Date: Thu, 9 Feb 2017 09:40:57 -0500 From: Xavier Stewart Belle <excessbelle@gmail.com> Subject: Uncle Terry We fucked for the first time in the musty dark of my room while my mom was out shopping. He smelled likes sweat and cut grass, and he grunted every time I brought the weight of my body down on him. But it had started earlier, in the garage, while mom was at church. After driving home from Tony's I'd been sitting in my truck, slowly submitting to a blinding headache, regretting every beer I'd had the night before. I hadn't planned on a night of drinking, but Troy's dad had surprised us with a case of beer, thanking us for spending a month of summer Saturdays helping him clear an acre behind their house. So I'd called home and told mom I'd be spending the night. After Troy's parents had gone to bed, Troy and I had squeezed into a tent in the back yard. We stayed up late, huddled around the dim light of an electric lantern, talking, drinking, and waiting to see who would make the first move. The next morning after I pulled into the garage I sat in my truck feeling sorry for myself. As the engine pinged and I smelled the fumes coming out of my own mouth, I tried, without much hope, to think of a way to get out of the day's chores. While I took after dad, who was happy to fly out of town at a moment's notice whenever work needed him, mom liked structure. For me, that meant Sunday was a work day. After church--converting to Catholicism had been mom's version of an early mid-life crisis--we'd have brunch and then I'd take care of all the things she thought needed doing. But that morning I didn't even have the energy to fall out of my truck, and the thought of pushing the lawn mower around in the sun made my stomach churn. I put my seat back to lay down for a while. Part of me hoped an excuse would come to me as I listened to the engine tick, but mostly I wanted to close my eyes and will the headache away. I must have dozed off, and I woke up in a panic when I heard shoes scuffing the concrete floor outside my truck. I tried to compose myself as I sat up. What was I going to tell mom? She'd see the guilt on my face, smell the beer on my breath and I'd be grounded for a month. But that wouldn't be so bad. When dad got home, I'd be dead. I looked out the tinted windows and tried to feel normal, hoping that would, in turn, help me look normal. But I didn't see mom's car. Instead I saw Uncle Terry. He stood about ten feet from my window, hands on his hips, looking back out the open garage door. He was wearing nothing but running shorts that stopped just above mid thigh and he was breathing hard. Sweat matted the generous layer of hair that ran from his collar bone all the way down over his abs. His shoulders and thick arms looked slick, and I could see drops of sweat running down his sides to soak into the waistband of his shorts. Relieved, I glanced at the clock on the dashboard. I still had time until mom got home, so I lay back in my seat. Sinking into apathy again, I waited for Uncle Terry to turn toward me so I could wave. He didn't turn right away. He just stood there, sweating, his chest heaving as he caught his breath. I shifted slightly to better enjoy the view. My dad had gotten soft years ago, but Uncle Terry still kept fit. He was younger than dad by just a few years, but in his late thirties had the body of a guy in his late twenties. He was the one who'd shown me how to use weights, how to eat, and sometimes we still ran together. He was almost always shirtless and he liked the kind of shorts that let his legs get color all the way up his thighs, Uncle Terry had always been around. Mom had gotten pregnant young, and when family had rejected them, dad's friends rallied. Uncle Terry, a perpetual bachelor and a friend since school, had been the most involved. He helped around the house, played with me, and in the early years when money was tight, he'd entertained my parents when they couldn't afford to go out. Sometimes I thought of him as an older cousin, but more often he acted as a second, more attractive father figure. So I didn't mind the opportunity to look him over. Growing up I took every chance I got. I'd always loved his deep voice, his big hands, and the casual, dominating presence of a man comfortable in his own body, but when I realized I liked guys, I really started paying attention. As I grew into myself I used to imagine that we would go on camping trips, just the two of us, and he would let me explore his body. I'd try things I thought he would enjoy, and he'd give me pointers. By the time I turned eighteen and I'd stumbled into experiences with Tony and other guys at school, I began to imagine that he would be impressed with my skill and my maturity. Seeing me as an equal, he'd let me do things he never did with other people. I pushed the thought away as my dick began to harden. I didn't want him to see me at half mast if he came over to say hello, so I gave myself a quick squeeze and tried to think of something else. But he still hasn't noticed me. He'd turned so that the garage door was to his right and he was facing the truck, then he raised one arm slightly and sniffed at his armpit. It was a casual, intimate gesture, something you'd never do in front of other people, and watching him do it awakened a little surge of heat in my chest. I sat very still and began to wonder what else he might do when he was alone. The thought was only half formed when he slipped a hand inside his shorts and reached down between his legs. I held my breath, afraid that if I moved he would look up and see me watching through the tinted window. I watched as his knuckles pressed against the thin nylon of his shorts, and my dick, already hard, lurched as he smelled under his arm again. When he reached up to pull his phone from the band fastened around his bicep, I wilted a little. I wanted more. I'd never seen him so unguarded and casually appreciative of his own body. But what else could I expect? He'd enjoyed a little post-run grope while his endorphins ran high, but that was the end of it. If he was horny, he'd turn off his music and head inside to stroke off in the shower. That's what I always did. But Uncle Terry didn't turn toward the door that led into the house. He stood right there in the middle of the garage and kept stroking as he studied the phone in his other hand. An