward".  With that Frank gave them a hug, walking away
he turned with a smile waving as he said, "dinner's at seven".



Jason Gardham