achingly long minute passed as he peered down at the little screen, absently stroking or looking out the garage door. I thought my heart was going to explode when he glanced up at my truck, but I relaxed as he looked away again. Unable to help myself, I moved my hand slowly back to my dick, freeing it by pulling up the leg of my shorts. Slowly, barely moving, I began to stroke along with him. My whole body vibrated with an electric energy. I couldn't take my eyes from the hard, sweat soaked man standing just a few feet from my car. A small part of me noted, as it sometimes did, that this wasn't some guy at the gym, he was family in everyway but blood, but the brain between my legs didn't care. He was perfect. He had strong, thick arms and a broad chest. The sweat matting his body hair revealed the symmetrical mounds of his abs, and his legs, corded with muscle, tensed each time he shifted his weight. He was exactly my type, and I'd been watching him since before I realized I had a type. My neck had started to ache and I was debating the wisdom of shifting my position again when Uncle Terry took a step forward. Hand still on my dick, I froze. In retrospect I knew I should have moved my hand from my dick, should have reached for my phone and pretended not to have seen him, should have lain back and acted like I was sleeping, but all my hung over, hormone soaked mind could process was the sight of that hard, toned man walking toward me with his hand down his shorts. And then he was there, right next to my truck. All he had to do was look up and even through the tinted windows he would have seen me staring back at him, my hand on my dick. But he didn't look up. Still staring at his phone, he turned and leaned against my door. As his back settled against it, the whole truck wobbled. I froze, holding my breath. He was right there, right next to me. I sat still, light headed with adrenaline and waited to see what happened next. When his right shoulder began to move back and forth in a slow, steady rhythm, I felt my mouth open. Just inches away from me, leaning against my truck, he was jerking off. It took about fifteen seconds for me to process the unbelievable situation and develop a burning need to know what he was looking at. What--aside from the smell of his own arm pits--got him off? I waited long enough to observe his pace and convince myself that he wasn't racing to a finish, then I began very carefully to raise myself up in my seat. Miraculously, nothing beneath me groaned or creaked. When I was sitting up, I paused. This was a once in a lifetime event. Should I risk shaking the car in order to look over his shoulder, or should I lay back and stroke one out while I felt his pleasure shake my truck? I decided to attempt both. I ran my hand up and down my shaft and watched my uncle's shoulder bunch and roll. He varied his rhythm, speeding up and slowing down, and I matched it, squeezing the head of my dick on every upstroke so I could last. When I couldn't stand the anticipation any longer, I let go of my dick and gripped the armrests on each side of me. Then, slowly, with an effort that made my shoulders ache and my head pound, I began to push myself up off my seat. It was a stupid thing to do. As soon as I shifted my weight to the door, the metal groaned and shuddered and Uncle Terry whirled around almost before I realized what was happening. He stared at my dick where it stood at full mast in the center of my lap. Eyes wide, he looked up to my face. Then, as we stared at each other, I saw realization wash over his face. With my heart beating violently in my chest and not knowing what else to do, I fell back into my seat. On the other side of the window Uncle Terry continued to stare. He looked at my dick again, still throbbing in time with my heart, then opened his mouth to speak. I expected him to shout an accusation, to launch into some kind of tirade about what I'd been doing, but he didn't say anything. Instead he shut his mouth, straightened his back, and pulled his hand from his running shorts. Then, despite the obvious bulge pointing up toward his hip, he walked around the front of the truck to the passenger side door. In the few seconds before he climbed in, I tugged the leg of my shorts back down over my dick and hunkered down for way I expected to be the most embarrassing conversation of my life. When he climbed in and the door closed, I sat, mortified, with both arms across my lap to hide my bulge. I could feel him watching me. "So," he said, his voice neutral, "What just happened here?" The silence in the cab of my truck roared around us. "I'm sorry," I said, my voice barely a whisper. "For what?" Then he added: "You like watching people?" I winced and hung my head. "I am so, so sorry," I said. "I'm just really hung over and I wasn't thinking straight and--" Uncle Terry interrupted me. "Obviously not." The paternal tone in his voice made me wince and I stared at the steering wheel in front of me. I thought about all of the one-on-one conversations we'd had over the years: about sports, lifting, my parents, my friends, school, my dreams for college. He'd always offered a friendly ear or a shoulder to lean on, and now that my lust was beginning to fade I realized that all of that might be about to disappear. "I'm sorry," I said again. "It won't happen again." "What, exactly, won't happen again?" Still unable to look at him, I gestured awkwardly at my crotch and then in his direction. "This." "Why don't you go ahead and explain to me what 'this' was." I swallowed. He didn't seem as angry as I thought he'd be. Maybe this was salvageable. Maybe honesty really was, in this case, the best policy. "I saw you come in," I said, "and you didn't see me. Then you started..." I rolled my free hand wordlessly as I groped for a euphemism. "I was jerking off. You can say it." "...then you started jerking off," I said, stunned at his frankness but grateful for permission to say the words bouncing around in my head. "And I got excited." I chanced a look in his direction and saw his dick still outlined by the thin fabric of his shorts. "And why were you excited?" His words were low and soft, but insistent. Maybe it was my hangover, maybe it was my adolescent desire to escape my embarrassment, but I felt a sudden surge of resentment at his tone. Why was he making me say all of this out loud? Why couldn't he just let me apologize for an embarrassing situation and let it go? And why had he gotten into the truck? Couldn't he have gone inside so we could talk after my hard on went away? Why would he think it was a good idea to sit next to me in those barely-there shorts? "Fuck," I said, despairing, angry, and unable to stop myself. "Why do you think I was fucking excited?" "Alright," he said, lifting his hands. "Alright. You don't need to get upset." We sat there in deafening silence for a few heart beats before I heard him take a breath. "So you liked what you saw," he said. It was true, and a selfish, horny, reckless part of me wanted him to know it. Another part of me resented the question just the same. How long was he going to drag this out? All I could do was nod. He was quiet for a minute, so I chanced a look over at him, at his near-nakedness and the still-impressive bulge under those nylon shorts. My dick jumped. Embarrassed all over again, I hunched over farther to shield my hard on from inspection. "Well," he finally said. "I'm flattered. A guy like you getting off to a guy like me." That sentence blew through me like a cold wind and I froze, all my anger and embarrassment gone. He settled back into his seat, spread his legs slightly, and gestured at himself with both hands. "So," he said, "this does it for you?" Invited now to look him over, I gave him my full attention. I ran my eyes over his powerful body, starting with his legs and moving up over his bulge to the hard planes of his chest. Unsure what to say, I just nodded again and let my eyes linger on the thin fabric struggling to contain his dick. Had it just twitched? Finally, as the silence stretched between us, I said the only stupid thing I could manage. "Yeah," I said. "Yeah," he echoed. "I can tell." I looked him in the face for the first time and realized he was studying my crotch. "Here," he said, putting a warm hand on my shoulder. "Sit back. You don't have to be embarrassed. It's just us." Still covering myself with my forearms, I let him push me back into my seat. Curiosity and anxiety waffled around in my stomach. This wasn't the way I imagined this nightmare scenario unfolding. I expected a lecture about decency, privacy, boundaries. Instead I heard compassion and patience in his voice, along with something else I couldn't quite place. I thought about my next move carefully. I had a half formed hunch in the back of my head, too tenuous for words, but as I felt his eyes continue to bear down on my crotch, I decided to take a risk. I was already in pretty deep--what else did I have to lose? Holding my breath, I let my hands fall to my sides. My dick, still more than half hard, lifted up the leg of my shorts. I don't know what kind reaction I expected, but I liked the one I got. "Jesus," he said. "That all because of me?" Emboldened, I looked him in the eye for a long moment, then looked down again. I nodded. When he didn't say anything, I looked down at the impressive length that had come back to full attention in his shorts. It jumped as I looked at it. I licked my dry lips, unable to take my eyes away. "And where'd that come from?" I asked. My voice came out smaller than I wanted it to be, but it was steady. Uncle Terry looked down at the narrow expanse of fabric that barely contained him and then looked up again at me. He frowned slightly, then lifted his phone so I could see the dark screen. "You didn't see?" I shook my head again. "Was trying to." Uncle Terry nodded, still frowning, and looked down again. I could see his eyes moving quickly around the floor and I wondered what he was trying to work out in his head. Was I old enough to see what he was looking at? Would I understand? Was he afraid I'd tell someone what he looked at when he was alone? Fear, anxiety and excitement all snarled into a knot in my chest. Finally, he shifted again in his seat, making his dick bounce, and looked up at me. "Can you keep a secret?" I nodded. "You sure? If I tell you, we're in this together." I nodded again, excitement tightening my chest. He drew in a deep breath and his face took on a fixed, almost grim expression. He unlocked his phone, stared at the screen for a moment, then turned it in my direction. I squinted at it, eager to see what got him hard. I frowned as I recognized the picture. It was me on the field at one of my lacrosse games. Uncle Terry thumbed to the next picture. It was me again, this time in my trunks by my parents' pool. He swiped once more and there I was, shirtless, doing squats with the weights in the basement. Understanding hit me like a truck and I looked up at him, searching his face for confirmation. He smiled. "Looks like maybe we're in the same boat," he said. His voice was calm, but his eyes darted back and forth between mine. I stared at him, trying to wrap my mind around the impossibility of the situation. This man, a man who'd featured prominently in my fantasies my entire sexual life, had a folder on his phone filled with pictures of me and he looked at them when he wanted to get off. And we were sitting together in my truck, our dicks hard, staring at each other. Relief flooded through me, followed by a wave of excitement. I stared at him a moment longer. I knew I had to say something. One of us had to break the ice, or we sit there until the excitement turned to anxiety and we had second thoughts. So I shrugged. "Show me yours and I'll show you mine," I said. It was a stupid thing to say, childish, but it was all I had. And it did the trick. I could see the tension in his chest dissolve as he let his phone drop into his lap. He grinned. "Jesus," he said. "Yes." Without stopping to think, afraid in the back of my mind that if we stopped we'd come to our senses, I lifted my ass off the seat and pushed my shorts down to the middle of my thighs. My dick sprang up and it bounced around before settling against my stomach. I gripped it at the base and squeezed. I was proud of my dick and I liked showing it off, but I resisted the urge to start stroking. I looked expectantly over at Uncle Terry. "Your turn," I said. He stared at the pipe in my hands a few seconds longer, then pulled himself together. He looked over his shoulder through the back window of the truck and jabbed a finger at the gray controller velcroed next to the rear view mirror. With a clanking hum, the garage door behind us began to close. "Just to be safe," he said, and then he held himself up off the seat so he could push his shorts down around his knees. The dick that leapt into view was beautiful. It was about seven inches long and massively thick from base to tip. It had a large vein snaking around the side and the head was a perfectly round bell shape. "That's a nice piece," I said. He lifted a hand, then let it rest on the console between us as he looked up at me. "Can I?" I scooted down lower in my seat and pulled my shirt up to give him better access. I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came to me, so I just nodded. His hand was hot as it wrapped around my shaft. He held me firmly, knowingly, and I let my head rest against the back of my seat as he began to pump up and down, slowly at first, then with more enthusiasm. I felt light headed, but grounded in a way I'd never experienced before. Besides Troy, I'd been fooling around with a few guys from school--a guy on the swim team loved to give me head in the locker room after school, and a guy on the intramural rugby team swore like a trucker when I drilled him in his car--but I'd never experienced anything like this. I couldn't believe it was happening. I fought through my hangover to stay in it, to savor it and let every sensation soak into me. My mind swam as Uncle Terry continued to stroke me and I reveled in the danger of what we were doing, of sitting half naked in my truck while this strong, mature man in his prime, gave me a hand job. It was the fulfillment of all my adolescent fantasies. But even as a wave of pleasure began to build at the base of my dick, another part of my mind began to turn. What else would he be into? What else could we do? I thought about all the fantasies I'd invented when I was younger, and I returned to them, trying to imagine how I could use my body to make him happy, to make him proud of my strength and my sexual appetite. My orgasm began to build behind my balls, but I wasn't ready to finish yet--we'd just started. So I caught Uncle Terry by the wrist and I held his fist down at the base of my dick. When I looked over at him he was staring at me with an intensity I'd never seen before. His eyes roamed all over my face, moving from my open mouth, to my eyes, to my cheeks, and all around again, like he was seeing me for the first time. Finally, his eyes settled on mine and he just stared at me, waiting. When I didn't say anything, a line of worry appeared between his eyebrows and I realized that I liked that. I liked that my reactions could excite him or fill him with doubt. "This is incredible," I said, and he broke into a wide smile. "I just don't want it to stop yet," I said. "Let me take a break." "Yeah," he said. "Sure. No problem." He gave me one last squeeze, then sat back. I don't know if he did it on purpose or if it was something he just couldn't help, but as he settled into his seat he brought his hand up to his face. As his palm met his mouth and he stroked the stubble on his chin, he hauled the scent of my dick in through his nose. For just a second his eyelids grew heavy, then he sighed and let his hand drop onto his thigh. Still staring at my dick, he used his right thumb to push at the base of his own shaft until it pointed at the dash board, veins bulging. I waited for him to start stroking or to invite me to touch him, but he just sat there staring down at his lap, making his dick bounce. I put an elbow on the arm rest between us and leaned toward him. "What do you want me to do?" He looked up at me. "Whatever you want," he said. My stomach did a little flip as I absorbed what he'd just said. The patronizing tone was gone and in its place I heard a request. He wasn't allowing me to do whatever I liked, he was asking me to. I knew then, instinctively, wordlessly, that something fundamental about our relationship had just shifted. I could see it in the way his eyes searched my face and in the way his lips had parted in anticipation. I could see it in the tightening of his his chest and in the rigid set of his shoulders. He was waiting, his whole body bent toward my response. "Put your seat back," I said, adrenaline pushing my hangover to the edges of my awareness. Without a word, he pulled on a lever next to the door and his seat reclined to an almost horizontal position. He looked up at me expectantly, his dick pointing at the ceiling, and I drew a breath to tell him exactly what I wanted. The words had just formed in the back of my mouth when a metallic clang filled the garage and jolted us both upright in our seats. We stared at each other, our eyes wide with horror, as the garage door behind us began to open. We barely had time to lay back in our seats before mom's car pulled into the space next to us. For two excruciating minutes we lay in our seats, shorts around our knees and hands covering our laps, as we listened to the sound of rustling plastic bags. Too scared to move, I looked up at the felt ceiling of my truck and prayed mom wouldn't notice through the tinted glass that both of the fronts seats of my truck were down. When the last car door closed and the house door clicked open and then shut, we scrambled to pull up our shorts. "Alright," Uncle Terry said, putting his seat back in position. "Let's go. She'll wonder where you are." His tone had shifted again. The breathlessness was gone, replaced by the authoritative depth I'd always known. "Hold on," I said. "I'm trying not to get sick." Uncle Terry stopped, his hand on the door handle, and turned back to looked at me. "What?" "Hangover," I said. He smiled, relaxing just slightly. "Better get your shit together. That grass is pretty long." "Honestly," I said, "I don't know if I can." Uncle Terry frowned at me. "You really that bad? You seemed fine a minute ago." "Pretty bad," I said, putting an elbow over my eyes as I willed my stomach to settle. "And I had better motivation a minute ago." Uncle Terry made a thoughtful noise that came out of his chest. "Alright," he said, "l'll see what I can do. Pull it together for now." When I didn't sit up he reached over and punched me in the shoulder. "Move." We climbed out of the truck as quietly as we could and huddled by the door to the house. Uncle Terry opened it a crack and we both leaned in to listen. From the kitchen I heard the sound of plastic bags rustling, mom humming. Uncle Terry opened the door wider and pushed me through. "Up to your room," he said in a whisper. "I'll tell your mom you didn't get enough water yesterday. You're dehydrated and need to rest. I'll do the lawn." I nodded gratefully as he joined me in the hallway and closed the door behind him. When he took a step toward the kitchen I caught his arm and pulled him around to look at me. I had questions, but I lost my nerve when the Uncle Terry that turned to face me wasn't the eager, open mouthed man I'd seen for the first time in my truck. I took a breath to ask him the question I couldn't swallow, but it came out as a stutter. "Are we--when--" Uncle Terry twisted his arm out of my grasp. "Upstairs," he said. "Now." So I went, and a cloud of anxiety followed me all the way to my room. Not long after, mom knocked on my door. She put a pitcher of ice water on the table next to my bed and felt my forehead with the back of her hand. She told me I should know better than to work outside without getting enough water and that I should shower before I slept. After she left, I drank two glasses of water and lay back in bed, staring up at the shadowy ceiling as the sound of the lawn mower droned in the yard beneath my window. I don't know how long I slept before a knock at the door woke me. I squinted into the light coming through the door. I could see Uncle Terry's silhouette in the hall. He was still wearing only his running shorts. "Hey," he said. "You awake?" "Am now," I said. He moved into the room and closed the door behind him, then came and sat on the edge of my bed. "How you feeling, bud?" His voice was low and soft. Intimate. "Better," I said. "Thanks for running interference." I watched the dark shape of his head nod. "Any time." And I did feel better. Almost human. A nap and a little bit of water had cleared my head, and now I looked up at my uncle, wondering what would happen next. In the soft warmth of his voice I thought I could hear the man who'd sat in my truck and invited me to do anything I wanted to his body, but I couldn't be sure. Maybe he regretted what we'd done. Maybe this was my uncle from the hall downstairs, the one who pulled out of my reach and didn't have time for my questions. But he was here now, maybe wondering how to recapture a lost moment. I decided there was only one way to find out. Stretching, I tucked my hands behind my head. As my shirt rode up to expose my stomach, I let my knew settle against his ass. After a moment's hesitation, Uncle Terry reached out to lay his hand on my left hip. His fingers grazed my stomach and sent a jolt up into my chest. As the heat of his hand soaked through my shorts and into my skin, he shifted on the edge of the bed and leaned forward slightly. "Your mom's gone out." My dick, which had begun to swell at his touch, hardened. As I processed the implications of his conspiratorial tone, the confidence I'd felt in my truck began to creep back. I wanted to reach for the prize hiding in those tiny shorts, but the memory of his face in the hallway downstairs kept my hands where they were. "Where'd she go?" I asked. "Shopping. She'll be a few hours." I considered his posture as he let the statement hang between us. He'd assumed that same tense, expectant hunch he'd had in my truck. "Alright," I said. And I waited again. I heard him open his mouth and take a breath, but then he paused. A few moments passed. Then, with a decisive movement, he lifted his hand from my hip and laid it on my stomach. He let it rest there, his palm flat and his fingers spread wide to cover my abs. My dick thickened a little more. "Listen," he said. "In the garage." He was quiet for a half beat, then: "What we were doing. What I did. Did you like that?" That was good enough, I decided. "I loved it," I said. "Wish we could do it again." Uncle Terry sighed and I could hear the smile in his voice. "Well," he said, "we can do it now. How about that?" "Maybe I should shower." "No," he said. "I like you like this. You smell amazing." I thought about the way he'd sniffed at himself in the garage. "Ok," I said. And I waited again. Slowly, maybe trying not to seem too eager, he hooked his fingers inside the waistband of my shorts and used both hands to pull my shorts down to my knees. Then, putting a supporting hand on each side of my hips, he leaned down to run his nose along my shaft where it lay against my stomach. He grunted. "You smell incredible." "Yeah?" "Like you've been working. I can smell the sweat on you. The heat." Letting the stubble on his jaw scrape along the side of my dick, he lowered his face until his nose and mouth were buried between my balls and my leg. He inhaled a long, deep breath, then sighed. My dick, hard as it had ever been, bounced as he nuzzled his face around my crotch, tasting and smelling as he went. The heat of his mouth, of his breath, alternated with the little chills of his inhalations. Finally he raised himself up on one hand and wrapped a fist around the base of my dick. "One of these days we'll take a shower and then run a few miles in the sun," he said. "Work up a nice sweat. Then we'll do this and you'll see what I mean." One of these days, he'd said. Whatever this was, he wanted it to last. He wanted to do it again. I looked up at him, with my arms behind my head and my dick in his hand. "And what do you want to do now?" "Anything," he said. "Everything." I thought about that. He was already there between my legs and he liked the smell of me. It would have been easy to reach up and pull his mouth down onto my dick. But then I thought about all the things I'd imagined us doing in my adolescent fantasies. I thought about the daring positions I'd invented and the sounds I wanted to hear coming out of his mouth. I wanted to see him, to feel him, all of him, pressed against me, under me, moaning my name as he gripped my body with those strong hands. A blow job, as incredible as it would be, seemed too easy. And there was something about the way he asked me what I wanted, something about the way he sat there with a hard dick in front of him and still waited for me to decide. I propped myself up on my elbows. "What would you do if this was the only chance we had?" The room was quiet after the rustling of my sheets died. Beyond my bedroom door I could feel the big emptiness of the house surrounding us, cocooning us into that quiet moment. Uncle Terry licked his lips. His voice was low and deep when he finally spoke. "You ever fuck someone?" I barely found breath to answer. "Yes," I said. "I want you to fuck me." Hearing him say those words, firm, commanding, vulnerable, unlocked all the shackles of caution and timidity I'd wrapped around myself. I sat up and pulled his face to mine with both hands. He fell onto me, climbing onto the bed to chase my lips. As he explored my mouth with his tongue and his stubble scraped against mine, I struggled to kick off my shorts. When I'd managed it, Uncle Terry tugged me forward so he could pull my shirt off over my head. Then he pushed me back down and leaned his forehead against my shoulder so he could shove his own shorts down past his feet. I would have preferred for him to keep his shorts on for a while longer. I would have enjoyed having him partially clothed as he lay on top of me, grinding his nylon covered dick down onto mine, as his chest, still covered in sweat from his time in the sun, slid against me. But when he pushed his shorts away and brought his hips down again, crushing our dicks and our bodies together, the thought flew from my mind. All I could think about was the heat of him, the weight of him. I moaned into his mouth and he grunted, coming up for air. "This is one of the hottest things I've ever done," he said, and he pushed my face aside with his forehead so he could apply his mouth to my neck. I arched against him as he slid his tongue, hard and wet, against my skin. I could feel the muscles of his jaw working and I reached up around to grip his sweaty back and pull him harder against me. I could have climaxed that way, thrusting myself against him as I drowned in the smell of his body. The thought of finishing that way, each of us shuddering as we emptied ourselves onto the slick heat of my stomach, pulled another moan from me. But that wasn't what I wanted. I reached up to wrap my fingers in the hair at the back of his head. I pulled his mouth from my neck. "If you want me to fuck you," I said, "we'll need lube." He covered my mouth with his and let his tongue dance against mine. When he stopped, I could feel him smiling against my lips. "Not a problem," he said, and then climbed off the bed. I watched his dark shape walk passed the door of my bathroom to the closet at the other end of the room. He slid the left door open and reached up to the top shelf above my shirts. I heard him lift the lid off an old shoe box, then he turned and came back to the bed. "Catch," he said, and I put my hands up just in time to catch the small shadow he tossed at me. I held the small bottle up to my face. "What's this?" "Guess," he said, as he straddled me with a knee on each side of my hips. I could feel the slick, oily texture on the outside of the bottle. I didn't need to guess. "What's it doing in here?" Uncle Terry lowered himself onto me so that our dicks lay against each other. "Sometimes I like to relax in here while you're out," he said. I felt my mouth drop open. "You fucking pervert," I said. "You jerk off in here while I'm out?" "Yeah," he said, and reached down to wrap our hard ons together in one of his big fists. I shook the bottle. "This thing's half empty." Uncle Terry began to stroke us together. "Yeah," he said, and I could hear the smile in his voice again. "That's so fucking hot," I said, a little breathless at the idea that we'd been getting off in the same space and I'd never known it. "You have no idea," he said. "We can do it together next time." "I'm going to fuck you first," I said, feeling a little thrill as those dangerous words left my mouth. "We'll get there," Uncle Terry grunted. "I want to taste you first." Backing off me so he could plant his knees between my legs, he lowered his face into my crotch again and took me into his mouth. For a moment my world shrank and I knew nothing but the sensation of his hot, wet mouth wrapped around my shaft. Then, almost before I could fully appreciate it, he bobbed once, twice, then opened his throat and swallowed me down to the root. I threw my head back against my pillow, my mouth open wide and my voice stuck in my throat. As he tongued the underside of my shaft and pressed his nose into the coarse hair above my dick, I was suddenly, intensely grateful we hadn't skipped right to the fucking. He worked me with his mouth for a few long, slow minutes, pausing now and then to inhale the smell of me or to pump my dick with his fist. He finally stopped just as I began to lose myself, writhing underneath him and struggling to push more and more of my dick into his throat. Still holding my dick in his fist, he looked up at me. "How'm I doing so far?" I lay back on the bed and caught my breath, my hips still bucking like they had a mind of their own. "You're a fucking genius," I said. "I didn't over do it?" "The hell are you talking about?" I said, rolling my hips so that his hand slid up and down my shaft. "Are you close? You've still got a job to do." "Yeah," I said. I lay still. "Yeah, I'm good. I wanna do it." "Ok," he said. He sat back on his heels. "Where do you want me? The question caught me off guard. With his tongue and his throat he'd just shown me that he was an expert in ways I'd only ever dreamed of and that authority had melded seamlessly with my memory of the Uncle who had taken charge in the hallway downstairs. I'd expected to keep following orders, but now he just sat there, between my legs, waiting for me to order him into position. I felt a little surge of anxiety that my performance wouldn't meet the standards of his apparent experience, that I wouldn't live up to my own adolescent fantasies, but he was looking at me, waiting, so I thought about the ways I liked to manhandle Tony. "Get on your back," I said. And then, not wanting him to think I knew only one position, I added, "For now." Without a word he rolled onto his side and lay next to me. I crawled over him to kneel between his legs. He looked up at me, waiting again. "Grab your knees," I said. He pulled his knees to his chest, obedient and silent. I looked down for the first time at his powerful ass, spread open in front of me. Even through the shadows of my room I could see the darker patch of his hole, there, right between two pale globes of muscle, and my heart began to race. I reached out and dragged a thumb across the hair that lined his ass and as soon as I felt the sweat-slick warmth of it I wanted to lean forward and sink into him with one long thrust. But I waited. If he could be patient, so could I. I popped the cap off the lube and squirted a little jet onto his hole. He jumped, then grunted. "Sorry," I said. He breathed a laugh. "It's fine. Show me what you got," he said. With one finger I pushed the lube around his hole. When the muscle began to give, I pushed my middle finger in to the first knuckle. I waited for him to react. When he said nothing, I pushed in to the second knuckle. Still nothing. With steady pressure I pushed all the way in until my fist pressed against his ass and finally I was rewarded with a faint grunt. Encouraged, I curled my finger the way Tony liked and pressed the knob behind Uncle Terry's dick. He reacted immediately, like I'd pushed a button, and threw his head back. I watched his Adam's apple jump as his mouth fell open. I fingered the knob again, pushing my fist against his hole as I did, and a small breath escaped him as his head arched further back. "How's that feel," I asked "Fuck me," he said. "Please." The urgency in his voice triggered something within me. I liked the way Tony moaned like a porn star when I climbed on top of him and loved the way my rugby buddy growled a constant stream of obscenities while I slammed my dick into his hole, but what I heard in Uncle Terry's voice hit me in a completely different place. He wasn't performing for me. He wasn't telling me what I wanted to hear. He needed me, needed my dick, and that was all that mattered to him. When I heard those words leave his mouth, something primal in me responded. I pulled my finger from the hot, tight grip of his hole and stroked my dick as I thumbed the lube open again. I poured it generously along the length of my shaft, then applied more to his hole, pushing it into him with my thumb. Satisfied that he was ready, I rolled my hips forward so that the head of my dick pressed against him. "Open up for me," I said. Without a word, Uncle Terry pulled his ass apart with both hands. I leaned against him and his hole swallowed the first inch of my dick. I swore and put both hands against the backs of his thighs to steady myself. I pushed in another inch, pulled out, then pushed in again. I repeated the cycle, taking my time so he could adjust. Half my eight inches were inside him when he spoke. "I'm not gonna break," he said, and I could hear a faint edge of exasperation in his voice. "Fuck me." Hearing that challenge, I brought my knees under me for better leverage. I hesitated, then took a breath and slid all the way in with one thrust. As the hair between my legs ground against his hole, I heard something between a moan and a grunt come from Uncle Terry's throat. I leaned forward so I could look down into his face. I saw the eager, opened mouthed man I'd seen for the first time in my truck. He looked back at me, his eyes heavy, his mouth slack. "You sure you're not gonna break?" I asked "Fuck me," he said, his voice urgent. "Hard." So I did. Letting the back of his knees rest on my shoulders, I leaned into him and began to pound. With each thrust, each slide into the intense heat of his ass, I felt the primal part of me gain more control. I liked the way his whole body shook beneath me as I brought my hips down on him with a slap that filled the room. I liked the way his mouth hung open as he looked up at me, his eyes roaming over my face the way they had in my truck. I liked the noises I forced out of his throat when I varied my rhythm, plunging into him with smooth, regular strokes, then pulling all the way out and hammering back in with enough force to push him across the bed. I spent the rest of our fuck chasing those noises. I felt a thrill of satisfaction, of a job well done, each time a moan or a gasp or a strangled grunt passed his lips. For a while I even kept a hand on his throat so I could feel each moan against my palm. I did my best to keep the end from finding us too soon. I slowed when I needed to and pulled out when I was getting too close. While I was backing away from the edge I fingered him, fucking my fist against his loose asshole until I was ready to fuck again. Sometimes I pushed all the way in then stopped, enjoying the heat of his gyrating ass while I stroked his half hard dick. I don't know how long we were at it, but eventually the orgasm I'd been keeping at bay couldn't be ignored. I pulled out and plunged two fingers into him. As he gasped, I put my other hand on his chest so I could lean down and look him in the face. "I'm close," I said. "Where do you want it." He looked up at be with half-glazed eyes, his body moving back and forth as I pumped my fingers into him. "Inside," he said. "Fuck it into me." "You sure? Think you can handle it?" "Fuck you," he said, breathless. "Give it to me." I reached down between us and began to pump his dick while I stirred my fingers around inside his ass. "No," he gasped, pushing at my hand. "Please. Fuck me." I pulled out of him and sat back. "Turn over," I said. Obediently, he rolled over onto his stomach. "Hold your ass open." Without a word, he reached back with both hands and stretched himself wide. "Stay just like that," I said, and slid back into his wet hole, trapping his hands between us. I lay on top of him, letting my heat and weight crush him into the bed, then I hooked one arm over his shoulder and across his neck so I could hold him tightly against me. I started slowly, moving just an inch or two out of him before grinding back down. He moaned into the sheets and I enjoyed the sound as it rose up through his back and into my chest. I worked him that way as long as I could, letting the heat of our bodies fuse us together, but it wasn't long before I could feel the pressure rising in my balls again. I pushed off him quickly. Propping myself up with a fist next to each of his arms, I began to fuck him with the full weight of my body, pulling almost all the way out before slamming back down. He grunted into the bed each time my dick rammed through his hole and slid across the hard button in his ass, and I looked down at him, enjoying the way he used both hands to keep his ass open while I battered away at him. I could hear his moans rising in pitch. "I'm going to fill you up," I said. He groaned. "You want it?" "Yes," he moaned. "Tell me." "Fuck your load into me. Please. Fill me up." I opened my mouth to respond, but all I managed were a series of gasping grunts. I slammed into him twice more, then stopped, struggling to hold myself up as my dick surged and exploded. Uncle Terry bucked wildly beneath me, his hands now clutching the sheets as he fucked himself back onto me. He shuddered, made a strangled noise, then collapsed. We lay there for a while, him against the sheets, me still deep inside him as I lay against the broad muscles of his back. When I'd caught my breath I rolled off him and lifted an arm to my forehead. I looked over at him where he lay against my arm. He was looking away from me, so I watched his back rise and fall as his breathing returned to normal. The hair on the back of his neck was drenched and he smelled faintly of grass. "How'd I do?" I asked. "Did I break you?" After a moment he rolled away from my arm so he could face me. He looked at me, then down at himself. "I think you did." He gestured at the large wet patch on the bed in front of his softening dick. "Never done that," he said. "Done what?" "Finished without touching myself. You fucked it right out of me." We lay there for a while longer without speaking. I basked in the drowsy afterglow, contentment and pride hovering in my chest. He closed his eyes and drifted away. We must have slept for a while. When the jarring sound of the garage door came vibrating through the walls into my bedroom, waking us both, the light around the edges of my window had shifted. Uncle Terry was out of my bed and pulling his shorts up his muscular legs before the noise had stopped. He was at the door before I could speak. "Wait," I said, propping myself up on my elbow. "What?" I hesitated. That voice again. Uncle, not fuck buddy. What could I say? Then I remembered myself, remembered the control he'd given me, the pleasure I'd given him. I lay back on my bed as he opened the door. "We're doing this again," I said. I watched see his nervous agitation disappear as he looked back at me from the hallway. "Yeah," he said. "Soon." He pulled the door behind him until I could only see his face. "Now get dressed. And hide that bottle somewhere." Then he was gone. I lay back in bed and listened for the sound of the shower turning on in the bathroom down the hall. What I heard instead was the sound of the door closing downstairs, then a male voice. Dad. My heart skipped. What would we have done if he'd found us? Didn't matter. He hadn't. As I lay staring up at the ceiling, sated, content, I realized I felt better than I had all day. I slid across the bed, over the wet patch Uncle Terry had left behind, and pulled on my shirt, then my shorts. It would be a little strange talking to dad and making a sandwich while I had Uncle Terry's scent all over me, but I needed to eat. And I realized I kind of liked the idea. It was like going commando in public. My own little secret parade. I was halfway down the stairs when I heard voices in the kitchen. Dad and Uncle Terry. I stopped, wondering what he was saying to dad while my load was buried in his ass. "Been out for a run?" Dad. "Not since this morning," Uncle Terry said. "What's with the shorts?" "Easy access. Was just spending a little time in Bobby's room. Thought I'd use the lube you left in the closet." My heart stopped. What? "Oh yeah?" Dad's voice sounded amused. "Should have let you know I was on my way." I heard the fridge open. "Where's Bobby? His truck's in the garage, I thought he was home." "Just saw him. He's up in his room." Silence followed Uncle Terry's casual pronouncement. My heart thundered through it. When dad spoke next, his voice was slow, careful. "What do you mean?" "Easier to show you," Uncle Terry said. "Here, give me your hand." The next fifteen seconds happened in a jumbled flash. I heard dad's unbelieving "Jesus Christ!", then a pause, a shuffle of feet, and a heavy weight falling against the kitchen table that sent its legs scraping against the floor. I took the stairs three at a time, ready to fly into the kitchen and pull them apart, but I froze when I saw them. Uncle Terry was bent over at the waist, his chest on the kitchen table. Dad, in a pressed shirt and pants, had a hand on the side of Uncle Terry's face, holding him down. His other hand was down the back of Uncle Terry's shorts. Both were looking away from me toward the living room. "Bobby did this?" I could hear wonder and disbelief in dad's voice as his hand moved around inside Uncle Terry's shorts. "Sure did," Uncle Terry said, his words muffled by the table, dad's hand, or both. "Put you to shame." "Fuck you," dad said. Then: "Seems like he enjoyed himself." "Not as much as I did. Thought maybe I'd stick around after dinner, see if he's up for round two." I didn't hear dad's response. It was drowned out by the sound of the garage door rumbling to life again behind me. Before I could move, both of them had turned toward me, composing themselves and pulling on the faces they'd use to greet mom. Dad's eyes met mine. Only when we heard a car door slam out in the garage did the moment break. "I think we have a lot to talk about," he said. "Go wait for me in your room." He must have seen the questions forming on my face, because his face grew stormy. "Now," he barked. I ran up the stairs. I sat in the dark on the edge of my bed for twenty minutes, waiting for my door to open. When it finally did, Uncle Terry's face appeared framed by light from the hallway. "Your dad wants pizza," he said. "Ok." "Your mom's going to run out and pick it up." "Ok." "I'm going to jump in the shower." Before I could answer my bedroom door swung wide. Dad stood next to Uncle Terry. He pulled his tie loose, then began to unbutton his shirt collar. "Why don't you join us," he said. "I hear you might be able to give me a few pointers." _____ Thanks for reading! If you liked this story I think you'll like the others I have in the pipeline. You can follow me on tumblr at xsbelle.tumblr.com where I post pictures I like and where I'll be making announcements about other fiction projects. Thanks again, and feel free to shoot me an email if you'd like to say hi! (excessbelle@gmail.com) As always, please donate to Nifty if you can. They provide a great platform for writers and they need our help to stay online: donate.nifty.org/donate.html